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Dialogue: 0,0:00:01.00,0:00:11.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,(Glazba)
Dialogue: 0,0:00:43.00,0:00:46.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,[Sanskrt]
Dialogue: 0,0:00:50.00,0:00:52.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Ovo je oda božici majci
Dialogue: 0,0:00:52.00,0:00:55.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,oda koju većina nas u Indiji nauči još u djetinjstvu.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:58.00,0:01:00.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Ja sam je naučila s četiri godine
Dialogue: 0,0:01:00.00,0:01:03.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,na majčinu koljenu.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:05.00,0:01:08.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Te godine majka me uvela u ples.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:08.00,0:01:10.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I tako je počela
Dialogue: 0,0:01:10.00,0:01:13.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,moja veza s klasičnim plesom.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:13.00,0:01:16.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Od tada -- prošla su već četiri desetljeća --
Dialogue: 0,0:01:17.00,0:01:19.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,vježbala sam s najboljima u tom području,
Dialogue: 0,0:01:19.00,0:01:21.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,plesala diljem zemaljske kugle,
Dialogue: 0,0:01:21.00,0:01:24.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,podučavala i mlade i stare,
Dialogue: 0,0:01:24.00,0:01:26.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,stvarala, surađivala,
Dialogue: 0,0:01:26.00,0:01:28.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,radila na koreografiji,
Dialogue: 0,0:01:28.00,0:01:30.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,i tkala bogatu tapiseriju
Dialogue: 0,0:01:30.00,0:01:33.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,umjetnosti, postignuća i nagrada.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:34.00,0:01:37.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Kruna moje slave došla je 2007,
Dialogue: 0,0:01:37.00,0:01:39.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,kad sam primila državnu nagradu,
Dialogue: 0,0:01:39.00,0:01:41.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,četvrtu najvišu civilnu nagradu, Padmashri,
Dialogue: 0,0:01:41.00,0:01:43.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,za svoj umjetnički doprinos.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:43.00,0:01:46.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,(Pljesak)
Dialogue: 0,0:01:47.00,0:01:50.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Ali ništa, baš ništa me nije pripremilo
Dialogue: 0,0:01:50.00,0:01:53.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,na ono što mi je rečeno
Dialogue: 0,0:01:53.00,0:01:56.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,1. srpnja 2008.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:56.00,0:01:59.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Čula sam riječ "karcinom".
Dialogue: 0,0:01:59.00,0:02:02.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Da, rak dojke.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:02.00,0:02:05.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Dok sam skamenjeno sjedila u ordinaciji svog liječnika,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:07.00,0:02:09.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,čula sam druge riječi,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:09.00,0:02:12.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"rak", "stadij", "stupanj".
Dialogue: 0,0:02:12.00,0:02:14.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Dotada je rak bio horoskopski
Dialogue: 0,0:02:14.00,0:02:16.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,znak mog prijatelja,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:16.00,0:02:19.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,pozornica (stadij) je bilo mjesto na kojemu sam plesala,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:19.00,0:02:22.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,a ocjene (stupanj) su bile ono što sam dobivala u školi.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:24.00,0:02:26.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Toga dana sam ustanovila
Dialogue: 0,0:02:26.00,0:02:29.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,da imam neželjenog, nezvanog,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:29.00,0:02:32.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,novog životnog partnera.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:32.00,0:02:34.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Kao plesačica,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:34.00,0:02:37.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,poznajem devet rasa ili navarasa:
Dialogue: 0,0:02:37.00,0:02:39.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,srdžbu, hrabrost,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:39.00,0:02:41.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,gađenje, humor
Dialogue: 0,0:02:41.00,0:02:43.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,i strah.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:43.00,0:02:45.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Mislila sam da znam što je strah.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:45.00,0:02:48.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Tog dana, upoznala sam strah.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:49.00,0:02:52.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Svladana strahotom svega toga
Dialogue: 0,0:02:52.00,0:02:54.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,i potpunim osjećajem gubitka kontrole,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:54.00,0:02:56.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,prolila sam brojne suze
Dialogue: 0,0:02:56.00,0:02:59.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,i zapitala svog dragog muža Jayanta.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:59.00,0:03:02.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Rekla sam, "Je li to to? Je li ovo kraj puta?
Dialogue: 0,0:03:02.00,0:03:05.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Je li to kraj mog plesa?"
Dialogue: 0,0:03:05.00,0:03:08.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,A on je, optimističan kakav jest,
Dialogue: 0,0:03:08.00,0:03:11.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,rekao, "Ne, ovo je samo prekid,
Dialogue: 0,0:03:11.00,0:03:13.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,prekid za vrijeme liječenja,
Dialogue: 0,0:03:13.00,0:03:16.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,a ti ćeš poslije toga ponovno raditi ono što ti najbolje ide."
Dialogue: 0,0:03:17.00,0:03:19.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Tada sam otkrila
Dialogue: 0,0:03:19.00,0:03:22.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,da ja koja sam vjerovala da imam kontrolu nad svojim životom,
Dialogue: 0,0:03:22.00,0:03:25.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,kontroliram samo tri stvari:
Dialogue: 0,0:03:25.00,0:03:28.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Svoju misao, svoju svijest --
Dialogue: 0,0:03:28.00,0:03:30.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,slike koje su te misli stvarale --
Dialogue: 0,0:03:30.00,0:03:33.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,i postupke koji su iz toga proizlazili.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:33.00,0:03:35.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I tako sam se koprcala
Dialogue: 0,0:03:35.00,0:03:37.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,u vrtlogu osjećaja
Dialogue: 0,0:03:37.00,0:03:39.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,i depresije i svega što dolazi
Dialogue: 0,0:03:39.00,0:03:42.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,s užasom situacije,
Dialogue: 0,0:03:42.00,0:03:45.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,želeći otići na mjesto oporavka, zdravlja i sreće.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:46.00,0:03:48.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Željela sam otići s mjesta na kojem sam bila
Dialogue: 0,0:03:48.00,0:03:50.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,na mjesto gdje sam htjela biti,
Dialogue: 0,0:03:50.00,0:03:53.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,a za to sam trebala nešto.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:53.00,0:03:56.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Trebala sam nešto što bi me izvuklo iz svega ovoga.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:56.00,0:03:58.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Zato sam obrisala suze,
Dialogue: 0,0:03:58.00,0:04:01.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,i objavila cijelom svijetu ...
Dialogue: 0,0:04:01.00,0:04:04.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Rekla sam, "Rak je samo jedna stranica mog života,
Dialogue: 0,0:04:04.00,0:04:07.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,i neću joj dopustiti da utječe na ostatak mog života."
Dialogue: 0,0:04:08.00,0:04:10.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Također sam cijelom svijetu objavila
Dialogue: 0,0:04:10.00,0:04:12.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,da ću izmoriti rak
Dialogue: 0,0:04:12.00,0:04:14.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,i neću mu dopustiti da upravlja mnome.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:14.00,0:04:16.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Ali da bih otišla s mjesta na kojem sam bila
Dialogue: 0,0:04:16.00,0:04:18.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,na mjesto gdje sam htjela biti,
Dialogue: 0,0:04:18.00,0:04:20.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,trebala sam nešto.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:20.00,0:04:22.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Neko sidro, sliku,
Dialogue: 0,0:04:22.00,0:04:24.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,klin
Dialogue: 0,0:04:24.00,0:04:26.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,koji bi me držao,
Dialogue: 0,0:04:26.00,0:04:29.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,tako da se mogu izvući odatle.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:29.00,0:04:32.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Pronašla sam to u svom plesu,
Dialogue: 0,0:04:33.00,0:04:35.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,svom plesu, svojoj snazi, svojoj energiji, svojoj strasti,
Dialogue: 0,0:04:35.00,0:04:37.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,samom svojem životnom dahu.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:38.00,0:04:40.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Ali nije bilo lako.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:40.00,0:04:43.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Vjerujte mi, uopće nije bilo lako.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:43.00,0:04:45.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Kako ostati vedra
Dialogue: 0,0:04:45.00,0:04:47.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,kad se iz ljepotice
Dialogue: 0,0:04:47.00,0:04:50.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,u tri dana pretvoriš u ćelavicu?
Dialogue: 0,0:04:50.00,0:04:53.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Kako ne očajavati
Dialogue: 0,0:04:53.00,0:04:56.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,kad je, za tijelo poharano kemoterapijom,
Dialogue: 0,0:04:56.00,0:04:59.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,uspon uz nekoliko stepenica bio jednak mučenju,
Dialogue: 0,0:04:59.00,0:05:02.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,i to za nekoga poput mene tko je mogao plesati po tri sata?
Dialogue: 0,0:05:04.00,0:05:06.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Kako ne pokleknuti
Dialogue: 0,0:05:06.00,0:05:09.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,pod očajem i jadom svega toga?
Dialogue: 0,0:05:09.00,0:05:12.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Samo sam se željela sklupčati i plakati.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:12.00,0:05:14.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Ali sam si nastavila govoriti kako su strah i suze
Dialogue: 0,0:05:14.00,0:05:17.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,izbor koji zapravo nemam.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:17.00,0:05:20.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I zato bih se dovukla do svog plesnog studija,
Dialogue: 0,0:05:20.00,0:05:23.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,tijelo, um i duh, svakoga dana u svoj plesni studio,
Dialogue: 0,0:05:23.00,0:05:25.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,i učila bih sve što sam naučila
Dialogue: 0,0:05:25.00,0:05:27.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,s četiri godine, sve ispočetka,
Dialogue: 0,0:05:27.00,0:05:30.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,ponovno bih radila, učila, grupirala.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:30.00,0:05:33.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Bilo je strahovito bolno, ali sam uspjela.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:33.00,0:05:35.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Teško.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:36.00,0:05:39.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Usredotočila sam se na mudre,
Dialogue: 0,0:05:39.00,0:05:41.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,na slikovitost svog plesa,
Dialogue: 0,0:05:41.00,0:05:43.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,na poetiku i metaforu
Dialogue: 0,0:05:43.00,0:05:45.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,i na filozofiju samog plesa.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:45.00,0:05:47.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I polako bih izlazila
Dialogue: 0,0:05:47.00,0:05:50.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,iz onog jadnog stanja svijesti.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:51.00,0:05:53.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Ali trebalo mi je još nešto.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:53.00,0:05:56.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Trebala sam nešto da bih učinila onaj jedan korak više.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:56.00,0:05:58.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I našla sam to u metaforičkoj priči
Dialogue: 0,0:05:58.00,0:06:01.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,koju sam naučila od svoje majke kad sam imala četiri godine.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:01.00,0:06:04.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Metafora Mahishasura Mardhini,
Dialogue: 0,0:06:04.00,0:06:06.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,o Durgi.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:06.00,0:06:09.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Durga, božica majka, neustrašiva,
Dialogue: 0,0:06:09.00,0:06:12.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,nastala u panteonu hinduističkih božanstava.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:12.00,0:06:15.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Durga, blistava, nakićena, lijepa,
Dialogue: 0,0:06:16.00,0:06:18.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,sa svojih 18 ruku
Dialogue: 0,0:06:18.00,0:06:20.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,spremna za bitke,
Dialogue: 0,0:06:20.00,0:06:23.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,dok jaše na svom lavu
Dialogue: 0,0:06:23.00,0:06:26.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,prema bojištu kako bi uništila Mahishu.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:27.00,0:06:29.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Durga, utjelovljenje
Dialogue: 0,0:06:29.00,0:06:31.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,kreativne ženske energije
Dialogue: 0,0:06:31.00,0:06:33.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,shakti.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:33.00,0:06:35.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Durga, neustrašiva.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:35.00,0:06:37.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Stvorila sam sliku Durge
Dialogue: 0,0:06:37.00,0:06:39.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,i svake njene osobine, svake nijanse,
Dialogue: 0,0:06:39.00,0:06:41.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,svojom vlastitom.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:41.00,0:06:44.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Snagom mitske simbolike
Dialogue: 0,0:06:44.00,0:06:47.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,i strasti svojeg vježbanja,
Dialogue: 0,0:06:47.00,0:06:50.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,u svoj ples sam unijela vrhunsku koncentraciju.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:50.00,0:06:52.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Izoštrenu do te mjere,
Dialogue: 0,0:06:52.00,0:06:55.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,da sam plesala nekoliko tjedana nakon operacije.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:55.00,0:06:58.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Plesala sam kroz kemoterapiju i zračenja,
Dialogue: 0,0:06:58.00,0:07:01.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,na užas svog onkologa.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:01.00,0:07:03.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Plesala sam između ciklusa kemoterapija i zračenja
Dialogue: 0,0:07:03.00,0:07:05.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,i gnjavila ga da ih prilagodi
Dialogue: 0,0:07:05.00,0:07:08.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,mojem rasporedu plesnih nastupa.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:10.00,0:07:12.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Ono što sam napravila
Dialogue: 0,0:07:12.00,0:07:14.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,jest to da sam se isključila iz raka
Dialogue: 0,0:07:14.00,0:07:17.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,i povezala sa svojim plesom.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:18.00,0:07:21.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Da, rak je bio samo jedna stranica mog života.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:23.00,0:07:25.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Moja priča
Dialogue: 0,0:07:25.00,0:07:27.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,je priča o svladavanju prepreka,
Dialogue: 0,0:07:27.00,0:07:29.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,smetnji i izazova
Dialogue: 0,0:07:29.00,0:07:31.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,koje vam život postavlja.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:31.00,0:07:34.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Moja priča je moć misli,
Dialogue: 0,0:07:34.00,0:07:37.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Moja priča je moć izbora.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:37.00,0:07:39.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Moć koncentracije.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:39.00,0:07:42.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Moć usmjeravanja vlastite pažnje
Dialogue: 0,0:07:42.00,0:07:45.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,nečemu što nas tako pokreće,
Dialogue: 0,0:07:45.00,0:07:47.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,što nas tako pomakne,
Dialogue: 0,0:07:47.00,0:07:50.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,da čak i nešto poput raka postaje nebitno.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:50.00,0:07:52.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Moja priča je snaga metafore.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:52.00,0:07:54.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Snaga slike.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:54.00,0:07:56.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Moja je bila slika Durge,
Dialogue: 0,0:07:56.00,0:07:59.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Durge - neustrašive.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:59.00,0:08:01.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Zvali su je i Simhanandini,
Dialogue: 0,0:08:01.00,0:08:03.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,ona koja jaše lava.
Dialogue: 0,0:08:05.00,0:08:07.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Dok ja jašem dalje,
Dialogue: 0,0:08:07.00,0:08:09.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,dok jašem na svojoj vlastitoj unutrašnjoj snazi,
Dialogue: 0,0:08:09.00,0:08:11.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,svojoj unutrašnjoj izdržljivosti,
Dialogue: 0,0:08:11.00,0:08:14.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,naoružana onim što lijekovi mogu dati
Dialogue: 0,0:08:14.00,0:08:16.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,i dok nastavljam liječenje,
Dialogue: 0,0:08:16.00,0:08:18.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,dok jašem na bojno polje raka,
Dialogue: 0,0:08:18.00,0:08:21.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,naređujući svojim odmetnutim stanicama da budu dobre,
Dialogue: 0,0:08:23.00,0:08:26.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,želim biti poznata, ne kao ona koja je preživjela rak,
Dialogue: 0,0:08:26.00,0:08:28.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,nego kao ona koja je pobijedila rak.
Dialogue: 0,0:08:28.00,0:08:30.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Ovo je dio mog rada
Dialogue: 0,0:08:30.00,0:08:33.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"Simhanandini."
Dialogue: 0,0:08:33.00,0:08:36.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,(Pljesak)
Dialogue: 0,0:08:36.00,0:08:45.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,(Glazba)
Dialogue: 0,0:15:09.00,0:15:44.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,(Pljesak)