WEBVTT 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 When I was a child, I knew I had superpowers. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 That's right. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 I thought I was absolutely amazing because I could understand 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 and relate to the feelings of brown people, like my grandfather, 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 a conservative Muslim guy. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 And also, I could understand my Afghan mother, my Pakistani father, 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 not so religious but laid-back, fairly liberal. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 And of course, I could understand and relate to the feelings of white people. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 The white Norwegians of my country. You know, white, brown, whatever, 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 I loved them all. I understood them all, 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 even if they didn't always understand each other, 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 they were all my people. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 My father, though, was always really worried. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 He kept saying that even with the best education, 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 I was not going to get a fair shake. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 I would still face discrimination, according to him, and that they only way 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 to be accepted by white people would be to become famous. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 Now mind you, he had this conversation with me when I was seven-years-old. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 So while I'm seven-years-old, he said, look, 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 so its either got to be sports, or its got to be music. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 He didn't know anything about sports -- bless him -- so it was music. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 So when I was seven-years-old, he gathered all my toys, all my dolls, 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 and he threw them all away. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 In exchange, he gave me a crappy little Casio keyboard and singing lessons. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 He forced me, basically, to practice for hours and hours every single day. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 Very quickly, he also had me performing for larger and larger audiences, 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 and bizarrely, I became almost a kind of poster child 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 for Norwegian multi-culturalism. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 I felt very proud, of course. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 Even the newspapers were starting to write nice things about brown people, 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 so I could feel that my superpower was growing. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 So when I was 12-years-old, walking home from school, 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 I took a little detour because I wanted to buy 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 my favorite sweets called Salty Feets. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 I know they sound kind of awful, but I absolutely love them. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 They're basically these little salty licorice bits in the shape of feet. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 And now that I say it out loud, I realize how terrible that sounds, 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 but be that as it may, I absolutely love them. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 So on my way into the store, there was this grown white guy 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 in the doorway blocking my way. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 So I tried to walk around him, and as I did that, he stopped me 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 and he was staring at me, and he spit in my face, 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 and he said, get out of my way you little black bitch, 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 you little Paki bitch, go back home where you came from.