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Growing up, I was kind of[br]always self-conscious,

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like wanting to[br]look a certain way.

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It's a never[br]ending battle.

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You look at yourself, and[br]you know you can never

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attain that ideal.

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As I've gotten older, you[br]see different changes.

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I feel like I have some[br]wrinkles around my eyes.

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I'm never going[br]to be skinny.[br]I' not a skinny girl.

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They can be hired.

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When you see models and[br]celebrities, I mean like

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you just don't[br]look the same.

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Okay.

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Wow.

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Oh, my God.

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I had not expected to[br]look like that at all.

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I feel like it doesn't[br]even look like me.

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I think, because I know[br]myself,

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this looks really different.

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Why would you want to make[br]someone look so different?

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I like my freckles.

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I think they add[br]character,

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and the fact that they're gone,[br]I don't know even know who that[br]is.

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Just as a normal person[br]seeing yourself change and

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your identity changed,[br]it's pretty, pretty shocking.

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Once someone else has done[br]your makeup and someone

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else has done your hair,[br]and someone has directed

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the way your body looks[br]and then taken away your

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imperfections, then[br]there's not much left of

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who you really are.

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This is how I always[br]wanted to see myself, but

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now that I see it, I like[br]questioning why I ever

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wanted to look like that.

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You look at these as[br]magazines,

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and you see these women who look[br]absolutely flawless,

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and you're like, ah, I wish[br]I could look like that.

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But who really[br]looks like this?

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I think we live in a[br]really interesting time

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where we feel like we have[br]to make people look to the

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standard that's not[br]attainable for anybody.

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Instead of looking at[br]other things and trying to

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aspire to be something[br]else, we should just be

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comfortable in who we are and[br]just try to be our best selves.

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I think something that[br]everybody should keep in

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mind is that it's natural[br]to be critical of yourself.

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It's natural to be[br]uncomfortable or awkward,

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but you just have to[br]know that the ideal just

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doesn't exist.