June 8, 2010,
Russell Wilson, fourth round picked to the Colorado Rockies baseball.
I'm fired up,
one of the highest moments of my life.
Every kid's dream to be drafted by a major league baseball team.
June 8, 2010.
June 9, 2010 --
(Imitating flat line sound)
The line goes flat.
My dad passes away.
The highest of the high, the lowest of the low.
Just like that.
My dad lay in his death bed,
just tears running down my face,
you know, what do I do next?
My mind racing, memories, flash backs, moments
early mornings, getting up,
taking grounders and throwing,
speed outs and deep post routes to my brother and my dad,
to early morning car rides to AU baseball,
to my dad being the third-base coach.
Fast forward to championship, high of winning a Super Bowl,
holding up the Lombardi trophy,
and the emotions and the excitement of it all,
blue and green confetti all over the place
and knowing that you just won the Super Bowl,
to a year later, the pressure of the game,
the ball on the one yard line,
and this is the chance to win the game and it doesn't work.
And having the many millions and million of people
all over the world, watching.
And having to walk to the media,
and what do I say next, what do I do, what do I think?
Being married at a young age,
and just coming out of college and everything else,
to, you know, shortly after, marriage not working out
and realizing, you know what?
Life happens.
Life happens, life happens to all of us.
Loss of family members, divorce,
fear, pain, depression, concerns, worries.
When you think about being superpositive,
yes, I'm positive by nature,
but positivity, you know, it doesn't always work,
because when you're down 16 nothing in an NFC championship game,
and people are like,
"Russ, we're not going to be able to win this game, man,"
it's not a great situation right now,
when you're facing cancer,
or you have things you have to deal with, or finances and this and that,
like, how do we deal with it?
It's hard to be positive in the midst of it all.
And what I definitely knew was this,
the negativity works 100 percent of the time.
Negativity was going to get me nowhere.
I started saying to myself,
new [unclear] every morning,
new beginnings, new starts.
And despite hardship and pain and worries and wanting to get through it,
how do I do this,
I started thinking about a car.
You know how when you drive a car, you get a stick shift
and you want to shift to neutral?
You go from first gear to second gear, all the way to fifth?
You've got to know how to shift to neutral.
And I needed to shift to neutral immediatelly, before I crashed.
Sitting there after the Super Bowl,
I had a decision to make.
Will I let this define my career, will I let it define my life?
Hell, no.
What I found out was this: the mindset is a skill.
It can be taught and learned.
I started 10 years ago, training my mind,
with this guy named Trevor Moawad, my mental-conditioning coach,
and he's been with me for 10 years,
and we've been best friends and partners ever since.
As athletes, we train the body,
we train ourselves to be able to run fast and throw farther and jump higher
and do these different things,
but why don't we train our mind?
What do you want your life to look like, write it out.
Talk about it, say it,
what's our language, what does it look like,
watch these highlights, Russell, when you're in your best moments.
What does that look like?
And be that, live that, sound like that.
The best free throw shooters,
they don't worry about the shot they just missed,
they think about this shot,
this pat, this throw, this first down.
Then I met this kid Milton Wright, 19 years old,
he had cancer three different times.
This day when I went to see him, he was frustrated,
"Russ, I'm done, I don't want to do this anymore,
it's my time to go."
I started telling him this story about my Dad,
how he used to say, "Son, why not you?
Why don't you graduate early, play pro football and pro baseball,
why not you, why not you?"
I said, "Milton, why not you?
If you try T-cell therapy,
and you try this and it doesn't work,
you won't remember it."
So Milton got a smile on his face and said,
"You're exactly right.
Yes, I do have cancer, Russ.
But I can either let this kill me,
not just physically,
but I can also let it kill me emotionally and mentally.
And I have a choice right now, in the midst of the problem,
in the midst of the storm,
to decide to overcome."
One of the questions I always get asked about neutral thinking is this:
"Does that mean I don't have any emotion?"
And I always say, absolutely not.
Yeah, we have emotions,
we have real-life situations,
we have things to deal with,
but what you have to be able to do is to stay focused on the moment.
And to not be superemotional.
It's OK to have emotions, but don't be emotional.
When people look at me,
they see that I'm the highest paid player in the NFL,
they see that I have the girl and Ciara,
that I have the family and this and that.
But I still have real-life situations.
We all do.
We all have, you know, sadness and loss,
and depression and worries and fear.
I didn't just get here.
What's the truth,
and how do I come through this better?
And that's really, kind of, how my mind started shifting,
it was not just on the success of it all
or the failure of it,
it was on the process, like,
you know, what is the next step,
how do I do this right here, right now?
We have a choice to make in life,
and for me, when I was young and I didn't have much,
I made a choice.
I made a choice that I was going to believe
that great things are going to happen,
that I was going to have my mindset right
and that I was going to have the right language
and the right things to think about,
which helped prepare me for today,
because I'm just human.
I just have the ability to throw the ball long way,
and run around and make some cool and fun throws.
And make some people smile,
but the reality is that I still have pressure,
I still have worries, I still have fears,
I still have things that happen.
Still have loss.
Positivity can be dangerous.
But what always works is negativity,
I never want to live in negativity,
so I stayed in neutral.
I kept my shift in neutral.
And so that's where I lived,
you know, that's where I've been living ever since.