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Men 6 yoshligimda

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sovg'alar oldim.

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Mening boshlang’ich sinf o’qituvchimda[br]shunday hayrotomuz g’oya tug'ildi.

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U bizni sov’g’alar olish[br]hissiyotini tuyishimiz bilan birga

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bir-birimizni maqtashning yaxshi[br]tomonini o’rganishimizni istadi.

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Ustozim barchamizni sinfxona [br]oldiga jamladi, hammamizga

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sovg’alar sotib olib, ularni [br]burchakka terib qo’ygan edi.

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Va u:[br]"Shu yerda turib

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bir-birimizni yaxshi so’zlar[br]bilan siylasak-chi?” dedi.

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O’z ismingizni eshitsangiz,

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sovg’angizni olishga borasiz, [br]so’ng o’tirasiz.

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Ajoyib g’oya, to’g’rimi?

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Nima o'xshamasligi[br]mumkin?

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(Kulgu)

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Xo’sh, dastlab biz 40 kishi edik,

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va men har gal kimnidir ismini[br]eshitishim bilan

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shodligimdan uree deb yuborardim.

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So’ng 20 kishi qoldi,

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keyin 10 kishi,

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undan keyin 5 kishi…

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nihoyat 3 kishi.

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Va ulardan biri men edim.

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Yoqimli so’zlar[br]ulashish to’xtadi.

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Men o’sha daqiqada yig’layotgan edim.

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Ustozning hafsalasi pir bo’lib,

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“Kimdir bu insonlar haqida ham [br]biror iliq so’z aytadimi?”

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(Kulgu)

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“Hech kim? Mayli, sovg’angizni[br]olingda, joyingizga o'tiring.

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O’zingizni yaxshi tuting,

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kelasi yil kimdir siz haqda[br]iliq so’z aytar.

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(Kulgu)

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Tasvirlab berishimdan

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buni juda yaxshi esga olishimni[br]bilgandirsiz.

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(Kulgu)

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Biroq o’sha kuni kim o’zini yomonroq his

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qilganini bilmayman.[br]Menmi yoki o’qituvchi?

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U jamoani shakllantirish jarayonini[br]3 nafar 6 yasharlik bolalar

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uchun hajviy ko’rsatuvga[br]aylantirganini tushungandir.

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Biroq bu kulgili emasdi.

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Televizorda odamlar ustidan[br]hazil qilishsa,

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miriqib kulardingiz.

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Bu kun haqida biror kulgili narsani

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eslolmayman.[br]Bu mening bir ko’rinishim edi

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va bu vaziyatga, omma oldida[br]rad etilishga qayta duch kelmaslik uchun

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o’limga ham tayyor edim.

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Bu bir ko’rinishim.

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Shiddatli sakkiz yildan so’ng,

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shaxrimizga—Beijing, Xitoyga Bill Geyts

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nutq so’zlash uchun

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tashrif buyurdi

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va men uning nutqini eshitdim.

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Bu kishi menga yoqib qoldi.

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Endi men nima qilishni istashimni[br]bilaman, deb o’yladim.

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O’sha kecha oilamga shunday xat yozdim

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"25 yoshimgacha

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dunyodagi eng katta kompaniyani quraman

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va bu kompaniya Microsoftni[br]sotib oladi."

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(Kulgu)

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Men dunyoni zabt etish g’oyasiga[br]tamoman yopishib oldim.

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dominantlik, to’g’rimi?

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buni ichimdan to’qiganim yo’q, [br]o’sha xatni yozgandim.

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Mana o’sha xat.

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(Kulgu)

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Buni o’qib chiqishingiz shart emas

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(Kulgu)

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Qolaversa, bu yomon husnixat,[br]lekin ba’zi muhim so’zlarni belgilab

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qo’ydim.[br]Tushunib oldiz.

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(Kulgu)

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Shunday qilib ...

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bu boshqa bir ko'rinishim edi.

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dunyoni zabt etuvchi.

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Xo’sh, ikki yildan so’ng

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menga Amerikaga borish [br]imkoniyati taqdim etildi.

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Darhol rozi bo’ldim,

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chunki u yerda Bill Geyts yashaydi,[br]to’g’rimi?

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(Kulgu)

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Bu biznesdagi ilk sayohatim, deb o’yladim.

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So’ng, keyingi shiddatli 14 yil.

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30 yoshda edim.

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Yo’q, o’sha kompaniyani qurmadim.

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Hatto boshladim ham.

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Men o'zi Fortune 500 kompaniyalaridan[br]birida marketing menejer bo'lib ishlardim.

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Bir yerda turib qolganimni bildim.

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Bir yerda qotib qoldim.

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Nega?

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O’sha xatni yozgan 14 yoshli bola qani?

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Bunga sabab uning urinib

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ko’rmaganligi emas.[br]Bunga sabab har safar menda yangi g'oya

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uyg’onganida, biror [br]yangi narsaga urinib

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ko’rishni istaganimda,

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hatto ishda ham taklif berishni

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istardim guruhda odamlar orasida[br]o’z fikrimni bildirishni istardim

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o’sha 14 yashar va 6 yashar o’rtasida

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doimiy kurash mavjudligini his qildim.

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Biri dunyoni zabt etishni,

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o’zgarish qilishni[br]istasa,

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boshqa biri esa rad javobidan qo’rqadi.

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Va har gal o’sha 6 yashar yutib keldi.

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Bu qo’rquv hatto o’z kompaniyamni[br]yaratganimda ham meni tark etmadi.

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Ha, 30 yoshligimda o’z kompaniyamga[br]ega bo’ldim. Agar Bill Geyts

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bo’lishni xohlasangiz,

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ertami-kechmi boshlashingiz kerak[br]tog’rimi?

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Tadbirkorlik faoliyatim davomida

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sarmoya kiritish imkoniyatini[br]qo'lga kiritdim,

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keyinroq esa rad etildim.

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Bu rad javobi menga azob berdi.

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Shunchalik qattiq azoblandimki, shundayoq[br]hammasidan voz kechishni istadim.

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Ammo sal o’tib o’yladim.

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Bill Geyts oddiygina sarmoya kiritishdan [br]rad etilish tufayli ortga chekinardimi?

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Har qanday muvaffaqiyatli tadbirkor[br]shu tariqa chekinadimi?

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Aslo.

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Ana shunda men buni anglab yetdim.

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Ok, yaxshi kompaniya qura olaman.

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Yaxshi jamoa yoki yaxshi[br]mahsulot yaratishim

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mumkin, biroq shu narsa aniqki,

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men yaxshi lider bo’lishim kerak.

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Yaxshi inson bo’lishim zarur.

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Men buyog’iga o’sha 6 yashar hayotimda[br]hukmronlik qilishiga ortiq qo’yib

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bermayman.[br]Uni o’z joyiga qaytarishim kerak.

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Shunday qilib onlayn ko’mak[br]izlay boshladim.

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Google mening do’stim edi.

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(Kulgu)

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“Qanday qilib rad etilish qo’rquvini[br]yengga olaman?”

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deb qidiruv berdim. Qo’rquv va azoblar[br]qanday paydo bo’lishi

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haqidagi bir qancha psixologik[br]maqolalarga ko’zim tushdi.

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So’ng bir qancha “Har narsani o’zingga[br]olaverma, shunchaki yengib o’t”

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shunga o’xshash ruhlantiruvchi[br]maqolalarni ko’rdim.

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Buni kim ham bilmaydi?

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(Kulgu)

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Biroq nega hanuz qo’rquvdaman?

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So’ngra omadim kelib shu vebsaytni topdim.

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U radetilishterapiyasi.com deb nomlangan.

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(Kulgu)

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"Rad etilish Terapiyasi" bu kanadalik[br]tadbirkor tomonidan yaratilgan o’yin.

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Uning ismi Jeyson Komeli.

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Bu g’oyaning mag’zi shunday: siz 30 kun[br]davomida rad etilish uchun biror narsa

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izlaysiz har kuni biror [br]narsada rad etilasiz

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va oqibatda bu azob sizga[br]begona bo’ladi.

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Bu g’oya menga yoqib tushdi.

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(Kulgu)

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O’zimga shunday dedim,[br]“Bilasanmi? Men buni

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qilmoqchiman va o'zim rad etilish[br]hissini 100 kun tuymoqchiman.

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Rad javobini olish uchun[br]o’z g’oyalarimni yaratdim

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va undan video blog tayyorladim.

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Mana bu mening ishlarim.

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Blog shunday ko’rinishda edi.

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Birinchi kun ...

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(Kulgu)

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Notanish kishidan 100 dollar qarz olish.

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Ishlayotgan joyimga bordim.

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Zinadan tushdim va

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stol ortida o’tirgan gavdali [br]kishini ko’rdim.

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U qo’riqchiga o’xshab ko’rindi.

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Shu sababdan unga yaqinlashdim.

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Yurib boryapman

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va bu umrimdagi eng uzun yo’l edi,[br]bo'ynimning

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orqa qismidagi[br]tuklar tik holatda,

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terlayotgandim, yuragim[br]esa gupirlab urardi.

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Borib shunday dedim

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“Hoy, janob 100 dollar[br]qarz bera olasizmi?”

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(Kulgu)

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U menga qarab “Yo’q.”

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“Nega?” dedi

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Men esa “Yo’qmi? Kechirasiz.” dedim.[br]So'ng esa

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orqamga o’girilib,[br]qochib qoldim.

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(Kulgu)

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Juda xijolat tortdim.

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O’zimni videoga olgandim,

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o’sha kecha o’zimni rad javobi[br]olganimni ko’rayotgandim.

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O’zimni qanchalik qo’rquvga tushganimni

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ko'rdim. Men xuddi “The 6th Sense”[br]filmidagi boladek

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edim.[br]Men arvohlarni ko’rdim.

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(Kulgu)

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Keyin o’sha kishini ko’rdim.

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Bilasizmi, u unchalik[br]qo’rqinchli emasdi

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U to’lachadan kelgan, yoqimtoy yigit edi.

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va u hatto mendan “Nega?” deb so’radi.

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Rostdan ham, u buni tushuntirib[br]berishimni so’radi.

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Ko’p narsalar aytishim[br]mumkin edi.

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Tushuntirib berishim mumkin edi.[br]U bilan kelishib

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olishim mumkin edi.[br]Bularning

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birortasini qilmadim.[br]Qo’limdan

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kelgani yugurish bo'ldi.[br]Bu xuddi hayotimning mikrodunyosiga

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o’xshashini his qildim.[br]Har gal rad etilishimni his

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qildimmi, oyog’imni[br]qo’limga olib yuguraman.

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Bilasizmi nima?

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Keyingi safar nima bo’lishidan qat’iy

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nazar, hech qayerga ketmayman.

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Vaziyatni qo’lga olaman.

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2-kun: “Burger to’ldirish”[br]imkonini so’rash

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(Kulgu)

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Burger oshxonasiga borib,[br]tushlikni yeb oldim

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va kassir oldiga borib, shunday dedim:

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Salom,[br]burger to’ldirib berasizmi?

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(Kulgu)

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U chalkashib ketdi.[br]“Burger to’ldirish nima degani?”

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(Kulgu)

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Shunday dedim “Xo’sh, bu xuddi ichimlik[br]to’ldirib berishga o’xshaydi, lekin

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o’rniga burger”[br]U: “Uzr, bizda burger to’ldirishning

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imkoni yo’q” dedi.[br](Kulgu)

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Ana shunda rad javobini oldim. Ketib[br]qolsam bo’lardi, biroq bunday qilmadim.

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Shunday dedim, “Burgerlaring menga yoqadi,

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oshxonangiz ham chakkimas,

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burger to’ldirish imkoniyatini[br]berganlaringda

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sizlarni yanada[br]yaxshi

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ko'rardim.[br](Kulgu)

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U esa “Mayli, menejerimga buni [br]aytaman, ehtimol

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bunday imkoniyat berilar,[br]ammo bugun qila olmaymiz” dedi.

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Keyin ketdim.

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Ha aytgancha, menimcha ular hech qachon

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burger to’ldirish imkoniyatini [br]joriy etmagan.

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(Kulgu)

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Menimcha, ular hali ham

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ishlamoqda. Biroq, ilk marotaba men[br]his etgan hayot-mamot tuyg’usi

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endi yo’q,

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negaki vaziyatni o’z qo’limga oldim,

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chunki ketib qolmadim.

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O’zimga “Ajoyib, men allaqachon[br]buni o’rganyapman.

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Zo’r” dedim.[br]So'ng 3-kun:

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Olimpiya donutlariga ega bo’lish.

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Ana shunda hayotim [br]butunlay o’zgarib ketdi.

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Krispi Kremega bordim.

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U Qo’shma Shtatlarning

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janubi-sharqiy qismida joylashgan[br]donutlar do’koni edi.

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Ular bu yerda ham borligiga[br]ishonchim

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komil.[br]Ichkariga kirib:

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“Olimpiya simvollariga o’xshash[br]donut tayyorlab bera olasizmi?

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Oddiy qilib aytganda, 5 ta[br]donutni birlashtirasiz…” dedim.

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Ularning bunga rozi bo’lmaydi,[br]to’g’rimi?

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Donut tayyorlovchi meni o’ta[br]jiddiy qabul qildi.

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(Kulgu)

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U qo’liga qog’oz olib,

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uning ranglari va halqalarini[br]yoza boshladi.

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“Buni qanday tayyorlashim mumkin?” dedi.

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15 daqiqadan so’ng esa,

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u qo’lida Olimpiya halqalariga o’xshash[br]quti bilan chiqdi.

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Juda hayajonda edim.

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Bunga ishona olmasdim.

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Men o’sha kun olgan video esa Youtubeda[br]besh million kuzatuvchiga ega bo’ldi.

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Dunyo ham bunga ishona olmayotgan edi.

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(Kulgu)

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Shu sababdan men gazetalar,[br]tok-shoular, barchasining

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mavzusiga aylandim.

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Shu tariqa mashhur bo’ldim.

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Ko’plab insonlar email orqali:[br]“Qilayotgan

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ishlaringiz hayratlanarli”[br]deb yoza boshlashdi.

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Biroq bilasizmi, shon-shuhrat va[br]mashhurlik menga hech narsa bermadi.

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Mening chin istagim o’zimni o’rganish

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va o’zgartirish edi.

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Shu tariqa men 100 kunlik rad etilishni

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o’yin maydoniga, tadqiqot

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loyihasiga aylantirdim.[br]Nima o'rgana olishim

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mumkinligini ko’rmoqchi edim.

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Natijada ko’p narsalar o'rgandim.

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Ko’plab sirlardan[br]boxabar bo'ldim.

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Misol uchun, shunga amin[br]bo’ldimki, agar men chekinmasam,

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rad javobini olsm,[br]"yo'q"ni

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“ha” ga aylantira[br]olishim mumkin.

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Sehrli so’z esa, “nega?”

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Bir kuni qo’limda gul bilan bir notanish[br]kishining uyiga bordim, eshikni

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taqillatib, shunday dedim:

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shu gulni sizning tomorqangizda[br]eksam bo’ladimi?

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(Kulgu)

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U esa “Yo’q” dedi.[br]Eshikni yopishidan

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oldin unga shunday dedim

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“Negaligini bilsam bo’ladimi?

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U “Tomorqaga ekkan hamma narsani

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payhon qilib yuboradigan itim bor.” dedi.[br]Gulingiz

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isrof bo’lishini xohlamayman.

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Gul ekmoqchi bo’lsangiz, ko’chani[br]kesib o’tib Konniga ayting.

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U gullarni yoqtiradi.

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Xuddi shunday qildim.

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Ko’chani kesib o’tib,[br]Konnining eshigini

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qoqdim. U meni ko’rib[br]quvonib ketdi.

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(Kulgu)

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Va yarim soatdan so’ng

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Konnining tomorqasida shu gul[br]paydo bo’ldi.

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Hozir uning yaxshiroqligiga

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ishonchim komil.[br](Kulgu)

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Biroq, ilk rad etilishdayoq ortga[br]chekinganimda

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U kishi menga ishonmadi,

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negaki men ahmoqman,

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tuzuk kiyinmaganligim,

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yaxshi ko’rinishda bo’lmaganim[br]uchun deb o’ylardim.

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Bular sababli emas.[br]Sababi

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men taklif etgan narsa[br]uning istagi bilan mos kelmagan-

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-ligida edi.[br]U menga ishonch bildirib, kelishuv

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qoidalariga asosan yo'l ko'rsatdi.

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Men yo’nalishni o’zgartirdim.

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Kunlardan bir kun

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so’zlarim bilan ha javobini[br]olish imkoniyatini

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oshirish mumkinligini bilib oldim.

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Misol uchun bir kuni Starbucksga bordim

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va menejerdan “Starbucks mezboni[br]bo’lsam maylimi? deb so'radim.

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U shunday ohangda “Starbaks mezboni,[br]u nima degani?

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“Wallmart mezbonlarini bilasizmi?” dedim.

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Bilasizmi, ular do’konga kirishingizdan[br]oldin sizga salom beradi va

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aslida hech narsa[br]o’g’irlamasligingizga ishonch

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hosil qilishadi? Starbucks xaridorlariga[br]Wallmart ruhini ulashaman.

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(Kulgu)

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Xo’sh, bu yaxshi fikrligiga ishonchim[br]komil emas.

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Aslida, bu yaxshimasligini aniq bilaman.

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U esa qarab, “Ha”

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Uning ismi Erik,

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“Bilmasam.” dedi.[br]U meni shu

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tariqa tinglayotgan edi. “Bilmasam.”

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Undan “Bu g’alatimi?”deb so’radim.

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U esa “Bu judayam g’alati.” dedi.

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Biroq shuni aytishi bilan uning[br]munosabati butunlay o’zgardi.

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Aftidan, u barcha shubhalarini[br]chetga surib qo’ydi.

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U “Mezbon bo’lishingiz mumkin, lekin

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o’ta g’alati tuyulmasin”

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dedi.[br](Kulgu)

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Keyin 1 soat davomida Starbucksga[br]mezbonlik qildim.

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Tashrif buyurgan har bir xaridorga

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salom berib, dam olish kuni[br]zavqini ulashdim.

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Ha aytgancha, sizning qaysi kasbga[br]yo’nalganligingizni

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bilmayman, mezbonlik

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qilmang.[br](Kulgu)

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Bu o’ta zerikarli edi.

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Bu qo’limdan kelishini angladim,[br]chunki men “Bu g’alatimi?” deb so’radim.

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Men undagi shubhani tilga oldim.

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“Bu g’alatimi?” deb so’rashim g’alati[br]kishi emasligimni anglatadi.

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Bu aslida xuddi unga o’xshab[br]fikrlayotganimni, bunga

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g’alati narsa sifatida[br]qarayotganimni anglatadi.

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Qayta-qayta shunga amin

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bo'ldimki, savol so’rashdan[br]oldin odamlarda mavjud bo’lishi mumkin

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bo'lgan shubhani aytganimda, ularning

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ishonchini qozondim.

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Menga ha deb javobini berish ehtimolli

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oshdi. So’rash orqali hayotimdagi[br]orzularga erishishim mumkinligiga

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amin bo’ldim..

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Mening to’rt avlodim o’qituvchilik qilgan,

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buvim menga doim shunday der edilar,

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“Jia, seni qo’lingdan hamma narsa keladi,

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lekin o’qituvchi bo’lsang zo’r bo’lardi”

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(Kulgu)

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Biroq men tadbirkor bo’lishni istagandim,

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o'qituvchi bo'lmadim. Lekin ta’lim[br]berish bir umrlik orzuyim edi.

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“Kollejda dars berishni

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so’rab ko’rsamchi?” dedim.[br]O'sha paytlar

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Ostinda yashardim.[br]Shu sabab

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Ostindagi Texas Universitetiga borib

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professor eshigini qoqdim,[br]“Talabalaringizga dars o’tsam bo’ladimi?”

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deb so'radim. 1-2 urinishda[br]hech narsaga erishmadim.

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Chekinmay, davom ettirdim.

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Va uchinchi urinishimda professorni[br]lol qoldirdim.

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U “Hali hech kim bunday qilmagan” dedi.

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Slaydlarim va darslarim bilan[br]tayyorlanib kelar edim.

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U “Qoyil, bularni ishlata olaman.[br]Ikki oydan

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so’ng kelsangizchi? Sizni o’quv[br]dasturimga joylashtiraman.” dedi.

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Va ikki oydan so’ng, men o’qita boshladim.

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Bu men. Ehtimol, meni ko’ra olmaysiz.[br]Yomon surat.

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Bilasizmi, ba’zida yorug’lik[br]sizni rad etadi?

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(Kulgu)

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Lekin...

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Darsni tugatib, u yerdan ko’zimda[br]yosh bilan chiqdim.

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Chunki, bor yog’i so'rash

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orqali hayotdagi orzularimga erishish[br]mumkinligi haqida o’yladim.

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Men har doim bularning barchasini[br]bajarishim kerak,

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ya’ni eng zo’r tadbirkor bo’lishim yoki[br]o’qitish uchun PhD olishim kerak deb

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o'ylardim.[br]Yo’q, men shunchaki

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so'radim va o’qita oldim.

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Sizga yaxshi ko’rinmayotgan ushbu rasmda

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Martin Lyuter King [br]iqtibosini keltirgandim.

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Nega deysizmi? Chunki o’z tadqiqotimda [br]shunga amin bo’ldimki, dunyoni o'zgartira

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oladigan, yashash tarzimiz va[br]fikrlash tarzimizni

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o’zgartiruvchi insonlar ilk va qattiq[br]tanqidga uchragan insonlar bo’lishgan.

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Martin Lyuter King,

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Mahatma Gandi, Nelson Mandela[br]kabi insonlar

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va hatto Iso Masih ham.

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Bu insonlar ularning aslida qanday[br]insonligini rad javobi aniqlashiga

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qo'yib bermadi. Rad etilishdan so‘ng unga[br]bildirgan munosabati ularning aslida

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kimligini aniqlashga[br]qo'yib berdi

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Ular rad etilishga iliq qarashgan.[br]Rad etilishdan saboq olish uchun

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bu insonlar kabi bo'lish

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shart emas va mening vaziyatimda[br]rad javobi

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menga tekkan la'nat,

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mening qo’rquvim edi. U meni butun umr[br]ta’qib etdi, men esa undan qochayotgandim.

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So’ng men u bilan[br]kelishishni boshlab

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uni hayotimdagi eng katta [br]tuhfaga aylantirdim.

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Rad etilish qanday qilib imkoniyatga ayla-[br]nishi mumkinligi haqda o’rgata boshladim.

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Insonlarga rad etilish qo’rquvini yengish

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uchun yordam berishda blogimdan,[br]nutq va

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yaqinda chop etilgan kitobdan, hatto bu[br]uchun hozirda yaratayotgan texnologiyamdan

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foydalanaman.[br]Hayotda rad etilganda,

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keyingi safar qiyinchilik yoki

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mag’lubiyatga uchraganingizda,[br]uning

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imkoniyatlari haqida o’ylab ko’ring.

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Chekinmang.[br]Agar u bilan

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iliqlik o’rnatsangiz,

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u sizning ham tuhfangizga[br]aylanishi mumkin.

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Rahmat.

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(Qarsaklar)