WEBVTT 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 Translation & Subtitles: thoseguiltyeyes | scandal-heaven.com ⠀ Hello! RINA here. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 Today's video is one where I'll be chatting at home for the first time in forever. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 Hasn't it been a really long time? 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 Lately I've been filming vlogs of stuff I do when I go out, 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 so it makes me feel that it's been a really long time since I've done this. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 It feels kind of weird. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 I asked people to send in stuff like what's been bothering them lately, 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 what they've been thinking about, 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 or any large or small problems. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 I'll be selecting a few of those and talking about them. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 A lot of them overlapped. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 Like, there were a lot who were thinking the same thing, 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 or worrying about the same thing. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 There were also a lot of things that I could relate to. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 It made me think that everyone really does think the same kind of things. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 I'll talk and answer them leisurely as we think together. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 (Before that...) 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 A lot of my viewers are around the same age as me. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 I'll be turning 32 in August, 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 and mostly everyone is around that age. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 I felt that the problems unique to my generation 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 and that the way you think changes with each generation. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 I was like, "Yeah, I guess [people my age] do think of things like that now." 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 At any rate, I'll start reading from the first screenshot I took. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 "This is my third year in the workforce. Every day is like a routine, and it seems like every year there's less and less fun things to do." 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 Right? 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 Like... 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 You have to go to work every day and come home. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 I've always been in the music scene, 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 and I think it's a job that involves meeting new people 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 and doing things in new places relatively often. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 If you look at it roughly, the process is very similar. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 We make new music, promote it, tour, 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 tour while making new music, 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 and record that music after touring. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 It's a very luxurious way of life, 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 but I totally understand [situations like the question asker]. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 So, if you ask people around you how to keep things fresh, 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 I think there will come a time when it will be a little difficult. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 So I think the only way to do that is to learn something new, 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 or find something you like to do, 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 or study something new as an adult. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 In that sense, sometimes you have no choice but to become someone new. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 For me, how I should edit a video is different from what I'd do with music. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 I'm not saying that right now it feels really fresh, 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 but when I went to French school, 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 it really felt like I was off to a new start. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 Also, as I mentioned in my video about this, 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 I've been doing Pilates to work out and refresh myself. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 Recently, every day--it's really a recent thing-- 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 I've been trying to spend an hour a day 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 studying something that has nothing to do with my lifestyle or work. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 Maybe do something like that. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 I think you have to get things going on your own. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 It's impossible to prepare a fresh environment every day. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 Yeah, it takes time, 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 but in the end, I think the only thing you can do 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 is to make a new move on your own. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 On to the next question. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 "II haven't had any feelings of love for a man for more than 5 years now." 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 I see. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 It's like, "What does it mean to love, anyway?" 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 Love, huh. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 The power of love is incredible. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 It can make you do anything. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 The moment you fall in love with someone, 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 or the period of time, 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 is really a great thing. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 But sometimes I think that if I could make myself happy, 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 I would really be invincible. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 Someone might think I'm really lonely, 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 but I try to be myself and have fun on my own. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 At any rate, I think I try to be the kind of person 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 who can have fun by myself. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 I'm sure I'm not doing it very well, though. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 If you're having a good time and you're feeling fulfilled, 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 maybe there's someone you'd like to be with 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 or someone you'd be attracted to. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 If you're mentally open like that, 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 you might have a better chance of meeting someone. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 But as you get older, 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 it feels like you're less likely to have people that you like. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 Or rather, the number lessens. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 There's more and more to consider. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 So it'd be nice if you could make yourself as happy as possible 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 and have good encounters and feelings of love 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 appear somewhere along the way, wouldn't it? 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 I totally get you. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 I totally understand this situation. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 "I often wonder how I and my family will live in the future. I'm filled with anxiety." 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 Family, huh... 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 Yeah... 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 I'm the eldest out of five kids. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 My mom was a single mother. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 I also played the father role in the family. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 That's why I do a lot of thinking. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 Like wondering how we can all be happy in the end. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 Since I love my job, there are times when I'm like, 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 "I need to work hard and earn money." 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 That's not the only thing, though. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 There are definitely times when I feel anxious 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 because my family is one I have to support properly. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 Since this person might not have the same circumstances as me, 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 they may be feeling a different kind of anxiety. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 But I definitely feel that way sometimes, too. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 I hope we can keep the band going for as long and healthy as possible, 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 but I wonder how I would be able live my life 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 if something difficult happened to me, such as my health declining. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 It's no good if I can't look after my family. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 What I should do at that time... 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 This is not a negative thing in terms of the band at all, 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 but something I think about calmly as a human being. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 Sometimes it's hard to find the answer, 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 and I get anxious and scared. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 But in the end, I feel like I have no choice but to do what's in front of me. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 But I totally get that about family. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 It's because you care about them so much that you're worried. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 I understand. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 I also play the father figure in financial situations. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 I've been paying for my sisters' tuitions all this time. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 I pay all the rent and living expenses at my parents' house. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 Sometimes I feel like it's hard to talk about money with others. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 I think that instability there would have a huge impact on one's mental health. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 For me too... 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 But there's no choice but to work hard, ultimately. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 There's no choice but for me to do it. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 I think that's why I've been able to stay motivated and try all kinds of things. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 Sometimes I wonder if I'd be able to work this hard if it was just for me. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 Sometimes it can be an anxiety factor. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 I think that knowing there's something you need to look after can be motivating. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 "Human relations and communication in the workplace are difficult, aren't they?" 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 They are difficult. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 In my case... 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 The band's been together since we were young. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 We have a very special bond. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 So it's a very difficult relationship to explain in words. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 But each one of us is an individual person, 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 and although we're friends who have been playing music together as a band for a long time, 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 we are also different from each other. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 I think it's good to be involved 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 while maintaining a good sense of distance and emotional space. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 That's why we've been able to support each other 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 and be a band for such a long time. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 In that way... 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 I think I've been adjusting and thinking about it a lot more since we've grown up. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 But the relationship between us is a bit too special, 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 so this may not be helpful to others. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 Also, we have close relationships to those at our management office and record label. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 I think that's the main thing about interpersonal relationships at work in my case. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 But that might also be a special case. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 I think it depends on the office, 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 but in our case, we are very close, like a family. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 At this time, I really want to separate and cherish my private life, in a good way, 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 so, honestly, I think there are more things we don't mention or talk about than before. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 Not that there's anything wrong with it. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 That's why I think our relationships keep changing. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 You yourself change as well. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 It would be good if we could all communicate what we need to convey, 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 maintain a good distance, 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 and build relationships at work while protecting ourselves. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 I've never really experienced what it's like to have a boss and subordinates like in a company, 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 so I might not understand all that properly. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 I don't think I know anything about it. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 I can imagine it, but I'm sure there are things you won't understand unless you're there experiencing it, 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 so I don't think I can say anything adequate. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 I'm sure it must be hard. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 It's really commendable. It really is. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 I think that's impressive. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 We speak really casually to the head of our office. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 That's what it's like [where we are]. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 That's how close we are. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 But that doesn't happen very often, I'm sure. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 That's why there are so many things that I can't even imagine. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 But there's a part of me that believes that if you really convey something properly, 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 it will get through to everyone. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 It'd be nice to be involved without it being too difficult. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 Here's a cute question. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 "I'm going to Tokyo Disneyland for the first time in forever. I'm so unsure what to eat at the park." 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 That's so cute. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 So tranquil. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 Disney's great. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 I also went recently with a friend. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 It might have been a while ago, actually. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 It was fun. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 I always have to have a churro. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 It's delicious. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 Please have fun! 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 They might have already gone. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 "I get emotional easily and regret it later." 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 I get you. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 I totally get you. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 Because you value something and have passion for it... 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 Your words become strong, fast, and sharp. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 Because, you know... 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 I don't think it's possible to be emotional without passion. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 You know you'll regret it, 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 and you'll probably hate yourself for being that way. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 I think it's great to be able to change things in creative ways, 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 but I think it's really great to have something you're passionate about, 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 something you can put your heart and soul into, 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 to the point where it's something really emotional for you. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 I'm totally the same way. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 I'm totally like that when I talk about the band. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 Yeah. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 There are times when I wonder why I said something the way I did, 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 or how I could have communicated it better. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 That's why sometimes I try talking about that topic one more time. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 Yeah. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 There are many times when you can't apologize properly. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 Those times are when you reaffirm that you are passionate about it. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 It's been a long time. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 But yeah, in that way... 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 I think it's great when there are things that you can really get emotionally attached to. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 So I think it would be good if we could talk about the things we want to change, 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 even if it's just a little bit at a time, 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 or about the things we think we did wrong that we can make up for later, 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 even if it's after the fact. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 I'm sure there will be times when they'll understand, 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 and you'll feel better, too. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 "I'm tired of comparing my life with my friends all the time." 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 Looking at social media, right? 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 You subsciously compare things. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 Isn't that the same for everyone? 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 If there are accounts that make you feel bad when you see their posts, 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 I think it's fine if you mute them. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 In regards to social media, that is. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 I wonder if there are times when they do comparisons during conversations. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 Because everything in your life is something you've experienced yourself, 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 I think there are times when you feel like there are no improvements in your life. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 I feel like there are so many cases where someone's life is insanely special from someone else's perspective. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 You're like, "That's not what my life's like." 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 I'm sure there's a lot of things you don't realize, 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 like the parts that other people envy and think are amazing. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 In fact, I think it might happen in your own life too. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 "I'm a 24-year-old woman. I'm going out with someone 12 years older than me, and it's hard to keep up because my money sense differs." 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 Maybe you should talk to them about this. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 You're dating, after all. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 It's better that the two of you talk about it. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 For the long run, as well. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 I think it'd be a good idea to honestly discuss what you had written to me. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 "I'm going overseas for a year soon for work, and I'm wondering if I should go out with someone I like right now." 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 You mean it'd end up being a long-distance relationship, right? 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 I think it's fine to go out with them. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 Surprisingly, a year goes by so quickly. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 They could go overseas if they want. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 You can call each other and stay in touch. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 Maybe I'm the type of person who doesn't think of distance as a problem. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 I think it's a good thing when two people like and are attracted to each other. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 It might not be easy to see each other, 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 but what about when you are living in the same country? 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 However, I think there's a possibility it'll become a special time that you can say afterwards was a good time. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 I think it's really cool when women work hard for a year overseas like this. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 Ah, I got one of these questions. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 "Now that I'm at the age where I have friends who are getting married or living together, I feel anxious even though I've never been in a relationship." 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 Yeah. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 Almost all of the questions I got are like this. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 When I ask for questions, most of them are like this. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 There's really no way to solve this. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 Everyone is different, so there's no need to worry. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 But it is true that when you think about your body and such, 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 it's natural that you feel like you're counting backwards, especially for women. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 I'm sure there will be a lot of things to think about, like whether you'd have a baby or not. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 I get it. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 I'm wondering what's going to happen to me too, really. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 With that in mind... 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 But there's always so much to do in front of me. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 Just because I take a break doesn't mean I'm getting married. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 I've been in my band for a long time. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 Yeah, I don't know anymore. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 But my married friends say that it's really all about timing. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 A lot of people say they never thought it would be like this, 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 and I also think that's how it must be. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 So, to rewind a bit, 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 I'm the type of person who thinks it's better to have a foundation where I'm fine even if I'm all alone. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 I'd like to be able to live a normal and happy life on my own, 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 and then go out with someone or not, get married or not. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 It's like we'll have new kind of fun when we're together. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 That's what I feel right now. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 That's what I'm feeling now. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 But I get you. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 Isn't it the same for everyone? 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 So don't think you're the only one. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 Make yourself happy by thinking that you're not in any particular hurry. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 It doesn't have to be fun all the time. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 I think it would be nice to have that, to be able to live somehow in a good way. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 Marriage is not the ultimate goal. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 And then there's a lot of new and difficult things to do. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 "This is about interior design preferences. I just moved, so I'm unsure of what to do. RINA, what theme do you have at your place?" 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 Oh, they moved? It's fun to design new places. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 I kind of like antique vibes. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 I go to flea markets. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 I got that mirror in back of me at a flea market. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 I've bought antiques in Europe, 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 like that picture frame next to [the mirror]. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 I've bought stuff from vintage shops in Osaka. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 I go to stores like that when we go overseas on tour. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 I've bought lamps and such. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 Hold on a sec. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 This one. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 I bought this recently. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 I bought this in Paris recently. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 I collect stuff from various places while traveling. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 Something like that. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 Also, my sofa is beige. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 My tables are also mostly beige. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 Beige might be my go-to color. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 Beige. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 Beige in color. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 Ah, this one... 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 "If I can't congratulate my bias on their marriage, would I be semi-disqualified [as a fan] because I love them too much?" 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 Ah, but...yeah... 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 It is shocking, 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 when fans are suddenly informed like that. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 We're all human, of course. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 Even if you understand that they're in love and has a private life, it's still shocking, I'm sure. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 You've been supporting them with your time and money for a long time. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 I don't think that disqualifies you as a fan. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 I'm sure there are people who feel that way. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 But things like that are not something you can control. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 The artists as well. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 It's someone's life, and they are free to choose to do things as they see fit. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 But I totally understand. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 I get it. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 I wonder if fans would congratulate me if I got married. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 All of the questions from here on are about marriage. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 "Can I be happy without getting married?" 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 "I don't think I need to get married, but everyone I know is in a rush to get married." 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 "After meeting more than 30 people on a dating app, no matter how much I think about it, I prefer my ex-girlfriend. I'm already heartbroken." 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 But you worked really hard. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 You made a change and took action. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 That's impressive, 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 meeting over 30 people. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 It takes a lot of power to meet people, doesn't it? 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 You're meeting someone for the first time, and you've done it 30 times. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 That's impressive. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 I see. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 Your ex-girlfriend. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 This is difficult. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 If you have high expectations, you might end up hurting yourself. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 But why not try talking [to your ex] just once? 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 If you're able to. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 You could just meet up. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 If you really think you can't handle it anymore, why not confess your feelings? 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 I really feel like that could help sort some things out. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 I feel like just properly conveying your feelings would make a difference. 99:59:59.999 --> 99:59:59.999 I hope you meet someone good.