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Dialogue: 0,0:06:30.40,0:06:35.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- You wanted to see me, Doctor?\N- Have you seen Mrs Vogler, Sister?
Dialogue: 0,0:06:35.20,0:06:38.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- No, not yet.\N- Then I'll fill you in...
Dialogue: 0,0:06:38.30,0:06:42.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,...and give you the reasons\Nwhy you're to care for her.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:42.80,0:06:48.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,{\i1}Mrs Vogler is an actress, as you know,\Nand was performing in Electra.{\i0}
Dialogue: 0,0:06:48.80,0:06:52.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,In the middle of the play she fell silent\Nand looked around as if in surprise.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:53.10,0:06:56.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,She remained quiet for a minute.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:08.00,0:07:13.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Afterwards she excused herself by\Nsaying she was overcome by laughter.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:13.70,0:07:18.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,The next day the theatre rang and\Nasked if she'd forgotten her rehearsal.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:18.40,0:07:21.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,When the housekeeper went in\Nshe was still in bed.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:21.90,0:07:26.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,She was awake but didn't\Nanswer questions and didn't move.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:26.40,0:07:31.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,She's been like this for three months\Nand been given every conceivable test.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:31.90,0:07:37.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,The result is clear. She's perfectly\Nhealthy, both mentally and physically.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:37.40,0:07:41.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It's not even a question\Nof some kind of hysterical reaction.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:41.30,0:07:43.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Any questions, Sister Alma?
Dialogue: 0,0:07:44.00,0:07:47.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,No? Then you can go in to Mrs Vogler.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:55.40,0:08:00.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Good day, Mrs Vogler.\NMy name is Sister Alma.
Dialogue: 0,0:08:00.80,0:08:04.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I've been employed\Nto look after you for a while.
Dialogue: 0,0:08:06.50,0:08:11.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Perhaps I should tell you about myself.\NI'm 25, engaged...
Dialogue: 0,0:08:12.00,0:08:15.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I got my nursing certificate\Ntwo years ago.
Dialogue: 0,0:08:16.00,0:08:21.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,My parents have a farm. My mother\Nwas also a nurse before she married.
Dialogue: 0,0:08:23.80,0:08:25.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I'll fetch the dinner tray.
Dialogue: 0,0:08:25.90,0:08:29.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It's fried liver and fruit salad.\NIt looks really good.
Dialogue: 0,0:08:30.60,0:08:34.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Do you want to raise your head?\NIs it okay like that?
Dialogue: 0,0:08:40.80,0:08:44.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Sister Alma.\NWhat's your first impression?
Dialogue: 0,0:08:45.00,0:08:47.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I don't know what to say, Doctor.
Dialogue: 0,0:08:48.00,0:08:54.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,First her face looks soft, almost\Nchildish. Then you see her eyes...
Dialogue: 0,0:08:54.10,0:08:57.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,She's got such a severe look, I think.
Dialogue: 0,0:08:57.40,0:09:01.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- I don't know, I should...\N- What were you thinking?
Dialogue: 0,0:09:01.70,0:09:06.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- I thought I should refuse the job.\N- Did something frighten you?
Dialogue: 0,0:09:06.60,0:09:12.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,No, but she should have a nurse\Nwho's older and more experienced.
Dialogue: 0,0:09:12.70,0:09:17.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- Experienced in life. I may not cope.\N- Cope?
Dialogue: 0,0:09:17.50,0:09:19.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Mentally.
Dialogue: 0,0:09:20.70,0:09:25.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,If Mrs Vogler's silence and immobility\Nis the result of a decision...
Dialogue: 0,0:09:25.10,0:09:28.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,-...it must be as she's seen as healthy.\N- Well?
Dialogue: 0,0:09:28.40,0:09:33.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It's a decision that shows great mental\Nstrength. Perhaps I'm not up to it.
Dialogue: 0,0:09:35.60,0:09:39.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You might like to see the dusk,\NMrs Vogler. I can draw them later.
Dialogue: 0,0:09:43.00,0:09:46.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Shall I turn on the radio?\NThere's a play, I think.
Dialogue: 0,0:09:49.20,0:09:54.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Forgive me, my darling.\NOh, you must forgive me.
Dialogue: 0,0:09:54.80,0:09:58.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I don't desire anything other\Nthan your forgiveness.
Dialogue: 0,0:10:00.00,0:10:04.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,What are you laughing at, Mrs Vogler?\NIs it the actress that's funny?
Dialogue: 0,0:10:04.60,0:10:09.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,What do you know about compassion?\NWhat do you know?
Dialogue: 0,0:10:10.00,0:10:12.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,What do you know about compassion?
Dialogue: 0,0:10:17.20,0:10:20.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I don't understand things like that,\NMrs Vogler.
Dialogue: 0,0:10:21.00,0:10:25.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I'm interested in film and theatre,\Nbut I go so seldom.
Dialogue: 0,0:10:25.70,0:10:29.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I have enormous admiration\Nfor artists.
Dialogue: 0,0:10:29.30,0:10:33.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I think art\Nhas an enormous importance in life.
Dialogue: 0,0:10:33.40,0:10:38.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Especially for people\Nwho have problems of some kind.
Dialogue: 0,0:10:38.60,0:10:43.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I shouldn't talk to you about things\Nlike that. I'm skating on thin ice.
Dialogue: 0,0:10:43.50,0:10:46.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I'll see if I can find some music.
Dialogue: 0,0:10:46.80,0:10:48.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Is that good?
Dialogue: 0,0:10:51.10,0:10:54.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Good night, Mrs Vogler. Sleep well.
Dialogue: 0,0:12:40.30,0:12:42.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Damn!
Dialogue: 0,0:12:49.50,0:12:55.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It's strange.\NYou go around almost any old how.
Dialogue: 0,0:12:55.10,0:12:58.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Do almost any old thing.
Dialogue: 0,0:13:00.10,0:13:05.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I'll marry Karl-Henrik and we'll\Nhave a few children that I'll raise.
Dialogue: 0,0:13:06.60,0:13:10.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,All that is decided. It's inside of me.
Dialogue: 0,0:13:10.30,0:13:13.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It's nothing to ponder over.
Dialogue: 0,0:13:13.90,0:13:17.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It's a huge feeling of security.
Dialogue: 0,0:13:17.10,0:13:21.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Then I have a job that I like\Nand am happy with.
Dialogue: 0,0:13:21.40,0:13:25.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,That's good too. But in another way.
Dialogue: 0,0:13:26.50,0:13:29.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But it's good... good.
Dialogue: 0,0:13:32.00,0:13:33.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It's good.
Dialogue: 0,0:13:40.70,0:13:44.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I wonder what's really wrong with her?
Dialogue: 0,0:13:46.40,0:13:49.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Elisabet Vogler...
Dialogue: 0,0:13:50.90,0:13:53.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Elisabet.
Dialogue: 0,0:15:25.50,0:15:29.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Would you like me to open the letter,\NMrs Vogler?
Dialogue: 0,0:15:35.10,0:15:37.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Shall I read it?
Dialogue: 0,0:15:42.60,0:15:44.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Shall I read it to you?
Dialogue: 0,0:15:52.80,0:15:58.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,{\i1}ÑDear Elisabet: As I'm not allowed\Nto see you, I'm writing.ì{\i0}
Dialogue: 0,0:15:58.20,0:16:02.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,{\i1}ÑIf you don't want to read my letter,\Nyou can ignore it.ì{\i0}
Dialogue: 0,0:16:03.90,0:16:08.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,{\i1}ÑI can't help seeking\Nthis contact with youì -{\i0}
Dialogue: 0,0:16:08.40,0:16:11.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,{\i1}- Ñas I'm tormented\Nby a constant question:ì{\i0}
Dialogue: 0,0:16:12.00,0:16:18.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,{\i1}ÑHave I harmed you in some way?\NHave I hurt you without knowing?ì{\i0}
Dialogue: 0,0:16:18.20,0:16:22.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,{\i1}ÑHas some terrible misunderstanding\Narisen between us?ì{\i0}
Dialogue: 0,0:16:27.90,0:16:30.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Should I really read any more?
Dialogue: 0,0:16:38.30,0:16:44.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,{\i1}ÑAs far as I understood, we were\Nhappy recently. We've never been...ì{\i0}
Dialogue: 0,0:16:44.20,0:16:47.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,{\i1}Ñ...as close to one anotherì{\i0}
Dialogue: 0,0:16:47.50,0:16:54.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,{\i1}ÑDo you remember saying: Now\NI understand what marriage means?ì{\i0}
Dialogue: 0,0:16:54.60,0:17:00.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,{\i1}ÑYou have taught me..ì\NI can't see what's written here.{\i0}
Dialogue: 0,0:17:00.20,0:17:03.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,{\i1}ÑYou have taught..ì Now I see...{\i0}
Dialogue: 0,0:17:03.30,0:17:09.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,{\i1}ÑYou've taught me that we must see\Neach other as two anxious childrenì -{\i0}
Dialogue: 0,0:17:09.80,0:17:13.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,{\i1}- Ñfilled with good will\Nand the best intentionsì{\i0}
Dialogue: 0,0:17:13.80,0:17:16.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,{\i1}ÑBut gov..ì{\i0}
Dialogue: 0,0:17:16.70,0:17:22.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,{\i1}Now I see it. ÑBut governed by forces\Nwe only partially controlì{\i0}
Dialogue: 0,0:17:22.80,0:17:26.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,{\i1}ÑDo you remember saying all of that?ì{\i0}
Dialogue: 0,0:17:26.50,0:17:31.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,{\i1}ÑWe were walking in the woods\Nand you stopped and held my belt..ì{\i0}
Dialogue: 0,0:17:39.60,0:17:43.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,There was a photograph\Nwith the letter as well.
Dialogue: 0,0:17:43.40,0:17:47.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It's a photograph of your son.\NI don't know if...
Dialogue: 0,0:17:47.90,0:17:51.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Would you like it, Mrs Vogler?
Dialogue: 0,0:17:51.60,0:17:54.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,He looks awfully sweet.
Dialogue: 0,0:18:24.60,0:18:30.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I've been thinking, Elisabet. I don't\Nthink you should remain at the hospital.
Dialogue: 0,0:18:30.40,0:18:34.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I think it's harmful.\NAs you don't want to go home -
Dialogue: 0,0:18:34.40,0:18:39.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- you and Sister Alma can move out\Nto my summer place by the sea. Hmm?
Dialogue: 0,0:18:40.70,0:18:46.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,{\i1}Don't you think I understand?\NThe hopeless dream of being.{\i0}
Dialogue: 0,0:18:46.40,0:18:48.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,{\i1}Not seeming, but being.{\i0}
Dialogue: 0,0:18:50.60,0:18:54.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Consious at every moment. Vigilant.
Dialogue: 0,0:18:55.70,0:19:00.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,At the same time the chasm between\Nwhat you are to others and to yourself.
Dialogue: 0,0:19:00.90,0:19:06.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,The feeling of vertigo and the constant\Ndesire to at last be exposed.
Dialogue: 0,0:19:07.40,0:19:13.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,To be seen through, cut down,\Nperhaps even annihilated.
Dialogue: 0,0:19:14.80,0:19:21.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Every tone of voice a lie, every gesture\Na falsehood, every smile a grimace.
Dialogue: 0,0:19:21.30,0:19:25.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Commit suicide? Oh, no.
Dialogue: 0,0:19:25.60,0:19:29.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,That's ugly. You don't do that.
Dialogue: 0,0:19:29.60,0:19:35.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But you can be immobile, you can\Nfall silent. Then at least you don't lie.
Dialogue: 0,0:19:35.40,0:19:38.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You can close yourself in,\Nshut yourself off.
Dialogue: 0,0:19:38.90,0:19:43.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Then you don't have to play roles,\Nshow any faces or make false gestures.
Dialogue: 0,0:19:43.80,0:19:45.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You think...
Dialogue: 0,0:19:47.00,0:19:51.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But you see, reality is bloody-minded.\NYour hideout isn't watertight.
Dialogue: 0,0:19:52.00,0:19:55.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Life seeps in everything.
Dialogue: 0,0:19:58.00,0:20:00.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You're forced to react.
Dialogue: 0,0:20:01.20,0:20:06.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,No one asks if it's real or unreal,\Nif you're true or false.
Dialogue: 0,0:20:07.00,0:20:12.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It's only in the theatre the question\Ncarries weight. Hardly even there.
Dialogue: 0,0:20:13.20,0:20:18.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I understand you, Elisabet. I understand\Nyou're keeping silent, you're immobile.
Dialogue: 0,0:20:18.80,0:20:23.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,That you've placed this lack of will\Ninto a fantastic system.
Dialogue: 0,0:20:23.60,0:20:27.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I understand and admire you.
Dialogue: 0,0:20:27.20,0:20:31.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I think you should maintain this role\Nuntil it's played out.
Dialogue: 0,0:20:31.80,0:20:35.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Until it's no longer interesting.\NThen you can leave it.
Dialogue: 0,0:20:35.70,0:20:40.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Just as you bit by bit\Nleave all your other roles.
Dialogue: 0,0:20:44.60,0:20:50.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Mrs Vogler and Sister Alma moved out\Nto the doctor's house in late summer.
Dialogue: 0,0:20:50.20,0:20:54.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,The sojourn near the sea\Nhad a favourable effect on the actress.
Dialogue: 0,0:20:54.60,0:20:59.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,The apathy that had crippled her\Nin hospital yields to long walks -
Dialogue: 0,0:20:59.20,0:21:03.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- fishing trips, cooking,\Nletter writing and other diversions.
Dialogue: 0,0:21:03.80,0:21:09.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Sister Alma enjoys her rural seclusion\Nand takes utmost care of her patient.
Dialogue: 0,0:21:49.90,0:21:53.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Don't you know it's bad luck\Nto compare hands?
Dialogue: 0,0:22:10.80,0:22:15.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Elisabet? Can I read you something\Nfrom my book?
Dialogue: 0,0:22:15.80,0:22:18.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Or am I disturbing you? It says here:
Dialogue: 0,0:22:19.00,0:22:23.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,{\i1}ÑAll the anxiety we bear with us,\Nall our thwarted dreamsì -{\i0}
Dialogue: 0,0:22:23.50,0:22:27.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,{\i1}- Ñthe incomprehensible cruelty,\Nour fear of extinctionì -{\i0}
Dialogue: 0,0:22:28.10,0:22:31.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,{\i1}- Ñthe painful insight\Ninto our earthly conditionì -{\i0}
Dialogue: 0,0:22:31.20,0:22:37.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,{\i1}- Ñhave slowly eroded our hope\Nof an other-wordly salvationì{\i0}
Dialogue: 0,0:22:37.50,0:22:42.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,{\i1}ÑThe howl of our faith and doubt\Nagainst the darkness and silenceì -{\i0}
Dialogue: 0,0:22:42.20,0:22:46.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,{\i1}- Ñis one of the most awful proofs\Nof our abandonmentì -{\i0}
Dialogue: 0,0:22:46.20,0:22:50.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,{\i1}- Ñand our terrified,\Nunuttered knowledgeì{\i0}
Dialogue: 0,0:22:51.30,0:22:54.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Do you think it's like that?
Dialogue: 0,0:22:57.20,0:22:59.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I don't believe it.
Dialogue: 0,0:23:00.30,0:23:04.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Making changes...\NThe worst thing with me is I'm so lazy.
Dialogue: 0,0:23:04.60,0:23:08.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And then I get a bad conscience. Karl-\NHenrik scolds me for lacking ambition.
Dialogue: 0,0:23:09.00,0:23:13.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,He says I go around like a sleepwalker.\NI think that's unfair.
Dialogue: 0,0:23:13.20,0:23:18.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I was best in my group with the exams.\NBut he probably means something else.
Dialogue: 0,0:23:20.40,0:23:22.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You know...
Dialogue: 0,0:23:22.20,0:23:26.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Oh, sorry. You know\Nwhat I sometimes think of?
Dialogue: 0,0:23:26.20,0:23:30.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,At the hospital where I did my exam,\Nthere's a home for old nurses.
Dialogue: 0,0:23:30.90,0:23:36.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Ones that have always been nurses,\Nlived for their work. Always in uniform.
Dialogue: 0,0:23:36.70,0:23:42.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,They live in their small rooms. Imagine\Ndevoting your whole life to something.
Dialogue: 0,0:23:42.60,0:23:46.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I mean, believing in something.\NAccomplishing something.
Dialogue: 0,0:23:46.60,0:23:51.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Believing that one's life has a purpose.\NI like things like that.
Dialogue: 0,0:23:51.60,0:23:55.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Sticking to one thing doggedly,\Nirrespective. I think one ought to.
Dialogue: 0,0:23:56.60,0:24:01.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Mean something to other people.\NDon't you think so as well?
Dialogue: 0,0:24:05.20,0:24:08.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I know it sounds childish,\Nbut I believe in it.
Dialogue: 0,0:24:10.40,0:24:13.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Goodness, it's raining a lot!
Dialogue: 0,0:24:14.00,0:24:19.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Oh, yes. He was married.\NWe had a relationship for five years.
Dialogue: 0,0:24:19.20,0:24:22.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Then he got tired, of course.
Dialogue: 0,0:24:22.20,0:24:25.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I was very much in love, that's for sure.\NAnd he was the first.
Dialogue: 0,0:24:26.00,0:24:29.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I remember it all like a long torment.
Dialogue: 0,0:24:30.60,0:24:35.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Long periods of pain\Nand then short moments when...
Dialogue: 0,0:24:35.20,0:24:40.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I'm thinking of it as you've taught me\Nto smoke. He smoked loads.
Dialogue: 0,0:24:40.90,0:24:45.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Thinking of it afterwards,\Nit's really banal. A real pulp fiction.
Dialogue: 0,0:24:47.20,0:24:51.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,In a strange way\Nit was never really real.
Dialogue: 0,0:24:51.50,0:24:57.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I don't know how to describe it.\NAt least, I was never quite real to him.
Dialogue: 0,0:24:58.20,0:25:02.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,My pain was real, that's for sure.
Dialogue: 0,0:25:02.70,0:25:07.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Somehow it was is if it was part of it\Nin some nasty way.
Dialogue: 0,0:25:07.90,0:25:11.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,As if that's how it was supposed to be.
Dialogue: 0,0:25:11.30,0:25:15.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Even the things we said to each other...
Dialogue: 0,0:25:20.50,0:25:25.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Many people have told me that\NI'm a good listener. Funny, huh?
Dialogue: 0,0:25:25.80,0:25:31.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,No one's ever bothered to listen to me.\NLike you are now. You're listening.
Dialogue: 0,0:25:31.30,0:25:34.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I think you're the first person\Nwho's listened to me.
Dialogue: 0,0:25:35.10,0:25:39.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It can't be interesting at all.\NYou could read a good book instead.
Dialogue: 0,0:25:39.70,0:25:43.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,God, I'm going on.\NYou're not getting irritated?
Dialogue: 0,0:25:43.10,0:25:46.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It's so nice to talk.\NIt feels so nice and warm.
Dialogue: 0,0:25:46.60,0:25:50.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I feel like I've never felt\Nin my whole life.
Dialogue: 0,0:25:52.10,0:25:56.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I always wanted a sister.\NI only have a load of brothers. Seven.
Dialogue: 0,0:25:56.60,0:26:01.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Funny, huh? Then I come along. I've\Nbeen surrounded by boys all my life.
Dialogue: 0,0:26:03.00,0:26:09.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I like boys. But you would know that\Nwith all your experience as an actress.
Dialogue: 0,0:26:10.80,0:26:16.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I really like Karl-Henrik.\NBut, you know, you only love once.
Dialogue: 0,0:26:16.70,0:26:22.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I'm faithful to him. In my profession\Nthere are opportunities, I can tell you.
Dialogue: 0,0:26:26.10,0:26:29.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Karl-Henrik and I had hired\Na cottage by the sea.
Dialogue: 0,0:26:29.40,0:26:33.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It was June, we were all alone.
Dialogue: 0,0:26:34.00,0:26:38.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,One day when Karl-Henrik had gone\Ninto town, I went to the beach alone.
Dialogue: 0,0:26:38.90,0:26:42.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It was really nice and warm.
Dialogue: 0,0:26:43.10,0:26:46.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,There was another girl there.\NShe lived on an island nearby -
Dialogue: 0,0:26:46.80,0:26:52.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- but had come over as our beach lay\Nto the south and was more relaxed.
Dialogue: 0,0:26:53.30,0:26:57.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So we lay beside one another\Ncompletely naked and sunbathed.
Dialogue: 0,0:26:57.60,0:27:02.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,We slept a little, woke up,\Nand put on some oil.
Dialogue: 0,0:27:02.60,0:27:07.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,We wore these hats on our heads,\Nyou know, those cheap straw hats.
Dialogue: 0,0:27:07.60,0:27:11.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I had a blue ribbon around my hat.
Dialogue: 0,0:27:12.70,0:27:16.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I lay looking out from under the hat -
Dialogue: 0,0:27:16.10,0:27:20.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- glanced out at the landscape,\Nthe sea and the sun.
Dialogue: 0,0:27:20.30,0:27:22.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It was so curious.
Dialogue: 0,0:27:27.80,0:27:32.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Suddenly I saw two figures jumping\Nabout on the rocks above us.
Dialogue: 0,0:27:33.70,0:27:37.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,They hid and peeped out\Noccasionally.
Dialogue: 0,0:27:37.30,0:27:43.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,{\i1}ÑThere are two boys looking at usì,\NI said to her. Her name was Katarina.{\i0}
Dialogue: 0,0:27:43.20,0:27:47.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,{\i1}ÑWell, let them lookì, she said,\Nand turned on her back.{\i0}
Dialogue: 0,0:27:48.40,0:27:51.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It was such a strange feeling.
Dialogue: 0,0:27:51.50,0:27:56.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I wanted to run and put on\Nmy costume, but I just lay still...
Dialogue: 0,0:27:56.20,0:28:02.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,On my belly with my bum in the air,\Ntotally unembarrassed, totally calm.
Dialogue: 0,0:28:04.80,0:28:11.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,All the time I had Katarina beside me\Nwith her breasts and thick thighs.
Dialogue: 0,0:28:11.20,0:28:15.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,She just lay there\Ngiggling a little to herself.
Dialogue: 0,0:28:17.40,0:28:22.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Then I saw the boys had come nearer.\NThey just stood looking at us.
Dialogue: 0,0:28:23.50,0:28:27.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I saw that they were terribly young.
Dialogue: 0,0:28:27.40,0:28:32.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Then one of them, the bravest one -
Dialogue: 0,0:28:32.20,0:28:36.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- he came up to us\Nand squatted down beside Katarina.
Dialogue: 0,0:28:36.40,0:28:42.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,He pretended to be busy with his foot\Nand sat poking between his toes.
Dialogue: 0,0:28:42.40,0:28:46.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I felt totally strange.
Dialogue: 0,0:28:47.80,0:28:50.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Suddenly I heard Katarina say:
Dialogue: 0,0:28:50.80,0:28:54.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,{\i1}ÑAren't you going\Nto come over here?ì{\i0}
Dialogue: 0,0:28:55.10,0:28:59.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Then she took his hand and helped\Nhim take his jeans and shirt off.
Dialogue: 0,0:28:59.40,0:29:05.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Suddenly he was over her and she\Nhelped him in and held his behind.
Dialogue: 0,0:29:07.20,0:29:11.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,The other boy just sat on the slope\Nand watched.
Dialogue: 0,0:29:11.40,0:29:16.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I heard Katarina whisper in his ear\Nand laugh.
Dialogue: 0,0:29:16.30,0:29:19.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I had his face right next to me.
Dialogue: 0,0:29:19.90,0:29:23.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It was all red and swollen.
Dialogue: 0,0:29:25.20,0:29:29.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,{\i1}Suddenly I turned over and said,\NÑAren't you going to come to me too?ì{\i0}
Dialogue: 0,0:29:30.70,0:29:36.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,{\i1}Katarina said, ÑGo to her nowì.\NAnd he pulled out of her and...{\i0}
Dialogue: 0,0:29:36.30,0:29:40.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,...he fell over me, completely hard.\NHe took hold of one breast.
Dialogue: 0,0:29:41.00,0:29:44.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,God, it hurt so much...
Dialogue: 0,0:29:45.00,0:29:50.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I was all ready somehow, I came\Nat once. Can you understand that?
Dialogue: 0,0:29:50.10,0:29:54.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,{\i1}I was just going to tell him, ÑBe careful\Nso that I don't get pregnantì -{\i0}
Dialogue: 0,0:29:54.60,0:29:57.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- when he came. I felt...
Dialogue: 0,0:29:57.70,0:30:03.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I felt it like I'd never felt it before\Nhow he sprayed his seed into me.
Dialogue: 0,0:30:04.00,0:30:09.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,He gripped my shoulders and bent\Nbackwards. I came over and over.
Dialogue: 0,0:30:12.60,0:30:17.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Katarina lay on her side looking\Nand she held him from behind.
Dialogue: 0,0:30:19.80,0:30:25.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,When he came she embraced him\Nand made herself come with his hand.
Dialogue: 0,0:30:26.20,0:30:30.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And when she came she screamed\Nreally loud.
Dialogue: 0,0:30:35.70,0:30:38.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Then all three of us started laughing.
Dialogue: 0,0:30:39.00,0:30:43.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,We called the other boy sitting\Non the slope. His name was Peter.
Dialogue: 0,0:30:48.40,0:30:52.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,He came down all confused,\Nlooking frozen in the sunshine.
Dialogue: 0,0:30:55.30,0:31:00.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Katarina unbuttoned his trousers\Nand started playing with him.
Dialogue: 0,0:31:00.10,0:31:03.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,When he came\Nshe took him in her mouth.
Dialogue: 0,0:31:04.40,0:31:07.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,He bent down and started kissing her\Non the back.
Dialogue: 0,0:31:07.80,0:31:11.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,She turned around, took his head in\Nboth hands and gave him her breast.
Dialogue: 0,0:31:12.10,0:31:16.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,The other boy got so excited,\Nso he and I started again.
Dialogue: 0,0:31:17.60,0:31:20.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It was as nice as the first time.
Dialogue: 0,0:31:22.20,0:31:27.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Then we swam and parted. When I\Ncame back, Karl-Henrik had returned.
Dialogue: 0,0:31:31.00,0:31:35.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,We ate dinner together and drank\Nthe red wine he had with him.
Dialogue: 0,0:31:37.00,0:31:39.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Then we slept together.
Dialogue: 0,0:31:40.00,0:31:45.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It's never been as good, before or since.\NCan you understand that?
Dialogue: 0,0:31:45.60,0:31:49.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Then I fell pregnant, of course.
Dialogue: 0,0:31:49.80,0:31:54.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Karl-Henrik, who's studying medicine,\Ntook me to a friend who aborted it.
Dialogue: 0,0:31:56.00,0:32:00.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,We were both happy.\NWe didn't want any children.
Dialogue: 0,0:32:00.30,0:32:03.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Not just then, anyway.
Dialogue: 0,0:32:08.70,0:32:14.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It doesn't make sense.\NNone of it fits together.
Dialogue: 0,0:32:14.80,0:32:20.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Then you get a bad conscience over\Nsmall things. Can you understand?
Dialogue: 0,0:32:20.20,0:32:25.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,What happens to everything\Nyou believe in? Isn't it necessary?
Dialogue: 0,0:32:27.60,0:32:32.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Can you be one and the same person\Nat the same time?
Dialogue: 0,0:32:32.80,0:32:36.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I mean, was I two people...?\NGod, I'm being silly...
Dialogue: 0,0:32:37.00,0:32:41.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I don't have any reason\Nto start snivelling, anyway.
Dialogue: 0,0:32:41.30,0:32:44.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Wait, I'm going to fetch a tissue.
Dialogue: 0,0:33:04.20,0:33:09.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It's nearly morning...\Nand it's still raining.
Dialogue: 0,0:33:15.70,0:33:20.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Imagine, I've been talking in a stream.\NI've talked and you've listened to me.
Dialogue: 0,0:33:20.90,0:33:25.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,How boring for you. Of what interest\Ncan my life be to you?
Dialogue: 0,0:33:26.10,0:33:28.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,One should be like you.
Dialogue: 0,0:33:29.70,0:33:34.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You know what I thought\Nwhen I saw your film that night?
Dialogue: 0,0:33:34.30,0:33:40.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,When I came home I saw myself\Nin the mirror and thought: we're alike.
Dialogue: 0,0:33:40.20,0:33:44.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Don't misunderstand me, you're much\Nprettier, but we are alike in a way.
Dialogue: 0,0:33:44.40,0:33:49.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I think I could turn myself into you.\NIf I made a real effort.
Dialogue: 0,0:33:49.10,0:33:51.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I mean inside.
Dialogue: 0,0:33:52.60,0:33:57.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You could turn yourself into me\Njust like that.
Dialogue: 0,0:33:57.10,0:34:02.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Although your soul would be much\Ntoo big. It would stick out everywhere!
Dialogue: 0,0:34:05.30,0:34:10.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You should go to bed now. Otherwise\Nyou'll fall asleep at the table.
Dialogue: 0,0:34:22.90,0:34:27.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,No, I must go to bed.\NOtherwise I'll fall asleep at the table.
Dialogue: 0,0:34:27.80,0:34:31.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,That would be\Na little too uncomfortable.
Dialogue: 0,0:34:33.60,0:34:35.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Good night.
Dialogue: 0,0:37:28.20,0:37:30.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Listen, Elisabet...
Dialogue: 0,0:37:32.50,0:37:35.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Did you speak to me last night?
Dialogue: 0,0:38:05.00,0:38:08.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Were you in my room last night?
Dialogue: 0,0:38:48.40,0:38:51.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Shall I take your mail as well?
Dialogue: 0,0:38:52.00,0:38:53.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Can I have a taste?
Dialogue: 0,0:38:55.60,0:38:57.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Bye.
Dialogue: 0,0:40:01.10,0:40:05.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,My dear: I'd always like to live\Nlike this. This silence, living cut off -
Dialogue: 0,0:40:06.00,0:40:10.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- this feeling of the battered soul\Nfinally beginning to straighten out.
Dialogue: 0,0:40:15.80,0:40:19.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Alma's spoiling me\Nin the most moving manner.
Dialogue: 0,0:40:21.10,0:40:26.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I think, by the way, that she's enjoying\Nherself and is quite taken with me -
Dialogue: 0,0:40:26.50,0:40:32.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- even smitten in an unconscious and\Ndelightful way. It's fun studying her.
Dialogue: 0,0:40:41.30,0:40:44.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Sometimes she cries over past sins -
Dialogue: 0,0:40:44.30,0:40:48.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- an episodic orgy with a totally\Nstrange boy followed by an abortion.
Dialogue: 0,0:40:48.40,0:40:52.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,She complains that her notions of life\Ndon't accord with her actions.
Dialogue: 0,0:46:22.90,0:46:29.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I see you're reading a play? That's\Na healthy sign, I'll tell the doctor.
Dialogue: 0,0:46:32.00,0:46:36.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Don't you think we should leave soon?\NI'm starting to miss town.
Dialogue: 0,0:46:36.80,0:46:39.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Aren't you?
Dialogue: 0,0:46:53.60,0:46:56.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Would you like to make me\Nreally happy?
Dialogue: 0,0:46:57.20,0:47:01.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I know it's a sacrifice,\Nbut I need your help right now.
Dialogue: 0,0:47:01.60,0:47:05.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It's nothing dangerous.\NBut I want you to talk to me.
Dialogue: 0,0:47:06.00,0:47:11.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Doesn't have to be special.\NAnything, what we're having for dinner -
Dialogue: 0,0:47:11.60,0:47:16.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- or if you think the water's cold after\Nthe storm. If it's too cold to swim.
Dialogue: 0,0:47:16.80,0:47:19.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,We only need to talk a few minutes.\NOne minute.
Dialogue: 0,0:47:19.90,0:47:24.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You can read from your book.\NJust say a few words.
Dialogue: 0,0:47:25.30,0:47:30.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I must try not to get angry. You\Nremain silent and that's your business.
Dialogue: 0,0:47:30.80,0:47:34.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But now I need you to talk to me.
Dialogue: 0,0:47:36.30,0:47:40.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,My dear woman,\Ncan't you say just a single word?
Dialogue: 0,0:47:42.20,0:47:47.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I knew you'd refuse.\NYou can't know how I feel.
Dialogue: 0,0:47:48.90,0:47:54.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I always thought great artists felt\Ngreat compassion for other people.
Dialogue: 0,0:47:54.70,0:47:59.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,That they created from a sense of\Ngreat sympathy and a need to help.
Dialogue: 0,0:47:59.70,0:48:02.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,That was stupid of me.
Dialogue: 0,0:48:05.20,0:48:10.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You've used me. Now that you don't\Nneed me you just throw me away.
Dialogue: 0,0:48:11.30,0:48:15.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Yes, I hear very well how it sounds,\Nhow false it sounds!
Dialogue: 0,0:48:15.20,0:48:19.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You've used me, now you're\Ndiscarding me. Every word!
Dialogue: 0,0:48:19.20,0:48:21.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And then these glasses!
Dialogue: 0,0:48:29.20,0:48:34.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You've really hurt me. You've\Nlaughed at me behind my back.
Dialogue: 0,0:48:36.00,0:48:38.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I read the letter you sent to the doctor.
Dialogue: 0,0:48:38.80,0:48:43.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Just think, it wasn't sealed!\NAnd I read it thoroughly!
Dialogue: 0,0:48:44.60,0:48:49.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You got me to talk. You got me to\Ntell you things I've never told anyone.
Dialogue: 0,0:48:49.20,0:48:53.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And you hand it on.\NWhat a study, huh?! You're not...
Dialogue: 0,0:48:54.20,0:48:59.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You're going to talk now! If you've got\Nanything to say, you're bloody well...
Dialogue: 0,0:49:12.10,0:49:14.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,No, stop it!
Dialogue: 0,0:49:24.90,0:49:27.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You were really scared now, huh?
Dialogue: 0,0:49:29.20,0:49:33.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,For a second you were\Ngenuinely scared, not so?
Dialogue: 0,0:49:33.50,0:49:38.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,A genuine fear of death, huh?\NAlma's gone crazy, you thought.
Dialogue: 0,0:49:39.00,0:49:42.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,What kind of person are you, really?
Dialogue: 0,0:49:42.30,0:49:45.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Or do you think like this:\NI'll remember that face.
Dialogue: 0,0:49:46.00,0:49:51.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,That tone of voice, that expression. I'll\Ngive you something you won't forget!
Dialogue: 0,0:50:12.00,0:50:15.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You're laughing, are you?
Dialogue: 0,0:50:15.60,0:50:21.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It's not so simple for me.\NNot so funny, either.
Dialogue: 0,0:50:21.10,0:50:24.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But you've always got your laugh.
Dialogue: 0,0:51:45.20,0:51:48.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Must it be like this?
Dialogue: 0,0:51:50.00,0:51:53.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Is it really important not to lie,\Nto speak the truth -
Dialogue: 0,0:51:54.00,0:51:57.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- to talk with a genuine tone of voice?
Dialogue: 0,0:51:57.40,0:52:00.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Can one live at all\Nwithout talking freely?
Dialogue: 0,0:52:00.70,0:52:05.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Lie and deviate and evade things.
Dialogue: 0,0:52:05.90,0:52:11.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Isn't it better to allow yourself\Nto be lazy and sloppy, untruthful?
Dialogue: 0,0:52:12.80,0:52:17.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Maybe you become a little better if\Nyou just let yourself be what you are.
Dialogue: 0,0:52:20.60,0:52:24.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,No, you don't understand. You don't\Nunderstand what I'm saying.
Dialogue: 0,0:52:24.90,0:52:27.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You are inaccessible.
Dialogue: 0,0:52:27.40,0:52:31.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,They said you were mentally healthy,\Nbut your madness is the worst.
Dialogue: 0,0:52:31.40,0:52:35.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You're acting healthy. You do it\Nso well everyone believes you.
Dialogue: 0,0:52:35.80,0:52:39.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Everyone except me,\Nbecause I know how rotten you are.
Dialogue: 0,0:52:45.00,0:52:46.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,What am I doing?
Dialogue: 0,0:52:48.10,0:52:52.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Elisabet! Elisabet, forgive me.
Dialogue: 0,0:52:52.30,0:52:55.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I behaved like an idiot,\Ndon't know what got into me.
Dialogue: 0,0:52:55.80,0:53:00.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I'm here to help you.\NThen there was that awful letter.
Dialogue: 0,0:53:00.70,0:53:05.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I was so disappointed.\NYou asked me to talk about myself.
Dialogue: 0,0:53:06.30,0:53:10.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It was nice, you looked so understanding,\NI'd drunk a lot...
Dialogue: 0,0:53:10.30,0:53:13.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It was so nice to talk about it all.
Dialogue: 0,0:53:13.80,0:53:19.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I was also flattered that a great actress\Ncared to listen to me.
Dialogue: 0,0:53:19.40,0:53:24.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Somehow I thought it would be nice\Nif it was of some use to you.
Dialogue: 0,0:53:24.50,0:53:28.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But it's terrible, isn't it?\NSheer exhibitionism.
Dialogue: 0,0:53:28.40,0:53:31.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Elisabet, I want you to forgive me.
Dialogue: 0,0:53:31.40,0:53:34.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I like you so much,\Nyou mean so much to me.
Dialogue: 0,0:53:34.60,0:53:38.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I've learned so much from you,\NI don't want to part as enemies.
Dialogue: 0,0:54:00.40,0:54:04.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You don't want to forgive me.\NYou're too proud!
Dialogue: 0,0:54:04.40,0:54:07.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You won't lower yourself\Nbecause you don't need to!
Dialogue: 0,0:54:08.10,0:54:11.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I won't, I won't...!
Dialogue: 0,0:58:06.90,0:58:10.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,We don't talk... don't listen...\Nunderstand...
Dialogue: 0,0:58:14.80,0:58:19.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- Elisabet?\N- What means should... to enable...
Dialogue: 0,0:59:02.40,0:59:06.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,When you sleep your face is slack.
Dialogue: 0,0:59:07.90,0:59:11.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Your mouth is swollen and ugly.
Dialogue: 0,0:59:13.40,0:59:17.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You have a nasty wrinkle\Non your forehead.
Dialogue: 0,0:59:23.90,0:59:27.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You smell of sleep and tears.
Dialogue: 0,0:59:30.30,0:59:34.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I can see the pulse on your throat.
Dialogue: 0,0:59:34.20,0:59:38.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You have a scar you normally cover\Nwith make-up.
Dialogue: 0,0:59:40.10,0:59:42.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Elisabet!
Dialogue: 0,0:59:42.90,0:59:45.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,He's calling again.
Dialogue: 0,0:59:46.50,0:59:49.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I'll find out what he wants from us.
Dialogue: 0,0:59:49.60,0:59:53.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Out here, far away in our loneliness.
Dialogue: 0,1:00:14.60,1:00:16.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Elisabet?
Dialogue: 0,1:00:17.10,1:00:20.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Elisabet? Sorry if I frightened you.
Dialogue: 0,1:00:21.90,1:00:26.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- I'm not Elisabet.\N- I don't have any demands.
Dialogue: 0,1:00:26.80,1:00:31.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I didn't want to disturb you.\NDon't you think I understand?
Dialogue: 0,1:00:31.20,1:00:35.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,The doctor explained\Na number of things to me.
Dialogue: 0,1:00:35.20,1:00:40.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,The most difficult thing is explaining\Nto the little boy. I'm doing my best.
Dialogue: 0,1:00:42.30,1:00:47.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,There is something that lies deeper,\Nthat is hard to catch sight of.
Dialogue: 0,1:00:47.30,1:00:51.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You love someone, or more correctly,\Nsay you love someone, it's...
Dialogue: 0,1:00:51.80,1:00:56.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It's understandable.\NTangible as words are, that is.
Dialogue: 0,1:00:56.90,1:01:00.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Mr Vogler, I'm not your wife.
Dialogue: 0,1:01:00.40,1:01:05.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You are also loved.\NYou build a little fellowship.
Dialogue: 0,1:01:05.20,1:01:10.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It generates security. You see\Nthe possibility of enduring, not so?
Dialogue: 0,1:01:12.80,1:01:18.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,How can I say everything I've thought\Nwithout losing my way, boring you?
Dialogue: 0,1:01:26.80,1:01:30.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I love you, as much as I did before.
Dialogue: 0,1:01:37.00,1:01:41.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,No, don't be so anxious, my darling.\NWe have one another.
Dialogue: 0,1:01:42.00,1:01:45.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,We have faith,\Nknow each other's thoughts.
Dialogue: 0,1:01:45.20,1:01:48.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,We love one another.\NIt's true isn't it?
Dialogue: 0,1:01:49.00,1:01:53.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It's the effort that's most important,\Nnot what we achieve. Isn't it?
Dialogue: 0,1:01:55.90,1:02:00.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,To see each other as children.\NTormented, helpless, lonely children.
Dialogue: 0,1:02:00.60,1:02:06.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- Elisabet.\N- Tell the boy that I'm coming soon.
Dialogue: 0,1:02:06.20,1:02:10.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Mummy's been sick,\Nbut she's longing for her little boy.
Dialogue: 0,1:02:10.20,1:02:15.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Remember to buy a present for him.\NFrom Mummy, don't forget.
Dialogue: 0,1:02:15.30,1:02:19.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You know I feel\Nsuch tenderness for you.
Dialogue: 0,1:02:21.50,1:02:24.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It's difficult to bear.
Dialogue: 0,1:02:25.00,1:02:28.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I don't know what to do\Nwith my tenderness.
Dialogue: 0,1:02:29.50,1:02:32.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I live from your tenderness.
Dialogue: 0,1:02:33.50,1:02:38.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Elisabet, do you like being with me?\NIs it nice?
Dialogue: 0,1:02:41.10,1:02:45.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- You're a wonderful lover. You know.\N- My darling...
Dialogue: 0,1:02:47.70,1:02:51.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Anaethetise me... throw me away!
Dialogue: 0,1:02:51.50,1:02:54.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,No, I can't, I can't take any more!
Dialogue: 0,1:02:54.60,1:02:58.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Leave me alone!\NIt's shame, it's all shame!
Dialogue: 0,1:02:58.70,1:03:03.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Leave me alone!\NI'm cold and rotten and indifferent!
Dialogue: 0,1:03:03.70,1:03:07.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It's all just lies and imitation,\Nall of it!
Dialogue: 0,1:03:13.70,1:03:17.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Elisabet, what have you got there?
Dialogue: 0,1:03:18.00,1:03:22.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,What are you hiding\Nunder your hand? Let me see.
Dialogue: 0,1:03:25.20,1:03:29.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It's the photo of your little boy.\NThe one you tore up.
Dialogue: 0,1:03:29.40,1:03:31.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,We must talk about that.
Dialogue: 0,1:03:39.10,1:03:41.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Tell me about it, Elisabet.
Dialogue: 0,1:03:42.40,1:03:44.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Then I will.
Dialogue: 0,1:03:45.40,1:03:50.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It was one night at a party, isn't\Nthat so? It got late and quite rowdy.
Dialogue: 0,1:03:52.40,1:03:56.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Towards morning\Nsomeone in the group said:
Dialogue: 0,1:03:56.20,1:04:00.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,{\i1}ÑElisabet, you virtually have it all in\Nyour armoury as a woman and artistì{\i0}
Dialogue: 0,1:04:00.70,1:04:03.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,{\i1}ÑBut you lack motherlinessì{\i0}
Dialogue: 0,1:04:04.40,1:04:08.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You laughed\Nbecause you thought it sounded silly.
Dialogue: 0,1:04:08.20,1:04:12.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But after a while you noticed\Nyou thought about what he'd said.
Dialogue: 0,1:04:13.80,1:04:19.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You became more and more worried.\NYou let your husband impregnate you.
Dialogue: 0,1:04:19.60,1:04:22.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You wanted to be a mother.
Dialogue: 0,1:04:22.80,1:04:26.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,When you realized it was definite,\Nyou became frightened.
Dialogue: 0,1:04:26.50,1:04:32.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Frightened of responsibility, of being\Ntied down, of leaving the theatre.
Dialogue: 0,1:04:32.30,1:04:38.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Frightened of pain, of dying,\Nfrightened of your body swelling up.
Dialogue: 0,1:04:38.70,1:04:44.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But you played the role. The role\Nof a happy, young, expectant mother.
Dialogue: 0,1:04:45.50,1:04:50.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,{\i1}Everyone said, Ñlsn't she beautiful?\NShe's never been so beautifulì{\i0}
Dialogue: 0,1:04:53.00,1:04:57.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Meanwhile you tried to abort the foetus\Nseveral times.
Dialogue: 0,1:04:57.80,1:05:00.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But you failed.
Dialogue: 0,1:05:00.40,1:05:04.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,When you saw it was irreversible,\Nyou started to hate the baby.
Dialogue: 0,1:05:05.00,1:05:08.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And you wished it would be stillborn.
Dialogue: 0,1:05:10.80,1:05:14.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You wished the baby would be dead.
Dialogue: 0,1:05:15.70,1:05:18.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You wished for a dead baby.
Dialogue: 0,1:05:22.90,1:05:25.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It was a difficult and long delivery.
Dialogue: 0,1:05:25.90,1:05:31.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You were in agony for days. Finally\Nthe baby was delivered with forceps.
Dialogue: 0,1:05:31.80,1:05:35.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You looked with disgust and terror\Nat your squealing baby and whispered:
Dialogue: 0,1:05:36.00,1:05:39.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,{\i1}ÑCan't you die soon? Can't you die?ì{\i0}
Dialogue: 0,1:05:41.00,1:05:43.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But he survived.
Dialogue: 0,1:05:44.50,1:05:47.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,The boy screamed day and night.
Dialogue: 0,1:05:50.00,1:05:55.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And you hated him. You were scared,\Nyou had a bad conscience.
Dialogue: 0,1:05:58.20,1:06:02.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Finally the boy was taken care of\Nby relatives and a nanny.
Dialogue: 0,1:06:02.30,1:06:06.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You could get up from your sickbed\Nand return to the theatre.
Dialogue: 0,1:06:08.90,1:06:12.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But the suffering wasn't over.
Dialogue: 0,1:06:12.60,1:06:17.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,The boy was gripped by a massive\Nand unfathomable love for his mother.
Dialogue: 0,1:06:17.70,1:06:22.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You defend yourself.\NYou defend yourself in despair.
Dialogue: 0,1:06:22.20,1:06:28.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You feel you can't return it.\NSo you try, and you try...
Dialogue: 0,1:06:28.60,1:06:32.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But there are only cruel and clumsy\Nmeetings between you.
Dialogue: 0,1:06:32.20,1:06:37.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You can't do it.\NYou're cold and indifferent.
Dialogue: 0,1:06:37.10,1:06:42.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,He looks at you.\NHe loves you and he's so gentle.
Dialogue: 0,1:06:42.30,1:06:46.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You want to hit him\Nbecause he doesn't leave you alone.
Dialogue: 0,1:06:46.40,1:06:50.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You think he's disgusting\Nwith his thick mouth and ugly body.
Dialogue: 0,1:06:50.50,1:06:55.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,His moist and pleading eyes.\NHe's disgusting and you're scared.
Dialogue: 0,1:06:59.10,1:07:03.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,What are you hiding\Nunder your hand? Let me see.
Dialogue: 0,1:07:07.60,1:07:11.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It's the photo of your little boy.\NThe one you tore up.
Dialogue: 0,1:07:11.40,1:07:13.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,We must talk about it.
Dialogue: 0,1:07:21.80,1:07:24.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Tell me about it, Elisabet.
Dialogue: 0,1:07:26.80,1:07:28.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Then I will.
Dialogue: 0,1:07:31.30,1:07:34.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It was one night at a party,\Nisn't that right?
Dialogue: 0,1:07:34.80,1:07:38.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It got late and quite rowdy.
Dialogue: 0,1:07:38.80,1:07:42.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Towards morning\Nsomeone in the group said:
Dialogue: 0,1:07:42.50,1:07:47.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,{\i1}ÑElisabet, you virtually have it all in\Nyour armoury as a woman and artistì{\i0}
Dialogue: 0,1:07:47.40,1:07:50.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,{\i1}ÑBut you lack motherlinessì{\i0}
Dialogue: 0,1:07:51.40,1:07:55.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You laughed\Nbecause you thought it sounded silly.
Dialogue: 0,1:07:55.60,1:07:59.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But after a while you noticed\Nyou thought about what he'd said.
Dialogue: 0,1:07:59.80,1:08:05.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You became more and more worried.\NYou let your husband impregnate you.
Dialogue: 0,1:08:07.00,1:08:10.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You wanted to be a mother.
Dialogue: 0,1:08:11.60,1:08:15.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,When you realized it was definite,\Nyou became frightened.
Dialogue: 0,1:08:16.00,1:08:22.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Frightened of responsibility, of being\Ntied down, of leaving the theatre.
Dialogue: 0,1:08:22.40,1:08:27.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Frightened of pain, of dying,\Nfrightened of your body swelling up.
Dialogue: 0,1:08:30.20,1:08:35.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But you played the role. The role\Nof a happy, young, expectant mother.
Dialogue: 0,1:08:37.00,1:08:42.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,{\i1}Everyone said, Ñlsn't she beautiful?\NShe's never been so beautifulì{\i0}
Dialogue: 0,1:08:42.70,1:08:46.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Meanwhile you tried to abort the foetus\Nseveral times.
Dialogue: 0,1:08:46.90,1:08:48.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But you failed.
Dialogue: 0,1:08:50.40,1:08:53.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,When you saw it was irreversible...
Dialogue: 0,1:08:54.40,1:08:57.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,...you started to hate the baby.
Dialogue: 0,1:08:58.60,1:09:01.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And you wished it would be stillborn.
Dialogue: 0,1:09:04.40,1:09:07.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You wished the baby would be dead.
Dialogue: 0,1:09:11.30,1:09:14.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You wished for a dead baby.
Dialogue: 0,1:09:17.90,1:09:21.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,The delivery was difficult and long.
Dialogue: 0,1:09:21.40,1:09:27.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You were in agony for days. Finally\Nthe baby was delivered with forceps.
Dialogue: 0,1:09:27.90,1:09:31.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You looked with disgust and terror\Nat your squealing baby and whispered:
Dialogue: 0,1:09:32.20,1:09:36.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,{\i1}ÑCan't you die soon? Can't you die?ì{\i0}
Dialogue: 0,1:09:36.70,1:09:41.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,The boy screamed day and night.\NAnd you hated him.
Dialogue: 0,1:09:42.10,1:09:46.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You were scared,\Nyou had a bad conscience.
Dialogue: 0,1:09:47.60,1:09:51.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Finally the boy was taken care of\Nby relatives and a nanny.
Dialogue: 0,1:09:51.70,1:09:55.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You could get up from your sickbed\Nand return to the theatre.
Dialogue: 0,1:09:57.60,1:10:00.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But the suffering wasn't over.
Dialogue: 0,1:10:01.80,1:10:07.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,The boy was gripped by a massive\Nand unfathomable love for his mother.
Dialogue: 0,1:10:07.10,1:10:12.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You defend yourself in despair.\NYou feel you can't return it.
Dialogue: 0,1:10:12.80,1:10:15.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So you try, and you try...
Dialogue: 0,1:10:16.20,1:10:19.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But there are only cruel and clumsy\Nmeetings between you.
Dialogue: 0,1:10:20.00,1:10:25.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You can't do it.\NYou're cold and indifferent.
Dialogue: 0,1:10:25.60,1:10:30.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,He looks at you.\NHe loves you and he's so gentle.
Dialogue: 0,1:10:30.80,1:10:34.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You want to hit him\Nbecause he doesn't leave you alone.
Dialogue: 0,1:10:35.00,1:10:38.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You think he's disgusting\Nwith his thick mouth and ugly body.
Dialogue: 0,1:10:39.00,1:10:44.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,His moist and pleading eyes.\NHe's disgusting and you're scared.
Dialogue: 0,1:10:51.80,1:10:53.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,No!
Dialogue: 0,1:10:54.70,1:10:59.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I'm not like you. I don't feel like you.
Dialogue: 0,1:10:59.80,1:11:03.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I'm Sister Alma,\NI'm just here to help you.
Dialogue: 0,1:11:03.40,1:11:07.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I'm not Elisabet Vogler.\NYou are Elisabet Vogler.
Dialogue: 0,1:11:08.00,1:11:10.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I would like to have...
Dialogue: 0,1:11:11.20,1:11:13.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I love...
Dialogue: 0,1:11:15.30,1:11:17.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I haven't...
Dialogue: 0,1:11:49.60,1:11:52.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I've learnt quite a lot.
Dialogue: 0,1:12:05.70,1:12:08.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,We'll see how long I hold out.
Dialogue: 0,1:12:13.70,1:12:17.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I'll never be like you, never.\NI change all the time.
Dialogue: 0,1:12:17.50,1:12:21.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You can do what you like,\Nyou won't get to me anyhow.
Dialogue: 0,1:12:53.40,1:12:57.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Saying doesn't help.\NCut a candle.
Dialogue: 0,1:12:58.00,1:13:02.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,A kind of otherness.\NNot now, no. No, no.
Dialogue: 0,1:13:03.80,1:13:07.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Warning and out of time.\NUnforeseen.
Dialogue: 0,1:13:07.50,1:13:11.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,When it was supposed to occur,\Nit didn't occur and so failure.
Dialogue: 0,1:13:11.90,1:13:15.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Yourself where you are.\NBut I should do it.
Dialogue: 0,1:13:15.70,1:13:20.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Not inwards, no...\NSay collect and advise others...
Dialogue: 0,1:13:20.10,1:13:23.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,The disconsolate, perhaps...
Dialogue: 0,1:13:27.40,1:13:31.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Take, yes... but what is closest...?
Dialogue: 0,1:13:31.80,1:13:35.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,What's it called...? No, no, no...
Dialogue: 0,1:13:35.80,1:13:38.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Us, we, me, I...
Dialogue: 0,1:13:38.80,1:13:44.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Many words and such nausea...\NIncomprehensible pain. The throw...
Dialogue: 0,1:15:12.80,1:15:18.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Try and listen to me now.\NRepeat after me.
Dialogue: 0,1:15:21.90,1:15:25.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Nothing...
Dialogue: 0,1:15:27.00,1:15:31.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Nothing. No, nothing...
Dialogue: 0,1:15:38.10,1:15:40.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Nothing.
Dialogue: 0,1:15:40.90,1:15:46.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,That's it. That's good.\NThat's how it should be.
Dialogue: 0,1:19:03.60,1:19:06.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Translation: Alexander Keiller\NSubtitling International