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I started finding it really hard to get up in the mornings

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and despite feeling really tired during the day, I just couldn't sleep at night.

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I lost motivation for a lot of things,

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even normal everyday activities, I just

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found it too difficult and I

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just couldn't be bothered to do it.

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And the things that I used to really love, like reading and

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going out with friends, I just couldn't be bothered with anymore.

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I used to consider myself quite a sociable person.

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I was on the university netball team and was always going out with my teammates

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and people from my course, often to arena.

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But I just couldn't be bothered to socialize.

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Spent a lot more time on my own in my room,

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only really coming out when I had to.

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I just was avoiding people all the time. My friends and my family,

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my relationship with my boyfriend, I felt quite strained as well.

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He told me that I'd changed, 

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that I'd become distant and boring,

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which, made me feel even worse because I didn't know why

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I was feeling the way I was feeling anyway.

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I just felt really alone

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and of no use to anybody else.

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I used to do quite well at UNI,

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I worked hard, got quite good grades

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but motivation just went.

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I wasn't meeting deadlines because I couldn't concentrate

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and I lost my appetite as well. I just wasn't interested in eating,

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didn't feel like eating.

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so, I lost weight.

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I know, generally just wasn't caring about my appearance.

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And things like washing my hair and putting on makeup and wearing nice clothes.

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I just couldn't be bothered with, didn't seem worth doing.

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And I think it was the physical changes that alerted

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friends and family to the fact that something was wrong.