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It's this moment, isn't it?

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I'm looking at you,

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and you do look like a great bunch.

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I've sitting there looking at you
in the last five minutes,

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and I'm just feel great in this room.

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You look friendly enough,

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so thank you!

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(laughter)

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You are looking a bit unsure.

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You know what, it's going to be fine.

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And I can see
a really brainy TED faces there.

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There's gonna be a few brilliant
new ideas.

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But it is this moment,

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this moment,

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while our worlds are colliding right now.

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You are looking at me,
and I am looking at you,

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and it hits my brain
with feeling of a ramdon.

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Accellarating molecule you might say.

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Different people deal with this moment
differently.

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Some of us go,

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"Hey, there are people cope with...

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they cope with this moment
with confident.

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It's totally fine.

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And there are other people
who are not so confident,

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and it stop them speaking at this moment.

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Make them feel anxious,

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make them feel like
they may not up to it.

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And that is not the case.

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Acctually, all of us have
our confidence within.

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What I want to talk about today

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is the idea that we can find
more confidence within us,

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if we know where to look.

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Where to look?

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We look within,

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under the bone.

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That's where we are going next.

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And the reason that I want to
talk about this is because

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many years ago,

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I stood in front of a audience,

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this big, bigger,

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that's central hall.

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It's house aparnament,

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which is big, messive space.

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I was super excited about that moment,

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because that I knew that

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it was my big moment

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that I ... voice coach

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I was going to be able to speak

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When I stepped up
in front of that audience,

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what happened was
everything that could possibly go wrong.

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And it did.

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I went too fast.

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I lost my words.

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It felt like such a horrible experience.

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And just as I thought
it couldn't get any worse,

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the microphone broke.

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And I looked out across the room,

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and I said in my big voice coach voice --

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it wasn't this much wind I have to say --

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(laughter)

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And I said in my big voice coach voice,

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"Can you hear me in the back?"

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And someone said,

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"Speak up!"

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And I just felt this feeling of
absolute shame

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that feeling of audience looking at you

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and feeling of judgement,

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feeling ripples us

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And I left that venue,

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and I thought to myself that never again

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That didn't work because I'm here.

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I also thought that I'm going to do it
differently next time,

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I'm going to make sure that next time

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that I stand up to speak
that it feels good.

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Where will I have to go was within.