♪ Intro Music ♪
In truth, there is no High or Low
in this Universe
but for the sake of our understanding,
at the highest level of this Universe,
all is integrated, all is one;
at the lower levels,
there are different dimensions
and different facets of this Universe.
The Universe is essentially un-integrated.
And you are no different than
the Universe.
In fact, you mirror and reflect
the Universe.
At your highest level, all is integrated,
all is one.
Your physical, aetheric, feeling,
thinking and spiritual bodies
are all one.
They're all just Energy expressing Itself.
At a lower level,
these aspects of you are like different
dimensions of you.
They are different expressions
of the same consciousness.
They are overlaid upon one another.
Today I'm going to talk to you about
the Feeling Body.
The Feeling Body is what most people
call the Emotional Body.
So you can use these two terms
interchangeably.
Your Feeling Body is the truth of who
you are at a feeling-level.
This layer of you contains the imprints of
the emotional aspect of your memories
as well as your current emotional state.
It is the bridge between our Physical
Selves and our Thinking Selves.
The Feeling Body interprets and translates
the thoughts projected forth by both,
your Consciousness and also, by your
Human Mind - into feeling-states
or feeling-signatures.
This is the first step that takes
place for a Being to have
a first-hand Experience of a Thought.
This enables the Thought to be actualized
instead of remain abstract, which in turn
enables us to learn and gain awareness
better (and faster) and enables universal
as well as Personal Expansion.
Because of the Emotional Body, Man
is able to experience their own thoughts.
The thoughts are converted into
feeling-impressions.
The physical body then interprets those
feeling-impressions,
as if translating the message.
It converts those feeling-messages
into neuropeptides and hormones
that cause the physical reactions in our
body that we call emotions.
Emotions ranging from anger to fear,
to stress, to irritation, to love,
compassion, hope and happiness.
The Feeling Body specializes in feeling.
Feeling is not only about emotion,
it is about sensation and perception.
Even though emotion does not exist
beyond the physical body,
feeling does exist beyond
the physical body.
An emotion is a physiological
experience of a feeling.
A Feeling is a sensation-based perception
and form of awareness.
The Feeling Body is not an actual
tangible body
like the physical body is.
But it can be understood and represented
through the format of an 'actual' body.
Often you will find that the Emotional
Body
represents itself symbolically to you
in dream-time or in an Out-of-Body
Experience,
through the context
of an actual 'body'.
With practice you won't
need to facilitate
an altered-consciousness experience,
like meditation,
in order to see someone's Emotional Body
or, at least the symbolic representation
of their Emotional Body.
You can switch your focus at will
and see that layer of a person's
Consciousness.
Here's an example of the first time
I asked for the Emotional
Body of one of my relatives
to convery itself as an
actual body-image.
I had always considered myself to be
more unstable and affected than
this particular relative of mine.
After all he is stoic,
he believes in hard work,
he has a confident, independent air
about him,
he has a "Gotta break some eggs to
make an omelette" attitude about life.
But when his Feeling Body revealed
itself to me,
it was gray-blue in color,
it was hunched-over
at the shoulders,
it was leaning lopsidedly to its left,
its gaze was towards the floor,
its movements were contained,
and most shockingly of all,
it was covered
(especially the left-side of its face)
with large, disfiguring, raised-scars.
Scars bad-enough
that it was as if they
had been caused by a meat-grinder.
The energy of my
relative's Emotional Body
was the energy of Suppression
and deeply imprisoned Grief.
Inherent within this experience is
a general tendency
that you see within the Universe ...
that is, that when we
have a severe wound
that is made to one level of our
Consciousness,
the other level will compensate.
For example:
Somebody who is wounded on
an emotional level
will compensate with their body.
Someone who has a very weak
or an unhealthy Emotional Body
might have a very
strong and confident
exterior body ('physical' body).
Or, that same scenario -
someone that has a weakened Emotional Body
might display an extreme strength
in their Spiritual Body -
they may be able to induce out-of-body
experiences at will,
they may be able to switch into a more
enlightened Perspective.
But this compensation that's done
on one level or another, of a Being,
creates a fractured Self.
It creates a Consciousness
that is in a state of Non-Integration.
So why is the Feeling Body so important?
It is the translator
between the observer-based consciousness
of the Mind and first-person physical
experience-based consciousness
of the Person.
It is what makes us able us to experience
Thought as 'real'.
In fact, without your feelings
nothing about your physical reality
would seem real.
Your sense of Life,
and feeling-based conclusions about Life,
are contained within the Feeling Body.
Your interpretations
are contained within the Feeling Body.
Your emotional trauma
is contained within the Emotional Body.
If your interpretations of Life
are experienced as painful emotions,
and if your sense of Life is painful,
and if the feeling-based conclusions
you've drawn about Life are painful,
and if the feeling-state of your memories
are painful,
and your feelings dictate what is real
and what is not,
then your Feeling Body will continue
to convey
those painful messages to the body -
which will be interpreted as
unpleasant emotion
within the body.
This leads to an unhappy life.
This leads to addiction.
This leads to failed relationships.
Basically, this leads to the physical
reflection of those emotional states.
And you can not stop reliving,
and reliving, the trauma.
This means you can't ever be
in the present moment.
You can't ever be fully present with
yourself in the here and now.
Because the past trauma
continues to come up again and again
in order to reintegrate itself.
It is asking you to become Whole.
This means
that if I experienced an interaction
with my father when I was young
where I felt abandoned -
I will continue to create and manifest
more and more and more scenarios
over the course of my life
where I feel abandoned.
If healing must occur
on the emotional and feeling level
of your life,
then you must address those issues
on the feeling and emotional level,
no other level.
But here's the catch -
The minute that you decide you need
to heal
something about your emotions,
you have now made an
enemy of your emotions.
You have made them not OK.
You've decided that you need to fix
something about them.
And so, you are in a state of Resistance
to them.
The minute you say "I need to heal"
this implies you have to change or fix
something about yourself,
which means that you disapprove
of yourself.
The best way to damage yourself
emotionally
is to look at yourself, as if something
needs to change.
You know how painful it is to have someone
tell you that you are not OK
the way you are,
that you have to be different.
This is how the Feeling Body feels
when we convey that it is not OK,
that It needs to be different.
If we approach our Feeling Body
with an attitude of "I need to fix you!",
you have just taken a serrated knife
to a wound.
You have not healed anything.
So what's the alternative?
The alternative it to completely embrace
your emotions and your feelings,
no matter how painful or uncomfortable
they may be.
The alternative is to completely be
present with
and to sit with your emotions.
It's to learn from them -
to hear what they want you to hear,
to see what they want you to see.
It is to be fully present,
without asking them to change.
We call this the process of Integration
instead of 'Healing'.
Every day, for 20 minutes at least and
any time you have a particularly intense
emotional reaction to something,
find a quiet and comfortable place
to completely be with how you feel.
Observe the sensations and feelings
and emotions in your body.
They will intensify as you focus on them.
Breath continuously without unnecessary
pauses between-breaths,
breathing in and out the nose.
Notice the way you feel.
Your entire goal is to be with
your feelings,
which is to fully be with yourself.
If you like,
you can repeat one sentence to your
emotions, like a mantra
"I am completely here with you now".
Keep in mind
that this process is not only
for negative emotional states,
it's also for positive emotional states.
It just so happens
that we most often suppress,
and try to distance ourselves from,
negative emotional states.
That's why they are un-integrated.
But some people find
that being with their positive emotions
is in fact, more difficult
than being with their negative ones.
After you have been with the emotion
completely
no matter how uncomfortable it is,
and you feel like you want to know more
about the emotion,
ask yourself three questions.
The first question is: "How do I feel?"
This is the opportunity
to bring the feelings
to your conscious awareness,
and name what is
occurring within you.
Two: "When did I last experience
this exact same feeling?"
Without looking for the answer,
allow your Being to offer-up the answer
like a stream washing something
downstream to you.
Three: "When did I first experience
this same feeling in my life?"
Again, without looking for the answer,
allow your Being to offer-up the answer,
like a stream washing something
downstream to you.
If nothing comes,
be patient with that.
The most important thing to realize
about this process
is that it will unfold
exactly as it's meant to.
The most crucial part
of doing this process
is to trust the process fully,
because that's to trust Yourself
to know what It needs to do
to re-integrate,
which It does.
Oftentimes, when we, in our feeling-state,
our charged feeling-state,
experience that traumatic memory,
the memory happened at such a young age
that we did not have our cognitive
understanding yet.
Our brain was not fully formed.
We were in the Emotional Self instead of
in the Mental Self,
because the Mental Self begins to kick-in
around 8-years old.
So if you have integrated,
or are in the process of integrating,
a memory that happened before age 8,
then you will know
that you may not get solid images in
association with a memory.
You may literally only be dealing with
emotions
that you have no context for.
That's OK.
Trust yourself.
You not need to have cognitive
understanding
unless you're meant to have cognitive
understanding.
Unless having that cognitive
understanding,
that logical understanding,
of what is occurring within you
emotionally
is a part of you integrating and healing
the Emotional Body.
If you find yourself experiencing
an emotionally-traumatic memory,
observe the memory, and then,
mentally alter the memory
in a way that feels emotionally positive.
This is what they call Inner-Child Work.
For example:
If you're taken into a memory where
your father left you,
imagine the Adult-You approaching
the Child-You,
and, enabling the Child to feel better.
Either become the stable parent
for your Inner Child
or give the Child a reliable father figure
of their choice,
or explain the entire situation
objectively to the Child,
and help them to not take
the experience so personally.
Altering a memory in this way
actually changes the causation
of that trauma.
All things you experience in your life,
are in essence,
an effect of the original trauma
which you experienced in your childhood.
When you go back in your mind,
and you alter the experience in memory,
you alter all of the branches
that are coming off of that root.
All of the symptoms,
which are the surface events
that you are experiencing,
will change as a result of it.
You are affecting the blueprint
of your entire reality,
because we live in a Universe where
Time does not exist.
To demonstrate this process,
I'm gonna have Blake show us how
it's done.
I'll be leading him through the process.
But, in reality, you're going to be
leading yourself through this very same
process - after you have sat with,
and been with, your emotion completely.
You wanna do this whenever you have
a charged emotion.
In other words, you wanna do this
whenever something in your reality
upsets you.
But you can also do it, in general,
as a check-in with Yourself.
That's what we're gonna be doing with
Blake today.
T: So, what I want you to do is
to close your eyes.
T: and I want you to
continuously breath.
T: So this is what it
should sound like.
T: «breathes in and
out, to demonstrate»
T: «breathes in and out, to demonstrate»
B: «follows Teal»
We want no unnecessary pauses
between breaths.
This allows our Consciousness
to come to the present moment.
Those unnecessary pauses
happens only when the Consciousness
is disconnected
from the present moment.
When we are breathing in,
that takes a bit of effort,
but it takes no effort «exhales»
to release that breath.
T: So tell us what you are feeling
in your body.
B: Calm ... a little bit of anxiety ...
T: Where is the anxiety?
B: Kind of, like, in the center
of my body ...
B: Like in front of my spine ...
B: Up my spine ...
T: How do you know it's anxiety?
B: Because it feels like ... unease ...
Teal: Did you see as he just
touched his face?
Teal: What that means
is he's trying to
Teal: get rid off his attention
on that painful emotion.
Teal: That's why a lot of times
Teal: when we are in meditation,
Teal: we feel the
urge to scratch.
Teal: That's our body and our Being
Teal: trying to distract us
Teal: from being with
that painful emotion.
Teal: So when you're
doing this Process
Teal: try to refrain from doing that.
T: Express to us, as if you were
describing in a poem,
T: what Anxiety feels like.
B: Uh, it feels like static on the top
of water ...
T: Now I want you to internally,
T: to recite to yourself,
T: "I am completely here with you now"
to that feeling.
B: Out loud?
T: You'll be doing it internally, mentally
when you're doing this process.
T: You could say it out loud right now,
if you want ...
B: "I am completely here with you
in this Process"
T: Now, I want you to ask that
feeling-sensation within your body:
T: "When was the last time I
experienced this?"
T: "When was the last time that this
signature came to be?"
B: When was the last time
or when was the first time?
T: Last time.
B: Over on the table over there ...
T: Does the emotion want you
to know anything
T: about when you were
over on the table?
T: Any images or ... ?
The answer might be NO,
it doesn't matter.
What we're doing right now is becoming
completely present
with that particular emotion.
We're getting to know it better.
B: It wants me to stop drinking coffee ...
T: Interesting ...
B: Or, that it is, coffee ...
T: «laughs»
B: «laughs»
B: Hell, I don't know
how to tell it apart ...
T: That's OK ...
We don't want to take our thinking
mind into the emotions.
We want the emotions to come up
and meet the thinking mind,
if it wants to.
T: So then I want you to ask yourself:
T: "When was the first
time I ever experienced "
T: "this particular emotion?"
B: "When was the first time I ever
experienced this emotion?"
Keeping in mind that your,
your thinking mind will want
to give you a laid-out scenario,
but, don't let your mind go looking
for that scenario.
Sit with this ...
If you're meant to receive images,
or if you're meant to receive any
cognitive understanding
of that particular emotion,
it will come to you.
Otherwise, you're most likely
dealing with something
you've experienced at
such a young age
that you had no way of cognitively
understanding your experience,
only emotionally understanding
your experience.
B: In the crib ...
B: Uh, wondering if someone's
going to come back ...
T: OK - so how did that come to you?
T: Were you ... was it
first-person perspective?
T: Was it third-person perspective?
B: Third-person ...
T: So you were watching yourself?
B: Yeah ...
What that means,
is that this particular memory
was traumatic enough
that the Consciousness separated
from its first-person experience of it.
This is the heart of Suppressed Memory.
B: It was a mix - I saw both ...
T: That's good - that
means that you,
T: when you're re-integrating
with first-person
T: perspective, that means you're
coming back into
T: welcoming the experience.
B: Totally experiencing Bulbous/Tiny right now.
T: OK, well close your eyes -
we want that.
Bulbous/Teeny is an experience
that you have, on a physiological level,
or oftentimes when we're dealing with
emotions that are too intense.
It's the feeling of being
very, very large
and then very, very small ...
So he's having a physiological reaction to
the reintegration of this particular
traumatic memory and emotion.
B: Hey, just be here ...
T: Sit with it ...
T: Do you see that Child?
T: Now that you have been with that
emotion,
T: as long as you're not wanting to
escape from that emotion,
T: It's time for you to alter that memory.
T: This is your opportunity to do
T: whatever you need to do to make
that Child
T: feel emotionally different ...
B: To?
T: Or to be ...
T: Rather than say that - let's say
T: "To be completely with that Child's
emotion"
T: Do we need to pick the Child up?
B: Yeah ...
T: Then, do ...
B: Myself, or somebody else?
T: Which feels better?
B: «amused , laughs»
B: Uh, I think ... I can't understand
myself pickup up myself ...
T: Who would the Child want to
have ... pick it up?
T: An Angel, a Guide? ... ... Who?
B: Sure - a Light Being ...
T: OK, now imagine a Light Being
going over
T: and picking up that baby ...
T: and comforting the baby and
telling the baby that its not alone...
T: Whatever words
need to be conveyed
T: or emotions,
T: or actions need to be conveyed
T: in order to be present with that Child
T: in that state of emotion -
T: that's what we want to do ...
B: I dunno what will make ...
B: I mean this ... Bulbous/Teeny
is ... intense ...
T: Then be with that emotion
T: See right now, it's so intense
T: that you want to escape
from the emotion ...
But that's what we do when
we smoke cigarettes,
that's what we do when
we try to exercise,
that's what we do when
we get other people
to act in a way that
makes us feel better.
We're trying to escape the emotion ...
which doesn't allow for integration.
T: Breath ... continuously
into that emotion ...
T: «breathes»
B: It's feeling better ...
B: It's OK ...
T: Now can you watch the Child
T: being picked up by the Light Being?
T: Enable that Light Being to tell the
Child
T: that its never going to be left behind.
B: I'm trying to feel like,
what that would feel like -
B: being 'picked up' But
I can't really get there
B: because I'm still in this ...
other feeling ...
T: Well, do you feel like you need to sit
T: with that emotion longer?
B: Yeah.
T: Then do that.
T: Don't forget to breath ...
The minute we stop
continuously breathing,
we have gone back into time
instead of bringing time forward into
where we are.
We are no longer in the present.
B: Oh, words of affirmation ought
to make It feel better.
T: Good.
B: Which is weird, because
I'm usually so resistant to that.
T: That's part of why you're
so resistant to that.
B: Why? Because ... ?
T: No, that's for another
day ... «giggles»
T: You will find out the Why of your life,
T: and the Meaning of your
life, and the coincidence,
T: and the coherence, I should say,
T: between everything
T: once you start doing this Process.
T: So what I ... what I ...
I want you to try something ...
B: OK ...
T: This is an Intuitive-thing for me ...
T: I want you to try picking that baby up
T: and fashioning a carrier
around that aspect
T: of your Consciousness,
your Adult Consciousness
T: A carrier around your body,
like a baby carrier
T: Put that baby inside of the carrier
T: and say - "I'm never going to
put you down"
T: "You're never going to
be in a crib again".
B: OK ...
T: How do you feel emotionally?
B: Uhm, not sure I trusted that ...
T: What is it going to take for the
Child to trust that?
T: Time?
B: I suppose ... i don't know ...
T: Ask the Child ...
T: Even though they can't use words,
cause they're that young
T: they can convey emotions.
T: It was you,
you'll have an internal knowing
B: Uhm, 'play' or something ...
T: Then do that ...
This is our opportunity as adults
to meet our child's, internal child's,
needs.
This is our opportunity ... to ...
be completely with them in
the feeling that they feel.
To enable them to feel
emotionally better.
B: I've experienced this ...
B: ... this Bulbous/Teeny, like,
throughout my whole life.
B: More so, when I was, like ...
under 10? ...
B: Ah, but I've never felt it this
intense.
B: Maybe ... back then, was when
I felt it most intensely,
B: but right now, it's just ...
so heavy ...
T: That means that that feeling
is it's own feeling-signature
T: which is attached
to the other one
T: which you originally
went looking for,
T: and this is the one that wants
to be re-integrated now.
B: OK ...
T: So what you wanna do
T: is stay completely with
the Bulbous/Teeny ...
B: Yeah ...
T: ... Itself and ask those same
questions, of It ...
T: "When was the last time I felt this?"
T: "When was the first time I felt this?"
B: Last time I felt this ...
B: ... it's a few months ago ...
a year ago ...
T: Conditions?
B: Oh, I don't know ...
maybe in bed distressed ...
B: ... or stressed about the situation ...
T: That's why its linked to stress.
B: Yeah ...
T: OK - so let's go back ...
T: "When was the first time I
experienced this experience?"
B: I feel like if I put a number on it,
it's like, 2 ...
T: Don't put a number on it.
T: I just want you to be
with those emotions.
T: You may not ...
this may be so young,
T: that you don't have any
cognitive understanding
T: of this emotion.
B: Probably ...
T: Just go all ... go back ...
T: When you ask yourself that question,
T: instantly your Being will transport you
T: to that original ... emotion.
B: I almost feel like I've never
felt like this before ...
T: OK, explain it, describe it ...
B: I ... it just ... uhm, I don't know,
B: my hand feels like it's ...
it's like ... a building ...
B: ... and I'm ...
T: Good, continue to
breath into that feeling ...
B: This is so heavy ...
T: "I am completely
here with you now"
B: «whispers» "I am completely
here with you now"
T: Ask if there's anything this feeling
wants you to know ...
Keep in mind that this Process
may be very long for you to do.
Somebody like Blake, who's been
in the practice
of identifying their emotions,
and being with their emotions,
for a great many years,
will be able to facilitate this
process much quicker.
So, don't be upset with yourself
if this takes you a long time to do.
B: "Is there anything this feeling wants
me to know right now?"
T: Or see ...
T: Or hear ...
B: I feel like I'm swimming
around in, like,
B: infant-memories kinda ...
maybe even birth ...
T: Mmm-hmmm ...
B: It might be birth ...
T: It might be in-utero ...
B: Yeah ...
B: Maybe right ...
right before birth ...
T: Yes ...
B: Yeah - like coming out ...
T: Mmm-hmmm
B: of the womb, I guess ...
B: Whoa!
T: «giggles»
T: Yeah ...
B: I thought it was impossible to remember
something like this?
T: Hell, no ...
T: In fact, we all remember it, we've
just suppressed the memory.
B: Uh, yeah - it's coming out ...
T: Do you believe in
Suppressed Memory yet?
B: Unh ... ... guess so ...
T: «laughs»
B: Yeah, it's like the feeling of birth.
B: It's like falling out ...
B: It's like I'm so heavy that I'm
falling out ... or ...
B: ... so suppressed ...
T: Well, when the waters break,
T: that's the first time you will
actually feel the pull of gravity.
B: Yeah ...
T: Did that occur to you?
B: Yeah, it feels like gravity ...
B: Feels like I'm going to fall
through the floor ...
T: «laughs» Yeah ...
B: Okay ...
B: Yeah, it sucks ...
T: «laughs»
T: So how do you support this baby?
B: Ah...
T: Just re-experience it ... go through
the birth process ...
B: How do I support it?
B: «mumbles»
T: Just be with it, you're not ready yet,
can you feel that?
T: The first, well it
wasn't the very first,
T: but one of the first times
you abandoned yourself, emotionally,
T: is when you were experiencing that
and you wanted to pull back from that.
T: So, right now,
in the process of re-integration
T: has you going back through
that process with yourself.
B: «whispers» Sure ... OK ... ... So ...
T: «laughs»
T: Can you ...
B: No, I'm just like shaking ...
and heavy and ...
B: So now, I'm cold ...
T: Hmmmm ...
T: Classic birth experience.
B: «jokingly» "It's cold out here!"
T: Do you feel like you wanna
be with those emotions,
T: or would you like to change
the causation?
B: What do you mean?
T: Changing the causation means
to make some alteration
T: to the causation of that emotion.
T: How could you make that experience ...
different?
B: Uh, understanding?
T: Yes.
It's important that
he just said that
because even the act of observing
and being with this,
has altered it forever.
T: Do you feel like you need
to do anything more
T: with the memory?
T: Do feel like you need
to witness the baby
T: being supported and comforted and
in a space of warmth?
T: What needs to happen?
B: I don't think so, actually ...
T: Nice ...
B: Yeah, just kind of
going through that,
B: and maybe knowing
what it is now ...
B: That was really good ...
T: Keep ... keep breathing ...
B: It was like a ... ... ... relief?
T: That's because your were completely
present with yourself.
T: This was one of the first times you
did not abandon yourself.
Teal: Which you do, abandon yourself,
Teal: any time you
want to get away from
Teal: an emotion that you're feeling,
Teal: or change it,
Teal: or fix it.
Teal: Uh-oh, the whole Self-Help
Industry is out-the-window!
T: «laughs»
B: «laughs»
T: So now, with your cognitive
understanding,
T: seeing as how you experienced
T: that feeling we just went into
T: as something that's
happening in real time,
T: because it was 'triggered'?
T: That memory - your
birth-trauma memory,
T: was triggered by something
happening today
T: which is nothing but
a reflection - a mirror -
T: of that original experience.
T: So, what experience do you find
T: keeps replicating itself
throughout your life,
T: as a mirror of that original
birth experience?
T: Cause that is a feeling-signature
that continues, when ... ?
B: Stress!
T: Uh-huh ... and why are you in
stress right now?
B: I have no idea ... «laughs»
T: Are you kidding me?
B: What ... just filming?
T: We're moving ...
B: Yeah, we're moving ...
away from home ...
T: «laughs»
B: «laughs»
T: That, my friend, is to be present
with yourself, completely.
T: Thank you, Blake ...
Writing about your
experience with being
with your Feeling
Body is a good idea
because it will not only make
your Emotional Body
feel as if you care about it,
it will help you to understand
and integrate the experience
you have just had.
Keep this in mind
as you go about your life and your day.
Anytime you experience something
as upsetting or uncomfortable,
it is a triggered memory.
You are not, in fact, living anything
new in your life.
You are experiencing nothing
but reflections
from your childhood.
There is no exceptions to this rule.
The reason that we are so reactive,
we get upset,
we blame the person
who is coming towards us,
and 'causing' us to feel that way -
is because we are unwilling
to fully be with our Emotional Body,
to be with our feeling-impressions,
and to reintegrate them.
So don't shoot the messenger.
These experiences which cause
extreme emotion to arise within us
are messengers from our subconscious.
They're begging you to reintegrate
your Emotional Body.
They're begging you
to reintegrate and become
whole with yourself.
So listen to them,
and be with them,
and have a good week ...
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