Growing up, I was kind of
always self-conscious,

like wanting to
look a certain way.

It's a never
ending battle.

You look at yourself, and
you know you can never

attain that ideal.

As I've gotten older, you
see different changes.

I feel like I have some
wrinkles around my eyes.

I'm never going
to be skinny.
I' not a skinny girl.

They can be hired.

When you see models and
celebrities, I mean like

you just don't
look the same.

Okay.

Wow.

Oh, my God.

I had not expected to
look like that at all.

I feel like it doesn't
even look like me.

I think, because I know
myself,

this looks really different.

Why would you want to make
someone look so different?

I like my freckles.

I think they add
character,

and the fact that they're gone,
I don't know even know who that
is.

Just as a normal person
seeing yourself change and

your identity changed,
it's pretty, pretty shocking.

Once someone else has done
your makeup and someone

else has done your hair,
and someone has directed

the way your body looks
and then taken away your

imperfections, then
there's not much left of

who you really are.

This is how I always
wanted to see myself, but

now that I see it, I like
questioning why I ever

wanted to look like that.

You look at these as
magazines,

and you see these women who look
absolutely flawless,

and you're like, ah, I wish
I could look like that.

But who really
looks like this?

I think we live in a
really interesting time

where we feel like we have
to make people look to the

standard that's not
attainable for anybody.

Instead of looking at
other things and trying to

aspire to be something
else, we should just be

comfortable in who we are and
just try to be our best selves.

I think something that
everybody should keep in

mind is that it's natural
to be critical of yourself.

It's natural to be
uncomfortable or awkward,

but you just have to
know that the ideal just

doesn't exist.