The fear of drowning
Everyone is afraid of drowning
To sink into the abyss of the unknown
or be overwhelmed by the force of the current that leads to one's responsibilities.
Adolescents often abandon themselves to the waters of their tears,
letting out their confusion
and their numerous insecurities.
Since everyone is afraid to face what they have inside,
the world started worrying more about the outside.
How important do you think physical appearance is?
Well, let's say that especially for girls, I think, it's very important.
Someone forces you to be like that, when actually I think
there should be other models of women
because it is not being thin that makes a woman strong,
as it is not being huge that makes her strong but what you have inside.
Let me drink alcohol as if it were water or else I start to get paranoid about my body.
But does a flat stomach not make you feel good? Good, like you look in the mirror and you don't want to rip your flesh off.
I see myself as fat, short and out of proportion.
and I can't do anything anymore because I think I have to throw up and that I can’t eat.
and it often reminds me that I'm flat-chested.
Right now I don't like myself at all, ok?
There are those who are afraid to push with their fingers on their skin
to see when their fingertips will start distinguishing the shape of their bones
and those who do not have the courage to forget the imperfections of their face.
Refusing to recognize themselves in what they see reflected in the mirror.
and so these people start to pull their belly in,
to hold their breasts,
to arch their back.
and once back to their natural posture,
they angrily grab the skin which is not always actually in excess.
We hope to win again this year
with our synchronized swimming team led by our Alice.
And maybe these bodies are thought to actually exist.
When... actually, you do not know
that to get to the body that we have been indoctrinated with for years,
you become afraid of diving,
for fear of losing control
and you do not realize that
this is how you hold your breath until you get hurt.
Alice...
what's going on?
I went out this morning and I haven't gone home yet.
That's what’s going on.
My life is a mess too.
Is it?
Mine is all inside this pool,
I don't have time for anything.
Your mum is not being a bitch.
She just wants us to be perfect because this sport is like that.
But I'm not perfect.
When I'm afraid I won’t make it
or that I'm not enough,
I come here.
Alone.
And I let myself sink to the bottom
like this.
In the end, however,
we know that everything is a little less scary if you’re holding someone's hand.
After all, everyone sinks, in their own way,
so we might as well do it together,
because
once you get to the bottom
you can only come back up.