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Herald: Oh, oh, this is Whabl. I will
start with an English introduction and
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followed up with the German one. Welcome
to the "Kate Sheppad turning in her
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grave"- talk here at the Haecksen Stream
during the next 20 minutes. The mother,
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musician and geek catalyst will take we
talk about sexism in the professional and
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personal life in the 21st century. During
the talks, she will mentioned violence and
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pornography, but without any expert
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the Q&A, which is hosted on the Big Blue
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Talk "Kate Shepard must be turning in her
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Mutter, Musikerin und Katalyst wird über
Sexism im professionellen und persönlichem
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Leben, Gewalt, Pornographie sprechen im
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Eine Frau Spricht. Kate Shepard must be
turning in her grave. aNixon, sponsoring
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incidents in which our music isn't on our
list was sexist, Muslim, 5.10, wolfish
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Mumford does. I don't want to see one
that's even just talk, said Gabbidon.
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Pornography, having skipped over a kind of
explicit bidder. That's him. Talk. Angela
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Consumption and Hexham Big Two weapons
Pierce Parsons. Kate Sheppard would be
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turning in her grave. This is the
presentation by me. In October of this
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year at the ripe age of forty four, I
started to study IT. I am going to become
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a Fachinformatikerin, specializing in
system administration or, as the Germans
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call it, physi. It's a big deal for me
because I haven't got any completed
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qualifications yet exit from my university
entrance. I was ineligible to become a
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baker, but I'm really glad that I took a
leap and started learning IT instead. I
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was privileged enough to get a
Bildungsgutschein. I had to go to
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Amazon.com over the summer and do German
and math and logic tests, which were good
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enough to convince that I can tour to let
me do the course. And because of corona,
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it's entirely online. I don't even have to
leave the house to get an education. It's
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just perfect right now. I feel so
privileged. First of all, to be able to
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retrain as an older student as it is. But
secondly, I don't have to go out into the
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world every day in the middle of a
pandemic. It's perfect! So I had zero
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strategy or even a proper strong will
about learning when I was 18 and went to
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university during my uncompleted music
studies. I took a 101 introduction to
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computer science, but it was clear after
the first two lectures that I should have
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taken the one or two instead, which was
the basic course for the actual degree
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path. I was this close. But although we
were shown the basic hardware after that,
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this is five months of Microsoft Office,
sadly. And by the time I realized I was
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two behind on the material to be able to
switch to the other course, but I always
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had an interest in computers. The first
from figuring out how I could use my dad's
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old work dos work computer as a word
processor, copying basic programs out of a
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book onto a C64, or nervously trying out
the single Apple computer at the tiny two
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classroom country school I went to. I come
from New Zealand, which is famous for
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being actually paradise. I get asked about
once a week. What are you doing here?
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These days, I like to answer. I really
like corona. Yeah, that's not a lot going
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on in New Zealand, though, is a bit too
finite for my personal tastes. I did this
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weird mess when I left, which was based
upon increasing the amount of possible
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things that could happen to me. I mean,
how could I resist? But the challenges of
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concentrated, detailed learning and my
middle age, I feel it's necessary and very
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helpful to call on some girl bosses and
strong role models. I have a very daunting
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mission ahead of me, and I don't have time
for doubt or distraction, especially with
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its five year old kid to care for as well.
Will tell me that I look fat at the drop
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of a hat. There are some amazing women who
have come out of New Zealand, for example,
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on the left, you have Jane Batten, who
made long-distance solo airplane journeys.
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And on the right, this incredible woman as
Nancy White, who was a New Zealander, a
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nurse and a journalist who went joined the
French Foreign Legion in World War Two.
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She got the codename the White Mouse, and
she once killed an SS officer with her
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bare hands. She had a five million franc
price on her head and was the most
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decorated allied woman of World War Two.
And this is Kate shippers who wasn't
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actually born in New Zealand, she was born
in the UK, but her work is credited with
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being the catalyst for New Zealand being
the first country on the entire planet to
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give women the vote in 1893, who work also
had a profound influence on other
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countries, also making this improvement.
Here she is featured currently on New
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Zealand's $10 bill and this is my great
great grandmother, Jemima. Born in New
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Zealand in 1860, and she was one of the
first woman in the world who was able to
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vote. There's another hero who appeared
like a headmistress, the kind of angel to
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me and my youth. Helen Clark delivered a
fiery speech at my school final assembly.
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She was the second ever serving prime
minister of New Zealand, but the first one
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who is actually a less elected to the post
and the first one who is actually nice. At
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the time she spoke at my school, she'd
already been deputy prime minister for a
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few years and would go on later very soon
to become New Zealand's first elected
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female prime minister. Helen recently only
narrowly missed out on becoming secretary
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general of the United Nations. Yeah,
Jacinta gets a lot of credit, but yeah,
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Helen was there before. She told us in the
speech that most of us would end up going
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overseas and that when we did that, we
should be the best possible ambassadors
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for our little country that we could
possibly be. A friend of mine told me
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snappily several years later that in fact,
we should be telling the world that New
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Zealand is full of drug addicts and
prostitutes so that people stop going
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there for the holidays all the time. So
it's actually rife with homelessness,
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crime and meth. So maybe go check out
Australia instead. But her speech and
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still a curiosity and me and I thought,
Well, I want to be one of the ones that
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goes. So coming alone from this more
experimental nation in 2000, the birth of
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the 20th century. As far as my feet can
take me to the airport, to the beast that
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is Europe, I was ready for my eyes and all
of my senses to be open wide to this
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incredible continent. That was a source of
philosophy and ideas and science and
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developments. But it seems to be a bit
preoccupied with itself trying to decide
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if people with darker skin were actually
humans as well, let alone the fact that
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you can't get a decent coffee until about
10 a.m. in the morning, which is worth.
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Which is worth a 20 minute talk in itself.
There's definitely some issues that come
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from being a cumbersome burdens dinosaur
of a nation. 20 years later and somehow we
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have a universe with fax machine, fax
machines and toxic Telegram groups exist
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at the same point in time. It's certainly
a sharp contrast to the tiny, fast moving,
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tricky, isolated remote little island in
the South Pacific that I herald from. So
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as I mentioned, New Zealand owes status as
the first country to give women the vote
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and a great part to the work of the
suffragette Kate Sheppard. And I think
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that had a lot to do with the fact that it
was a small country with a tiny
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population, and that's just simply makes
it easier to change things. It was also
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fueled heavily by the wishes of woman's
prohibit alcohol, which invariably comes
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with violence, which is rife in a colony
of much less penetrant social pressures,
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much more isolation and dodgy home brew
than in their homelands. You didn't have
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to convince and convert so many people in
New Zealand as you had to in Germany. And
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in addition to that, you also didn't have
to change so many laws because there
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weren't that many laws. Germany always
feels to me like this big, friendly but
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cumbersome bureaucratic dinosaur. But in
the late eighteen hundreds in New Zealand,
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white people only been there for about 50
years. So I think this enables the whole
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process to be streamlined. Opponents
labeled the movement as a leap in the
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dark, but in reality it was a giant leap
into the light. Germany wasn't that far
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behind at this stage. Women had the vote
here by 1919 and directly at the same
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time. Women were also able to be elected
to office, which is fantastic. And
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obviously some things happened after that,
which slowed the whole thing down a bit.
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But something I keep hearing again since
I've been living in this country is, oh
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yeah. But in the 70s, it was still the law
here that women weren't allowed to have
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their own bank accounts without their
husbands signing off on it. So look how
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well we've done considering there, but
this feels to me like an excuse. This is
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50 years ago now, and there's been plenty
of time to accelerate this stuff, to kick
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up some kind of quantum feminism to make
up for lost cars. If only Germany put as
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much energy into equality as it did and to
building car engines. So despite these
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excuses, despite hearing repeatedly from
friends of mine who were living more
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mainstream lives than me, that this glass
ceiling is dare to be put out by us from
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underneath so that mostly men can look
down through it with a nice, clear view.
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Regardless of knowing all of this in my
brain, I was still pretty shocked when I
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started studying IT in 2021 to find out
whether I was on a course with only one
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other woman and with twenty five guys,
especially them with an almost too long in
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particular that there will be a higher
percentage of woman. It would be really
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nice if Germany could speed it up just a
little bit and the equality area, because
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this is a field where a lot more women
should be and it's so interesting, so
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broad. When you look at on paper, there is
no reason why it should be a male
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dominated industry. It's not a physically
demanding job, and the fact that you can
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work from home makes it perfect. For
example, single parents, women with
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younger children who want to be home when
they expect from school, like I do. I just
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think there's so much more potential than
just being a digital sausage fest. I
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really think this country has got enough
sausages. I do also realize that I can
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only see this from my particular
perspective, for my particular experiences
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and my individual blundering romp through
this world and probably the IT profession
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in New Zealand is just as behind. No
shade, everyone. But I'm just wondering
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how come it's not better than it is? I
keep getting told how brave I am for doing
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this, which feels infuriating. It doesn't
feel like it should be brave. It feels
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like it should be really normal to do what
I'm doing, but instead a sincere take a
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big heaving pair of virtual balls to drive
dove into an industry that women have been
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successful in since the beginning. I'm
pretty much starting from scratch and it's
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overwhelming and it's so much. I've worked
a office job for about 40 hours a week,
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learning from home on Zoom the entire
time. Something quite different. So I will
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see how this progresses, and I just relish
the determination that I feel at the
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moment, and I hope that I can sustain it
for the next 19 months. And I mean, I'm
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late to the party no matter what happens.
But hey, season three of last. Some of the
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best characters hadn't even shown up yet.
So for now, I'm trying to study every day,
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at least a little bit after class and in
the weekends, and I'm sure so short,
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overwhelmed with so much information right
now that I hope that as long as I
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consistently keep putting more time than
I'm required to, I'll be OK. Regardless of
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how much English there is in IT, it is
still a massive challenge to study in a
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foreign language. I try and Ubertreibe
das. Just a little bit all the time and
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read another few pages, look at a few
YouTube videos or listen to a podcast. It
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is complicated somewhat by the fact that
the proofing system has just been
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dramatically overhauled by the car instead
of a MultiChoice exam for this
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zwischenprüfung. Apparently, it's now more
similar to how the end exams used to be,
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and nobody has even set a final exam in
this new structure yet. It's pretty
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terrifying. Our tests in between seem to
be creepily easy considering what is
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coming. But all I do, I just figure in my
situation, my job didn't fire what I need
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to know. And if I can do that, I'm halfway
there. I feel like I'm collecting
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knowledge on a big scale and I know there
is more to come. So I'm trying to get the
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basics down as firmly as I can, which
includes figuring out a way to be clear
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and the stingless universe that I mean
villain or faulen. Am I talking Denglish
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or am I talking, gentlemen? So Phil, I
just confuses me constantly because I
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don't don't even know what I'm supposed to
be saying. But a classmate of mine made a
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good call to sign it and then on an
abbreviated form every time to avoid
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confusion. So I'm just going to go with
that. So I've dropped a few of my habits
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to make space to study. I don't play drums
as much as I was before. I stopped writing
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songs for now, but I've started jogging in
the mornings and I still play bass guitar
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in a punk band in Nepal on the weekends.
But corona is just the best time to be
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studying because I'm missing out on
nothing. I can stay home most of the
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weekend and just alternate cleaning and
cooking and learning all the time. My
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mental health is also a huge priority for
me, especially with COVID staying
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positive. And when these little nagging
thoughts come up, just be like, I don't
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have time for this now. Maybe another
time, but it's the little things that make
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the difference in the end, and my body's
just as important as my mind. I need to
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stay primed for exponential knowledge and
take and to not take the teenager's bad
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moods personally. I want to say a little
something about social media because it
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has been on my mind. I don't like being
confronted with any sexual content when
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I'm trying to learn. I don't want to see
it jiggling bottom when I'm trying to
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digest my abendbrot. But it's jarring just
because of its appropriateness, let alone
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the content itself. There was some really
dodgy stuff in a WhatsApp group. I wanted
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to say something, but it's really not easy
to do. I sort of thought about it and
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almost decided to just leave the group
rather than to mention it. I was really
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grateful when somebody said something
about it. Shout out Fan 2021, your jam.
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And since then, it's been noticeably a lot
better. But so here and there, some on the
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border stuff gets shared. I mean, my
social media contact with the people in my
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class is to further my knowledge, to and
unterstützt my learning process not to
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look at bums. I do not want to be
confronted with reproductive biology when
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I'm just checking the time. Maybe, maybe I
should start posting a recipe every time
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somebody posted something. Or maybe like I
should say something about every single
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time I should write. But it's so hard. I
don't want to be the one coming in and
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saying, blah blah blah. I don't care. I'm
not only a woman, I'm also old, so I'm
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really trying to not send off this grandma
vibes. I don't want to be the camp mother.
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I want to be right there in the thick of
the scrum. I've got a thick skin, and I
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realize that not every woman is confident
enough to travel the world with no money
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to make bands and found clubs and
magazines that survive a divorce without
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getting a single tattoo. Some major
achievement, by the way, so I see it as a
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moral responsibility to see this through
to get this qualification, even if it
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doesn't inspire a single other person,
possibly my 12 year old. But that kind of
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just depends on the way that the wind is
blowing, and the irony of doing all of
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this out of my kitchen has not escaped me.
Maybe I can change a few perspectives in
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the process. I am here and very loud. I'm
going to ask all the questions and I'm
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going, Stay to the end. I need to achieve
this because of the woman before me who
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sacrificed so much. It's ridiculous that I
wasn't born onto an even playing field in
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the 1970s, but I'm jumping every day as
hard as I possibly can. These trailblazers
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who busted their asses to get us the right
to be able to vote democratically will be
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shaking their heads. I think about Kate
Sheppard and try and leap into the light
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on every possible occasion. I want to show
my kid that you can do anything when you
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really want to. But first, I need to get
this network stuff down. I woke up half
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dreaming about protocol abbreviations last
weekend, so I think I'm on the right
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track. If you want to follow me on
Twitter, my name is @diebestimmerin. I
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can't believe that it wasn't taken but
wasn't taken a few years ago when I
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grabbed it, when Twitter wasn't as popular
as it is now. So I post a lot of sarcastic
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remarks about learning IT sang at home
during corona. And as you can see, some of
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the mind bending, dangling atrocities that
I happened to come across. That's it for
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me today. I want to give a shout out to my
wonderful classmates who are watching.
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Thank you for your support. You're great.
And thanks everybody for sticking around.
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Let me know if you have any questions.
Cheers.
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Herald: But then you do for the great
talk. Is this comes less? Let's discuss
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some further points and join us for the
Q&A. It will be held in the awesome Ada
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room at its. Zipes says this event stopped
Hexham dot org slash awesome underscore
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Ada dot HMO.
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