Growing up, I was kind of always self-conscious,
like wanting to look a certain way.
It's a never ending battle.
You look at yourself, and you know you can never
attain that ideal.
As I've gotten older, you see different changes.
I feel like I have some wrinkles around my eyes.
I'm never going to be skinny. I' not a skinny girl.
They can be hired.
When you see models and celebrities, I mean like
you just don't look the same.
Okay.
Wow.
Oh, my God.
I had not expected to look like that at all.
I feel like it doesn't even look like me.
I think, because I know myself,
this looks really different.
Why would you want to make someone look so different?
I like my freckles.
I think they add character,
and the fact that they're gone, I don't know even know who that is.
Just as a normal person seeing yourself change and
your identity changed, it's pretty, pretty shocking.
Once someone else has done your makeup and someone
else has done your hair, and someone has directed
the way your body looks and then taken away your
imperfections, then there's not much left of
who you really are.
This is how I always wanted to see myself, but
now that I see it, I like questioning why I ever
wanted to look like that.
You look at these as magazines,
and you see these women who look absolutely flawless,
and you're like, ah, I wish I could look like that.
But who really looks like this?
I think we live in a really interesting time
where we feel like we have to make people look to the
standard that's not attainable for anybody.
Instead of looking at other things and trying to
aspire to be something else, we should just be
comfortable in who we are and just try to be our best selves.
I think something that everybody should keep in
mind is that it's natural to be critical of yourself.
It's natural to be uncomfortable or awkward,
but you just have to know that the ideal just
doesn't exist.