I have come a long way into a profession and never thought of coming to
so it's a long way to come through and not giving up in between
where there so many reasons and times where I
felt exasperated, exhausted, frustrated
I have a lot more tolerance for bullshit now
to begin with, I have kind of calmed down a lot
from what I was before
I was way too over-impulsive at that time
When she became a part of the team and when she
observed a lot of things around then only thing she wanted was
just equality so,
that became my core calling or core sentiment or idea
or something that I should, I kept in mind when I performed
each and every scene that I did
Yeah starting from the scratch being an outsider yes
that ways, yes but I mean it's not like
I tell him that you know we have this similar kind of a thing
you just have to, I've told him that he is the benchmark or
the person that every outsider especially coming from Delhi looks up to
Yeah please ask Marvel I'm telling you
this is the only wishlist I have
People keep asking me what is your dream role?
who do you want to work with?
I have only one dream role, and one dream right now
where my work is concerned I want to be a part of Avengers
I want to play a superhero of Indian origin.
Hi, everyone this Avinash Lohana and you're watching Pinkvilla
It's always nice to talk to someone whose journey
you've seen up close and personal
Please welcome the very very talented Tapsee Pannu
Thank you so much
Hi hi
finally, I'm happy to do this with you
Yeah because I now have a face to the name
I remember the first time I met you was during the promotions of Baby
I remember you were wearing a green dress and the
one thing that has remained consistent ever since then
is your confidence and your aura
If you go back to that time today Tapsee
or maybe even further, let's go to 2010 your first film
when you look back at this girl, you've really come a long way
I have come a long way in a profession I never
thought of coming to,
so it's a long way to come through and not giving up in between
where there were so many reasons and times where I
felt exasperated exhausted frustrated
yeah but I still kept going so when I look back at it
I'm like I've come this far
I can push a little more.
What helped you during these times when you're frustrated?
See in the beginning it was just the excitement of discovering
a new profession something that you know
every day there was a new world for me to discover
and that's how the film industry is
everyday you meet a bunch of new people
every day there are new issues new workplace
so everything is new every day
that's the beauty of this and and that kind of kept me glued
for the beginning few years but then after a couple of years when
I probably were getting exhausted a lot of times I looked back and I saw that
for someone who never planned to be here has come this way
and made some kind of presence so
I think I can push a little more
So I think looking back at my own journey and feeling like
When I've hung on for so long I can do it farther more
that became
you know inspiration apart from
you know you keep seeing other women but nobody has
the exact same journey as someone else right?
Everyone has carved their own path so I can't just look at one person and feel
if she did it then i also follow the same rule.
Nobody has the same rule
So I didn't have any specific journey to follow I could only
look back at my own journey and feel that
I've come this far, I think I can push a little more
You have. I don't know if you've noticed but July 1, 2010, was your first film release
Yes
you complete 12 years now
Actually yeah I'm gonna complete 12 years
How does this feel yeah I know a lot has changed
professionally over the last 12 years
Has this journey changed you personally in any way?
Oh yeah yeah
I have become a very very different person from what I was in the beginning
A lot of things might not have changed also but
I have noticed some big changes in me I have...
... a lot more tolerance for bull shit now
to begin with.
I have calmed down a lot from what I was before
I was way too over-impulsive at that time
very
sensitive also to
nonsense you know where people just
without thinking, if you say something even if it's not a part of my agenda in life
I'll try to correct you
you know that kind of over impulsive and over-sensitivity I had
now I have calmed down a little bit
not my monkey not my business
I have learned that attitude a little
So I think it's just age right! Which makes people a little more
matured and mellowed down
It also comes with success, isn't it
Yeah a lot of other things come with success like especially in this industry
it teaches you not to take your success or failures
either of them too seriously
Correct. [Avinash] That I learned I've not been a
good loser, I still my family members still call me
she's a very sore loser when I play board games
I'm a very sore loser and probably even worse winner actually
But, at work life, I've kind of become better like I don't
take either success or failure too strongly now
It's not like it doesn't affect me, it still affects me and it disturbs me a little bit
But I've gotten better at coping up with it
Yeah I have noticed that too and more power to you for that
Oh yeah thank you
there have been many milestones in your career
Pink, Mulk, Thappar but I think
Shabash Mithu takes 10 notches up higher
and of course, there's always a pressure to play a real-life person
somebody who's been celebrated so much but
I want to know when you first got the script or
when you first met Mithali, what was her brief to you?
See the kind of woman of few words she is
she didn't say anything for me to keep in mind
The only thing I kept observing and noticing and
feeling was that-
How will I portray this person who is diametrically opposite to me as a person?
First the cricket
then this personality which is nothing there's nothing in common
For me to latch on to, so that is what I was thinking when I met her for the first time
and for what I had to keep in mind is like at no point like
our core of the story was at no point I should
leave that ideology that she
followed her entire career or professional life
that's just basic respect
and the acknowledgement
that women cricket deserves that is the only thing she kept
fighting for from the time she realised what her calling is
from the time she realised that okay you know I
when she became part of the team and when she observed a lot of things around then
the only thing she wanted was
just equality, so
that became my core calling or core sentiment or idea
or something that I should, I kept in mind
when I performed each & every scene that I did
Sure there's a line in the trailer which says
we'll play in such a way that nobody dares to forget us
When you started out this must-have played on your mind also at some point
very similar journey in that sense
Yeah yeah ideologically yes, that's my thread that I connected with Mithali
you have to leave a certain
impact in the sense you
you have to bring about a certain change so that things
that you felt were wrong when you were there
or you felt there's a need to change, what changed a little bit by the time you left
otherwise, you came and you left nothing changed or nothing mattered
would have been a little sad
So, I'm not saying I'll be the biggest change possible
I'll be a small part of the big change that's going to happen
or that is happening I would want to be that and that particular dialogue honestly,
it was not on paper
Okay
It's a part of my dialogue
and when I was saying it something impromptu
because I had done that other scene where the
'Ho Gayi Pehchan' scene had happened already so somehow
I felt like bringing that word in that dialogue and I very spontaneously
ended up saying that and when the take got done
Priya and Srijit were like you know that works so keep that
so it was a very unexpected and spontaneous
a word that I ended up using in that dialogue which was not written on paper
You turned producer recently, with a film which is led by 4 very strong women
Was it Important for you to start your producer's journey with a film which is led by women?
Actually, coincidentally, I ended up
I co-produced Blur as well, which I'm I feature in
but that was not the plan,
The plan was to start with Dhak Dhak only
It so happened that while we were prepping up for Blur
you know I decided to become a co-producer
because of certain changes in things
But the initial plan was to start with Dhak Dhak
Okay. The way things were progressing we were working on packaging
and presenting Dhak Dhak only when Blur happened and then
that journey took off earlier, it was not that I planned that I'll
produce a four women film
But it's very you
But it just I it just attracts
I think after a point a certain kind of script attract you and certain kind of
you get attracted to certain kind of stuff so it becomes
it becomes an organic match after a point
so hence it happened even the coming ones that you'll hear the announcements of
which I'm producing and I'm not acting in them
you'll be like yeah I mean you're expected to produce this
but I'm glad that people would feel that you know
you wanted to produce it and it looks like it's your film
because I want to keep it in sync
The films that I produce and the films that I act in
All films might not be female-driven but the sensibility
will be in the same space like how it is when I act in a film
At least the women power will be given equal respect
yeah yeah full relevance
there'll be a female gaze as much as a male gaze in the film
Sure. You're doing a film with Samantha also, you're producing a film for her
There is something that we are working together on
we'll announce what it is very soon but yeah,
we are working on something
Such a great combination!
Yeah, I'll be producing. I'm really excited for- [Avinash]
So you're producing it? I'm producing it [Tapsee]
Act also!
If there is a part in it that
that I can do then I'll
But she's going to be leading it
Wow! Excited for that one?
Of course I am Of course, I am
there's a different kind of excitement when I see Dhak Dhak's everyday
call sheet, every day pictures and videos from the location
there is a different child-like excitement in me to see that happening which is like
how you feel is your baby kind of a feeling
it feels like that only, so it's a different kind of excitement
when I...
... assess dhak dhak
Yeah you've spoken about how
you spoke to Shah Rukh sir about you know how both of you come from Delhi
I didn't speak to him about it I mean he knows that and I
have a special admiration which I don't know how it gets even
bigger than what I have for him but also because we both hail from
the same city, there is a certain affinity that I have towards him
also because of that
But also similar journey right?
Yeah starting from scratch
being an outsider yes that ways yes but
But I mean it's not like I tell him that you know we have the similar kind of a thing
you just have to- I've told him that
He is the benchmark or the person that every outsider
especially coming from Delhi looks up to
Yeah but you're a superstar yourself but when meet the Shah Rukh Khan
I'm not a superstar but he is the superstar I don't really feel like-
when you work with people like him or superstars like him
you really realise that what the stakes of the word
Stardom, or star
That is when he didn't have a release in the last 5 years but
one move of his
just creates a storm everywhere his victories are personal
his loss is personal that's stardom for me
that is stardom not what we feel star is
But when I see this filmography of yours now which is coming
I feel really happy
These are really milestones which needs to be celebrated-
Sometimes when I feel a little down and out I also go and open my filmography and see
you should
No I did that a couple of days back I'm not even kidding
it might just sound very embarrassing but sometimes you know
because I don't have people around me who deludes me constantly
and I kind of have a very limited
people around me and the people around me who I get affected by
are not the ones who deludes me a lot they give me a reality check every now & then
and sometimes a reality check makes me go in my shell
forget about flying high they'll put me even like
you are a nobody so sometimes you need all those
on low days you need a kind of a motivation and a push
which I was telling you, you need to look back at your journey
and feel like that you've done it
so actually a few days back I remember when I was
on not so good days I ended up going back and checking
okay let me just see what I've achieved till date
what did I do?what all have I done
what all have I gone wrong or right in whatever let me just see and
I was like yeah I've really worked hard so that is
that is how I get myself up from those low days
Of course but what's your opinion on this recent south versus Bollywood debate?
Nothing. I actually have worked there
so I've worked there I still work there
It's been 12 years I've been working there
I know that they've been making these kind of films and good films
since ever, so it's only now the Hindi speaking audience is waking up to them
it's nothing new for them like for them maybe the market has increased now
but it's not like a suddenly they're making something out of the ordinary
it's not like that
They've been doing the same kind of stuff good or bad
They too have hits and flops they're still doing a good job like ever
It's just that the audience-
The Hindi-speaking audience is waking up to them because of ott and
because of satellite channels suddenly
people started watching them now that they're in theatres
their stardom is reflecting
but it's not like they are making any different kind of stuff from what
they were making a couple of years back
Point. I have to ask you this
in one of the past interviews you've said I want to be an Indian superhero
When is that happening?
Yeah please ask Marvel, I am telling you this is the only wish list I have
people keep asking me what is your dream role who do you want to work with?
I have only one dream role and one dream right now where my work is concerned
I want to be a part of the Avengers
I want to play a superhero of Indian origin, that's
all I am trying to manifest
so if anyone tells me a way to go about it
I'll follow it.
But in the meanwhile, you're a superhero in your life and
we are celebrating it
Please just keep watching my films I think I'll
I'll keep doing it then
I'm sure everyone is thank you so much Tapsee
This is a lovely conversation Thank you
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