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In truth, there is no High or Low in this Universe
but for the sake of our understanding,
at the highest level of this Universe,
all is integrated, all is one;
at the lower levels,
there are different dimensions
and different facets of this Universe.
The Universe is essentially un-integrated.
And you are no different than the Universe.
In fact, you mirror and reflect the Universe.
At your highest level, all is integrated, all is one.
Your physical, aetheric, feeling, thinking and spiritual bodies
are all one.
They're all just Energy expressing Itself.
At a lower level,
these aspects of you are like different dimensions of you.
They are different expressions of the same consciousness.
They are overlaid upon one another.
Today I'm going to talk to you about the Feeling Body.
The Feeling Body is what most people call the Emotional Body.
So you can use these two terms interchangeably.
Your Feeling Body is the truth of who you are at a feeling-level.
This layer of you contains the imprints of the emotional aspect of your memories
as well as your current emotional state.
It is the bridge between our Physical Selves and our Thinking Selves.
The Feeling Body interprets and translates the thoughts projected forth by both,
your Consciousness and also, by your Human Mind - into feeling-states
or feeling-signatures.
This is the first step that takes place for a Being to have
a first-hand Experience of a Thought.
This enables the Thought to be actualized instead of remain abstract, which in turn
enables us to learn and gain awareness better (and faster) and enables universal
as well as Personal Expansion.
Because of the Emotional Body, Man is able to experience their own thoughts.
The thoughts are converted into feeling-impressions.
The physical body then interprets those feeling-impressions,
as if translating the message.
It converts those feeling-messages into neuropeptides and hormones
that cause the physical reactions in our body that we call emotions.
Emotions ranging from anger to fear, to stress, to irritation, to love,
compassion, hope and happiness.
The Feeling Body specializes in feeling.
Feeling is not only about emotion,
it is about sensation and perception.
Even though emotion does not exist beyond the physical body,
feeling does exist beyond the physical body.
An emotion is a physiological experience of a feeling.
A Feeling is a sensation-based perception
and form of awareness.
The Feeling Body is not an actual tangible body
like the physical body is.
But it can be understood and represented
through the format of an 'actual' body.
Often you will find that the Emotional Body
represents itself symbolically to you
in dream-time or in an Out-of-Body Experience,
through the context of an actual 'body'.
With practice you won't need to facilitate
an altered-consciousness experience, like meditation,
in order to see someone's Emotional Body
or, at least the symbolic representation of their Emotional Body.
You can switch your focus at will
and see that layer of a person's Consciousness.
Here's an example of the first time
I asked for the Emotional Body of one of my relatives
to convery itself as an actual body-image.
I had always considered myself to be
more unstable and affected than this particular relative of mine.
After all he is stoic,
he believes in hard work,
he has a confident, independent air about him,
he has a "Gotta break some eggs to make an omelette" attitude about life.
But when his Feeling Body revealed itself to me,
it was gray-blue in color,
it was hunched-over at the shoulders,
it was leaning lopsidedly to its left,
its gaze was towards the floor,
its movements were contained,
and most shockingly of all,
it was covered (especially the left-side of its face)
with large, disfiguring, raised-scars.
Scars bad-enough that it was as if they
had been caused by a meat-grinder.
The energy of my relative's Emotional Body
was the energy of Suppression
and deeply imprisoned Grief.
Inherent within this experience is a general tendency
that you see within the Universe ...
that is, that when we have a severe wound
that is made to one level of our Consciousness,
the other level will compensate.
For example:
Somebody who is wounded on an emotional level
will compensate with their body.
Someone who has a very weak
or an unhealthy Emotional Body
might have a very strong and confident
exterior body ('physical' body).
Or, that same scenario -
someone that has a weakened Emotional Body
might display an extreme strength
in their Spiritual Body -
they may be able to induce out-of-body experiences at will,
they may be able to switch into a more enlightened Perspective.
But this compensation that's done
on one level or another, of a Being,
creates a fractured Self.
It creates a Consciousness
that is in a state of Non-Integration.
So why is the Feeling Body so important?
It is the translator
between the observer-based consciousness of the Mind and first-person physical
experience-based consciousness of the Person.
It is what makes us able us to experience Thought as 'real'.
In fact, without your feelings
nothing about your physical reality would seem real.
Your sense of Life,
and feeling-based conclusions about Life,
are contained within the Feeling Body.
Your interpretations
are contained within the Feeling Body.
Your emotional trauma
is contained within the Emotional Body.
If your interpretations of Life
are experienced as painful emotions,
and if your sense of Life is painful,
and if the feeling-based conclusions
you've drawn about Life are painful,
and if the feeling-state of your memories are painful,
and your feelings dictate what is real and what is not,
then your Feeling Body will continue to convey
those painful messages to the body -
which will be interpreted as unpleasant emotion
within the body.
This leads to an unhappy life.
This leads to addiction.
This leads to failed relationships.
Basically, this leads to the physical reflection of those emotional states.
And you can not stop reliving,
and reliving, the trauma.
This means you can't ever be in the present moment.
You can't ever be fully present with yourself in the here and now.
Because the past trauma
continues to come up again and again
in order to reintegrate itself.
It is asking you to become Whole.
This means
that if I experienced an interaction
with my father when I was young
where I felt abandoned -
I will continue to create and manifest
more and more and more scenarios
over the course of my life
where I feel abandoned.
If healing must occur
on the emotional and feeling level of your life,
then you must address those issues
on the feeling and emotional level,
no other level.
But here's the catch -
The minute that you decide you need to heal
something about your emotions,
you have now made an enemy of your emotions.
You have made them not OK.
You've decided that you need to fix something about them.
And so, you are in a state of Resistance to them.
The minute you say "I need to heal"
this implies you have to change or fix something about yourself,
which means that you disapprove of yourself.
The best way to damage yourself emotionally
is to look at yourself, as if something needs to change.
You know how painful it is to have someone tell you that you are not OK
the way you are, that you have to be different.
This is how the Feeling Body feels
when we convey that it is not OK,
that It needs to be different.
If we approach our Feeling Body
with an attitude of "I need to fix you!",
you have just taken a serrated knife to a wound.
You have not healed anything.
So what's the alternative?
The alternative it to completely embrace
your emotions and your feelings,
no matter how painful or uncomfortable they may be.
The alternative is to completely be present with
and to sit with your emotions.
It's to learn from them -
to hear what they want you to hear,
to see what they want you to see.
It is to be fully present,
without asking them to change.
We call this the process of Integration instead of 'Healing'.
Every day, for 20 minutes at least and any time you have a particularly intense
emotional reaction to something, find a quiet and comfortable place
to completely be with how you feel.
Observe the sensations and feelings and emotions in your body.
They will intensify as you focus on them.
Breath continuously without unnecessary pauses between-breaths,
breathing in and out the nose.
Notice the way you feel.
Your entire goal is to be with your feelings,
which is to fully be with yourself.
If you like,
you can repeat one sentence to your emotions, like a mantra
"I am completely here with you now".
Keep in mind
that this process is not only for negative emotional states,
it's also for positive emotional states.
It just so happens
that we most often suppress,
and try to distance ourselves from,
negative emotional states.
That's why they are un-integrated.
But some people find
that being with their positive emotions
is in fact, more difficult
than being with their negative ones.
After you have been with the emotion completely
no matter how uncomfortable it is,
and you feel like you want to know more about the emotion,
ask yourself three questions.
The first question is: "How do I feel?"
This is the opportunity to bring the feelings
to your conscious awareness,
and name what is occurring within you.
Two: "When did I last experience this exact same feeling?"
Without looking for the answer,
allow your Being to offer-up the answer
like a stream washing something downstream to you.
Three: "When did I first experience this same feeling in my life?"
Again, without looking for the answer,
allow your Being to offer-up the answer,
like a stream washing something downstream to you.
If nothing comes, be patient with that.
The most important thing to realize about this process
is that it will unfold exactly as it's meant to.
The most crucial part of doing this process
is to trust the process fully,
because that's to trust Yourself
to know what It needs to do to re-integrate,
which It does.
Oftentimes, when we, in our feeling-state,
our charged feeling-state,
experience that traumatic memory,
the memory happened at such a young age
that we did not have our cognitive understanding yet.
Our brain was not fully formed.
We were in the Emotional Self instead of in the Mental Self,
because the Mental Self begins to kick-in around 8-years old.
So if you have integrated,
or are in the process of integrating,
a memory that happened before age 8,
then you will know
that you may not get solid images in association with a memory.
You may literally only be dealing with emotions
that you have no context for.
That's OK.
Trust yourself.
You not need to have cognitive understanding
unless you're meant to have cognitive understanding.
Unless having that cognitive understanding,
that logical understanding,
of what is occurring within you emotionally
is a part of you integrating and healing
the Emotional Body.
If you find yourself experiencing
an emotionally-traumatic memory,
observe the memory, and then,
mentally alter the memory
in a way that feels emotionally positive.
This is what they call Inner-Child Work.
For example:
If you're taken into a memory where your father left you,
imagine the Adult-You approaching the Child-You,
and, enabling the Child to feel better.
Either become the stable parent for your Inner Child
or give the Child a reliable father figure of their choice,
or explain the entire situation objectively to the Child,
and help them to not take the experience so personally.
Altering a memory in this way
actually changes the causation of that trauma.
All things you experience in your life,
are in essence,
an effect of the original trauma
which you experienced in your childhood.
When you go back in your mind,
and you alter the experience in memory,
you alter all of the branches
that are coming off of that root.
All of the symptoms,
which are the surface events that you are experiencing,
will change as a result of it.
You are affecting the blueprint of your entire reality,
because we live in a Universe where Time does not exist.
To demonstrate this process,
I'm gonna have Blake show us how it's done.
I'll be leading him through the process.
But, in reality, you're going to be leading yourself through this very same
process - after you have sat with, and been with, your emotion completely.
You wanna do this whenever you have a charged emotion.
In other words, you wanna do this whenever something in your reality
upsets you.
But you can also do it, in general, as a check-in with Yourself.
That's what we're gonna be doing with Blake today.
T: So, what I want you to do is to close your eyes.
T: and I want you to continuously breath.
T: So this is what it should sound like.
T: «breathes in and out, to demonstrate»
T: «breathes in and out, to demonstrate» B: «follows Teal»
We want no unnecessary pauses between breaths.
This allows our Consciousness
to come to the present moment.
Those unnecessary pauses
happens only when the Consciousness is disconnected
from the present moment.
When we are breathing in,
that takes a bit of effort,
but it takes no effort «exhales» to release that breath.
T: So tell us what you are feeling in your body.
B: Calm ... a little bit of anxiety ...
T: Where is the anxiety?
B: Kind of, like, in the center of my body ...
B: Like in front of my spine ...
B: Up my spine ...
T: How do you know it's anxiety?
B: Because it feels like ... unease ...
Teal: Did you see as he just touched his face?
Teal: What that means is he's trying to
Teal: get rid off his attention on that painful emotion.
Teal: That's why a lot of times
Teal: when we are in meditation,
Teal: we feel the urge to scratch.
Teal: That's our body and our Being
Teal: trying to distract us
Teal: from being with that painful emotion.
Teal: So when you're doing this Process
Teal: try to refrain from doing that.
T: Express to us, as if you were describing in a poem,
T: what Anxiety feels like.
B: Uh, it feels like static on the top of water ...
T: Now I want you to internally,
T: to recite to yourself,
T: "I am completely here with you now" to that feeling.
B: Out loud?
T: You'll be doing it internally, mentally when you're doing this process.
T: You could say it out loud right now, if you want ...
B: "I am completely here with you in this Process"
T: Now, I want you to ask that feeling-sensation within your body:
T: "When was the last time I experienced this?"
T: "When was the last time that this signature came to be?"
B: When was the last time or when was the first time?
T: Last time.
B: Over on the table over there ...
T: Does the emotion want you to know anything
T: about when you were over on the table?
T: Any images or ... ?
The answer might be NO, it doesn't matter.
What we're doing right now is becoming completely present
with that particular emotion.
We're getting to know it better.
B: It wants me to stop drinking coffee ...
T: Interesting ...
B: Or, that it is, coffee ...
T: «laughs» B: «laughs»
B: Hell, I don't know how to tell it apart ...
T: That's OK ...
We don't want to take our thinking mind into the emotions.
We want the emotions to come up
and meet the thinking mind,
if it wants to.
T: So then I want you to ask yourself:
T: "When was the first time I ever experienced "
T: "this particular emotion?"
B: "When was the first time I ever experienced this emotion?"
Keeping in mind that your, your thinking mind will want
to give you a laid-out scenario,
but, don't let your mind go looking for that scenario.
Sit with this ...
If you're meant to receive images,
or if you're meant to receive any cognitive understanding
of that particular emotion, it will come to you.
Otherwise, you're most likely dealing with something
you've experienced at such a young age
that you had no way of cognitively understanding your experience,
only emotionally understanding your experience.
B: In the crib ...
B: Uh, wondering if someone's going to come back ...
T: OK - so how did that come to you?
T: Were you ... was it first-person perspective?
T: Was it third-person perspective?
B: Third-person ...
T: So you were watching yourself?
B: Yeah ...
What that means,
is that this particular memory
was traumatic enough
that the Consciousness separated
from its first-person experience of it.
This is the heart of Suppressed Memory.
B: It was a mix - I saw both ...
T: That's good - that means that you,
T: when you're re-integrating with first-person
T: perspective, that means you're coming back into
T: welcoming the experience.
B: Totally experiencing Bulbous/Tiny right now.
T: OK, well close your eyes - we want that.
Bulbous/Teeny is an experience that you have, on a physiological level,
or oftentimes when we're dealing with emotions that are too intense.
It's the feeling of being very, very large
and then very, very small ...
So he's having a physiological reaction to
the reintegration of this particular
traumatic memory and emotion.
B: Hey, just be here ... T: Sit with it ...
T: Do you see that Child?
T: Now that you have been with that emotion,
T: as long as you're not wanting to escape from that emotion,
T: It's time for you to alter that memory.
T: This is your opportunity to do
T: whatever you need to do to make that Child
T: feel emotionally different ...
B: To?
T: Or to be ...
T: Rather than say that - let's say
T: "To be completely with that Child's emotion"
T: Do we need to pick the Child up?
B: Yeah ...
T: Then, do ...
B: Myself, or somebody else?
T: Which feels better?
B: «amused , laughs»
B: Uh, I think ... I can't understand myself pickup up myself ...
T: Who would the Child want to have ... pick it up?
T: An Angel, a Guide? ... ... Who?
B: Sure - a Light Being ...
T: OK, now imagine a Light Being going over
T: and picking up that baby ...
T: and comforting the baby and telling the baby that its not alone...
T: Whatever words need to be conveyed
T: or emotions,
T: or actions need to be conveyed
T: in order to be present with that Child
T: in that state of emotion -
T: that's what we want to do ...
B: I dunno what will make ...
B: I mean this ... Bulbous/Teeny is ... intense ...
T: Then be with that emotion
T: See right now, it's so intense
T: that you want to escape from the emotion ...
But that's what we do when we smoke cigarettes,
that's what we do when we try to exercise,
that's what we do when we get other people
to act in a way that makes us feel better.
We're trying to escape the emotion ...
which doesn't allow for integration.
T: Breath ... continuously into that emotion ...
T: «breathes»
B: It's feeling better ...
B: It's OK ...
T: Now can you watch the Child
T: being picked up by the Light Being?
T: Enable that Light Being to tell the Child
T: that its never going to be left behind.
B: I'm trying to feel like, what that would feel like -
B: being 'picked up' But I can't really get there
B: because I'm still in this ... other feeling ...
T: Well, do you feel like you need to sit
T: with that emotion longer?
B: Yeah.
T: Then do that.
T: Don't forget to breath ...
The minute we stop continuously breathing,
we have gone back into time
instead of bringing time forward into
where we are.
We are no longer in the present.
B: Oh, words of affirmation ought to make It feel better.
T: Good.
B: Which is weird, because I'm usually so resistant to that.
T: That's part of why you're so resistant to that.
B: Why? Because ... ?
T: No, that's for another day ... «giggles»
T: You will find out the Why of your life,
T: and the Meaning of your life, and the coincidence,
T: and the coherence, I should say,
T: between everything
T: once you start doing this Process.
T: So what I ... what I ... I want you to try something ...
B: OK ...
T: This is an Intuitive-thing for me ...
T: I want you to try picking that baby up
T: and fashioning a carrier around that aspect
T: of your Consciousness, your Adult Consciousness
T: A carrier around your body, like a baby carrier
T: Put that baby inside of the carrier
T: and say - "I'm never going to put you down"
T: "You're never going to be in a crib again".
B: OK ...
T: How do you feel emotionally?
B: Uhm, not sure I trusted that ...
T: What is it going to take for the Child to trust that?
T: Time?
B: I suppose ... i don't know ...
T: Ask the Child ...
T: Even though they can't use words, cause they're that young
T: they can convey emotions.
T: It was you, you'll have an internal knowing
B: Uhm, 'play' or something ...
T: Then do that ...
This is our opportunity as adults
to meet our child's, internal child's, needs.
This is our opportunity ... to ...
be completely with them in the feeling that they feel.
To enable them to feel emotionally better.
B: I've experienced this ...
B: ... this Bulbous/Teeny, like, throughout my whole life.
B: More so, when I was, like ... under 10? ...
B: Ah, but I've never felt it this intense.
B: Maybe ... back then, was when I felt it most intensely,
B: but right now, it's just ... so heavy ...
T: That means that that feeling is it's own feeling-signature
T: which is attached to the other one
T: which you originally went looking for,
T: and this is the one that wants to be re-integrated now.
B: OK ...
T: So what you wanna do
T: is stay completely with the Bulbous/Teeny ...
B: Yeah ...
T: ... Itself and ask those same questions, of It ...
T: "When was the last time I felt this?"
T: "When was the first time I felt this?"
B: Last time I felt this ...
B: ... it's a few months ago ... a year ago ...
T: Conditions?
B: Oh, I don't know ... maybe in bed distressed ...
B: ... or stressed about the situation ...
T: That's why its linked to stress. B: Yeah ...
T: OK - so let's go back ...
T: "When was the first time I experienced this experience?"
B: I feel like if I put a number on it, it's like, 2 ...
T: Don't put a number on it.
T: I just want you to be with those emotions.
T: You may not ... this may be so young,
T: that you don't have any cognitive understanding
T: of this emotion.
B: Probably ...
T: Just go all ... go back ...
T: When you ask yourself that question,
T: instantly your Being will transport you
T: to that original ... emotion.
B: I almost feel like I've never felt like this before ...
T: OK, explain it, describe it ...
B: I ... it just ... uhm, I don't know,
B: my hand feels like it's ... it's like ... a building ...
B: ... and I'm ...
T: Good, continue to breath into that feeling ...
B: This is so heavy ...
T: "I am completely here with you now"
B: «whispers» "I am completely here with you now"
T: Ask if there's anything this feeling wants you to know ...
Keep in mind that this Process
may be very long for you to do.
Somebody like Blake, who's been in the practice
of identifying their emotions, and being with their emotions,
for a great many years,
will be able to facilitate this process much quicker.
So, don't be upset with yourself
if this takes you a long time to do.
B: "Is there anything this feeling wants me to know right now?"
T: Or see ...
T: Or hear ...
B: I feel like I'm swimming around in, like,
B: infant-memories kinda ... maybe even birth ...
T: Mmm-hmmm ...
B: It might be birth ...
T: It might be in-utero ...
B: Yeah ...
B: Maybe right ... right before birth ...
T: Yes ...
B: Yeah - like coming out ... T: Mmm-hmmm
B: of the womb, I guess ... B: Whoa!
T: «giggles» T: Yeah ...
B: I thought it was impossible to remember something like this?
T: Hell, no ...
T: In fact, we all remember it, we've just suppressed the memory.
B: Uh, yeah - it's coming out ...
T: Do you believe in Suppressed Memory yet?
B: Unh ... ... guess so ...
T: «laughs»
B: Yeah, it's like the feeling of birth.
B: It's like falling out ...
B: It's like I'm so heavy that I'm falling out ... or ...
B: ... so suppressed ...
T: Well, when the waters break,
T: that's the first time you will actually feel the pull of gravity.
B: Yeah ...
T: Did that occur to you?
B: Yeah, it feels like gravity ...
B: Feels like I'm going to fall through the floor ...
T: «laughs» Yeah ...
B: Okay ...
B: Yeah, it sucks ...
T: «laughs»
T: So how do you support this baby?
B: Ah...
T: Just re-experience it ... go through the birth process ...
B: How do I support it?
B: «mumbles»
T: Just be with it, you're not ready yet, can you feel that?
T: The first, well it wasn't the very first,
T: but one of the first times you abandoned yourself, emotionally,
T: is when you were experiencing that and you wanted to pull back from that.
T: So, right now, in the process of re-integration
T: has you going back through that process with yourself.
B: «whispers» Sure ... OK ... ... So ...
T: «laughs»
T: Can you ...
B: No, I'm just like shaking ... and heavy and ...
B: So now, I'm cold ...
T: Hmmmm ...
T: Classic birth experience.
B: «jokingly» "It's cold out here!"
T: Do you feel like you wanna be with those emotions,
T: or would you like to change the causation?
B: What do you mean?
T: Changing the causation means to make some alteration
T: to the causation of that emotion.
T: How could you make that experience ... different?
B: Uh, understanding?
T: Yes.
It's important that he just said that
because even the act of observing
and being with this,
has altered it forever.
T: Do you feel like you need to do anything more
T: with the memory?
T: Do feel like you need to witness the baby
T: being supported and comforted and in a space of warmth?
T: What needs to happen?
B: I don't think so, actually ...
T: Nice ...
B: Yeah, just kind of going through that,
B: and maybe knowing what it is now ...
B: That was really good ...
T: Keep ... keep breathing ...
B: It was like a ... ... ... relief?
T: That's because your were completely present with yourself.
T: This was one of the first times you did not abandon yourself.
Teal: Which you do, abandon yourself,
Teal: any time you want to get away from
Teal: an emotion that you're feeling,
Teal: or change it,
Teal: or fix it.
Teal: Uh-oh, the whole Self-Help Industry is out-the-window!
T: «laughs» B: «laughs»
T: So now, with your cognitive understanding,
T: seeing as how you experienced
T: that feeling we just went into
T: as something that's happening in real time,
T: because it was 'triggered'?
T: That memory - your birth-trauma memory,
T: was triggered by something happening today
T: which is nothing but a reflection - a mirror -
T: of that original experience.
T: So, what experience do you find
T: keeps replicating itself throughout your life,
T: as a mirror of that original birth experience?
T: Cause that is a feeling-signature that continues, when ... ?
B: Stress!
T: Uh-huh ... and why are you in stress right now?
B: I have no idea ... «laughs»
T: Are you kidding me?
B: What ... just filming?
T: We're moving ...
B: Yeah, we're moving ... away from home ...
T: «laughs»
B: «laughs»
T: That, my friend, is to be present with yourself, completely.
T: Thank you, Blake ...
Writing about your experience with being
with your Feeling Body is a good idea
because it will not only make your Emotional Body
feel as if you care about it,
it will help you to understand and integrate the experience
you have just had.
Keep this in mind
as you go about your life and your day.
Anytime you experience something
as upsetting or uncomfortable,
it is a triggered memory.
You are not, in fact, living anything new in your life.
You are experiencing nothing but reflections
from your childhood.
There is no exceptions to this rule.
The reason that we are so reactive,
we get upset,
we blame the person
who is coming towards us,
and 'causing' us to feel that way -
is because we are unwilling
to fully be with our Emotional Body,
to be with our feeling-impressions,
and to reintegrate them.
So don't shoot the messenger.
These experiences which cause
extreme emotion to arise within us
are messengers from our subconscious.
They're begging you to reintegrate
your Emotional Body.
They're begging you
to reintegrate and become whole with yourself.
So listen to them,
and be with them,
and have a good week ...
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