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The fear of drowning

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Everyone is afraid of drowning

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To sink into the abyss of the unknown

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or be overwhelmed by the force of the current that leads to one's responsibilities.

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Adolescents often abandon themselves to the waters of their tears,

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letting out their confusion

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and their numerous insecurities.

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Since everyone is afraid to face what they have inside,

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the world started worrying more about the outside.

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How important do you think physical appearance is?

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Well, let's say that especially for girls, I think, it's very important.

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Someone forces you to be like that, when actually I think

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there should be other models of women

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because it is not being thin that makes a woman strong,

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as it is not being huge that makes her strong but what you have inside.

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Let me drink alcohol as if it were water or else I start to get paranoid about my body.

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But does a flat stomach not make you feel good? 
Good, like you look in the mirror and you don't want to rip your flesh off.

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I see myself as fat, short and out of proportion.

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and I can't do anything anymore because I think I have to throw up and that I can’t eat.

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and it often reminds me that I'm flat-chested.

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Right now I don't like myself at all, ok?

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There are those who are afraid to push with their fingers on their skin

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to see when their fingertips will start distinguishing the shape of their bones

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and those who do not have the courage to forget the imperfections of their face.

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Refusing to recognize themselves in what they see reflected in the mirror.

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and so these people start to pull their belly in,

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to hold their breasts,

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to arch their back.

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and once back to their natural posture,

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they angrily grab the skin which is not always actually in excess.

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We hope to win again this year

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with our synchronized swimming team led by our Alice.

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And maybe these bodies are thought to actually exist.

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When... actually, you do not know

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that to get to the body that we have been indoctrinated with for years,

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you become afraid of diving,

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for fear of losing control

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and you do not realize that

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this is how you hold your breath until you get hurt.

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Alice...

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what's going on?

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I went out this morning and I haven't gone home yet.

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That's what’s going on.

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My life is a mess too.

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Is it?

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Mine is all inside this pool,

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I don't have time for anything.

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Your mum is not being a bitch.

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She just wants us to be perfect because this sport is like that.

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But I'm not perfect.

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When I'm afraid I won’t make it

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or that I'm not enough,

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I come here.

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Alone.

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And I let myself sink to the bottom

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like this.

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In the end, however,

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we know that everything is a little less scary if you’re holding someone's hand.

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After all, everyone sinks, in their own way,

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so we might as well do it together,

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because

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once you get to the bottom

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you can only come back up.