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注意：我現在要和大家分享的

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是一個我大約十多年來從來不談的故事

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因此，請大家多多包涵

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讓我帶著各位走完這一程

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我22歲的時候

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有一天下了班回家，把狗繫上狗帶

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如往常那樣出去跑步

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我沒有想到那一刻

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會從此改變了我的一生

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我正在準備和我的狗一起跑步

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有個男人喝了酒從酒吧出來

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拿起他的車鑰匙上了車

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然後往南開車

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沒弄清楚他往哪兒

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我當時跑過馬路

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還能記得的是

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覺得好似一顆手榴彈在我頭上炸開

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我記得我的雙手撲地

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感覺到我的生命之血

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從我的脖子

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我的口腔傾盆而出

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發生的是

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他闖紅燈撞到我和我的狗

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我的狗被壓在車下

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我在車前飛了出去

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然後他碾過了我的雙腿

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我的左腿給輪邊纏上了－－

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順著車輪捲了起來

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保險桿打中我的喉嚨

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喉嚨給削開了

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結果是我受到胸部鈍傷

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大動脈跑到心臟後面

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那是主動脈卻割斷了

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血液從我的口腔咕嚕嚕流出

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化成血泡

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還有些可怕的事發生在我身上

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我完全不知道發生了什麼事

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但有些陌生人介入

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讓我的心臟保持運動、跳動，我說運動

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因為它只在微微顫動

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他們嘗試恢復我的心跳

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有個人很聰明，用一支筆管插入我的脖子

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通開呼吸道，讓我還能吸進一點空氣

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我的肺也垮了

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有人幫我切開，放了些別針進去支撐

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以免造成嚴重災難

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不知怎的，我已經躺在醫院裡

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全身被包著冰水

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然後被送進藥物誘導的昏迷狀態

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18個月後我醒來

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眼睛看不見，話也不能說

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我無法走路

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瘦到只剩29公斤

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醫院也真的不知道

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該如何處理我這樣的人

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事實上，他們開始叫我「歌篾」(活死人)了

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那是另外的故事，我們在這裡不談

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我動了無數手術才抖正我的脖子

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心臟也矯治了好幾次

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有些功能正常，有些不正常

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我身上放了不少鈦合金

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還有大體捐贈的骨骼

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好讓我的腿能正確移動

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結果鼻子是塑料，牙齒是搪瓷做的

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還裝了許多其它東西

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不過，我開始像個人樣

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再談這些往事，真是令人難過

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因此，請大家多多包涵

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我動過50多次手術

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但是，誰還去算幾次？

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醫院終於做了決定

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該是要我出院的時候了

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他們得騰出病床給別人

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給無論遭遇了什麼

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他們還認為有救的人

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人人對我的康復都沒了信心

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基本上，他們像是在牆上掛了地圖，擲飛鏢決定

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結果我就進了一家科羅拉多州的老人院

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我知道你們都在搔腦袋：

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「送到老人院？你到哪兒幹嘛？」

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但是，各位想一想

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今天在這房間裡所有的技能和才智

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所有這些技能和才智

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那些那些老人都有

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其中他們勝過各位大多數的一個長處

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因為他們的人生閱歷長

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我那時所需的正是那樣的智慧

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各位可以想像當時

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我出現在他們門前，對他們而言會是怎樣的情況

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那時我胖回了1.8公斤

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那就是將近31公斤

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光頭

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腳穿著人家送的網球鞋

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一手持著白色盲人杖

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另一手提著滿箱的醫療記錄

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因此，所有的老人們都知道

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他們往後退了一下，對望了一會

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接著說「好啦，我們這房子裡有什麼辦法？

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這孩子有好多要弄。」

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他們最後開始

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搭配起他們的才智和技能

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為我提供所需的一切

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可是，他們首先要做的是

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確定我立即需要的是什麼

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我當時得學會

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像正常人那樣進食

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因為我一直是用一根穿過胸部的管子

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通過靜脈進食的

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因此， 我得再重新學習如何進食

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他們帶著我走過那整個過程

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然後他們也發現：

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「啊，她需要家具

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她現在睡的是公寓的角落。」

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他們跑到儲物箱

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把多餘的家具湊在一起－－

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給我水壺、鍋子、毛氈的

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所有東西

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接下來，我需要的是

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添添妝，改改外型

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寒酸的綠色院服扔掉

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穿上化學纖維造的花衣

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（笑聲）

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我還沒說我頭髮長回來時，他們想強迫我

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做的髮型，但是我

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確實反對了把頭髮弄成藍色

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（笑聲）

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事情還沒完，他們還決定

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我得重新學會說話

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如果不能說話、不能看見

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那就無法獨立生活

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他們發現要我讓能看見是一回事

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但他們得先讓我能說話

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所以，辦事處主管莎莉

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白天教我說話－－

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那可真困難，因為

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小時候，樣樣來得自然

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不知覺中就學會了

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但是我當時已是成人，那有多難堪

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我還得學習如何協調

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新的嗓門和舌頭

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新的牙齒和嘴唇

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學習吸進氣來吐出話

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所以我就像兩歲小孩那樣

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拒絕服從

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但那些人有更好的主意

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他們為了讓我得到樂趣

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晚上就教我來「牙言齦語」的拼說遊戲

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（笑聲）

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然後又偷偷

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教我如何像水手那樣罵人

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這裡，我準備讓各位想像一下

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當莎莉終於重建了我的自信後

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我首先說出來的是哪些話語

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我就從那裡繼續前進

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有一位以前當老師的，他罹患了阿茲海默

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擔任教我寫字，這項多餘的學習

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事實上對我幫助不小

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我們繼續向進

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（笑聲）

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其中有一個轉捩點

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就是讓我以一個盲人的身份

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重新學會過馬路

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請閉上眼睛，想像一下

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必須那樣過馬路的情況

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你不知道馬路有多寬

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你也不曉得能否筆直橫過

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你聽到那些車聲颼颼來往

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你還有過恐怖的意外

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讓你落得這步田地

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因此，我有兩個難關必須熬過

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一是嚴重創傷的後遺症

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每次走近街角或是路肩

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我會恐慌

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再是

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真正嘗試要怎麼橫過馬路

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有位老人跑上前來

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她把我推到街角上，說：

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「你覺得可以跨出去的時候，把盲人杖伸出去

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要是被撞啦，不要過馬路。」

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（笑聲）

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說得有道理

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不過，用到第三根盲人杖時

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拐杖颼地飛過了馬路

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這下他們明白了要集中資源

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於是他們集資

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讓我進了布萊葉學院

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在那兒學得了

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盲人的技能

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也還取得了一隻導盲犬

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牠改變了我的生命

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後來我能回到大學上課

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都是由於這些老人對我的投資

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以及那隻導盲犬和我所獲得的那些技能

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10年後，我重見光明

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不是奇蹟

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我同意動了三個手術

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其中一個是實驗性質的

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實際上是機控手術

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他們從我的眼後取出血腫

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對我而言

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變化最大是整個世界往前進

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科技創新

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種種新的事物－－

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手機、筆記型電腦

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這些東西都是我以前沒見過的

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作為盲人的時候

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你的視覺記憶會減退

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會被你對物件的感覺所取代

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物件會發出什麼聲音

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物件有什麼氣味

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有一天，我在房間裡

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我看到這麼一個東西

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我以為是一頭怪物

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我繞著它走

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我想：我要摸摸它是什麼

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我摸了它，恍然大悟

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「天吶，那是個洗衣籃。」

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(笑聲)

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如果你看得見的話

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所有東西都不一樣

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因為你認為理所當然

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但如果你是盲眼的

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你對東西的記憶是觸覺的

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我最大的改變是看著我的雙手

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看到我的生命失去了10年

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我想，出於某種緣故，時間靜止了

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對家人和朋友們而言，時間流逝

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但當我看下去

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我明白了，時間也從我身上流逝

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我必須追趕

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我得抓住它

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我發生意外時，並沒有「群眾幫忙」和

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「徹底協作」這些詞眼

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但概念是真實存在的－－

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人們協力讓我重生

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人們協力讓我重建

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我今天不可能站在這裡

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若非真有最大程度的「徹底協作」存在的話

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非常感謝

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