0:00:03.627,0:00:07.838
「我腦裏面感覺到有一場葬禮，

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而殮葬嘅人不停行嚟行去，

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當我嘅感覺返返嚟，

0:00:15.836,0:00:17.605
佢哋就坐返埋位，

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葬禮儀式好似鼓一樣

0:00:19.603,0:00:22.315
敲打著。

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直至我嘅腦完全麻木，

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跟住我聽到佢哋移靈安葬我嘅遺體，

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而我嘅靈魂就好似木一樣敲碎緊，

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仲有佢哋好似之前一樣鉛一樣沉重嘅腳步，

0:00:33.053,0:00:36.070
而成個大嘅空間就好似有一個鐘喺度響。

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天堂好似一個鐘咁，

0:00:38.210,0:00:40.201
而人就好似耳朵，聽到定時響起嘅鐘聲，

0:00:40.201,0:00:43.284
但我同寂靜屬於同一個異端，

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都係擱淺喺荒島上，孤零零，喺度。

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隨著支持我嘅木板斷開，

0:00:49.670,0:00:53.011
我不斷墜落， 墜落，

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撞到好多嘢然後跌落一個世界，

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我唔再認識事物。」

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我哋喺好多喑喻裏邊見到抑鬱症

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艾米莉 ‧ 狄金森將抑鬱症轉化為文字

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戈雅將抑鬱症轉化成油畫

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一半嘅藝術創作

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係想表達抑鬱症嘅典形狀態

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至於我， 我一直認為自己係堅強嘅

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如果一班人被咗去集中營嘅話

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我會係其中一個可以存活落嚟嘅人

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1991年， 我經歷一連串嘅打擊

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我母親過世

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一段感情結束咗

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我結束咗幾年外國生活

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返返去美國

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而我經歷以上打擊都仍然係好硬淨

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但係喺1994，三年之後

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我發覺自己幾乎對所有嘢都冇興趣

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我唔想做任何

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之前想做嘅嘢

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我都唔知點解會噉樣

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抑鬱嘅反面

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唔係快樂， 係活力

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活力就係嗰時我覺得我失去咗嘅嘢

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每日要做嘅嘢實在太多啦

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我想返屋企

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見到電話答錄機上面閃著紅色燈

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同因為唔使聽到朋友留言而唔使驚

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我諗︰

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點解我要覆返咁多人嘅電話？

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或係我應該要食午餐啦

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但我會諗， 我要將食物攞出嚟

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擺喺個碟度

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又要切、又要擺入個口度，又要吞咗去

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感覺好似耶穌行十架嘅路一樣

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而有一樣成日喺討論抑鬱症嘅時候會忽略嘅嘢係

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你知道抑鬱症係非常荒謬嘅一件事

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你知道當你經歷抑鬱症嘅時候，佢係有幾咁荒謬

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你知道大部分人會

0:02:44.681,0:02:46.995
聽答錄機嘅留言同食晏

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安排好沖涼

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出去屋企

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呢啲都係好簡單

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但你仍然係喺抑鬱症嘅控制當中

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你搵唔到方法解決佢

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然後我就愈嚟愈做得少同

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諗得少、感受愈嚟愈少

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可以話係無能

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跟著焦慮嚟勒

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如果你話俾我聽之後嗰幾個月

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我都要處於抑鬱狀態

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我會話︰只要佢十一月完，我就冇問題

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但係如果你同我講

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我呢幾個月都要極度焦慮

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我寧願割腕自殺，好過極度焦慮幾個月

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成日都會有一種

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好似你行路

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突然跣襯或者拤倒

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而地下快速衝埋你度咁嘅感覺

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但係嗰種恐懼感並唔係剩係跌落地嘅半秒鐘

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而係持續咗半年

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嗰種感覺令你一直覺得好驚

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但你又唔會知道你驚嘅係乜嘢

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就喺嗰個時候我開始諗

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活著真係太痛苦

0:03:51.476,0:03:54.060
而唯一唔自殺嘅理由

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就係因為唔想因為我自殺而傷害到其他人

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然後有一日，當我瞓醒

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突然間覺得我中風

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因為我喺床上完全郁唔到

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我望住個電話，諗

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「有啲唔對路， 我要打去搵人幫手」

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但我連手都遞唔到

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噉點拎起電話打呢？

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經過四個鐘頭我依煞瞓喺張床郁都郁唔到

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電話響

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我用盡力咁攞起個電話

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嗰個係我老豆打嚟,

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我話「 我遇到好大嘅麻煩，

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我哋必須諗辦法解決佢。」

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第二日我就開始治療同食藥

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而我同時諗到

0:04:37.531,0:04:39.410
一個好弊嘅問題

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如果我唔係一個堅強嘅人

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可以喺集中營裏面生存嘅人

0:04:44.039,0:04:45.679
噉我係乜？

0:04:45.679,0:04:47.628
如果我要靠藥物

0:04:47.628,0:04:51.335
噉藥物係咪令我做返真正嘅自己？

0:04:51.335,0:04:53.754
定係將我變成第二個人？

0:04:53.754,0:04:55.450
如果藥物令我變成第二個人

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噉我應該有咩感受？

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我對抗抑鬱會有兩個好處

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第一就係客觀嚟講

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我會有好嘅生活

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如果當我好返

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噉之後就會有更美好嘅嘢等住我

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第二樣就係我會得到好好嘅治療

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但我好轉又復發

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好轉又復發

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最後我終於明白

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我以後都要靠食藥同治潦生活

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我就諗 ，抑鬱症到底係化學問題定精神問題呢？

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需要化學治療定係心理治療？

0:05:37.466,0:05:39.525
我搞唔清楚

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跟住我明白到

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我哋喺是旦一個領域嘅知識都未夠深入去解釋事物

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化學治療同心理治療

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都有佢哋嘅作用

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我同時發覺抑鬱症係一種

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同我哋內心深深糾纏著嘅嘢嚟

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即係話我哋冇辦法將

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佢由我哋人格同個性當中分離

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我想講我哋對抑鬱症嘅治療方法

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其實係唔係好好

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嗰啲治療都唔係好有效

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而且仲非常昂貴

0:06:09.650,0:06:12.099
有好多數唔曬嘅副作用

0:06:12.099,0:06:13.888
呢啲治療嘅禍害好大

0:06:13.888,0:06:16.766
但慶幸嘅係我生活喺呢個年代，而唔係五十年前

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五十年前抑鬱症

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係束手無策

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我希望五十年之後

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當人聽到我呢一刻接受過嘅治療

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會覺訝異點解會有人接受

0:06:28.059,0:06:30.885
咁原始嘅科學

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抑鬱症喺感情上係一個裂口

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如果你今日同某人結婚，然後諗

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「如果我老婆過生， 我會搵另一個」

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噉樣就唔係我哋所認知嘅愛情

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如果冇預料過會失去

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噉就唔叫做愛情

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預見過絕望

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係人變得親密嘅原動力

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人成日會撈亂三樣嘢

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抑鬱、哀痛以及悲傷

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哀痛係好有反應

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如果你因為失去某樣嘢而非常唔開心

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半年之後

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你仲係覺得好難過， 但比起半年前好咗啲

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嗰種應該哀痛

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佢

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自己最後會慢慢消失

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如果你經歷過一場浩劫,

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感覺好慘

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六個月後你只能夠僅僅噉捱落去

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好可能就係浩劫發生嗰陣同時引起你嘅抑鬱

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噉樣嘅軌跡畀我哋了解到抑鬱症係一件好嚴重嘅事

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人哋覺得抑鬱症就同等於悲傷

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但係抑鬱症卻係帶著太多太多嘅悲傷

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同埋太多太多嘅哀痛

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而一切都係由小事引起

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當我開始去了解抑鬱症

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開始同一啲曾經患過嘅人傾嘅時候

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我發現嗰啲人

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表現上睇起嚟

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有輕微嘅抑鬱

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但實際上抑鬱症令佢哋失去咗生活能力

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另一邊有批人

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聽起上嚟

0:08:04.365,0:08:06.616
有好嚴重嘅抑鬱

0:08:06.616,0:08:09.431
但佢哋卻係兩次病發之間生活得好好

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跟著我開始搵出

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係乜原因畀令某啲人

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比另一啲更堅強

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係乜嘢機制

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令人就算有抑鬱都可以生存落嚟？

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跟著我一個又一個咁

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同曾經抑鬱嘅人傾

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其中一個人

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形容抑鬱症

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係一個慢慢死亡嘅過程

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好早就聽到呢種講法係好事嚟

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因為佢提醒咗我

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慢慢步入死亡真係可以死亡

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呢樣嘢係好嚴肅

0:08:43.495,0:08:46.154
抑鬱症係全世界第一大引致失去活動能力嘅疾病

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每日都有人因為抑鬱症而離開

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其中一個喺我了解抑鬱症嘅時候傾嘅人

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係我一個

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認識多年嘅好友

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佢喺大學第一年

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有精神問題

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之後惡化成幾多人驚嘅抑鬱症

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佢精神好兩極化，即係躁鬱症

0:09:05.541,0:09:08.184
或者係之後嘅躁狂抑鬱症

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經過多年鋰鹽治療

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佢復完得相當唔錯

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到最後

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醫生停咗開鋰鹽俾佢

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睇下佢可唔可以唔使藥物都得

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跟著佢又再度精神失常

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仲惡化成我見過最嚴重嘅抑鬱症

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佢坐喺佢父母間屋裏面

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手腳好硬，坐喺度唔郁

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日日都係咁

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幾年之後我問佢呢段經歷時

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佢已經係詩人同心理治療師 Maggie Robins

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佢話︰

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「我一直重複唱著Where Have All The Flowers Gone，

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令我個腦剩係得呢首歌。

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我唱著呢首歌去掩蓋心入邊把聲，

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嗰把聲就係『你係冇用嘅，你對世界嚟講可有可無。

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你根本唔配活喺呢個世界上。』

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呢個時候我開始諗住自殺。」

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你有抑鬱嘅時候唔會諗

0:10:04.990,0:10:07.127
你係戴咗一塊灰色面紗

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唔會覺得自己係透過負面情緒去睇嘢

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你只會認為一塊代表快樂嘅面紗被人攞走咗

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你覺得宜家先係睇到真實嘅世界

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同樣係人格分裂嘅病人，內心覺得有嘢需要驅趕嘅一類病人比較容易治療

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但抑鬱類型嘅病人就難啲

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因為病人相信佢哋睇到真實世界

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但真實世界卻係講緊大話

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我成日聽到呢句說話

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「但真實世界卻係講緊大話」

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當我同抑鬱嘅人傾計嘅時候，我發現

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佢哋有好多幻覺

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佢哋會話「冇人愛我」

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然後你同佢講 「我愛你，

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你老婆愛你， 你媽咪愛你。」

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你可以好快咁應返佢哋大部分人

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但係抑鬱症嘅人會話

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「無論我哋點樣努力，

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我哋最後都會死。」

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或者佢哋會話， 「兩個人之間

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唔會有真正嘅溝通。

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每個人只會畀自己嘅身體困住。」

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你只可以回答

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「冇錯，

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但我覺得我哋宜家應該諗

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我哋早餐食啲乜。」

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（笑聲）

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好多時

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佢哋表逹嘅並唔係一種病， 而係佢哋睇嘢嘅角度

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而佢哋會覺得好特別嘅嘢會係

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我哋大部分人都一早知道嘅問題

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呢啲問題唔會好令我哋分心

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我幾鐘意一個調查

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一班抑鬱症病人

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同一班冇抑鬱嘅人

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需要分別玩電子遊戲一粒鐘

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當佢哋玩完

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佢哋要回答佢哋覺得喺遊戲裏面

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殺咗幾多隻怪獸

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抑鬱症嗰班人通常講到 10% 之內誤差嘅數字

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至於冇抑鬱症嘅人

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佢哋估嘅數字

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係佢哋真正殺咗數目嘅15-20倍（笑聲）

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好多人會話，當我決定寫我嘅抑鬱症

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係一個非常困難嘅決定

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佢哋問︰ 「人哋同你傾計嘅時候會唔會唔同？」

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我話︰「係，人哋同我傾計會有唔同。」

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佢哋會同我講佢哋抑鬱症嘅經驗

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可能係佢哋家姐、細妹

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可能係佢哋嘅朋友.

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宜家唔同啦因為我知道

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抑鬱症每個家庭都曾經有過

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前幾年我去咗個研討會

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喺嗰個為期三日嘅研討會入面，其中一日，係星期五嚟

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其中一個參加者將我拉到一旁， 然後佢同我講︰

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「我有抑鬱症，

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而呢個病令我覺得尷尬，

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但係我一路有食藥。

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我剩係想問下你你點樣睇？」

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所以我就盡我所能答佢

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佢跟住話︰ 「你知嗎？

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我老公永遠唔會明白架。

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呢樣嘢對佢完全冇意義。

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所以， 呢個係我哋嘅秘密。」

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我返答 ︰「冇問題。」

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跟著喺研討會嘅最後一日

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佢丈夫又拉埋我一邊（笑聲）

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佢話 「我妻子如果知道我有抑鬱症嘅話，絕對唔會覺得我係一個男人。

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我有食藥。

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我想知道你點諗？

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佢哋兩夫妻

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將佢哋同一款藥收埋喺同一間睡房

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嘅唔同地方（笑聲）

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我諗

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佢哋溝通唔係好好

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導致一啲問題出現

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（笑聲）

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同時我都因為

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佢哋互相提防

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而覺得辛苦

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抑鬱症令人好攰

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佢用咗你好多時間同精力

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唔理抑鬱症

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只會令抑鬱症惡化

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然後我開始諗抑鬱症患者康復嘅方法

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我會由傳統治療開始

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我知道只有少數治療至可以對患者有幫助

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好明顯係邊幾種方法

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有藥物

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有一啲心理治療

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仲可能有電痙攣療法

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而其他方法都係冇用

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我發現咗一樣嘢

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如果你有腦癌

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而每朝

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倒立廿分鐘會令你感覺好啲

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可能真係會畀你感覺好啲啦

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但係你嘅腦癌從來都冇消失過

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你最終都有可能死於腦癌

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但如果你有抑鬱症

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而每日倒立廿分鐘

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會畀你感覺好一啲， 噉就真係有效啦

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因為抑鬱症係你認知上出現咗問題

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而你感覺好啲

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就代表咗你唔再係抑鬱

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所以我開始接受其他唔同嘅

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治療

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然後我收到好多患者寄嚟嘅信

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講有咩方法對佢哋奏效

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就好似今日噉就有人喺後台問我藥物方面嘅嘢

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我最鐘意嘅一封信

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係由一個女士寫嘅

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佢話佢曾經嘗試過治療、藥物

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所有嘅嘢都試過曬

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最後佢搵到一種方法， 並且想我同大家分享

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就係用毛冷整唔同嘅小飾物

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（笑聲）

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佢仲送咗啲佢整嘅作品（笑聲）

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不過我宜家冇帶著佢哋

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我叫佢睇一睇

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心理醫學診斷同統計手冊裡面有關強迫症嘅部分

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當我搵其他治療嘅時候

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我對佢哋了解深咗

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我曾經去過塞內加爾一個部落嘅驅邪儀式

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儀式入面有好多公羊嘅血

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我唔喺度描述啦

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但幾年後我喺盧旺達

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參與另一項計畫

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我要同人講我喺塞內加爾嘅經歷

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佢話︰「嗰度係西非，你知嗎？

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我哋係喺東非，

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我哋嘅儀式同佢哋嘅喺幾方面都有好大分別，

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但同時都有一啲

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相同嘅地方。

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但係我哋同西方心理健康人員有唔少麻煩，

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尤其係嗰啲喺種族屠殺之後嚟嘅人。」

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我問︰「佢哋帶俾你咩麻煩？」

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佢話︰

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「佢哋做啲嘢真係好好，

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佢哋不但止冇帶病人曬太陽，

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令病人感覺好啲，

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佢哋仲冇打鼓或者播音樂，令病人嘅血活起上嚟。

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佢哋冇帶動成個社群，

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佢哋冇將抑鬱症

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講成為一種入侵性嘅惡靈。

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佢哋反而將病人

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逐個帶入一間黑房，

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由佢哋自己

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講返佢哋經歷過痛苦嘅嘢。」

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（笑聲） （掌聲）

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佢話 ︰「 我哋只好請佢哋離開國家。」

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（笑聲）

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宜家講下其他另類療法

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介紹一下 Frank Russakoff

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Frank Russakoff 有好嚴重嘅抑鬱症

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應該話我係從來未喺任何一個男人身上見過嘅

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佢成日抑鬱

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當我見佢嘅時候， 佢

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每個月都要接受電擊治療

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治療完之後嘅一個禮拜佢會覺得迷茫

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之後第二個禮拜又會好返

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跟著又會抑鬱

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噉樣嘅話佢又要去接受電擊治療

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當我見到佢，佢同我講

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「我已經忍受唔到噉樣過日子，

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我唔可以再繼續噉樣落去。

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假如情況冇好轉，我知道點樣解束佢。」

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佢同我講︰「但係，我聽過

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麻省總醫院有個療法叫做

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扣帶回切開術， 係一種腦科手術，

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我諗我可以試試。」

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我記得當時我好開心

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因為一個人

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已經經歷過咁多

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慘痛經歷、咁多唔同嘅治療

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但佢內心仲抱著一絲嘅樂觀

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佢願意再試多次

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佢做咗個

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好成功嘅手術

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宜家仲係我朋友

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佢有一個好老婆同兩個可愛嘅細路

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佢手術之後嘅聖誕節寫咗封信俾我

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佢話︰

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「我老豆今年寄咗我兩份禮物，

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第一份係 The Sharper Image 牌嘅可捲動式 CD 架，

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但我唔需要佢。

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不過我知道佢送嚟係想

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慶祝我可以獨立生活、

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有自己鐘意嘅工。

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另一份禮物

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係我婆婆嘅相，

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我婆婆死於自殺。

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當我拆禮物，我就喊咗出嚟，

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然後我媽咪過嚟同我講︰

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你係咪未見過婆婆而喊？

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我答︰婆婆同我都有同樣嘅病。

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我喊係因為我寫俾你。

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我唔係傷心， 而係我個腦太多嘢啦。

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我覺得自己會自殺，

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但父母同醫生支持我。

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我做咗手術，

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我仲生存，我好感激。

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雖然有時感覺唔係活喺一個啱嘅年代，

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我哋確實活喺一個啱嘅年代。」

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我驚訝抑鬱症竟然

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被認為係

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一種現代、西方、中產嘅嘢

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於是我就睇下抑鬱症

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喺其他唔同地方係點發生

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我最感到興趣嘅係

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低下階層嘅抑鬱情況

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所以我搵出

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針對窮人嘅抑鬱有乜係做咗

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我發現大多數有抑鬱症嘅窮人

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都冇接受過治療

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抑鬱症係基因易受損嘅結果

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呢種基因按理會喺成個人口裡面平均分布

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而發病情況

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尤其窮人會相對嚴重

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但實情係

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如果你有一個美好嘅生活但一直覺得自己好淒慘

0:19:16.344,0:19:18.344
同埋問︰「點解我會有咁嘅感覺？

0:19:18.344,0:19:20.013
我應該有抑鬱啦。」

0:19:20.013,0:19:21.936
然後你去搵治療

0:19:21.936,0:19:24.029
但係如果你有一個好慘嘅人生

0:19:24.029,0:19:25.896
而你一直都覺得好慘

0:19:25.896,0:19:28.722
你慘嘅感覺同你慘嘅生活呼應

0:19:28.722,0:19:30.446
你唔會諗

0:19:30.446,0:19:32.229
呢個病可以醫得好

0:19:32.229,0:19:35.365
換句話講，我哋抑鬱國家入面嘅貧窮人口

0:19:35.365,0:19:38.278
爆發咗流行病

0:19:38.278,0:19:40.790
但冇人提過佢、冇人會醫過佢

0:19:40.790,0:19:42.846
冇人重視過佢

0:19:42.846,0:19:45.046
係社會嘅悲劇

0:19:45.046,0:19:46.534
所以我搵咗一個學者

0:19:46.534,0:19:48.351
佢進行梗一個

0:19:48.351,0:19:50.092
關於華盛頓外圍貧民區嘅研究

0:19:50.092,0:19:53.089
佢揀咗求診嘅女性做對象

0:19:53.089,0:19:54.868
呢啲女性係因為其他病至求診，但後來都發現到有抑鬱

0:19:54.868,0:19:58.134
於是班人得到六星期嘅試驗性治療

0:19:58.134,0:20:00.463
Lolly 係其中一個參加嘅人

0:20:00.463,0:20:02.760
佢第一日入嚟就話

0:20:02.760,0:20:06.155
佢係七個細路嘅母親

0:20:06.155,0:20:08.247
佢話

0:20:08.247,0:20:10.898
佢以前有做嘢，但佢宜家要放棄份工

0:20:10.898,0:20:12.958
「因為我出唔到間屋。

0:20:12.958,0:20:15.186
我同細路冇嘢講。

0:20:15.186,0:20:17.953
朝早， 我唔可以等住佢哋走，

0:20:17.953,0:20:20.943
我只好返上床用被遮住個頭。

0:20:20.943,0:20:22.589
三點鐘當小朋友返到屋企，

0:20:22.589,0:20:24.390
我覺得時間過得好快

0:20:24.390,0:20:26.630
佢話︰ 「我一直有食開 Tylenol，

0:20:26.630,0:20:29.389
任何可以畀我瞓耐啲嘅藥物。

0:20:29.389,0:20:33.159
我丈夫一直話我又蠢又醜，

0:20:33.159,0:20:36.664
我希望痛楚可以停止。」

0:20:36.664,0:20:39.304
佢就係噉帶咗入嚟呢個試驗性嘅治療

0:20:39.304,0:20:41.612
六個月後我再同佢傾

0:20:41.612,0:20:46.019
佢已經喺一間美國海軍嘅托兒所度做

0:20:46.019,0:20:49.824
佢離開有暴力傾向嘅丈夫

0:20:49.824,0:20:51.906
佢話畀我知

0:20:51.906,0:20:54.275
佢啲細路比以前仲開心咗添

0:20:54.275,0:20:56.252
佢話， 喺佢間新屋入面有一間房專門俾男仔

0:20:56.252,0:20:58.860
仲有一間房專門俾女仔

0:20:58.860,0:21:01.399
「但係夜晚細路都去晒我張床，

0:21:01.399,0:21:04.011
我哋一齊做功課同埋其他嘢。

0:21:04.011,0:21:05.684
其中一個小朋友話想做牧師。

0:21:05.684,0:21:07.384
另一個想做消防員。

0:21:07.384,0:21:10.350
有個女話想做律師。

0:21:10.350,0:21:12.355
佢哋唔似以前噉喊，

0:21:12.355,0:21:14.913
同埋冇再打交。

0:21:14.913,0:21:18.693
我宜家需要嘅就只係我小朋友。

0:21:18.693,0:21:20.605
事情一直喺度改變梗，

0:21:20.605,0:21:25.798
我著衫、我對事物嘅感覺，仲有我平時嘅態度都有唔同。

0:21:25.798,0:21:29.485
我可以行出門口而唔覺得驚。

0:21:29.485,0:21:32.894
我唔覺得以前唔好嘅感覺會返返嚟。

0:21:32.894,0:21:35.929
如果唔係 Miranda 醫生，

0:21:35.929,0:21:39.546
我可能仲要匿喺屋企用被襟著個頭。

0:21:39.546,0:21:41.895
如果我仲活著嘅話，

0:21:41.895,0:21:45.627
我會問上帝派一隻天使嚟，

0:21:45.627,0:21:49.957
令佢可以聽到我嘅禱告。」

0:21:49.959,0:21:53.312
佢嘅經驗令我非常感動

0:21:53.312,0:21:55.851
我決定將佢嘅經歷寫落嚟

0:21:55.851,0:21:57.230
唔只寫入我喺寫梗嘅一本書

0:21:57.230,0:21:58.541
仲會寫喺專欄裡面

0:21:58.541,0:22:00.862
同埋紐約時代雜誌邀請我

0:22:00.862,0:22:02.878
寫關於窮人嘅抑鬱症

0:22:02.878,0:22:04.494
我就寫咗我遇過真實嘅故事

0:22:04.494,0:22:06.090
但編輯打嚟話︰

0:22:06.090,0:22:07.800
「我哋登唔到噉樣嘅文章。」

0:22:07.800,0:22:09.550
我話點解唔得？

0:22:09.550,0:22:11.855
佢話個故事太牽強啦

0:22:11.855,0:22:15.633
「呢啲人係社會嘅最底層，

0:22:15.633,0:22:17.337
佢哋接受咗幾個月治療之後，

0:22:17.337,0:22:19.969
就可以去摩根史坦利返工？

0:22:19.969,0:22:21.823
簡直難以置信。」

0:22:21.823,0:22:24.028
佢話︰「我從來未聽過噉樣嘅嘢。」

0:22:24.028,0:22:26.562
我話你冇聽過就代表咗

0:22:26.562,0:22:29.562
呢單係一單「新」聞

0:22:29.562,0:22:35.696
（笑聲）（掌聲）

0:22:37.317,0:22:39.811
我仲話呢個係一間新聞雜誌社嚟架

0:22:39.811,0:22:41.793
噉傾咗一輪之後

0:22:41.793,0:22:43.034
佢哋同意刊登我嘅文章

0:22:43.034,0:22:44.649
但我諗好多佢哋講嘅嘢

0:22:44.649,0:22:46.944
都係好怪，同埋有偏見

0:22:46.944,0:22:49.086
佢哋覺得如果我哋去醫班窮人

0:22:49.086,0:22:50.549
係剝削梗佢哋

0:22:57.025,0:22:58.667
原因係我哋會改變佢哋

0:22:58.667,0:23:00.700
呢啲虛偽嘅道德情操

0:23:00.700,0:23:02.489
似乎無處不在

0:23:02.489,0:23:04.843
佢哋覺得抑鬱症嘅治療

0:23:04.843,0:23:07.142
藥物以至其他嘢都係人工合成嘅

0:23:07.142,0:23:09.314
唔係自然嘅

0:23:09.314,0:23:12.163
而我覺得佢哋係非常之誤導

0:23:12.163,0:23:15.695
人嘅牙會脫落係正常不過嘅事

0:23:15.695,0:23:19.025
但唔會因為噉有人反對用牙膏

0:23:19.025,0:23:21.153
至少我圈子裏面嘅人冇

0:23:21.153,0:23:23.655
然後有人會話

0:23:23.655,0:23:25.840
抑鬱症唔係每個人都一定會經歷嘅嘢？

0:23:25.840,0:23:27.581
我哋唔係進化到有抑鬱症架咩？

0:23:27.581,0:23:29.488
抑鬱症唔通唔係我哋性格嘅一部分？

0:23:29.488,0:23:32.234
噉我就會話，情緒係可以改嘅

0:23:32.234,0:23:35.563
能夠有傷痛、恐懼

0:23:35.563,0:23:37.405
快樂、舒適

0:23:37.405,0:23:39.208
以及其他唔同嘅情緒

0:23:39.208,0:23:41.272
其實係非常珍貴嘅

0:23:41.272,0:23:44.319
抑鬱症係由於

0:23:44.319,0:23:46.331
情緒系統崩潰

0:23:46.331,0:23:48.048
係壞嘅轉變

0:23:48.048,0:23:49.620
有啲人走嚟同我講︰

0:23:49.620,0:23:52.388
「如果我再撐多年，

0:23:52.388,0:23:54.464
我應該會走出抑鬱症。」

0:23:54.464,0:23:56.767
我一直同佢哋講︰「你可以走得返出嚟，

0:23:56.767,0:23:59.476
但你永遠唔會再係年輕。

0:23:59.476,0:24:02.026
人生短暫， 但你成年都喺度講想放棄。

0:24:03.982,0:24:05.520
諗下啦。」

0:24:05.520,0:24:08.366
英文入面關於抑鬱嘅字真係好少

0:24:08.366,0:24:10.474
其他語言都係噉

0:24:10.474,0:24:12.692
我哋用同一個字︰depression

0:24:12.692,0:24:14.497
去形容一個細路喺佢生日嗰日遇到落雨時

0:24:14.497,0:24:16.209
嘅感覺

0:24:16.209,0:24:18.737
同一個字會形容

0:24:18.737,0:24:21.191
一個人自殺前嘅心情

0:24:21.191,0:24:24.296
有啲人同我講︰「抑鬱係唔係平時傷心嘅延續？」

0:24:24.296,0:24:27.440
我話︰「可以係延續嘅，

0:24:27.440,0:24:29.640
抑鬱係有傷心嘅延續。

0:24:29.640,0:24:31.597
打個比喻

0:24:31.597,0:24:33.584
你間屋出面道圍欄

0:24:33.584,0:24:35.261
有一個好細嘅鏽跡

0:24:35.261,0:24:38.007
你可以磨佢然後再上漆

0:24:38.007,0:24:40.654
但如果你唔理間屋一百年

0:24:40.654,0:24:43.552
成個欄就會生鏽到剩返

0:24:43.552,0:24:44.786
一堆橙色嘅鏽屑

0:24:44.786,0:24:46.959
就係開頭小小嘅生鏽

0:24:46.959,0:24:48.748
我哋要去解決

0:24:51.737,0:24:53.977
所以宜家啲人話

0:24:53.977,0:24:56.708
「你食咗開心丸， 你會開心嗎？」

0:24:56.708,0:24:58.594
對於我嚟講冇

0:24:58.594,0:25:01.416
我唔會因為食晏而覺得傷心

0:25:01.416,0:25:04.252
我唔會因為我嗰電話答錄機而傷心

0:25:04.252,0:25:07.097
我唔會因為沖涼而傷心

0:25:07.097,0:25:09.951
我諗我感受到更多

0:25:09.951,0:25:12.381
因為我會因為某啲嘢而傷心

0:25:12.381,0:25:16.728
我可以因為工作上嘅失望而傷心

0:25:16.728,0:25:19.075
或者因為轉壞嘅關係

0:25:19.075,0:25:21.114
又或者全球暖化

0:25:21.114,0:25:23.839
呢啲嘢都係我宜家傷心嘅

0:25:23.839,0:25:26.573
然後我同自己講，噉又點？

0:25:26.573,0:25:29.134
有更好生活嘅人

0:25:29.134,0:25:31.688
甚至有更嚴重抑鬱，係點樣走出嚟架呢？

0:25:31.688,0:25:34.485
對抗逆境個心理機制又係點架呢？

0:25:34.485,0:25:36.569
我慢慢總結出

0:25:36.569,0:25:39.485
否定過往有抑鬱嘅人

0:25:39.485,0:25:41.517
話自己好耐以前曾經抑鬱

0:25:41.517,0:25:43.254
但唔想諗返轉頭

0:25:43.254,0:25:44.496
唔再面對佢

0:25:44.496,0:25:46.386
只係想過好嘅生活

0:25:46.386,0:25:48.345
非常諷刺地， 呢啲人

0:25:48.345,0:25:51.043
卻係畀佢哋擁有嘅嘢控制咗

0:25:51.043,0:25:53.607
唔正視抑鬱症只會令得情況更加嚴重

0:25:53.607,0:25:56.887
當你避避佢，佢反而惡化

0:25:56.887,0:25:59.747
表現比較好嘅人反而會

0:25:59.747,0:26:02.346
接受佢哋

0:26:02.346,0:26:03.968
有抑鬱症

0:26:03.968,0:26:06.438
肯面對抑鬱嘅人就會更堅強

0:26:08.220,0:26:10.003
所以 Frank Russakoff 同我講︰

0:26:10.003,0:26:11.519
「如果我可以再嚟一次，

0:26:11.519,0:26:13.656
我唔會揀呢條路，我反而會揀一個唔尋常嘅方式。

0:26:13.656,0:26:15.620
我好感激

0:26:15.620,0:26:17.123
我經歷過嘅嘢。

0:26:17.123,0:26:20.940
我好開心我留過院四十次。

0:26:20.940,0:26:23.543
我留院學識咗乜係愛。

0:26:23.543,0:26:26.383
我同父母、醫生嘅關係

0:26:26.383,0:26:30.772
係以後都係最珍惜嘅。」

0:26:30.772,0:26:32.698
而 Maggie Robbins 話︰

0:26:32.698,0:26:35.687
「我以前喺一個愛滋病嘅診所做義工。

0:26:35.687,0:26:38.701
我工作嘅時候，我會唔停咁講嘢

0:26:38.701,0:26:40.514
我對著嘅人

0:26:40.514,0:26:42.581
冇乜反應， 所以我就覺得

0:26:42.581,0:26:46.542
佢哋唔係好友善。」（笑聲）

0:26:46.542,0:26:48.184
「但我之後發覺，

0:26:48.184,0:26:50.311
佢哋除咗頭五分鐘嘅傾計之外，

0:26:50.311,0:26:52.698
就唔想做其他嘢。

0:26:54.755,0:26:57.633
好似我冇愛滋病、唔使死，

0:26:57.633,0:27:00.606
但又可以接受到嗰啲人一樣

0:27:02.393,0:27:05.996
我哋嘅需求正正係我哋最大嘅本錢。

0:27:05.996,0:27:08.135
我學識點樣

0:27:08.135,0:27:12.160
放開我想要嘅嘢。」

0:27:12.160,0:27:13.851
重視抑鬱症

0:27:13.851,0:27:16.045
唔擔保抑鬱症唔會復發

0:27:16.045,0:27:18.706
但會令復發嘅心理準備

0:27:18.706,0:27:22.924
同復發本身都更容易去接受

0:27:22.924,0:27:24.969
個意義唔係在於去搵

0:27:24.969,0:27:27.144
抑鬱症嘅意義或者覺得

0:27:27.144,0:27:29.171
自己嘅抑鬱症好有意義

0:27:29.171,0:27:31.342
而係

0:27:31.342,0:27:33.146
當抑鬱症再嚟嘅時候

0:27:33.146,0:27:34.786
雖然好似好弊

0:27:34.786,0:27:37.487
但我會從中學到嘢

0:27:37.487,0:27:39.751
由以前嘅抑鬱學到

0:27:39.751,0:27:41.764
情緒可以有幾大

0:27:41.764,0:27:44.861
而又點樣可以比事實更加真實

0:27:44.861,0:27:47.810
經歷

0:27:47.810,0:27:50.702
令我情緒正面嘅時候

0:27:50.702,0:27:54.222
我識得更加集中同投入咁感受正面情緒

0:27:54.222,0:27:57.709
抑鬱症嘅相反唔係快樂

0:27:57.709,0:27:59.163
而係活力

0:27:59.163,0:28:01.904
而這些日子我的生命充滿活力,

0:28:04.649,0:28:07.962
就算傷心嘅時候都係

0:28:07.962,0:28:09.986
我腦入面感受到嗰場葬禮

0:28:09.986,0:28:12.233
我同一個巨人坐喺世界嘅邊緣

0:28:12.233,0:28:14.322
我發現自己內心嘅

0:28:14.322,0:28:16.173
一啲嘢

0:28:16.173,0:28:18.306
以前我要呼喚內心

0:28:18.306,0:28:22.062
但直到廿年前嘅一日，地獄好似派咗使者嚟，之後我明白到所有嘢，我唔使再呼喚自己

0:28:26.580,0:28:30.678
當我唔鐘意抑鬱、

0:28:30.678,0:28:33.012
唔想再抑鬱嘅時候

0:28:33.012,0:28:35.756
我搵到一個愛上抑鬱症嘅方法

0:28:35.756,0:28:37.781
我愛佢係因為佢令我

0:28:37.781,0:28:40.550
去尋同埋堅持快樂

0:28:40.550,0:28:44.038
我愛佢因為我決定每日

0:28:44.038,0:28:45.578
有時因為玩

0:28:45.578,0:28:48.276
有時因為喺嗰刻特登唱反調

0:28:48.276,0:28:50.854
去擁抱生存嘅理由

0:28:50.854,0:28:54.977
呢樣嘢可喜可賀，亦係一份榮譽

0:28:54.977,0:28:58.960
多謝

0:28:58.960,0:29:02.096
（掌聲）