Namaskara!

Respected Guru,

Honorable Audience,

In various platforms of the world 
I have presented my topics,

but from this platform I do not have
that much capacity to present.

Because,

In front of me is my Guru Vidyanath Upadhaya ji
who guided me,

who told me to go to study Tantra
and I went to Varanasi.

In this platform respected
brother Jagman is present,

He told me,
"Do not cut your Shikha".

I have not cut my
Shikha ...

People who brought me up since
my childhood are here.

It would be like
teaching my teacher.

I won't present any
new findings here.

Because I returned this home,
after 25 years.

If you go to your parents' house after 25 years,

You will see that,
"Oh this Dhupi tree has become so tall."

"I had only planted this Rudraksha,
It has become so big."

"This room is just as it is,
Oh Shiva, this has not been painted also."

These things are coming
in my mind.

By coming in this platform,
I'm just getting gifts provided by Gurus.

During my first meeting,
in this hall,

Bernhard Colver from Germany,
had come and presented here.

Guru Vidyanath Ji had
organized it.

At that time,
University was only hypothesized.

Guru Vidyanath hadn't become,
Rector yet.

I went to my Guru's house.

And, Guru told,
"We are making it a University."

"You people should study with full
focus,"

We were reading with our focus,
and became more clever.

Guruji called Bernhard Colver,
for the lunch.

He also called me, and afterward, he told me,

Maybe I should go for Germany,
for Masters and Research.

I told my Guru,
"Please send me Varanasi"

"I will come after,
studying Tantra Vidya."

And, after I came,
several things happened.

We suffered several difficulties in starting this department also.

This is not the place,
to talk about those bitter things.

But I have spoken many times,
In this platform as a teacher.

I had taught in this same classroom,
before leaving this country.

And number of students,
kept on decreasing.

Maybe I wasn't an
efficient teacher.

I don't want to 
blame students.

One time,
one year became such,

Student number became Zero.

No new students
were admitted.

President of Students union,
was my nephew,

"Oh Nephew, you are also President",

"Please encourage some students,
to study this Tantra subject."

I told him by going in
the student union room itself.

He told me, "Maamaa, what to do 
by studying your Tantra Vidya?"

"There is no 'Future'. "

He didn't say "No Bhavishya (future)".

Therefore I remembered it as,
'No "Future" '.

After it I did not want 
to go home.

I used to stay at Sitapaila,
I walked this side,

I went to Guhyashwari Peetha.

And I told "Why you put me
in this Vidya with no future",

"I stayed to teach students."
Some inspiration came to me,

What was this "Future"?

"Future" was job.
"Future" was going to foreign country.

I felt too much pain.

When I realized its meaning,
I realized it meditating in the Peeth.

Now days for me to stay in this country,
has come over, I realized this.

My Guru had sprinkled water
from this Peeth and had told,

"You became Purnabhishikta".
Sitting in the same place I had to decide,

"I will go foreign land now.
Please give me leave."

After 1 month of it,
I left this country.

And today, we in America,
In the American Academy of Religion,

In the 2nd year of my going,

we told we should have conference
regarding "Tantra Vidya", and started it.

Now we have at least 50 professors,
researching and presenting on "Tantra Vidya".

Each year conferences are being
organized.

First 6 years I represented it,
becoming President.

After it, my friends
and my students are representing it.

We just,
before I came here,

We published the 
"Oxford handbook of Tantrik Studies",

More than 50 foreign scholars,
wrote it,

and those books we will integrate,
in all college curriculum also.

Whatever we could have done by staying here,

one tenth of that we have done,
by remaining in any corner of world.

And this inspiration of Gurus,
We haven't wasted it.

Four years ago I had one inspiration.
I had come to Nepal.

Some recognized people I met.

They told me, "Now you only teach
in America, who will teach us?"

I went and immediately,
established an online curriculum,

opened "Vimarsha Foundation",

after it, like the American semester
courses,

I started providing free education
through Vimarsha Foundation,

which can be accessed from
any part of the world.

In average 1000-1500 students
join there in every classes.

So far, I have taught around 15,000 students worldwide about this Vidya,

and the way my students have helped
me to organize this,

it is all the blessings of the Guru,
that I have concluded.

My Guru, Prem Chetan Vidya Bhusan Ji,
he used to tell me while talking about job,

"You will go to America become a professor
and work there". I laughed hysterically,

I didn't believe in that Vak Siddhi there,
because I hadn't studied English at all.

I, who hadn't studied any English, how could I become a professor in America?

But it was word of the "Guru"
that had to be fulfilled.

It became fulfilled anyhow.

And today coming here,
I felt happy seeing one thing.

My students, Madhav Lamichhane,
and his friends, and Tantra charcha family,

These all, brought so much awareness
regarding Tantra in common people.

These so many people are present here,
They are present to hear this subject.

I'm feeling very proud seeing this.

Now I feel that we don't have shortage 
of people to learn and protect Tantra.

I'm grateful for that.

I don't want to enter much
in the subject matter.

There is already book,
you can read it also.

But I have to speak
few words anyway.

In that, "In context of Nepal"
is added in subject topic.

Among us "Douglas" and "Sanderson"
these foreign scholars findings come,

They established things like,

"In Tantra Vidya, Sri Vidya parampara. Is related to south, It came from places like Tamilnadu."

They concluded such in western world.

If we investigate Tantra Parampara here,

Here are many Tantra experts, Culture experts.
If you go and ask them you will know,

whether there is Rajarajeshwari in Pashupati
or Tripura Sundari in Bhaktapur

You go in villages.
My brother "Ram Hari Timalsina",

He is writing a book on
"Tripurasundari Parampara of Nepal".

In the Dhading district itself,
there are 2 Tripura Sundari temples.

Similarly if you go in Salyan district,
in the various regions of Far western,

there are temples of Tripura Sundari.

And, speaking about cultural importance of
Tripura Sundari, we find many in Nepal.

Regarding Sadhakas of Nepal,
Dhana Shamsher Junga Bahadur Rana,

was an expert Tantrik of Nepal.

He did sadhana of Tripurasundari
as per Sarvamnaya Krama.

He left several of his works for us.

And Dhan Samsher Ji, he has revealed,
some very secret information there.

"Sarvatha Rahasyam Na Udghataniyam"
Just like Abhinavagupta told,

"Na sarvatha Gopaniyam"
Meaning, these secrets of Tantra,

should not be hidden fully,
nor should be exposed blatantly.

We should show a little.
One who gets it will get it,

One who doesn't understand
will come to Guru and ask him.

Because Tantra is not a subject
where everything is publicly detailed.

He has commanded that in several places.

He told sadhana as per
Hadi krama of Sri Vidya.

But if we go in full samasti krama
of Sarvamnaya,

as my Guru Vidya Bhusan Prem Chetan 
Brahmachari ji taught,

I later learned those vidyas under
Shankar Chetan Bharati ji,

As per Vidyas taught by them,

at last these all Vidyas integrate
in Pashupati.

Now I will make Jagman brother happy, 
Inside Pashupati also, Inside which is called,

Pashupatastra. Laghu Pashupatastra,
Madhyam, MahaPashupatastra,

which comes inside Purascharyarnava.

Apart from that, four other Pashupatastras were given to us by our Guru.

Inside it also, when we get "Sarvamnaya 
Sarvadhikara Sarvasamrajya Medha Diksha",

At that time the mantra which Guru gives
to us,

In that we worship Pashupati as
Chanda Kapaleshwara,

which is as Chanda Kapal it is
second head of Guhyeshwari,

and Kalasankarshini is Jwala form of top,

Lord Pashupati becoming Chandakapaleshwara
he gives Mantra Dana to us,

To him also we address as "Vajradhara"
In the same mantra,

where it tells "Chandakapaleshwara"
In the same mantra "Vajrine Vajradharaya",

Pashupatinath is represented by the word
"Vajradhara" itself. That mantra we get.

More than that I won't tell about mantra.
I already told 'Only some hint is given."

"No way of telling the whole mantra."

In the parampara of Nepal, 
in the Pashupati,

not only these Shakta sadhana
are integrated but also,

all Hindu Buddhist sadhana 
become integrated there.

As a proof of that only I had to 
pronounce a part of that Mantra.

Now there is discussion about
Srikula parampara, Kalikula parampara etc.

"Kadi Hadi Sadi" Vidya. These Kadi Vidya
Sadi Vidya are built upon,

Tripurasundari only. Vagbhava, Kamaraja,
like three Kutas, those three Kutas,

taking initial letter of it,
we considered these Kramas.

In the books of Tripurasundari only
these type of Vidya is discussed.

Actually these all Kadi Hadi Vidyas are
Vidyas of Tripurasundari.

But, how do Vidyas of Tripurasundari
and Vidyas of Guhyakali integrate?

Now, you have to go and see 2 temples. I do not
know if Vishwarupa renovation is completed.

If Shleshmantak 
Vishwarup renovation is complete,

There if you go and see, In front of it 
is Vishwarup murti of Mata Guhyashwari.

In front of her
Sri Yantra is placed.

If you go and see in Lukanthali
you will see the same there.

There is idol of Guhyashwari
in front of it, Sri Yantra is placed.

It is not because Guhyashwari doesn't
have her own Yantra.

But those two are integrated.
So, they are placed like that.

Where is integration happening?
Now we have to go to Kubjika Vidya.

At last till we know Kubjika Vidya, till
then we won't understand Tantra Parampara of Nepal.

In the Kubjika Parampara in the left hand
of Kubjika, the astra Vidya present there,

that we call Chanda kapali
Kalasankarshini Vidya,

and in her right hand is Kameshwari Vidya
which is developed as Tripurasundari Vidya.

Now, based on the manuscripts you see
of 16th-18th century,

You can't say this is the Tantrik parampara
of Nepal, because,

In National Archives of Nepal, we have
from 12th century itself,

various manuscripts, hand written paddhatis
regarding worship of Tripurasundari.

Those are the oldest manuscripts of the 
entire Bharatavarsha.

So, we do not have question of 
when these Vidyas started.

As they are integrated within Kubjika Vidya
from the time there was Kubjika Vidya,

these all Vidyas got integrated from that
time.

Dhan Shamsher Ji has talked about
Sambhava Vidya,

But he talked Sambhava Vidya as Sri Vidya.

"Atha Purnavishechanam Shadamnayam
Shambhavam Cha" , he discussed.

That Shadamaye Shambhava Vidya,
itself means Vidya of Kubjika.

To those who only take "Sri Vidya"
I do not know why he discussed as,

"I do not have right in Kubjika vidya
and krama of Guhyakali".

But actually in the parampara where
samasti is done,

Integration of Sri Vidya is done
already inside Kubjika Krama.

"Shadamnaya Shambhava Vidya"
itself means Kubjika Vidya.

And integrating such inside Kubjika Vidya
that tradition is not from today,

This started since the Sarvamnaya
krama started.

Another speciality of Nepal
regarding sadhana,

Nowadays, there is a trend in foreign lands, even in India,

I will give one Kuta you give me this much
money, after 6 month will give other kuta,

Some people don't have any Guru Krama.
Now there are so many people,

wishing to learn Tantra in foreign that,
for those who commercialize,

I haven't sold any Vidya till now.

Salary which I get as a professor.
I live by that only.

Without any initiation and education 
of Vidya also,

people are opening market of it
and commercializing it.

What we should think is,

Do not say 
"There is no Future learning this".

This Tantra Vidya is the
Vidya of our existence,

and if you learn it,
in whatever corner of the world you are,

you will have a name.
I give guarantee of that.

I'm also an example of that.

Saying that those who study Tantra Vidya
don't know anything about the modern world.

I did PhD in Vedanta also. Saying maybe it
is not enough just studying Tantra.

Vedanta which says , "The world is illusion".
That Vedanta has all Ashrams.

Tantra is saying this world is real and
in it you should enjoy also.

So why should we not
establish Peethas based on Tantra?

I had this will 2-3 years ago,

Let's establish Shakta Peeth in America also,
if possible in South America also,

and likewise there were 50 peethas
in the Bharatvarsha.

What is the dimension of Bharatavarsha?
This entire Bhugola is Bharatavarsha.

And why not establish Shakta Peeth
inside the entire Bhugola.

That will came to me when I was
meditating.

Then in Nepal I had will to build a 
Murti of Guhyashwari,

Now it is nearly completed.

Process of Murti formation is nearly complete.

Goddess is 8 feet tall,
She has 10 heads and 54 hands.

And if Goddess graces, and Gurus give
blessings, if my dear students help,

I will take her to America and 
establish 1st Peetha there.

We are not decaying.
We are not weak.

Here just like teachers worry
about what to eat,

There also is same for the professors.
It is businessmen who earn lot in America.

Other engineers and doctors are one
who earn more.

For the professors of Humanities livelihood
runs well, that much. Nothing more than it.

But Gurus used to tell, when I was young.
"Kaakopi Jivati Chiraye Balim cha Bhunkte",

"Don't work just for living, do and
show something in this life".

One does in own field.
But for we people who live in America,

We have a house, but that is also of Bank.
We have cars that is also of Bank.

The day when Job is over nothing remains. 
We have to come back wearing a dhoti.

But, what Gurus didn't give me was, they
didn't give me meanness.

We became filled with mental pettiness. We feel that we can't do it.

When we say "We can do" then there are 
people who are ready to help.

One has to move forward saying, 'I can do it.'

Some of my friends told me that we could establish Pashupati in Boston.

"Let's make Pashupati Buddha temple."

My students were involved in that.
After they established the temple,

"The pratishtha of the temple, who will do
it. You should come Guru", they told.

I went from San Diego, taking a flight and 
went there to do Pratistha.

Last year only I did Pratistha there
of Pashupati.

Here you people have understood importance
of it. I don't tell you haven't understood.

But we who are far away, we feel more love, of 
this country, of this culture, of this parampara.

We didn't come to take a share.
We don't need anything.

We won't take anything from here.
What we can give, please take it.

We have come to give. We might not 
have ability to give more money.

Because we are scholars. We did sadhana
in Vidya. I taught staying in America for 25 years.

At least I participated in more than 80
conferences.

I published more than 80 papers. More than
5 books I have published from foreign.

I also knew who foreign writers write.
I have never been weak in front of them.

I have never bowed my head in shame.
When I say I'm Tantrik scholar from Nepal,

They look at me very respectfully. And,
read my papers and findings.

Those all papers I have put on the website of 
Vimarsha Foundation.

Some people told me, "What if it is 
published in foreign. We are not able to read it."

"This is very expensive." It is also true. 
For one paper they say 25$ to download.

3000 Rs it costs. So in the Vimarsha site, I have
kept those papers in downloadable format.

If you want to read books written by me
you don't need to pay anything. It's all free.

I received free education. I didn't have to
pay for education fee in my life.

So I want as much as possible that,
whoever wants to read,

may that person gets to read without
paying anything.

In front of you, as I already told, the 
discussion of these Vidyas will keep on happening.

But inside of us we should have feeling
for the discussion of Vidya.

We should have Bhavana first,
before the Sadhana.

We should have faith in us.
We should have such an awakening,

Such light should be there,
there should be such fire,

That fire which can't extinguish our Sankalpa in
adverse situations of Samsara also.

And what is our Sankalpa?

We have worked in various fields.
We have studied and taught various fields.

"These all fields should give money",
How did this type of poverty come into us?

Is reading everything just for sake of 
2 Rupees ?

You need to start adult education here.

Some adults who already lived their livelihood
and now they are adult.

They can come to learn this Tantra Vidya 
at this Valmiki Vidyapeeth.

You will get it for free.
If not I will pay for it.

How should we protect this Vidya,
this is my only purpose.

This is the only mission of my life.
And what I feel is,

If there is grace from Jagadamba Bhagavati
If there is grace from mother Tripurasundari,

We can establish Peethas all over the world and study and teach there.

Various Shakta Peethas for the independent study
and teaching of 92 Agamas, we will establish.

I have been running alone. If I 
get support of you people it is good.

Even if I don't get support, I won't stop
running. One has to die, everyone knows.

I'm on a continuous journey. For the Tantra 
Vidya I have surrendered my life.

And that is the inspiration from you and the Gurus.

I'm grateful for that.

Thank you!

Many many Thanks!