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(waves crashing)

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(brooding music)

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(muffled shouting)

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- I don't care about this dress!

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You think I care about this dress?

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(muffled shouting)

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- [Zoe Voiceover] Sometimes
someone hurts you so bad.

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- I don't think you understand me, do you?

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I don't think you understand me!

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- [Zoe Voiceover] It stops hurting at all.

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Until something makes you feel again.

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And then it all comes back.

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Every word.

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Every hurt.

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Every moment.

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How could you ever
understand where I come from?

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Even if you ask, even if you listen,

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you do not really hear, or see, or feel.

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You don't remember my story.

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You haven't walked my path.

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You haven't seen what I've seen.

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(waves crashing)

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(somber music)

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My past defines me.

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This is who I am.

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I am

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unseen,

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unheard,

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unwanted.

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That is what I am, if even I am anything.

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(sirens wailing)

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(knocking on door)

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- [Policeman] Police, get on the floor!

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(muffled shouting)

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(brooding music)

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- [Zoe Voiceover] It
seemed like the same thing

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that held me up, forced me down.

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And the world turned upside
down and order disappeared.

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(baby crying)

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Nothing was how it was supposed to be,

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and a heavy sadness filled my soul.

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(insects chirping)

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(thunder rumbling)

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(somber music)

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Deeper and deeper I fell, within myself.

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- [Woman] It's all fluffy and fuzzy.

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- [Zoe Voiceover] And
nothing could trowel me out.

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(baby crying)

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Trapped in the misery of my life.

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Lost in the sorrow of my soul.

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Unable to see the light.

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Unable to see the dawn.

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To feel.

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To hope.

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- What are you doing taking my fruit?

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- [Zoe Voiceover] To dream.

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(Zoe screaming)

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And I found the darkest
days of my life kept coming.

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The blackest nights for
my soul never stopped.

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- No!
- Yes.

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- [Zoe] No!

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(water trickling)

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- [Zoe Voiceover] It seemed
like it was always nighttime,

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and nightmares, and never morning.

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It made me wonder why?

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But mostly, you try not to think about it,

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and try to get by, and try to survive.

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And all the other stuff
seems so much like nothing

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compared to just wanting
the most important

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things back again.

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Like wishing you could see
your mom's smile again,

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and hear her sing that one favorite song

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that always calmed you down
when things were all messed up.

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Or if you couldn't have her back,

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at least get to take care
of your baby brother,

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'cause you know he needs you,

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and he's gonna be so scared all alone.

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And who's gonna hold his hand

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and whisper it'll be all right to him?

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(baby crying)

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And who will whisper it to me?

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- Hiya, Zoe, it's so
good to have you here,

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are you ready to come in?

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- [Zoe Voiceover] I know I am helpless,

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dependent, desperate.

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But what happens when
those you need the most

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threaten your very existence?

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I've heard plenty of promises,
and they all sound the same.

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But push hard enough,
and, sooner or later,

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they all prove to be empty.

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The sun comes up every
morning, but do you know where?

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Each place, it's somewhere different.

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It's hard to find east when
you keep moving around,

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but at least it comes, it always comes.

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I've come to depend on that.

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And, slowly, slowly
seasons changed around me,

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and it seemed this time that, maybe,

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the world would not be pulled
out from under me again.

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Feet safe, roots starting to grow,

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little buds of hope for me.

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Slowly attempting to trust this new life.

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- Hi, come on over, let me
show you what I got for you.

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I got you a gift.

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- I don't care about your dress!

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Do you think I care about this dress?

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I don't think you understand me, do you?

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I don't think you understand me!

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- [Zoe Voiceover] I wish someone

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would tell me it's gonna be okay.

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- I swear to God, you touch
me again, I will kill you!

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- Oh, let me help you with it.

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- No, don't touch me, I don't
care about a stupid dress!

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That one day, maybe, I'll feel normal.

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I hate you, I hate you!

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That I won't always be alone.

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That I'll have a mommy who will
hug me and be strong for me,

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because, maybe, I can't
do it all by myself.

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- Hi, yes, I'm calling to (mumbles).

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Thank you so much.

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Okay, I'll make sure I'm here.

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(somber music)

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(draws opening and closing)

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(plastic bag rustling)

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- [Zoe Voiceover] This,
my past, my history,

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my story, is not my fault.

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It's not because of me,

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and doesn't have to be
what defines my future.

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(somber music)

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I am lovable.

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I am worthy of care.

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And that glimmer of light,
it makes all the difference.

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The glimmers of light give me hope

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that someday my summer will come.

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(desolate music)