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Dialogue: 0,0:00:00.00,0:00:01.85,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- [Shannon] So, four years ago today,
Dialogue: 0,0:00:01.85,0:00:04.51,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I uploaded the first "So You Wanna Be A Film Nerd" video,
Dialogue: 0,0:00:04.51,0:00:06.75,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,which was the first StrucciMovies video essay,
Dialogue: 0,0:00:06.75,0:00:08.71,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and the first video on this channel.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:08.71,0:00:11.51,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I was working a video production job at the time,
Dialogue: 0,0:00:11.51,0:00:13.38,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and vaguely knew that I was gonna be laid off,
Dialogue: 0,0:00:13.38,0:00:15.86,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and the first day I found out my layoff date,
Dialogue: 0,0:00:15.86,0:00:16.95,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I wrote the essay,
Dialogue: 0,0:00:16.95,0:00:17.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and the day after that
Dialogue: 0,0:00:17.90,0:00:19.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I cut it and I put it up.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:19.40,0:00:20.42,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,For something like that--
Dialogue: 0,0:00:20.42,0:00:22.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I definitely made it in response to
Dialogue: 0,0:00:22.50,0:00:24.28,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"I'm being laid off from this job,
Dialogue: 0,0:00:24.28,0:00:25.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"what am I gonna do next?"
Dialogue: 0,0:00:25.80,0:00:27.53,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Four years is a long time.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:27.53,0:00:28.72,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I know I've been through a lot
Dialogue: 0,0:00:28.72,0:00:30.63,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and changed a lot in the past four years,
Dialogue: 0,0:00:30.63,0:00:32.88,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and, of course, the channel has changed plenty as well.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:32.88,0:00:34.39,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Fake Friends 2 is very different
Dialogue: 0,0:00:34.39,0:00:36.04,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,from anything I had made before
Dialogue: 0,0:00:36.04,0:00:37.63,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,in scope and in tone,
Dialogue: 0,0:00:37.63,0:00:39.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and while it's only about half a year old,
Dialogue: 0,0:00:39.40,0:00:42.02,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,putting it out doubled my subscriber count
Dialogue: 0,0:00:42.02,0:00:44.52,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and almost tripled my Patreon pledges,
Dialogue: 0,0:00:44.52,0:00:46.68,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,which I'm all still adjusting to.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:46.68,0:00:48.78,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,That one video took me from
Dialogue: 0,0:00:48.78,0:00:50.94,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"Oh no, do I have to eventually give this up,
Dialogue: 0,0:00:50.94,0:00:52.67,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"and get, like, a real job
Dialogue: 0,0:00:52.67,0:00:54.18,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"at Starbucks or something?
Dialogue: 0,0:00:54.18,0:00:55.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"Am I wasting my time?
Dialogue: 0,0:00:55.30,0:00:56.35,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"Am I deluding myself?
Dialogue: 0,0:00:56.35,0:00:58.48,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"Is this just a glorified hobby?
Dialogue: 0,0:00:59.34,0:01:01.52,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"Will I ever get past this level
Dialogue: 0,0:01:01.52,0:01:03.63,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"of working so hard--"
Dialogue: 0,0:01:04.37,0:01:06.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,A lot of the videos I made I was making--
Dialogue: 0,0:01:06.70,0:01:08.01,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,the longer videos averaged out
Dialogue: 0,0:01:08.01,0:01:10.31,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,to maybe two or three dollars an hour, if that,
Dialogue: 0,0:01:10.31,0:01:11.99,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,for the work that I put into 'em.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:11.99,0:01:13.59,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,To, all of a sudden,
Dialogue: 0,0:01:13.59,0:01:15.34,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"Oh, I guess this is a career
Dialogue: 0,0:01:15.34,0:01:16.62,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"and not a hobby"
Dialogue: 0,0:01:16.62,0:01:19.14,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,which as been a huge boost for me psychologically,
Dialogue: 0,0:01:19.14,0:01:21.37,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and has already massively changed my life
Dialogue: 0,0:01:21.37,0:01:22.24,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and my outlook,
Dialogue: 0,0:01:22.24,0:01:23.53,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and it gives me so much excitement
Dialogue: 0,0:01:23.53,0:01:24.54,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and hope for the future
Dialogue: 0,0:01:24.54,0:01:26.13,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,of what I'll be able to do with this channel
Dialogue: 0,0:01:26.13,0:01:27.54,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and with my work in general.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:27.54,0:01:30.02,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,A lot of viewers interpreted the Fake Friends series
Dialogue: 0,0:01:30.02,0:01:31.15,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,as me hating fans
Dialogue: 0,0:01:31.15,0:01:32.59,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,or the idea of having fans,
Dialogue: 0,0:01:32.59,0:01:35.47,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,or me being super resentful of my audience,
Dialogue: 0,0:01:35.47,0:01:37.72,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,but that's pretty far from the truth
Dialogue: 0,0:01:37.72,0:01:39.14,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,of how I feel about my audience
Dialogue: 0,0:01:39.14,0:01:40.93,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and how I feel about my platform.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:40.93,0:01:43.64,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I positioned Burnham and McLoughlin as antithetical,
Dialogue: 0,0:01:43.64,0:01:46.42,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,but they aren't really 100% antithetical.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:46.42,0:01:48.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Burnham, as presented in his specials and music,
Dialogue: 0,0:01:48.60,0:01:50.64,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,doesn't straight up hate his fans.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:50.64,0:01:51.78,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,He hates the parasocial,
Dialogue: 0,0:01:51.78,0:01:53.95,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,exploitative aspect of the relationship
Dialogue: 0,0:01:53.95,0:01:55.14,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and how much validation
Dialogue: 0,0:01:55.14,0:01:57.03,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,he still continues to draw from it.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:57.03,0:01:58.82,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Particularly his Kanye song:
Dialogue: 0,0:01:58.82,0:01:59.85,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"Part of me loves you,
Dialogue: 0,0:01:59.85,0:02:00.78,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"part of me hates you,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:00.78,0:02:01.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"part of me needs you,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:01.70,0:02:02.88,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"part of me fears you"
Dialogue: 0,0:02:02.88,0:02:03.100,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,through a layer of Auto-Tune
Dialogue: 0,0:02:03.100,0:02:05.48,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,for ironic detachment,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:05.48,0:02:07.62,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,seems to me to be a perfect distillation
Dialogue: 0,0:02:07.62,0:02:09.08,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,of that internal conflict.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:09.08,0:02:10.83,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Someone antithetical to Jacksepticeye
Dialogue: 0,0:02:10.83,0:02:12.06,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,would straight up hate fans
Dialogue: 0,0:02:12.06,0:02:13.79,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and feel no guilt when exploiting them,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:13.79,0:02:15.71,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,as many people on this platform do,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:15.71,0:02:16.71,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,whereas Burnham cycles through
Dialogue: 0,0:02:16.71,0:02:18.08,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,those conflicted feelings.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:18.08,0:02:19.58,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I used those clips to really hammer home
Dialogue: 0,0:02:19.58,0:02:21.18,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,the idea of that conflict
Dialogue: 0,0:02:21.18,0:02:22.28,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,because it was how I felt,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:22.28,0:02:23.88,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and how I continue to feel as well.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:23.88,0:02:25.87,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I don't derive validation from my view counts
Dialogue: 0,0:02:25.87,0:02:27.58,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,or how many comments I get or whatever,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:27.58,0:02:28.74,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and I'm lucky that I don't
Dialogue: 0,0:02:28.74,0:02:29.88,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,because I'd have a very low opinion
Dialogue: 0,0:02:29.88,0:02:31.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,of myself if I did,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:31.10,0:02:32.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,but I have always taken
Dialogue: 0,0:02:32.50,0:02:33.76,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,a lot of self-worth
Dialogue: 0,0:02:33.76,0:02:35.88,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,from how much I feel I can help other people,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:35.88,0:02:37.23,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,or what impact I'm having
Dialogue: 0,0:02:37.23,0:02:38.55,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,on the world around me.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:38.55,0:02:39.96,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,There's always an element, for me,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:39.96,0:02:41.48,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,of "what am I doing here,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:41.48,0:02:43.26,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"how can I justify what I'm doing here,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:43.26,0:02:44.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"what am I failing at,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:44.50,0:02:45.76,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"what could I be doing better?"
Dialogue: 0,0:02:45.76,0:02:47.08,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And the response to the Film Nerd
Dialogue: 0,0:02:47.08,0:02:48.19,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and Fake Friends videos
Dialogue: 0,0:02:48.19,0:02:50.04,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and some of my other videos got,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:50.04,0:02:51.86,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,people saying I made them totally rethink
Dialogue: 0,0:02:51.86,0:02:53.22,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,their relationship with media
Dialogue: 0,0:02:53.22,0:02:53.93,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and the internet
Dialogue: 0,0:02:53.93,0:02:56.06,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and helped them realise they were in a bad situation,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:56.06,0:02:56.91,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,people saying I helped them
Dialogue: 0,0:02:56.91,0:02:58.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,rethink bigoted language,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:58.50,0:03:00.63,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,people saying I made them more excited
Dialogue: 0,0:03:00.63,0:03:02.31,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and less elitist about art,
Dialogue: 0,0:03:02.31,0:03:03.36,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,specifically film.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:03.36,0:03:04.69,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I'm not trying to self-aggrandize,
Dialogue: 0,0:03:04.69,0:03:05.94,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,at all, trust me,
Dialogue: 0,0:03:05.94,0:03:07.19,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and I know I could do better
Dialogue: 0,0:03:07.19,0:03:08.62,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and have the potential to do better
Dialogue: 0,0:03:08.62,0:03:09.41,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and everything,
Dialogue: 0,0:03:09.41,0:03:10.65,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,but every single one of those comments
Dialogue: 0,0:03:10.65,0:03:12.64,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,has been tremendously meaningful to me,
Dialogue: 0,0:03:12.64,0:03:14.16,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,honestly some of them made me cry,
Dialogue: 0,0:03:14.16,0:03:15.35,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and I take my platform
Dialogue: 0,0:03:15.35,0:03:16.41,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and its impact
Dialogue: 0,0:03:16.41,0:03:17.65,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and the responsibilities I have
Dialogue: 0,0:03:17.65,0:03:19.03,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,very seriously,
Dialogue: 0,0:03:19.03,0:03:20.08,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and the idea of teaching someone
Dialogue: 0,0:03:20.08,0:03:20.99,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,something helpful
Dialogue: 0,0:03:20.99,0:03:22.53,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,or improving someone's life in some way,
Dialogue: 0,0:03:22.53,0:03:23.79,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,or making someone more aware
Dialogue: 0,0:03:23.79,0:03:24.76,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,or more empathetic,
Dialogue: 0,0:03:24.76,0:03:27.21,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,is the highest accomplishment I can imagine
Dialogue: 0,0:03:27.21,0:03:28.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,for my work to have.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:28.80,0:03:30.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And I just wanted to say, sincerely,
Dialogue: 0,0:03:30.50,0:03:31.28,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,thank you
Dialogue: 0,0:03:31.28,0:03:33.06,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,to anyone who has ever let their guard down
Dialogue: 0,0:03:33.06,0:03:34.61,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and engaged with my work in that way,
Dialogue: 0,0:03:34.61,0:03:36.73,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,or who has supported or encouraged my work
Dialogue: 0,0:03:36.73,0:03:37.86,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,or left a thoughtful comment,
Dialogue: 0,0:03:37.86,0:03:38.86,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,whether in agreement
Dialogue: 0,0:03:38.86,0:03:40.42,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,or with constructive criticism,
Dialogue: 0,0:03:40.42,0:03:41.25,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,everyone who said I mumbled
Dialogue: 0,0:03:41.25,0:03:41.96,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and talked too fast
Dialogue: 0,0:03:41.96,0:03:42.79,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,in my old videos was right
Dialogue: 0,0:03:42.79,0:03:44.53,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and I should've listened to them sooner (laughs),
Dialogue: 0,0:03:44.53,0:03:45.79,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,because I am grateful.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:45.79,0:03:46.100,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I'm not entitled to this job
Dialogue: 0,0:03:46.100,0:03:47.92,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,or to this platform
Dialogue: 0,0:03:47.92,0:03:49.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and I am so incredibly lucky to have it,
Dialogue: 0,0:03:49.90,0:03:50.87,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and I am often blown away
Dialogue: 0,0:03:50.87,0:03:52.18,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,by the support I've gotten.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:52.18,0:03:54.12,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And this includes other creators, too,
Dialogue: 0,0:03:54.12,0:03:55.62,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,people who have been so kind to me
Dialogue: 0,0:03:55.62,0:03:57.08,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and so accommodating to me,
Dialogue: 0,0:03:57.08,0:03:58.48,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and who have shouted out my work
Dialogue: 0,0:03:58.48,0:04:00.02,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,or have been a part of my work
Dialogue: 0,0:04:00.02,0:04:01.96,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,or have had me work with them,
Dialogue: 0,0:04:01.96,0:04:03.52,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and just the fact that I can sit here
Dialogue: 0,0:04:03.52,0:04:04.18,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and write a review
Dialogue: 0,0:04:04.18,0:04:06.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,for an obscure Korean fantasy webcomic
Dialogue: 0,0:04:06.10,0:04:07.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,about a skeleton,
Dialogue: 0,0:04:07.10,0:04:07.95,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and people will,
Dialogue: 0,0:04:07.95,0:04:10.24,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,instead of laughing me off of the platform,
Dialogue: 0,0:04:10.24,0:04:11.96,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,enjoy it and be on board
Dialogue: 0,0:04:11.96,0:04:13.02,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and respond to it,
Dialogue: 0,0:04:13.02,0:04:14.24,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,is absolutely wild,
Dialogue: 0,0:04:14.24,0:04:15.63,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and I don't ever want to lose touch
Dialogue: 0,0:04:15.63,0:04:16.67,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,with how lucky I am
Dialogue: 0,0:04:16.67,0:04:17.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and how weird and fortunate
Dialogue: 0,0:04:17.90,0:04:19.61,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,my life and situation are.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:19.61,0:04:20.98,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I'm still not your friend,
Dialogue: 0,0:04:20.98,0:04:22.34,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and I still don't want comments on my appearance
Dialogue: 0,0:04:22.34,0:04:23.33,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,or on who I'm dating
Dialogue: 0,0:04:23.33,0:04:24.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,or who I'm friends with,
Dialogue: 0,0:04:24.30,0:04:25.33,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that's weird.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:25.33,0:04:27.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Especially for someone who is just naturally shy
Dialogue: 0,0:04:27.50,0:04:28.91,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and wary of attention,
Dialogue: 0,0:04:28.91,0:04:30.41,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,having an audience is weird
Dialogue: 0,0:04:30.41,0:04:31.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and scary
Dialogue: 0,0:04:31.20,0:04:32.28,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and uncomfortable.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:32.28,0:04:33.79,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I get a lot more death and rape threats
Dialogue: 0,0:04:33.79,0:04:35.72,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,or, like, pseudo death and rape threats,
Dialogue: 0,0:04:35.72,0:04:38.45,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and just generally weird, disturbing messages
Dialogue: 0,0:04:38.45,0:04:39.92,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,than I let on that I get,
Dialogue: 0,0:04:39.92,0:04:41.71,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and I basically have since I started,
Dialogue: 0,0:04:41.71,0:04:43.65,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that's what being a woman on YouTube is,
Dialogue: 0,0:04:43.65,0:04:45.28,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,but I still really love what I do
Dialogue: 0,0:04:45.28,0:04:46.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and I'm happy to do it,
Dialogue: 0,0:04:46.90,0:04:49.36,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and it's made possible by my audience.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:49.36,0:04:51.19,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I've been putting my writing and drawings online
Dialogue: 0,0:04:51.19,0:04:52.61,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,since I was in elementary school,
Dialogue: 0,0:04:52.61,0:04:54.03,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and putting my videos online
Dialogue: 0,0:04:54.03,0:04:56.09,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,since I was probably in middle school,
Dialogue: 0,0:04:56.09,0:04:58.02,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and I was often shouting into a void
Dialogue: 0,0:04:58.02,0:04:59.73,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and getting mostly mean, dismissive feedback,
Dialogue: 0,0:04:59.73,0:05:01.43,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,if there was feedback at all,
Dialogue: 0,0:05:01.43,0:05:02.31,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,but I kept doing it
Dialogue: 0,0:05:02.31,0:05:04.43,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,because I love making art for the sake of making art,
Dialogue: 0,0:05:04.43,0:05:05.49,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and I would make it either way,
Dialogue: 0,0:05:05.49,0:05:07.45,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,regardless of if anyone paid attention.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:07.45,0:05:08.66,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,The fact that I got my start
Dialogue: 0,0:05:08.66,0:05:10.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,making AMVs that nobody watched
Dialogue: 0,0:05:10.10,0:05:11.16,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and did that for years
Dialogue: 0,0:05:11.16,0:05:12.86,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,before ever editing a video essay
Dialogue: 0,0:05:12.86,0:05:13.86,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,is proof of that.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:13.86,0:05:15.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But because of the support I've gotten,
Dialogue: 0,0:05:15.20,0:05:16.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I'm able to make art for a living,
Dialogue: 0,0:05:16.90,0:05:18.81,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and the potential for what I'm able to do
Dialogue: 0,0:05:18.81,0:05:20.02,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,is so much wider,
Dialogue: 0,0:05:20.02,0:05:21.19,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and that's-- I can't--
Dialogue: 0,0:05:21.19,0:05:23.48,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I don't even know how to internalize that,
Dialogue: 0,0:05:23.48,0:05:25.14,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,or my gratitude in relation to that,
Dialogue: 0,0:05:25.14,0:05:26.26,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,or the feedback that I get,
Dialogue: 0,0:05:26.26,0:05:27.97,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,or the kindness and patience
Dialogue: 0,0:05:27.97,0:05:29.11,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that people show me,
Dialogue: 0,0:05:29.11,0:05:31.14,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,it's just, it's really incredible,
Dialogue: 0,0:05:31.14,0:05:32.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,it's really crazy!
Dialogue: 0,0:05:32.30,0:05:33.78,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I've been asked what my end goal
Dialogue: 0,0:05:33.78,0:05:34.66,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,or my dream job
Dialogue: 0,0:05:34.66,0:05:36.36,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,or whatever is a few times,
Dialogue: 0,0:05:36.36,0:05:37.28,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,when I've been interviewed
Dialogue: 0,0:05:37.28,0:05:38.63,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,or when I've been on podcasts
Dialogue: 0,0:05:38.63,0:05:39.32,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,or whatever,
Dialogue: 0,0:05:39.32,0:05:40.21,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and while I would love
Dialogue: 0,0:05:40.21,0:05:42.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,to also do work in TV or feature film,
Dialogue: 0,0:05:42.30,0:05:43.92,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,the answer has pretty much always been:
Dialogue: 0,0:05:43.92,0:05:45.06,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,This. YouTube.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:45.06,0:05:45.97,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But maybe with more money
Dialogue: 0,0:05:45.97,0:05:47.28,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,so that I can do more. (laughs)
Dialogue: 0,0:05:47.28,0:05:48.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Which is becoming--
Dialogue: 0,0:05:48.40,0:05:50.09,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that's actually becoming a reality now,
Dialogue: 0,0:05:50.09,0:05:51.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,which is really wild,
Dialogue: 0,0:05:51.80,0:05:53.61,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and I'm so happy that I get to do what I want
Dialogue: 0,0:05:53.61,0:05:55.02,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and talk about what I care about,
Dialogue: 0,0:05:55.02,0:05:57.06,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and that people are open to responding to it,
Dialogue: 0,0:05:57.06,0:05:58.05,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,no matter how heavy
Dialogue: 0,0:05:58.05,0:05:59.15,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,or weird it gets.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:59.15,0:06:00.54,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I still have my boundaries,
Dialogue: 0,0:06:00.54,0:06:01.73,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I'm gonna do what I want
Dialogue: 0,0:06:01.73,0:06:03.04,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,whether or not people respond to it,
Dialogue: 0,0:06:03.04,0:06:03.95,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,people definitely prefer
Dialogue: 0,0:06:03.95,0:06:05.32,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,some videos more than others,
Dialogue: 0,0:06:05.32,0:06:06.07,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,but I dunno,
Dialogue: 0,0:06:06.07,0:06:07.72,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I debated on what I wanted--
Dialogue: 0,0:06:07.72,0:06:08.77,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I knew I wanted to do a video
Dialogue: 0,0:06:08.77,0:06:10.24,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,for my four year anniversary,
Dialogue: 0,0:06:10.24,0:06:11.34,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I thought about what I wanted to do
Dialogue: 0,0:06:11.34,0:06:12.52,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and I just wanted to--
Dialogue: 0,0:06:12.52,0:06:14.45,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,not necessarily directly at people
Dialogue: 0,0:06:14.45,0:06:15.95,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,who criticize Fake Friends
Dialogue: 0,0:06:15.95,0:06:16.92,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and say I hate my audience
Dialogue: 0,0:06:16.92,0:06:18.96,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,cos I think that's a bad faith interpretation,
Dialogue: 0,0:06:18.96,0:06:20.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,but I did just want to reassess
Dialogue: 0,0:06:20.20,0:06:21.43,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that I am grateful
Dialogue: 0,0:06:21.43,0:06:22.86,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and that I do appreciate it,
Dialogue: 0,0:06:22.86,0:06:23.88,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and that I don't think I'm entitled
Dialogue: 0,0:06:23.88,0:06:25.42,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,to a thousand dollars a video
Dialogue: 0,0:06:25.42,0:06:27.28,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,which is, uh, a lot of money,
Dialogue: 0,0:06:27.28,0:06:27.89,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,or that I'm entitled
Dialogue: 0,0:06:27.89,0:06:29.07,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,to all of the very supportive,
Dialogue: 0,0:06:29.07,0:06:31.16,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,very vulnerable comments that I get,
Dialogue: 0,0:06:31.16,0:06:32.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,of people who--
Dialogue: 0,0:06:32.70,0:06:34.15,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,it's hard to leave a comment
Dialogue: 0,0:06:34.15,0:06:35.49,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,saying that something changed your life
Dialogue: 0,0:06:35.49,0:06:37.29,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,cos you might just get some responses
Dialogue: 0,0:06:37.29,0:06:38.79,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,calling you a loser or whatever,
Dialogue: 0,0:06:38.79,0:06:40.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,it's hard to be vulnerable in that way,
Dialogue: 0,0:06:40.00,0:06:41.27,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,the internet discourages people
Dialogue: 0,0:06:41.27,0:06:42.77,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,from being vulnerable in that way,
Dialogue: 0,0:06:42.77,0:06:44.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and the fact that people reach out anyway
Dialogue: 0,0:06:44.60,0:06:45.73,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,because they want want to express
Dialogue: 0,0:06:45.73,0:06:47.45,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that the work that I made helped them
Dialogue: 0,0:06:47.45,0:06:48.31,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,or changed them,
Dialogue: 0,0:06:48.31,0:06:49.39,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,it's really wild,
Dialogue: 0,0:06:49.39,0:06:50.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,so thank you!
Dialogue: 0,0:06:50.40,0:06:51.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I'm gonna keep doing this
Dialogue: 0,0:06:51.30,0:06:52.45,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,as long as I can,
Dialogue: 0,0:06:52.45,0:06:54.15,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,maybe Patreon will collapse,
Dialogue: 0,0:06:54.15,0:06:55.52,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,maybe YouTube will get shut down
Dialogue: 0,0:06:55.52,0:06:57.71,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,cos there's so much horrible stuff on the platform
Dialogue: 0,0:06:57.71,0:06:59.82,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and advertisers seem to be pulling out,
Dialogue: 0,0:06:59.82,0:07:00.75,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,but for now,
Dialogue: 0,0:07:00.75,0:07:01.84,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I'm gonna keep doing it,
Dialogue: 0,0:07:01.84,0:07:04.42,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and, um, now I'm just rambling.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:04.42,0:07:06.06,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I am, of course,
Dialogue: 0,0:07:06.06,0:07:07.13,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,working on more reviews
Dialogue: 0,0:07:07.13,0:07:07.99,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and more video essays,
Dialogue: 0,0:07:07.99,0:07:08.81,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I always say that,
Dialogue: 0,0:07:08.81,0:07:10.21,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and I'm working on more short films,
Dialogue: 0,0:07:10.21,0:07:12.21,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Critical Bits has been going really well,
Dialogue: 0,0:07:12.21,0:07:13.73,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Critical Bits has been going super well,
Dialogue: 0,0:07:13.73,0:07:14.76,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I know that it's very different
Dialogue: 0,0:07:14.76,0:07:16.66,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,from what my YouTube audience is accustomed to,
Dialogue: 0,0:07:16.66,0:07:18.46,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,but it's been such a great creative outlet
Dialogue: 0,0:07:18.46,0:07:20.43,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and I've really enjoyed having the opportunity
Dialogue: 0,0:07:20.43,0:07:22.01,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,to kind of start over with a fanbase,
Dialogue: 0,0:07:22.01,0:07:23.13,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,with more boundaries
Dialogue: 0,0:07:23.13,0:07:25.48,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and with a character that people can focus on,
Dialogue: 0,0:07:25.48,0:07:26.47,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,versus people being weird
Dialogue: 0,0:07:26.47,0:07:27.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and focusing on me.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:27.80,0:07:30.26,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,We're actually-- we're about to have Jack Packard on
Dialogue: 0,0:07:30.26,0:07:31.57,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,from Red Letter Media,
Dialogue: 0,0:07:31.57,0:07:32.43,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that'll be late March
Dialogue: 0,0:07:32.43,0:07:33.95,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,when that episode comes out, I think.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:33.95,0:07:35.07,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Jack's been very-- a bunch of people
Dialogue: 0,0:07:35.07,0:07:36.59,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,have been very supportive of the show.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:36.59,0:07:39.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- Thanks for listening to our dumb (bleep) show.\N(laughing)
Dialogue: 0,0:07:39.80,0:07:40.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It was crazy
Dialogue: 0,0:07:40.60,0:07:41.95,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,whenever you tweeted about us,
Dialogue: 0,0:07:41.95,0:07:43.32,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,cos I was like "why is he doing this?"
Dialogue: 0,0:07:43.32,0:07:45.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,- [Shannon] Obviously there's a horrible dark side
Dialogue: 0,0:07:45.70,0:07:46.58,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,to the internet
Dialogue: 0,0:07:46.58,0:07:48.39,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and to being a content creator
Dialogue: 0,0:07:48.39,0:07:50.96,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and to putting yourself out there,
Dialogue: 0,0:07:50.96,0:07:52.81,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and so many dangers about
Dialogue: 0,0:07:52.81,0:07:54.08,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,seeking that kind of validation,
Dialogue: 0,0:07:54.08,0:07:55.56,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and empty validation and everything,
Dialogue: 0,0:07:55.56,0:07:57.21,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,but this year so far,
Dialogue: 0,0:07:57.21,0:07:59.14,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,it's been so fun,
Dialogue: 0,0:07:59.14,0:08:00.24,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and just awesome,
Dialogue: 0,0:08:00.24,0:08:02.24,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and I have so much cool stuff
Dialogue: 0,0:08:02.24,0:08:03.67,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that I'm excited to put on the channel,
Dialogue: 0,0:08:03.67,0:08:04.45,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and so much cool stuff
Dialogue: 0,0:08:04.45,0:08:05.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that I hope to make in the future.
Dialogue: 0,0:08:05.60,0:08:08.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I think I've said this outside of Youtube,
Dialogue: 0,0:08:08.50,0:08:09.69,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,but for Fake Friends 3
Dialogue: 0,0:08:09.69,0:08:11.36,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I want to make a real documentary
Dialogue: 0,0:08:11.36,0:08:12.100,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,with interviews of people,
Dialogue: 0,0:08:12.100,0:08:13.92,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,hopefully academics,
Dialogue: 0,0:08:13.92,0:08:14.91,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,maybe some content creators,
Dialogue: 0,0:08:14.91,0:08:16.41,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,maybe some bigger name people,
Dialogue: 0,0:08:16.41,0:08:17.89,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I want to actually go out and film
Dialogue: 0,0:08:17.89,0:08:18.87,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and record interviews,
Dialogue: 0,0:08:18.87,0:08:20.33,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that is not within my scope yet,
Dialogue: 0,0:08:20.33,0:08:21.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I think just as soon as I realized
Dialogue: 0,0:08:21.40,0:08:22.71,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I was making more money
Dialogue: 0,0:08:22.71,0:08:24.01,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,my plans for it got way bigger
Dialogue: 0,0:08:24.01,0:08:24.98,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and now I'm not going to settle
Dialogue: 0,0:08:24.98,0:08:26.24,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,so it might take a while to make it.
Dialogue: 0,0:08:26.24,0:08:28.14,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I'm so excited that that's even a possibility
Dialogue: 0,0:08:28.14,0:08:29.18,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and it just--
Dialogue: 0,0:08:29.18,0:08:30.35,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,thinking of the person
Dialogue: 0,0:08:30.35,0:08:31.81,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that I was in 2015
Dialogue: 0,0:08:31.81,0:08:32.98,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,when I started this channel,
Dialogue: 0,0:08:32.98,0:08:34.93,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I'm a much happier person now
Dialogue: 0,0:08:34.93,0:08:36.58,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and I believe in myself
Dialogue: 0,0:08:36.58,0:08:37.98,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and the work that I'm doing a lot more,
Dialogue: 0,0:08:37.98,0:08:39.67,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and I'm a much more confident person.
Dialogue: 0,0:08:39.67,0:08:40.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And I complain a lot,
Dialogue: 0,0:08:40.40,0:08:41.48,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and there's a lot to complain about
Dialogue: 0,0:08:41.48,0:08:42.92,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,with harassment and everything,
Dialogue: 0,0:08:42.92,0:08:45.04,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,but I for real am really happy
Dialogue: 0,0:08:45.04,0:08:45.74,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and really grateful
Dialogue: 0,0:08:45.74,0:08:46.55,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and really excited
Dialogue: 0,0:08:46.55,0:08:49.25,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,over the next couple of years.
Dialogue: 0,0:08:49.25,0:08:51.29,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I really sincerely would be happy
Dialogue: 0,0:08:51.29,0:08:52.61,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,to just keep doing this forever.
Dialogue: 0,0:08:52.61,0:08:55.05,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I don't need to transition into television
Dialogue: 0,0:08:55.05,0:08:56.12,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,or whatever,
Dialogue: 0,0:08:56.12,0:08:58.66,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,or transition into feature filmmaking
Dialogue: 0,0:08:58.66,0:08:59.86,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,with wide distribution
Dialogue: 0,0:08:59.86,0:09:01.51,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,to feel validated
Dialogue: 0,0:09:01.51,0:09:02.91,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,because, like I said,
Dialogue: 0,0:09:02.91,0:09:05.41,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I get validation when I feel like
Dialogue: 0,0:09:05.41,0:09:07.47,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,my work has meant something to someone
Dialogue: 0,0:09:07.47,0:09:08.91,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and so many people have been so kind
Dialogue: 0,0:09:08.91,0:09:09.86,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,in their responses,
Dialogue: 0,0:09:09.86,0:09:12.26,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,so I'm really happy, for now.
Dialogue: 0,0:09:12.26,0:09:13.75,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I'm really happy with the work that I do
Dialogue: 0,0:09:13.75,0:09:15.19,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and with its potential,
Dialogue: 0,0:09:15.19,0:09:16.66,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and I had a script and I've just gone off of it
Dialogue: 0,0:09:16.66,0:09:18.100,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and I'm just rambling, um,
Dialogue: 0,0:09:19.48,0:09:20.33,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,yeah.
Dialogue: 0,0:09:21.88,0:09:23.06,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So, thanks!