[Script Info] Title: [Events] Format: Layer, Start, End, Style, Name, MarginL, MarginR, MarginV, Effect, Text Dialogue: 0,0:00:01.14,0:00:02.72,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,There was a woman Dialogue: 0,0:00:02.72,0:00:04.07,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that I was dating Dialogue: 0,0:00:05.84,0:00:09.04,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and um, she told me, Dialogue: 0,0:00:09.04,0:00:11.34,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,--and this was the first time I ever questioned my disability Dialogue: 0,0:00:11.34,0:00:14.48,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and the impact it had on my social life-- Dialogue: 0,0:00:14.48,0:00:20.92,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,she said "Helen, I um, can't be with you 100%. Dialogue: 0,0:00:20.92,0:00:23.22,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I do love you, I do care for you, Dialogue: 0,0:00:23.22,0:00:26.56,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,but I can't be with you 100%" Dialogue: 0,0:00:26.56,0:00:28.91,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And I said "why?" Dialogue: 0,0:00:28.91,0:00:30.06,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,She would never say it. Dialogue: 0,0:00:30.06,0:00:32.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I said "because of my disability?" Dialogue: 0,0:00:32.20,0:00:34.38,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,She said "yes". Dialogue: 0,0:00:35.17,0:00:37.64,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So I felt like, felt at that point, Dialogue: 0,0:00:37.64,0:00:39.37,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that if she was honest enough to tell me that, Dialogue: 0,0:00:39.37,0:00:41.64,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,then most people are thinking that, Dialogue: 0,0:00:41.64,0:00:44.31,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that I'm only gonna give her but so much Dialogue: 0,0:00:44.31,0:00:47.38,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,{\u1}_{\u0}as she's going to be able to give me. Dialogue: 0,0:00:48.44,0:00:52.85,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Um, so, it's real difficult. Dialogue: 0,0:00:53.71,0:00:55.26,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It's real difficult. Dialogue: 0,0:00:55.26,0:00:58.12,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I mean, yeah I meet women, Dialogue: 0,0:00:58.12,0:01:00.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I love women, I love beautiful women, Dialogue: 0,0:01:00.40,0:01:05.41,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,but when I started to see that it's not, this is not for me, Dialogue: 0,0:01:05.41,0:01:08.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I'm just going to y'know let you go Dialogue: 0,0:01:08.40,0:01:09.74,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and that's just about mine, Dialogue: 0,0:01:09.74,0:01:12.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I have no problems with that, Dialogue: 0,0:01:12.20,0:01:18.48,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,but I think that the black, black women, or black lesbians, or whatever you wanna call us, Dialogue: 0,0:01:18.48,0:01:27.63,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,we are fearful of the unknown. Dialogue: 0,0:01:27.63,0:01:31.29,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,To look at me, you don't know what this is. Dialogue: 0,0:01:31.29,0:01:32.83,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So you're afraid of it, Dialogue: 0,0:01:32.83,0:01:35.93,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,cause you're not familiar with it. Dialogue: 0,0:01:35.93,0:01:40.87,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So it makes you more, um, Dialogue: 0,0:01:40.87,0:01:43.37,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,you know, when we are afraid of things, Dialogue: 0,0:01:43.37,0:01:46.21,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,we try to stay away from them, Dialogue: 0,0:01:46.21,0:01:49.64,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,instead of trying to, to get the knowledge of what that is, Dialogue: 0,0:01:49.64,0:01:51.24,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,or what that person is, Dialogue: 0,0:01:51.24,0:01:52.68,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,or what that disability is, Dialogue: 0,0:01:52.68,0:01:56.25,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,or why that person is the way they are. Dialogue: 0,0:01:56.25,0:02:01.62,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So we have a tendency to run away from things that are unfamiliar and that we're afraid of.