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Dialogue: 0,0:00:00.38,0:00:01.21,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- Hey, everybody.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:01.21,0:00:02.95,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I am joined by the wonderful and amazing--
Dialogue: 0,0:00:02.95,0:00:04.36,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- Elle Mills.\N- Elle Mills.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:04.36,0:00:06.14,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So tell your audience\Na little bit about you.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:06.14,0:00:08.93,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- Yeah, so, I make videos about
Dialogue: 0,0:00:08.93,0:00:11.65,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,my life in little short movies.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:11.65,0:00:14.49,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I like to say to people\Nwho haven't watched them,
Dialogue: 0,0:00:14.49,0:00:17.22,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,think if Ferris Bueller\Nhad a YouTube channel.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:17.22,0:00:18.18,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- Oh, yeah, I agree.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:18.18,0:00:20.21,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But I love her content.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:20.21,0:00:21.87,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I will link all of her things\Ndown in the description,
Dialogue: 0,0:00:21.87,0:00:22.96,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and we're doing a video over there,
Dialogue: 0,0:00:22.96,0:00:24.32,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,so you have to check that out.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:24.32,0:00:25.82,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But I really just wanted you to share.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:25.82,0:00:27.28,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,'Cause you've kinda been on a journey
Dialogue: 0,0:00:27.28,0:00:29.66,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,we could say in the past two years?
Dialogue: 0,0:00:29.66,0:00:30.66,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- Yeah.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:30.66,0:00:33.27,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- I know you've talked\Nopenly about being burnt out.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:33.27,0:00:34.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Like, you put out your video,
Dialogue: 0,0:00:34.10,0:00:36.04,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I think it was Burnt Out At 19, right?
Dialogue: 0,0:00:36.04,0:00:36.87,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- Yes.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:36.87,0:00:38.42,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- Can you tell us a little\Nbit about what that felt like?
Dialogue: 0,0:00:38.42,0:00:40.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I think a lot of people throw\Naround the term burn out.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:40.80,0:00:42.52,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,What did it feel like for you?
Dialogue: 0,0:00:42.52,0:00:46.63,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- For me, it was my\Nbreaking point, basically.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:46.63,0:00:48.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Where I couldn't do anymore.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:48.60,0:00:50.27,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And if I had gone any further,
Dialogue: 0,0:00:50.27,0:00:51.52,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I don't know where I would be.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:51.52,0:00:56.52,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So I was working myself to exhaustion.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:56.69,0:00:59.97,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I was doing too much at once.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:59.97,0:01:01.87,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Too much that I couldn't handle it.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:01.87,0:01:06.01,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And it was just because\NI was growing so fast,
Dialogue: 0,0:01:06.01,0:01:08.14,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I couldn't keep up with it.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:11.79,0:01:12.97,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I gained a million in a year.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:12.97,0:01:16.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- That comes with pressure, I feel.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:16.50,0:01:19.91,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Not that I've gained a million in a year.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:19.91,0:01:23.01,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- But I feel like a lot of it also came,
Dialogue: 0,0:01:23.01,0:01:25.53,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,like, I had my coming out video go viral,
Dialogue: 0,0:01:25.53,0:01:27.59,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and then it became a pressure
Dialogue: 0,0:01:27.59,0:01:30.75,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,to be representation for LGBT community.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:30.75,0:01:32.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- Versus just being L.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:32.40,0:01:33.93,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,L's always been, essentially.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:33.93,0:01:34.76,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- Exactly.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:34.76,0:01:36.29,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And also before that,\Nbefore the coming out video,
Dialogue: 0,0:01:36.29,0:01:38.48,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,there was still pressure to make content
Dialogue: 0,0:01:38.48,0:01:40.44,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that was bigger and better,
Dialogue: 0,0:01:40.44,0:01:42.46,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and trying to top myself every week.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:42.46,0:01:44.36,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- And you do huge projects.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:44.36,0:01:46.67,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,One of the most recent ones was
Dialogue: 0,0:01:46.67,0:01:48.84,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,putting all the balloons on your house.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:48.84,0:01:50.23,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Doing the Up--
Dialogue: 0,0:01:50.23,0:01:51.57,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- Up house, yeah.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:51.57,0:01:52.99,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Turn my house into Up.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:52.99,0:01:56.33,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Yeah, so, it's not easy videos to make.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:56.33,0:01:59.32,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And so I was doing that\Nonce a week on that scale.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:59.32,0:02:04.32,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And Casey Neistat gave me a\Nhuge shout-out on his video,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:04.86,0:02:07.07,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and then that became a different level
Dialogue: 0,0:02:07.07,0:02:09.87,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,where other creators were talking about me
Dialogue: 0,0:02:09.87,0:02:10.94,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and I felt pressure 'cause I was
Dialogue: 0,0:02:10.94,0:02:12.34,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,a huge YouTube fan growing up.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:12.34,0:02:14.74,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And so, there was just all\Nthese external pressures
Dialogue: 0,0:02:14.74,0:02:16.68,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,on top of the internal pressure,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:16.68,0:02:20.06,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and I think I experienced my\Nfirst panic attack on tour.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:20.06,0:02:22.03,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So then I went on tour in April,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:22.03,0:02:24.07,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and it was just, like, traveling
Dialogue: 0,0:02:24.07,0:02:26.08,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and never being home,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:26.08,0:02:27.75,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and all of it just spiraling.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:27.75,0:02:31.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It was after Playlist Live for Orlando.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:31.10,0:02:32.84,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- I remember 'cause I was there,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:32.84,0:02:35.86,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and you were just doing so much.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:35.86,0:02:38.32,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Like, back to back to\Nback to back to back,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:38.32,0:02:39.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,doing all sorts of shit.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:39.50,0:02:40.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And I was like, it's a lot.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:40.50,0:02:42.21,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- Mhm, it is.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:42.21,0:02:43.32,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- And then, as you do more,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:43.32,0:02:45.64,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and the thing about the\NInternet that is wonderful
Dialogue: 0,0:02:45.64,0:02:47.84,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and terrible is that as you do\Nmore, then they expect more.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:47.84,0:02:49.88,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Like you said, always\Ntrying to top yourself.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:49.88,0:02:52.15,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,When your videos honestly would take
Dialogue: 0,0:02:52.15,0:02:54.98,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,any other production company\Nmonths to put together,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:54.98,0:02:56.94,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and you're expected to\Nit on the weekly basis.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:56.94,0:02:58.45,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And that's a lot.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:58.45,0:03:01.01,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So what made you realize this?
Dialogue: 0,0:03:01.01,0:03:02.45,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Just so exhausted?
Dialogue: 0,0:03:02.45,0:03:04.22,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Did you think something\Nwas wrong with you?
Dialogue: 0,0:03:04.22,0:03:06.59,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- What made me realize I was burnt out?
Dialogue: 0,0:03:06.59,0:03:07.86,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- Yeah.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:07.86,0:03:08.88,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- I had a mental breakdown.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:08.88,0:03:11.84,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And I made it very public.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:13.79,0:03:15.62,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Yeah, so I had a huge public breakdown
Dialogue: 0,0:03:15.62,0:03:17.44,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and I posted this video
Dialogue: 0,0:03:17.44,0:03:19.45,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and made everyone very concerned.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:19.45,0:03:24.45,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I remember that day being\Na very, very bad day.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:25.73,0:03:27.34,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Probably my darkest day.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:27.34,0:03:29.27,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And then after that,\Nthat's when my manager
Dialogue: 0,0:03:29.27,0:03:30.82,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and my family decided I needed a break,
Dialogue: 0,0:03:30.82,0:03:33.09,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and it was kind of like a mutual decision.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:33.09,0:03:36.64,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Like, it was just them stepping in
Dialogue: 0,0:03:36.64,0:03:38.54,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and being like, okay, you're done now.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:39.95,0:03:40.78,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- Was that good?
Dialogue: 0,0:03:40.78,0:03:41.61,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Was it like a relief?
Dialogue: 0,0:03:41.61,0:03:42.44,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- Yeah.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:42.44,0:03:43.76,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Oh my gosh, 'cause I\Nremember right after Playlist
Dialogue: 0,0:03:43.76,0:03:46.66,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that weekend I was supposed\Nto go back on tour.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:46.66,0:03:48.16,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And then a week after that,
Dialogue: 0,0:03:48.16,0:03:51.44,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,travel to New York for filming something.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:51.44,0:03:53.48,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- That's so much stuff.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:53.48,0:03:54.31,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- Yeah.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:54.31,0:03:55.87,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And then I was making\Nvideos on top of that.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:55.87,0:03:57.66,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- Holy shit, Elle.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:57.66,0:03:58.84,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- Yeah.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:58.84,0:04:01.28,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I feel like everyone kinda realized,
Dialogue: 0,0:04:01.28,0:04:04.53,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and obviously the mental\Nbreakdown was a big sign.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:04.53,0:04:06.36,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- Well, you can only take so much, right?
Dialogue: 0,0:04:06.36,0:04:08.32,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And you've struggled off\Nand on with depression.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:08.32,0:04:10.15,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Am I right or is that more burn-out?
Dialogue: 0,0:04:10.15,0:04:12.28,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- I'd say it was depression,
Dialogue: 0,0:04:12.28,0:04:14.17,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,but I've only started experiencing that,
Dialogue: 0,0:04:14.17,0:04:16.74,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,it was like, once I started YouTube.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:16.74,0:04:19.51,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- Okay, interesting.\N- Yeah, so it was very recent.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:19.51,0:04:21.59,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- I've always felt that it's a lot
Dialogue: 0,0:04:21.59,0:04:24.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,of energy out of ourselves to create.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:24.30,0:04:26.71,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And this is no dog.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:26.71,0:04:27.58,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Like, I love what I do.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:27.58,0:04:28.63,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I'm sure you love what you do too,
Dialogue: 0,0:04:28.63,0:04:30.97,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,but I think it definitely can be hard.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:30.97,0:04:33.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And especially all that instant feedback,
Dialogue: 0,0:04:33.00,0:04:34.42,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,which can be good or bad.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:34.42,0:04:36.22,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Do you think that's what's created it?
Dialogue: 0,0:04:36.22,0:04:37.32,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- Yeah.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:37.32,0:04:41.36,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And knowing that everyone\Ncan see how well I'm doing
Dialogue: 0,0:04:41.36,0:04:43.66,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and I can see how well I'm\Ndoing by the views and numbers.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:43.66,0:04:46.27,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So, like, it's not just me,\Nlike, oh, I know I'm doing bad,
Dialogue: 0,0:04:46.27,0:04:48.44,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,but everyone else can see\Nif I'm doing bad as well.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:48.44,0:04:49.52,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Just having that.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:49.52,0:04:51.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- Yeah and that sucks.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:51.30,0:04:52.86,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Especially if we've felt the high,
Dialogue: 0,0:04:52.86,0:04:54.31,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and then people are like, oh, well,
Dialogue: 0,0:04:54.31,0:04:55.98,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,you're not growing at the same rate.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:55.98,0:04:57.35,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Everybody can see all that data.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:57.35,0:04:58.32,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- Yeah, for sure.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:58.32,0:04:59.74,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- Yeah, totally.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:59.74,0:05:00.88,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So you took a break.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:00.88,0:05:03.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And then what else have you done?
Dialogue: 0,0:05:03.50,0:05:05.44,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,'Cause you are doing much better.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:05.44,0:05:06.27,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- Yes.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:06.27,0:05:07.81,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- I can just tell from seeing you around.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:07.81,0:05:09.12,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I'm like, oh, I think she's happier.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:09.12,0:05:10.57,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I think she's more like herself.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:10.57,0:05:12.57,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- I'm definitely doing better.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:12.57,0:05:17.57,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So, I think being open with\Neveryone has been really helpful
Dialogue: 0,0:05:17.74,0:05:20.43,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,because I know I'm very hard on myself.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:20.43,0:05:24.88,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So I guess it's the best\Nway to self-sabotage.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:24.88,0:05:26.13,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I don't know what it is.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:26.13,0:05:28.23,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I push myself to my limit,
Dialogue: 0,0:05:28.23,0:05:30.88,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and I have people now who are there
Dialogue: 0,0:05:30.88,0:05:32.95,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,just saying no, you can't do that.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:32.95,0:05:37.42,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Like, I think last week every\Nhour I was doing something.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:37.42,0:05:41.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It was after, oh, nevermind.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:41.90,0:05:43.35,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I was filming something all day.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:43.35,0:05:44.47,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- Yes, yes.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:44.47,0:05:45.61,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- I was filming something all day,
Dialogue: 0,0:05:45.61,0:05:47.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and I got back at, like, 12 a.m.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:47.90,0:05:50.16,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- Quite a long day, yeah.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:50.16,0:05:53.35,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- Yeah, my manager said I think I'm gonna
Dialogue: 0,0:05:53.35,0:05:54.79,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,cancel the two meetings tomorrow.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:54.79,0:05:57.18,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And I'm like, no, no, I can do\Nit, I can do it, I can do it.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:57.18,0:05:58.76,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And I knew I couldn't.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:58.76,0:06:00.52,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I was literally crying.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:00.52,0:06:03.05,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- You physically could get\Nthere, but mentally, like--
Dialogue: 0,0:06:03.05,0:06:05.16,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- And so, he stepped in and he said no.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:05.16,0:06:06.69,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- That's good, yeah.\N- Yeah.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:06.69,0:06:09.24,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So, like, having those people\Nthere has been really helpful.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:09.24,0:06:12.84,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Obviously I have no set\Nschedule for my videos.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:12.84,0:06:15.43,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So removing that pressure
Dialogue: 0,0:06:15.43,0:06:17.67,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and just posting whenever I'm inspired
Dialogue: 0,0:06:17.67,0:06:20.14,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,or whenever I want to make a video.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:22.10,0:06:24.44,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And yeah, just taking time for myself
Dialogue: 0,0:06:24.44,0:06:27.05,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,for sure has been helpful.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:27.05,0:06:30.12,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- It sounds like maybe you're\Nmore on that way to Type A,
Dialogue: 0,0:06:30.12,0:06:32.13,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,where I'm like, oh, I'll do it.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:32.13,0:06:33.23,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I can do it all.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:33.23,0:06:34.19,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I'll just put it on my schedule
Dialogue: 0,0:06:34.19,0:06:35.15,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and I'll just make it happen
Dialogue: 0,0:06:35.15,0:06:39.52,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,until I'm crying watching\Ntelevision or something random.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:39.52,0:06:40.76,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And I'm like, wow.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:40.76,0:06:44.23,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I'm like, I need to get back\Nin therapy and go for walks.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:44.23,0:06:46.14,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,That helps me take care of myself.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:46.14,0:06:49.100,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So it sounds like it's still a balance,
Dialogue: 0,0:06:49.100,0:06:52.28,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,but you definitely have things in place.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:52.28,0:06:53.57,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,People in place.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:53.57,0:06:55.23,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Are there certain things that you do
Dialogue: 0,0:06:55.23,0:06:56.06,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that have been the most helpful?
Dialogue: 0,0:06:56.06,0:06:57.04,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Like, have you tried therapy?
Dialogue: 0,0:06:57.04,0:06:58.33,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I don't even know.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:58.33,0:06:59.39,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I know we've talked\Nabout stuff off and on.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:59.39,0:07:00.94,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- I did it for a bit, but then I moved,
Dialogue: 0,0:07:00.94,0:07:02.49,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,so I haven't been able to find one,
Dialogue: 0,0:07:02.49,0:07:03.61,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,'cause I must have been trapped.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:03.61,0:07:06.23,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,The problem with my other\Ntherapist is I kept on traveling.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:06.23,0:07:08.63,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And they would be too busy,
Dialogue: 0,0:07:08.63,0:07:10.73,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and so, like, our\Nschedules didn't match up.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:10.73,0:07:14.48,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And so, I still have\Nto dive more into that.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:14.48,0:07:15.94,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- Yeah, figure out what works for you.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:15.94,0:07:16.77,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- Exactly.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:16.77,0:07:17.98,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- And person therapy\Ndoesn't work for everybody,
Dialogue: 0,0:07:17.98,0:07:19.31,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,'cause we do travel a lot.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:19.31,0:07:20.93,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Makes it hard to be regular.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:20.93,0:07:21.88,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- Yeah, for sure.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:21.88,0:07:24.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But I often just talk out my feelings
Dialogue: 0,0:07:24.30,0:07:25.48,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,to certain friends and stuff.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:25.48,0:07:26.41,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- Mhm, that's good.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:26.41,0:07:27.49,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Having a support system.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:27.49,0:07:28.36,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- Mhm, exactly.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:28.36,0:07:31.13,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- Any advice to any viewers that might be
Dialogue: 0,0:07:31.13,0:07:33.14,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,feeling kinda down and out or pushed to
Dialogue: 0,0:07:33.14,0:07:35.59,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,their limit with work, school, whatever?
Dialogue: 0,0:07:37.60,0:07:40.77,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- It's so simple, but literally\Ntake time for yourself.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:40.77,0:07:43.23,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I think just knowing that,
Dialogue: 0,0:07:43.23,0:07:45.66,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,just don't push yourself too much,
Dialogue: 0,0:07:45.66,0:07:48.74,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,because, you know, life's too short.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:51.25,0:07:55.58,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I think, for me, what pushed me to
Dialogue: 0,0:07:55.58,0:07:57.71,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,the point of a mental breakdown was that
Dialogue: 0,0:07:57.71,0:07:59.41,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I didn't talk to anyone about it
Dialogue: 0,0:07:59.41,0:08:01.72,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and I think it's very\Nhelpful to kinda get help
Dialogue: 0,0:08:01.72,0:08:03.94,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and talk about how you're feeling.
Dialogue: 0,0:08:03.94,0:08:07.39,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,People will help and people\Nwill take care of you,
Dialogue: 0,0:08:07.39,0:08:08.36,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,because people care about you.
Dialogue: 0,0:08:08.36,0:08:10.14,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,People will wanna\Nsupport you and all that.
Dialogue: 0,0:08:10.14,0:08:11.71,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- Yeah, like, listening and support.
Dialogue: 0,0:08:11.71,0:08:13.13,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Friends are great for that.
Dialogue: 0,0:08:13.13,0:08:14.72,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And even groups on Facebook\Nare great for that,
Dialogue: 0,0:08:14.72,0:08:16.24,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,'cause I think a lot of\Nit, at least even for me,
Dialogue: 0,0:08:16.24,0:08:18.51,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,is like permission to take a break.
Dialogue: 0,0:08:18.51,0:08:21.22,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Permission to take time to like,
Dialogue: 0,0:08:21.22,0:08:22.64,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,oh, I need to go for a\Nwalk, even if I'm like,
Dialogue: 0,0:08:22.64,0:08:24.41,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,shit, I don't really\Nhave the time in my day.
Dialogue: 0,0:08:24.41,0:08:26.37,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I even told Shawn, I'm like,
Dialogue: 0,0:08:26.37,0:08:29.21,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I can't do other things\Nif I don't do this.
Dialogue: 0,0:08:29.21,0:08:31.23,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So this is a priority.
Dialogue: 0,0:08:31.23,0:08:32.29,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- Exactly.
Dialogue: 0,0:08:32.29,0:08:33.73,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- But then I still feel guilty.
Dialogue: 0,0:08:33.73,0:08:35.24,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- I know, me too.
Dialogue: 0,0:08:35.24,0:08:38.86,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But having a friend being\Nlike, no, you're gonna go out
Dialogue: 0,0:08:38.86,0:08:43.02,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and go to a movie with\Nus instead is, it's nice.
Dialogue: 0,0:08:43.02,0:08:43.85,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Yeah.\N- Yeah.
Dialogue: 0,0:08:43.85,0:08:45.44,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Good, well, I'm glad you're doing better.
Dialogue: 0,0:08:45.44,0:08:46.27,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- Well, thank you.
Dialogue: 0,0:08:46.27,0:08:47.15,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- And thanks for sharing your story.
Dialogue: 0,0:08:47.15,0:08:49.01,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And like I said, she\Ndoes have other videos
Dialogue: 0,0:08:49.01,0:08:50.93,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,where you really deep\Ndive into how it was,
Dialogue: 0,0:08:50.93,0:08:52.08,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and you can kinda see the progression,
Dialogue: 0,0:08:52.08,0:08:53.23,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,which, I'm just glad you're doing better.
Dialogue: 0,0:08:53.23,0:08:54.13,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- Yeah, thank you so much.
Dialogue: 0,0:08:54.13,0:08:55.36,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- And thanks for filming with me.
Dialogue: 0,0:08:55.36,0:08:56.38,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- Oh, no worries.
Dialogue: 0,0:08:56.38,0:08:57.21,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- Yay.
Dialogue: 0,0:08:57.21,0:08:58.04,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And we'll see you guys next time.
Dialogue: 0,0:08:58.04,0:08:58.87,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Bye.