[Script Info] Title: [Events] Format: Layer, Start, End, Style, Name, MarginL, MarginR, MarginV, Effect, Text Dialogue: 0,0:00:01.58,0:00:06.11,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,♪ soft uplifting music ♪ Dialogue: 0,0:00:06.11,0:00:27.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,[welder crackling] Dialogue: 0,0:00:40.79,0:00:46.52,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,♪ ethereal ambient music ♪ Dialogue: 0,0:00:56.36,0:00:59.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,[Rose B. Simpson] There's something\Nso important about witnessing. Dialogue: 0,0:00:59.70,0:01:01.94,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Anything is a witness,\Neven inanimate things -- Dialogue: 0,0:01:01.94,0:01:04.43,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,or we consider inanimate things. Dialogue: 0,0:01:06.12,0:01:12.24,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,This is an idea I was working\Nout for a public art piece I'm working on where... Dialogue: 0,0:01:12.24,0:01:16.17,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,these sort of ancestor\Nbeings are watching. Dialogue: 0,0:01:16.57,0:01:22.13,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,My art is basically taking a\Nmoment of that experience. Dialogue: 0,0:01:22.80,0:01:26.15,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,♪ uplifting ethereal music ♪ Dialogue: 0,0:01:28.87,0:01:33.65,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I'm building these beings that\Nare then reflecting my process Dialogue: 0,0:01:33.65,0:01:35.46,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,back to me, Dialogue: 0,0:01:35.96,0:01:39.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,but it's also going out\Ninto the world and watching. Dialogue: 0,0:01:41.42,0:01:49.71,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,♪♪♪ Dialogue: 0,0:02:04.75,0:02:06.44,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,[Rose] That's that. Dialogue: 0,0:02:14.46,0:02:20.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I figured out if I use clay that's very thin, I have to be very present with the Dialogue: 0,0:02:20.70,0:02:22.92,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,process and I have to just do it. Dialogue: 0,0:02:22.92,0:02:25.54,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You can't, like, go\Nback and fix it later and, Dialogue: 0,0:02:25.54,0:02:27.03,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,you know, carve stuff down. Dialogue: 0,0:02:27.03,0:02:28.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It has no... Dialogue: 0,0:02:29.42,0:02:31.64,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,forgiveness, in a\Nsense; it is what it is. Dialogue: 0,0:02:31.64,0:02:33.31,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So you have to just be with it. Dialogue: 0,0:02:33.31,0:02:36.24,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So now that I started this,\NI have to finish it today. Dialogue: 0,0:02:36.84,0:02:39.61,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,This is New Mexico\NClay, where I get my clay. Dialogue: 0,0:02:39.61,0:02:42.01,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I really like putting\Ndifferent clays together, Dialogue: 0,0:02:42.01,0:02:44.28,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,just as a aesthetic,\Nbut also the idea of, like, Dialogue: 0,0:02:44.28,0:02:47.24,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,we're all made up\Nof many different things, Dialogue: 0,0:02:47.24,0:02:51.98,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and we're trying to\Nunderstand ourselves and be... Dialogue: 0,0:02:52.62,0:02:56.49,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,you know, compassionate and\Ngraceful and accepting of all Dialogue: 0,0:02:56.49,0:02:58.62,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,the many things that we all are. Dialogue: 0,0:02:58.92,0:03:03.02,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Because I'm mixed blood, I\Nwas always hyper-aware of how I Dialogue: 0,0:03:03.02,0:03:05.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,wasn't fitting in. Dialogue: 0,0:03:05.00,0:03:07.75,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And as a\Nmulticultural two-spirit person, Dialogue: 0,0:03:07.75,0:03:10.83,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I'm always navigating one\Nfoot in two worlds. [laughs] Dialogue: 0,0:03:10.83,0:03:16.88,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And so, you know, the\Nclay gets to do that too. Dialogue: 0,0:03:18.74,0:03:20.84,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,♪ ethereal ambient music ♪ Dialogue: 0,0:03:20.88,0:03:25.54,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I'm trying to reveal our deep truth and \Nthat deep truth is process, Dialogue: 0,0:03:25.54,0:03:29.28,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and so why would I hide?\NWhy would I hide that process? Dialogue: 0,0:03:29.28,0:03:31.32,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,♪♪♪ Dialogue: 0,0:03:31.32,0:03:35.35,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,To allow it to have fingerprints\Nand to show the touching and the Dialogue: 0,0:03:35.35,0:03:38.71,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,making, the making -- the actual\Nmaking of something -- Dialogue: 0,0:03:38.71,0:03:41.46,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,is our power, right?\NIs our greatness. Dialogue: 0,0:03:41.46,0:03:45.17,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,That's why I love going to\Nancestral homes or ruins, you know? Dialogue: 0,0:03:45.17,0:03:48.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And seeing the\Nfingerprints in the plaster. Dialogue: 0,0:03:48.60,0:03:51.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It's like, "Whoa, those are my\Nancestors' hands that were here Dialogue: 0,0:03:51.40,0:03:53.98,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,making just like\Nwe make," you know? Dialogue: 0,0:03:55.23,0:03:59.89,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Right now, we're here in Santa Clara \Nancestral homelands. Dialogue: 0,0:03:59.89,0:04:03.59,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,My people were living here\Nbetween these mountain ranges Dialogue: 0,0:04:03.59,0:04:06.78,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,along this river for\Nthousands of years. Dialogue: 0,0:04:06.96,0:04:11.52,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,This was our place long\Nbefore European contact. Dialogue: 0,0:04:11.52,0:04:16.22,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It's considered a tri-cultural place,\Nwhere we have the Indigenous ancestry, Dialogue: 0,0:04:16.22,0:04:21.54,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and then the Spanish, and also\Nthe English-speaking colonizing. Dialogue: 0,0:04:21.72,0:04:26.28,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Many of us are descendants of all \Nthose things, like myself. Dialogue: 0,0:04:26.28,0:04:28.38,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Still a lot of anger and hurt. Dialogue: 0,0:04:28.90,0:04:33.02,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,People are \Nnavigating that inherited historical trauma. Dialogue: 0,0:04:33.50,0:04:37.88,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But it's also home; I am\Nof this place very deeply. Dialogue: 0,0:04:38.56,0:04:39.39,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,— Yep. Dialogue: 0,0:04:41.93,0:04:43.79,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But you're not going to fall. Dialogue: 0,0:04:43.79,0:04:46.04,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So holding your hand is just \Nbecause I love you. Dialogue: 0,0:04:48.09,0:04:49.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,See that right there? Dialogue: 0,0:04:49.40,0:04:52.01,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So this was a big\Nreservoir right here. Dialogue: 0,0:04:52.01,0:04:57.03,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,The water would come down. \NAncestors used to catch the water up here for drinking Dialogue: 0,0:04:57.03,0:04:59.39,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and stuff -- for farming, even. Dialogue: 0,0:04:59.54,0:05:03.84,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,— So this rock used to be \Na waterfall, Mom? Dialogue: 0,0:05:03.84,0:05:04.72,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,— Mm-hm. Dialogue: 0,0:05:06.36,0:05:09.03,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I've been coming here since I was a kid. Dialogue: 0,0:05:09.03,0:05:10.62,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,— There you go, now try. Dialogue: 0,0:05:10.62,0:05:14.66,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,The proof of people's\Nbodies interacting with the place Dialogue: 0,0:05:14.66,0:05:16.46,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and old sites\Nwhere you see, like, Dialogue: 0,0:05:16.46,0:05:20.28,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,plaster still on the walls\Nand you see that handprint or, like, Dialogue: 0,0:05:20.28,0:05:22.86,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,fingerprints in old\Npottery shards or whatever, Dialogue: 0,0:05:22.86,0:05:26.71,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,it's like this very\Nrelatable moment. Dialogue: 0,0:05:27.90,0:05:31.72,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,This is ancestry in the making,\Nand we're in that, right? Dialogue: 0,0:05:31.72,0:05:37.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,We're given this line and\Nthis heritage and this story to continue. Dialogue: 0,0:05:39.02,0:05:44.01,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,♪ soft ambient music ♪ Dialogue: 0,0:05:44.83,0:05:47.33,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,-[Rose] 'Cause they're cute?\N-[Cedar] Yes. Dialogue: 0,0:05:47.33,0:05:48.53,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,[Roxanne] That's really good. Dialogue: 0,0:05:48.53,0:05:50.82,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,[Cedar] I made a snail.\N[Rose] Hey, you made a snail! Dialogue: 0,0:05:50.82,0:05:53.29,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,That's cute!\NLook at its eyeballs. Dialogue: 0,0:05:54.36,0:05:58.81,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,[Rose] The person I love to\Nmake things the most with is my mom. Dialogue: 0,0:05:59.48,0:06:02.58,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,She learned to\Ncommunicate through her clay, Dialogue: 0,0:06:02.58,0:06:04.64,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and she was given\Nclay through her mom; Dialogue: 0,0:06:04.64,0:06:07.06,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,it was a matrilineal gift. Dialogue: 0,0:06:07.06,0:06:09.01,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,♪♪♪ Dialogue: 0,0:06:09.01,0:06:11.82,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,[Roxanne] It's like we\Nleapfrog in a funny way, Dialogue: 0,0:06:11.82,0:06:14.61,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,because as she learned from me,\Nthen I learned from her because Dialogue: 0,0:06:14.61,0:06:17.07,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,she tries\Nsomething I never tried. Dialogue: 0,0:06:17.07,0:06:22.67,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It's quite a blessing to be able\Nto have a child [chuckles] that Dialogue: 0,0:06:22.67,0:06:25.15,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,can walk the trail with you. Dialogue: 0,0:06:26.35,0:06:29.67,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,♪♪♪ Dialogue: 0,0:06:32.70,0:06:35.74,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,[Rose] Whether we're\Nplastering a house or laying adobes Dialogue: 0,0:06:35.74,0:06:40.35,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,or planting a field,\Nto be able to make work that's Dialogue: 0,0:06:40.35,0:06:44.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,building a conversation\Ntogether is a really Dialogue: 0,0:06:44.70,0:06:47.61,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,beautiful tool that\Nwe have to heal. Dialogue: 0,0:06:48.88,0:06:52.58,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I often think about\Nrelationships within Indigenous world, Dialogue: 0,0:06:52.58,0:06:56.68,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and we have this big\Nheart to exist and to empower ourselves Dialogue: 0,0:06:56.68,0:07:00.77,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and to change the narratives and express what it Dialogue: 0,0:07:00.77,0:07:05.79,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,means to carry this story forth. Dialogue: 0,0:07:05.79,0:07:08.55,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,♪ uplifting music ♪ Dialogue: 0,0:07:08.55,0:07:12.18,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I kept making these\Nobjects of empowerment. Dialogue: 0,0:07:12.18,0:07:18.12,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I made warriors for years that\Nwere sort of in this state of being empowered and Dialogue: 0,0:07:18.12,0:07:22.89,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and not being aggressive or \Nconfrontational, but just -- boom -- in itself. Dialogue: 0,0:07:22.89,0:07:26.71,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,In that, we're transforming\Nthat victim narrative. Dialogue: 0,0:07:27.06,0:07:31.04,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,♪♪♪ Dialogue: 0,0:07:31.04,0:07:33.65,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I think I'm looking\Nfor that inside myself, and Dialogue: 0,0:07:33.65,0:07:38.04,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,the car was actually\Ninspired by growing up in Dialogue: 0,0:07:38.04,0:07:42.97,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Española -- Española is the low\Nrider capital of the world -- Dialogue: 0,0:07:43.96,0:07:47.96,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,seeing people who are very\Ndisempowered in lots of ways but Dialogue: 0,0:07:47.96,0:07:52.39,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,totally proud of their\Nexperience and their car. Dialogue: 0,0:07:52.39,0:07:56.82,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,[engine rumbling] Dialogue: 0,0:07:59.46,0:08:02.82,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,The love and energy they\Nput into this piece of art, Dialogue: 0,0:08:02.82,0:08:04.34,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I remember\Nthinking, "When I grow up, Dialogue: 0,0:08:04.34,0:08:07.96,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I want that feeling of being\Ncomplete and protected and whole Dialogue: 0,0:08:07.96,0:08:13.12,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and I become that piece of art\Nand I'm carrying myself with pride." Dialogue: 0,0:08:14.28,0:08:17.77,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So when I came back from graduate school, I was like, "I'm gonna go find that." Dialogue: 0,0:08:17.77,0:08:20.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And at that time, that looked\Nlike "Oh, muscle cars; Dialogue: 0,0:08:20.00,0:08:22.18,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I need it to go real\Nfast and be real loud." Dialogue: 0,0:08:22.18,0:08:27.34,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,♪ aggressive rock music ♪ Dialogue: 0,0:08:44.82,0:08:49.44,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,The base color is called "hot rod black," \Nwhich is a satin. Dialogue: 0,0:08:49.44,0:08:54.49,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I taped it off, and then I threw a glass clear on top, which is what gives it this Dialogue: 0,0:08:54.49,0:08:56.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,kind of gloss versus matte. Dialogue: 0,0:08:56.20,0:08:59.87,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,The pattern is based off of\Ntraditional patterns from this Dialogue: 0,0:08:59.87,0:09:01.41,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,area of pottery designs. Dialogue: 0,0:09:01.78,0:09:04.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,We have, like, the\Ntraveling spiral, Dialogue: 0,0:09:04.80,0:09:10.08,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,we have mountains and clouds,\Nand then we have feathers coming back here. Dialogue: 0,0:09:10.08,0:09:12.91,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It's rooted in this place, and\Nif you take it outside of this area, Dialogue: 0,0:09:12.91,0:09:15.23,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,it doesn't\Nmake much sense. Dialogue: 0,0:09:15.23,0:09:18.61,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,♪ sensitive ambient music ♪ Dialogue: 0,0:09:18.61,0:09:21.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I named her "Maria"\Nafter Maria Martinez, Dialogue: 0,0:09:21.30,0:09:27.82,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,who is a master potter and also an\Ninnovator from San Ildefonso Pueblo. Dialogue: 0,0:09:28.14,0:09:33.62,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,She developed the black-on-black style, and that is very, very, very specific Dialogue: 0,0:09:33.62,0:09:36.88,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,aesthetic color choice to this area. Dialogue: 0,0:09:38.23,0:09:42.25,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,♪♪♪ Dialogue: 0,0:09:47.22,0:09:51.19,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I started doing performances I\Nwas calling "Transformances" Dialogue: 0,0:09:51.19,0:09:54.55,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,'cause the intention\Nwas to actually change. Dialogue: 0,0:09:55.62,0:09:57.82,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I was transforming. Dialogue: 0,0:09:57.82,0:10:02.45,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I'm trying to evolve and\Ntransform my perspective. Dialogue: 0,0:10:03.00,0:10:06.11,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,We were using the car\Nand taking up spaces, locking up roads, Dialogue: 0,0:10:06.11,0:10:10.99,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and marching up with what I call "post-apocalyptic Indigenous regalia." Dialogue: 0,0:10:11.46,0:10:16.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I put these subwoofers in the El Camino, \Nand I played a heartbeat Dialogue: 0,0:10:16.50,0:10:20.57,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,just super loud \N-- gu-gung, gu-gung, gu-gung -- Dialogue: 0,0:10:20.57,0:10:23.34,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,while we were walking, and the car--\N[mimics engine sound], right? Dialogue: 0,0:10:23.34,0:10:25.56,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And then, this, like, gu-gung. Dialogue: 0,0:10:25.56,0:10:29.18,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,They closed off the streets and\Nwe just walked slow with this car. Dialogue: 0,0:10:29.18,0:10:31.28,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,[engine revving] Dialogue: 0,0:10:32.28,0:10:35.79,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You wanna get your,\Nlike, adrenaline going. Dialogue: 0,0:10:35.79,0:10:38.39,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It was like, "We're in\Nthe post-apocalypse now, Dialogue: 0,0:10:38.39,0:10:40.56,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,we've experienced this\Nfor hundreds of years. Dialogue: 0,0:10:40.56,0:10:44.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Now look at us; we're just gonna claim \Nit, we're gonna be in it," right? Dialogue: 0,0:10:45.66,0:10:51.93,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,After my daughter came into my life, I did another "Transformance" in Las Vegas, Nevada Dialogue: 0,0:10:51.93,0:10:55.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,with a collaborator, Fawn Douglas,\Nwho's Southern Paiute, Dialogue: 0,0:10:55.10,0:11:01.44,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and we ended up taking up space with \Nour bodies very simply and meditatively, Dialogue: 0,0:11:01.44,0:11:03.72,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and we ended up\Nnot using the car. Dialogue: 0,0:11:03.72,0:11:05.26,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,♪ sensitive piano music ♪ Dialogue: 0,0:11:05.26,0:11:08.91,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I was carrying my daughter, and\Nthere was two mothers and two daughters. Dialogue: 0,0:11:08.91,0:11:12.58,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I realized that what empowerment\Nis looking like for me is Dialogue: 0,0:11:12.58,0:11:16.26,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,changing, and it actually is\Nchanging from this genderqueer, Dialogue: 0,0:11:16.26,0:11:19.63,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,more-masculine space to actually\Naccepting the feminine and Dialogue: 0,0:11:19.63,0:11:25.14,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,understanding that I can stand\Nin my femininity and still feel that power. Dialogue: 0,0:11:42.62,0:11:45.19,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,The marks all mean\Nsomething, right? Dialogue: 0,0:11:45.19,0:11:47.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So for this one specifically,\NI keep thinking about, Dialogue: 0,0:11:47.90,0:11:51.33,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,like, marking of time and\Nmarking of the steps and this Dialogue: 0,0:11:51.33,0:11:54.62,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,monotonous-but-also-dedicated\Nprocess. Dialogue: 0,0:11:55.84,0:11:58.44,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,The wings flapping\Nof migrating birds, Dialogue: 0,0:11:58.86,0:12:04.04,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,it's this, like...You just go, you\Njust go, you just go. Dialogue: 0,0:12:05.28,0:12:08.06,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,♪♪♪ Dialogue: 0,0:12:10.23,0:12:13.94,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,This chick acts like she\Nknows what she's doing. Dialogue: 0,0:12:18.66,0:12:21.74,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It'll fit! I think it'll fit. Dialogue: 0,0:12:21.74,0:12:24.88,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I hope it fits. Pretty close to that. Dialogue: 0,0:12:27.06,0:12:28.42,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Good job, baby! Dialogue: 0,0:12:28.42,0:12:33.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Let's get this done, and\Nthank you for your hard work. Dialogue: 0,0:12:35.40,0:12:38.75,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,There is no\Nseparation between art and life. Dialogue: 0,0:12:39.20,0:12:45.17,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I feel like my life has\Nbeen being in between. Dialogue: 0,0:12:46.26,0:12:49.57,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,When you can't ever be\Ncomfortable in one place, Dialogue: 0,0:12:49.57,0:12:55.55,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,the discomfort can create an\Nincredible environment for investigation. Dialogue: 0,0:12:56.82,0:12:59.44,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You have to kind of fall back\Nand close your eyes and hope Dialogue: 0,0:12:59.44,0:13:02.95,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that where you land is exactly\Nthe place you need to go. Dialogue: 0,0:13:02.95,0:13:06.81,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,♪♪♪ Dialogue: 0,0:13:13.47,0:13:22.12,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,♪ sparse ethereal music ♪