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Dialogue: 0,0:00:03.63,0:00:07.84,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,「我腦裏面感覺到有一場葬禮，
Dialogue: 0,0:00:07.84,0:00:10.24,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,而殮葬嘅人不停行嚟行去，
Dialogue: 0,0:00:12.90,0:00:15.84,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,當我嘅感覺返返嚟，
Dialogue: 0,0:00:15.84,0:00:17.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,佢哋就坐返埋位，
Dialogue: 0,0:00:17.60,0:00:19.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,葬禮儀式好似鼓一樣
Dialogue: 0,0:00:19.60,0:00:22.32,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,敲打著。
Dialogue: 0,0:00:22.32,0:00:25.83,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,直至我嘅腦完全麻木，
Dialogue: 0,0:00:25.83,0:00:27.71,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,跟住我聽到佢哋移靈安葬我嘅遺體，
Dialogue: 0,0:00:27.71,0:00:29.99,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,而我嘅靈魂就好似木一樣敲碎緊，
Dialogue: 0,0:00:29.99,0:00:33.05,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,仲有佢哋好似之前一樣鉛一樣沉重嘅腳步，
Dialogue: 0,0:00:33.05,0:00:36.07,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,而成個大嘅空間就好似有一個鐘喺度響。
Dialogue: 0,0:00:36.07,0:00:38.21,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,天堂好似一個鐘咁，
Dialogue: 0,0:00:38.21,0:00:40.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,而人就好似耳朵，聽到定時響起嘅鐘聲，
Dialogue: 0,0:00:40.20,0:00:43.28,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,但我同寂靜屬於同一個異端，
Dialogue: 0,0:00:43.28,0:00:46.49,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,都係擱淺喺荒島上，孤零零，喺度。
Dialogue: 0,0:00:46.49,0:00:49.67,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,隨著支持我嘅木板斷開，
Dialogue: 0,0:00:49.67,0:00:53.01,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我不斷墜落， 墜落，
Dialogue: 0,0:00:53.01,0:00:55.69,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,撞到好多嘢然後跌落一個世界，
Dialogue: 0,0:00:55.69,0:01:00.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我唔再認識事物。」
Dialogue: 0,0:01:00.20,0:01:03.68,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我哋喺好多喑喻裏邊見到抑鬱症
Dialogue: 0,0:01:03.68,0:01:07.39,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,艾米莉 ‧ 狄金森將抑鬱症轉化為文字
Dialogue: 0,0:01:07.39,0:01:10.13,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,戈雅將抑鬱症轉化成油畫
Dialogue: 0,0:01:10.13,0:01:12.11,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,一半嘅藝術創作
Dialogue: 0,0:01:12.11,0:01:15.100,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,係想表達抑鬱症嘅典形狀態
Dialogue: 0,0:01:15.100,0:01:19.59,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,至於我， 我一直認為自己係堅強嘅
Dialogue: 0,0:01:19.59,0:01:21.46,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,如果一班人被咗去集中營嘅話
Dialogue: 0,0:01:21.46,0:01:24.61,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我會係其中一個可以存活落嚟嘅人
Dialogue: 0,0:01:24.61,0:01:27.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,1991年， 我經歷一連串嘅打擊
Dialogue: 0,0:01:27.50,0:01:29.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我母親過世
Dialogue: 0,0:01:29.20,0:01:31.32,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,一段感情結束咗
Dialogue: 0,0:01:31.32,0:01:33.17,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我結束咗幾年外國生活
Dialogue: 0,0:01:33.17,0:01:35.27,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,返返去美國
Dialogue: 0,0:01:35.27,0:01:38.43,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,而我經歷以上打擊都仍然係好硬淨
Dialogue: 0,0:01:38.43,0:01:41.54,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,但係喺1994，三年之後
Dialogue: 0,0:01:41.54,0:01:45.93,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我發覺自己幾乎對所有嘢都冇興趣
Dialogue: 0,0:01:45.93,0:01:47.58,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我唔想做任何
Dialogue: 0,0:01:47.58,0:01:49.96,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,之前想做嘅嘢
Dialogue: 0,0:01:49.96,0:01:51.88,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我都唔知點解會噉樣
Dialogue: 0,0:01:51.88,0:01:53.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,抑鬱嘅反面
Dialogue: 0,0:01:53.70,0:01:56.93,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,唔係快樂， 係活力
Dialogue: 0,0:01:58.43,0:02:02.08,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,活力就係嗰時我覺得我失去咗嘅嘢
Dialogue: 0,0:02:02.08,0:02:04.24,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,每日要做嘅嘢實在太多啦
Dialogue: 0,0:02:06.41,0:02:08.06,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我想返屋企
Dialogue: 0,0:02:08.06,0:02:11.44,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,見到電話答錄機上面閃著紅色燈
Dialogue: 0,0:02:11.44,0:02:13.58,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,同因為唔使聽到朋友留言而唔使驚
Dialogue: 0,0:02:13.58,0:02:15.13,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我諗︰
Dialogue: 0,0:02:15.13,0:02:18.37,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,點解我要覆返咁多人嘅電話？
Dialogue: 0,0:02:18.37,0:02:20.76,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,或係我應該要食午餐啦
Dialogue: 0,0:02:20.76,0:02:23.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,但我會諗， 我要將食物攞出嚟
Dialogue: 0,0:02:23.30,0:02:25.34,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,擺喺個碟度
Dialogue: 0,0:02:25.34,0:02:29.39,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,又要切、又要擺入個口度，又要吞咗去
Dialogue: 0,0:02:29.39,0:02:33.09,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,感覺好似耶穌行十架嘅路一樣
Dialogue: 0,0:02:33.09,0:02:35.54,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,而有一樣成日喺討論抑鬱症嘅時候會忽略嘅嘢係
Dialogue: 0,0:02:37.44,0:02:39.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,你知道抑鬱症係非常荒謬嘅一件事
Dialogue: 0,0:02:39.80,0:02:42.54,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,你知道當你經歷抑鬱症嘅時候，佢係有幾咁荒謬
Dialogue: 0,0:02:42.54,0:02:44.68,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,你知道大部分人會
Dialogue: 0,0:02:44.68,0:02:46.100,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,聽答錄機嘅留言同食晏
Dialogue: 0,0:02:46.100,0:02:48.91,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,安排好沖涼
Dialogue: 0,0:02:48.91,0:02:50.17,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,出去屋企
Dialogue: 0,0:02:50.17,0:02:51.64,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,呢啲都係好簡單
Dialogue: 0,0:02:51.64,0:02:54.98,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,但你仍然係喺抑鬱症嘅控制當中
Dialogue: 0,0:02:54.98,0:02:58.74,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,你搵唔到方法解決佢
Dialogue: 0,0:02:58.74,0:03:03.24,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,然後我就愈嚟愈做得少同
Dialogue: 0,0:03:03.24,0:03:05.33,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,諗得少、感受愈嚟愈少
Dialogue: 0,0:03:07.69,0:03:10.05,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,可以話係無能
Dialogue: 0,0:03:10.05,0:03:12.42,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,跟著焦慮嚟勒
Dialogue: 0,0:03:12.42,0:03:14.69,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,如果你話俾我聽之後嗰幾個月
Dialogue: 0,0:03:14.69,0:03:16.28,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我都要處於抑鬱狀態
Dialogue: 0,0:03:16.28,0:03:19.51,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我會話︰只要佢十一月完，我就冇問題
Dialogue: 0,0:03:19.51,0:03:20.62,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,但係如果你同我講
Dialogue: 0,0:03:20.62,0:03:23.92,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我呢幾個月都要極度焦慮
Dialogue: 0,0:03:23.92,0:03:26.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我寧願割腕自殺，好過極度焦慮幾個月
Dialogue: 0,0:03:26.30,0:03:28.08,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,成日都會有一種
Dialogue: 0,0:03:28.08,0:03:30.31,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,好似你行路
Dialogue: 0,0:03:30.31,0:03:31.71,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,突然跣襯或者拤倒
Dialogue: 0,0:03:31.71,0:03:33.59,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,而地下快速衝埋你度咁嘅感覺
Dialogue: 0,0:03:33.59,0:03:36.31,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,但係嗰種恐懼感並唔係剩係跌落地嘅半秒鐘
Dialogue: 0,0:03:36.31,0:03:38.25,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,而係持續咗半年
Dialogue: 0,0:03:38.25,0:03:41.28,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,嗰種感覺令你一直覺得好驚
Dialogue: 0,0:03:41.28,0:03:45.06,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,但你又唔會知道你驚嘅係乜嘢
Dialogue: 0,0:03:45.06,0:03:47.48,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,就喺嗰個時候我開始諗
Dialogue: 0,0:03:47.48,0:03:51.48,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,活著真係太痛苦
Dialogue: 0,0:03:51.48,0:03:54.06,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,而唯一唔自殺嘅理由
Dialogue: 0,0:03:54.06,0:03:57.19,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,就係因為唔想因為我自殺而傷害到其他人
Dialogue: 0,0:03:57.19,0:04:00.18,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,然後有一日，當我瞓醒
Dialogue: 0,0:04:00.20,0:04:02.21,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,突然間覺得我中風
Dialogue: 0,0:04:02.21,0:04:04.94,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,因為我喺床上完全郁唔到
Dialogue: 0,0:04:04.94,0:04:06.89,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我望住個電話，諗
Dialogue: 0,0:04:06.89,0:04:10.45,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,「有啲唔對路， 我要打去搵人幫手」
Dialogue: 0,0:04:10.45,0:04:12.19,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,但我連手都遞唔到
Dialogue: 0,0:04:12.19,0:04:14.65,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,噉點拎起電話打呢？
Dialogue: 0,0:04:14.65,0:04:18.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,經過四個鐘頭我依煞瞓喺張床郁都郁唔到
Dialogue: 0,0:04:18.80,0:04:20.16,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,電話響
Dialogue: 0,0:04:20.16,0:04:22.41,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我用盡力咁攞起個電話
Dialogue: 0,0:04:22.41,0:04:24.21,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,嗰個係我老豆打嚟,
Dialogue: 0,0:04:24.21,0:04:27.36,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我話「 我遇到好大嘅麻煩，
Dialogue: 0,0:04:27.36,0:04:29.53,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我哋必須諗辦法解決佢。」
Dialogue: 0,0:04:29.53,0:04:32.86,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,第二日我就開始治療同食藥
Dialogue: 0,0:04:35.22,0:04:37.53,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,而我同時諗到
Dialogue: 0,0:04:37.53,0:04:39.41,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,一個好弊嘅問題
Dialogue: 0,0:04:39.41,0:04:41.48,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,如果我唔係一個堅強嘅人
Dialogue: 0,0:04:41.48,0:04:44.04,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,可以喺集中營裏面生存嘅人
Dialogue: 0,0:04:44.04,0:04:45.68,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,噉我係乜？
Dialogue: 0,0:04:45.68,0:04:47.63,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,如果我要靠藥物
Dialogue: 0,0:04:47.63,0:04:51.34,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,噉藥物係咪令我做返真正嘅自己？
Dialogue: 0,0:04:51.34,0:04:53.75,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,定係將我變成第二個人？
Dialogue: 0,0:04:53.75,0:04:55.45,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,如果藥物令我變成第二個人
Dialogue: 0,0:04:55.45,0:04:57.99,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,噉我應該有咩感受？
Dialogue: 0,0:04:57.99,0:05:01.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我對抗抑鬱會有兩個好處
Dialogue: 0,0:05:01.30,0:05:04.28,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,第一就係客觀嚟講
Dialogue: 0,0:05:04.28,0:05:05.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我會有好嘅生活
Dialogue: 0,0:05:05.90,0:05:07.79,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,如果當我好返
Dialogue: 0,0:05:07.79,0:05:09.22,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,噉之後就會有更美好嘅嘢等住我
Dialogue: 0,0:05:11.01,0:05:14.05,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,第二樣就係我會得到好好嘅治療
Dialogue: 0,0:05:14.05,0:05:17.82,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,但我好轉又復發
Dialogue: 0,0:05:17.82,0:05:20.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,好轉又復發
Dialogue: 0,0:05:23.14,0:05:25.09,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,最後我終於明白
Dialogue: 0,0:05:25.09,0:05:27.34,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我以後都要靠食藥同治潦生活
Dialogue: 0,0:05:29.63,0:05:32.01,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我就諗 ，抑鬱症到底係化學問題定精神問題呢？
Dialogue: 0,0:05:33.77,0:05:37.47,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,需要化學治療定係心理治療？
Dialogue: 0,0:05:37.47,0:05:39.52,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我搞唔清楚
Dialogue: 0,0:05:39.52,0:05:42.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,跟住我明白到
Dialogue: 0,0:05:42.00,0:05:44.08,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我哋喺是旦一個領域嘅知識都未夠深入去解釋事物
Dialogue: 0,0:05:46.01,0:05:49.26,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,化學治療同心理治療
Dialogue: 0,0:05:49.26,0:05:51.06,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,都有佢哋嘅作用
Dialogue: 0,0:05:51.06,0:05:54.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我同時發覺抑鬱症係一種
Dialogue: 0,0:05:54.80,0:05:57.31,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,同我哋內心深深糾纏著嘅嘢嚟
Dialogue: 0,0:05:57.31,0:05:58.93,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,即係話我哋冇辦法將
Dialogue: 0,0:05:58.93,0:06:01.41,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,佢由我哋人格同個性當中分離
Dialogue: 0,0:06:01.41,0:06:03.44,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我想講我哋對抑鬱症嘅治療方法
Dialogue: 0,0:06:03.44,0:06:05.99,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,其實係唔係好好
Dialogue: 0,0:06:05.99,0:06:07.82,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,嗰啲治療都唔係好有效
Dialogue: 0,0:06:07.82,0:06:09.65,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,而且仲非常昂貴
Dialogue: 0,0:06:09.65,0:06:12.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,有好多數唔曬嘅副作用
Dialogue: 0,0:06:12.10,0:06:13.89,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,呢啲治療嘅禍害好大
Dialogue: 0,0:06:13.89,0:06:16.77,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,但慶幸嘅係我生活喺呢個年代，而唔係五十年前
Dialogue: 0,0:06:16.77,0:06:18.58,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,五十年前抑鬱症
Dialogue: 0,0:06:20.09,0:06:21.49,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,係束手無策
Dialogue: 0,0:06:21.49,0:06:24.07,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我希望五十年之後
Dialogue: 0,0:06:24.07,0:06:25.93,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,當人聽到我呢一刻接受過嘅治療
Dialogue: 0,0:06:25.93,0:06:28.06,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,會覺訝異點解會有人接受
Dialogue: 0,0:06:28.06,0:06:30.88,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,咁原始嘅科學
Dialogue: 0,0:06:30.88,0:06:35.44,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,抑鬱症喺感情上係一個裂口
Dialogue: 0,0:06:35.44,0:06:38.58,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,如果你今日同某人結婚，然後諗
Dialogue: 0,0:06:38.58,0:06:42.18,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,「如果我老婆過生， 我會搵另一個」
Dialogue: 0,0:06:42.18,0:06:45.22,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,噉樣就唔係我哋所認知嘅愛情
Dialogue: 0,0:06:45.22,0:06:47.17,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,如果冇預料過會失去
Dialogue: 0,0:06:47.17,0:06:49.82,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,噉就唔叫做愛情
Dialogue: 0,0:06:49.82,0:06:52.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,預見過絕望
Dialogue: 0,0:06:52.40,0:06:56.13,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,係人變得親密嘅原動力
Dialogue: 0,0:06:56.13,0:06:59.06,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,人成日會撈亂三樣嘢
Dialogue: 0,0:06:59.06,0:07:02.86,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,抑鬱、哀痛以及悲傷
Dialogue: 0,0:07:02.86,0:07:06.14,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,哀痛係好有反應
Dialogue: 0,0:07:06.14,0:07:09.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,如果你因為失去某樣嘢而非常唔開心
Dialogue: 0,0:07:09.10,0:07:10.74,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,半年之後
Dialogue: 0,0:07:10.74,0:07:13.96,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,你仲係覺得好難過， 但比起半年前好咗啲
Dialogue: 0,0:07:13.96,0:07:15.69,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,嗰種應該哀痛
Dialogue: 0,0:07:15.69,0:07:17.98,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,佢
Dialogue: 0,0:07:17.98,0:07:19.43,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,自己最後會慢慢消失
Dialogue: 0,0:07:19.43,0:07:22.18,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,如果你經歷過一場浩劫,
Dialogue: 0,0:07:22.18,0:07:23.39,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,感覺好慘
Dialogue: 0,0:07:23.39,0:07:26.39,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,六個月後你只能夠僅僅噉捱落去
Dialogue: 0,0:07:26.39,0:07:28.98,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,好可能就係浩劫發生嗰陣同時引起你嘅抑鬱
Dialogue: 0,0:07:31.45,0:07:35.08,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,噉樣嘅軌跡畀我哋了解到抑鬱症係一件好嚴重嘅事
Dialogue: 0,0:07:35.08,0:07:38.44,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,人哋覺得抑鬱症就同等於悲傷
Dialogue: 0,0:07:38.44,0:07:40.78,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,但係抑鬱症卻係帶著太多太多嘅悲傷
Dialogue: 0,0:07:40.78,0:07:42.44,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,同埋太多太多嘅哀痛
Dialogue: 0,0:07:42.44,0:07:45.37,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,而一切都係由小事引起
Dialogue: 0,0:07:45.37,0:07:48.12,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,當我開始去了解抑鬱症
Dialogue: 0,0:07:48.12,0:07:50.95,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,開始同一啲曾經患過嘅人傾嘅時候
Dialogue: 0,0:07:50.95,0:07:53.98,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我發現嗰啲人
Dialogue: 0,0:07:53.98,0:07:55.69,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,表現上睇起嚟
Dialogue: 0,0:07:55.69,0:07:57.75,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,有輕微嘅抑鬱
Dialogue: 0,0:07:57.75,0:08:01.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,但實際上抑鬱症令佢哋失去咗生活能力
Dialogue: 0,0:08:01.20,0:08:03.05,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,另一邊有批人
Dialogue: 0,0:08:03.05,0:08:04.36,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,聽起上嚟
Dialogue: 0,0:08:04.36,0:08:06.62,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,有好嚴重嘅抑鬱
Dialogue: 0,0:08:06.62,0:08:09.43,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,但佢哋卻係兩次病發之間生活得好好
Dialogue: 0,0:08:11.59,0:08:14.27,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,跟著我開始搵出
Dialogue: 0,0:08:14.27,0:08:15.87,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,係乜原因畀令某啲人
Dialogue: 0,0:08:15.87,0:08:18.13,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,比另一啲更堅強
Dialogue: 0,0:08:18.13,0:08:19.69,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,係乜嘢機制
Dialogue: 0,0:08:19.69,0:08:21.53,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,令人就算有抑鬱都可以生存落嚟？
Dialogue: 0,0:08:21.53,0:08:24.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,跟著我一個又一個咁
Dialogue: 0,0:08:24.70,0:08:26.87,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,同曾經抑鬱嘅人傾
Dialogue: 0,0:08:26.87,0:08:28.82,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,其中一個人
Dialogue: 0,0:08:28.82,0:08:30.71,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,形容抑鬱症
Dialogue: 0,0:08:30.71,0:08:33.97,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,係一個慢慢死亡嘅過程
Dialogue: 0,0:08:33.97,0:08:36.09,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,好早就聽到呢種講法係好事嚟
Dialogue: 0,0:08:36.09,0:08:37.46,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,因為佢提醒咗我
Dialogue: 0,0:08:37.46,0:08:39.46,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,慢慢步入死亡真係可以死亡
Dialogue: 0,0:08:41.49,0:08:43.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,呢樣嘢係好嚴肅
Dialogue: 0,0:08:43.50,0:08:46.15,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,抑鬱症係全世界第一大引致失去活動能力嘅疾病
Dialogue: 0,0:08:46.15,0:08:49.18,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,每日都有人因為抑鬱症而離開
Dialogue: 0,0:08:49.18,0:08:50.95,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,其中一個喺我了解抑鬱症嘅時候傾嘅人
Dialogue: 0,0:08:52.93,0:08:54.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,係我一個
Dialogue: 0,0:08:54.60,0:08:56.61,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,認識多年嘅好友
Dialogue: 0,0:08:56.61,0:08:59.16,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,佢喺大學第一年
Dialogue: 0,0:08:59.16,0:09:01.06,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,有精神問題
Dialogue: 0,0:09:01.06,0:09:04.12,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,之後惡化成幾多人驚嘅抑鬱症
Dialogue: 0,0:09:04.12,0:09:05.54,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,佢精神好兩極化，即係躁鬱症
Dialogue: 0,0:09:05.54,0:09:08.18,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,或者係之後嘅躁狂抑鬱症
Dialogue: 0,0:09:08.18,0:09:10.23,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,經過多年鋰鹽治療
Dialogue: 0,0:09:10.23,0:09:11.94,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,佢復完得相當唔錯
Dialogue: 0,0:09:11.94,0:09:13.31,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,到最後
Dialogue: 0,0:09:13.31,0:09:15.27,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,醫生停咗開鋰鹽俾佢
Dialogue: 0,0:09:15.27,0:09:17.11,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,睇下佢可唔可以唔使藥物都得
Dialogue: 0,0:09:17.11,0:09:19.08,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,跟著佢又再度精神失常
Dialogue: 0,0:09:19.08,0:09:21.42,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,仲惡化成我見過最嚴重嘅抑鬱症
Dialogue: 0,0:09:23.29,0:09:26.31,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,佢坐喺佢父母間屋裏面
Dialogue: 0,0:09:26.31,0:09:29.38,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,手腳好硬，坐喺度唔郁
Dialogue: 0,0:09:29.38,0:09:31.86,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,日日都係咁
Dialogue: 0,0:09:31.86,0:09:35.08,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,幾年之後我問佢呢段經歷時
Dialogue: 0,0:09:35.08,0:09:38.41,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,佢已經係詩人同心理治療師 Maggie Robins
Dialogue: 0,0:09:38.41,0:09:41.65,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,佢話︰
Dialogue: 0,0:09:41.65,0:09:45.03,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,「我一直重複唱著Where Have All The Flowers Gone，
Dialogue: 0,0:09:45.03,0:09:48.24,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,令我個腦剩係得呢首歌。
Dialogue: 0,0:09:48.24,0:09:51.38,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我唱著呢首歌去掩蓋心入邊把聲，
Dialogue: 0,0:09:51.38,0:09:55.86,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,嗰把聲就係『你係冇用嘅，你對世界嚟講可有可無。
Dialogue: 0,0:09:55.86,0:09:58.69,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,你根本唔配活喺呢個世界上。』
Dialogue: 0,0:09:58.69,0:10:00.87,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,呢個時候我開始諗住自殺。」
Dialogue: 0,0:10:03.08,0:10:04.99,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,你有抑鬱嘅時候唔會諗
Dialogue: 0,0:10:04.99,0:10:07.13,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,你係戴咗一塊灰色面紗
Dialogue: 0,0:10:07.13,0:10:09.11,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,唔會覺得自己係透過負面情緒去睇嘢
Dialogue: 0,0:10:11.00,0:10:13.72,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,你只會認為一塊代表快樂嘅面紗被人攞走咗
Dialogue: 0,0:10:15.64,0:10:18.07,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,你覺得宜家先係睇到真實嘅世界
Dialogue: 0,0:10:18.07,0:10:21.03,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,同樣係人格分裂嘅病人，內心覺得有嘢需要驅趕嘅一類病人比較容易治療
Dialogue: 0,0:10:25.03,0:10:27.19,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,但抑鬱類型嘅病人就難啲
Dialogue: 0,0:10:27.19,0:10:31.04,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,因為病人相信佢哋睇到真實世界
Dialogue: 0,0:10:31.04,0:10:33.99,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,但真實世界卻係講緊大話
Dialogue: 0,0:10:33.99,0:10:35.98,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我成日聽到呢句說話
Dialogue: 0,0:10:35.98,0:10:38.36,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,「但真實世界卻係講緊大話」
Dialogue: 0,0:10:38.36,0:10:40.81,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,當我同抑鬱嘅人傾計嘅時候，我發現
Dialogue: 0,0:10:40.81,0:10:43.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,佢哋有好多幻覺
Dialogue: 0,0:10:43.50,0:10:45.16,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,佢哋會話「冇人愛我」
Dialogue: 0,0:10:45.16,0:10:46.81,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,然後你同佢講 「我愛你，
Dialogue: 0,0:10:46.81,0:10:49.34,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,你老婆愛你， 你媽咪愛你。」
Dialogue: 0,0:10:49.34,0:10:51.26,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,你可以好快咁應返佢哋大部分人
Dialogue: 0,0:10:52.92,0:10:55.19,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,但係抑鬱症嘅人會話
Dialogue: 0,0:10:55.19,0:10:56.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,「無論我哋點樣努力，
Dialogue: 0,0:10:56.90,0:10:59.17,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我哋最後都會死。」
Dialogue: 0,0:10:59.17,0:11:01.37,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,或者佢哋會話， 「兩個人之間
Dialogue: 0,0:11:01.37,0:11:03.02,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,唔會有真正嘅溝通。
Dialogue: 0,0:11:03.02,0:11:05.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,每個人只會畀自己嘅身體困住。」
Dialogue: 0,0:11:05.60,0:11:07.45,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,你只可以回答
Dialogue: 0,0:11:07.45,0:11:08.77,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,「冇錯，
Dialogue: 0,0:11:08.77,0:11:10.59,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,但我覺得我哋宜家應該諗
Dialogue: 0,0:11:10.59,0:11:12.48,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我哋早餐食啲乜。」
Dialogue: 0,0:11:12.48,0:11:14.67,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,（笑聲）
Dialogue: 0,0:11:14.67,0:11:16.34,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,好多時
Dialogue: 0,0:11:16.34,0:11:19.23,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,佢哋表逹嘅並唔係一種病， 而係佢哋睇嘢嘅角度
Dialogue: 0,0:11:19.23,0:11:21.89,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,而佢哋會覺得好特別嘅嘢會係
Dialogue: 0,0:11:21.89,0:11:24.82,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我哋大部分人都一早知道嘅問題
Dialogue: 0,0:11:24.82,0:11:27.12,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,呢啲問題唔會好令我哋分心
Dialogue: 0,0:11:27.12,0:11:29.27,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我幾鐘意一個調查
Dialogue: 0,0:11:29.27,0:11:30.95,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,一班抑鬱症病人
Dialogue: 0,0:11:30.95,0:11:32.86,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,同一班冇抑鬱嘅人
Dialogue: 0,0:11:32.86,0:11:35.48,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,需要分別玩電子遊戲一粒鐘
Dialogue: 0,0:11:35.48,0:11:37.29,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,當佢哋玩完
Dialogue: 0,0:11:37.29,0:11:38.94,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,佢哋要回答佢哋覺得喺遊戲裏面
Dialogue: 0,0:11:38.94,0:11:40.81,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,殺咗幾多隻怪獸
Dialogue: 0,0:11:40.81,0:11:43.02,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,抑鬱症嗰班人通常講到 10% 之內誤差嘅數字
Dialogue: 0,0:11:45.08,0:11:46.55,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,至於冇抑鬱症嘅人
Dialogue: 0,0:11:46.55,0:11:50.09,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,佢哋估嘅數字
Dialogue: 0,0:11:50.09,0:11:51.83,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,係佢哋真正殺咗數目嘅15-20倍（笑聲）
Dialogue: 0,0:11:51.83,0:11:55.94,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,
Dialogue: 0,0:11:55.94,0:11:59.01,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,好多人會話，當我決定寫我嘅抑鬱症
Dialogue: 0,0:11:59.01,0:12:00.78,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,係一個非常困難嘅決定
Dialogue: 0,0:12:03.90,0:12:06.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,佢哋問︰ 「人哋同你傾計嘅時候會唔會唔同？」
Dialogue: 0,0:12:06.10,0:12:08.18,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我話︰「係，人哋同我傾計會有唔同。」
Dialogue: 0,0:12:10.09,0:12:12.88,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,佢哋會同我講佢哋抑鬱症嘅經驗
Dialogue: 0,0:12:12.88,0:12:14.72,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,可能係佢哋家姐、細妹
Dialogue: 0,0:12:14.72,0:12:16.49,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,可能係佢哋嘅朋友.
Dialogue: 0,0:12:16.49,0:12:18.78,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,宜家唔同啦因為我知道
Dialogue: 0,0:12:18.78,0:12:21.46,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,抑鬱症每個家庭都曾經有過
Dialogue: 0,0:12:23.54,0:12:27.17,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,前幾年我去咗個研討會
Dialogue: 0,0:12:27.17,0:12:29.82,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,喺嗰個為期三日嘅研討會入面，其中一日，係星期五嚟
Dialogue: 0,0:12:29.82,0:12:32.71,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,其中一個參加者將我拉到一旁， 然後佢同我講︰
Dialogue: 0,0:12:32.71,0:12:36.12,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,「我有抑鬱症，
Dialogue: 0,0:12:36.12,0:12:38.88,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,而呢個病令我覺得尷尬，
Dialogue: 0,0:12:38.88,0:12:40.99,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,但係我一路有食藥。
Dialogue: 0,0:12:40.99,0:12:43.94,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我剩係想問下你你點樣睇？」
Dialogue: 0,0:12:43.94,0:12:46.77,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,所以我就盡我所能答佢
Dialogue: 0,0:12:46.77,0:12:48.49,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,佢跟住話︰ 「你知嗎？
Dialogue: 0,0:12:48.49,0:12:51.28,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我老公永遠唔會明白架。
Dialogue: 0,0:12:51.28,0:12:53.85,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,呢樣嘢對佢完全冇意義。
Dialogue: 0,0:12:53.85,0:12:56.72,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,所以， 呢個係我哋嘅秘密。」
Dialogue: 0,0:12:56.72,0:12:58.51,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我返答 ︰「冇問題。」
Dialogue: 0,0:12:58.51,0:13:00.62,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,跟著喺研討會嘅最後一日
Dialogue: 0,0:13:00.62,0:13:03.66,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,佢丈夫又拉埋我一邊（笑聲）
Dialogue: 0,0:13:03.66,0:13:05.35,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,佢話 「我妻子如果知道我有抑鬱症嘅話，絕對唔會覺得我係一個男人。
Dialogue: 0,0:13:10.26,0:13:11.61,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我有食藥。
Dialogue: 0,0:13:11.61,0:13:14.11,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我想知道你點諗？
Dialogue: 0,0:13:14.11,0:13:15.54,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,佢哋兩夫妻
Dialogue: 0,0:13:15.54,0:13:17.75,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,將佢哋同一款藥收埋喺同一間睡房
Dialogue: 0,0:13:17.75,0:13:20.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,嘅唔同地方（笑聲）
Dialogue: 0,0:13:20.40,0:13:22.42,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我諗
Dialogue: 0,0:13:22.42,0:13:24.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,佢哋溝通唔係好好
Dialogue: 0,0:13:24.10,0:13:26.12,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,導致一啲問題出現
Dialogue: 0,0:13:26.12,0:13:30.31,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,（笑聲）
Dialogue: 0,0:13:30.31,0:13:31.96,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,同時我都因為
Dialogue: 0,0:13:31.96,0:13:33.77,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,佢哋互相提防
Dialogue: 0,0:13:33.77,0:13:36.14,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,而覺得辛苦
Dialogue: 0,0:13:36.14,0:13:38.03,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,抑鬱症令人好攰
Dialogue: 0,0:13:38.03,0:13:40.79,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,佢用咗你好多時間同精力
Dialogue: 0,0:13:40.79,0:13:42.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,唔理抑鬱症
Dialogue: 0,0:13:42.30,0:13:45.03,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,只會令抑鬱症惡化
Dialogue: 0,0:13:45.03,0:13:46.76,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,然後我開始諗抑鬱症患者康復嘅方法
Dialogue: 0,0:13:46.76,0:13:48.73,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,
Dialogue: 0,0:13:48.73,0:13:51.17,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我會由傳統治療開始
Dialogue: 0,0:13:51.17,0:13:53.54,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我知道只有少數治療至可以對患者有幫助
Dialogue: 0,0:13:53.54,0:13:55.35,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,好明顯係邊幾種方法
Dialogue: 0,0:13:55.35,0:13:56.99,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,有藥物
Dialogue: 0,0:13:56.99,0:13:58.47,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,有一啲心理治療
Dialogue: 0,0:13:58.47,0:14:00.91,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,仲可能有電痙攣療法
Dialogue: 0,0:14:00.91,0:14:03.59,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,而其他方法都係冇用
Dialogue: 0,0:14:03.59,0:14:05.42,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我發現咗一樣嘢
Dialogue: 0,0:14:05.42,0:14:07.17,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,如果你有腦癌
Dialogue: 0,0:14:07.17,0:14:08.64,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,而每朝
Dialogue: 0,0:14:08.64,0:14:11.64,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,倒立廿分鐘會令你感覺好啲
Dialogue: 0,0:14:11.64,0:14:13.15,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,可能真係會畀你感覺好啲啦
Dialogue: 0,0:14:13.15,0:14:14.74,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,但係你嘅腦癌從來都冇消失過
Dialogue: 0,0:14:14.74,0:14:17.03,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,你最終都有可能死於腦癌
Dialogue: 0,0:14:17.03,0:14:19.54,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,但如果你有抑鬱症
Dialogue: 0,0:14:19.54,0:14:21.65,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,而每日倒立廿分鐘
Dialogue: 0,0:14:21.65,0:14:24.13,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,會畀你感覺好一啲， 噉就真係有效啦
Dialogue: 0,0:14:24.13,0:14:26.49,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,因為抑鬱症係你認知上出現咗問題
Dialogue: 0,0:14:26.49,0:14:28.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,而你感覺好啲
Dialogue: 0,0:14:28.10,0:14:30.93,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,就代表咗你唔再係抑鬱
Dialogue: 0,0:14:30.93,0:14:32.96,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,所以我開始接受其他唔同嘅
Dialogue: 0,0:14:32.96,0:14:35.89,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,治療
Dialogue: 0,0:14:35.89,0:14:38.27,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,然後我收到好多患者寄嚟嘅信
Dialogue: 0,0:14:38.27,0:14:40.79,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,講有咩方法對佢哋奏效
Dialogue: 0,0:14:40.79,0:14:42.99,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,就好似今日噉就有人喺後台問我藥物方面嘅嘢
Dialogue: 0,0:14:44.45,0:14:46.92,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我最鐘意嘅一封信
Dialogue: 0,0:14:46.92,0:14:48.39,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,係由一個女士寫嘅
Dialogue: 0,0:14:48.39,0:14:50.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,佢話佢曾經嘗試過治療、藥物
Dialogue: 0,0:14:50.60,0:14:52.98,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,所有嘅嘢都試過曬
Dialogue: 0,0:14:52.98,0:14:55.82,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,最後佢搵到一種方法， 並且想我同大家分享
Dialogue: 0,0:14:55.82,0:14:59.63,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,就係用毛冷整唔同嘅小飾物
Dialogue: 0,0:14:59.63,0:15:02.63,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,（笑聲）
Dialogue: 0,0:15:02.63,0:15:06.16,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,佢仲送咗啲佢整嘅作品（笑聲）
Dialogue: 0,0:15:06.16,0:15:09.84,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,不過我宜家冇帶著佢哋
Dialogue: 0,0:15:09.84,0:15:12.36,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我叫佢睇一睇
Dialogue: 0,0:15:12.36,0:15:16.41,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,心理醫學診斷同統計手冊裡面有關強迫症嘅部分
Dialogue: 0,0:15:16.41,0:15:19.54,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,當我搵其他治療嘅時候
Dialogue: 0,0:15:19.54,0:15:22.44,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我對佢哋了解深咗
Dialogue: 0,0:15:22.44,0:15:25.35,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我曾經去過塞內加爾一個部落嘅驅邪儀式
Dialogue: 0,0:15:25.35,0:15:27.36,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,儀式入面有好多公羊嘅血
Dialogue: 0,0:15:27.36,0:15:29.42,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我唔喺度描述啦
Dialogue: 0,0:15:29.42,0:15:31.42,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,但幾年後我喺盧旺達
Dialogue: 0,0:15:31.42,0:15:33.18,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,參與另一項計畫
Dialogue: 0,0:15:33.18,0:15:35.98,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我要同人講我喺塞內加爾嘅經歷
Dialogue: 0,0:15:35.98,0:15:37.74,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,佢話︰「嗰度係西非，你知嗎？
Dialogue: 0,0:15:37.74,0:15:39.56,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我哋係喺東非，
Dialogue: 0,0:15:39.56,0:15:41.39,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我哋嘅儀式同佢哋嘅喺幾方面都有好大分別，
Dialogue: 0,0:15:41.39,0:15:43.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,但同時都有一啲
Dialogue: 0,0:15:43.40,0:15:45.39,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,相同嘅地方。
Dialogue: 0,0:15:47.05,0:15:49.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,但係我哋同西方心理健康人員有唔少麻煩，
Dialogue: 0,0:15:49.70,0:15:52.45,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,尤其係嗰啲喺種族屠殺之後嚟嘅人。」
Dialogue: 0,0:15:52.45,0:15:54.78,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我問︰「佢哋帶俾你咩麻煩？」
Dialogue: 0,0:15:54.78,0:15:56.32,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,佢話︰
Dialogue: 0,0:15:56.32,0:15:58.99,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,「佢哋做啲嘢真係好好，
Dialogue: 0,0:15:58.99,0:16:00.87,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,佢哋不但止冇帶病人曬太陽，
Dialogue: 0,0:16:00.87,0:16:02.57,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,令病人感覺好啲，
Dialogue: 0,0:16:02.57,0:16:05.67,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,佢哋仲冇打鼓或者播音樂，令病人嘅血活起上嚟。
Dialogue: 0,0:16:05.67,0:16:07.51,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,佢哋冇帶動成個社群，
Dialogue: 0,0:16:07.51,0:16:09.28,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,佢哋冇將抑鬱症
Dialogue: 0,0:16:09.28,0:16:10.72,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,講成為一種入侵性嘅惡靈。
Dialogue: 0,0:16:10.72,0:16:13.35,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,佢哋反而將病人
Dialogue: 0,0:16:13.35,0:16:15.98,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,逐個帶入一間黑房，
Dialogue: 0,0:16:15.98,0:16:17.32,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,由佢哋自己
Dialogue: 0,0:16:17.32,0:16:19.55,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,講返佢哋經歷過痛苦嘅嘢。」
Dialogue: 0,0:16:19.55,0:16:25.01,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,（笑聲） （掌聲）
Dialogue: 0,0:16:25.01,0:16:27.37,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,佢話 ︰「 我哋只好請佢哋離開國家。」
Dialogue: 0,0:16:27.37,0:16:30.43,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,（笑聲）
Dialogue: 0,0:16:30.43,0:16:32.87,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,宜家講下其他另類療法
Dialogue: 0,0:16:32.87,0:16:34.91,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,介紹一下 Frank Russakoff
Dialogue: 0,0:16:34.91,0:16:37.96,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Frank Russakoff 有好嚴重嘅抑鬱症
Dialogue: 0,0:16:37.96,0:16:40.88,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,應該話我係從來未喺任何一個男人身上見過嘅
Dialogue: 0,0:16:40.88,0:16:42.87,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,佢成日抑鬱
Dialogue: 0,0:16:42.87,0:16:45.01,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,當我見佢嘅時候， 佢
Dialogue: 0,0:16:45.01,0:16:48.17,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,每個月都要接受電擊治療
Dialogue: 0,0:16:48.17,0:16:50.74,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,治療完之後嘅一個禮拜佢會覺得迷茫
Dialogue: 0,0:16:50.74,0:16:52.55,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,之後第二個禮拜又會好返
Dialogue: 0,0:16:52.55,0:16:54.25,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,跟著又會抑鬱
Dialogue: 0,0:16:54.25,0:16:56.93,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,噉樣嘅話佢又要去接受電擊治療
Dialogue: 0,0:16:56.93,0:16:58.35,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,當我見到佢，佢同我講
Dialogue: 0,0:16:58.35,0:17:00.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,「我已經忍受唔到噉樣過日子，
Dialogue: 0,0:17:00.90,0:17:02.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我唔可以再繼續噉樣落去。
Dialogue: 0,0:17:02.40,0:17:04.67,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,假如情況冇好轉，我知道點樣解束佢。」
Dialogue: 0,0:17:06.23,0:17:08.93,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,佢同我講︰「但係，我聽過
Dialogue: 0,0:17:08.93,0:17:11.16,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,麻省總醫院有個療法叫做
Dialogue: 0,0:17:11.16,0:17:13.18,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,扣帶回切開術， 係一種腦科手術，
Dialogue: 0,0:17:13.18,0:17:15.75,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我諗我可以試試。」
Dialogue: 0,0:17:15.75,0:17:17.71,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我記得當時我好開心
Dialogue: 0,0:17:17.71,0:17:19.01,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,因為一個人
Dialogue: 0,0:17:19.01,0:17:22.23,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,已經經歷過咁多
Dialogue: 0,0:17:22.23,0:17:24.09,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,慘痛經歷、咁多唔同嘅治療
Dialogue: 0,0:17:24.09,0:17:27.21,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,但佢內心仲抱著一絲嘅樂觀
Dialogue: 0,0:17:27.21,0:17:29.76,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,佢願意再試多次
Dialogue: 0,0:17:29.76,0:17:31.94,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,佢做咗個
Dialogue: 0,0:17:31.94,0:17:33.98,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,好成功嘅手術
Dialogue: 0,0:17:33.98,0:17:35.47,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,宜家仲係我朋友
Dialogue: 0,0:17:35.47,0:17:38.97,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,佢有一個好老婆同兩個可愛嘅細路
Dialogue: 0,0:17:38.97,0:17:41.92,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,佢手術之後嘅聖誕節寫咗封信俾我
Dialogue: 0,0:17:41.92,0:17:43.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,佢話︰
Dialogue: 0,0:17:43.10,0:17:45.51,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,「我老豆今年寄咗我兩份禮物，
Dialogue: 0,0:17:45.51,0:17:48.11,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,第一份係 The Sharper Image 牌嘅可捲動式 CD 架，
Dialogue: 0,0:17:48.11,0:17:49.53,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,但我唔需要佢。
Dialogue: 0,0:17:49.53,0:17:51.63,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,不過我知道佢送嚟係想
Dialogue: 0,0:17:51.63,0:17:53.36,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,慶祝我可以獨立生活、
Dialogue: 0,0:17:53.36,0:17:55.41,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,有自己鐘意嘅工。
Dialogue: 0,0:17:55.41,0:17:56.97,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,另一份禮物
Dialogue: 0,0:17:56.97,0:17:58.54,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,係我婆婆嘅相，
Dialogue: 0,0:17:58.54,0:18:00.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我婆婆死於自殺。
Dialogue: 0,0:18:00.80,0:18:03.73,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,當我拆禮物，我就喊咗出嚟，
Dialogue: 0,0:18:03.73,0:18:05.61,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,然後我媽咪過嚟同我講︰
Dialogue: 0,0:18:05.61,0:18:08.92,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,你係咪未見過婆婆而喊？
Dialogue: 0,0:18:08.92,0:18:13.01,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我答︰婆婆同我都有同樣嘅病。
Dialogue: 0,0:18:13.01,0:18:15.59,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我喊係因為我寫俾你。
Dialogue: 0,0:18:15.59,0:18:19.19,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我唔係傷心， 而係我個腦太多嘢啦。
Dialogue: 0,0:18:19.19,0:18:21.41,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我覺得自己會自殺，
Dialogue: 0,0:18:21.41,0:18:23.11,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,但父母同醫生支持我。
Dialogue: 0,0:18:24.86,0:18:26.72,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我做咗手術，
Dialogue: 0,0:18:26.72,0:18:29.53,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我仲生存，我好感激。
Dialogue: 0,0:18:29.53,0:18:31.79,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,雖然有時感覺唔係活喺一個啱嘅年代，
Dialogue: 0,0:18:31.79,0:18:35.67,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我哋確實活喺一個啱嘅年代。」
Dialogue: 0,0:18:35.67,0:18:37.57,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我驚訝抑鬱症竟然
Dialogue: 0,0:18:37.57,0:18:39.29,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,被認為係
Dialogue: 0,0:18:39.29,0:18:42.83,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,一種現代、西方、中產嘅嘢
Dialogue: 0,0:18:42.83,0:18:44.98,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,於是我就睇下抑鬱症
Dialogue: 0,0:18:44.98,0:18:46.98,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,喺其他唔同地方係點發生
Dialogue: 0,0:18:46.98,0:18:49.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我最感到興趣嘅係
Dialogue: 0,0:18:49.10,0:18:50.89,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,低下階層嘅抑鬱情況
Dialogue: 0,0:18:50.89,0:18:52.67,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,所以我搵出
Dialogue: 0,0:18:52.67,0:18:55.25,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,針對窮人嘅抑鬱有乜係做咗
Dialogue: 0,0:18:55.25,0:18:57.41,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我發現大多數有抑鬱症嘅窮人
Dialogue: 0,0:18:57.41,0:18:59.97,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,都冇接受過治療
Dialogue: 0,0:18:59.97,0:19:02.89,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,抑鬱症係基因易受損嘅結果
Dialogue: 0,0:19:02.89,0:19:06.05,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,呢種基因按理會喺成個人口裡面平均分布
Dialogue: 0,0:19:06.05,0:19:07.100,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,而發病情況
Dialogue: 0,0:19:07.100,0:19:09.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,尤其窮人會相對嚴重
Dialogue: 0,0:19:11.78,0:19:14.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,但實情係
Dialogue: 0,0:19:14.20,0:19:16.34,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,如果你有一個美好嘅生活但一直覺得自己好淒慘
Dialogue: 0,0:19:16.34,0:19:18.34,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,同埋問︰「點解我會有咁嘅感覺？
Dialogue: 0,0:19:18.34,0:19:20.01,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我應該有抑鬱啦。」
Dialogue: 0,0:19:20.01,0:19:21.94,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,然後你去搵治療
Dialogue: 0,0:19:21.94,0:19:24.03,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,但係如果你有一個好慘嘅人生
Dialogue: 0,0:19:24.03,0:19:25.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,而你一直都覺得好慘
Dialogue: 0,0:19:25.90,0:19:28.72,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,你慘嘅感覺同你慘嘅生活呼應
Dialogue: 0,0:19:28.72,0:19:30.45,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,你唔會諗
Dialogue: 0,0:19:30.45,0:19:32.23,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,呢個病可以醫得好
Dialogue: 0,0:19:32.23,0:19:35.36,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,換句話講，我哋抑鬱國家入面嘅貧窮人口
Dialogue: 0,0:19:35.36,0:19:38.28,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,爆發咗流行病
Dialogue: 0,0:19:38.28,0:19:40.79,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,但冇人提過佢、冇人會醫過佢
Dialogue: 0,0:19:40.79,0:19:42.85,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,冇人重視過佢
Dialogue: 0,0:19:42.85,0:19:45.05,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,係社會嘅悲劇
Dialogue: 0,0:19:45.05,0:19:46.53,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,所以我搵咗一個學者
Dialogue: 0,0:19:46.53,0:19:48.35,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,佢進行梗一個
Dialogue: 0,0:19:48.35,0:19:50.09,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,關於華盛頓外圍貧民區嘅研究
Dialogue: 0,0:19:50.09,0:19:53.09,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,佢揀咗求診嘅女性做對象
Dialogue: 0,0:19:53.09,0:19:54.87,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,呢啲女性係因為其他病至求診，但後來都發現到有抑鬱
Dialogue: 0,0:19:54.87,0:19:58.13,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,於是班人得到六星期嘅試驗性治療
Dialogue: 0,0:19:58.13,0:20:00.46,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Lolly 係其中一個參加嘅人
Dialogue: 0,0:20:00.46,0:20:02.76,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,佢第一日入嚟就話
Dialogue: 0,0:20:02.76,0:20:06.16,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,佢係七個細路嘅母親
Dialogue: 0,0:20:06.16,0:20:08.25,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,佢話
Dialogue: 0,0:20:08.25,0:20:10.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,佢以前有做嘢，但佢宜家要放棄份工
Dialogue: 0,0:20:10.90,0:20:12.96,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,「因為我出唔到間屋。
Dialogue: 0,0:20:12.96,0:20:15.19,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我同細路冇嘢講。
Dialogue: 0,0:20:15.19,0:20:17.95,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,朝早， 我唔可以等住佢哋走，
Dialogue: 0,0:20:17.95,0:20:20.94,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我只好返上床用被遮住個頭。
Dialogue: 0,0:20:20.94,0:20:22.59,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,三點鐘當小朋友返到屋企，
Dialogue: 0,0:20:22.59,0:20:24.39,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我覺得時間過得好快
Dialogue: 0,0:20:24.39,0:20:26.63,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,佢話︰ 「我一直有食開 Tylenol，
Dialogue: 0,0:20:26.63,0:20:29.39,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,任何可以畀我瞓耐啲嘅藥物。
Dialogue: 0,0:20:29.39,0:20:33.16,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我丈夫一直話我又蠢又醜，
Dialogue: 0,0:20:33.16,0:20:36.66,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我希望痛楚可以停止。」
Dialogue: 0,0:20:36.66,0:20:39.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,佢就係噉帶咗入嚟呢個試驗性嘅治療
Dialogue: 0,0:20:39.30,0:20:41.61,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,六個月後我再同佢傾
Dialogue: 0,0:20:41.61,0:20:46.02,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,佢已經喺一間美國海軍嘅托兒所度做
Dialogue: 0,0:20:46.02,0:20:49.82,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,佢離開有暴力傾向嘅丈夫
Dialogue: 0,0:20:49.82,0:20:51.91,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,佢話畀我知
Dialogue: 0,0:20:51.91,0:20:54.28,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,佢啲細路比以前仲開心咗添
Dialogue: 0,0:20:54.28,0:20:56.25,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,佢話， 喺佢間新屋入面有一間房專門俾男仔
Dialogue: 0,0:20:56.25,0:20:58.86,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,仲有一間房專門俾女仔
Dialogue: 0,0:20:58.86,0:21:01.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,「但係夜晚細路都去晒我張床，
Dialogue: 0,0:21:01.40,0:21:04.01,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我哋一齊做功課同埋其他嘢。
Dialogue: 0,0:21:04.01,0:21:05.68,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,其中一個小朋友話想做牧師。
Dialogue: 0,0:21:05.68,0:21:07.38,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,另一個想做消防員。
Dialogue: 0,0:21:07.38,0:21:10.35,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,有個女話想做律師。
Dialogue: 0,0:21:10.35,0:21:12.36,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,佢哋唔似以前噉喊，
Dialogue: 0,0:21:12.36,0:21:14.91,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,同埋冇再打交。
Dialogue: 0,0:21:14.91,0:21:18.69,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我宜家需要嘅就只係我小朋友。
Dialogue: 0,0:21:18.69,0:21:20.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,事情一直喺度改變梗，
Dialogue: 0,0:21:20.60,0:21:25.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我著衫、我對事物嘅感覺，仲有我平時嘅態度都有唔同。
Dialogue: 0,0:21:25.80,0:21:29.48,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我可以行出門口而唔覺得驚。
Dialogue: 0,0:21:29.48,0:21:32.89,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我唔覺得以前唔好嘅感覺會返返嚟。
Dialogue: 0,0:21:32.89,0:21:35.93,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,如果唔係 Miranda 醫生，
Dialogue: 0,0:21:35.93,0:21:39.55,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我可能仲要匿喺屋企用被襟著個頭。
Dialogue: 0,0:21:39.55,0:21:41.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,如果我仲活著嘅話，
Dialogue: 0,0:21:41.90,0:21:45.63,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我會問上帝派一隻天使嚟，
Dialogue: 0,0:21:45.63,0:21:49.96,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,令佢可以聽到我嘅禱告。」
Dialogue: 0,0:21:49.96,0:21:53.31,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,佢嘅經驗令我非常感動
Dialogue: 0,0:21:53.31,0:21:55.85,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我決定將佢嘅經歷寫落嚟
Dialogue: 0,0:21:55.85,0:21:57.23,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,唔只寫入我喺寫梗嘅一本書
Dialogue: 0,0:21:57.23,0:21:58.54,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,仲會寫喺專欄裡面
Dialogue: 0,0:21:58.54,0:22:00.86,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,同埋紐約時代雜誌邀請我
Dialogue: 0,0:22:00.86,0:22:02.88,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,寫關於窮人嘅抑鬱症
Dialogue: 0,0:22:02.88,0:22:04.49,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我就寫咗我遇過真實嘅故事
Dialogue: 0,0:22:04.49,0:22:06.09,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,但編輯打嚟話︰
Dialogue: 0,0:22:06.09,0:22:07.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,「我哋登唔到噉樣嘅文章。」
Dialogue: 0,0:22:07.80,0:22:09.55,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我話點解唔得？
Dialogue: 0,0:22:09.55,0:22:11.86,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,佢話個故事太牽強啦
Dialogue: 0,0:22:11.86,0:22:15.63,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,「呢啲人係社會嘅最底層，
Dialogue: 0,0:22:15.63,0:22:17.34,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,佢哋接受咗幾個月治療之後，
Dialogue: 0,0:22:17.34,0:22:19.97,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,就可以去摩根史坦利返工？
Dialogue: 0,0:22:19.97,0:22:21.82,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,簡直難以置信。」
Dialogue: 0,0:22:21.82,0:22:24.03,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,佢話︰「我從來未聽過噉樣嘅嘢。」
Dialogue: 0,0:22:24.03,0:22:26.56,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我話你冇聽過就代表咗
Dialogue: 0,0:22:26.56,0:22:29.56,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,呢單係一單「新」聞
Dialogue: 0,0:22:29.56,0:22:35.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,（笑聲）（掌聲）
Dialogue: 0,0:22:37.32,0:22:39.81,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我仲話呢個係一間新聞雜誌社嚟架
Dialogue: 0,0:22:39.81,0:22:41.79,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,噉傾咗一輪之後
Dialogue: 0,0:22:41.79,0:22:43.03,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,佢哋同意刊登我嘅文章
Dialogue: 0,0:22:43.03,0:22:44.65,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,但我諗好多佢哋講嘅嘢
Dialogue: 0,0:22:44.65,0:22:46.94,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,都係好怪，同埋有偏見
Dialogue: 0,0:22:46.94,0:22:49.09,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,佢哋覺得如果我哋去醫班窮人
Dialogue: 0,0:22:49.09,0:22:50.55,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,係剝削梗佢哋
Dialogue: 0,0:22:57.02,0:22:58.67,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,原因係我哋會改變佢哋
Dialogue: 0,0:22:58.67,0:23:00.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,呢啲虛偽嘅道德情操
Dialogue: 0,0:23:00.70,0:23:02.49,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,似乎無處不在
Dialogue: 0,0:23:02.49,0:23:04.84,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,佢哋覺得抑鬱症嘅治療
Dialogue: 0,0:23:04.84,0:23:07.14,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,藥物以至其他嘢都係人工合成嘅
Dialogue: 0,0:23:07.14,0:23:09.31,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,唔係自然嘅
Dialogue: 0,0:23:09.31,0:23:12.16,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,而我覺得佢哋係非常之誤導
Dialogue: 0,0:23:12.16,0:23:15.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,人嘅牙會脫落係正常不過嘅事
Dialogue: 0,0:23:15.70,0:23:19.02,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,但唔會因為噉有人反對用牙膏
Dialogue: 0,0:23:19.02,0:23:21.15,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,至少我圈子裏面嘅人冇
Dialogue: 0,0:23:21.15,0:23:23.66,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,然後有人會話
Dialogue: 0,0:23:23.66,0:23:25.84,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,抑鬱症唔係每個人都一定會經歷嘅嘢？
Dialogue: 0,0:23:25.84,0:23:27.58,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我哋唔係進化到有抑鬱症架咩？
Dialogue: 0,0:23:27.58,0:23:29.49,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,抑鬱症唔通唔係我哋性格嘅一部分？
Dialogue: 0,0:23:29.49,0:23:32.23,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,噉我就會話，情緒係可以改嘅
Dialogue: 0,0:23:32.23,0:23:35.56,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,能夠有傷痛、恐懼
Dialogue: 0,0:23:35.56,0:23:37.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,快樂、舒適
Dialogue: 0,0:23:37.40,0:23:39.21,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,以及其他唔同嘅情緒
Dialogue: 0,0:23:39.21,0:23:41.27,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,其實係非常珍貴嘅
Dialogue: 0,0:23:41.27,0:23:44.32,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,抑鬱症係由於
Dialogue: 0,0:23:44.32,0:23:46.33,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,情緒系統崩潰
Dialogue: 0,0:23:46.33,0:23:48.05,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,係壞嘅轉變
Dialogue: 0,0:23:48.05,0:23:49.62,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,有啲人走嚟同我講︰
Dialogue: 0,0:23:49.62,0:23:52.39,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,「如果我再撐多年，
Dialogue: 0,0:23:52.39,0:23:54.46,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我應該會走出抑鬱症。」
Dialogue: 0,0:23:54.46,0:23:56.77,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我一直同佢哋講︰「你可以走得返出嚟，
Dialogue: 0,0:23:56.77,0:23:59.48,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,但你永遠唔會再係年輕。
Dialogue: 0,0:23:59.48,0:24:02.03,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,人生短暫， 但你成年都喺度講想放棄。
Dialogue: 0,0:24:03.98,0:24:05.52,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,諗下啦。」
Dialogue: 0,0:24:05.52,0:24:08.37,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,英文入面關於抑鬱嘅字真係好少
Dialogue: 0,0:24:08.37,0:24:10.47,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,其他語言都係噉
Dialogue: 0,0:24:10.47,0:24:12.69,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我哋用同一個字︰depression
Dialogue: 0,0:24:12.69,0:24:14.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,去形容一個細路喺佢生日嗰日遇到落雨時
Dialogue: 0,0:24:14.50,0:24:16.21,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,嘅感覺
Dialogue: 0,0:24:16.21,0:24:18.74,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,同一個字會形容
Dialogue: 0,0:24:18.74,0:24:21.19,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,一個人自殺前嘅心情
Dialogue: 0,0:24:21.19,0:24:24.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,有啲人同我講︰「抑鬱係唔係平時傷心嘅延續？」
Dialogue: 0,0:24:24.30,0:24:27.44,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我話︰「可以係延續嘅，
Dialogue: 0,0:24:27.44,0:24:29.64,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,抑鬱係有傷心嘅延續。
Dialogue: 0,0:24:29.64,0:24:31.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,打個比喻
Dialogue: 0,0:24:31.60,0:24:33.58,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,你間屋出面道圍欄
Dialogue: 0,0:24:33.58,0:24:35.26,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,有一個好細嘅鏽跡
Dialogue: 0,0:24:35.26,0:24:38.01,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,你可以磨佢然後再上漆
Dialogue: 0,0:24:38.01,0:24:40.65,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,但如果你唔理間屋一百年
Dialogue: 0,0:24:40.65,0:24:43.55,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,成個欄就會生鏽到剩返
Dialogue: 0,0:24:43.55,0:24:44.79,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,一堆橙色嘅鏽屑
Dialogue: 0,0:24:44.79,0:24:46.96,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,就係開頭小小嘅生鏽
Dialogue: 0,0:24:46.96,0:24:48.75,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我哋要去解決
Dialogue: 0,0:24:51.74,0:24:53.98,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,所以宜家啲人話
Dialogue: 0,0:24:53.98,0:24:56.71,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,「你食咗開心丸， 你會開心嗎？」
Dialogue: 0,0:24:56.71,0:24:58.59,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,對於我嚟講冇
Dialogue: 0,0:24:58.59,0:25:01.42,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我唔會因為食晏而覺得傷心
Dialogue: 0,0:25:01.42,0:25:04.25,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我唔會因為我嗰電話答錄機而傷心
Dialogue: 0,0:25:04.25,0:25:07.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我唔會因為沖涼而傷心
Dialogue: 0,0:25:07.10,0:25:09.95,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我諗我感受到更多
Dialogue: 0,0:25:09.95,0:25:12.38,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,因為我會因為某啲嘢而傷心
Dialogue: 0,0:25:12.38,0:25:16.73,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我可以因為工作上嘅失望而傷心
Dialogue: 0,0:25:16.73,0:25:19.08,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,或者因為轉壞嘅關係
Dialogue: 0,0:25:19.08,0:25:21.11,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,又或者全球暖化
Dialogue: 0,0:25:21.11,0:25:23.84,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,呢啲嘢都係我宜家傷心嘅
Dialogue: 0,0:25:23.84,0:25:26.57,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,然後我同自己講，噉又點？
Dialogue: 0,0:25:26.57,0:25:29.13,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,有更好生活嘅人
Dialogue: 0,0:25:29.13,0:25:31.69,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,甚至有更嚴重抑鬱，係點樣走出嚟架呢？
Dialogue: 0,0:25:31.69,0:25:34.48,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,對抗逆境個心理機制又係點架呢？
Dialogue: 0,0:25:34.48,0:25:36.57,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我慢慢總結出
Dialogue: 0,0:25:36.57,0:25:39.48,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,否定過往有抑鬱嘅人
Dialogue: 0,0:25:39.48,0:25:41.52,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,話自己好耐以前曾經抑鬱
Dialogue: 0,0:25:41.52,0:25:43.25,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,但唔想諗返轉頭
Dialogue: 0,0:25:43.25,0:25:44.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,唔再面對佢
Dialogue: 0,0:25:44.50,0:25:46.39,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,只係想過好嘅生活
Dialogue: 0,0:25:46.39,0:25:48.34,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,非常諷刺地， 呢啲人
Dialogue: 0,0:25:48.34,0:25:51.04,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,卻係畀佢哋擁有嘅嘢控制咗
Dialogue: 0,0:25:51.04,0:25:53.61,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,唔正視抑鬱症只會令得情況更加嚴重
Dialogue: 0,0:25:53.61,0:25:56.89,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,當你避避佢，佢反而惡化
Dialogue: 0,0:25:56.89,0:25:59.75,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,表現比較好嘅人反而會
Dialogue: 0,0:25:59.75,0:26:02.35,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,接受佢哋
Dialogue: 0,0:26:02.35,0:26:03.97,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,有抑鬱症
Dialogue: 0,0:26:03.97,0:26:06.44,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,肯面對抑鬱嘅人就會更堅強
Dialogue: 0,0:26:08.22,0:26:10.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,所以 Frank Russakoff 同我講︰
Dialogue: 0,0:26:10.00,0:26:11.52,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,「如果我可以再嚟一次，
Dialogue: 0,0:26:11.52,0:26:13.66,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我唔會揀呢條路，我反而會揀一個唔尋常嘅方式。
Dialogue: 0,0:26:13.66,0:26:15.62,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我好感激
Dialogue: 0,0:26:15.62,0:26:17.12,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我經歷過嘅嘢。
Dialogue: 0,0:26:17.12,0:26:20.94,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我好開心我留過院四十次。
Dialogue: 0,0:26:20.94,0:26:23.54,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我留院學識咗乜係愛。
Dialogue: 0,0:26:23.54,0:26:26.38,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我同父母、醫生嘅關係
Dialogue: 0,0:26:26.38,0:26:30.77,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,係以後都係最珍惜嘅。」
Dialogue: 0,0:26:30.77,0:26:32.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,而 Maggie Robbins 話︰
Dialogue: 0,0:26:32.70,0:26:35.69,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,「我以前喺一個愛滋病嘅診所做義工。
Dialogue: 0,0:26:35.69,0:26:38.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我工作嘅時候，我會唔停咁講嘢
Dialogue: 0,0:26:38.70,0:26:40.51,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我對著嘅人
Dialogue: 0,0:26:40.51,0:26:42.58,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,冇乜反應， 所以我就覺得
Dialogue: 0,0:26:42.58,0:26:46.54,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,佢哋唔係好友善。」（笑聲）
Dialogue: 0,0:26:46.54,0:26:48.18,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,「但我之後發覺，
Dialogue: 0,0:26:48.18,0:26:50.31,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,佢哋除咗頭五分鐘嘅傾計之外，
Dialogue: 0,0:26:50.31,0:26:52.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,就唔想做其他嘢。
Dialogue: 0,0:26:54.76,0:26:57.63,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,好似我冇愛滋病、唔使死，
Dialogue: 0,0:26:57.63,0:27:00.61,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,但又可以接受到嗰啲人一樣
Dialogue: 0,0:27:02.39,0:27:05.100,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我哋嘅需求正正係我哋最大嘅本錢。
Dialogue: 0,0:27:05.100,0:27:08.14,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我學識點樣
Dialogue: 0,0:27:08.14,0:27:12.16,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,放開我想要嘅嘢。」
Dialogue: 0,0:27:12.16,0:27:13.85,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,重視抑鬱症
Dialogue: 0,0:27:13.85,0:27:16.04,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,唔擔保抑鬱症唔會復發
Dialogue: 0,0:27:16.04,0:27:18.71,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,但會令復發嘅心理準備
Dialogue: 0,0:27:18.71,0:27:22.92,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,同復發本身都更容易去接受
Dialogue: 0,0:27:22.92,0:27:24.97,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,個意義唔係在於去搵
Dialogue: 0,0:27:24.97,0:27:27.14,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,抑鬱症嘅意義或者覺得
Dialogue: 0,0:27:27.14,0:27:29.17,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,自己嘅抑鬱症好有意義
Dialogue: 0,0:27:29.17,0:27:31.34,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,而係
Dialogue: 0,0:27:31.34,0:27:33.15,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,當抑鬱症再嚟嘅時候
Dialogue: 0,0:27:33.15,0:27:34.79,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,雖然好似好弊
Dialogue: 0,0:27:34.79,0:27:37.49,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,但我會從中學到嘢
Dialogue: 0,0:27:37.49,0:27:39.75,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,由以前嘅抑鬱學到
Dialogue: 0,0:27:39.75,0:27:41.76,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,情緒可以有幾大
Dialogue: 0,0:27:41.76,0:27:44.86,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,而又點樣可以比事實更加真實
Dialogue: 0,0:27:44.86,0:27:47.81,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,經歷
Dialogue: 0,0:27:47.81,0:27:50.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,令我情緒正面嘅時候
Dialogue: 0,0:27:50.70,0:27:54.22,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我識得更加集中同投入咁感受正面情緒
Dialogue: 0,0:27:54.22,0:27:57.71,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,抑鬱症嘅相反唔係快樂
Dialogue: 0,0:27:57.71,0:27:59.16,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,而係活力
Dialogue: 0,0:27:59.16,0:28:01.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,而這些日子我的生命充滿活力,
Dialogue: 0,0:28:04.65,0:28:07.96,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,就算傷心嘅時候都係
Dialogue: 0,0:28:07.96,0:28:09.99,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我腦入面感受到嗰場葬禮
Dialogue: 0,0:28:09.99,0:28:12.23,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我同一個巨人坐喺世界嘅邊緣
Dialogue: 0,0:28:12.23,0:28:14.32,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我發現自己內心嘅
Dialogue: 0,0:28:14.32,0:28:16.17,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,一啲嘢
Dialogue: 0,0:28:16.17,0:28:18.31,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,以前我要呼喚內心
Dialogue: 0,0:28:18.31,0:28:22.06,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,但直到廿年前嘅一日，地獄好似派咗使者嚟，之後我明白到所有嘢，我唔使再呼喚自己
Dialogue: 0,0:28:26.58,0:28:30.68,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,當我唔鐘意抑鬱、
Dialogue: 0,0:28:30.68,0:28:33.01,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,唔想再抑鬱嘅時候
Dialogue: 0,0:28:33.01,0:28:35.76,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我搵到一個愛上抑鬱症嘅方法
Dialogue: 0,0:28:35.76,0:28:37.78,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我愛佢係因為佢令我
Dialogue: 0,0:28:37.78,0:28:40.55,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,去尋同埋堅持快樂
Dialogue: 0,0:28:40.55,0:28:44.04,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,我愛佢因為我決定每日
Dialogue: 0,0:28:44.04,0:28:45.58,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,有時因為玩
Dialogue: 0,0:28:45.58,0:28:48.28,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,有時因為喺嗰刻特登唱反調
Dialogue: 0,0:28:48.28,0:28:50.85,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,去擁抱生存嘅理由
Dialogue: 0,0:28:50.85,0:28:54.98,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,呢樣嘢可喜可賀，亦係一份榮譽
Dialogue: 0,0:28:54.98,0:28:58.96,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,多謝
Dialogue: 0,0:28:58.96,0:29:02.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,（掌聲）