[COSTCO SUBS PRESENTS]
[Previously unaired footage]
[IZUMI・SEXY & BABIENOBITCH ]
Welcome.
- Good evening. - Welcome.
- First time? - Yes, first time, nice to meet you.
What can I get you to drink?
- What is there? - Everything.
- Beer. - Beer?
- What's your name? - Shunsuke.
How old are you?
- I've turned 21. - Right.
- What brings you to Nichome?
- Are you curious? - I am.
- I was thinking you might have a deep interest in this area's culture? - A deep interest? Well..
Two months ago, I decided I wanted to make my sexuality clear.
Until now I have only dated girls but I was thinking I might be able to go both ways.
I joined Terrace House in order to find out.
- Yes, yes, yes. - And...
With a 25 year old guy called Sota...
We went for a drive and hung out together and the like.
Other than just experiencing normal life together, when we went out together... More than as a person, liking someone...
How do I put this?
Do I like him in the way that a girl would?
Basically, you can see him as a sexual partner, right? Like you can go for him or you can have sex with him.
You can go for various people, huh?
Oh. Oh.
The reason why I joined Terrace House is...
I was struggling over whether I also like guys.
I was feeling uncertain over that.
Now that I feel relieved since I've figured out my sexuality.
Is the Shunsuke of today thinking "I like guys"?
- You made your mind, right? - Yes.
But I haven't dated a guy so...
Only people who feel the same as me can understand me.
There are the words "gay" or "lesbian", right?
Given that, I feel I was able to quickly discover and understand myself.
Discovering I go both ways was probably the hardest thing for me to realise.
- So have you had any sexual love with guys? - No, I haven't even dated.
Oh.
- I haven't even held hands. - Oh.
So before there hasn't been that, but you now have the desire.
Ah, I see.
- You should. - Yeah!
It's the same as driving, the more experience the better.
He's right.
If you find someone you like....
If the guy is straight, what do you do?
Well if it was me, I've been gay for a long time. I wouldn't fall for a straight guy.
If he was cool, nice personality, good relationship etc. And I fell for him, I'd tell myself to stop, it's no good.
I'd cut off my feelings for him.
- You'd give up? - I'd give up.
If he's straight, there's nothing to be done.
Actually you can get just one chance.
But the relationship doesn't last.
If that's the case, it would be good to get along with the guy without having sex.
Perhaps its the case that, if you grow to like guys,
If you grow to really love him, maybe you can jump over that hurdle.
- We both have a different way of starting relationships - Yeah, different, right.
Well anyway, I said I like guys before but,
It's more like...I wanna have sex with guys! I wanna blowjob!
Everyday this guy is thinking about penis, right?
But really, when it comes to sexuality: gay, lesbian, bi, there are various but...
The truth is, there are all kinds of gradations.
It's not that we can just decide our sexuality by ourselves.
Like, "I like sushi, I like beef", no, even without choosing.
I don't know why it is that I like guys, but I do.
That's why, like you, I don't know everything.
You like both guys and girls.. but the ratio is...
Perhaps that ratio is different from us and a well known bisexual people.
Everyone lies on their own position on the sexuality spectrum.
Well, consulting us is good but,
you should probably listen to your heart.
Even if we don't get physical,
if I fall in love, it means I'm bi, right?
You mean without doing anything sexual?
- That's difficult... - Difficult, right?
We are really vulgar, so if we get hard, that means we like him.
If the partner is gay, if we don't get hard that means we don't like him.
So judging based on whether I can see the person as a sexual partner.
I also want them to see me as a sexual partner.
Right.
Without that, I'd worry there's no meaning to it.
How... how was your first time? Maybe "how" is strange but...
- I want you to tell me about your first. - First time I had sex?
Even though I've known I was gay and liked guys since I was a kid...
There wasn't the opportunity to meet other gay people.
When I first did it, I was only happy. To have someone to share that with was...
Simply felt great.
Like "I did it!".
- But the first time I did it, I got a strong sense of guilt. - There was.
-Guilt? -Right.
That was when I was an adolescent and young.
And even though I really really wanted to do it, I felt strong regret.
I showered so hard. "I'm dirty, I'm dirty!".
- Like all hunched up in the fetal position, right? - So your feelings seemed like a girl who's lost her virginity.
No, a more deep sense of guilt. Like really I had done a forbidden thing.
- Well, it was that period as well. - Ah you're saying the prejudices of that period were a little greater.
- More than now? - Yeah, even though I did that, I wasn't dirty,
I knew I was gay, so that guilt is definitely strange.
Even though I was like "I'll never do it again". I waited a week before I did it again.
- That's only human. - Yeah, it's only human.
But I do wonder if you feeling of accomplishment.
- I felt both accomplishment and guilt. - Both ways.
A feeling of "Yes! I did it" but also...
- "Oh no, did I take a step down an awful path?"
Yeah yeah.
Hey look, on TV you can find all kinds of talent on TV.
Many of which are gay and it's normal.
As we live in that kind of time...
I wonder whether that feeling of guilt would still exist.
- On the contrary, you're blessed. - Blessed to live in this time?
Yeah.
It is like the environment, the period also... it's got easier maybe.
I think the number of supporters has increased.
Like, everyone's different but as for my own sexuality,
When you are young, you assume that your sexuality is your whole self.
Your sexuality is just a part of you.
If you are gay or bi, if there is fierce criticism,
Most of your friends interact with you as a friend, not bi so...
there's not such a problem of criticism, you can not worry so much.
Yeah.
It was good to hear, to be able to learn from you.
Live life with no regrets.
Time flies!
OK, I'll come again. Next time, maybe as a couple.
I hope to come with someone.
If you come alone, I'll give you a massage.
- Thank you. - Thank you.
Cute isn't he? Innocent.
- Times were really like that for us.
It wasn't like that.
- It was, but you don't remember. - Is that so?
[Translated and Timed by holyone2] [Reviewed by Koma]