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Namaskara!

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Respected Guru,

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Honorable Audience,

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In various platforms of the world [br]I have presented my topics,

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but from this platform I do not have[br]that much capacity to present.

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Because,

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In front of me is my Guru Vidyanath Upadhaya ji[br]who guided me,

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who told me to go to study Tantra[br]and I went to Varanasi.

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In this platform respected[br]brother Jagman is present,

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He told me,[br]"Do not cut your Shikha".

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I have not cut my[br]Shikha ...

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People who brought me up since[br]my childhood are here.

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It would be like[br]teaching my teacher.

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I won't present any[br]new findings here.

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Because I returned this home,[br]after 25 years.

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If you go to your parents' house after 25 years,

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You will see that,[br]"Oh this Dhupi tree has become so tall."

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"I had only planted this Rudraksha,[br]It has become so big."

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"This room is just as it is,[br]Oh Shiva, this has not been painted also."

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These things are coming[br]in my mind.

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By coming in this platform,[br]I'm just getting gifts provided by Gurus.

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During my first meeting,[br]in this hall,

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Bernhard Colver from Germany,[br]had come and presented here.

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Guru Vidyanath Ji had[br]organized it.

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At that time,[br]University was only hypothesized.

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Guru Vidyanath hadn't become,[br]Rector yet.

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I went to my Guru's house.

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And, Guru told,[br]"We are making it a University."

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"You people should study with full[br]focus,"

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We were reading with our focus,[br]and became more clever.

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Guruji called Bernhard Colver,[br]for the lunch.

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He also called me, and afterward, he told me,

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Maybe I should go for Germany,[br]for Masters and Research.

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I told my Guru,[br]"Please send me Varanasi"

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"I will come after,[br]studying Tantra Vidya."

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And, after I came,[br]several things happened.

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We suffered several difficulties in starting this department also.

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This is not the place,[br]to talk about those bitter things.

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But I have spoken many times,[br]In this platform as a teacher.

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I had taught in this same classroom,[br]before leaving this country.

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And number of students,[br]kept on decreasing.

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Maybe I wasn't an[br]efficient teacher.

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I don't want to [br]blame students.

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One time,[br]one year became such,

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Student number became Zero.

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No new students[br]were admitted.

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President of Students union,[br]was my nephew,

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"Oh Nephew, you are also President",

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"Please encourage some students,[br]to study this Tantra subject."

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I told him by going in[br]the student union room itself.

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He told me, "Maamaa, what to do [br]by studying your Tantra Vidya?"

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"There is no 'Future'. "

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He didn't say "No Bhavishya (future)".

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Therefore I remembered it as,[br]'No "Future" '.

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After it I did not want [br]to go home.

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I used to stay at Sitapaila,[br]I walked this side,

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I went to Guhyashwari Peetha.

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And I told "Why you put me[br]in this Vidya with no future",

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"I stayed to teach students."[br]Some inspiration came to me,

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What was this "Future"?

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"Future" was job.[br]"Future" was going to foreign country.

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I felt too much pain.

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When I realized its meaning,[br]I realized it meditating in the Peeth.

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Now days for me to stay in this country,[br]has come over, I realized this.

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My Guru had sprinkled water[br]from this Peeth and had told,

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"You became Purnabhishikta".[br]Sitting in the same place I had to decide,

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"I will go foreign land now.[br]Please give me leave."

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After 1 month of it,[br]I left this country.

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And today, we in America,[br]In the American Academy of Religion,

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In the 2nd year of my going,

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we told we should have conference[br]regarding "Tantra Vidya", and started it.

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Now we have at least 50 professors,[br]researching and presenting on "Tantra Vidya".

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Each year conferences are being[br]organized.

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First 6 years I represented it,[br]becoming President.

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After it, my friends[br]and my students are representing it.

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We just,[br]before I came here,

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We published the [br]"Oxford handbook of Tantrik Studies",

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More than 50 foreign scholars,[br]wrote it,

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and those books we will integrate,[br]in all college curriculum also.

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Whatever we could have done by staying here,

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one tenth of that we have done,[br]by remaining in any corner of world.

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And this inspiration of Gurus,[br]We haven't wasted it.

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Four years ago I had one inspiration.[br]I had come to Nepal.

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Some recognized people I met.

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They told me, "Now you only teach[br]in America, who will teach us?"

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I went and immediately,[br]established an online curriculum,

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opened "Vimarsha Foundation",

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after it, like the American semester[br]courses,

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I started providing free education[br]through Vimarsha Foundation,

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which can be accessed from[br]any part of the world.

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In average 1000-1500 students[br]join there in every classes.

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So far, I have taught around 15,000 students worldwide about this Vidya,

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and the way my students have helped[br]me to organize this,

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it is all the blessings of the Guru,[br]that I have concluded.

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My Guru, Prem Chetan Vidya Bhusan Ji,[br]he used to tell me while talking about job,

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"You will go to America become a professor[br]and work there". I laughed hysterically,

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I didn't believe in that Vak Siddhi there,[br]because I hadn't studied English at all.

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I, who hadn't studied any English, how could I become a professor in America?

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But it was word of the "Guru"[br]that had to be fulfilled.

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It became fulfilled anyhow.

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And today coming here,[br]I felt happy seeing one thing.

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My students, Madhav Lamichhane,[br]and his friends, and Tantra charcha family,

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These all, brought so much awareness[br]regarding Tantra in common people.

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These so many people are present here,[br]They are present to hear this subject.

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I'm feeling very proud seeing this.

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Now I feel that we don't have shortage [br]of people to learn and protect Tantra.

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I'm grateful for that.

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I don't want to enter much[br]in the subject matter.

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There is already book,[br]you can read it also.

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But I have to speak[br]few words anyway.

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In that, "In context of Nepal"[br]is added in subject topic.

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Among us "Douglas" and "Sanderson"[br]these foreign scholars findings come,

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They established things like,

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"In Tantra Vidya, Sri Vidya parampara. Is related to south, It came from places like Tamilnadu."

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They concluded such in western world.

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If we investigate Tantra Parampara here,

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Here are many Tantra experts, Culture experts.[br]If you go and ask them you will know,

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whether there is Rajarajeshwari in Pashupati[br]or Tripura Sundari in Bhaktapur

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You go in villages.[br]My brother "Ram Hari Timalsina",

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He is writing a book on[br]"Tripurasundari Parampara of Nepal".

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In the Dhading district itself,[br]there are 2 Tripura Sundari temples.

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Similarly if you go in Salyan district,[br]in the various regions of Far western,

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there are temples of Tripura Sundari.

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And, speaking about cultural importance of[br]Tripura Sundari, we find many in Nepal.

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Regarding Sadhakas of Nepal,[br]Dhana Shamsher Junga Bahadur Rana,

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was an expert Tantrik of Nepal.

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He did sadhana of Tripurasundari[br]as per Sarvamnaya Krama.

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He left several of his works for us.

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And Dhan Samsher Ji, he has revealed,[br]some very secret information there.

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"Sarvatha Rahasyam Na Udghataniyam"[br]Just like Abhinavagupta told,

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"Na sarvatha Gopaniyam"[br]Meaning, these secrets of Tantra,

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should not be hidden fully,[br]nor should be exposed blatantly.

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We should show a little.[br]One who gets it will get it,

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One who doesn't understand[br]will come to Guru and ask him.

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Because Tantra is not a subject[br]where everything is publicly detailed.

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He has commanded that in several places.

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He told sadhana as per[br]Hadi krama of Sri Vidya.

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But if we go in full samasti krama[br]of Sarvamnaya,

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as my Guru Vidya Bhusan Prem Chetan [br]Brahmachari ji taught,

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I later learned those vidyas under[br]Shankar Chetan Bharati ji,

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As per Vidyas taught by them,

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at last these all Vidyas integrate[br]in Pashupati.

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Now I will make Jagman brother happy, [br]Inside Pashupati also, Inside which is called,

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Pashupatastra. Laghu Pashupatastra,[br]Madhyam, MahaPashupatastra,

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which comes inside Purascharyarnava.

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Apart from that, four other Pashupatastras were given to us by our Guru.

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Inside it also, when we get "Sarvamnaya [br]Sarvadhikara Sarvasamrajya Medha Diksha",

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At that time the mantra which Guru gives[br]to us,

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In that we worship Pashupati as[br]Chanda Kapaleshwara,

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which is as Chanda Kapal it is[br]second head of Guhyeshwari,

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and Kalasankarshini is Jwala form of top,

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Lord Pashupati becoming Chandakapaleshwara[br]he gives Mantra Dana to us,

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To him also we address as "Vajradhara"[br]In the same mantra,

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where it tells "Chandakapaleshwara"[br]In the same mantra "Vajrine Vajradharaya",

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Pashupatinath is represented by the word[br]"Vajradhara" itself. That mantra we get.

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More than that I won't tell about mantra.[br]I already told 'Only some hint is given."

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"No way of telling the whole mantra."

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In the parampara of Nepal, [br]in the Pashupati,

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not only these Shakta sadhana[br]are integrated but also,

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all Hindu Buddhist sadhana [br]become integrated there.

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As a proof of that only I had to [br]pronounce a part of that Mantra.

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Now there is discussion about[br]Srikula parampara, Kalikula parampara etc.

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"Kadi Hadi Sadi" Vidya. These Kadi Vidya[br]Sadi Vidya are built upon,

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Tripurasundari only. Vagbhava, Kamaraja,[br]like three Kutas, those three Kutas,

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taking initial letter of it,[br]we considered these Kramas.

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In the books of Tripurasundari only[br]these type of Vidya is discussed.

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Actually these all Kadi Hadi Vidyas are[br]Vidyas of Tripurasundari.

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But, how do Vidyas of Tripurasundari[br]and Vidyas of Guhyakali integrate?

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Now, you have to go and see 2 temples. I do not[br]know if Vishwarupa renovation is completed.

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If Shleshmantak [br]Vishwarup renovation is complete,

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There if you go and see, In front of it [br]is Vishwarup murti of Mata Guhyashwari.

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In front of her[br]Sri Yantra is placed.

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If you go and see in Lukanthali[br]you will see the same there.

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There is idol of Guhyashwari[br]in front of it, Sri Yantra is placed.

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It is not because Guhyashwari doesn't[br]have her own Yantra.

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But those two are integrated.[br]So, they are placed like that.

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Where is integration happening?[br]Now we have to go to Kubjika Vidya.

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At last till we know Kubjika Vidya, till[br]then we won't understand Tantra Parampara of Nepal.

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In the Kubjika Parampara in the left hand[br]of Kubjika, the astra Vidya present there,

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that we call Chanda kapali[br]Kalasankarshini Vidya,

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and in her right hand is Kameshwari Vidya[br]which is developed as Tripurasundari Vidya.

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Now, based on the manuscripts you see[br]of 16th-18th century,

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You can't say this is the Tantrik parampara[br]of Nepal, because,

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In National Archives of Nepal, we have[br]from 12th century itself,

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various manuscripts, hand written paddhatis[br]regarding worship of Tripurasundari.

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Those are the oldest manuscripts of the [br]entire Bharatavarsha.

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So, we do not have question of [br]when these Vidyas started.

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As they are integrated within Kubjika Vidya[br]from the time there was Kubjika Vidya,

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these all Vidyas got integrated from that[br]time.

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Dhan Shamsher Ji has talked about[br]Sambhava Vidya,

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But he talked Sambhava Vidya as Sri Vidya.

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"Atha Purnavishechanam Shadamnayam[br]Shambhavam Cha" , he discussed.

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That Shadamaye Shambhava Vidya,[br]itself means Vidya of Kubjika.

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To those who only take "Sri Vidya"[br]I do not know why he discussed as,

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"I do not have right in Kubjika vidya[br]and krama of Guhyakali".

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But actually in the parampara where[br]samasti is done,

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Integration of Sri Vidya is done[br]already inside Kubjika Krama.

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"Shadamnaya Shambhava Vidya"[br]itself means Kubjika Vidya.

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And integrating such inside Kubjika Vidya[br]that tradition is not from today,

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This started since the Sarvamnaya[br]krama started.

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Another speciality of Nepal[br]regarding sadhana,

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Nowadays, there is a trend in foreign lands, even in India,

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I will give one Kuta you give me this much[br]money, after 6 month will give other kuta,

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Some people don't have any Guru Krama.[br]Now there are so many people,

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wishing to learn Tantra in foreign that,[br]for those who commercialize,

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I haven't sold any Vidya till now.

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Salary which I get as a professor.[br]I live by that only.

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Without any initiation and education [br]of Vidya also,

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people are opening market of it[br]and commercializing it.

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What we should think is,

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Do not say [br]"There is no Future learning this".

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This Tantra Vidya is the[br]Vidya of our existence,

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and if you learn it,[br]in whatever corner of the world you are,

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you will have a name.[br]I give guarantee of that.

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I'm also an example of that.

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Saying that those who study Tantra Vidya[br]don't know anything about the modern world.

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I did PhD in Vedanta also. Saying maybe it[br]is not enough just studying Tantra.

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Vedanta which says , "The world is illusion".[br]That Vedanta has all Ashrams.

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Tantra is saying this world is real and[br]in it you should enjoy also.

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So why should we not[br]establish Peethas based on Tantra?

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I had this will 2-3 years ago,

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Let's establish Shakta Peeth in America also,[br]if possible in South America also,

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and likewise there were 50 peethas[br]in the Bharatvarsha.

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What is the dimension of Bharatavarsha?[br]This entire Bhugola is Bharatavarsha.

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And why not establish Shakta Peeth[br]inside the entire Bhugola.

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That will came to me when I was[br]meditating.

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Then in Nepal I had will to build a [br]Murti of Guhyashwari,

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Now it is nearly completed.

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Process of Murti formation is nearly complete.

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Goddess is 8 feet tall,[br]She has 10 heads and 54 hands.

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And if Goddess graces, and Gurus give[br]blessings, if my dear students help,

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I will take her to America and [br]establish 1st Peetha there.

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We are not decaying.[br]We are not weak.

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Here just like teachers worry[br]about what to eat,

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There also is same for the professors.[br]It is businessmen who earn lot in America.

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Other engineers and doctors are one[br]who earn more.

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For the professors of Humanities livelihood[br]runs well, that much. Nothing more than it.

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But Gurus used to tell, when I was young.[br]"Kaakopi Jivati Chiraye Balim cha Bhunkte",

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"Don't work just for living, do and[br]show something in this life".

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One does in own field.[br]But for we people who live in America,

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We have a house, but that is also of Bank.[br]We have cars that is also of Bank.

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The day when Job is over nothing remains. [br]We have to come back wearing a dhoti.

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But, what Gurus didn't give me was, they[br]didn't give me meanness.

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We became filled with mental pettiness. We feel that we can't do it.

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When we say "We can do" then there are [br]people who are ready to help.

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One has to move forward saying, 'I can do it.'

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Some of my friends told me that we could establish Pashupati in Boston.

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"Let's make Pashupati Buddha temple."

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My students were involved in that.[br]After they established the temple,

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"The pratishtha of the temple, who will do[br]it. You should come Guru", they told.

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I went from San Diego, taking a flight and [br]went there to do Pratistha.

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Last year only I did Pratistha there[br]of Pashupati.

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Here you people have understood importance[br]of it. I don't tell you haven't understood.

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But we who are far away, we feel more love, of [br]this country, of this culture, of this parampara.

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We didn't come to take a share.[br]We don't need anything.

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We won't take anything from here.[br]What we can give, please take it.

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We have come to give. We might not [br]have ability to give more money.

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Because we are scholars. We did sadhana[br]in Vidya. I taught staying in America for 25 years.

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At least I participated in more than 80[br]conferences.

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I published more than 80 papers. More than[br]5 books I have published from foreign.

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I also knew who foreign writers write.[br]I have never been weak in front of them.

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I have never bowed my head in shame.[br]When I say I'm Tantrik scholar from Nepal,

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They look at me very respectfully. And,[br]read my papers and findings.

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Those all papers I have put on the website of [br]Vimarsha Foundation.

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Some people told me, "What if it is [br]published in foreign. We are not able to read it."

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"This is very expensive." It is also true. [br]For one paper they say 25$ to download.

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3000 Rs it costs. So in the Vimarsha site, I have[br]kept those papers in downloadable format.

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If you want to read books written by me[br]you don't need to pay anything. It's all free.

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I received free education. I didn't have to[br]pay for education fee in my life.

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So I want as much as possible that,[br]whoever wants to read,

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may that person gets to read without[br]paying anything.

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In front of you, as I already told, the [br]discussion of these Vidyas will keep on happening.

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But inside of us we should have feeling[br]for the discussion of Vidya.

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We should have Bhavana first,[br]before the Sadhana.

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We should have faith in us.[br]We should have such an awakening,

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Such light should be there,[br]there should be such fire,

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That fire which can't extinguish our Sankalpa in[br]adverse situations of Samsara also.

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And what is our Sankalpa?

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We have worked in various fields.[br]We have studied and taught various fields.

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"These all fields should give money",[br]How did this type of poverty come into us?

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Is reading everything just for sake of [br]2 Rupees ?

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You need to start adult education here.

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Some adults who already lived their livelihood[br]and now they are adult.

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They can come to learn this Tantra Vidya [br]at this Valmiki Vidyapeeth.

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You will get it for free.[br]If not I will pay for it.

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How should we protect this Vidya,[br]this is my only purpose.

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This is the only mission of my life.[br]And what I feel is,

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If there is grace from Jagadamba Bhagavati[br]If there is grace from mother Tripurasundari,

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We can establish Peethas all over the world and study and teach there.

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Various Shakta Peethas for the independent study[br]and teaching of 92 Agamas, we will establish.

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I have been running alone. If I [br]get support of you people it is good.

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Even if I don't get support, I won't stop[br]running. One has to die, everyone knows.

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I'm on a continuous journey. For the Tantra [br]Vidya I have surrendered my life.

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And that is the inspiration from you and the Gurus.

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I'm grateful for that.

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Thank you!

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Many many Thanks!