WEBVTT 00:00:05.394 --> 00:00:10.831 [Music] 00:00:10.831 --> 00:00:12.668 >> Zach can't stop writing lyrics. 00:00:12.668 --> 00:00:15.478 There are so many songs he wants to leave behind. 00:00:15.478 --> 00:00:18.811 With only months to live, his song called "Clouds" 00:00:18.811 --> 00:00:19.613 was born. 00:00:19.613 --> 00:00:22.799 ♫ I fell down, down, down into this dark 00:00:22.799 --> 00:00:23.821 and lonely hole. 00:00:24.554 --> 00:00:26.593 ♫ There was no one there to care 00:00:26.593 --> 00:00:29.339 about me anymore. ♫ 00:00:35.523 --> 00:00:42.154 >> [Zach] I think every teenager out there feels invincible and they'll, never admit it. 00:00:42.154 --> 00:00:44.614 It's the not the kind of invincible like Superman. 00:00:44.614 --> 00:00:46.067 It's the kind of invincible like, 00:00:46.067 --> 00:00:47.458 00:00:47.458 --> 00:00:49.312 "I'll see you in five months." 00:00:50.527 --> 00:00:51.865 I thought I was invincible. 00:00:51.865 --> 00:00:54.125 I was ready for college, pretty much. 00:00:54.125 --> 00:00:56.878 And I was planning out way ahead, 00:00:59.387 --> 00:01:02.157 and it turns out sometimes you can't do that. 00:01:04.832 --> 00:01:06.637 My name is Zach Sobiech. 00:01:06.637 --> 00:01:09.850 I'm 17-years-old, and I have osteosarcoma. 00:01:09.850 --> 00:01:14.683 I've been told I have a few months to live, but I still have a lot of work to do. 00:01:14.683 --> 00:01:16.683 I want everyone to know. 00:01:16.683 --> 00:01:19.984 You don't have to find out you're dying to start living. 00:01:19.984 --> 00:01:26.155 00:01:26.155 --> 00:01:39.968 [Music] 00:01:39.968 --> 00:01:45.327 You know, most people live kind of in the middle -- in between like a dream come true and you're dying. 00:01:45.327 --> 00:01:48.091 And it's -- it is a very comfortable place to live. 00:01:48.630 --> 00:01:53.189 I'm living on the two extreme ends; so you have really, really good days 00:01:53.189 --> 00:01:55.105 and you have really, really bad days. 00:02:00.090 --> 00:02:05.113 >> [Laura] Zach has always been incredibly empathetic and compassionate. 00:02:05.821 --> 00:02:12.703 At this basketball game I was kind of laughing about how one of the players had kind of a funny run. 00:02:12.703 --> 00:02:15.691 And he goes, "Yeah, but he's really good at --" 00:02:15.691 --> 00:02:17.583 And then he listed all these things. 00:02:17.583 --> 00:02:18.786 And I thought, "Awww." 00:02:18.786 --> 00:02:24.822 He's just always looking for the good in people, and I think he's taught all of us that's how it's done. 00:02:24.822 --> 00:02:30.445 >> [Ally] I would say that Zach is a testament to the fact that things are okay 00:02:30.445 --> 00:02:33.794 when you believe in something greater than yourself and the world. 00:02:33.794 --> 00:02:38.181 >> You can be with Zach and just by sitting there with him, feel better. 00:02:38.181 --> 00:02:40.647 He's got -- I don't know how to describe it. 00:02:40.647 --> 00:02:43.431 He's got this aura about him. 00:02:43.431 --> 00:02:48.098 >> [Zach] What makes you happy is seeing someone else smile because you put it there. 00:02:48.098 --> 00:02:51.117 That's what awesome about living in this world. 00:02:51.117 --> 00:02:53.062 It's that you can help people. 00:02:53.062 --> 00:02:55.188 00:02:55.188 --> 00:03:00.876 I like the structure of our family with two guys, two girls for the kids and mom and dad 00:03:00.876 --> 00:03:03.042 because it kind of evens everything out. 00:03:03.766 --> 00:03:06.881 >> [Laura] Grace has always been his baby. 00:03:06.881 --> 00:03:08.926 >> [Grace] Zach is like the other half of me. 00:03:08.926 --> 00:03:15.636 All we need is to be there like in the same room with each other, and that's enough for us. 00:03:16.683 --> 00:03:19.020 I'm thinking about my life without Zach. 00:03:19.020 --> 00:03:20.278 It's really hard to think about it. 00:03:20.278 --> 00:03:24.671 Like, I really get, like sick to my stomach when I think about that. 00:03:25.763 --> 00:03:30.726 >> [Laura] Zach had been going through the eighth grade, and he and his sister decided to go for a run. 00:03:30.726 --> 00:03:34.878 And he came back from the run and he told me, "Mom, my left hip hurts." 00:03:36.402 --> 00:03:43.039 So, we went in for an MRI and at this point still I'm thinking cancer was still not on my radar at all. 00:03:45.486 --> 00:03:47.964 >> [Zach] They went in and found out that it was cancer. 00:03:47.964 --> 00:03:49.926 It was osteosarcoma. 00:03:49.926 --> 00:03:53.846 And it was so unbelievable, honestly. 00:03:53.846 --> 00:03:57.021 >> [Grace] I was upstairs in the kitchen, 00:04:03.912 --> 00:04:07.242 and I just went upstairs and I cried. 00:04:15.457 --> 00:04:21.572 And I just said that I've got to live life like, well, Zach's going to die tomorrow. 00:04:22.988 --> 00:04:27.222 >> [Zach] My mom walked in on me once, and I was laying on the ground because I didn't want to 00:04:27.222 --> 00:04:29.633 associate my bed with being sick. 00:04:30.479 --> 00:04:36.387 >> [Laura] Five days after he finished chemotherapy, he had his routine CT scan of his chest, 00:04:36.387 --> 00:04:39.185 and they found tumors in both lungs. 00:04:39.185 --> 00:04:41.883 She told us six months to a year. 00:04:42.222 --> 00:04:43.805 >> [Zach] I just didn't understand that. 00:04:43.805 --> 00:04:47.873 Like, it didn't make any sense to me. 00:04:47.873 --> 00:04:50.846 >> [Laura] We did have an option of surgery, 00:04:50.846 --> 00:04:54.766 but that would mean they would have to take his left leg and half of his pelvis, 00:04:54.766 --> 00:04:56.575 and he wouldn't even be able to sit up. 00:04:56.575 --> 00:05:02.706 That's when we got to the point where we have to make decisions about quality of life. 00:05:02.706 --> 00:05:07.635 >> [Zach] With the hospital it's the most sterile place in the world, 00:05:07.635 --> 00:05:10.797 but you just do not feel clean there at all. 00:05:10.797 --> 00:05:18.347 And it was tough being there because you just -- you felt totally disconnected. 00:05:18.347 --> 00:05:21.940 >> [Laura] He decided, "I don't want to be in the hospital all the time." 00:05:21.940 --> 00:05:27.192 "I want to be out with friends. I don't want to feel sick, and I want to be home." 00:05:30.023 --> 00:05:33.738 >> In a house like this where we have six people and four kids, 00:05:33.738 --> 00:05:38.756 part of time time I enjoy Zach is just when we are alone -- just sittin' there. 00:05:38.756 --> 00:05:39.742 We could be watching a movie. 00:05:39.742 --> 00:05:42.472 We could be talking cars or whatever. 00:05:42.749 --> 00:05:48.794 >> Zach likes to dream big, so he kind of got into cars and car magazines and stuff 00:05:48.794 --> 00:05:51.608 and that was one thing he would do in the hospital. 00:05:51.608 --> 00:05:52.797 >> I would sort through the cars and would be like, 00:05:52.797 --> 00:05:57.341 OK, which one is the least expensive but has the highest performance? 00:05:57.341 --> 00:06:01.923 Nissan GTR is like, oh, it's perfect. 00:06:01.923 --> 00:06:05.751 I've dreamt of that car for years. 00:06:07.351 --> 00:06:13.235 >> So, we have a little tiny surprise for you. 00:06:13.235 --> 00:06:14.497 >> I don't like surprises. 00:06:14.497 --> 00:06:16.731 >> Oh, I think you're gonna like this one. 00:06:17.901 --> 00:06:18.955 >> What is it? 00:06:20.462 --> 00:06:22.135 Holy crap! 00:06:24.012 --> 00:06:25.205 Are you serious? 00:06:25.637 --> 00:06:27.999 >> You get to drive it for a week. 00:06:27.999 --> 00:06:29.460 [Laughing] 00:06:30.460 --> 00:06:31.915 >> [Grace] You're driving me places. 00:06:31.915 --> 00:06:33.756 >> [Zach] Oh, my god. 00:06:33.756 --> 00:06:35.482 >> Hey, Zach, what's up? 00:06:35.482 --> 00:06:36.259 You like that? 00:06:36.259 --> 00:06:36.878 >> Yeah! 00:06:36.878 --> 00:06:38.467 >> It's pretty impressive, huh? 00:06:39.344 --> 00:06:41.345 The look on his face was so cool. NOTE Paragraph 00:06:41.345 --> 00:06:43.849 And when Zach lights up, it makes everyone happy. 00:06:43.849 --> 00:06:48.229 >> [Zach] It's like being dunked in cold water and not being able to breathe but in a really good way. 00:06:48.229 --> 00:06:59.532 [Music] 00:06:59.532 --> 00:07:00.783 >> It wasn't the car. 00:07:00.783 --> 00:07:09.230 It was the experience the car created and the joy that Zach receives from driving it. 00:07:09.706 --> 00:07:13.127 And the joy I receive from being with Zach when he got to drive it. 00:07:13.127 --> 00:07:17.424 >> [Zach] Being able to experience these things things it helps a lot. 00:07:17.424 --> 00:07:24.082 Because you can either sit in your basement and wait, or you can get out there and do 00:07:24.082 --> 00:07:25.364 some crazy stuff. 00:07:25.364 --> 00:07:27.313 [Music] 00:07:27.313 --> 00:07:31.779 >> When we found the cancer in his pelvis, I said, you know, maybe you should start writing 00:07:31.779 --> 00:07:32.891 some letters. 00:07:33.459 --> 00:07:41.405 >> [Zach] Music is a way I can express myself without having to burden everyone else. 00:07:41.405 --> 00:07:45.613 >> [Laura] I was cleaning up downstairs, and there was a lot of paper laying around 00:07:45.613 --> 00:07:50.407 with different scribblings on it and I picked one up and I read it and it was "Clouds." 00:07:50.407 --> 00:07:51.447 00:07:51.447 --> 00:07:56.255 [Music] 00:07:56.255 --> 00:08:01.151 >> Sammy and Zach have been dear friends for many, many years. 00:08:01.151 --> 00:08:03.596 They're song writers together. 00:08:03.596 --> 00:08:05.805 That's how they communicate with each other. 00:08:06.652 --> 00:08:11.458 >> [Sammy] Our musical thing has like -- it's like really become something, 00:08:11.458 --> 00:08:12.878 and it's become a part of us. 00:08:14.109 --> 00:08:20.500 There's going to be nobody like him to do it with again and, like, that's going to be really hard. 00:08:21.070 --> 00:08:25.826 >> [Zach] I find that with my situation it is unchartered ground at the other end. 00:08:25.826 --> 00:08:31.054 I have closure, and she won't have closure. 00:08:32.331 --> 00:08:38.102 >> [Sammy] There are very, very, very few people I love as much as I love Zach. 00:08:38.102 --> 00:08:43.720 [Guitar music] 00:08:43.720 --> 00:08:49.078 >> [Zach] My closure is being able to get my feelings into these songs, 00:08:49.078 --> 00:08:56.059 so they can have something to remember me by or, you know, lean on when I was gone. 00:08:57.259 --> 00:09:00.965 >> For me it's Zach's way of saying, "I'm okay." 00:09:06.672 --> 00:09:08.453 Saying good-bye. 00:09:09.761 --> 00:09:16.059 And I'm just so grateful that it's there because I'm gonna need it later. 00:09:16.767 --> 00:09:23.412 >> [Sam] His music is kind of like a record of his like how much he cares for us. 00:09:23.966 --> 00:09:27.089 >> [Grace] There's a little song that we wrote me: "For my Grace." 00:09:27.889 --> 00:09:31.867 So, I'll keep that always with me constantly. 00:09:31.867 --> 00:09:34.761 [Guitar music] 00:09:34.761 --> 00:09:36.045 >> Yeah, we'll stop there. 00:09:36.045 --> 00:09:37.250 >> Okay. 00:09:38.589 --> 00:09:39.478 I love you. 00:09:39.478 --> 00:09:41.691 >> Aww, I love you too, Grace. 00:09:42.000 --> 00:09:44.321 See that's like the first time ever. 00:09:44.321 --> 00:09:45.098 >> Is it really? 00:09:45.098 --> 00:09:46.452 >> Pretty much. 00:09:48.576 --> 00:09:50.403 Yeah, she's pretty cool. 00:09:53.034 --> 00:09:58.836 I think with my diagnosis we've become a better and stronger family. 00:09:58.836 --> 00:10:01.421 We all love each other just that much more. 00:10:01.421 --> 00:10:05.534 Because when you go through stuff like that, you go through it together. 00:10:07.427 --> 00:10:09.721 >> You have to stick together as a family. 00:10:09.721 --> 00:10:11.640 I mean that's imperative. 00:10:11.640 --> 00:10:15.311 Because, you know, we've been there ever since Zach was first diagnosed. 00:10:15.311 --> 00:10:16.521 We've been there as a family. 00:10:16.521 --> 00:10:20.771 We are all together, and we have to make it through as a family together. 00:10:20.771 --> 00:10:23.588 >> [Ally] How I remember my brother? 00:10:23.588 --> 00:10:24.755 Happy. 00:10:24.755 --> 00:10:25.944 Always smiling. 00:10:25.944 --> 00:10:29.670 Always limping around with his funny little walk. 00:10:29.670 --> 00:10:32.246 That's as simple as it is -- happy, I guess. 00:10:34.246 --> 00:10:41.043 >> My friends -- I don't know if they've accepted, you know, me being terminal or not. 00:10:41.043 --> 00:10:46.133 They know that if they just treat me the same everything will be fine, honestly. 00:10:47.087 --> 00:10:52.366 >> He someone you can trust is going to smiling the next day despite his condition. 00:10:53.920 --> 00:10:56.347 >> He is kind of just like a light in this school. 00:10:56.347 --> 00:11:00.272 If I have a bad day, it's not actually really a bad day if I am complaining about something. 00:11:00.272 --> 00:11:02.681 It's all about perspective, I think. 00:11:03.420 --> 00:11:07.826 >> He will always live on in my life because of the values he's taught me, the memories we've had. 00:11:08.903 --> 00:11:11.153 They are so ingrained in who I am as a person. 00:11:14.862 --> 00:11:18.498 >> Amy -- she's a smart girl. 00:11:18.498 --> 00:11:22.753 We knew he was terminal when they started dating, and she knew that. 00:11:22.753 --> 00:11:26.401 She sat down with her mom and talked through it and what they decided was, 00:11:26.401 --> 00:11:29.707 "Would you date him if he didn't have cancer?" and she said, "Yeah." 00:11:29.707 --> 00:11:33.638 She's really helped him through some hard times. 00:11:34.931 --> 00:11:40.393 >> One of our first dates was -- we planned a picnic, you know, just in a park somewhere. 00:11:40.393 --> 00:11:43.815 >> I knew he had, um -- he was going in for scans that day. 00:11:43.815 --> 00:11:49.070 >> We get the results back and my doctor walks in and she's pretty quiet and she looks pretty serious. 00:11:49.070 --> 00:11:50.447 And it's like, well, it can't be that bad. 00:11:50.447 --> 00:11:51.640 I mean, come on. 00:11:51.640 --> 00:11:55.193 And she goes, "So, you've got a collapsed lung." 00:11:55.193 --> 00:11:56.995 I'm like, "Oh, okay." 00:11:56.995 --> 00:12:02.132 >> I broke down crying because it was like the first time that it was real that he had cancer 00:12:02.132 --> 00:12:05.132 because before it was, everything seemed normal. 00:12:05.132 --> 00:12:07.797 >> I was like, can I at least go to the picnic and then come back and have surgery? 00:12:07.797 --> 00:12:10.216 And they were like, "No, we need to do this now." 00:12:10.216 --> 00:12:16.399 >> He was so devastated because all he cared about was getting to that date. 00:12:16.399 --> 00:12:22.309 >> Yeah, I was pretty angry that I had to miss the picnic because who doesn't like a good picnic? 00:12:22.309 --> 00:12:24.100 I mean, ya' know? It's awesome. 00:12:25.024 --> 00:12:26.360 Stupid lung. 00:12:28.314 --> 00:12:30.598 [Music] 00:12:30.598 --> 00:12:31.382 >> Good morning! 00:12:31.751 --> 00:12:32.611 >> Good morning. 00:12:33.488 --> 00:12:34.574 >> Why are you all dressed up? 00:12:34.574 --> 00:12:36.533 >> Oh, yeah, it's for school. 00:12:36.840 --> 00:12:38.373 >> For what? 00:12:39.511 --> 00:12:41.605 >> We're not going to school today. 00:12:43.391 --> 00:12:44.444 >> Where are we going? 00:12:44.444 --> 00:12:45.814 >> I'll tell you. 00:12:46.753 --> 00:12:48.223 >> I want to know where we're going. 00:12:48.838 --> 00:12:53.418 >> Just - no. Start driving and I'll tell you. 00:12:54.637 --> 00:13:00.365 ♫ And now we demonstrated it to the cops. And all the things we said. We were self-assured. 00:13:02.843 --> 00:13:07.615 ♫ Cause it's a long road to wisdom, but it's a short one to being ignored. 00:13:10.277 --> 00:13:23.405 ♫ Be in my eyes. Be in my heart. Be in my eyes ai yai yai. And be in my heart. 00:13:26.375 --> 00:13:28.427 ♫ So now I think that I could love you back. ♫ 00:13:28.427 --> 00:13:32.544 >> I almost burst into tears just because it was so perfect -- 00:13:32.544 --> 00:13:38.167 a picnic basket of cold pizza which pretty much defines our relationship right there. 00:13:40.460 --> 00:13:46.154 ♫ It takes a man to live. It takes a woman to make him compromise. ♫ 00:13:48.816 --> 00:13:52.068 >> [Amy] We know what we both would want in our future. 00:13:52.068 --> 00:13:55.711 We know that we love each other just the same amount. 00:13:57.358 --> 00:14:05.709 Well, we've talked about getting married and having kids and our jobs. 00:14:05.709 --> 00:14:08.543 We do that a lot when we have bad days. 00:14:08.543 --> 00:14:14.507 So, like, when we start to cry, that's when we'll sit down and just plan it all out. 00:14:14.507 --> 00:14:16.800 >> We'd have four -- three or four kids. 00:14:16.800 --> 00:14:18.086 We haven't decided yet. 00:14:18.086 --> 00:14:21.757 But I kind of want four because you can have two boys and two girls then. 00:14:21.757 --> 00:14:25.255 Because that's what we have in our family, and it worked out pretty well. 00:14:25.255 --> 00:14:32.729 It's one of those things that, you know, it's like your ultimate dream kind of thing. 00:14:34.945 --> 00:14:39.115 Most people just ignore it, or most people think, "Ah, it'll never happen." 00:14:39.115 --> 00:14:42.804 And, you know, mine, obviously, probably won't. 00:14:46.205 --> 00:14:56.423 >> Um, I think the moment I'm most scared about is leaving the hospital after he's gone 00:14:56.423 --> 00:15:03.290 and knowing that he's not coming with and having to walk out of there. 00:15:04.767 --> 00:15:09.646 >> I will actually love her to death -- till my death. 00:15:09.646 --> 00:15:12.396 But, yeah, it's -- that's the thing. 00:15:12.396 --> 00:15:18.915 It's like, "why not get married" because, you know, til death do us part and I'm dying 00:15:18.915 --> 00:15:20.311 so we better get on this. 00:15:20.311 --> 00:15:21.585 That kind of thing. 00:15:22.217 --> 00:15:26.914 But, yeah, I do love her to death; and I will forever. 00:15:27.652 --> 00:15:39.429 [Music playing] 00:15:39.429 --> 00:15:41.190 >> Do you know a dance to this? 00:15:41.190 --> 00:15:42.878 No? 00:15:42.878 --> 00:15:45.411 >> You can walk down the isle to this. 00:15:46.887 --> 00:15:48.204 >> Okay, Sobiech family. 00:15:48.204 --> 00:15:50.058 Everyone come downstairs. 00:15:51.350 --> 00:15:55.729 So, I'm Justin, and I'm the director, and we are here making a little documentary 00:15:55.729 --> 00:15:58.877 about your amazing family member. 00:15:58.877 --> 00:16:07.751 And I came here and I was expecting to meet a great kid who had a cool YouTube video and was inspiring, 00:16:07.751 --> 00:16:13.167 but I was not expecting to meet a 17-year-old that would change my life. 00:16:13.167 --> 00:16:17.880 So, when I first contacted your mom, I told her I wanted to make a music video for you, 00:16:17.880 --> 00:16:19.782 which we just, unfortunately, could't do. 00:16:19.782 --> 00:16:25.828 But what I was able to do was reach out to a few people, and I just told them your story. 00:16:26.429 --> 00:16:30.477 And I told them I wanted to do something for you because you've done so much for us. 00:16:30.477 --> 00:16:33.096 What resulted was something very special. 00:16:33.096 --> 00:16:34.429 I just want you to know, 00:16:34.429 --> 00:16:38.234 this stuff is not happening because you're dying. 00:16:38.234 --> 00:16:41.680 It is really because of the way you are living. 00:16:41.680 --> 00:16:43.766 I just want you to know that. 00:16:46.074 --> 00:16:50.205 >> [Bryan Cranston] Zach, such a beautiful song. This is for you. 00:16:50.205 --> 00:16:55.376 [Music - Clouds] 00:16:55.376 --> 00:16:56.335 >> Look at that. 00:16:56.335 --> 00:16:59.345 [Laughing] 00:16:59.345 --> 00:17:04.719 ♫ Well I fell down, down, down into this dark and lonely hole. ♫ 00:17:04.719 --> 00:17:08.621 >> You can just tell that they all loved Zach's story and admire him so much 00:17:08.621 --> 00:17:10.892 and it was amazing to see. 00:17:10.892 --> 00:17:12.394 >> He was in awe. 00:17:12.394 --> 00:17:15.912 Like, he could't believe it, and none of us could. 00:17:15.989 --> 00:17:24.404 ♫ You were sitting there holding a rope. And we'll go up, up, up, but I'll fly a little higher. 00:17:24.404 --> 00:17:28.542 ♫ It won't be long now, it won't be long now. ♫ 00:17:28.542 --> 00:17:30.953 >> The most bizarre thing I think I've ever seen. 00:17:30.953 --> 00:17:32.438 Craziest feeling in the world. 00:17:35.792 --> 00:17:40.088 >> Seeing everybody who loves him at the end -- it made me cry. 00:17:40.088 --> 00:17:41.785 >> It really makes me want to keep on going. 00:17:41.785 --> 00:17:44.728 00:17:44.728 --> 00:17:53.811 [Music] 00:17:53.811 --> 00:17:56.896 >> Aww, Grace. 00:17:56.896 --> 00:18:06.495 Grace you've been my best friend for 14 years, and we've done so much together. 00:18:08.034 --> 00:18:12.863 It's going to be tough goin', but you got to keep being strong. 00:18:13.787 --> 00:18:16.401 You got to kick some butt on the basketball court too. 00:18:18.340 --> 00:18:20.227 You take them to the championship. 00:18:21.674 --> 00:18:28.693 Sam, oh, you've been the best big brother anyone could ever ask for. 00:18:29.924 --> 00:18:32.091 You've given me so much knowledge. 00:18:34.044 --> 00:18:39.915 You've helped me through so much and I think it's important that you know that I love you 00:18:39.915 --> 00:18:46.863 because being guys I don't think we say it too much but I do love you so much. 00:18:49.616 --> 00:18:55.010 Ally, squeeze from the back of the toothpaste bottle. 00:18:55.917 --> 00:18:57.779 [Laughing] 00:18:59.733 --> 00:19:08.494 I'm going to miss you so much because you've always kept me strong in my faith and everything. 00:19:13.679 --> 00:19:19.467 Mom and Dad, you are the best parents that anyone could ever ask for. 00:19:19.467 --> 00:19:28.691 I could only wish I could have kids and raise them like you raised me because you did one hell of a job. 00:19:30.907 --> 00:19:35.935 You're the best parents anyone could ever ask for, and I love both of you so much. 00:19:37.966 --> 00:19:40.543 And thank you for being my parents. 00:19:41.513 --> 00:19:45.338 [Guitar music] 00:19:45.338 --> 00:19:49.550 Life is just really beautiful moments one right after the other. 00:19:49.550 --> 00:19:52.700 All of these experiences are super, super cool. 00:19:52.700 --> 00:19:58.115 All of them are giving me just a little bit more closure on everything and kind of accepting everything 00:19:58.115 --> 00:19:59.565 a little bit more. 00:19:59.565 --> 00:20:00.646 00:20:00.646 --> 00:20:31.378 [Music] 00:20:31.378 --> 00:20:38.767 >> He's shown me that it's not all about the grades you get or how cool you are in high school. 00:20:38.767 --> 00:20:43.602 It's about doing what makes you happy and no matter when you are going to go to live life 00:20:43.602 --> 00:20:45.023 to the fullest every day. 00:20:46.268 --> 00:20:48.152 >> It's really simple, actually. 00:20:48.152 --> 00:20:51.959 It's just try and make people happy. 00:20:51.959 --> 00:20:53.030 Maybe you have learn it when it's time. 00:20:53.030 --> 00:20:56.802 Maybe you have to learn it the hard way, but as long as you learn it you're going to make 00:20:56.802 --> 00:20:58.388 the world a better place. 00:20:58.988 --> 00:21:03.824 >> I think that's actually one of the blessings of cancer is that you kind of come out of denial. 00:21:03.824 --> 00:21:09.298 And so in doing that things are better. 00:21:09.298 --> 00:21:12.075 That life is richer. 00:21:12.075 --> 00:21:15.802 Everything means more. 00:21:15.802 --> 00:21:20.139 Beauty is more beautiful. 00:21:20.139 --> 00:21:22.388 He's a beutiful person. 00:21:22.992 --> 00:21:26.765 And I'm am so happy to have been Zach Sobiech's mom. 00:21:28.888 --> 00:21:33.570 >> Death is just another thing on the agenda kind of. 00:21:33.570 --> 00:21:35.840 Yeah, it's scary, but the only reason it's scary because you don't know 00:21:35.840 --> 00:21:40.050 what's next or if there is a next. 00:21:40.050 --> 00:21:43.292 So, it's kind of like sitting in the dark. 00:21:43.292 --> 00:21:48.835 So, you can choose to be freaking out in the dark and thinking, okay what's out there? 00:21:48.835 --> 00:21:55.896 Or you can just relax and fall asleep and just be happy and content with everything. 00:21:58.220 --> 00:22:07.978 I want to be remembered as a kid who went down fighting and didn't really lose. 00:22:10.984 --> 00:22:14.984