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Dialogue: 0,0:02:07.30,0:02:16.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Dear respected Thay, dear brothers and\Nsisters, dear friends, today is the 26th
Dialogue: 0,0:02:16.60,0:02:23.95,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,of November 2017 we are in the\NStillwater meditation hall of the Upper
Dialogue: 0,0:02:23.95,0:02:34.75,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Hamlet, Plum village and we'll\Ncontinue with the theme the seven factors
Dialogue: 0,0:02:34.75,0:02:49.98,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,of awakening, of enlightenment. I'm always\Nreally fascinated by this theme
Dialogue: 0,0:02:49.98,0:03:01.72,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,enlightenment because I I feel that\Nthere's more than what I can hear and
Dialogue: 0,0:03:01.72,0:03:15.16,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,what I can perceive and what I know and\NI remember going through times in my
Dialogue: 0,0:03:15.16,0:03:34.73,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,life when I had this burning desire to\Nknow to understand because I feel
Dialogue: 0,0:03:40.18,0:03:46.11,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,there's a curtain that prevent me from\Nseeing what's actually there
Dialogue: 0,0:03:46.11,0:03:55.15,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and this feeling this desire was so\Nstrong with my mom passed away I really
Dialogue: 0,0:03:55.15,0:04:08.98,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,wanted to know where is she now, which\Ndirection is she going into. And I felt
Dialogue: 0,0:04:08.98,0:04:20.23,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,if I could just you know draw away the\Ncurtain I can't really see and yet it felt
Dialogue: 0,0:04:20.23,0:04:35.71,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,really impossible for me to draw that\Ncurtain so that I can actually see so then
Dialogue: 0,0:04:35.71,0:04:39.03,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I can really understand
Dialogue: 0,0:04:44.89,0:04:56.15,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and in my life as a practitioner I felt\Na lot of time that I am wearing tinted
Dialogue: 0,0:04:56.15,0:05:04.37,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,glasses to look at reality. I\Nhave an idea of reality, I have an idea, a
Dialogue: 0,0:05:04.37,0:05:12.38,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,perception of myself and of other people\Nand I can't really you know like really
Dialogue: 0,0:05:12.38,0:05:21.02,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,put down that glasses so that I can see\Nreality as it is and I can see other
Dialogue: 0,0:05:21.02,0:05:28.37,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,people as who they are and not just\Nideas and perceptions and prejudices
Dialogue: 0,0:05:28.37,0:05:41.06,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that I have so a burning desire in me to\Nreally experience enlightenment. To really
Dialogue: 0,0:05:41.06,0:05:49.75,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,have a taste of it because I know once\NI'm able to experience enlightenment
Dialogue: 0,0:05:51.04,0:06:03.98,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,then I can see what my flesh eye cannot\Nsee, I can understand what my mind cannot
Dialogue: 0,0:06:03.98,0:06:11.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,perceive. And so I always talk about\Nenlightenment.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:11.60,0:06:21.83,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I always touch on it every time I give a\Ntalk. And one time one of the
Dialogue: 0,0:06:21.83,0:06:27.77,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,younger brothers came up to me after my\Ntalk about enlightenment and he said:
Dialogue: 0,0:06:27.77,0:06:35.72,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"Sister you were very brave to talk about\Nenlightenment!" and I knew that wasn't a
Dialogue: 0,0:06:35.72,0:06:37.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,compliment.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:38.45,0:06:47.97,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And I asked "what do you mean?" and he said:\N"the brothers, well some of the
Dialogue: 0,0:06:47.97,0:06:57.09,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,brothers, are very allergic to the word\Nenlightenment". And I thought what's with
Dialogue: 0,0:06:57.09,0:07:06.81,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,you brothers I mean maybe that's why you\Nhave a lot of difficulties maybe because
Dialogue: 0,0:07:06.81,0:07:15.57,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,you don't set high enough goal for your\Nfor your practice and that's when I
Dialogue: 0,0:07:15.57,0:07:22.77,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,realize that maybe people do have\Nnegative idea negative connotation to
Dialogue: 0,0:07:22.77,0:07:37.74,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,the world enlightenment and so the theme\Nof the talks this winter is about
Dialogue: 0,0:07:37.74,0:07:45.48,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,enlightenment how can we experience\Nenlightenment here and now what
Dialogue: 0,0:07:45.48,0:07:52.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,practices can we do to become\Nenlightened
Dialogue: 0,0:07:55.18,0:08:00.58,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and so instead of using the word\Nenlightenment I learned to use the word
Dialogue: 0,0:08:00.58,0:08:08.77,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,awakening I think it makes more sense to\Nme because it's like we've been sleeping
Dialogue: 0,0:08:08.77,0:08:19.65,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,all along for a million years with our\Neyes closed even when we are awake we
Dialogue: 0,0:08:19.65,0:08:28.09,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,live in a dream even when we are awake\Nand then artists under our eyes opened
Dialogue: 0,0:08:28.09,0:08:37.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and seen so it's a beautiful image for\Nme the word of wakening really provokes
Dialogue: 0,0:08:37.30,0:08:49.21,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,them image of waking up to what's there.\NAnd so so let me write down the Seven
Dialogue: 0,0:08:49.21,0:09:01.53,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Factors of Awakening. Last week sr Jina\Nhad already talked about mindfulness
Dialogue: 0,0:09:10.82,0:09:22.98,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So the Seven Factors of Awaking, it\Nstarts with mindfulness.
Dialogue: 0,0:09:22.98,0:09:44.75,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,The second one is investigation\Nof phenomenas, or dharmas.
Dialogue: 0,0:09:50.33,0:09:56.23,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,The third one is diligent or energy.
Dialogue: 0,0:10:10.45,0:10:41.25,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,The fourth is joy, the fifth is tranquility, sixth is\Nconcentration and the seventh equanimity
Dialogue: 0,0:10:48.80,0:10:58.36,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,so today I will talk about investigation\Nso as you have already learned that there
Dialogue: 0,0:10:58.36,0:11:04.24,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,are the 3 important practices, three\Nessential practices, we call them the
Dialogue: 0,0:11:04.24,0:11:12.16,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,three trainings or the three learnings.\NIt's mindfulness concentration and
Dialogue: 0,0:11:12.16,0:11:24.76,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,insight. These are three precious gems in\Nour heart. And mindfulness simply means
Dialogue: 0,0:11:24.76,0:11:30.21,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,to know what's happening here now.
Dialogue: 0,0:11:31.83,0:11:38.43,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Mindfulness is a light inside ourselves
Dialogue: 0,0:11:38.43,0:11:51.76,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that once it's lit up we can see we can see\Nnot just with our eyes but we can see
Dialogue: 0,0:11:51.76,0:12:00.04,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,with our mind what's happening in our\Nbody what's happening did our mind and
Dialogue: 0,0:12:00.04,0:12:08.65,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,also what's happening around us. And like sister Jina said if only you take up this
Dialogue: 0,0:12:08.65,0:12:17.38,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,practice the mindfulness practice as\Nshe has shared last week it's already
Dialogue: 0,0:12:17.38,0:12:23.77,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,enough for you to become enlightened.\NBecause once you are embodied
Dialogue: 0,0:12:23.77,0:12:38.62,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,with mindfulness you you radiate with\Nlight and that you see you can see so
Dialogue: 0,0:12:38.62,0:12:48.88,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,much more and when you are mindful it\Nmeans that you're there you're present
Dialogue: 0,0:12:48.88,0:12:53.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,for whatever it is that you're looking at
Dialogue: 0,0:12:54.33,0:13:01.78,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and when you stay with it long enough\Nyou see see very deeply and that's
Dialogue: 0,0:13:01.78,0:13:08.02,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,mindfulness concentration and insight\Nand that feeling it's coming from a very
Dialogue: 0,0:13:08.02,0:13:17.11,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,deep place inside it's like a gut\Nfeeling experience and once you have
Dialogue: 0,0:13:17.11,0:13:23.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that insight you know this is it it's\Nlike aha
Dialogue: 0,0:13:23.50,0:13:31.81,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,is that a high experience and it helps\Nyou to understand and it liberates you
Dialogue: 0,0:13:31.81,0:13:42.78,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,from whatever it is that you still get\Nstuck in or tell you have not understood
Dialogue: 0,0:13:43.71,0:13:50.05,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,so that's mindfulness concentration and\Ninsight in brief but when you look at
Dialogue: 0,0:13:50.05,0:13:55.26,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,the seven factors of awakening we don't\Nreally see insight
Dialogue: 0,0:13:55.26,0:14:01.38,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,there's concentration there's\Nmindfulness but there's no insight
Dialogue: 0,0:14:07.85,0:14:19.49,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and insight is very important the\Nelement that liberates it's not there
Dialogue: 0,0:14:28.03,0:14:33.99,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I can see in your faces that you have\Nthe answer already
Dialogue: 0,0:14:39.21,0:14:59.77,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that's because investigation of dharma's\Nwhich means to look deeply, to search to be
Dialogue: 0,0:14:59.77,0:15:14.82,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,curious, helps us to understand.\NSo investigation leads to insight.
Dialogue: 0,0:15:14.82,0:15:26.32,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So in investigation, if we practice it then\Nthere's understanding, there's insight.
Dialogue: 0,0:15:26.46,0:15:35.92,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So insight is actually there. But of course\Nif we practice mindfulness you can also
Dialogue: 0,0:15:35.92,0:15:42.31,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,find insight to mindfulness. If you\Npractice concentration you can also find
Dialogue: 0,0:15:42.31,0:15:47.41,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,insight in concentration. Because this\Nthree things. mindfulness concentration and
Dialogue: 0,0:15:47.41,0:15:56.31,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,insight, they go together. Each is giving\Nbirth to the other they are connected.
Dialogue: 0,0:16:02.47,0:16:12.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And so how do we practice investigation?\NHow do we practice looking deeply?
Dialogue: 0,0:16:44.16,0:16:53.22,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,This is a question that came up all the\Ntime in my practice for myself, but also
Dialogue: 0,0:16:53.22,0:16:58.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,questions that came up for my younger\Nbrothers and sisters about how to
Dialogue: 0,0:16:58.30,0:17:05.25,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,practice looking deeply. How to\Npractice the factor of awakening
Dialogue: 0,0:17:05.25,0:17:08.25,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,investigation?
Dialogue: 0,0:17:14.31,0:17:27.95,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Is it speculation? Is it analyzing?
Dialogue: 0,0:17:32.11,0:17:39.93,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Is it thinking over and over and over\Nabout something?
Dialogue: 0,0:17:49.54,0:18:01.05,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,well I'll share this morning how I\Npractice investigation because since
Dialogue: 0,0:18:01.05,0:18:08.53,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,understanding is so important for me\Nthat it's something that I've dwelled on
Dialogue: 0,0:18:08.53,0:18:21.82,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,a lot like I said the biggest suffering\Nfor me is not understand not knowing
Dialogue: 0,0:18:27.30,0:18:35.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,like seeing things\Nthrough this window and not being able
Dialogue: 0,0:18:35.71,0:18:44.04,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,to get out of this window to see the\Nwhole picture because when I look at
Dialogue: 0,0:18:44.05,0:18:49.71,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,this window this reality it's
Dialogue: 0,0:18:58.60,0:19:08.86,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,just a tiny teeny picture of the whole\Npicture a tiny bit like one little
Dialogue: 0,0:19:08.86,0:19:17.74,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,jigsaw, jigsaw piece of a jigsaw puzzle\Nand only if I get out of this room
Dialogue: 0,0:19:17.74,0:19:28.76,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,outside of this window that I can see\Nthe whole picture. So let us look into
Dialogue: 0,0:19:28.76,0:19:34.55,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,the sutras to see what the Buddha say\Nabout Investigation how to practice
Dialogue: 0,0:19:34.55,0:19:47.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,investigation to see whether it's really\Nspeculation and analysis analyzing us as
Dialogue: 0,0:19:47.90,0:19:57.29,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,we learned that you know in school just\Nspeculate things using our intellect to
Dialogue: 0,0:19:57.29,0:20:01.48,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,analyse things using our intellect
Dialogue: 0,0:20:08.46,0:20:17.41,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,so let's begin with the sutra on\Nmindful breathing we all know the
Dialogue: 0,0:20:17.41,0:20:29.05,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,practices of the sutra on mindful\Nbreathing and it always begins whatever
Dialogue: 0,0:20:29.05,0:20:35.46,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,it is that we're looking at whether\Nwe're looking at our body or a feeling
Dialogue: 0,0:20:35.46,0:20:49.21,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,or a mind or our perception which is\Nreally the objects of mind we always
Dialogue: 0,0:20:49.21,0:20:58.51,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,begin with breathing so breathing in I'm\Naware of my breathing my body breathing
Dialogue: 0,0:20:58.51,0:21:09.81,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,out I'm aware of my body we start with\Nbreathing in I'm aware of my breathing
Dialogue: 0,0:21:09.81,0:21:17.26,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,pretty now I'm aware of my breathing and\Nso whether we look into the body or
Dialogue: 0,0:21:17.26,0:21:25.36,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,whether we are looking into our feeling\Nor whether we look into impermanence or
Dialogue: 0,0:21:25.36,0:21:39.73,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,the idea of non-self we always have to\Ndwell on the breath which means we're to
Dialogue: 0,0:21:39.73,0:21:52.46,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,be present which means\Nno thinking you have to stay present for
Dialogue: 0,0:21:52.46,0:21:59.24,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,the breathing with our body with our\Nbreath when we look deeply into
Dialogue: 0,0:21:59.24,0:22:18.35,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,something and it makes so much sense\Nbecause when we look deeply why are not
Dialogue: 0,0:22:18.35,0:22:26.36,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,using a breath while we're not mindful\Nor present what happened is that we can
Dialogue: 0,0:22:26.36,0:22:37.64,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,easily get caught up in our thoughts\Nstories we have you know head ideas you
Dialogue: 0,0:22:37.64,0:22:44.87,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,have about you know whatever it is that\Nwe're looking at and before we know it
Dialogue: 0,0:22:44.87,0:22:56.48,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,we're miles away from where we are from\Nthe present moment and so we can go in
Dialogue: 0,0:22:56.48,0:23:00.05,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,there with the intention good intention\Nof wanting to look deeply into something
Dialogue: 0,0:23:00.05,0:23:05.54,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and the next thing we knew, it's like we're\Nwasting our time thinking about one
Dialogue: 0,0:23:05.54,0:23:15.65,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,thing to the next. Does that happen in\Nyou? It happens to all of us because
Dialogue: 0,0:23:15.65,0:23:21.22,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,we're not really present and so the\Nbreath helps us to stay afloat
Dialogue: 0,0:23:21.22,0:23:32.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,so that we're not submerged in the sea\Nof thinking so that's the first thing
Dialogue: 0,0:23:32.00,0:23:39.16,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that we learn for the future\Nhe said the breath is so instrumental
Dialogue: 0,0:23:39.16,0:23:45.67,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and happiness to be able to look deeply\Ninto something
Dialogue: 0,0:23:56.75,0:24:04.46,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,so let's breathe with the sound of the\NBell and just stay pressing with a
Dialogue: 0,0:24:04.46,0:24:10.85,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,breath we notice it coming in coming out\Nwe notice the beginning of the breath
Dialogue: 0,0:24:10.85,0:24:14.68,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and the end of the breath
Dialogue: 0,0:25:19.20,0:25:26.79,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,so the breathing helps us to be really\Nquiet in our mind so that was consumed
Dialogue: 0,0:25:27.78,0:25:40.27,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and then there's another sutra that I\Nreally like, and I always, it's like my my
Dialogue: 0,0:25:40.27,0:25:45.61,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,daily practice, is the sutra, the\Ndiscourse on the four foundations of
Dialogue: 0,0:25:45.61,0:25:55.74,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,mindfulness which helps me to see one\Nhow to practice looking deeply
Dialogue: 0,0:26:07.08,0:26:19.34,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and again this discourse, this sutra,\Nshows us how to practice
Dialogue: 0,0:26:21.34,0:26:34.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,mindfulness in our body in our feeling\Nin our mind and in the object of mind
Dialogue: 0,0:26:37.30,0:26:51.62,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and what would I really like about this\Nsutra is that so we don't have to do
Dialogue: 0,0:26:51.62,0:27:01.27,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,much we don't have to do anything that\Nwe simply acknowledge what's there
Dialogue: 0,0:27:01.27,0:27:17.32,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,we acknowledge its presence the presence\Nof a feeling or of a mind state such as
Dialogue: 0,0:27:17.32,0:27:30.83,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,anger or love and we acknowledge that\Nit's there and if it's not there which
Dialogue: 0,0:27:30.83,0:27:39.92,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,is acknowledged oh it's not there\Nanymore my mind there is no hate in my
Dialogue: 0,0:27:39.92,0:27:49.03,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,mind there's no love in my mind that's\Nall there there is to it
Dialogue: 0,0:27:49.27,0:28:00.97,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,it's a practice of recognition which is\Nthere and in what some in other world
Dialogue: 0,0:28:00.97,0:28:10.01,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,which is we should be present and be\Naware of so what habits happening in the
Dialogue: 0,0:28:10.01,0:28:17.86,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,body in the mind in the feeling and in\Nwhatever it is that looked me looking at
Dialogue: 0,0:28:17.87,0:28:34.09,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,there's no there's no judgement to it\Nthere's no, you know, association
Dialogue: 0,0:28:34.09,0:28:42.47,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,associating this this mental state with\Nstories that we have or with experiences
Dialogue: 0,0:28:42.47,0:28:57.95,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,we had in the past simply just real\Nrecognition of what's there so what this
Dialogue: 0,0:28:57.95,0:29:07.04,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,day is about looking deeply for me is\Nthat apart from being really present and
Dialogue: 0,0:29:07.04,0:29:17.74,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,mindful of my breath I also need to keep\Nmyself really quiet
Dialogue: 0,0:29:24.21,0:29:31.69,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,no thinking in Zen no mind they call it\Nno mind it's in mine
Dialogue: 0,0:29:31.69,0:29:42.58,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,which means you're thinking stuff in\Nmind and how is that possible
Dialogue: 0,0:29:42.58,0:29:49.09,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,you may think how is it possible that\Nthere's no thinking I mean we think all
Dialogue: 0,0:29:49.09,0:30:00.24,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,the time sometimes we're so drained\Nwithout thinking and we can't stop it
Dialogue: 0,0:30:00.24,0:30:12.46,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,this ceaseless thinking that's when the\Npractice of mindfulness becomes really
Dialogue: 0,0:30:12.46,0:30:19.78,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,helpful to quiet down our mind you know\Nbeing aware of the breath being aware of
Dialogue: 0,0:30:19.78,0:30:24.36,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,the body being aware of our steps and
Dialogue: 0,0:30:24.42,0:30:34.14,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that's why when we practice mindfulness\Nwe are already practicing looking deeply
Dialogue: 0,0:30:37.41,0:30:50.64,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and I'm reading a book by master Linji\Nour patriarch and you know he used this
Dialogue: 0,0:30:50.64,0:30:57.62,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,really radical methods to help us cut\Noff our thinking and to come in touch
Dialogue: 0,0:30:57.62,0:31:08.28,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,with our own Buddha nature and I really\Nenjoyed it because for me looking deeply
Dialogue: 0,0:31:08.28,0:31:13.76,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,it's about cutting off our thinking some\Nspeculation is not about internal
Dialogue: 0,0:31:13.76,0:31:21.06,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,intellectual speculation or analyzing\Nit's not about sitting there and think
Dialogue: 0,0:31:21.06,0:31:29.09,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and think and think even if you're just\Nthinking about yourself or impermanence
Dialogue: 0,0:31:29.30,0:31:44.34,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,because the more you think the more you\Nbecome confused the more we think we are
Dialogue: 0,0:31:44.34,0:31:52.05,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,only coming in touch with our ideas and\Nperceptions and preconceived ideas and
Dialogue: 0,0:31:52.05,0:31:59.09,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,notions and we can't really experience\Nreality as it is we can't really see
Dialogue: 0,0:31:59.09,0:32:03.38,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,beyond this curtain
Dialogue: 0,0:32:10.24,0:32:20.28,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and so this comes to mind the practice\Nof stopping arriving and looking deeply
Dialogue: 0,0:32:20.28,0:32:29.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,stopping and looking deeply these are\Ntwo aspects of meditation we stop
Dialogue: 0,0:32:30.33,0:32:38.46,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,running in our head come back to the\Npresent moment
Dialogue: 0,0:32:38.64,0:32:47.44,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and then receive we look deeply and the\Nmetaphor that I really like is the
Dialogue: 0,0:32:47.44,0:33:01.54,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,metaphor of a pond it's the image of a\Npond a pond on on a windy day or a rainy
Dialogue: 0,0:33:01.54,0:33:09.75,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,day when you look into a pond you see\Nlots of web ripples and waves you see
Dialogue: 0,0:33:09.75,0:33:19.81,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,fragments of what's there you actually\Ndon't see anything but on my still and
Dialogue: 0,0:33:19.81,0:33:29.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,clear day like today he looked into a\Npond and the water is so still and so
Dialogue: 0,0:33:29.50,0:33:36.97,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,calm it reflects the blue sky it\Nreflects the white cloud affects the
Dialogue: 0,0:33:36.97,0:33:44.94,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,tree in the water it's as if they're\Nlike mirror image of one another
Dialogue: 0,0:33:44.94,0:33:54.28,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,imagine the pond and also what's out\Nthere and and it's a metaphor for the
Dialogue: 0,0:33:54.28,0:34:00.07,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,mind because our mind is it's like that\Nwhenever we have a lot of thinking and
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Dialogue: 0,0:34:14.92,0:34:18.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,much thoughts, ceaseless thoughts.
Dialogue: 0,0:34:20.80,0:34:29.63,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But when we are able to come back to\Nour breath come back to our body come
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Dialogue: 0,0:34:44.21,0:34:54.55,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,the way we are why we feel the way we do\Nwhy we think the way we think and that
Dialogue: 0,0:34:54.55,0:35:03.85,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,scene is not coming from a pure it's\Ncoming because our mind is clear
Dialogue: 0,0:35:18.03,0:35:29.55,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and master Linji said you are already a\NBuddha you don't need to look for the
Dialogue: 0,0:35:29.55,0:35:35.04,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Buddha outside of yourself and sometimes\Nthe shouts at you if you come to him
Dialogue: 0,0:35:35.04,0:35:41.55,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,with a lot of ideas and thinking to help\Nyou cut up while you're thinking in you
Dialogue: 0,0:35:41.55,0:35:46.14,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,know come in touch with your own Buddha\Nnature with the baby Buddha inside
Dialogue: 0,0:35:46.14,0:35:55.08,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,yourself so I'd like to talk about mice\Nactually this place that we can look for
Dialogue: 0,0:35:55.08,0:36:07.49,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,the Buddha inside ourselves since we're\Ntalking about you know quiet in our mind
Dialogue: 0,0:36:07.49,0:36:18.87,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,in order to see where's that scene\Ncoming from Weston do you know where
Dialogue: 0,0:36:18.87,0:36:23.66,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,exactly that insight is coming from
Dialogue: 0,0:36:31.63,0:36:39.53,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,so we know about the store consciousness\Nright maybe some of you may not heard a
Dialogue: 0,0:36:39.53,0:36:52.16,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,bit before so I'm just gonna say briefly\Nabout it this is your mind and in the
Dialogue: 0,0:36:52.16,0:36:57.32,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,depths of our being there our\Nconsciousness our mind there's different
Dialogue: 0,0:36:57.32,0:37:08.81,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,layers and our tradition we say about\Neight layers in our mind so the deepest
Dialogue: 0,0:37:08.81,0:37:14.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,of these eight layers is called the\Nstore consciousness
Dialogue: 0,0:37:19.81,0:37:31.21,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,in the store consciousness it stores all\Nkinds of seeds and heats a real
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Dialogue: 0,0:37:54.82,0:38:02.91,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,word we have the seed of a Buddha inside\Nourselves the seed of insight in us also
Dialogue: 0,0:38:02.91,0:38:07.59,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,but we also have the seed of ignorance
Dialogue: 0,0:38:08.37,0:38:22.14,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,which is the seed of not seeing not\Nknowing not understanding
Dialogue: 0,0:38:28.96,0:38:32.21,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and then we always have a see just\Ntomorrow
Dialogue: 0,0:38:32.21,0:38:52.88,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,inside ourselves Mara is there in in us\Ntoo in other word everything that we're
Dialogue: 0,0:38:52.88,0:38:58.61,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,looking for everything we have ever\Nexperienced can be found right inside
Dialogue: 0,0:38:58.61,0:39:08.66,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,ourselves in the depths of our being in\Nthe store consciousness it preserves all
Dialogue: 0,0:39:08.66,0:39:19.07,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,kinds of seeds it maintains all the\Nseeds in here and then there are the six
Dialogue: 0,0:39:19.07,0:39:29.96,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,some there the six organs sense organs\Nthere's we have the six sense organs the
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Dialogue: 0,0:39:34.37,0:39:41.86,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,These are the six organs, and when these\Nsix organs come in touch with its object
Dialogue: 0,0:39:42.22,0:39:50.95,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,which is sight sound taste touch
Dialogue: 0,0:39:56.73,0:40:10.03,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,smell or objects of mind these two\Nthings come together it gives rise to an
Dialogue: 0,0:40:10.03,0:40:18.04,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,awareness to a consciousness so there's\Nthe eye consciousness the
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Dialogue: 0,0:40:26.11,0:40:30.33,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,consciousness and then the mind\Nconsciousness
Dialogue: 0,0:41:22.20,0:41:29.46,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and so whatever it is that we come in in\Ntouch with through our senses actually
Dialogue: 0,0:41:29.46,0:41:38.93,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,it's a trigger that taps into the seeds\Nin the depths of us store consciousness
Dialogue: 0,0:41:39.32,0:41:49.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,it's a stimulus the trigger sit inside\Nand the seed manifest as a mental
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Dialogue: 0,0:41:55.41,0:42:10.76,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,mind we can actually sense it view it\Ntouch it and so
Dialogue: 0,0:42:16.00,0:42:23.15,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,whatever seeds that have been watered in\Nus becomes a significant it becomes
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Dialogue: 0,0:42:58.46,0:43:03.68,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,taps into our seeds and then you know\Nlike this mental formation manifest it's
Dialogue: 0,0:43:03.68,0:43:11.99,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,not like that I mean that's an image to\Nhelp us to understand how store
Dialogue: 0,0:43:11.99,0:43:19.34,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,consciousness really works but the store\Nconsciousness it's the subject of
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Dialogue: 0,0:43:33.77,0:43:46.21,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,what we see are manifesting together so\Nthe subject and the object of cognition
Dialogue: 0,0:43:46.21,0:43:55.91,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,manifests at the same time it is not\Nsomething we're taking they are already
Dialogue: 0,0:43:55.91,0:44:04.91,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,there in a form of seeds and so when\Nthey manifest the manifests as the
Dialogue: 0,0:44:04.91,0:44:08.98,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,subject and as the object
Dialogue: 0,0:44:12.16,0:44:15.16,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and
Dialogue: 0,0:44:22.19,0:44:33.26,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and this helps me it helps me to see\Nthat I don't really need to go out there
Dialogue: 0,0:44:33.26,0:44:39.26,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and look at things that it investigate\Non things out there all I need to do is
Dialogue: 0,0:44:39.26,0:44:49.09,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,go back to here in order to investigate\Nwhat's inside of me because what is
Dialogue: 0,0:44:49.09,0:45:03.26,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,manifesting in me because what's\Nmanifesting in me as actually what's
Dialogue: 0,0:45:03.26,0:45:07.88,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,manifesting out there is actually a\Nprojection of what's manifesting in me
Dialogue: 0,0:45:07.88,0:45:20.35,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,exactly and so for me the object of my\Ninvestigation is here it's here and
Dialogue: 0,0:45:20.35,0:45:26.03,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that's why when you come to plum village\Nlike all our practices it's encouraging
Dialogue: 0,0:45:26.03,0:45:35.18,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,you to come back to yourself\Nthe bells happiness to come back and mr.
Dialogue: 0,0:45:35.18,0:45:39.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Ling Zhi keeps saying come back and\Nrecognize that the Buddha is inside you
Dialogue: 0,0:45:39.20,0:45:44.78,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,don't need to look for the Buddha\Noutside of you and so it becomes really
Dialogue: 0,0:45:44.78,0:45:53.09,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,clear for me that the object of my\Ninvestigation is myself and it makes so
Dialogue: 0,0:45:53.09,0:46:04.28,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,much sense because when I understand\Nmyself then I can understand other
Dialogue: 0,0:46:04.28,0:46:06.91,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,people
Dialogue: 0,0:46:10.74,0:46:21.88,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,when I understand my impermanence the\Nimpermanence of my body and mind then I
Dialogue: 0,0:46:21.88,0:46:30.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,can understand the impermanence of\Neverything there is and what I really
Dialogue: 0,0:46:30.40,0:46:36.13,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,like about this is that I don't really\Nhave to you know look for I don't have
Dialogue: 0,0:46:36.13,0:46:42.03,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,to go out there and to practice that I\Nhave everything I need to practice
Dialogue: 0,0:46:42.03,0:46:46.41,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,mindfulness to practice looking deeply
Dialogue: 0,0:46:49.65,0:47:02.49,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,so go back because you have everything\Nyou need to help you to understand
Dialogue: 0,0:47:02.49,0:47:05.49,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,reality
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Dialogue: 0,0:47:31.22,0:47:38.39,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and suffering the experience in our life\Nsuffering difficulties the challenges we
Dialogue: 0,0:47:38.39,0:47:51.05,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,go through they actually really really\Nuseful there was to stop and look and in
Dialogue: 0,0:47:51.05,0:47:58.66,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,my life has in my practice I noticed\Nthat I went through times when I am
Dialogue: 0,0:47:58.66,0:48:07.43,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,quite slacking I may be you know\Nappearing you know in the sunglass
Dialogue: 0,0:48:07.43,0:48:13.94,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,activity but I'm actually really\Nslacking in a silent because things are
Dialogue: 0,0:48:13.94,0:48:24.05,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,so easy to know I feel peaceful if\Nyou're calm and I take it for granted it
Dialogue: 0,0:48:24.05,0:48:33.14,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,is only the challenges the suffering\Nthat I experience that really pushes me
Dialogue: 0,0:48:33.14,0:48:40.64,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,to like look look a bit deeper and so\Nactually it's it's good news to have
Dialogue: 0,0:48:40.64,0:48:47.81,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,suffering and when you look at it in\Nthat way suffering is narrative and it's
Dialogue: 0,0:48:47.81,0:48:53.03,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,actually really good they're\Nopportunities we always see suffering
Dialogue: 0,0:48:53.03,0:48:57.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,when we experience suffering that we see\Nyourself as being a victim and that
Dialogue: 0,0:48:57.80,0:49:03.58,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,really weakens us but when we see that\Nsuffering and difficulties are
Dialogue: 0,0:49:03.58,0:49:13.04,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,opportunities to have a scope a bit\Ndeeper in ourselves to understand then
Dialogue: 0,0:49:13.04,0:49:20.69,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,they're like really really valuable\Nopportunities that's why suffering is
Dialogue: 0,0:49:20.69,0:49:27.32,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,it's a no achieve right it's noble\Nbecause it helps us to come in touch
Dialogue: 0,0:49:27.32,0:49:31.81,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,with reality with who we really are
Dialogue: 0,0:49:32.62,0:49:37.01,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and we're more than just these\Ndifficulties with the Buddha we're not
Dialogue: 0,0:49:37.01,0:49:41.78,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,just Mara\Nwe're the Buddha too and so these
Dialogue: 0,0:49:41.78,0:49:45.83,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,opportunities the suffering helps us to\Ncome in touch with the Buddha inside
Dialogue: 0,0:49:45.83,0:49:50.92,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,ourselves and bring in her a life
Dialogue: 0,0:49:59.82,0:50:04.87,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and I'll share with you about how I\Nprepared the Dharma talk because I
Dialogue: 0,0:50:04.87,0:50:10.21,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,always a problem preparing for Dhamma\Ntalk I really don't know how to prepare
Dialogue: 0,0:50:10.21,0:50:15.25,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,a Dharma talk I noticed my sister's\Ncoming up with like a lot of paper and
Dialogue: 0,0:50:15.25,0:50:19.42,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,stuff like that and I'm like wow that's\Ngreat
Dialogue: 0,0:50:19.42,0:50:27.67,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I wish I could do that and I try to\Nthink nothing comes to mind that's my
Dialogue: 0,0:50:27.67,0:50:34.24,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,problem and so what I did this time was\Nthat I know this is a really important
Dialogue: 0,0:50:34.24,0:50:42.72,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,topic but you know because you know it's\Nit's enlightenment
Dialogue: 0,0:50:44.86,0:50:52.79,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and so I asked my older sister\Ncan you please pretty please give me
Dialogue: 0,0:50:52.79,0:51:00.23,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,some questions what is it that you want\Nme to talk about what do you want in you
Dialogue: 0,0:51:00.23,0:51:03.77,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,what do you want to know about the\Ninvestigation
Dialogue: 0,0:51:03.77,0:51:08.62,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,give me some questions and then I also\Ntold my mentee to give me some questions
Dialogue: 0,0:51:08.62,0:51:15.49,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and I told them a week before and so\Nthey gave me all these questions and
Dialogue: 0,0:51:15.49,0:51:22.58,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,when I dealt with this question with\Nthem I didn't trust this question in my
Dialogue: 0,0:51:22.58,0:51:29.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,store consciousness I said okay take\Nover I'm not gonna think because I
Dialogue: 0,0:51:29.90,0:51:41.38,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,cannot think and so that's I did and\Nthen I kept really quiet to know in my
Dialogue: 0,0:51:41.38,0:51:50.45,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,daily activity I do my best to be\Nmindful and to be really conscious of
Dialogue: 0,0:51:50.45,0:52:02.39,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,what's unfolding inside and then but you\Nknow like this idea comes up even when I
Dialogue: 0,0:52:02.39,0:52:11.18,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,least expected like what I should say\Nand how I said what not how I should say
Dialogue: 0,0:52:11.18,0:52:18.35,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,it because I never know how I should say\Nit whatever comes comes it's coming in
Dialogue: 0,0:52:18.35,0:52:28.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,touch with everyone that trigger\Nwhatever it is that it come out and
Dialogue: 0,0:52:34.11,0:52:40.27,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and I and this is what I do in my daily\Nlife is that I have to trust my store
Dialogue: 0,0:52:40.27,0:52:49.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,consciousness and when we are keeping\Nour self really quiet really mindful to
Dialogue: 0,0:52:49.30,0:53:02.22,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,reflect on what's there this is exactly\Nwhat we're doing we're and Trust in the
Dialogue: 0,0:53:02.22,0:53:09.87,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,store consciousness with these issues\Nfor it to work for us and it's actually
Dialogue: 0,0:53:09.87,0:53:15.46,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,less costly because that's the nature of\Nstore consciousness is that it works
Dialogue: 0,0:53:15.46,0:53:20.74,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,night and day even when we are asleep\Nmaybe when I am asleep you know like
Dialogue: 0,0:53:20.74,0:53:25.72,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,these questions it's working in the\Ndepths of my store consciousness to
Dialogue: 0,0:53:25.72,0:53:29.31,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,prepare the Dharma talk for me
Dialogue: 0,0:53:43.52,0:53:48.01,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,it's very costly when we have to think
Dialogue: 0,0:53:49.84,0:54:00.65,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,because our brain with only 2% of the\Nwhole total total body mass and it
Dialogue: 0,0:54:00.65,0:54:10.46,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,consumes 25% of the energy of our whole\Nbody but if we are like having this
Dialogue: 0,0:54:10.46,0:54:22.34,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,episode of like ceaseless thinking that\Nwill stop even when we are completely
Dialogue: 0,0:54:22.34,0:54:26.63,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,exhausted even when we have like a\Nterrible headache and we couldn't stop
Dialogue: 0,0:54:26.63,0:54:37.16,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,thinking anybody if experienced that\Nbefore a few of you well that happened
Dialogue: 0,0:54:37.16,0:54:47.84,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,to me so I know I've been there and so\Nit drains you and yet you're still in
Dialogue: 0,0:54:47.84,0:54:57.65,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,the dark because the more you think the\Nmore in the dark you are but if you
Dialogue: 0,0:54:57.65,0:55:05.21,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,entrust these issues to your store\Nconsciousness like I have interested
Dialogue: 0,0:55:05.21,0:55:14.96,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,these questions in their store\Nconsciousness store consciousness what
Dialogue: 0,0:55:14.96,0:55:23.74,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,would we do its work and they will\Nprovide us with the answer
Dialogue: 0,0:55:26.74,0:55:38.81,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and that answer is inside so inside this\Nnow coming from our head inside is
Dialogue: 0,0:55:38.81,0:55:51.92,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,coming for the depths of our being so\Ntrusting in my store consciousness helps
Dialogue: 0,0:55:51.92,0:55:58.06,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,me not to be so tired and also dreamed
Dialogue: 0,0:55:58.12,0:56:04.24,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,so the practice is not about getting\Nmore the practice is about cleaner in
Dialogue: 0,0:56:04.24,0:56:11.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,clearing away because we already have\Nwoven whatever it is that we're looking
Dialogue: 0,0:56:11.60,0:56:14.96,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,for we already have inside inside\Nourselves
Dialogue: 0,0:56:14.96,0:56:22.66,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,it's about clearing away these ideas and\Nthoughts and perceptions and thinking
Dialogue: 0,0:56:22.66,0:56:34.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that means that this but the space is in\Nroom this inside - and for
Dialogue: 0,0:56:43.79,0:57:02.07,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,so one in the inevitable question that\Ncame from my sisters is how do they give
Dialogue: 0,0:57:02.07,0:57:19.52,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,an example or how do I practice looking\Ndeeply to walk through my suffering
Dialogue: 0,0:57:43.41,0:57:51.12,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,you know I've been up here many times\Nbefore in the last day was in more than
Dialogue: 0,0:57:51.12,0:57:59.43,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,two years you know that before that time\Nis always appear and we have the
Dialogue: 0,0:57:59.43,0:58:05.99,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,pleasure to sit in down there and listen\Nyou know being up here it's kind of I
Dialogue: 0,0:58:05.99,0:58:16.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,feel like it's I feel transparent up\Nhere because it's beyond me what
Dialogue: 0,0:58:16.50,0:58:28.05,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,actually comes out and sometimes my\Nsister said it's a good talk or sometime
Dialogue: 0,0:58:28.05,0:58:30.75,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,it's not a very good talk and I said I'm\Nsorry
Dialogue: 0,0:58:30.75,0:58:37.02,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,whatever comes out you just have to\Naccept because I can't do anything about
Dialogue: 0,0:58:37.02,0:58:48.66,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,it it's my store consciousness I blame\Nit on my store consciousness and but
Dialogue: 0,0:58:48.66,0:58:57.26,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,this time I have to admit I'm a bit\Nnervous to come up here
Dialogue: 0,0:59:04.85,0:59:21.17,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,how to breathe with that feeling and I\Nheard this voice underneath that feeling
Dialogue: 0,0:59:21.17,0:59:36.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,of nervousness the voice that I'm not\Ngood enough it's a voice familiar I'm
Dialogue: 0,0:59:36.20,0:59:53.26,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,not good enough and this voice it's\Nreally a very oh oh friend of mine
Dialogue: 0,0:59:58.73,1:00:08.63,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,a voice that was there when I was a\Nchild and especially when I was a
Dialogue: 0,1:00:08.63,1:00:17.84,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,teenager and I had to work a lot with\Nthat voice that I'm not good enough I'm
Dialogue: 0,1:00:17.84,1:00:22.94,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,not good enough\Nevery day - no I'm not intelligent
Dialogue: 0,1:00:22.94,1:00:28.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,enough I'm not beautiful enough I'm not\Nenough of this and I'm not enough of
Dialogue: 0,1:00:28.70,1:00:35.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that\Nand I had to work a lot with with that
Dialogue: 0,1:00:35.60,1:00:47.26,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,when I begun when I began my my my life\Nmy practice and what I realized was then
Dialogue: 0,1:00:47.26,1:00:58.88,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that voice was actually connected to I\Ndon't know if it's connected but it has
Dialogue: 0,1:00:58.88,1:01:09.11,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,to do with my dad I never talked about\Nmy dad in the community I talked a lot
Dialogue: 0,1:01:09.11,1:01:13.21,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,about my mom but never about my dad
Dialogue: 0,1:01:26.10,1:01:34.02,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that's because I don't know what it's\Nlike to have a dad that's because my dad
Dialogue: 0,1:01:34.02,1:01:45.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,passed away we know it's one and a half\Nyears old and I grew up filthy feeling
Dialogue: 0,1:01:45.60,1:01:55.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,there's something wrong with me that I'm\Nnot complete but I'm not good enough
Dialogue: 0,1:01:55.70,1:02:12.21,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,not good enough and that as a teenager\Nas a child I felt like there's a hole
Dialogue: 0,1:02:12.21,1:02:22.02,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,inside here even though my mom was a\Nvery loving caring she was never
Dialogue: 0,1:02:22.02,1:02:27.54,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,remarried so that she cannot she can\Nreally put all her energy and her love
Dialogue: 0,1:02:27.54,1:02:40.28,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,for for us and now it's the internal\Nprocess that was happening inside
Dialogue: 0,1:02:47.21,1:02:57.81,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,excessive there's a missing piece of the\Njigsaw puzzle inside me and it created a
Dialogue: 0,1:02:57.81,1:03:05.46,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,lot of suffering for me and in my my\Npractice whenever I experienced
Dialogue: 0,1:03:05.46,1:03:13.43,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,suffering it's always coming back to\Nthat suffering as a child as a teenager
Dialogue: 0,1:03:13.43,1:03:24.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and that voice have always been there\Nand I have to walk along with it
Dialogue: 0,1:03:29.76,1:03:39.63,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and so and so when I knew this is where\Nit was coming from I had promised to
Dialogue: 0,1:03:39.63,1:03:52.65,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,accept myself as sure I was and I\Npracticed to see my father in myself to
Dialogue: 0,1:03:52.65,1:04:06.69,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,see my dad in myself and I started to\Nnotice things in my siblings that are
Dialogue: 0,1:04:06.69,1:04:14.85,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,also email he may not be very strong in\Nmy mom I know that's my dad so with the
Dialogue: 0,1:04:14.85,1:04:23.96,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,practice I was able to fill up that hole\Nin the practice of understanding myself
Dialogue: 0,1:04:23.96,1:04:35.25,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,the practice of accepting and loving\Nmyself as Who I am but then once in a
Dialogue: 0,1:04:35.25,1:04:45.78,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,blue it comes up again you know his\Nvoice it comes up again but the practice
Dialogue: 0,1:04:45.78,1:04:52.83,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,of looking deeply had helped me now to\Nrecognize it immediately once it comes
Dialogue: 0,1:04:52.83,1:05:03.86,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,up so that it doesn't have the charge\Nand the power to overwhelm me as it had
Dialogue: 0,1:05:03.86,1:05:07.91,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,you know as a teenager
Dialogue: 0,1:05:17.70,1:05:27.78,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and so whatever it is that we have to\Nwork with whatever voice it is that's
Dialogue: 0,1:05:27.78,1:05:42.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,keep telling us about ourselves it's\Nactually a wrong perception of myself if
Dialogue: 0,1:05:42.00,1:05:51.69,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,we look deeper into ourselves we see\Nthat we're more than just this voice and
Dialogue: 0,1:05:51.69,1:05:57.78,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that actually helped to fill up that\Nhole in our soul it makes us feel
Dialogue: 0,1:05:57.78,1:06:05.19,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,complete so whatever it is that you're\Nexperiencing to be the object of your
Dialogue: 0,1:06:05.19,1:06:10.07,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,investigation and that's why we need to\Nstart
Dialogue: 0,1:06:16.42,1:06:27.13,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and so investigation really as a factor\Nself listening to ourselves listening to
Dialogue: 0,1:06:27.13,1:06:38.94,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,this voice inside and I realized that we\Ndon't do this very often when we are
Dialogue: 0,1:06:38.94,1:06:48.49,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,when we have like a quiet time quite\Nplace with ourselves we see that there's
Dialogue: 0,1:06:48.49,1:06:58.27,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,so much thoughts thinking and ideas but\Nif we can just listen to those thoughts
Dialogue: 0,1:06:58.27,1:07:03.52,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and ideas you know like it's very soft\Nvoice inside it's like there's just like
Dialogue: 0,1:07:03.52,1:07:11.98,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,a chattering box in the back of our head\Nyou can actually understand ourselves a
Dialogue: 0,1:07:11.98,1:07:23.14,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,lot and a lot and a lot and it could be\Nreally healing to be able to understand
Dialogue: 0,1:07:23.14,1:07:30.88,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,to be able to listen to love ways it\Nhelps us to understand ourselves and why
Dialogue: 0,1:07:30.88,1:07:36.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,we are the way we are why is the further\Nway we do what we when we get triggered
Dialogue: 0,1:07:36.30,1:07:48.33,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,the way we do so awakening or\Nenlightenment it's not something
Dialogue: 0,1:07:48.33,1:07:58.27,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,something beyond us and they're not just\Nideas either you know whatever ideas
Dialogue: 0,1:07:58.27,1:08:04.47,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that that brother had about\Nenlightenment it's not about that either
Dialogue: 0,1:08:04.50,1:08:14.92,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,it's about our daily experience of\Nliving mindfully and of being still
Dialogue: 0,1:08:14.92,1:08:24.39,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,enough inside ourselves that we could\Nsee deeply into ourselves
Dialogue: 0,1:08:24.39,1:08:33.78,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and we're coming a bit closer\Nto the reality of who really are that we
Dialogue: 0,1:08:33.78,1:08:43.28,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,can come a bit closer to the reality of\Nwho that person really is and what it is
Dialogue: 0,1:08:43.28,1:08:53.34,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that were looking at so enlightenment is\Npossible and it's simple to do it simple
Dialogue: 0,1:08:53.34,1:09:05.15,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,to experiencing and it starts at is\Nbreath mindful breath mindful steps
Dialogue: 0,1:09:05.24,1:09:11.28,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,there's this you know some people say\Nthat Thai only teaches breathing in and
Dialogue: 0,1:09:11.28,1:09:18.18,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,breathing out\Nbut if you can really practice breathing
Dialogue: 0,1:09:18.18,1:09:26.91,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,in breathing out deeply you can\Nexperience enlightenment awakening right
Dialogue: 0,1:09:26.91,1:09:40.74,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,here right now so thank you for, thank\Nyou for embarking on this journey with
Dialogue: 0,1:09:40.74,1:09:49.56,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,all us here in Plum Village, a journey to\Nwake up, to become enlightened and that
Dialogue: 0,1:09:49.56,1:10:00.26,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,with every step you make and every breath\Nwe take we experience enlightenment
Dialogue: 0,1:10:00.26,1:10:03.83,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,thank you for listening