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Dialogue: 0,0:00:00.12,0:00:02.71,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,♪ethereal ambient music♪
Dialogue: 0,0:00:08.96,0:00:11.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,[lock clicking]
Dialogue: 0,0:00:11.10,0:00:13.85,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,[heels clacking]
Dialogue: 0,0:00:26.17,0:00:29.25,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,[car engine revving]
Dialogue: 0,0:00:32.23,0:00:34.65,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,♪♪♪
Dialogue: 0,0:00:34.65,0:00:39.65,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,[Miranda VO] Risk, in general for me, is\Nreally such a comfort zone.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:42.93,0:00:45.91,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I was the kind of kid who was just like,
Dialogue: 0,0:00:45.91,0:00:48.06,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"Dare me to do something."
Dialogue: 0,0:00:48.06,0:00:51.37,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I loved the high of that.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:51.37,0:00:54.04,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,♪♪♪
Dialogue: 0,0:00:55.91,0:00:58.83,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,(plastic rustling)
Dialogue: 0,0:01:00.45,0:01:03.12,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,(mellow music)
Dialogue: 0,0:01:04.06,0:01:08.39,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I am remembering when I was\Nmaybe seven or something
Dialogue: 0,0:01:09.45,0:01:12.03,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,playing at the park, and there was...
Dialogue: 0,0:01:12.03,0:01:14.52,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You know those really\Nintense basketball games
Dialogue: 0,0:01:14.52,0:01:17.25,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,with men playing, and\Nthey're just shouting,
Dialogue: 0,0:01:17.25,0:01:18.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and like, "I'm open, I'm open!"
Dialogue: 0,0:01:18.80,0:01:20.04,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You know, like,\N[chuckling] um...
Dialogue: 0,0:01:20.04,0:01:25.02,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And my friends dared me to join the game.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:25.02,0:01:27.06,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,(mellow music)
Dialogue: 0,0:01:27.06,0:01:28.83,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,[Miranda] Do you mind holding that for a sec?
Dialogue: 0,0:01:28.83,0:01:31.92,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You can let go whenever\Nyou need to let go.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:31.92,0:01:32.75,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Thank you.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:34.08,0:01:36.78,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,[Miranda VO] And I just jumped right in,
Dialogue: 0,0:01:36.78,0:01:38.82,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and just was like, "I'm open, I'm open!"
Dialogue: 0,0:01:38.82,0:01:42.36,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You know, just, like, doing\Nthe [chuckling] stuff I saw them doing,
Dialogue: 0,0:01:42.36,0:01:45.24,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and I was,\Nlike, floating on air,
Dialogue: 0,0:01:45.24,0:01:47.85,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,you know, because I'd\Ndone it and I'd survived.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:47.85,0:01:49.71,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,[Miranda] Do you mind just holding this?
Dialogue: 0,0:01:49.71,0:01:52.08,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You can let go whenever\Nyou need to let go.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:53.40,0:01:56.64,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,[Miranda VO] I guess I learned if you're not afraid --
Dialogue: 0,0:01:56.64,0:01:59.88,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and why\Nshould you really be afraid? --
Dialogue: 0,0:01:59.88,0:02:02.07,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,then it's like you can fly
Dialogue: 0,0:02:02.07,0:02:04.24,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You have this superpower.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:04.24,0:02:06.99,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,♪curious electronic music♪
Dialogue: 0,0:02:09.51,0:02:13.35,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Now, I usually say I'm a\Nwriter, filmmaker, and artist.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:13.35,0:02:14.67,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So within that,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:14.67,0:02:16.09,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I perform
Dialogue: 0,0:02:18.12,0:02:21.84,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and I work in these different mediums.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:21.84,0:02:24.59,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,♪♪♪
Dialogue: 0,0:02:26.04,0:02:28.35,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- Some things are hidden for a reason,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:28.35,0:02:30.78,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and if you see them,\Nyou'll be changed forever.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:30.78,0:02:33.43,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But I wanted to be changed forever.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:33.43,0:02:35.88,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,♪♪♪
Dialogue: 0,0:02:35.88,0:02:38.76,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,[Miranda VO] It feels like there's\Na million sub-genres
Dialogue: 0,0:02:38.76,0:02:39.72,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,of all those things,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:39.72,0:02:42.06,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Like, "filmmaker"\N-- you know,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:42.06,0:02:44.73,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that, to me, includes feature films.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:44.73,0:02:46.02,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,[Miranda] And, cut!
Dialogue: 0,0:02:46.02,0:02:48.98,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And things you might make really quickly
Dialogue: 0,0:02:48.98,0:02:51.15,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and in an afternoon.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:51.15,0:02:54.12,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So I'm not really a purist.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:54.12,0:02:57.42,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,♪lush ethereal music♪
Dialogue: 0,0:02:57.42,0:02:59.28,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I started so young.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:59.28,0:03:02.07,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I started when I was 16
Dialogue: 0,0:03:02.07,0:03:04.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,writing and directing my first play.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:04.70,0:03:07.45,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,[heels clacking]
Dialogue: 0,0:03:08.43,0:03:12.48,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I had started a correspondence\Nwith a man in prison.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:14.76,0:03:17.82,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,There used to be lists of prison pen pals
Dialogue: 0,0:03:17.82,0:03:19.71,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,in the back of magazines,
Dialogue: 0,0:03:19.71,0:03:22.59,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and I really just chose him at random.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:23.58,0:03:24.84,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It wasn't romantic
Dialogue: 0,0:03:24.84,0:03:28.32,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,because I was, thank\NGod, a hardcore feminist,
Dialogue: 0,0:03:28.32,0:03:32.79,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,but it was very intimate\Nonce that boundary was set.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:32.79,0:03:34.83,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Dear friend, this is legal paper.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:34.83,0:03:37.05,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I wish it was the opposite.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:37.05,0:03:38.61,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,How has your day been so far?
Dialogue: 0,0:03:38.61,0:03:39.96,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You make me wish we could meet.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:39.96,0:03:42.15,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Perhaps we can someday.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:42.15,0:03:44.85,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,[Miranda VO] I think he and I were in it
Dialogue: 0,0:03:44.85,0:03:48.42,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,for similar reasons in that\Nwe loved the attention.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:49.32,0:03:51.45,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,What teenage girl doesn't love...
Dialogue: 0,0:03:51.45,0:03:55.26,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Like, literally, I was\Nthe only person --
Dialogue: 0,0:03:55.26,0:03:57.48,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,like, free person\N-- in his life.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:57.48,0:04:00.39,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Like, he hadn't gotten\Na letter in 12 years.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:00.39,0:04:04.14,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And, like, I became alienated\Nfrom my friends
Dialogue: 0,0:04:04.14,0:04:08.91,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and high school ''cause I couldn't\Nget this across.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:08.91,0:04:10.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And so I wrote a play.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:11.82,0:04:13.83,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,[man VO] You see, you're making me remember,
Dialogue: 0,0:04:16.05,0:04:17.49,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,but I'm not remembering who I was,
Dialogue: 0,0:04:17.49,0:04:19.98,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I'm remembering who I wanted to be,
Dialogue: 0,0:04:19.98,0:04:21.63,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,[whispering] and there's a difference.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:21.63,0:04:23.34,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- I shouldn't be able to\Nknow you as well as I do
Dialogue: 0,0:04:23.34,0:04:25.17,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,because I know-\N- I mean I guess one reason
Dialogue: 0,0:04:25.17,0:04:27.81,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I do these projects with people
Dialogue: 0,0:04:27.81,0:04:31.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,who are so far out of my world
Dialogue: 0,0:04:31.20,0:04:36.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,is that I am thrown out\Nof my own assumptions
Dialogue: 0,0:04:36.24,0:04:39.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,about how things work or what things mean.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:39.90,0:04:43.83,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Even just very basic things,\Nlike even friendship, like:
Dialogue: 0,0:04:43.83,0:04:45.21,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Is this a friendship?
Dialogue: 0,0:04:47.70,0:04:48.99,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,My parents are writers.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:48.99,0:04:53.99,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So from them, I learned how\Nto be intimate with my work.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:55.68,0:05:00.68,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And I guess my great hope\Nwas that through my work,
Dialogue: 0,0:05:01.74,0:05:05.46,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I could have intimacy with other people.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:07.35,0:05:08.82,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Based on what I saw growing up,
Dialogue: 0,0:05:08.82,0:05:11.49,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I wasn't sure how else to connect.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:14.70,0:05:17.45,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I don't know, the idea of the...
Dialogue: 0,0:05:17.45,0:05:19.09,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,you know, the...
Dialogue: 0,0:05:19.09,0:05:20.47,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,the found family or the...
Dialogue: 0,0:05:20.47,0:05:25.84,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,or the friend that kind of saves you, like, I...
Dialogue: 0,0:05:25.84,0:05:30.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,those are sometimes in my\Nwork, and it's-- you know,
Dialogue: 0,0:05:30.00,0:05:32.85,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and I know it's a kind of common theme,
Dialogue: 0,0:05:32.85,0:05:35.98,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,but I can't-- you know, it...
Dialogue: 0,0:05:35.98,0:05:37.69,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,[chuckling] never gets old!
Dialogue: 0,0:05:38.70,0:05:40.61,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,[panting] How\Nabout this, right?
Dialogue: 0,0:05:40.61,0:05:42.28,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You think that was the big one?
Dialogue: 0,0:05:43.29,0:05:45.74,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,-I don't think that--\N-It was.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:45.74,0:05:46.79,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,That was it. [laughs]
Dialogue: 0,0:05:47.69,0:05:48.53,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Thank you.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:49.87,0:05:52.87,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,[typing]
Dialogue: 0,0:05:55.42,0:06:00.42,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- I dropped out of college,\Nand did wanna make movies,
Dialogue: 0,0:06:01.08,0:06:04.23,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and was surrounded by women in bands.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:04.23,0:06:08.28,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And we started a recording\Nstudio in our basement,
Dialogue: 0,0:06:08.28,0:06:10.35,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and there was very much the sense
Dialogue: 0,0:06:10.35,0:06:13.77,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that you could just\Nfigure it out yourself.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:13.77,0:06:16.62,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So I started this thing first\Ncalled "Big Miss Moviola"
Dialogue: 0,0:06:16.62,0:06:19.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and then Moviola tried to sue me.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:19.20,0:06:21.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Welcome to "Big Miss Moviola."
Dialogue: 0,0:06:21.30,0:06:24.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,My name is Miranda July\Nand I'll be your host.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:24.30,0:06:26.91,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,[Miranda VO] The premise was, if\Nyou send me your movie,
Dialogue: 0,0:06:26.91,0:06:28.95,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I'll put it on a VHS tape
Dialogue: 0,0:06:28.95,0:06:31.41,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,with nine other movies\Nmade by nine other women...
Dialogue: 0,0:06:31.41,0:06:32.46,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,-Hi, Vanessa!
Dialogue: 0,0:06:32.46,0:06:34.38,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,[Miranda VO] And send the tape back to you,
Dialogue: 0,0:06:34.38,0:06:36.18,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,so we can all see each other's work.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:37.71,0:06:40.77,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I was providing a service that I needed
Dialogue: 0,0:06:40.77,0:06:45.06,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,in order to conceive of\Nmyself as a filmmaker.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:45.06,0:06:48.12,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And I did that for 10 years.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:48.12,0:06:50.19,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I did it until...
Dialogue: 0,0:06:50.19,0:06:52.54,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,until I made "Me and You\Nand Everyone We Know."
Dialogue: 0,0:06:56.28,0:06:58.58,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Man: What are you doing in my car?
Dialogue: 0,0:06:58.58,0:07:00.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,[laughs]
Dialogue: 0,0:07:00.00,0:07:01.23,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I don't know you
Dialogue: 0,0:07:01.23,0:07:03.42,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and you certainly don't\Nknow anything about me.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:03.42,0:07:05.49,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I mean, what if I'm a killer of children?
Dialogue: 0,0:07:07.50,0:07:10.26,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,-Woman: [chuckling] Yeah, well, that\Nwould put a damper on things,
Dialogue: 0,0:07:10.26,0:07:11.91,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,wouldn't it?
Dialogue: 0,0:07:11.91,0:07:16.08,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Miranda: I remember actually\Nafter that movie came out,
Dialogue: 0,0:07:17.46,0:07:20.74,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and I remember performing\Nand realizing, like,
Dialogue: 0,0:07:20.74,0:07:23.37,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"They just wanna see the\Ngirl from that movie."
Dialogue: 0,0:07:24.51,0:07:27.36,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,That actually was a bit\Nof a crisis at first.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:28.59,0:07:33.49,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And that was actually the point\Nwhen I started making pieces
Dialogue: 0,0:07:34.55,0:07:37.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that asked a lot of the audience.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:37.50,0:07:38.46,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,[Miranda] When I signal you,
Dialogue: 0,0:07:38.46,0:07:41.24,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,if you could just walk\Ntowards me very, very slowly.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:41.24,0:07:42.45,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,♪tender piano playing♪
Dialogue: 0,0:07:42.45,0:07:44.13,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I noticed her immediately
Dialogue: 0,0:07:44.13,0:07:47.07,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,when I walked out on\Nstage that first night.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:47.07,0:07:49.56,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,[laughter]
Dialogue: 0,0:07:49.56,0:07:52.14,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,She seemed to radiate light.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:52.14,0:07:54.78,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,♪tender piano playing♪
Dialogue: 0,0:07:54.78,0:07:57.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I've been in two relationships\Nwith women before, but...
Dialogue: 0,0:07:57.20,0:08:01.16,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,they were more...butch.
Dialogue: 0,0:08:01.16,0:08:03.34,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,[laughter]
Dialogue: 0,0:08:03.34,0:08:06.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,[ambient music]
Dialogue: 0,0:08:13.32,0:08:17.22,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,[Miranda VO] So right now, I am finishing a book,
Dialogue: 0,0:08:17.22,0:08:19.48,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,a kind of long novel...
Dialogue: 0,0:08:19.48,0:08:22.47,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,[footsteps thudding]
Dialogue: 0,0:08:22.47,0:08:26.16,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,about the second half of a woman's life.
Dialogue: 0,0:08:29.04,0:08:30.57,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And it's a romance.
Dialogue: 0,0:08:32.25,0:08:34.86,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,There's also dance in my book.
Dialogue: 0,0:08:36.90,0:08:40.62,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So, this is my novel.
Dialogue: 0,0:08:40.62,0:08:42.23,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,[chuckling] No one's\Nsupposed to see this ever,
Dialogue: 0,0:08:42.23,0:08:44.97,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,but, um, so don't\Nmaybe get too close but...
Dialogue: 0,0:08:44.97,0:08:46.67,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Or it's fine, whatever, who cares?
Dialogue: 0,0:08:47.52,0:08:49.26,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,This is the first half of it.
Dialogue: 0,0:08:50.88,0:08:52.08,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,This is the second half.
Dialogue: 0,0:08:53.37,0:08:58.29,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,When I can't write anymore --\Nlike it's diminishing returns --
Dialogue: 0,0:08:58.29,0:09:00.72,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,then I come to this rack.
Dialogue: 0,0:09:00.72,0:09:03.37,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It's, like, [chuckling]\Ncostumes to dance in?
Dialogue: 0,0:09:04.23,0:09:05.88,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Or...
Dialogue: 0,0:09:05.88,0:09:10.61,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,just to make things in if I want\Nto become aware of my body in a
Dialogue: 0,0:09:10.61,0:09:11.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,different way.
Dialogue: 0,0:09:11.70,0:09:13.84,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And then I'd be like,\N"Well, this was a costume,
Dialogue: 0,0:09:13.84,0:09:16.57,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,but-- but who is\Nthis," you know?
Dialogue: 0,0:09:17.13,0:09:20.59,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,♪cool percussive\Nmusic playing♪
Dialogue: 0,0:09:20.59,0:09:22.38,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And I started actually buying things
Dialogue: 0,0:09:22.38,0:09:26.01,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that make no sense in real life,
Dialogue: 0,0:09:26.01,0:09:28.23,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,but are great for this sort of thing.
Dialogue: 0,0:09:28.23,0:09:29.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Like, what is...
Dialogue: 0,0:09:29.70,0:09:30.75,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,what is this?
Dialogue: 0,0:09:30.75,0:09:32.94,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,♪chipper triangle music♪
Dialogue: 0,0:09:32.94,0:09:36.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,[Miranda VO] For me, it's always about energy,
Dialogue: 0,0:09:36.00,0:09:37.92,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and excitement, and mystery.
Dialogue: 0,0:09:37.92,0:09:42.06,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And one way it exists is in these mediums,
Dialogue: 0,0:09:42.06,0:09:44.85,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,like, simply working in a form
Dialogue: 0,0:09:44.85,0:09:47.91,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,with materials you haven't used before
Dialogue: 0,0:09:47.91,0:09:52.38,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,is novelty and mystery\Nin a quite physical sense
Dialogue: 0,0:09:52.38,0:09:54.99,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and sometimes in a collaborative sense.
Dialogue: 0,0:09:56.38,0:10:00.09,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,[typing]
Dialogue: 0,0:10:00.09,0:10:03.27,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So day one of the pandemic,
Dialogue: 0,0:10:03.27,0:10:07.32,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,the phone rings and it's\Nan unfamiliar number,
Dialogue: 0,0:10:07.32,0:10:11.21,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and I answer it, and it's\Nclearly like a solicitor.
Dialogue: 0,0:10:11.21,0:10:12.95,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,[dogs barking]
Dialogue: 0,0:10:12.95,0:10:15.73,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- Miranda's phone number\Nwas assigned to me
Dialogue: 0,0:10:16.83,0:10:19.65,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,but she wasn't a typical customer
Dialogue: 0,0:10:19.65,0:10:23.85,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that will immediately hang up\Nthe phone or drop the call.
Dialogue: 0,0:10:25.35,0:10:26.91,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- Maybe I'd somehow ended up on a list
Dialogue: 0,0:10:26.91,0:10:29.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,for self-published authors, which I'm not,
Dialogue: 0,0:10:31.29,0:10:35.02,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and so I answered all their\Nquestions and then I said,
Dialogue: 0,0:10:35.02,0:10:37.26,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"Can I ask you some questions?"
Dialogue: 0,0:10:37.26,0:10:40.14,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Where they were, they\Nwere in the Philippines.
Dialogue: 0,0:10:40.14,0:10:41.97,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,How old they were, 27.
Dialogue: 0,0:10:42.90,0:10:45.54,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I couldn't tell what gender they were.
Dialogue: 0,0:10:45.54,0:10:48.24,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,They were a trans woman.
Dialogue: 0,0:10:48.24,0:10:49.29,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,[Jay VO] Here in the Philippines,
Dialogue: 0,0:10:49.29,0:10:53.37,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,most of the religion is Roman Catholic.
Dialogue: 0,0:10:53.37,0:10:57.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It's very hard for you to be accepted,
Dialogue: 0,0:10:57.00,0:10:59.16,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,to belong in a community.
Dialogue: 0,0:10:59.16,0:11:02.02,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So I started to share my background
Dialogue: 0,0:11:03.00,0:11:07.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and she thought of a project\Nthat we can collaborate.
Dialogue: 0,0:11:08.76,0:11:13.64,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,This is the edition --\Nthe limited edition --
Dialogue: 0,0:11:13.64,0:11:18.97,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that I made\Nout of the project with Jay.
Dialogue: 0,0:11:19.59,0:11:22.98,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- She said that she's gonna\Nbe sending me assignment
Dialogue: 0,0:11:22.98,0:11:27.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and then I'm going to\Nrespond it in pictures.
Dialogue: 0,0:11:27.84,0:11:29.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,This is the first assignment
Dialogue: 0,0:11:29.40,0:11:34.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,where Miranda asked me to bow to something
Dialogue: 0,0:11:35.31,0:11:39.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that is also important to\Nme, which is money and a bed,
Dialogue: 0,0:11:39.30,0:11:40.68,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,because I love to sleep.
Dialogue: 0,0:11:42.81,0:11:47.81,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So, in this picture, this is\Nwhere all my suffering happens.
Dialogue: 0,0:11:50.76,0:11:55.14,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- The best feeling is when\Nyou throw down a challenge
Dialogue: 0,0:11:55.14,0:11:59.16,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and then the person comes back\Nwith something much bolder.
Dialogue: 0,0:12:00.75,0:12:03.78,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I mean, that is what really\Nmakes it a collaboration,
Dialogue: 0,0:12:03.78,0:12:06.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and that happened so regularly with Jay.
Dialogue: 0,0:12:06.70,0:12:09.15,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,♪calm ethereal music♪
Dialogue: 0,0:12:09.15,0:12:10.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,[Jay VO] This is me.
Dialogue: 0,0:12:10.80,0:12:15.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So sharing that to Miranda\Nwas really kind of risky,
Dialogue: 0,0:12:16.14,0:12:18.18,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,but at the same time happy
Dialogue: 0,0:12:18.18,0:12:22.77,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,because I was able to express everything.
Dialogue: 0,0:12:22.77,0:12:24.63,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Like, every pain,
Dialogue: 0,0:12:24.63,0:12:29.05,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,every truth that happened to\Nmy life is all in this project.
Dialogue: 0,0:12:29.05,0:12:31.35,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,♪♪♪
Dialogue: 0,0:12:31.35,0:12:34.76,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- I mean, I'm full of my own...
Dialogue: 0,0:12:36.00,0:12:38.76,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,trust, abandonment issues,
Dialogue: 0,0:12:38.76,0:12:43.76,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,like all kinds of things that make it hard
Dialogue: 0,0:12:43.98,0:12:45.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,to get close to people.
Dialogue: 0,0:12:45.90,0:12:47.49,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So it's a real miracle
Dialogue: 0,0:12:47.49,0:12:49.86,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,when something like that\Nconnection can happen.
Dialogue: 0,0:12:51.36,0:12:55.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It becomes very beautiful,\Nand emotional, and light,
Dialogue: 0,0:12:55.50,0:12:57.81,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,which is so, so incredible
Dialogue: 0,0:12:57.81,0:13:00.100,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,because it's not very light inside me.
Dialogue: 0,0:13:00.100,0:13:02.23,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,[chuckles]
Dialogue: 0,0:13:02.23,0:13:04.98,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,♪♪♪
Dialogue: 0,0:13:06.27,0:13:08.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I think that's part of the risk thing
Dialogue: 0,0:13:08.10,0:13:13.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,is literally anything is\Npossible in the moment.
Dialogue: 0,0:13:13.16,0:13:15.92,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,♪♪♪
Dialogue: 0,0:13:17.82,0:13:21.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It's kind of like being\Nin a dream or something.
Dialogue: 0,0:13:21.30,0:13:24.05,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,♪♪♪
Dialogue: 0,0:13:26.13,0:13:30.53,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But a shared dream, not a\Nlonely in-my-head dream.
Dialogue: 0,0:13:30.53,0:13:33.28,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,♪♪♪
Dialogue: 0,0:13:34.28,0:13:36.72,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And the reward of working this way
Dialogue: 0,0:13:36.72,0:13:39.13,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,is creative freedom
Dialogue: 0,0:13:41.01,0:13:42.61,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,on every level.
Dialogue: 0,0:13:42.61,0:13:45.27,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,♪♪♪
Dialogue: 0,0:13:54.44,0:13:57.02,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,♪ethereal ambient music♪
Dialogue: 0,0:14:14.21,0:14:17.63,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,♪♪♪