I already got out of prison for ten years
but I really don't know who he was
Tell you the truth I don't even think like him
I look back and think of the guy
of who I was some poor pathetic guy
Wasn't even tough or crazy,
it was just some pathetic guy
and I made a lot of decisions based on fear
You know, a whole life based on fear
and smoking screens
and like the poor dark time of my life, y'know
I wasn't taking care of myself spiritually at the time
I couldn't
I don't think I was willing to
I don't know if I was able to
I needed to go through
and he was there the whole way through me, man
From beginning till the end
and completely unjudgemental
He was lying next to me like it was another day
And he knew I was hurting
He was just lying next to Chavy
and you know Chavy, crazy Chavy was on the couch
and Vino was on my couch kicking dope
We're also poor sick and hungry and weird
we're really weird people
He just didn't know they're weird
All my friends got stories about that dog
My buddies when they come stay at my pad
they're having a hard time
my fuckin' dog will get right next to them
He would just get right next to them
and he wouldn't leave
he was just so loyal
he was just so down for the guys I loved
and that dog knew it
He showed me through his example
how to love and I loved him
I don't think I showed him how to love
I think he showed me how to love
Yes, I need to go right now
He's in a lot of pain, I can tell
I can't keep... y'know, like...
For my own comfort, y'know
Yea, we're doing a documentary on him right now
We're finishing off the five hours
What can we do about him?
I talked to Cynthia this morning, and she was like
"We're doing the right thing."
Thank God I have people that know what's going on
He was so ragged, and he was... sobbing
Oden stayed with Cynthia
because I moved to a different place
And they wouldn't let dogs in
And it was five flights up
My place had five flights of stairs
And I was thinking like,
"We can't take him"
I knew he was going to die two months ago
I knew it
And it was my own childish fears like
"I'm gonna miss you, don't go..."
Y'know?
"Don't go"
Y'know?
It may sound crazy, but I'm like...
some universal job,
like God gave him some job to do here
and take care of people y'know
He wasn't blocked
by what clothes he was wearing,
what car he had,
or what crew he was hanging with
or what friends, and who's popular
what make him look good,
he was just about helping, man
It was like,
"hey, you're sick in my couch. You're my friend."
Y'know what I mean?
Wanna say goodbye to Oden?
Oh yes
smooch
You tell me how it is
Go say hi to Jesus
Tell'im we're comin'
We're comin' soon, ok?
You tell Jesus we love Him
And you hang out with people high on Him
He'll give you a new leg, prospector...
He'll give you a brand new leg
And it'll be all good
I wanna be the man
y'know, I wanna be like, "I just put this dog down"
and John Wayne,
but it's not me
y'know, I'm not that tough
I really am a soft dude
I really am a sensitive dude
and the more I fucked up,
the more sensitive I get man
And thank God
Their whole job is to serve I think
And I told him like,
"His job is done"
Your job is done here, champ... Ok?
You know, his job was done
And there's now way in denying that
It was my was my own childish fears
"You cannot leave me, because I'm gonna miss you"
You know, he was just like,
"I'm going, champ. I gotta go sometime"
What?
He's gone.
He knew it.
He know he was going
His time is up
I love you baby
You be a good boy there
That dog was in bend
And that dog needed to go
He don't wanna be here no more
I've tried to stay open for people, y'know
I'm trying to let people know, the truth..
about how I feel
y'know, and um...
God is love
And love is God
y'know, and um...
God was that dog I held
y'know?
Y'know, he just showed me unconditional love
He did
And by that, I think
I love people a lot more.