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Salom. Mening ismim Kameron Rassel

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va oxirgi paytlarda
men model bo’lib ishlayapman.

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Aslida, oxirgi 10 yil davomida.

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Bu yerda hamma

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sal siqilib turibdi shekilli, ehtimol,

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shu libos deb, uni bekor
kiyibman shekilli.

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(Kulgi)

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Yaxshiyamki, qo’shimcha
kiyim olib kelibman.

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Bu TED sahnasida tarixdagi
birinchi kiyim almashtirishdir,

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va siz buning baxtli guvohisizlar,
menimcha.

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Agar ba’zi ayollar meni ko’rib,
daxshatlangan bo’lishsa,

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menga buni aytmang,
men keyin buni Twitterdan bilib olaman.

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(Kulgi)

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Yana shuni etmoqchimanki,

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men 10 soniya ichida, sizning
men haqimdagi fikringizni,

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o’zgartirishga ega bo’ldim.

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Buni har kim ham qila olmaydi.

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Shu baland poshnalar noqulayki…
Yaxshiyamki, ularda yurish niyatim yo’q.

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Eng qiyin qismi – bu sviterni kiyishdir,

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chunki siz mening ustimdan kulasizlar…

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Iltimos, uni kiyayotganimda kulmang.

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Ana bo'ldi.

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Nima uchun men bunday qildim?

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Juda noqulay bo’ldi.

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(Kulgi)

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Demak...

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(Kulgi)

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Umid qilamanki, bu
rasmdagidek noqulay bo’lmagandir.

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Tashqi ko’rinish ko’p narsani anglatadi,

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lekin u aldamchi ham bo’lishi mumkin.

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Men atigi 6 soniya ichida, sizning men
haqimdagi fikringizni o’zgartira oldim.

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Bu rasmni sur’atga olishgan paytda,

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mening yigitim yo’q edi, aslida.

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Men juda uyalgan edim,

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sur’atchi menga orqaga engashib
va qo’limni yigitning

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boshiga qo’yish kerakligini aytdi.

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Albatta, jarrohlik yoki badanni

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qoraytirishdan tashqari, bir necha
kun oldin menga zarur bo’lgan edi,

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tashqi qiyofamizni tubdan o’zgartirish
uchun, bizda ko’p imkoniyatlar yo’q.

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Bizning tashqi ko’rinishimiz,
qanchalik yolg’on bo’lmasin,

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bizning hayotimizga katta ta’sir qiladi.

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Shuning uchun ham, men uchun
dovyuraklik bu to’g’ri so’z bo’lishdir.

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Men shu sahnadaman, chunki men modelman.

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Men shu sahnadaman, chunki
men jozibador oq ayolman

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va bizning ishda bu juda
go’zal ko’rinish hisoblanadi.

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Menga berishadigan savollarga
javob bermoqchiman,

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lekin to'liq vijdonan.

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Birinchi savol:
“Siz qanday qilib model bo’ldingiz?”

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Men har doim “meni topishdi” deyman, lekin

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bu hech narsa emas.

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Chunki aslida, men model
bo'lganimning asosiy sababi,

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men genetikada va meroslikda yutganman.

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Qanday meros, deb so’rasangiz?

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Ho'sh, so’ngi asrlar davomida,

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biz go’zallikni baholashda
nafaqat sog’lomlik, yoshlik

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va simmetriyaga, ularga o'zi
har doim boshidanoq qaraymiz,

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lekin yana bo’y, ozg’inlik, nazokat

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va oqlikni ham baholaymiz.

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Va bu mening merosim,

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va bu meros bilan men pul topaman.

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Tomashabinlar ichida shubha

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qilyotganlar ham borligini bilaman,

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taniqli bo'lgan modellarni ham
eslaydiganlar bordir:

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"Veyit, Naomi, Tayra, Jo’an Smols
va Lyu Venlarni".

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Modellar haqidagi bilimlaringiz
juda ta’sirli, qoyilman!

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(Kulgi)

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Lekin, afsuski, sizga xabar
qilishim kerakki, 2007 yilda,

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Nyu-York Universitetining
ilhomlangan aspiranti,

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ishga olingan barcha
modellarni sanab chiqdi

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va 677 ishga olingan modellardan,

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faqatgina 27 tasi, bu 4% dan ham kam,
oq tanali qizlar emas edilar.

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Menga berishadigan keyingi savol:

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“Men ham model bo’la olamanmi?”.

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Men odatda: “Men buni hal qilmayman”
deb javob beraman.

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Lekin aslida esa,

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men shu kichkina qizchalardan:
"Nimaga? Bilasizmi?

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Siz hohlagan kasbni tanlashingiz mumkin.

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Siz AQSH presidenti bo’lishingiz mumkin,

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yoki yana bitta internet ihtirochisi,

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yoki ninzya-shoir-yurak-jarrohi,

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bu juda ajoyib bo’lardi,
chunki bu siz birinchi bo’lasiz.

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(Kulgi)

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Xatto bu ro’yhatdan keyin ham menga ular:

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“Yo’q, yo’q Kameron, men model bo’laman”

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men: “Mening boshlig'im bo'laqol"

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Chunki, men hech narsani boshqarmayman,

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siz esa AQSHning “Vogue”
jurnalining bosh muharriri,

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yoki H&M ning, yoki keyingi Stiven Meyzel.

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Katta bo’lsam model
bo’laman deb da’vo qilish,

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katta bo’lib superloto
yutaman so’zlariga o’xshaydi.

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Bu sizning nazoratingizdan tashqari,
va bu ajoyib,

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lekin bu ish sohasi emas.

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Men sizga 10 yil davomida ishlab,
to'plagan bilimlarimni ko’rsatmoqchiman.

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Yurak jarrohlaridan farqli o’laroq,

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men ularni hozir,
shu yerda ko’rsata olaman.

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Demak, masalan, sur’atchi hozir bu yerda,

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lampalar esa u yerda va mijoz menga:

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“Bizga, ko’chada
ketyatgan sur'at kerak” desa,

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shunda bu oyoq cho’zilgan holda
oldinga yuradi, bu qo’l orqaga,

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buni esa oldinga,
boshing sal chetga va ketdi,

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oldinga-orqaga, orqadigi
hayolingdagi do’stlaringa qarab…

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300, 400, 500 marta.

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(Kulgi)

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Va bu shunday ko’rinishi mumkin.

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(Kulgi)

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Umid qilamanki, o’rtadagi
rasmdan yaxshiroq,

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u yerda nima bo’lgani, umuman noma’lum.

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Afsuski, universitetni tugatib,

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rezyume yozib va
ish qidirishni boshlaganimizda,

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katta tanlovga ega bo’lmaymiz.

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Shuning uchun, agar siz
prezident bo’lmoqchi bo’lsangiz, lekin

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rezyumeda
“ichki kiyimlar modeli: 10 yosh” deyilgan

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bo'lsa, odamlar kulishadi.

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Keyingi savol:
“Barcha sur’atlar qayta ishlaniladimi?”

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Ha, barcha sur’atlarga
o’zgartirishlar kiritiladi,

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lekin bu sodir bo’ladigan
ishlarning kichik bir qismi.

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Bu mening eng birinchi tushgan sur'atim,

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va bikinini birinchi marta kiyishim edi,

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va hatto balog’at yoshidan oldin edi.

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Bilaman, bu shaxsiy, lekin
rostdan ham hali yosh edim.

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Mana men, u sur’atdan bir
necha oy oldin, buvim bilan.

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Bu esa o’sha kuni,
sur’atga olishdan oldin.

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Do’stim men bilan kelgandi.

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Bu esa, Vogue jurnaliga sur’atga
tushishdan oldin, do’stimning uyida.

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Bu men va mening futbol jamoam,
bu esa men V jurnalida.

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Bu esa men bugun.

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Endi men umid qilamanki,

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bu sur’atlar meniki emasligini ko’rdingiz.

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Ular katta ishdir,

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va buni o'z ishlarida katta
professional bo'lgan,

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sartaroshlar, kosmetologlar,
sur’atchilar, stilistlar

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va barcha yordamchi jamoalarning ishidir,

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bu ularning mehnati.

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Meniki emas.

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Ho'sh, menga berishadigan keyingi savol:

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"Kiyimlarni bepul olasizmi?

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(Kulgi)

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Albatta, menda hech qachon kiymaydigan,
bu yerdan tashqari,

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baland poshnali oyoq kiyimlar bor

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Rostdan ham bepul oladigan narsam,
biz bu haqida gapirishni yoqtirmaymiz,

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bu hayotda ro’y beradigan narsalar.

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Men Kembrijda o’sganman,

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bir kuni do’konga borib,
hamyonni unutibman,

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ular esa ko’ylakni menga bepul berishdi.

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Yoshligimda, bir kuni do’stim
bilan mashinada yurib,

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u juda yomon haydar edi
va qizil chiroqdan o’tib ketdi,

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va bizni to’xtatishdi,

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men “Kechirasiz” deyishim yetarli edi
va politsiya bizni qo’yib yubordi.

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Bu hodisalarning barchasi
mening shaxsiyatim deb emas,

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balki ko’rinishim deb,
dunyoda shaxsiyati deb emas, balki

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tashqi ko’rinishi deb
baholangan insonlar ko’p.

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Men Nyu-Yorkda yashayman

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va o’tgan yil mobaynida politsiya
hibsga olgan 140.000 yoshlardan,

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86% yoki qora tanli, yoki lotinamerikalik
va ko’pchiligi erkak kishilar.

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Umuman, Nyu-Yorkda faqatgina 177.000 qora
tanli va lotinamerikalik yoshlar yashaydi,

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ular uchun ularni to’xtashishadimi
yo’qmi savol emas.

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Qachon va necha marta
meni to'tatishadi - shu savoldir.

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Bu nutqga tayyorlanishdan oldin,

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AQShning 13 yoshli
qizlarning 53%, o’zlarining

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tanasini yomon ko’rishlarini bildim.

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Ular 17 yoshga kirganlarida,
bu raqamlar 78% ko’tariladi.

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Mendan so’rashadigan so’nggi savol:

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“Qanday u - model bo'lish?”

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Menimcha, ular kutyatgan javob:

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"Agar, siz nozik va
sochlaringiz yorqin bo’lsa,

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sizda albatta hammasi yaxshi bo’ladi".

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Va ba’zan sahna ortida

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beradigan javoblarimiz
hatto rostligiga ishonamiz.

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Biz: “Ish juda yaxshi,
biz ko'p sayohat qilamiz,

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qiziq ijodiy insonlar bilan ishlaymiz”.

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Va buning barchasi rost,
lekin bu hali hammasi emas,

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chunki, biz kameraga eta
olmaydigan narsamiz,

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buni kameraga hech qachon aytmaganman,

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men o’zimga ishonmayman.

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Chunki, men har kuni usti ko'rinishim
haqida o’ylashim kerak.

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Va agarda sizga qiziq bo'lsa:

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"Nozikroq bo’lsam va sochlarim
yorqinroq bo’lsa, baxtli bo’lamanmi?"

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buni bir guruh modellardan so’rang.

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Ular noziklar, sochlari yorqin va
juda yaxshi kiyim-kechaklari bor,

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va ular, ehtimol, dunyodagi
eng o’zlariga ishonmaydigan ayollardir.

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Men nutqimni yozgan paytimda,

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men har xil qiyinchiliklarga duch keldim,

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chunki, bir tarafdan,

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bu noto’g’ri bo’lardi,
agar men bu yerga kelib:

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“Men bu barcha imtiyozlarga,
omad tufayli ega bo’ldim” – deyish,

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yoki noto’g’ri bo’lardi,
agarda undan keyin men:

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“bu meni baxtli qilmadi” – deb aytsam.

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Lekin eng qiyini, jinsiy va
irqiy ta’qib to’g’risida gapirib,

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bu merosdan foyda
olyotganim haqida gapirish.

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Lekin, bu yerda bo’lish, men uchun sharaf,

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va o'ylaymanki, bugun shu yerga kelganim,

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10, 20 yoki 30 yildan so'ng kelib,
ko'proq tajribaga ega bo'lib,

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balki, sizga men qanday qilib hayotimdagi
birinchi ishimni oldim,

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yoki ta’lim olish uchun pul
topganimni aytib bermas edim,

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balki ular muhim bo'lmas edi.

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Mening so’zlarimdan keyin,

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tashqi ko’rinishimizning hayotdagi

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g’alabalar va mag’lubiyatlarga ahamiyatini

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tushunasiz deb umid qilaman.

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Rahmat.

201
00:09:14,866 --> 00:09:16,970
(Qarsaklar)