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Dialogue: 0,0:00:00.16,0:00:03.73,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Isn’t it funny how my last video was about\NSpoon Theory and then I went almost a month
Dialogue: 0,0:00:03.73,0:00:08.67,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,without uploading a new video because I didn’t\Nhave the spoons to do it?
Dialogue: 0,0:00:08.67,0:00:11.05,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And by funny, I mean: son of a --
Dialogue: 0,0:00:11.05,0:00:11.93,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,[music]
Dialogue: 0,0:00:15.75,0:00:21.84,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Hi PaulTalkers and other viewers, I'm Paul,\NI’m 41, I live in LA, and this is where
Dialogue: 0,0:00:21.84,0:00:22.84,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,PaulTalks.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:22.84,0:00:27.07,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Now, I attended a YouTube event a month ago\Nwhere a bunch of us creators were advised
Dialogue: 0,0:00:27.07,0:00:32.19,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,to give a call to action right at the beginning\Nof a video where the greatest audience retention
Dialogue: 0,0:00:32.19,0:00:33.81,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,is.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:33.81,0:00:39.25,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Not to be too Perd Hapley about it, but now\Nis when I do that:
Dialogue: 0,0:00:39.28,0:00:43.06,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Please click on the subscribe link on your\Nscreen so you don’t miss my videos and so
Dialogue: 0,0:00:43.06,0:00:45.38,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I can reach my goal of 10,000 subscribers.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:45.52,0:00:50.46,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It’s a long way off, but if I reach it, then\NI can record at the YouTube Space!
Dialogue: 0,0:00:50.47,0:00:54.15,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Speaking of lots of people supporting something,\Nif you’re in the US, please vote for Hillary
Dialogue: 0,0:00:54.15,0:00:57.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Clinton for President of the United States!
Dialogue: 0,0:00:57.00,0:00:59.44,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And other representatives & ballot propositions!
Dialogue: 0,0:01:00.24,0:01:03.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,As I’ve been away a long time, I thought\Na lot about what I wanted to put in this video.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:03.90,0:01:07.58,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I want to tell you about why I haven’t uploaded\Nvideos and what’s bringing me back to uploading
Dialogue: 0,0:01:07.58,0:01:08.58,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,videos now.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:08.58,0:01:12.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Up until August, I had a full-time job with\Na steady decent paycheck.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:12.40,0:01:16.53,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I could work my 6 to 10 hours each day, then\Ncompletely disconnect and focus on building
Dialogue: 0,0:01:16.53,0:01:17.64,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,my youtube channel.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:17.64,0:01:22.58,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,When I shifted in August to being an independent\Ncontractor, suddenly part of my “job”
Dialogue: 0,0:01:22.58,0:01:24.43,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,was to look for another job.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:24.43,0:01:28.77,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I haven’t looked for a job in over thirteen\Nyears and though I wasn’t afraid to do it…
Dialogue: 0,0:01:29.42,0:01:30.56,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I didn’t want to do it.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:31.24,0:01:33.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But I’m supposed to have a job, aren’t\NI?
Dialogue: 0,0:01:33.81,0:01:35.23,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I don’t know what I want to do.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:35.23,0:01:39.79,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,My last job was perfect for me and I don’t\Nknow how to find another job that’s perfect
Dialogue: 0,0:01:39.79,0:01:40.79,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,for me.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:40.79,0:01:46.24,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So suddenly, I felt torn between what I want\Nto do (make stuff on youtube) and what I have
Dialogue: 0,0:01:46.24,0:01:49.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,to do (make money to live).
Dialogue: 0,0:01:49.50,0:01:53.86,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Each day, I’d look at the things I could\Ndo: make videos that I like to make, or hunt
Dialogue: 0,0:01:53.86,0:01:55.42,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,for a job, that I didn’t want to do.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:55.42,0:02:02.03,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And with those choices, I… watched Netflix\Nand didn’t do much of anything.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:02.03,0:02:03.44,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Or explored LA.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:03.44,0:02:05.04,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Or went out to spend time with friends.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:05.04,0:02:06.36,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And that kept happening.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:06.36,0:02:11.14,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Finally, October came along and out of nowhere,\NI felt like giving Inktober a try: that’s
Dialogue: 0,0:02:11.14,0:02:13.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,where you draw something in ink each day.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:13.00,0:02:15.09,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Suddenly, I could do a creative thing each\Nday!
Dialogue: 0,0:02:15.09,0:02:19.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I’d spend anywhere from half an hour to\Ntwo hours being creative!
Dialogue: 0,0:02:19.50,0:02:20.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And I did it!
Dialogue: 0,0:02:20.50,0:02:21.79,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,The whole month!
Dialogue: 0,0:02:21.79,0:02:23.76,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And I think I did a pretty good job of it!
Dialogue: 0,0:02:23.76,0:02:25.33,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,That’s what I want to do.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:25.33,0:02:28.32,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Not drawing, specifically, but making stuff.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:28.32,0:02:31.07,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So, here we are and I’m making this video.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:31.07,0:02:35.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And it’s because I decided that it’s okay\Nfor me to do this instead of hunting for a
Dialogue: 0,0:02:35.50,0:02:37.56,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,job, which I’ve been crap at doing anyway.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:37.56,0:02:40.42,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Just writing the script for this, I felt better.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:40.42,0:02:44.45,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I’m going to give myself permission to focus\Non creating videos first (at least once a
Dialogue: 0,0:02:44.45,0:02:47.57,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,week) and then hunting for a job after that,\Nif I can.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:47.57,0:02:51.05,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It’s not the sensible thing to do, money-wise.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:51.05,0:02:52.67,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But it might keep me functional?
Dialogue: 0,0:02:52.67,0:02:54.26,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Which I want to be.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:54.26,0:02:57.92,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And what kind of videos do I want to make?
Dialogue: 0,0:02:57.92,0:03:00.21,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,First of all: I want to help people.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:00.21,0:03:02.52,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Second thing: I want to enjoy myself.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:02.52,0:03:06.94,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Thirdly: I’d like to provide unique perspectives\Non things in the world.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:06.94,0:03:11.35,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Finally: I want to provide transparency on\Nwhat it’s like for me as a youtuber.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:11.35,0:03:13.33,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,That’s what this video is about.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:13.33,0:03:16.32,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,The third thing used to be the first thing\Nand I think that stopped me, too.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:16.32,0:03:19.88,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I kept thinking my videos weren’t good enough\Nso I wouldn’t do them.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:19.88,0:03:24.17,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I think I have to give myself permission to\Nmake crappy videos, too.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:24.17,0:03:27.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I don’t want to do that to you, my viewers.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:27.10,0:03:30.98,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But I’m afraid if I don’t give you crappy\Nvideos sometimes, I’ll fall back into not
Dialogue: 0,0:03:30.98,0:03:32.87,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,giving you any videos.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:32.87,0:03:35.25,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And I really want to make videos.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:35.25,0:03:37.71,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Almost as much as I want to pet dogs and visit\Nbeaches.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:37.71,0:03:38.87,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It’s right up there.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:38.87,0:03:44.47,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,BTW: if anyone’s hiring dog petting vloggers\Non a beach somewhere, um.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:44.47,0:03:45.47,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Let me know?
Dialogue: 0,0:03:47.18,0:03:50.02,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,We’re approaching the end of my video so\Nlet me point out if you want to make a one-time
Dialogue: 0,0:03:50.02,0:03:53.29,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,donation to support me, you can do that on\Nthis Card here.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:53.29,0:03:57.49,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You can also support me by sharing this video\Non Twitter, Tumblr, or Facebook.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:57.49,0:03:59.72,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And how about a question you can answer in\Nthe comments?
Dialogue: 0,0:03:59.72,0:04:06.15,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Have you ever been torn between doing some\Nthings so much that you ended up doing nothing?
Dialogue: 0,0:04:06.15,0:04:08.07,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Tell me about what you went through in the\Ncomments.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:08.07,0:04:11.99,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Or tell me anything that matters to you, because\NI want to know what matters to you!
Dialogue: 0,0:04:12.56,0:04:13.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And you’ve made it to the end of my video!
Dialogue: 0,0:04:13.81,0:04:14.81,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Thank you so much!
Dialogue: 0,0:04:14.81,0:04:20.34,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I’m going to try to use a new thing called\Nan End Card on this video, so…
Dialogue: 0,0:04:20.34,0:04:22.59,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,In the lower left, you can click there to\Nsubscribe if you haven’t yet.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:22.59,0:04:25.77,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,In the lower right, you can click to go to\Nmy patreon and support me.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:25.77,0:04:27.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,In the upper left is my last video.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:27.90,0:04:31.25,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And in the upper right is a youtube-chosen\Nselection from my videos.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:31.25,0:04:33.51,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And I always finish my videos by saying,
Dialogue: 0,0:04:33.51,0:04:34.51,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,“Tomorrow
Dialogue: 0,0:04:34.51,0:04:36.15,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,will be even better!”