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Growing up, I was kind of
always self-conscious,

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like wanting to
look a certain way.

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It's a never
ending battle.

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You look at yourself, and
you know you can never

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attain that ideal.

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As I've gotten older, you
see different changes.

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I feel like I have some
wrinkles around my eyes.

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I'm never going
to be skinny.
I' not a skinny girl.

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They can be hired.

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When you see models and
celebrities, I mean like

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you just don't
look the same.

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Okay.

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Wow.

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Oh, my God.

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I had not expected to
look like that at all.

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I feel like it doesn't
even look like me.

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I think, because I know
myself,

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this looks really different.

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Why would you want to make
someone look so different?

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I like my freckles.

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I think they add
character,

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and the fact that they're gone,
I don't know even know who that
is.

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Just as a normal person
seeing yourself change and

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your identity changed,
it's pretty, pretty shocking.

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Once someone else has done
your makeup and someone

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else has done your hair,
and someone has directed

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the way your body looks
and then taken away your

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imperfections, then
there's not much left of

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who you really are.

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This is how I always
wanted to see myself, but

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now that I see it, I like
questioning why I ever

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wanted to look like that.

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You look at these as
magazines,

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and you see these women who look
absolutely flawless,

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and you're like, ah, I wish
I could look like that.

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But who really
looks like this?

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I think we live in a
really interesting time

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where we feel like we have
to make people look to the

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standard that's not
attainable for anybody.

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Instead of looking at
other things and trying to

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aspire to be something
else, we should just be

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comfortable in who we are and
just try to be our best selves.

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I think something that
everybody should keep in

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mind is that it's natural
to be critical of yourself.

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It's natural to be
uncomfortable or awkward,

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but you just have to
know that the ideal just

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doesn't exist.