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Dialogue: 0,0:00:03.96,0:00:08.54,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,<Breaking Bad Habits>
Dialogue: 0,0:00:08.54,0:00:12.25,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,(Questioner) I'm very glad\Nto see you again.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:12.25,0:00:18.83,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Thank you for all the help you've provided\Nfor me and a lot of people.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:18.83,0:00:22.93,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Definitely, your wisdom is very much\Nappreaciated and accepted.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:22.93,0:00:32.12,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I'm doing pretty good lately \Nand, at times, I feel a lot of equanimity.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:32.12,0:00:38.63,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,While there is a lot of peace of mind, \Nthere's always a voice behind like that.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:38.63,0:00:45.44,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I'm afraid to go back to my old habits.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:45.44,0:01:00.11,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Even though I've improved a lot,\NI do revert back to my old habits at times,
Dialogue: 0,0:01:00.11,0:01:05.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and feel frustrated in those moments.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:05.90,0:01:12.63,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Practice has been incredible\Nwith easing my mental afflictions,
Dialogue: 0,0:01:12.63,0:01:28.54,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,especially doing a lot of reflections\Nallowed me to experience equanimity.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:28.54,0:01:34.34,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And I have been able to enjoy\Nthe peace for a few weeks.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:34.34,0:01:40.87,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Still, there's always a nervousness\Nthat I'm going to fall back
Dialogue: 0,0:01:40.87,0:01:51.18,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,to the old habitual patterns, \Nand I worry about how easy it is
Dialogue: 0,0:01:51.18,0:01:53.92,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,to go back to the old patterns.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:53.92,0:02:03.48,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Why is it so difficult to break\Nthese habits?
Dialogue: 0,0:02:03.48,0:02:15.93,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,(Sunim) Has your relationship \Nwith your daughter improved and
Dialogue: 0,0:02:15.93,0:02:21.98,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,were you able to let go of the issues \Nthat were hanging over that relationship?
Dialogue: 0,0:02:21.98,0:02:24.15,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,(Questioner) Yes.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:24.15,0:02:31.16,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,(Sunim) That's great. \NLet me ask you a question.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:31.16,0:02:49.46,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Which one is more likely to succeed,\Ntrying something for the first time,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:49.46,0:03:02.38,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,or trying what you have succeeded\Npreviously and going at it again?
Dialogue: 0,0:03:02.38,0:03:11.51,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,(Questioner) Sometimes it's more difficult \Nto go back and repeat all these patterns.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:11.51,0:03:19.01,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Sometimes it's a little easier, but let's \Ncall it easier to go through new things.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:19.01,0:03:31.52,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Still there's some difficulty in that too,\Nbut it gives a better outcome.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:31.52,0:03:40.26,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,(Sunim) You've experienced\Nsome tough times in your life.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:40.26,0:03:50.51,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Nevertheless, you have applied\Nyourself to practice
Dialogue: 0,0:03:50.51,0:03:54.68,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and came to a place \Nwhere you have a peace of mind.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:54.68,0:04:11.87,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You mentioned that you're still\Nworried about reverting back.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:11.87,0:04:17.42,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Even if you do go back to your old habits,\Nwould it be as severe as it once had been
Dialogue: 0,0:04:17.42,0:04:20.19,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,or would be a little better than\Nwhat it used to be?
Dialogue: 0,0:04:20.19,0:04:24.74,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,(Questioner) I'll be definitely\Nbetter knowing what I now know.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:24.74,0:04:31.29,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Whatever I did to overcome my mental attachments,\NI'm much better off in many ways.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:31.29,0:04:39.65,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I am so glad that \NI went through the work,
Dialogue: 0,0:04:39.65,0:04:46.99,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,because I definitely think\NI am at a bettter place.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:46.99,0:05:33.65,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,(Sunim) Let's say, \Nyou started off at minus 10,
Dialogue: 0,0:05:33.65,0:05:39.18,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,then you worked yourself \Nall the way up to plus 10.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:39.18,0:05:45.27,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Even if you relapse, as you are concerned, \Nyou won't relapse all the way to minus 10,
Dialogue: 0,0:05:45.27,0:05:52.35,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,you'll relapse maybe to minus 5,\Nbut your starting point is now at minus 5.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:52.35,0:05:57.49,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Getting to plus 10 or 15 from that point\Nwill be much easier than the first time.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:57.49,0:06:01.12,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So, what I'm trying to say is \Nthat even if you relapse,
Dialogue: 0,0:06:01.12,0:06:05.36,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,the intensity is not as bad as before, \Nand you have already built up
Dialogue: 0,0:06:05.36,0:06:08.02,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,the capacity to bring\Nyourself back up.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:08.02,0:06:11.41,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So there's no reason \Nfor you to be concerned.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:11.41,0:06:32.23,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You need to practice being awake \Nas much as possible in order to not relapse
Dialogue: 0,0:06:32.23,0:06:37.17,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,but you do not need to worry about\Nfalling all the way back to the beginning.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:37.17,0:06:43.32,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It will be much easier to get back up\Nas you now have the capacity.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:43.32,0:06:50.23,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So, I'm saying that \Nyou should not be scared.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:50.23,0:06:54.43,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,First, you won't relapse.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:54.43,0:06:59.01,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Second, even if you do, it's going to be\Neasier for you to come back.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:59.01,0:07:05.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You'll do well, \Nthere's no need for worries.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:05.20,0:07:15.71,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Ultimately what I'm trying to say is that \Nthere's nothing there for you to be afraid of.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:15.71,0:07:23.09,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,(Questioner) Thank you.\NYou're right and I really get your point.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:23.09,0:07:31.88,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I cannot say it's a greed,\Nbut definitely understand now
Dialogue: 0,0:07:31.88,0:07:41.29,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that even when I relapse to\Nsome kind of a mental affliction
Dialogue: 0,0:07:41.29,0:07:47.58,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,or attachment to these habitual patterns,\Ntheir intensity is much less by far.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:47.58,0:07:54.55,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I definitely agree with you that from \Na minus stand possibly I work up to 10.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:54.55,0:07:59.46,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I agree, you are right.\NI have already experienced that.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:59.46,0:08:03.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It's good that you mentioned\Nbecause I do fall but I don't feel
Dialogue: 0,0:08:03.60,0:08:07.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that I fall that deep anymore.
Dialogue: 0,0:08:07.30,0:08:09.62,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It's good to know,\Nthank you very much.
Dialogue: 0,0:08:09.62,0:08:30.28,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,(Sunim) The fear comes because you are \Nattached to the current state of positivity.
Dialogue: 0,0:08:30.28,0:08:35.73,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You should just observe that you are \Nin a good state and you are maintaining
Dialogue: 0,0:08:35.73,0:08:40.11,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,equanimity and peace of mind \Ninstead of being attached to that state.
Dialogue: 0,0:08:40.11,0:08:47.69,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Our mind is always dynamic,\Nit's constantly moving.
Dialogue: 0,0:08:47.69,0:08:55.37,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Just because you are in a good state now, \Nyou can't try to grab onto it.
Dialogue: 0,0:08:55.37,0:09:06.08,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,All you can do is just observe it \Nas it fluctuates and moves in dynamic ways
Dialogue: 0,0:09:06.08,0:09:20.55,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,The fear comes from your attachment \Nand desire to hold on to that good state.
Dialogue: 0,0:09:20.55,0:09:31.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,First, what you need to do is not attach yourself to\Nor obsess over the current state.
Dialogue: 0,0:09:31.70,0:09:40.85,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Second, it is for you to realize \Nthat even if you go back,
Dialogue: 0,0:09:40.85,0:09:43.85,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,it's not something \Nfor you to be afraid of.