1 00:00:03,541 --> 00:00:07,240 Namaskara! 2 00:00:07,240 --> 00:00:09,890 Respected Guru, 3 00:00:09,890 --> 00:00:13,583 Honorable Audience, 4 00:00:13,583 --> 00:00:19,138 In various platforms of the world I have presented my topics, 5 00:00:19,138 --> 00:00:25,155 but from this platform I do not have that much capacity to present. 6 00:00:25,155 --> 00:00:27,623 Because, 7 00:00:27,623 --> 00:00:33,855 In front of me is my Guru Vidyanath Upadhaya ji who guided me, 8 00:00:33,855 --> 00:00:39,638 who told me to go to study Tantra and I went to Varanasi. 9 00:00:39,638 --> 00:00:44,153 In this platform respected brother Jagman is present, 10 00:00:44,153 --> 00:00:46,603 He told me, "Do not cut your Shikha". 11 00:00:46,603 --> 00:00:50,102 I have not cut my Shikha ... 12 00:00:50,102 --> 00:00:54,734 People who brought me up since my childhood are here. 13 00:00:54,734 --> 00:00:57,402 It would be like teaching my teacher. 14 00:00:57,402 --> 00:01:01,317 I won't present any new findings here. 15 00:01:01,317 --> 00:01:04,733 Because I returned this home, after 25 years. 16 00:01:04,733 --> 00:01:08,215 If you go to your parents' house after 25 years, 17 00:01:08,215 --> 00:01:11,852 You will see that, "Oh this Dhupi tree has become so tall." 18 00:01:11,852 --> 00:01:16,301 "I had only planted this Rudraksha, It has become so big." 19 00:01:16,301 --> 00:01:22,419 "This room is just as it is, Oh Shiva, this has not been painted also." 20 00:01:22,419 --> 00:01:24,982 These things are coming in my mind. 21 00:01:24,982 --> 00:01:29,849 By coming in this platform, I'm just getting gifts provided by Gurus. 22 00:01:29,849 --> 00:01:31,733 During my first meeting, in this hall, 23 00:01:31,733 --> 00:01:35,616 Bernhard Colver from Germany, had come and presented here. 24 00:01:35,616 --> 00:01:38,749 Guru Vidyanath Ji had organized it. 25 00:01:38,749 --> 00:01:42,116 At that time, University was only hypothesized. 26 00:01:42,116 --> 00:01:44,966 Guru Vidyanath hadn't become, Rector yet. 27 00:01:44,966 --> 00:01:48,249 I went to my Guru's house. 28 00:01:48,249 --> 00:01:53,098 And, Guru told, "We are making it a University." 29 00:01:53,098 --> 00:01:56,364 "You people should study with full focus," 30 00:01:56,364 --> 00:02:01,681 We were reading with our focus, and became more clever. 31 00:02:01,681 --> 00:02:05,115 Guruji called Bernhard Colver, for the lunch. 32 00:02:05,115 --> 00:02:08,232 He also called me, and afterward, he told me, 33 00:02:08,232 --> 00:02:12,663 Maybe I should go for Germany, for Masters and Research. 34 00:02:12,663 --> 00:02:16,029 I told my Guru, "Please send me Varanasi" 35 00:02:16,029 --> 00:02:21,049 "I will come after, studying Tantra Vidya." 36 00:02:21,049 --> 00:02:24,179 And, after I came, several things happened. 37 00:02:24,179 --> 00:02:28,095 We suffered several difficulties in starting this department also. 38 00:02:28,095 --> 00:02:32,694 This is not the place, to talk about those bitter things. 39 00:02:32,694 --> 00:02:36,262 But I have spoken many times, In this platform as a teacher. 40 00:02:36,262 --> 00:02:40,628 I had taught in this same classroom, before leaving this country. 41 00:02:40,628 --> 00:02:43,899 And number of students, kept on decreasing. 42 00:02:43,899 --> 00:02:48,113 Maybe I wasn't an efficient teacher. 43 00:02:48,113 --> 00:02:51,912 I don't want to blame students. 44 00:02:51,912 --> 00:02:53,826 One time, one year became such, 45 00:02:53,826 --> 00:02:56,526 Student number became Zero. 46 00:02:56,526 --> 00:02:59,909 No new students were admitted. 47 00:02:59,909 --> 00:03:04,710 President of Students union, was my nephew, 48 00:03:04,710 --> 00:03:06,777 "Oh Nephew, you are also President", 49 00:03:06,777 --> 00:03:10,876 "Please encourage some students, to study this Tantra subject." 50 00:03:10,876 --> 00:03:16,091 I told him by going in the student union room itself. 51 00:03:16,091 --> 00:03:20,125 He told me, "Maamaa, what to do by studying your Tantra Vidya?" 52 00:03:20,125 --> 00:03:22,844 "There is no 'Future'. " 53 00:03:22,844 --> 00:03:25,556 He didn't say "No Bhavishya (future)". 54 00:03:25,556 --> 00:03:30,025 Therefore I remembered it as, 'No "Future" '. 55 00:03:30,025 --> 00:03:33,209 After it I did not want to go home. 56 00:03:33,209 --> 00:03:37,142 I used to stay at Sitapaila, I walked this side, 57 00:03:37,142 --> 00:03:39,840 I went to Guhyashwari Peetha. 58 00:03:39,840 --> 00:03:42,841 And I told "Why you put me in this Vidya with no future", 59 00:03:42,841 --> 00:03:49,935 "I stayed to teach students." Some inspiration came to me, 60 00:03:49,935 --> 00:03:51,956 What was this "Future"? 61 00:03:51,956 --> 00:03:56,988 "Future" was job. "Future" was going to foreign country. 62 00:03:56,988 --> 00:03:59,638 I felt too much pain. 63 00:03:59,638 --> 00:04:04,838 When I realized its meaning, I realized it meditating in the Peeth. 64 00:04:04,838 --> 00:04:09,408 Now days for me to stay in this country, has come over, I realized this. 65 00:04:09,408 --> 00:04:13,938 My Guru had sprinkled water from this Peeth and had told, 66 00:04:13,938 --> 00:04:18,788 "You became Purnabhishikta". Sitting in the same place I had to decide, 67 00:04:18,788 --> 00:04:22,571 "I will go foreign land now. Please give me leave." 68 00:04:22,571 --> 00:04:26,836 After 1 month of it, I left this country. 69 00:04:26,836 --> 00:04:32,170 And today, we in America, In the American Academy of Religion, 70 00:04:32,170 --> 00:04:34,153 In the 2nd year of my going, 71 00:04:34,153 --> 00:04:39,667 we told we should have conference regarding "Tantra Vidya", and started it. 72 00:04:39,667 --> 00:04:47,482 Now we have at least 50 professors, researching and presenting on "Tantra Vidya". 73 00:04:47,482 --> 00:04:50,752 Each year conferences are being organized. 74 00:04:50,752 --> 00:04:54,802 First 6 years I represented it, becoming President. 75 00:04:54,802 --> 00:04:59,800 After it, my friends and my students are representing it. 76 00:04:59,800 --> 00:05:01,984 We just, before I came here, 77 00:05:01,984 --> 00:05:05,483 We published the "Oxford handbook of Tantrik Studies", 78 00:05:05,483 --> 00:05:10,117 More than 50 foreign scholars, wrote it, 79 00:05:10,117 --> 00:05:16,133 and those books we will integrate, in all college curriculum also. 80 00:05:16,133 --> 00:05:20,083 Whatever we could have done by staying here, 81 00:05:20,083 --> 00:05:25,499 one tenth of that we have done, by remaining in any corner of world. 82 00:05:25,499 --> 00:05:30,898 And this inspiration of Gurus, We haven't wasted it. 83 00:05:30,898 --> 00:05:37,481 Four years ago I had one inspiration. I had come to Nepal. 84 00:05:37,481 --> 00:05:43,583 Some recognized people I met. 85 00:05:43,583 --> 00:05:48,698 They told me, "Now you only teach in America, who will teach us?" 86 00:05:48,698 --> 00:05:53,017 I went and immediately, established an online curriculum, 87 00:05:53,017 --> 00:05:55,546 opened "Vimarsha Foundation", 88 00:05:55,546 --> 00:06:02,563 after it, like the American semester courses, 89 00:06:02,563 --> 00:06:07,447 I started providing free education through Vimarsha Foundation, 90 00:06:07,447 --> 00:06:10,082 which can be accessed from any part of the world. 91 00:06:10,082 --> 00:06:14,263 In average 1000-1500 students join there in every classes. 92 00:06:14,263 --> 00:06:23,127 So far, I have taught around 15,000 students worldwide about this Vidya, 93 00:06:23,127 --> 00:06:27,112 and the way my students have helped me to organize this, 94 00:06:27,112 --> 00:06:32,477 it is all the blessings of the Guru, that I have concluded. 95 00:06:32,477 --> 00:06:39,142 My Guru, Prem Chetan Vidya Bhusan Ji, he used to tell me while talking about job, 96 00:06:39,142 --> 00:06:44,676 "You will go to America become a professor and work there". I laughed hysterically, 97 00:06:44,676 --> 00:06:47,977 I didn't believe in that Vak Siddhi there, because I hadn't studied English at all. 98 00:06:47,977 --> 00:06:54,958 I, who hadn't studied any English, how could I become a professor in America? 99 00:06:54,958 --> 00:06:57,794 But it was word of the "Guru" that had to be fulfilled. 100 00:06:57,794 --> 00:07:00,641 It became fulfilled anyhow. 101 00:07:00,641 --> 00:07:07,307 And today coming here, I felt happy seeing one thing. 102 00:07:07,307 --> 00:07:14,007 My students, Madhav Lamichhane, and his friends, and Tantra charcha family, 103 00:07:14,007 --> 00:07:19,205 These all, brought so much awareness regarding Tantra in common people. 104 00:07:19,205 --> 00:07:27,714 These so many people are present here, They are present to hear this subject. 105 00:07:27,714 --> 00:07:31,491 I'm feeling very proud seeing this. 106 00:07:31,491 --> 00:07:38,640 Now I feel that we don't have shortage of people to learn and protect Tantra. 107 00:07:38,640 --> 00:07:41,691 I'm grateful for that. 108 00:07:41,691 --> 00:07:44,356 I don't want to enter much in the subject matter. 109 00:07:44,356 --> 00:07:46,790 There is already book, you can read it also. 110 00:07:46,790 --> 00:07:50,505 But I have to speak few words anyway. 111 00:07:50,505 --> 00:07:55,294 In that, "In context of Nepal" is added in subject topic. 112 00:07:55,294 --> 00:08:01,105 Among us "Douglas" and "Sanderson" these foreign scholars findings come, 113 00:08:01,105 --> 00:08:04,852 They established things like, 114 00:08:04,852 --> 00:08:13,467 "In Tantra Vidya, Sri Vidya parampara. Is related to south, It came from places like Tamilnadu." 115 00:08:13,467 --> 00:08:18,602 They concluded such in western world. 116 00:08:18,602 --> 00:08:23,454 If we investigate Tantra Parampara here, 117 00:08:23,454 --> 00:08:31,518 Here are many Tantra experts, Culture experts. If you go and ask them you will know, 118 00:08:31,518 --> 00:08:35,686 whether there is Rajarajeshwari in Pashupati or Tripura Sundari in Bhaktapur 119 00:08:35,686 --> 00:08:40,369 You go in villages. My brother "Ram Hari Timalsina", 120 00:08:40,369 --> 00:08:47,084 He is writing a book on "Tripurasundari Parampara of Nepal". 121 00:08:47,084 --> 00:08:51,401 In the Dhading district itself, there are 2 Tripura Sundari temples. 122 00:08:51,401 --> 00:08:55,383 Similarly if you go in Salyan district, in the various regions of Far western, 123 00:08:55,383 --> 00:08:59,000 there are temples of Tripura Sundari. 124 00:08:59,000 --> 00:09:07,933 And, speaking about cultural importance of Tripura Sundari, we find many in Nepal. 125 00:09:07,933 --> 00:09:11,682 Regarding Sadhakas of Nepal, Dhana Shamsher Junga Bahadur Rana, 126 00:09:11,682 --> 00:09:14,898 was an expert Tantrik of Nepal. 127 00:09:14,898 --> 00:09:18,916 He did sadhana of Tripurasundari as per Sarvamnaya Krama. 128 00:09:18,916 --> 00:09:21,881 He left several of his works for us. 129 00:09:21,881 --> 00:09:28,981 And Dhan Samsher Ji, he has revealed, some very secret information there. 130 00:09:28,981 --> 00:09:33,613 "Sarvatha Rahasyam Na Udghataniyam" Just like Abhinavagupta told, 131 00:09:33,613 --> 00:09:38,113 "Na sarvatha Gopaniyam" Meaning, these secrets of Tantra, 132 00:09:38,113 --> 00:09:42,196 should not be hidden fully, nor should be exposed blatantly. 133 00:09:42,196 --> 00:09:44,147 We should show a little. One who gets it will get it, 134 00:09:44,147 --> 00:09:46,881 One who doesn't understand will come to Guru and ask him. 135 00:09:46,881 --> 00:09:51,064 Because Tantra is not a subject where everything is publicly detailed. 136 00:09:51,064 --> 00:09:54,812 He has commanded that in several places. 137 00:09:54,812 --> 00:09:58,129 He told sadhana as per Hadi krama of Sri Vidya. 138 00:09:58,129 --> 00:10:03,527 But if we go in full samasti krama of Sarvamnaya, 139 00:10:03,527 --> 00:10:09,611 as my Guru Vidya Bhusan Prem Chetan Brahmachari ji taught, 140 00:10:09,611 --> 00:10:14,346 I later learned those vidyas under Shankar Chetan Bharati ji, 141 00:10:14,346 --> 00:10:17,211 As per Vidyas taught by them, 142 00:10:17,211 --> 00:10:23,029 at last these all Vidyas integrate in Pashupati. 143 00:10:23,029 --> 00:10:28,444 Now I will make Jagman brother happy, Inside Pashupati also, Inside which is called, 144 00:10:28,444 --> 00:10:33,094 Pashupatastra. Laghu Pashupatastra, Madhyam, MahaPashupatastra, 145 00:10:33,094 --> 00:10:35,488 which comes inside Purascharyarnava. 146 00:10:35,488 --> 00:10:40,994 Apart from that, four other Pashupatastras were given to us by our Guru. 147 00:10:40,994 --> 00:10:48,403 Inside it also, when we get "Sarvamnaya Sarvadhikara Sarvasamrajya Medha Diksha", 148 00:10:48,403 --> 00:10:51,558 At that time the mantra which Guru gives to us, 149 00:10:51,558 --> 00:10:57,359 In that we worship Pashupati as Chanda Kapaleshwara, 150 00:10:57,359 --> 00:11:01,891 which is as Chanda Kapal it is second head of Guhyeshwari, 151 00:11:01,891 --> 00:11:05,775 and Kalasankarshini is Jwala form of top, 152 00:11:05,775 --> 00:11:11,405 Lord Pashupati becoming Chandakapaleshwara he gives Mantra Dana to us, 153 00:11:11,405 --> 00:11:16,163 To him also we address as "Vajradhara" In the same mantra, 154 00:11:16,163 --> 00:11:22,722 where it tells "Chandakapaleshwara" In the same mantra "Vajrine Vajradharaya", 155 00:11:22,722 --> 00:11:27,489 Pashupatinath is represented by the word "Vajradhara" itself. That mantra we get. 156 00:11:27,489 --> 00:11:32,788 More than that I won't tell about mantra. I already told 'Only some hint is given." 157 00:11:32,788 --> 00:11:35,723 "No way of telling the whole mantra." 158 00:11:35,723 --> 00:11:39,138 In the parampara of Nepal, in the Pashupati, 159 00:11:39,138 --> 00:11:43,222 not only these Shakta sadhana are integrated but also, 160 00:11:43,222 --> 00:11:47,738 all Hindu Buddhist sadhana become integrated there. 161 00:11:47,738 --> 00:11:54,570 As a proof of that only I had to pronounce a part of that Mantra. 162 00:11:54,570 --> 00:12:02,087 Now there is discussion about Srikula parampara, Kalikula parampara etc. 163 00:12:02,087 --> 00:12:06,819 "Kadi Hadi Sadi" Vidya. These Kadi Vidya Sadi Vidya are built upon, 164 00:12:06,819 --> 00:12:16,639 Tripurasundari only. Vagbhava, Kamaraja, like three Kutas, those three Kutas, 165 00:12:16,639 --> 00:12:22,719 taking initial letter of it, we considered these Kramas. 166 00:12:22,719 --> 00:12:28,869 In the books of Tripurasundari only these type of Vidya is discussed. 167 00:12:28,869 --> 00:12:34,002 Actually these all Kadi Hadi Vidyas are Vidyas of Tripurasundari. 168 00:12:34,002 --> 00:12:41,016 But, how do Vidyas of Tripurasundari and Vidyas of Guhyakali integrate? 169 00:12:41,016 --> 00:12:46,650 Now, you have to go and see 2 temples. I do not know if Vishwarupa renovation is completed. 170 00:12:46,650 --> 00:12:52,233 If Shleshmantak Vishwarup renovation is complete, 171 00:12:52,233 --> 00:12:56,932 There if you go and see, In front of it is Vishwarup murti of Mata Guhyashwari. 172 00:12:56,932 --> 00:13:00,317 In front of her Sri Yantra is placed. 173 00:13:00,317 --> 00:13:03,299 If you go and see in Lukanthali you will see the same there. 174 00:13:03,299 --> 00:13:06,982 There is idol of Guhyashwari in front of it, Sri Yantra is placed. 175 00:13:06,982 --> 00:13:09,313 It is not because Guhyashwari doesn't have her own Yantra. 176 00:13:09,313 --> 00:13:13,032 But those two are integrated. So, they are placed like that. 177 00:13:13,032 --> 00:13:18,980 Where is integration happening? Now we have to go to Kubjika Vidya. 178 00:13:18,980 --> 00:13:26,078 At last till we know Kubjika Vidya, till then we won't understand Tantra Parampara of Nepal. 179 00:13:26,078 --> 00:13:31,129 In the Kubjika Parampara in the left hand of Kubjika, the astra Vidya present there, 180 00:13:31,129 --> 00:13:37,145 that we call Chanda kapali Kalasankarshini Vidya, 181 00:13:37,145 --> 00:13:42,395 and in her right hand is Kameshwari Vidya which is developed as Tripurasundari Vidya. 182 00:13:42,395 --> 00:13:47,447 Now, based on the manuscripts you see of 16th-18th century, 183 00:13:47,447 --> 00:13:51,597 You can't say this is the Tantrik parampara of Nepal, because, 184 00:13:51,597 --> 00:13:56,829 In National Archives of Nepal, we have from 12th century itself, 185 00:13:56,829 --> 00:14:03,960 various manuscripts, hand written paddhatis regarding worship of Tripurasundari. 186 00:14:03,960 --> 00:14:11,195 Those are the oldest manuscripts of the entire Bharatavarsha. 187 00:14:11,195 --> 00:14:15,262 So, we do not have question of when these Vidyas started. 188 00:14:15,262 --> 00:14:18,876 As they are integrated within Kubjika Vidya from the time there was Kubjika Vidya, 189 00:14:18,876 --> 00:14:21,479 these all Vidyas got integrated from that time. 190 00:14:21,479 --> 00:14:24,425 Dhan Shamsher Ji has talked about Sambhava Vidya, 191 00:14:24,425 --> 00:14:28,075 But he talked Sambhava Vidya as Sri Vidya. 192 00:14:28,075 --> 00:14:32,209 "Atha Purnavishechanam Shadamnayam Shambhavam Cha" , he discussed. 193 00:14:32,209 --> 00:14:36,559 That Shadamaye Shambhava Vidya, itself means Vidya of Kubjika. 194 00:14:36,559 --> 00:14:40,226 To those who only take "Sri Vidya" I do not know why he discussed as, 195 00:14:40,226 --> 00:14:46,941 "I do not have right in Kubjika vidya and krama of Guhyakali". 196 00:14:46,941 --> 00:14:51,824 But actually in the parampara where samasti is done, 197 00:14:51,824 --> 00:14:56,022 Integration of Sri Vidya is done already inside Kubjika Krama. 198 00:14:56,022 --> 00:15:00,173 "Shadamnaya Shambhava Vidya" itself means Kubjika Vidya. 199 00:15:00,173 --> 00:15:04,040 And integrating such inside Kubjika Vidya that tradition is not from today, 200 00:15:04,040 --> 00:15:08,490 This started since the Sarvamnaya krama started. 201 00:15:08,490 --> 00:15:12,305 Another speciality of Nepal regarding sadhana, 202 00:15:12,305 --> 00:15:16,290 Nowadays, there is a trend in foreign lands, even in India, 203 00:15:16,290 --> 00:15:21,538 I will give one Kuta you give me this much money, after 6 month will give other kuta, 204 00:15:21,538 --> 00:15:24,922 Some people don't have any Guru Krama. Now there are so many people, 205 00:15:24,922 --> 00:15:31,537 wishing to learn Tantra in foreign that, for those who commercialize, 206 00:15:31,537 --> 00:15:33,937 I haven't sold any Vidya till now. 207 00:15:33,937 --> 00:15:38,038 Salary which I get as a professor. I live by that only. 208 00:15:38,038 --> 00:15:43,488 Without any initiation and education of Vidya also, 209 00:15:43,488 --> 00:15:47,073 people are opening market of it and commercializing it. 210 00:15:47,073 --> 00:15:50,783 What we should think is, 211 00:15:50,783 --> 00:15:54,836 Do not say "There is no Future learning this". 212 00:15:54,836 --> 00:15:57,857 This Tantra Vidya is the Vidya of our existence, 213 00:15:57,857 --> 00:16:01,320 and if you learn it, in whatever corner of the world you are, 214 00:16:01,320 --> 00:16:04,388 you will have a name. I give guarantee of that. 215 00:16:04,388 --> 00:16:10,285 I'm also an example of that. 216 00:16:10,285 --> 00:16:16,653 Saying that those who study Tantra Vidya don't know anything about the modern world. 217 00:16:16,653 --> 00:16:21,849 I did PhD in Vedanta also. Saying maybe it is not enough just studying Tantra. 218 00:16:21,849 --> 00:16:28,118 Vedanta which says , "The world is illusion". That Vedanta has all Ashrams. 219 00:16:28,118 --> 00:16:32,166 Tantra is saying this world is real and in it you should enjoy also. 220 00:16:32,166 --> 00:16:37,301 So why should we not establish Peethas based on Tantra? 221 00:16:37,301 --> 00:16:41,800 I had this will 2-3 years ago, 222 00:16:41,800 --> 00:16:48,698 Let's establish Shakta Peeth in America also, if possible in South America also, 223 00:16:48,698 --> 00:16:51,966 and likewise there were 50 peethas in the Bharatvarsha. 224 00:16:51,966 --> 00:16:55,493 What is the dimension of Bharatavarsha? This entire Bhugola is Bharatavarsha. 225 00:16:55,493 --> 00:17:00,366 And why not establish Shakta Peeth inside the entire Bhugola. 226 00:17:00,366 --> 00:17:04,813 That will came to me when I was meditating. 227 00:17:04,813 --> 00:17:13,864 Then in Nepal I had will to build a Murti of Guhyashwari, 228 00:17:13,864 --> 00:17:16,364 Now it is nearly completed. 229 00:17:16,364 --> 00:17:19,464 Process of Murti formation is nearly complete. 230 00:17:19,464 --> 00:17:24,747 Goddess is 8 feet tall, She has 10 heads and 54 hands. 231 00:17:24,747 --> 00:17:32,640 And if Goddess graces, and Gurus give blessings, if my dear students help, 232 00:17:32,640 --> 00:17:41,198 I will take her to America and establish 1st Peetha there. 233 00:17:41,198 --> 00:17:44,943 We are not decaying. We are not weak. 234 00:17:44,943 --> 00:17:50,744 Here just like teachers worry about what to eat, 235 00:17:50,744 --> 00:17:55,861 There also is same for the professors. It is businessmen who earn lot in America. 236 00:17:55,861 --> 00:17:58,525 Other engineers and doctors are one who earn more. 237 00:17:58,525 --> 00:18:02,410 For the professors of Humanities livelihood runs well, that much. Nothing more than it. 238 00:18:02,410 --> 00:18:09,895 But Gurus used to tell, when I was young. "Kaakopi Jivati Chiraye Balim cha Bhunkte", 239 00:18:09,895 --> 00:18:14,158 "Don't work just for living, do and show something in this life". 240 00:18:14,158 --> 00:18:19,509 One does in own field. But for we people who live in America, 241 00:18:19,509 --> 00:18:23,459 We have a house, but that is also of Bank. We have cars that is also of Bank. 242 00:18:23,459 --> 00:18:28,759 The day when Job is over nothing remains. We have to come back wearing a dhoti. 243 00:18:28,759 --> 00:18:35,508 But, what Gurus didn't give me was, they didn't give me meanness. 244 00:18:35,508 --> 00:18:41,106 We became filled with mental pettiness. We feel that we can't do it. 245 00:18:41,106 --> 00:18:46,587 When we say "We can do" then there are people who are ready to help. 246 00:18:46,587 --> 00:18:50,306 One has to move forward saying, 'I can do it.' 247 00:18:50,306 --> 00:18:55,055 Some of my friends told me that we could establish Pashupati in Boston. 248 00:18:55,055 --> 00:18:58,517 "Let's make Pashupati Buddha temple." 249 00:18:58,517 --> 00:19:02,706 My students were involved in that. After they established the temple, 250 00:19:02,706 --> 00:19:08,339 "The pratishtha of the temple, who will do it. You should come Guru", they told. 251 00:19:08,339 --> 00:19:13,373 I went from San Diego, taking a flight and went there to do Pratistha. 252 00:19:13,373 --> 00:19:18,937 Last year only I did Pratistha there of Pashupati. 253 00:19:18,937 --> 00:19:24,903 Here you people have understood importance of it. I don't tell you haven't understood. 254 00:19:24,903 --> 00:19:36,719 But we who are far away, we feel more love, of this country, of this culture, of this parampara. 255 00:19:36,719 --> 00:19:40,485 We didn't come to take a share. We don't need anything. 256 00:19:40,485 --> 00:19:47,751 We won't take anything from here. What we can give, please take it. 257 00:19:47,751 --> 00:19:53,638 We have come to give. We might not have ability to give more money. 258 00:19:53,638 --> 00:19:58,886 Because we are scholars. We did sadhana in Vidya. I taught staying in America for 25 years. 259 00:19:58,886 --> 00:20:01,967 At least I participated in more than 80 conferences. 260 00:20:01,967 --> 00:20:10,185 I published more than 80 papers. More than 5 books I have published from foreign. 261 00:20:10,185 --> 00:20:17,350 I also knew who foreign writers write. I have never been weak in front of them. 262 00:20:17,350 --> 00:20:22,650 I have never bowed my head in shame. When I say I'm Tantrik scholar from Nepal, 263 00:20:22,650 --> 00:20:29,300 They look at me very respectfully. And, read my papers and findings. 264 00:20:29,300 --> 00:20:34,282 Those all papers I have put on the website of Vimarsha Foundation. 265 00:20:34,282 --> 00:20:39,084 Some people told me, "What if it is published in foreign. We are not able to read it." 266 00:20:39,084 --> 00:20:45,384 "This is very expensive." It is also true. For one paper they say 25$ to download. 267 00:20:45,384 --> 00:20:53,898 3000 Rs it costs. So in the Vimarsha site, I have kept those papers in downloadable format. 268 00:20:53,898 --> 00:20:59,281 If you want to read books written by me you don't need to pay anything. It's all free. 269 00:20:59,281 --> 00:21:05,596 I received free education. I didn't have to pay for education fee in my life. 270 00:21:05,596 --> 00:21:11,262 So I want as much as possible that, whoever wants to read, 271 00:21:11,262 --> 00:21:15,912 may that person gets to read without paying anything. 272 00:21:15,912 --> 00:21:21,629 In front of you, as I already told, the discussion of these Vidyas will keep on happening. 273 00:21:21,629 --> 00:21:25,179 But inside of us we should have feeling for the discussion of Vidya. 274 00:21:25,179 --> 00:21:27,760 We should have Bhavana first, before the Sadhana. 275 00:21:27,760 --> 00:21:32,608 We should have faith in us. We should have such an awakening, 276 00:21:32,608 --> 00:21:35,577 Such light should be there, there should be such fire, 277 00:21:35,577 --> 00:21:44,294 That fire which can't extinguish our Sankalpa in adverse situations of Samsara also. 278 00:21:44,294 --> 00:21:46,545 And what is our Sankalpa? 279 00:21:46,545 --> 00:21:52,126 We have worked in various fields. We have studied and taught various fields. 280 00:21:52,126 --> 00:21:57,542 "These all fields should give money", How did this type of poverty come into us? 281 00:21:57,542 --> 00:22:01,076 Is reading everything just for sake of 2 Rupees ? 282 00:22:01,076 --> 00:22:04,027 You need to start adult education here. 283 00:22:04,027 --> 00:22:08,576 Some adults who already lived their livelihood and now they are adult. 284 00:22:08,576 --> 00:22:14,176 They can come to learn this Tantra Vidya at this Valmiki Vidyapeeth. 285 00:22:14,176 --> 00:22:21,409 You will get it for free. If not I will pay for it. 286 00:22:21,409 --> 00:22:27,307 How should we protect this Vidya, this is my only purpose. 287 00:22:27,307 --> 00:22:30,956 This is the only mission of my life. And what I feel is, 288 00:22:30,956 --> 00:22:35,473 If there is grace from Jagadamba Bhagavati If there is grace from mother Tripurasundari, 289 00:22:35,473 --> 00:22:40,131 We can establish Peethas all over the world and study and teach there. 290 00:22:40,131 --> 00:22:49,122 Various Shakta Peethas for the independent study and teaching of 92 Agamas, we will establish. 291 00:22:49,122 --> 00:22:53,173 I have been running alone. If I get support of you people it is good. 292 00:22:53,173 --> 00:22:58,096 Even if I don't get support, I won't stop running. One has to die, everyone knows. 293 00:22:58,096 --> 00:23:04,140 I'm on a continuous journey. For the Tantra Vidya I have surrendered my life. 294 00:23:04,140 --> 00:23:06,640 And that is the inspiration from you and the Gurus. 295 00:23:07,885 --> 00:23:08,225 I'm grateful for that. 296 00:23:09,267 --> 00:23:12,875 Thank you! 297 00:23:13,400 --> 00:23:15,077 Many many Thanks!