He supported me, not by giving me things,
I'm not sure if I've been able to do the same for him,
but I know that what we have is not a relationship of convenience.
[COSTCO SUBS PRESENTS]
[Interview with a member who's leaving]
In the beginning...
I'd just take the shinkansen (bullet train)
to get to my school in Shinjuku and then I'd head back home,
and I couldn't quite get used to it.
To be suddenly out living with strangers...
There were many times when I didn't want to go back home.
But gradually, in regards to my commute to Shinjuku,
and by getting to know the other people in the house and such,
I began to realize that I could just relax.
That's when I began to enjoy it even more.
[ABOUT KAITO NAKATA] At first, I wasn't interested in Kaito at all.
I'd never been around any guy with a vibe like him so far.
I was like, "Oh, he's different."
It was probably around the time I started preparing for the school festival.
I'd leave the house around six in the morning every day
and I'd come back at eleven.
He'd send me messages saying, "Do you want dinner?"
Or, "I made you dinner."
Or when I was too exhausted and fell asleep in the living room...
I heard a noise and woke up,
and he was sitting next to me, just playing with his phone.
He didn't ask me, "Are you okay?" or, "Are you tired?" or anything.
He'd just sit there next to me.
That's probably when I started realizing I might like him.
[YOUR CHOICE NOT TO BE A COUPLE] This is probably not a Japanese way of thinking.
If you ask me why...
Even though we didn't end up as a couple,
we still have feelings for each other,
we're not interested in anyone else,
and we're not involved with anyone else.
Well, basically, it's as though we were dating.
The difference is we didn't have time to confess our feelings to each other.
[ARGUMENTS WITH KAITO] Now, we...
We fight much more than I would've thought.
Before we became a couple... Well, not a couple, but anyways...
He said, "When I have a girlfriend,
I tend to just leave her alone and focus on skateboarding."
"I'm not possessive." And I was like, "Oh, I see!"
But it wasn't like that at all.
He was... jealous of Aio.
He was like, "The two of you are so close!"
And was like, "Why don't you just date him?" Stuff like that...
But then I'll be like, "Oh, okay..."
"So what I did today wasn't okay for him. Then I have to apologize."
And I'll say sorry.
And when we go to bed, we'll both just forget about it.
Lately, we've been having a lot of these small fights.
[YOUR FIRST QUARREL WITH YUI AND RISAKO] During that time, I was probably...
Living together with others was exhausting for me,
and I was exhausted from school.
Even though I had a good time with everyone,
I'd find myself alone in the TV room a lot.
During that time, the guys... Kaito was worried about me,
then Aio would come in and check on me, then Sota. "Maya, are you all right?"
They did that every day.
To the guys, I said, "I want to sleep alone, it's okay."
And they were like, "Oh, okay then."
It didn't get awkward. I could just talk to them and be like, "See you later, then!"
But with Yui and Risako...
Well, they never came to check on me in the TV room.
When we had that fight,
Risako said that she'd asked me many times if I was all right,
but I honestly don't remember her asking me that.
I think their personalities and my personality are...
kind of... completely opposite, right?
Like, I'm more of a direct person...
I have a sharp tongue,
I'll just say what's on my mind.
I'm sure there were many times when I was causing trouble to them.
So I'm grateful to them now for pointing out my immature behavior.
And also...
I'll be around a lot of people I've never met from now on,
so I will remember what Risako and Yui told me.
Now I have a chance to better myself.
[RISAKO AFTER THE SOCK INCIDENT] When Risako got confronted herself...
She just got insanely gloomy and wouldn't talk anymore.
That went on for... more than three days.
But we still wanted to be friends with her in spite of that.
We knew the show was going to end soon.
We wanted to end it in good terms.
We were really eager to talk to her about whatever.
But that may have been...
irritating to her.
She didn't go back to her normal friendly behavior immediately.
There was this awkwardness after that, which lasted for a long time.
Compared to the time when I had an argument with Risako and Yui,
the awkwardness lasted longer when Yui and I had that argument with Risako.
Yui and I both really wanted to be friends with her again.
So even with small things, we'd explain to her what we meant,
but Risako was always like, "Oh, I see."
In a gloomy sort of way.
She wouldn't join in our talks at all.
That awkwardness lasted for a long time.
[ABOUT AIO & YUI HAVING KISSED] About Aio and Yui having kissed...
I knew about that.
But you know, since the two of them didn't make it official...
we didn't feel like we should talk about it like, "Hey, those two kissed, right?"
So we couldn't tell anyone. We just told Yui,
"You need to say it in front of the camera already!"
We... told her many times.
And then things just happened so fast.
But I really didn't know that they'd made any progress.
Yui called me the next day...
I was so surprised.
She was like, "Things might have gotten a little bit out of hand."
She told me over the phone. Like, "Don't be surprised when you get home!"
I was like, "What?" And when I got home...
I was surprised to find out that... they were like that.
[YOUR THOUGHTS ABOUT YUI] She is very considerate to others.
She meddles a bit too much...
And she isn't a very sincere person.
Since she lived in the house for eight months...
She must have had a lot of stress, caused by the reactions of the viewers,
and stress from living together with others.
I think she was dealing with a lot of stuff.
But she doesn't really show this to other people.
I think she's a nice person.
But I realized that she isn't very sincere when...
Even though...
Even though it was so obvious to us that she was in love with Aio,
she wouldn't say it herself. I thought that wasn't very sincere of her.
And even after they'd started dating,
when Aio was seeking her attention,
she'd just be like, "Oh, stop!" But you could tell from her face
that she wanted him to do it.
I felt that wasn't very sincere.
But lately she's changed a lot.
She isn't as... embarrassed in front of people as before.
Now I often see them act all flirty.
[LEAVING TERRACE HOUSE] Until I joined Terrace House...
I really didn't have any idea about my dreams for the future.
I didn't know what I wanted to do. I didn't even want to think about it.
But the people I was living with...
were all just so incredible.
When people are chasing after their own dreams, and giving their best to fulfill them,
I think they are so cool.
So living in Terrace House made me really start thinking about things.
I can't say, "I want to be a model!" with confidence yet,
but seeing what Risako was doing every day,
looking at magazines... I used to read magazines a lot before,
but I've been trying to read even more.
So step by step, I've been thinking about my own dreams, including being a model.
If I go down that road, I want to be working internationally.
[Translated and Timed by MrsChap] [Reviewed by koma & goob]
but he'd spend time with me, he'd cook for me,
and his words gave me a lot of support.