I started finding it really hard to get up in the mornings

and despite feeling really tired during the day, I just couldn't sleep at night.

I lost motivation for a lot of things,

even normal everyday activities, I just

found it too difficult and I

just couldn't be bothered to do it.

And the things that I used to really love, like reading and

going out with friends, I just couldn't be bothered with anymore.

I used to consider myself quite a sociable person.

I was on the university netball team and was always going out with my teammates

and people from my course, often to arena.

But I just couldn't be bothered to socialize.

Spent a lot more time on my own in my room,

only really coming out when I had to.

I just was avoiding people all the time. My friends and my family,

my relationship with my boyfriend, I felt quite strained as well.

He told me that I'd changed,

that I'd become distant and boring,

which, made me feel even worse because I didn't know why

I was feeling the way I was feeling anyway.

I just felt really alone

and of no use to anybody else.

I used to do quite well at UNI,

I worked hard, got quite good grades

but motivation just went.

I wasn't meeting deadlines because I couldn't concentrate

and I lost my appetite as well. I just wasn't interested in eating,

didn't feel like eating.

so, I lost weight.

I know, generally just wasn't caring about my appearance.

And things like washing my hair and putting on makeup and wearing nice clothes.

I just couldn't be bothered with, didn't seem worth doing.

And I think it was the physical changes that alerted

friends and family to the fact that something was wrong.