1 00:00:00,650 --> 00:00:03,659 Tonight, a remarkable man wants to talk 2 00:00:03,659 --> 00:00:06,930 to you about your life. We cannot change 3 00:00:06,930 --> 00:00:09,030 the cards we are dealt, just how we play the hand. 4 00:00:09,030 --> 00:00:11,730 A college professor with a message so 5 00:00:11,730 --> 00:00:13,950 challenging and nourishing, 10 million 6 00:00:13,950 --> 00:00:15,750 people have made the pilgrimage to hear 7 00:00:15,750 --> 00:00:17,970 what he has to say. The critics are your 8 00:00:17,970 --> 00:00:19,560 ones telling you they still love you and care. 9 00:00:19,560 --> 00:00:22,289 All across the nation, people are 10 00:00:22,289 --> 00:00:24,240 saying Randy Pausch taught them to make 11 00:00:24,240 --> 00:00:27,150 braver choices. I realized what an idiot 12 00:00:27,150 --> 00:00:30,410 I was. Change that job, take that trip, 13 00:00:30,410 --> 00:00:33,540 achieve childhood dreams, no matter the 14 00:00:33,540 --> 00:00:35,000 obstacle. 15 00:00:35,000 --> 00:00:37,890 Randy's video inspired me. 16 00:00:37,890 --> 00:00:40,980 He reached me, in Kent, Ohio. So, who is the man 17 00:00:40,980 --> 00:00:43,079 giving what his University called "The 18 00:00:43,079 --> 00:00:47,730 Last Lecture?" The title has a twist. 47 19 00:00:47,730 --> 00:00:50,309 year-old Randy Pausch has fatal cancer, 20 00:00:50,309 --> 00:00:53,280 and it has spread. The doctors told me 3 21 00:00:53,280 --> 00:00:55,530 to 6 months of good health left, that was 22 00:00:55,530 --> 00:00:57,539 a month ago, so you can do the math. A 23 00:00:57,539 --> 00:01:00,660 grim calculation, except this man does 24 00:01:00,660 --> 00:01:02,390 not do grim. 25 00:01:02,390 --> 00:01:05,000 I'm still trying to do one pushup in 26 00:01:05,000 --> 00:01:08,450 honor of your lecture. I don't know how 27 00:01:08,450 --> 00:01:11,960 to not have fun, right? I'm dying and I'm 28 00:01:11,960 --> 00:01:13,610 having fun. Tonight, 29 00:01:13,610 --> 00:01:15,200 one of the most extraordinary people 30 00:01:15,200 --> 00:01:17,600 we have ever met challenges you to see 31 00:01:17,600 --> 00:01:20,330 your life in a new way. You say there is no 32 00:01:20,330 --> 00:01:22,909 evidence and you can't see, but can you 33 00:01:22,909 --> 00:01:26,960 see love, can you see hope? A father, a husband, a 34 00:01:26,960 --> 00:01:32,020 teacher, ready to take you on the journey of your life. 35 00:01:35,330 --> 00:01:39,590 Here now, Diane Sawyer. Good evening, and 36 00:01:39,590 --> 00:01:41,300 welcome to what we think is a truly 37 00:01:41,300 --> 00:01:44,150 special prime time. There is a famous 38 00:01:44,150 --> 00:01:46,000 story in the household of Randy Pausch, 39 00:01:46,000 --> 00:01:49,070 PhD, that his mother jokingly once said, 40 00:01:49,070 --> 00:01:51,050 "My son's a doctor, just not the kind who 41 00:01:51,050 --> 00:01:53,810 helps people." We suspect you'll have a 42 00:01:53,810 --> 00:01:55,640 different view after you spend time with 43 00:01:55,640 --> 00:01:58,340 him tonight. This man, who was told he had 44 00:01:58,340 --> 00:01:59,660 six months to live and has turned 45 00:01:59,660 --> 00:02:01,730 everyday since into a kind of 46 00:02:01,730 --> 00:02:04,910 celebration. He has written a book called 47 00:02:04,910 --> 00:02:07,250 "The Last Lecture," and that's how we first 48 00:02:07,250 --> 00:02:09,560 heard of him. A lecture that found its 49 00:02:09,560 --> 00:02:11,330 way onto the internet entirely by 50 00:02:11,330 --> 00:02:13,550 accident. It was posted for a handful of 51 00:02:13,550 --> 00:02:15,170 people who couldn't be there the day he 52 00:02:15,170 --> 00:02:18,590 spoke. What happened next was a wonder 53 00:02:18,590 --> 00:02:21,460 all its own. 54 00:02:24,390 --> 00:02:26,710 Who would have believed that out there 55 00:02:26,710 --> 00:02:28,630 in the vast clamor of the internet, 56 00:02:28,630 --> 00:02:32,290 those endless videos, all that noise, one 57 00:02:32,290 --> 00:02:34,690 earnest looking professor standing at a 58 00:02:34,690 --> 00:02:37,420 podium could make 10 million people so 59 00:02:37,420 --> 00:02:40,180 far stop and listen? Wait long enough and 60 00:02:40,180 --> 00:02:42,130 people will surprise and impress you. 61 00:02:42,130 --> 00:02:44,440 The last lecture, an annual tradition at 62 00:02:44,440 --> 00:02:45,850 Carnegie Mellon University in Pittsburgh, 63 00:02:45,850 --> 00:02:48,730 a speech on personal philosophy by a 64 00:02:48,730 --> 00:02:51,510 beloved professor like Randy Pausch, 65 00:02:51,510 --> 00:02:53,860 famous for making his students believe 66 00:02:53,860 --> 00:02:56,050 in themselves no matter the obstacles in 67 00:02:56,050 --> 00:02:58,720 their way. The brick walls are there for 68 00:02:58,720 --> 00:02:59,230 a reason, alright? 69 00:02:59,230 --> 00:03:01,060 The brick walls are not there 70 00:03:01,060 --> 00:03:02,920 to keep us out. The brick walls are there 71 00:03:02,920 --> 00:03:06,430 to give us a chance to show how badly we 72 00:03:06,430 --> 00:03:08,140 want something, because the brick walls 73 00:03:08,140 --> 00:03:09,910 are there to stop the people who don't 74 00:03:09,910 --> 00:03:11,830 want it badly enough. They're there to 75 00:03:11,830 --> 00:03:16,150 stop the other people. So, your goals are 76 00:03:16,150 --> 00:03:18,340 possible if you get tough with yourself 77 00:03:18,340 --> 00:03:20,980 and face difficult truths. Professor 78 00:03:20,980 --> 00:03:22,810 Pausch was a scrawny kid in junior league 79 00:03:22,810 --> 00:03:24,550 football under a tough coach named Jim 80 00:03:24,550 --> 00:03:26,410 Graham. There was one practice where he 81 00:03:26,410 --> 00:03:28,239 just rode me all practice, just, "you're 82 00:03:28,239 --> 00:03:29,500 doing this wrong, you're doing this wrong, 83 00:03:29,500 --> 00:03:30,790 go back and do it again, you owe me, 84 00:03:30,790 --> 00:03:32,200 you're doing push-ups after practice." And, 85 00:03:32,200 --> 00:03:33,970 when it was all over, one of the other 86 00:03:33,970 --> 00:03:35,170 assistant coaches came over and said, 87 00:03:35,170 --> 00:03:37,300 "Yeah Coach Graham rode you pretty hard 88 00:03:37,300 --> 00:03:39,489 didn't he?" I said, "Yeah." He said, "That's a 89 00:03:39,489 --> 00:03:42,519 good thing." He said, "When you're screwing up 90 00:03:42,519 --> 00:03:45,190 and nobody's saying anything to you anymore, 91 00:03:45,190 --> 00:03:48,910 that means they gave up." That's a 92 00:03:48,910 --> 00:03:50,800 lesson that stuck with me my whole life, 93 00:03:50,800 --> 00:03:52,930 is that when you see 94 00:03:52,930 --> 00:03:54,250 yourself doing something badly and 95 00:03:54,250 --> 00:03:55,630 nobody's bothering to tell you anymore, 96 00:03:55,630 --> 00:03:58,150 that's a very bad place to be. Your 97 00:03:58,150 --> 00:03:59,709 critics are your ones telling you they 98 00:03:59,709 --> 00:04:02,050 still love you and care. For 90 minutes, 99 00:04:02,050 --> 00:04:04,390 he gives lessons about living. We cannot 100 00:04:04,390 --> 00:04:06,459 change the cards we are dealt, just how 101 00:04:06,459 --> 00:04:09,310 we play the hand. And, about facing death. 102 00:04:09,310 --> 00:04:11,470 In case there's anybody who wandered in 103 00:04:11,470 --> 00:04:13,390 and doesn't know the back story, my dad 104 00:04:13,390 --> 00:04:14,500 always taught me when there's 105 00:04:14,500 --> 00:04:16,029 an elephant in the room, introduce them. 106 00:04:16,029 --> 00:04:18,250 At the lecture, some of his friends know, 107 00:04:18,250 --> 00:04:20,380 but others are just learning that he was 108 00:04:20,380 --> 00:04:22,930 diagnosed with pancreatic cancer, and it 109 00:04:22,930 --> 00:04:25,210 has spread. If you look at my cat scans, 110 00:04:25,210 --> 00:04:25,950 there are 111 00:04:25,950 --> 00:04:28,230 approximately 10 tumors in my liver, and the 112 00:04:28,230 --> 00:04:30,030 doctors told me 3 to 6 months of good 113 00:04:30,030 --> 00:04:32,580 health left. That was a month ago, so you 114 00:04:32,580 --> 00:04:34,410 can do the math. If I don't seem as 115 00:04:34,410 --> 00:04:37,560 depressed or morose as I should be, sorry 116 00:04:37,560 --> 00:04:42,150 to disappoint you. And, I assure you I am 117 00:04:42,150 --> 00:04:44,280 NOT in denial, and the other thing is I'm 118 00:04:44,280 --> 00:04:47,780 in better shape than most of you. 119 00:04:58,319 --> 00:05:01,030 So, anybody who wants to cry or pity me 120 00:05:01,030 --> 00:05:02,830 can come down and do a few of those, and 121 00:05:02,830 --> 00:05:06,220 then you may pity me. So, don't try to 122 00:05:06,220 --> 00:05:08,830 tell Randy Pausch not to love the life 123 00:05:08,830 --> 00:05:10,270 he has left. 124 00:05:10,270 --> 00:05:13,150 So, my next piece of advice is you just 125 00:05:13,150 --> 00:05:15,190 have to decide if you're a Tigger or 126 00:05:15,190 --> 00:05:18,340 you're an Eeyore. I think I'm clear where I 127 00:05:18,340 --> 00:05:19,960 stand on the great Tigger-Eeyore debate. 128 00:05:19,960 --> 00:05:23,979 One month after the lecture, 129 00:05:23,979 --> 00:05:27,190 October 2007, we decide to go to 130 00:05:27,190 --> 00:05:29,110 Pittsburgh for an interview with Doctor 131 00:05:29,110 --> 00:05:31,210 Pausch. We're in the library of his 132 00:05:31,210 --> 00:05:33,759 beloved Carnegie Mellon, where ostensibly, 133 00:05:33,759 --> 00:05:35,889 he was a teacher of computer science, 134 00:05:35,889 --> 00:05:38,710 virtual reality, creating a whole program 135 00:05:38,710 --> 00:05:41,319 for the school with Professor Don Marinelli. 136 00:05:41,319 --> 00:05:43,780 But, long before his illness, Professor 137 00:05:43,780 --> 00:05:45,909 Pausch says he thought the students 138 00:05:45,909 --> 00:05:48,130 needed something more. How do you behave 139 00:05:48,130 --> 00:05:50,080 with integrity? How do you behave in a 140 00:05:50,080 --> 00:05:52,000 way that other people will respect you 141 00:05:52,000 --> 00:05:54,069 and want to keep working with you? If I 142 00:05:54,069 --> 00:05:56,319 only had three words of advice, they 143 00:05:56,319 --> 00:05:59,379 would be 'tell the truth.' If I got three 144 00:05:59,379 --> 00:06:02,830 more words, I'd add 'all the time.' I'll 145 00:06:02,830 --> 00:06:03,940 tell you right now if there's anything 146 00:06:03,940 --> 00:06:07,930 I've learned in my career, a lot of 147 00:06:07,930 --> 00:06:10,270 people don't want the truth. A lot of 148 00:06:10,270 --> 00:06:11,949 people just want to be patted and 149 00:06:11,949 --> 00:06:13,840 stroked and told how wonderful they are. 150 00:06:13,840 --> 00:06:17,169 So, in effect, he dared his students to 151 00:06:17,169 --> 00:06:19,690 love the truth about themselves. They 152 00:06:19,690 --> 00:06:21,639 even handed each other report cards on 153 00:06:21,639 --> 00:06:23,710 character issues like teamwork. 154 00:06:23,710 --> 00:06:26,800 Next up, lessons about fearlessness. And 155 00:06:26,800 --> 00:06:28,690 the kids said, "Well, what content do we make?" 156 00:06:28,690 --> 00:06:30,940 I said, "Hell, I don't know. You make 157 00:06:30,940 --> 00:06:32,669 whatever you want. Two rules: 158 00:06:32,669 --> 00:06:37,050 no shooting violence and no pornography." 159 00:06:37,050 --> 00:06:39,580 You'd be amazed how many 19 year old 160 00:06:39,580 --> 00:06:41,740 boys are completely out of ideas when 161 00:06:41,740 --> 00:06:47,680 you take those off the table. We went to him 162 00:06:47,680 --> 00:06:49,690 and said, "We have a couple of ideas. This 163 00:06:49,690 --> 00:06:51,580 idea here is very safe; this idea here 164 00:06:51,580 --> 00:06:53,980 with these cell phones is very risky." 165 00:06:53,980 --> 00:06:56,320 He said, "Go for the risk. It's better to fail 166 00:06:56,320 --> 00:06:59,710 spectacularly than to pass along 167 00:06:59,710 --> 00:07:01,810 and do something which 168 00:07:01,810 --> 00:07:04,990 is mediocre." Student Phil Light, who says 169 00:07:04,990 --> 00:07:07,000 Professor Pausch even created an award 170 00:07:07,000 --> 00:07:09,970 for the most glorious failure. What's the 171 00:07:09,970 --> 00:07:10,780 old saying? 'You can always tell the 172 00:07:10,780 --> 00:07:12,160 pioneers by the arrows in their backs.' 173 00:07:12,160 --> 00:07:15,100 Through the years, some of Randy Pausch's 174 00:07:15,100 --> 00:07:20,440 students balked. Most of them soared. Such 175 00:07:20,440 --> 00:07:22,480 an awesome, awesome, once-in-a-lifetime 176 00:07:22,480 --> 00:07:24,130 kind of teacher. It became this 177 00:07:24,130 --> 00:07:26,710 underground thing. I'd walk into a class 178 00:07:26,710 --> 00:07:29,050 with 50 students in it, and there 179 00:07:29,050 --> 00:07:33,340 were 95 people in the room. And people's 180 00:07:33,340 --> 00:07:36,700 roommates and friends and parents. I've 181 00:07:36,700 --> 00:07:38,440 never had parents come to class before. 182 00:07:38,440 --> 00:07:41,140 It was like something I'd never seen 183 00:07:41,140 --> 00:07:41,800 before. 184 00:07:41,800 --> 00:07:44,230 it was unbelievable. Jared Cohen is 185 00:07:44,230 --> 00:07:46,780 president of Carnegie Mellon. Here at 186 00:07:46,780 --> 00:07:48,370 Carnagie Mellon, we don't have big-time 187 00:07:48,370 --> 00:07:52,390 sports, but when I walked in the room, I 188 00:07:52,390 --> 00:07:54,790 felt like I had walked into a pep rally 189 00:07:54,790 --> 00:07:58,300 for a major football game. So, it was a 190 00:07:58,300 --> 00:08:01,270 thrilling time for Randy Pausch, and then 191 00:08:01,270 --> 00:08:03,790 one day, he felt tired. Thought maybe he 192 00:08:03,790 --> 00:08:06,070 had a kind of flu. A little weak, a little 193 00:08:06,070 --> 00:08:08,320 bit bloated feeling. I eventually got 194 00:08:08,320 --> 00:08:11,620 yellow skin jaundice and itching and we 195 00:08:11,620 --> 00:08:14,380 had originally thought I had hepatitis. 196 00:08:14,380 --> 00:08:18,160 An ultrasound, a cat-scan, a life changed 197 00:08:18,160 --> 00:08:20,740 in a sentence. And he said, "Randy, there's 198 00:08:20,740 --> 00:08:25,390 a mass on your pancreas. And he said, 199 00:08:25,390 --> 00:08:27,790 "And it's not fair." Don't think it's 200 00:08:27,790 --> 00:08:30,340 unfair. We all stand on the dartboard, 201 00:08:30,340 --> 00:08:32,440 and you know, a very small percentage of 202 00:08:32,440 --> 00:08:33,669 us are going to catch the dart labeled 203 00:08:33,669 --> 00:08:37,299 'pancreatic cancer,' and I was 204 00:08:37,299 --> 00:08:41,080 unlucky, but it wasn't unfair. Pancreatic 205 00:08:41,080 --> 00:08:42,909 cancer is pretty much the most fatal 206 00:08:42,909 --> 00:08:46,090 cancer of all. It is ruthless. It is 207 00:08:46,090 --> 00:08:46,540 brutal. 208 00:08:46,540 --> 00:08:50,050 Very few people beat it, and there are a lot of 209 00:08:50,050 --> 00:08:51,670 reasons for that. It's an internal organ 210 00:08:51,670 --> 00:08:53,050 that's sort of wrapped in other stuff. 211 00:08:53,050 --> 00:08:55,630 Only 15 to 20 percent of pancreatic 212 00:08:55,630 --> 00:08:57,880 cancer patients have any early symptoms. 213 00:08:57,880 --> 00:09:00,610 I was lucky in that my tumor pressed on 214 00:09:00,610 --> 00:09:02,170 the bile duct. You don't get enough bile 215 00:09:02,170 --> 00:09:03,670 into your system, you can't digest your 216 00:09:03,670 --> 00:09:05,230 food as well, and not to be crass about 217 00:09:05,230 --> 00:09:07,570 this, but the tell-tale sign is that your 218 00:09:07,570 --> 00:09:10,150 stools in the toilet bowl start to float 219 00:09:10,150 --> 00:09:12,730 and become less dense, and what this 220 00:09:12,730 --> 00:09:16,390 means is that you're not digesting fats, 221 00:09:16,390 --> 00:09:18,400 because you're not getting the bile into 222 00:09:18,400 --> 00:09:20,470 your system. There was massive surgery to 223 00:09:20,470 --> 00:09:22,420 remove a third of his pancreas, parts of 224 00:09:22,420 --> 00:09:24,340 his stomach, a crushing blast of 225 00:09:24,340 --> 00:09:27,340 chemotherapy and radiation. Crushing for 226 00:09:27,340 --> 00:09:29,590 body, not spirit. I remember once my doctor 227 00:09:29,590 --> 00:09:31,330 asked me, "So are you feeling depressed?" 228 00:09:31,330 --> 00:09:34,210 I said, "Well, compared to an average 229 00:09:34,210 --> 00:09:36,640 46 year old, probably, but compared to a 230 00:09:36,640 --> 00:09:38,470 guy who just had his insides carved out, 231 00:09:38,470 --> 00:09:40,300 who's in tremendous physical pain and is 232 00:09:40,300 --> 00:09:42,400 being told that, you know, he has a way 233 00:09:42,400 --> 00:09:44,140 less than 50/50 chance of living to five 234 00:09:44,140 --> 00:09:45,850 years, I think I feel pretty good." And so, 235 00:09:45,850 --> 00:09:46,870 he just turned to the intern and said, "Write 236 00:09:46,870 --> 00:09:49,510 down 'not depressed.'" But, eight months 237 00:09:49,510 --> 00:09:51,820 after the surgery, the cancer had come 238 00:09:51,820 --> 00:09:55,090 back. A dedicated Tigger had to reach 239 00:09:55,090 --> 00:09:57,880 inside himself again. I've never found 240 00:09:57,880 --> 00:10:00,390 anger to make a situation better, and 241 00:10:00,390 --> 00:10:03,160 right now, I've got a finite amount of 242 00:10:03,160 --> 00:10:06,340 time, and I can spend that time angry or 243 00:10:06,340 --> 00:10:07,870 I can spend that time doing something 244 00:10:07,870 --> 00:10:09,490 productive and worthwhile and having fun. 245 00:10:09,490 --> 00:10:12,600 I don't know how to not have fun. 246 00:10:12,600 --> 00:10:16,439 I'm dying and I'm having fun. He tells me 247 00:10:16,439 --> 00:10:18,809 he's trying an experimental vaccine and 248 00:10:18,809 --> 00:10:21,029 so far, chemotherapy has slowed the 249 00:10:21,029 --> 00:10:22,860 progress of the disease. 250 00:10:22,860 --> 00:10:24,569 That typically holds on for a couple of 251 00:10:24,569 --> 00:10:26,549 months, so I may have just doubled my 252 00:10:26,549 --> 00:10:29,040 lifespan, and you know, well you try doing 253 00:10:29,040 --> 00:10:31,559 that. He told me one of his favorite 254 00:10:31,559 --> 00:10:34,110 philosophical sources is that famous 255 00:10:34,110 --> 00:10:35,850 newspaper editor's letter, the one 256 00:10:35,850 --> 00:10:37,889 assuring the little girl Virginia there 257 00:10:37,889 --> 00:10:39,509 is a Santa Claus. 258 00:10:39,509 --> 00:10:41,819 The editor's letter about, your little 259 00:10:41,819 --> 00:10:43,410 cynical friends live in a cynical age 260 00:10:43,410 --> 00:10:45,119 You say there is no evidence and you 261 00:10:45,119 --> 00:10:48,540 can't see, but can you see love? Can you 262 00:10:48,540 --> 00:10:50,819 see hope? These are the most important 263 00:10:50,819 --> 00:10:52,350 things and you can't see them or touch 264 00:10:52,350 --> 00:10:54,569 them. Did you ever see fairies dancing on 265 00:10:54,569 --> 00:10:56,249 the lawn? Of course not, but that's no 266 00:10:56,249 --> 00:10:58,019 proof they're not there. That's right. 267 00:10:58,019 --> 00:10:59,850 There's no scientist in the world that can tell 268 00:10:59,850 --> 00:11:01,019 you there aren't fairies on the lawn. 269 00:11:01,019 --> 00:11:02,429 Back at the lecture, sitting in the 270 00:11:02,429 --> 00:11:04,739 audience, his wife, mother of their three 271 00:11:04,739 --> 00:11:07,649 children, the children he worries he will 272 00:11:07,649 --> 00:11:09,839 not be around to protect. We're not going 273 00:11:09,839 --> 00:11:11,069 to talk about my wife, we're not going to talk about my 274 00:11:11,069 --> 00:11:12,959 kids, because I'm good but I'm not good 275 00:11:12,959 --> 00:11:13,949 enough to talk about that without 276 00:11:13,949 --> 00:11:15,869 tearing up. There is a sadness that 277 00:11:15,869 --> 00:11:19,069 comes when I think about my kids, and 278 00:11:19,069 --> 00:11:22,139 "it's not so much a 'I won't get the 279 00:11:22,139 --> 00:11:23,549 experience of being a dad.' I mean that's 280 00:11:23,549 --> 00:11:25,860 sad, but the really strong emotions for 281 00:11:25,860 --> 00:11:31,760 me are 'they won't have me for them.' 282 00:11:34,710 --> 00:11:36,600 And that's where it's okay for me to say, 283 00:11:36,600 --> 00:11:38,910 "that's not fair." A metaphor I've used is 284 00:11:38,910 --> 00:11:40,740 somebody's going to push my family off a 285 00:11:40,740 --> 00:11:44,190 cliff pretty soon and I won't be there 286 00:11:44,190 --> 00:11:46,430 to catch them, and that breaks my heart. 287 00:11:46,430 --> 00:11:51,660 But, I have some time to sew some nets, to 288 00:11:51,660 --> 00:11:54,300 cushion the fall, and that seems like the 289 00:11:54,300 --> 00:11:55,800 best and highest use of my time. So, I can 290 00:11:55,800 --> 00:11:57,690 curl up in a ball and cry, or I can get 291 00:11:57,690 --> 00:12:00,320 to work on the nets. 292 00:12:01,230 --> 00:12:04,040 Time now for our first interview to end. 293 00:12:04,040 --> 00:12:07,470 But, before I can go, the professor stops 294 00:12:07,470 --> 00:12:10,830 me to critique what I've done. There's 295 00:12:10,830 --> 00:12:12,450 one question you didn't ask me. Which one? 296 00:12:12,450 --> 00:12:14,190 About people keep asking about making a 297 00:12:14,190 --> 00:12:15,060 movie out of my life. 298 00:12:15,060 --> 00:12:18,030 Wait, you're doing your part and my part. 299 00:12:18,030 --> 00:12:21,540 This is the best interview I've ever had. Okay yes, a movie... 300 00:12:21,540 --> 00:12:24,360 Can't be done. No Hollywood actress 301 00:12:24,360 --> 00:12:26,170 is pretty enough to play my wife. 302 00:12:26,170 --> 00:12:30,300 When we return, you'll meet her. 303 00:12:34,460 --> 00:12:36,920 This looks like the face of a beautiful 304 00:12:36,920 --> 00:12:39,260 woman, but in fact, she was once one of 305 00:12:39,260 --> 00:12:41,810 Randy Pausch's most formidable brick 306 00:12:41,810 --> 00:12:45,220 walls. Some brick walls are made of flesh. 307 00:12:45,220 --> 00:12:48,020 Jai Glasgow was a literature graduate 308 00:12:48,020 --> 00:12:49,700 student who met Randy Pausch at a 309 00:12:49,700 --> 00:12:52,190 lecture. She checked his website, not 310 00:12:52,190 --> 00:12:54,530 promising for her. She thought maybe he 311 00:12:54,530 --> 00:12:56,930 was gay. You thought he was gay. Well, he 312 00:12:56,930 --> 00:12:59,120 was 38 years old, he had never been 313 00:12:59,120 --> 00:13:01,220 married. The pictures on the site 314 00:13:01,220 --> 00:13:03,740 rejoiced over gingerbread houses and 315 00:13:03,740 --> 00:13:06,230 stuffed animals, like the kind you win at 316 00:13:06,230 --> 00:13:09,850 the fair. Stuffed animals. Stuffed animals? 317 00:13:09,850 --> 00:13:13,730 Alright, winning stuffed animals. 318 00:13:13,730 --> 00:13:15,560 He says it started when he was a little kid. 319 00:13:15,560 --> 00:13:17,780 This may seem mundane to you, but when 320 00:13:17,780 --> 00:13:19,160 you're a little kid you see the big buff 321 00:13:19,160 --> 00:13:20,690 guys walking around in the amusement park 322 00:13:20,690 --> 00:13:21,710 and they got all these big stuffed 323 00:13:21,710 --> 00:13:24,680 animals, right? So he still likes the idea 324 00:13:24,680 --> 00:13:27,680 that big muscles and stuffed animals go 325 00:13:27,680 --> 00:13:30,620 together. When he began to date Jai, she 326 00:13:30,620 --> 00:13:32,930 says it was one thing to love a man who 327 00:13:32,930 --> 00:13:35,480 tells the truth, another to live with it. 328 00:13:35,480 --> 00:13:38,990 He's challenging, he's forthright, quick 329 00:13:38,990 --> 00:13:42,590 to analyze a situation, feel like he can 330 00:13:42,590 --> 00:13:46,550 see the truth, and to be able to relay 331 00:13:46,550 --> 00:13:50,020 that truth to you. Whether or not it's 332 00:13:50,020 --> 00:13:52,190 socially appropriate for him to do that 333 00:13:52,190 --> 00:13:53,870 is another thing. I was quite an 334 00:13:53,870 --> 00:13:55,550 arrogant young man, and I come bounding 335 00:13:55,550 --> 00:13:57,470 in and, you know, I'm just, I'm gonna save 336 00:13:57,470 --> 00:13:58,460 the world there all these kids.... [fades out] 337 00:13:58,460 --> 00:14:00,620 This professor Andy Van Dam tried to help him. 338 00:14:00,620 --> 00:14:02,240 He put his arm around my 339 00:14:02,240 --> 00:14:03,410 shoulders and we went for a little walk and 340 00:14:03,410 --> 00:14:07,150 he said, "Randy, it's such a shame that 341 00:14:07,150 --> 00:14:11,890 people perceive you as so arrogant, 342 00:14:12,060 --> 00:14:15,459 because it's going to limit what you're 343 00:14:15,459 --> 00:14:17,970 going to be able to accomplish in life." 344 00:14:17,970 --> 00:14:21,519 What a hell of a good way to word, 'you're 345 00:14:21,519 --> 00:14:25,779 being a jerk.' It's a whole chapter of his 346 00:14:25,779 --> 00:14:28,540 book, "Lessons from a Recovering Jerk." 347 00:14:28,540 --> 00:14:32,019 Proper apologies have three parts. What I 348 00:14:32,019 --> 00:14:34,660 did was wrong. I feel badly that I hurt 349 00:14:34,660 --> 00:14:37,360 you. How do I make this better? 350 00:14:37,360 --> 00:14:39,550 It's the third part that people tend to 351 00:14:39,550 --> 00:14:43,269 forget. Finally, he managed to win over 352 00:14:43,269 --> 00:14:45,970 the woman of his dreams. He's so smart, 353 00:14:45,970 --> 00:14:47,800 he's by far the smartest person I think 354 00:14:47,800 --> 00:14:50,470 I've ever met, and I've always been able 355 00:14:50,470 --> 00:14:54,750 to trust him because he is so caring and 356 00:14:54,750 --> 00:14:59,019 has always made me feel very special. 357 00:14:59,019 --> 00:15:01,329 Their marriage was a strong partnership 358 00:15:01,329 --> 00:15:03,850 of equals. They had three children she 359 00:15:03,850 --> 00:15:07,750 stayed at home to raise full-time, and 360 00:15:07,750 --> 00:15:10,899 seven happy years before he got the news, 361 00:15:10,899 --> 00:15:14,079 the cancer. He gave Jai the phone to hear it 362 00:15:14,079 --> 00:15:17,470 from the doctor too. Did your knees buckle? 363 00:15:17,470 --> 00:15:19,059 I was sitting on the floor when I took 364 00:15:19,059 --> 00:15:21,089 that phone call. And was it a slow, 365 00:15:21,089 --> 00:15:23,739 incremental kind of realization that it? 366 00:15:23,739 --> 00:15:26,589 No, I think by the time I got off the 367 00:15:26,589 --> 00:15:28,119 phone, Randy told me he was going to die. 368 00:15:28,119 --> 00:15:30,629 So, there were many nights that we would 369 00:15:30,629 --> 00:15:34,809 go to bed, roll over, and hug each other 370 00:15:34,809 --> 00:15:37,539 and cry, and this went on for several 371 00:15:37,539 --> 00:15:40,749 days before we finally said, "we have to 372 00:15:40,749 --> 00:15:43,599 be able to function." I felt like I 373 00:15:43,599 --> 00:15:45,189 had to get through the day without 374 00:15:45,189 --> 00:15:48,279 crying. I felt like I had to be able to 375 00:15:48,279 --> 00:15:50,529 look at him playing with the kids and not cry. 376 00:15:50,529 --> 00:15:55,149 "What are we making, Logan?" "We're making a snowman!" 377 00:15:55,149 --> 00:15:56,679 You hear that voice that comes in and says it could be the 378 00:15:56,679 --> 00:15:58,209 last time they're playing in the snow together, and 379 00:15:58,209 --> 00:16:02,019 I just have to shut it off. Shut it off, 380 00:16:02,019 --> 00:16:04,539 so that tomorrow doesn't rob you of 381 00:16:04,539 --> 00:16:07,479 today. A therapist gave her a kind of 382 00:16:07,479 --> 00:16:12,389 mantra to say: the words "not helpful." 383 00:16:12,539 --> 00:16:14,649 Did you just have to train it like a 384 00:16:14,649 --> 00:16:16,509 muscle? I think so, you know you catch 385 00:16:16,509 --> 00:16:18,329 yourself going down that path and say, 386 00:16:18,329 --> 00:16:21,999 "not helpful." I keep imagining people 387 00:16:21,999 --> 00:16:25,509 listening to you and thinking where does 388 00:16:25,509 --> 00:16:28,509 she get this? As if it's bearable. Because 389 00:16:28,509 --> 00:16:32,229 it is. A lot of people have not exactly 390 00:16:32,229 --> 00:16:34,359 the same situation, but they have 391 00:16:34,359 --> 00:16:35,889 terrible things in their life that 392 00:16:35,889 --> 00:16:37,419 they're having to deal with, and they get 393 00:16:37,419 --> 00:16:38,859 up and they do it too. We're no different. 394 00:16:38,859 --> 00:16:42,669 I think that there is that 395 00:16:42,669 --> 00:16:44,889 within us. At this point, 396 00:16:44,889 --> 00:16:47,439 Randy joins us, now our second interview, 397 00:16:47,439 --> 00:16:48,850 and we tell him we've been digging 398 00:16:48,850 --> 00:16:50,829 around and learned that before he 399 00:16:50,829 --> 00:16:52,839 married Jai, the mild-mannered professor 400 00:16:52,839 --> 00:16:55,569 was a serious Don Juan. I even had a 401 00:16:55,569 --> 00:16:58,809 source, his mother. Girls seemed to think 402 00:16:58,809 --> 00:17:02,170 he was great. Since then, there have been many. 403 00:17:02,170 --> 00:17:04,839 So your mom said you were a player. 404 00:17:04,839 --> 00:17:07,030 My mom said I was a player? Your mother. You've 405 00:17:07,030 --> 00:17:09,760 taught me to tell the truth. 406 00:17:09,760 --> 00:17:10,930 Okay, my friends and family were starting to use 407 00:17:10,930 --> 00:17:17,849 words like 'ever' and 'still' and 'Peter Pan,' 408 00:17:17,849 --> 00:17:22,089 and when I met Jai it just... things 409 00:17:22,089 --> 00:17:23,380 just completely changed. 410 00:17:23,380 --> 00:17:25,510 He has already lived a few months beyond 411 00:17:25,510 --> 00:17:27,790 the doctor's six-month prognosis, though 412 00:17:27,790 --> 00:17:29,860 as we talk, we notice a physical 413 00:17:29,860 --> 00:17:32,020 difference. His face is fuller, in part 414 00:17:32,020 --> 00:17:33,340 because of a brutal regimen of 415 00:17:33,340 --> 00:17:35,470 chemotherapy. Though, his kind doesn't 416 00:17:35,470 --> 00:17:38,350 make you lose your hair. And, this time, he 417 00:17:38,350 --> 00:17:40,120 would occasionally perspire or then 418 00:17:40,120 --> 00:17:43,900 shudder as if cold. I do feel a different 419 00:17:43,900 --> 00:17:47,230 mood. A lot of things have changed. 420 00:17:47,230 --> 00:17:49,180 Are you in pain? I don't think of myself as 421 00:17:49,180 --> 00:17:50,680 being in pain. Oh, and I have neuropathy; I 422 00:17:50,680 --> 00:17:52,270 I have a lot of trouble feeling my 423 00:17:52,270 --> 00:17:54,340 fingers and toes. I sometimes have trouble 424 00:17:54,340 --> 00:17:55,870 keeping my body temperature up. My 425 00:17:55,870 --> 00:17:59,170 kidney functions at about 50%. But, he is 426 00:17:59,170 --> 00:18:01,650 still Randy. I am alive, 427 00:18:01,650 --> 00:18:05,020 so I feel great. Between doctors 428 00:18:05,020 --> 00:18:07,270 appointments, he and Jai try to take some 429 00:18:07,270 --> 00:18:10,720 time just for each other. His inspiration? 430 00:18:10,720 --> 00:18:13,780 Another of his eclectic philosophers. The 431 00:18:13,780 --> 00:18:16,120 best piece of parenting advice I have 432 00:18:16,120 --> 00:18:18,850 ever heard is from flight attendants, and 433 00:18:18,850 --> 00:18:21,370 that is: when things really get tough, put 434 00:18:21,370 --> 00:18:24,010 on your own oxygen mask first. We 435 00:18:24,010 --> 00:18:25,720 wondered if the two of them have a kind 436 00:18:25,720 --> 00:18:27,520 of list of things they'd like to do in 437 00:18:27,520 --> 00:18:29,350 the days to come. If there was anything I 438 00:18:29,350 --> 00:18:31,420 wanted to do that badly, you know, I 439 00:18:31,420 --> 00:18:33,370 should have already done it. The little 440 00:18:33,370 --> 00:18:35,050 moments of joy that we have around the 441 00:18:35,050 --> 00:18:38,050 house, you know, that's my bucket list, is 442 00:18:38,050 --> 00:18:39,430 how many of those moments can we have. 443 00:18:39,430 --> 00:18:41,890 Where we are together and we're holding 444 00:18:41,890 --> 00:18:44,710 hands or we're reading the paper and 445 00:18:44,710 --> 00:18:46,990 debating what's going on, and those 446 00:18:46,990 --> 00:18:50,830 are gems that I hold on to. 447 00:18:50,830 --> 00:18:53,560 But, Jai had already confided to us that 448 00:18:53,560 --> 00:18:55,600 the day before the interview, she'd been 449 00:18:55,600 --> 00:18:58,000 in tears again. When we get the scans 450 00:18:58,000 --> 00:19:00,730 once a month, it's very hard. That reminder 451 00:19:00,730 --> 00:19:02,980 of 'it's there,' you know, that sand 452 00:19:02,980 --> 00:19:04,990 is ticking, that sand is coming right out. 453 00:19:04,990 --> 00:19:08,260 As they sat together, Jai kept looking at 454 00:19:08,260 --> 00:19:11,320 him. What were you looking at in his face? 455 00:19:11,320 --> 00:19:15,010 Oh, just those lovely brown eyes. Were you having your Nancy 456 00:19:15,010 --> 00:19:19,840 Reagan moment? I hope so. He's such an 457 00:19:19,840 --> 00:19:22,270 eloquent speaker. What is it you most 458 00:19:22,270 --> 00:19:24,880 like looking at in her face? I like 459 00:19:24,880 --> 00:19:28,240 looking at her, period. Your know, the best 460 00:19:28,240 --> 00:19:30,880 part is being with my wife. 461 00:19:30,880 --> 00:19:33,510 That's the best anything can get. 462 00:19:35,920 --> 00:19:38,260 When we come back, the rest of this love 463 00:19:38,260 --> 00:19:42,390 story: their three children. 464 00:19:46,420 --> 00:19:49,210 A question: if you had six months to live, 465 00:19:49,210 --> 00:19:51,810 where would you begin with your children? 466 00:19:51,810 --> 00:19:54,370 Dylan Pausch, age six, 467 00:19:54,370 --> 00:19:56,830 so like Randy. It's always questions, 468 00:19:56,830 --> 00:20:00,490 questions, questions. What did he do? 469 00:20:00,490 --> 00:20:03,100 He freed the slaves. How did he free them? 470 00:20:03,100 --> 00:20:04,900 High five! Alright! 471 00:20:04,900 --> 00:20:08,350 Logan, age three, so like his dad, too. I see 472 00:20:08,350 --> 00:20:11,290 the gregariousness, the happiness, the 473 00:20:11,290 --> 00:20:15,880 Tigger-ness. Is that crazy high? Is that crazy high? 474 00:20:15,880 --> 00:20:18,340 Is that crazy high? Oh my 475 00:20:18,340 --> 00:20:19,480 goodness that's crazy high! 476 00:20:19,480 --> 00:20:24,150 Chloe is 18 months. 477 00:20:26,840 --> 00:20:29,570 In our first interview, Randy had told us 478 00:20:29,570 --> 00:20:31,399 he was spending a lot of time thinking 479 00:20:31,399 --> 00:20:33,830 about and researching what of your life 480 00:20:33,830 --> 00:20:35,809 you should leave for your kids, like a 481 00:20:35,809 --> 00:20:38,659 message in a bottle. He's made videos of 482 00:20:38,659 --> 00:20:40,610 course, with a portrait of himself as an 483 00:20:40,610 --> 00:20:43,070 everyday dad. What's my favorite food 484 00:20:43,070 --> 00:20:44,990 or my least favorite food, you know, it's 485 00:20:44,990 --> 00:20:47,149 not all the big life lessons, you know, 486 00:20:47,149 --> 00:20:49,009 sometimes it's just the little things. 487 00:20:49,009 --> 00:20:49,999 I want my kids to hear the bad 488 00:20:49,999 --> 00:20:52,190 stories about me as well as the good. 489 00:20:52,190 --> 00:20:55,700 Bad stories? What bad stories do you imagine? 490 00:20:55,700 --> 00:20:58,399 Oh, all the stupid things, the bonehead mistakes. 491 00:20:58,399 --> 00:21:00,440 Give me one stupid, bonehead thing. Well, there was 492 00:21:00,440 --> 00:21:01,850 the home repair that involved 493 00:21:01,850 --> 00:21:05,119 electrocution. And guess what he's making 494 00:21:05,119 --> 00:21:08,419 them? Stuffed animals. I think that them 495 00:21:08,419 --> 00:21:10,220 having something that I made with my own 496 00:21:10,220 --> 00:21:13,009 hands will be a way for me to connect 497 00:21:13,009 --> 00:21:19,340 with them. He told us this is all a 498 00:21:19,340 --> 00:21:22,580 perfect metaphor for his iPod. If Randy 499 00:21:22,580 --> 00:21:23,840 were to fill his iPod, what would the 500 00:21:23,840 --> 00:21:25,970 songs be? You know, "If I Could Catch 501 00:21:25,970 --> 00:21:31,179 Time in a Bottle." 502 00:21:32,360 --> 00:21:47,630 [Time in a Bottle by Jim Croce plays] 503 00:21:47,630 --> 00:21:49,190 And of course, there's the book he has written, 504 00:21:49,190 --> 00:21:51,890 making sure that each boy has an equal 505 00:21:51,890 --> 00:21:55,130 number of words. And, for Chloe, his only 506 00:21:55,130 --> 00:21:57,620 girl, with her mischievous smile. There's that 507 00:21:57,620 --> 00:21:59,690 sort of twinkle in the eye. And maybe it 508 00:21:59,690 --> 00:22:01,309 was the look in Chloe's eye that 509 00:22:01,309 --> 00:22:02,990 inspired a cautionary moment in that 510 00:22:02,990 --> 00:22:06,590 lecture, a lesson for girls everywhere. It 511 00:22:06,590 --> 00:22:07,730 took me a long time but I finally 512 00:22:07,730 --> 00:22:11,389 figured it out. When it comes to men that 513 00:22:11,389 --> 00:22:13,669 are romantically interested in you, it's 514 00:22:13,669 --> 00:22:16,159 really simple: just ignore everything 515 00:22:16,159 --> 00:22:19,340 they say and only pay attention to what 516 00:22:19,340 --> 00:22:21,200 they do. And I thought back to my 517 00:22:21,200 --> 00:22:27,169 bachelor days and I said, damn. You almost 518 00:22:27,169 --> 00:22:28,039 look like you were gonna give Daddy a kiss. 519 00:22:28,039 --> 00:22:33,409 Ha? No, Haha! Where are you in telling 520 00:22:33,409 --> 00:22:37,700 the kids? We're not. When do you start to? 521 00:22:37,700 --> 00:22:40,990 Where he is in bed sick, and at that time, 522 00:22:40,990 --> 00:22:43,580 they will understand, they will see that 523 00:22:43,580 --> 00:22:46,190 he is sick and so the words "your daddy is sick" 524 00:22:46,190 --> 00:22:48,500 will match with the picture of 'Daddy is 525 00:22:48,500 --> 00:22:51,139 sick.' Right now, Daddy doesn't look sick, 526 00:22:51,139 --> 00:22:56,240 and he doesn't act sick. 527 00:22:56,240 --> 00:22:59,000 The best part of the story will be told on the last day 528 00:22:59,000 --> 00:23:01,100 of my life. On the last day of your life? 529 00:23:01,100 --> 00:23:03,440 So, I'll never get to hear the best part 530 00:23:03,440 --> 00:23:06,799 of the story. That's wrong. 531 00:23:06,799 --> 00:23:09,230 Do you think Dylan knows something? I hope to god he doesn't. 532 00:23:09,230 --> 00:23:13,130 After all those years, I think you may 533 00:23:13,130 --> 00:23:15,529 have to remind me. It's not time for him 534 00:23:15,529 --> 00:23:17,600 to know. I pray nobody will go up to him 535 00:23:17,600 --> 00:23:20,029 and say anything to him. It's not time. So, 536 00:23:20,029 --> 00:23:21,799 if somebody were to tell him or if he 537 00:23:21,799 --> 00:23:24,500 were to suspect his father were dying, he 538 00:23:24,500 --> 00:23:26,510 might think that that was today, tonight, 539 00:23:26,510 --> 00:23:29,179 tomorrow. Where do you come up with all 540 00:23:29,179 --> 00:23:31,780 these great stories? 541 00:23:31,780 --> 00:23:34,210 In your head? Are you using 542 00:23:34,210 --> 00:23:39,640 your imagination? It really isn't real. 543 00:23:39,640 --> 00:23:41,799 He and Jai are also recruiting playmates who share 544 00:23:41,799 --> 00:23:44,650 Randy's spirit, like Randy's niece and 545 00:23:44,650 --> 00:23:47,169 nephew, who remember when Uncle Randy 546 00:23:47,169 --> 00:23:50,049 gave them two rules: no whining and don't 547 00:23:50,049 --> 00:23:53,049 tell Mom what we do. He was most 548 00:23:53,049 --> 00:23:55,030 determined to teach them that material 549 00:23:55,030 --> 00:23:57,190 things are just not important. Once, he 550 00:23:57,190 --> 00:23:58,330 had a brand-new car. 551 00:23:58,330 --> 00:24:00,970 So cool, awesome, blue convertible. 552 00:24:00,970 --> 00:24:03,669 It's a convertible. Yeah, very cool. Their mother, 553 00:24:03,669 --> 00:24:05,799 Randy's sister, was worried, lecturing her 554 00:24:05,799 --> 00:24:07,809 kids about being seriously careful. So, 555 00:24:07,809 --> 00:24:09,850 uncle Randy opened a can of coke and 556 00:24:09,850 --> 00:24:13,929 poured it right in under the seat. 557 00:24:13,929 --> 00:24:16,950 We couldn't believe it. 558 00:24:37,410 --> 00:24:40,150 Randy and Jai have also gotten help to 559 00:24:40,150 --> 00:24:42,310 prepare for that other unbearable 560 00:24:42,310 --> 00:24:44,980 conversation, the one Jai will have in 561 00:24:44,980 --> 00:24:47,320 days to come. They're guided by Dr. 562 00:24:47,320 --> 00:24:50,560 Michelle Reese. In very simple terms that 563 00:24:50,560 --> 00:24:54,060 Mommy or Daddy got so very sick that 564 00:24:54,060 --> 00:24:56,980 their heart couldn't beat anymore. 565 00:24:56,980 --> 00:24:58,240 One of the things that we were 566 00:24:58,240 --> 00:25:02,830 told was don't talk about dying as like 567 00:25:02,830 --> 00:25:05,070 going to sleep. A lot of young children, 568 00:25:05,070 --> 00:25:08,830 if you use that as your metaphor, will be 569 00:25:08,830 --> 00:25:10,210 afraid when they go to sleep that 570 00:25:10,210 --> 00:25:11,020 they're going to die, too. 571 00:25:11,020 --> 00:25:15,120 [Randy saying "goodbye" in multiple languages] 572 00:25:15,120 --> 00:25:18,700 Lots of different ways to say goodbye. 573 00:25:18,700 --> 00:25:22,270 He is also leaving a "someday" message for 574 00:25:22,270 --> 00:25:24,580 Jai. Certainly, I want her to be happy and 575 00:25:24,580 --> 00:25:28,840 I want the kids to be happy, and if that 576 00:25:28,840 --> 00:25:30,940 means her remarrying, I'm all for it. On 577 00:25:30,940 --> 00:25:33,550 questions of religion, Randy says he'd 578 00:25:33,550 --> 00:25:36,040 like to keep those private. He told us 579 00:25:36,040 --> 00:25:38,140 his late father, a presbyterian, was the 580 00:25:38,140 --> 00:25:40,870 most Christian man he'd ever met, and he 581 00:25:40,870 --> 00:25:43,450 often returns to a familiar prayer. Well, 582 00:25:43,450 --> 00:25:44,920 you know, the serenity prayer is not a 583 00:25:44,920 --> 00:25:47,140 bad thing for anybody. God grant me the 584 00:25:47,140 --> 00:25:49,510 strength to change the things I can, the 585 00:25:49,510 --> 00:25:51,250 serenity to accept the things I can't, 586 00:25:51,250 --> 00:25:53,820 and the wisdom to know the difference. 587 00:25:53,820 --> 00:25:57,010 For Jai, a different phrase. Was there 588 00:25:57,010 --> 00:25:59,800 something you've read, something someone 589 00:25:59,800 --> 00:26:02,050 has said that is what you repeat to 590 00:26:02,050 --> 00:26:04,510 yourself in the darkest times now? 591 00:26:04,510 --> 00:26:05,530 I have everything I need. 592 00:26:05,530 --> 00:26:07,900 She's used it in a kind of meditation. 593 00:26:07,900 --> 00:26:10,750 But are you saying today, at this point, 594 00:26:10,750 --> 00:26:14,520 you have a kind of peace? 595 00:26:16,880 --> 00:26:19,450 Yes. 596 00:26:20,000 --> 00:26:22,280 For better or for worse, it is what it is 597 00:26:22,280 --> 00:26:24,740 and I can't change the fact that Randy 598 00:26:24,740 --> 00:26:27,530 has cancer. I can't make those tumors go 599 00:26:27,530 --> 00:26:30,610 away, no matter how much I would want to. 600 00:26:30,610 --> 00:26:33,830 So, it is what it is, and I have to live 601 00:26:33,830 --> 00:26:38,120 with that, and in order to do so, I accept, 602 00:26:38,120 --> 00:26:41,870 I accept the circumstances. I accept the 603 00:26:41,870 --> 00:26:44,120 conditions upon which we are 604 00:26:44,120 --> 00:26:50,080 living. I do, and I am at peace with that. 605 00:26:50,080 --> 00:26:54,970 I don't like it, but I accept it. 606 00:26:55,110 --> 00:26:58,150 On a family trip to Orlando, the night at 607 00:26:58,150 --> 00:27:00,130 the hotel, we watched Randy put the kids 608 00:27:00,130 --> 00:27:02,470 to bed, with the questions he asks them 609 00:27:02,470 --> 00:27:04,600 at the end of every day. Okay, here we go 610 00:27:04,600 --> 00:27:07,600 pumpkin. Randy, at bedtime, he asked them 611 00:27:07,600 --> 00:27:09,520 questions. What was the best thing about 612 00:27:09,520 --> 00:27:12,280 your day? What was the best part of today? 613 00:27:12,280 --> 00:27:15,220 Playing with Mommy. Okay, what was the worst part 614 00:27:15,220 --> 00:27:17,470 of today? Playing with you. Playing with me? Are you 615 00:27:17,470 --> 00:27:29,730 joking me? Yeah. You are, okay! So let's say 616 00:27:29,730 --> 00:27:33,160 you're in your pajamas. What was the best 617 00:27:33,160 --> 00:27:34,720 thing about your day and what was the 618 00:27:34,720 --> 00:27:37,210 worst thing about your day? Well first 619 00:27:37,210 --> 00:27:39,550 off, I'd say the day's not over yet, so 620 00:27:39,550 --> 00:27:40,720 there's always a chance that there will 621 00:27:40,720 --> 00:27:44,290 be a new best. And, on Halloween, Randy, Jai, 622 00:27:44,290 --> 00:27:46,450 and the children dressed as The 623 00:27:46,450 --> 00:27:51,309 Incredibles. Before we take a break, 624 00:27:51,309 --> 00:27:53,559 something I promised Randy and Jai I 625 00:27:53,559 --> 00:27:56,350 would say to you: if by any chance, any of 626 00:27:56,350 --> 00:27:58,720 you ever see the Pausch family, just 627 00:27:58,720 --> 00:28:00,580 remember, say nothing to the children. 628 00:28:00,580 --> 00:28:03,429 They'll learn at the right time. When we 629 00:28:03,429 --> 00:28:05,410 come back, some of the people who say 630 00:28:05,410 --> 00:28:08,410 Randy simply changed their lives, and he 631 00:28:08,410 --> 00:28:09,970 gets a chance at something he never 632 00:28:09,970 --> 00:28:13,260 thought he would do. 633 00:28:20,509 --> 00:28:23,989 Never lose the childlike wonder. It's 634 00:28:23,989 --> 00:28:26,239 just too important. It's what drives us. 635 00:28:26,239 --> 00:28:28,580 And there, I actually have a picture 636 00:28:28,580 --> 00:28:31,389 of me dreaming. 637 00:28:31,840 --> 00:28:34,600 I did a lot of that. It's a famous 638 00:28:34,600 --> 00:28:36,760 event in the Pausch household, when Randy 639 00:28:36,760 --> 00:28:38,830 was a little boy and asked to paint some 640 00:28:38,830 --> 00:28:40,899 of his dreams on the walls of his room. 641 00:28:40,899 --> 00:28:42,760 And the great thing about this is they 642 00:28:42,760 --> 00:28:45,100 let me do it, and they didn't get upset 643 00:28:45,100 --> 00:28:47,919 about it, and it's still there. If you go 644 00:28:47,919 --> 00:28:50,080 to my parents' house, it's still there. I'd 645 00:28:50,080 --> 00:28:52,440 always wanted a submarine and an elevator. 646 00:28:52,440 --> 00:28:56,020 Well they put up "disco sucks" and I made 647 00:28:56,020 --> 00:29:00,309 them take "sucks" out. That's the only 648 00:29:00,309 --> 00:29:03,640 hand I had in it. Anybody 649 00:29:03,640 --> 00:29:05,140 who is out there who is a parent: if your 650 00:29:05,140 --> 00:29:07,480 kids want to paint their bedroom, as 651 00:29:07,480 --> 00:29:10,330 a favor to me, let them do it. It'll 652 00:29:10,330 --> 00:29:12,340 be okay. Don't worry about resale value 653 00:29:12,340 --> 00:29:16,360 on the house. All the people who 654 00:29:16,360 --> 00:29:18,580 watched his lecture have answered the 655 00:29:18,580 --> 00:29:21,039 call. Peter Rebling of Virginia let his 656 00:29:21,039 --> 00:29:23,620 daughter do it. Diane Gregory let her son. 657 00:29:23,620 --> 00:29:25,929 Carol Castle's daughter Kelsey wanted 658 00:29:25,929 --> 00:29:27,789 shocking pink. I'm like, "Why do you want to 659 00:29:27,789 --> 00:29:29,890 paint you room Pepto-Bismol?" But, because 660 00:29:29,890 --> 00:29:32,020 Kelsey had also watched Randy's lecture, 661 00:29:32,020 --> 00:29:34,390 she painted some bricks on her shocking 662 00:29:34,390 --> 00:29:36,490 pink walls. Let me let you in on a little secret. 663 00:29:37,090 --> 00:29:38,919 Not only that, in schools across the 664 00:29:38,919 --> 00:29:40,960 country, students have begun to perform 665 00:29:40,960 --> 00:29:43,120 Randy's speech. You see the brick walls 666 00:29:43,120 --> 00:29:44,620 are there...if you give us a chance to 667 00:29:44,620 --> 00:29:46,419 show how badly we want something. 668 00:29:46,419 --> 00:29:48,990 A faltering beauty queen in Kent, Ohio 669 00:29:48,990 --> 00:29:52,600 didn't quit. He helped me achieve my dream. 670 00:29:52,600 --> 00:29:55,240 A businessman hands out copies to his 671 00:29:55,240 --> 00:29:58,029 employees. A minister uses the tape to 672 00:29:58,029 --> 00:30:01,470 inspire song at choir practice. 673 00:30:01,470 --> 00:30:03,780 And in California, a breast cancer 674 00:30:03,780 --> 00:30:06,659 patient, Kaje Lane, watched and took 675 00:30:06,659 --> 00:30:10,559 heart. His positive attitude just kind of 676 00:30:10,559 --> 00:30:12,030 lifted that fear out of me. 677 00:30:12,030 --> 00:30:14,730 Alfred Nicolosi of Salem, New Jersey, 678 00:30:14,730 --> 00:30:17,309 battling illness and depression, cleaned 679 00:30:17,309 --> 00:30:20,820 his house and began to live. Randy's life 680 00:30:20,820 --> 00:30:23,070 turned mine around. You just have to 681 00:30:23,070 --> 00:30:25,020 decide if you're a Tigger or an Eeyore. 682 00:30:25,020 --> 00:30:27,390 In Gold Beach, Oregon, Barb with terminal 683 00:30:27,390 --> 00:30:30,330 multiple myeloma. If he can do it, so can 684 00:30:30,330 --> 00:30:33,240 I. If I don't seem as depressed or morose as 685 00:30:33,240 --> 00:30:36,169 I should be, sorry to disappoint you. 686 00:30:36,169 --> 00:30:39,809 I love that line. She packed up and 687 00:30:39,809 --> 00:30:41,340 moved across country to be near her 688 00:30:41,340 --> 00:30:43,950 grandchildren. I'd like them to remember 689 00:30:43,950 --> 00:30:47,909 me as the fun grandma. Randy Pausch says 690 00:30:47,909 --> 00:30:49,799 maybe you should keep a crayon in your 691 00:30:49,799 --> 00:30:51,929 pocket so the smell can remind you when 692 00:30:51,929 --> 00:30:54,440 you were young and thought you could fly. 693 00:30:54,440 --> 00:30:56,909 He still has the list he made as a 694 00:30:56,909 --> 00:31:01,380 little boy, Impossible Dreams. Win 695 00:31:01,380 --> 00:31:03,900 stuffed animals. We know how that one 696 00:31:03,900 --> 00:31:06,270 ended. Write an article in the World Book 697 00:31:06,270 --> 00:31:09,380 Encyclopedia. He can check that off, too. 698 00:31:09,380 --> 00:31:11,880 But, we noticed there was something on 699 00:31:11,880 --> 00:31:14,490 Randy's list that had long been out of 700 00:31:14,490 --> 00:31:16,230 reach. All right, let's talk about 701 00:31:16,230 --> 00:31:17,940 football. My dream was to play in the 702 00:31:17,940 --> 00:31:20,220 National Football League. And, most of you 703 00:31:20,220 --> 00:31:23,360 don't know that I actually pl– no. [laughter] 704 00:31:23,520 --> 00:31:25,870 We were with Randy at one of his 705 00:31:25,870 --> 00:31:27,100 doctor's appointments. 706 00:31:27,100 --> 00:31:28,690 We'd made a couple of calls, and 707 00:31:28,690 --> 00:31:30,940 producer Jeff Marts told him there was 708 00:31:30,940 --> 00:31:33,220 an invitation. This Wednesday, the 709 00:31:33,220 --> 00:31:35,320 Pittsburgh Steelers were wondering if 710 00:31:35,320 --> 00:31:37,540 you wanted to come to practice and maybe 711 00:31:37,540 --> 00:31:39,940 toss around a football. You have got to 712 00:31:39,940 --> 00:31:40,720 be kidding me. 713 00:31:40,720 --> 00:31:45,210 So, bring your sneakers. Right. Wow. 714 00:31:46,640 --> 00:31:48,480 Wow. 715 00:31:50,550 --> 00:31:54,050 That will be so cool. 716 00:31:54,370 --> 00:31:56,799 He walks out on the field for his own 717 00:31:56,799 --> 00:31:59,919 kind of Chariots of Fire, wearing the 718 00:31:59,919 --> 00:32:01,840 jersey of his favorite player: legendary 719 00:32:01,840 --> 00:32:04,809 wide receiver Hines Ward, only to learn 720 00:32:04,809 --> 00:32:06,490 that the man about to throw the passes 721 00:32:06,490 --> 00:32:10,679 is Hines Ward himself. 722 00:32:26,630 --> 00:32:29,210 The once scrawny kid, hammered by the 723 00:32:29,210 --> 00:32:35,350 coach of a peewee league, caught every single pass. 724 00:32:41,250 --> 00:32:44,910 Catching like me out there huh? But then they ask, is 725 00:32:44,910 --> 00:32:48,120 he up for one more dare? They want to know if you 726 00:32:48,120 --> 00:32:50,640 want to try kicking. Haven't done that 727 00:32:50,640 --> 00:32:53,550 in a while, sure. Nervous, but he is the 728 00:32:53,550 --> 00:32:55,380 guy who says sometimes the only safe 729 00:32:55,380 --> 00:32:59,300 thing is to take a chance. I used to be an athlete. 730 00:32:59,300 --> 00:33:01,130 It's better to be a 'used to be' than 731 00:33:01,130 --> 00:33:05,690 'never was.' Damn sure. I can do this, I 732 00:33:05,690 --> 00:33:09,800 think. How's it going? Hi, Daniel. 733 00:33:09,800 --> 00:33:11,890 Nice to meet you, I'm Randy. Randy, nice to meet you. 734 00:33:11,890 --> 00:33:15,100 Here we go! 735 00:33:29,600 --> 00:33:32,070 In the locker room, a moment with tight 736 00:33:32,070 --> 00:33:34,140 end John Dekker, whose dad's going into surgery. 737 00:33:34,830 --> 00:33:37,910 What's the surgery? For prostate cancer. 738 00:33:38,340 --> 00:33:40,320 My thoughts will be with him. 739 00:33:40,320 --> 00:33:42,360 Star quarterback Ben Roethlisberger, just 740 00:33:42,360 --> 00:33:43,920 returning from a serious motorcycle 741 00:33:43,920 --> 00:33:46,290 accident. It's an honor to have you here, 742 00:33:46,290 --> 00:33:47,970 it really is. I'm glad you could make it. 743 00:33:47,970 --> 00:33:53,100 The honor's all mine. I admire the grit you've showed 744 00:33:53,100 --> 00:33:55,380 coming back from surgery. A little adversity, yeah. 745 00:33:55,380 --> 00:33:58,110 Mine's not as bad as yours, but it was bad, 746 00:33:58,110 --> 00:33:59,820 I'll tell you what. I think I still look 747 00:33:59,820 --> 00:34:03,170 good. I think you look great! 748 00:34:12,510 --> 00:34:15,960 Wow, just a great place. 749 00:34:20,090 --> 00:34:23,840 They are very big people. 750 00:34:29,810 --> 00:34:32,030 One more note. When it comes to 751 00:34:32,030 --> 00:34:34,190 childlike wonder, there's something else 752 00:34:34,190 --> 00:34:35,929 you should know about Randy Pausch and 753 00:34:35,929 --> 00:34:38,510 his team at Carnegie Mellon. They created 754 00:34:38,510 --> 00:34:40,730 something called "The Alice Project." You 755 00:34:40,730 --> 00:34:42,710 can download it for free tonight on the 756 00:34:42,710 --> 00:34:45,230 internet. It teaches kids to learn about 757 00:34:45,230 --> 00:34:48,080 computers by telling wonderful stories. 758 00:34:48,080 --> 00:34:50,409 And then, we're going to have Kristen 759 00:34:50,409 --> 00:34:52,730 slap Trevor, so this is basically a 760 00:34:52,730 --> 00:34:54,290 reenactment of my middle school 761 00:34:54,290 --> 00:34:57,170 experience. He particularly designed it 762 00:34:57,170 --> 00:35:00,710 for girls, since only 17 to 28 percent of 763 00:35:00,710 --> 00:35:02,600 those majoring in computer science in 764 00:35:02,600 --> 00:35:05,810 college are female. And, to even let one not 765 00:35:05,810 --> 00:35:08,390 quite girl anymore show how I could 766 00:35:08,390 --> 00:35:11,720 stand the professor on his heels. When we 767 00:35:11,720 --> 00:35:14,300 come back, our last visit with Randy, just 768 00:35:14,300 --> 00:35:17,230 six days ago. 769 00:35:21,200 --> 00:35:24,710 Hello! Hi! Just last Thursday, we went to see 770 00:35:24,710 --> 00:35:26,930 Randy once again at his home. It had been 771 00:35:26,930 --> 00:35:28,789 a rough time. I'm still a little wobbly, 772 00:35:28,789 --> 00:35:32,000 but hanging in there. He had just come 773 00:35:32,000 --> 00:35:34,609 home from the hospital. The chemotherapy 774 00:35:34,609 --> 00:35:36,619 had shut down his kidneys temporarily, 775 00:35:36,619 --> 00:35:39,200 and he'd been in heart failure. With 776 00:35:39,200 --> 00:35:41,000 three liters of fluid surrounding your 777 00:35:41,000 --> 00:35:42,740 lungs, your breathing starts to turn into [pants]. 778 00:35:42,740 --> 00:35:46,490 So, that was, you know, that was a 779 00:35:46,490 --> 00:35:49,190 little bit scary. He acknowledged every 780 00:35:49,190 --> 00:35:51,799 now and then, even Tigger goes down for 781 00:35:51,799 --> 00:35:53,450 the count. You know, there are certainly 782 00:35:53,450 --> 00:35:56,480 times when you feel like okay, yeah, 783 00:35:56,480 --> 00:35:58,160 you've beaten me down to my knees, and 784 00:35:58,160 --> 00:36:01,369 now the challenge is I'm on my knees and 785 00:36:01,369 --> 00:36:02,630 you're just gonna keep beating me, and 786 00:36:02,630 --> 00:36:04,279 the question is are you gonna beat me all 787 00:36:04,279 --> 00:36:05,359 the way to the ground or am I going to 788 00:36:05,359 --> 00:36:06,680 find a way to struggle back up to my 789 00:36:06,680 --> 00:36:09,079 feet? And, you know, it takes time 790 00:36:09,079 --> 00:36:11,480 sometimes. Even for you? 791 00:36:11,480 --> 00:36:13,970 Absolutely for me. There's certainly 792 00:36:13,970 --> 00:36:16,460 times when I cry, you know, I like to cry 793 00:36:16,460 --> 00:36:17,809 in the shower, I think for the same 794 00:36:17,809 --> 00:36:19,400 reason that people sing in the shower is 795 00:36:19,400 --> 00:36:21,559 that you think nobody, you know, it's your 796 00:36:21,559 --> 00:36:24,349 own little private space. He told us the 797 00:36:24,349 --> 00:36:26,599 support of strangers had meant the world 798 00:36:26,599 --> 00:36:29,779 to him. So, how do you get people to help 799 00:36:29,779 --> 00:36:31,730 you? You can't get there alone. You get 800 00:36:31,730 --> 00:36:33,170 people to help you by telling the truth, 801 00:36:33,170 --> 00:36:35,420 being earnest. I'll take an earnest 802 00:36:35,420 --> 00:36:37,700 person over a hip person every day, 803 00:36:37,700 --> 00:36:39,859 because hip is short-term. Earnest is 804 00:36:39,859 --> 00:36:43,009 long-term. I was a big believer in people 805 00:36:43,009 --> 00:36:44,820 when this started, but my goodness. 806 00:36:44,820 --> 00:36:48,900 He showed us a few of the 807 00:36:48,900 --> 00:36:51,300 emails he's received, former students 808 00:36:51,300 --> 00:36:53,610 saying how he changed them, parents 809 00:36:53,610 --> 00:36:55,470 writing, too. A lot of people wrote to me 810 00:36:55,470 --> 00:36:57,540 and said I have a teenager, I have so 811 00:36:57,540 --> 00:37:00,000 much trouble talking with them, they 812 00:37:00,000 --> 00:37:01,770 watched your lecture and after the 813 00:37:01,770 --> 00:37:03,350 lecture, we sat down and talked for hours. 814 00:37:03,350 --> 00:37:07,440 And, letters like this one. 815 00:37:07,440 --> 00:37:10,290 To think that on December 29th, 2007, I 816 00:37:10,290 --> 00:37:13,140 planned my suicide. And now, I thank God 817 00:37:13,140 --> 00:37:16,290 for every day I have to live. I'm ashamed 818 00:37:16,290 --> 00:37:18,120 that I took my life for granted while 819 00:37:18,120 --> 00:37:22,410 you take nothing for granted. 820 00:37:22,410 --> 00:37:24,510 Again, it's time for us to leave, but again, 821 00:37:24,510 --> 00:37:27,330 before we go, the professor has another 822 00:37:27,330 --> 00:37:29,930 critique of me for the broadcast tonight. 823 00:37:29,930 --> 00:37:33,240 Be careful, he says, of that "Saint Randy" 824 00:37:33,240 --> 00:37:35,130 stuff. Every time I do teaching 825 00:37:35,130 --> 00:37:37,860 evaluations, 95% of them say, you know, 826 00:37:37,860 --> 00:37:39,240 this was one of the best courses I've 827 00:37:39,240 --> 00:37:41,910 ever taken, and the other 5% say you are 828 00:37:41,910 --> 00:37:44,220 a monster and should not be let 829 00:37:44,220 --> 00:37:46,650 near students. And sometimes, you know, I 830 00:37:46,650 --> 00:37:49,290 have all the social graces of, you know, a 831 00:37:49,290 --> 00:37:52,380 lumbering moose. Which brings us back to 832 00:37:52,380 --> 00:37:55,250 the day of the lecture. Dr. Randy Pausch. 833 00:37:55,250 --> 00:37:58,170 When students and colleagues came from 834 00:37:58,170 --> 00:37:59,850 all over the country to hear and pay 835 00:37:59,850 --> 00:38:02,100 tribute to their singular mentor and 836 00:38:02,100 --> 00:38:04,530 friend. Don't tell people how to live 837 00:38:04,530 --> 00:38:08,090 their lives. Just tell them stories, and 838 00:38:08,090 --> 00:38:12,000 they'll figure out how the stories apply 839 00:38:12,000 --> 00:38:14,610 to them. It was sort of like being there 840 00:38:14,610 --> 00:38:17,280 when when Babe Ruth hit his called 841 00:38:17,280 --> 00:38:19,350 home run... Jeff's Zaslow of the Wall 842 00:38:19,350 --> 00:38:21,990 Street Journal, co-author of Randy's book. 843 00:38:21,990 --> 00:38:24,840 His fate is our fate, but it's just 844 00:38:24,840 --> 00:38:26,880 sped up. We're all dying just like Randy 845 00:38:26,880 --> 00:38:29,550 is. When we can see him how he's 846 00:38:29,550 --> 00:38:31,380 traveling, it makes us think about how 847 00:38:31,380 --> 00:38:33,660 we're going to travel. Toward the end of 848 00:38:33,660 --> 00:38:35,760 the lecture, a surprise for Jai. It was 849 00:38:35,760 --> 00:38:38,180 her birthday. 850 00:38:38,190 --> 00:38:42,089 I went up and gave him a big hug and I 851 00:38:42,089 --> 00:38:45,930 whispered to him that, I asked him, I said 852 00:38:45,930 --> 00:38:51,509 "please don't die," because all the magic 853 00:38:51,509 --> 00:38:54,890 would leave with him. 854 00:38:56,250 --> 00:39:00,960 The lecture, over. Time to go. So today's 855 00:39:00,960 --> 00:39:03,109 talk was about my childhood dreams, 856 00:39:03,109 --> 00:39:06,329 enabling the dreams of others, and some 857 00:39:06,329 --> 00:39:10,349 lessons learned. But, did you figure out 858 00:39:10,349 --> 00:39:12,829 the head fake? 859 00:39:13,910 --> 00:39:15,200 It's not about how to achieve your 860 00:39:15,200 --> 00:39:18,730 dreams. It's about how to lead your life. 861 00:39:18,730 --> 00:39:20,630 Have you figured out the second head fake? 862 00:39:24,660 --> 00:39:27,299 Talk's not for you. It's for my kids. 863 00:39:27,299 --> 00:39:32,999 Thank you, goodnight. 864 00:39:32,999 --> 00:39:41,800 [music and applause] 865 00:39:41,800 --> 00:39:43,960 There was a definite sense, when I put that talk 866 00:39:43,960 --> 00:39:45,880 together that, to use another 867 00:39:45,880 --> 00:39:47,500 football expression, you know, I wanted to 868 00:39:47,500 --> 00:39:48,369 leave it all on the field. 869 00:39:48,369 --> 00:39:55,460 [music and applause] 870 00:39:55,460 --> 00:39:57,680 I've played the football games where 871 00:39:57,680 --> 00:39:58,880 you walk off the field and the 872 00:39:58,880 --> 00:40:00,140 scoreboard didn't end up the way you 873 00:40:00,140 --> 00:40:05,869 wanted, but you knew that you really did 874 00:40:05,869 --> 00:40:12,100 give it all, and the other team was too strong. 875 00:40:12,100 --> 00:40:14,420 Yeah, I'm not gonna beat the cancer. I 876 00:40:14,420 --> 00:40:18,740 tried really. I mean, I did everything. We 877 00:40:18,740 --> 00:40:20,720 have no regrets. We got the best medical 878 00:40:20,720 --> 00:40:24,290 care in the world, but sometimes you're 879 00:40:24,290 --> 00:40:27,860 just not gonna beat the thing. But, you 880 00:40:27,860 --> 00:40:29,930 want to walk off the field and say, yeah 881 00:40:29,930 --> 00:40:34,640 no regrets, gave it the best shot. 882 00:40:34,640 --> 00:40:37,630 I wanted to walk off the stage and say 883 00:40:37,630 --> 00:40:39,650 anything I thought was important. 884 00:40:39,650 --> 00:40:42,340 I had my hour. 885 00:40:50,390 --> 00:40:53,280 The Last Lecture, which is published by 886 00:40:53,280 --> 00:40:55,170 our sister company Hyperion is in 887 00:40:55,170 --> 00:40:57,630 bookstores today and you can go online 888 00:40:57,630 --> 00:40:59,730 for more information on the Pancreatic 889 00:40:59,730 --> 00:41:02,130 Cancer Action Network and the Lustgarten 890 00:41:02,130 --> 00:41:03,660 Foundation for Pancreatic Cancer 891 00:41:03,660 --> 00:41:05,760 Research, which is doing something very 892 00:41:05,760 --> 00:41:08,880 special with Randy's book. I'm Diane 893 00:41:08,880 --> 00:41:11,100 Sawyer, and for all of us at Primetime 894 00:41:11,100 --> 00:41:13,980 and ABC News, I want to thank Randy Pausch 895 00:41:13,980 --> 00:41:16,680 and his family, as we wish them and you a 896 00:41:16,680 --> 00:41:21,410 good night and a joyful day tomorrow.