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Dialogue: 0,0:00:03.58,0:00:05.85,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,A few months ago I became famous,
Dialogue: 0,0:00:05.85,0:00:08.34,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,for stripping down half nude,
Dialogue: 0,0:00:08.34,0:00:12.52,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,as a fat 40-year-old mom\Nat a farmer's market downtown Boise.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:13.92,0:00:16.67,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,(Cheers) (Applause)
Dialogue: 0,0:00:20.61,0:00:23.28,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,A video of the event quickly went viral,
Dialogue: 0,0:00:23.48,0:00:26.04,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,showing me in a black bikini,\N
Dialogue: 0,0:00:26.04,0:00:27.36,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,blind-folded,
Dialogue: 0,0:00:27.36,0:00:31.01,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,with a handful of washable markers\Nfrom my daughter's art kit,
Dialogue: 0,0:00:31.04,0:00:33.84,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and a chalk board sign\Nat my feet that read:
Dialogue: 0,0:00:33.89,0:00:37.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"If you've ever struggled\Nwith a self-esteem issue like me,
Dialogue: 0,0:00:37.60,0:00:41.59,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and believe all bodies are valuable,\Ndraw a heart on my body."
Dialogue: 0,0:00:42.36,0:00:44.65,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It was a feminist art performance piece,
Dialogue: 0,0:00:44.65,0:00:47.96,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Just one in a series I've done\Nover the past seven years,
Dialogue: 0,0:00:47.96,0:00:50.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,as a body-positive activist,
Dialogue: 0,0:00:50.20,0:00:52.72,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,calling for radical self-acceptance.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:53.51,0:00:56.100,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I wrote a blog post about it\Nafter that hour in the market,
Dialogue: 0,0:00:56.100,0:00:59.87,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,titled: "A stand for self-love."
Dialogue: 0,0:01:00.28,0:01:01.61,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And hence forth,
Dialogue: 0,0:01:01.61,0:01:04.24,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,media, celebrities,\Nand writers around the world
Dialogue: 0,0:01:04.24,0:01:06.83,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,glommed on to those words like I did,
Dialogue: 0,0:01:07.07,0:01:11.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,referring to my acts that day\Nas "The stand for self-love,"
Dialogue: 0,0:01:12.26,0:01:13.41,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,or,
Dialogue: 0,0:01:13.69,0:01:16.02,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,as I affectionately refer to it now,
Dialogue: 0,0:01:16.06,0:01:17.74,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,the shortened version,
Dialogue: 0,0:01:17.74,0:01:18.99,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"The Stand."
Dialogue: 0,0:01:20.80,0:01:25.57,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,This of course wasn't the first time\NI stood up for myself or for something,
Dialogue: 0,0:01:25.76,0:01:28.42,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I've stood up a lot of times in my life.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:28.74,0:01:32.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,The theologian Mary Daly says,\N"Courage requires couraging,"
Dialogue: 0,0:01:32.77,0:01:36.69,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,much like learning to ski requires, \Nwell, skiing a lot,
Dialogue: 0,0:01:36.92,0:01:39.38,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and piano playing requires practice.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:39.66,0:01:43.55,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And just as many times,\Nlike I'm sure you can all relate to,
Dialogue: 0,0:01:43.67,0:01:48.47,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I've gotten shoved back into my seat,\Nknocked down flat on the floor,
Dialogue: 0,0:01:48.67,0:01:51.74,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,crawled, and slowly pulled myself\Nto standing again.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:51.96,0:01:54.06,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Each time, a bit taller,
Dialogue: 0,0:01:54.49,0:01:55.77,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,wiser,
Dialogue: 0,0:01:55.77,0:01:56.98,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,louder,
Dialogue: 0,0:01:56.99,0:01:58.22,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,braver.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:58.86,0:02:01.86,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,We all have a story\Nthat can lead to a stand,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:01.95,0:02:04.22,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and I'm going to share bits of mine.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:04.24,0:02:07.87,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,How I've stood up several times\Nover the course of my life
Dialogue: 0,0:02:07.90,0:02:10.57,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,paving the way to "The Stand" for me.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:12.70,0:02:16.01,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Like that time as a young teenager,\Nwhen I wrote a letter to the editor
Dialogue: 0,0:02:16.01,0:02:17.62,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,of my local newspaper,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:17.92,0:02:19.39,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,because there was an outcry
Dialogue: 0,0:02:19.39,0:02:22.19,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,to abolish the only chapter\Non sex education
Dialogue: 0,0:02:22.22,0:02:24.35,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,from our health class curriculum,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:24.95,0:02:26.58,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and I got called a slut.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:27.76,0:02:30.23,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I curled up in my bedroom and cried.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:30.27,0:02:32.07,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But crawled back to school,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:32.26,0:02:33.42,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,wiser.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:34.03,0:02:35.19,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And in my 20s,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:35.22,0:02:38.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,when a boyfriend turned to me one day\Nand screamed in my face,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:38.96,0:02:41.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"I'm so tired of hearing\Nabout your feminist garbage,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:41.92,0:02:44.24,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,will you just shut up?!"
Dialogue: 0,0:02:45.80,0:02:48.49,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And I broke up with him, that same day.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:49.13,0:02:50.53,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Louder!
Dialogue: 0,0:02:50.56,0:02:52.78,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,(Whistles) (Applause)
Dialogue: 0,0:02:54.18,0:02:57.98,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And in my 30s, when I landed \Nthe dream job of my career,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:58.05,0:03:02.79,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,only to fight for fair treatment,\Nequal pay, appropriate family leave,
Dialogue: 0,0:03:02.84,0:03:04.87,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and time to breastfeed my baby,
Dialogue: 0,0:03:04.87,0:03:07.78,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and I'm deemed "difficult to work with."
Dialogue: 0,0:03:07.90,0:03:09.05,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Self-righteous.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:10.25,0:03:11.54,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I lost that job,
Dialogue: 0,0:03:11.54,0:03:13.91,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and it knocked me flat on my back.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:14.37,0:03:16.94,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But I slowly pulled myself\Nto standing again.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:17.21,0:03:18.43,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Braver.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:18.93,0:03:21.56,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I forged my own \Nnew career path as a writer,
Dialogue: 0,0:03:21.56,0:03:24.94,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and continued questioning\Narchaic ideals of the past,
Dialogue: 0,0:03:24.98,0:03:26.98,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and began making my own rules.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:29.02,0:03:30.21,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Seven years ago,
Dialogue: 0,0:03:30.28,0:03:34.81,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I literally googled the words:\N"Why am I fat and happy?"
Dialogue: 0,0:03:35.58,0:03:38.85,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Because, I personally knew no one else
Dialogue: 0,0:03:38.85,0:03:42.72,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,who was not buying \Ninto our consumerist culture's crap,
Dialogue: 0,0:03:42.88,0:03:45.77,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and thought one, "Am I crazy?"
Dialogue: 0,0:03:46.42,0:03:47.57,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Or two,
Dialogue: 0,0:03:47.72,0:03:50.23,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"If not, there's got to be\Nsomeone else out there
Dialogue: 0,0:03:50.24,0:03:52.31,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that feels this way too, right?"
Dialogue: 0,0:03:52.54,0:03:55.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And after scrolling \Nthrough pages and pages of ads
Dialogue: 0,0:03:55.13,0:03:57.07,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,for the diet industry complex,
Dialogue: 0,0:03:57.09,0:04:01.39,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and news articles telling me\NI was unhappy because I was fat,
Dialogue: 0,0:04:01.71,0:04:04.31,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I finally found what I was looking for.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:04.63,0:04:09.42,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Two blogs that forever changed my life \Nand catapulted me into ideas,
Dialogue: 0,0:04:09.58,0:04:12.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,about health at every size,\Nand body positivity,
Dialogue: 0,0:04:12.51,0:04:13.77,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and fat acceptance.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:14.50,0:04:18.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I read every book, and news article,\Nand scientific study.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:18.12,0:04:21.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I followed Fat Fierce Feminist\Non Facebook and Twitter.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:21.66,0:04:25.97,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,For three years, I immersed myself\Nin the education,
Dialogue: 0,0:04:26.05,0:04:29.13,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and it started showing up,\Nmore and more,
Dialogue: 0,0:04:29.57,0:04:30.72,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,in my art,
Dialogue: 0,0:04:31.36,0:04:32.51,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,in my writing,
Dialogue: 0,0:04:33.25,0:04:34.58,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,on my Facebook wall,
Dialogue: 0,0:04:35.17,0:04:36.97,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and coming out of my mouth.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:38.45,0:04:41.52,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Four years ago, I did my first\Npublic performance piece
Dialogue: 0,0:04:41.58,0:04:45.57,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,on how to be fat, fit,\Nand fabulous, here in Boise
Dialogue: 0,0:04:45.57,0:04:48.31,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and earned my place as a radical feminist,
Dialogue: 0,0:04:48.31,0:04:51.06,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,with ideas about all bodies\Nbeing good bodies,
Dialogue: 0,0:04:51.09,0:04:54.83,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and that there is in fact\Nno wrong way to have a body.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:55.41,0:04:56.56,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It went pretty well.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:57.24,0:04:58.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But my second performance
Dialogue: 0,0:04:59.80,0:05:00.95,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,did not.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:01.77,0:05:04.77,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,At an event to an audience\Nsimilar to this,
Dialogue: 0,0:05:04.96,0:05:08.16,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I proposed a public art\Nsocial activism project
Dialogue: 0,0:05:08.19,0:05:10.19,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,for International No Diet Day.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:10.80,0:05:12.95,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And for the first time in my life,
Dialogue: 0,0:05:13.00,0:05:15.65,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,earned myself a vile internet troll.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:16.58,0:05:19.92,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,A man who was anonymously\Nwriting hateful things
Dialogue: 0,0:05:20.19,0:05:24.39,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,about me and my body on Twitter,\Nwhile I was on stage.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:26.23,0:05:29.52,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,The social media bigotry continued\Nonto my Facebook wall,
Dialogue: 0,0:05:29.56,0:05:33.59,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,this time by both men and women\NI actually knew in real life,
Dialogue: 0,0:05:33.98,0:05:35.72,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and coupled with the fact,
Dialogue: 0,0:05:35.94,0:05:37.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that unbeknownst to all of them,
Dialogue: 0,0:05:38.16,0:05:41.36,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I was also suffering\Nfrom my first miscarriage.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:41.42,0:05:42.57,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,At home,
Dialogue: 0,0:05:42.70,0:05:43.86,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,alone,
Dialogue: 0,0:05:44.29,0:05:45.44,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I shut down.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:45.56,0:05:48.36,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Both physically and literally I shut down.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:48.63,0:05:51.69,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Closing all my social media\Naccounts for the summer,
Dialogue: 0,0:05:51.72,0:05:54.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,taking a much needed break\Nto heal my mind,
Dialogue: 0,0:05:54.61,0:05:55.86,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,my heart,
Dialogue: 0,0:05:55.94,0:05:57.82,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and my body at home.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:58.68,0:06:01.97,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I had felt so strong, so brave\Nin my body positivity,
Dialogue: 0,0:06:01.100,0:06:03.97,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and it had all failed me.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:04.28,0:06:07.21,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Both the body\NI had worked so hard to love,
Dialogue: 0,0:06:07.38,0:06:10.75,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and the activism\NI had felt so strongly about.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:12.69,0:06:13.84,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I rose up though.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:13.99,0:06:15.14,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Taller.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:15.17,0:06:20.28,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And rejoined social media and started\N"The Boise Rad Fat Collective."
Dialogue: 0,0:06:21.19,0:06:22.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,A private Facebook group,
Dialogue: 0,0:06:22.53,0:06:25.47,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that began with a few like-minded\Nfriends and acquaintances
Dialogue: 0,0:06:25.50,0:06:27.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,who wanted a safe space
Dialogue: 0,0:06:27.22,0:06:29.74,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,to share body-positive links\Nand news articles,
Dialogue: 0,0:06:29.76,0:06:32.37,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,in both a kind and scholarly way.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:33.12,0:06:34.46,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It was in this group,
Dialogue: 0,0:06:34.54,0:06:38.93,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,where I first posted the video of Jae West\Nand The Liberators International,
Dialogue: 0,0:06:39.00,0:06:41.100,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,a group of Australians\Nwho stage public social experiments
Dialogue: 0,0:06:42.00,0:06:45.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,geared around\Nparticipatory acts of kindness.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:45.80,0:06:47.34,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,The video featured Jae,
Dialogue: 0,0:06:47.48,0:06:51.28,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,in her bra and undies\Nin Piccadilly Circus in London,
Dialogue: 0,0:06:51.72,0:06:54.05,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,with a sign, blindfold, and markers.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:55.62,0:06:56.89,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It was heart-warming.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:56.90,0:07:00.84,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And I thought about it hard\Nwith all my body positive feminist theory,
Dialogue: 0,0:07:00.89,0:07:03.38,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and socially acceptable\Nstandards of beauty,
Dialogue: 0,0:07:03.42,0:07:04.57,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and questioned,
Dialogue: 0,0:07:05.46,0:07:08.79,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"How might this experiment\Nbe perceived differently
Dialogue: 0,0:07:08.91,0:07:12.44,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,if the woman was say,\Ntwice Jae's size,
Dialogue: 0,0:07:12.77,0:07:15.56,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,like around 226 pounds?
Dialogue: 0,0:07:16.48,0:07:17.68,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And twice her age,
Dialogue: 0,0:07:18.30,0:07:21.06,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,like say 40 and a mom,
Dialogue: 0,0:07:21.40,0:07:24.52,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and in a much more\Nconservative place like Boise, Idaho?
Dialogue: 0,0:07:24.56,0:07:26.33,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,(Laughter)
Dialogue: 0,0:07:26.36,0:07:27.51,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Well,
Dialogue: 0,0:07:28.20,0:07:29.67,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I decided to find out,
Dialogue: 0,0:07:29.85,0:07:33.14,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and asked photographer Melanie Folwell\Nto document the stand
Dialogue: 0,0:07:33.16,0:07:35.22,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and picked a date about two weeks out
Dialogue: 0,0:07:35.26,0:07:37.65,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,at the busiest\Npedestrian spot in the city,
Dialogue: 0,0:07:37.69,0:07:40.61,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,the capital city public market at noon.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:43.14,0:07:45.75,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,To say I was terrified\Nwould be an understatement.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:45.78,0:07:47.98,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I woke up that morning and puked.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:48.26,0:07:50.08,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I kept the whole thing "hush hush,"
Dialogue: 0,0:07:50.08,0:07:54.08,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,as I didn't want to stuff the crowd\Nwith friends and body-positive people,
Dialogue: 0,0:07:54.09,0:07:56.76,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,but wanted to let it organically evolve.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:56.84,0:07:59.93,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Even if that meant people\Nyelled mean things at me,
Dialogue: 0,0:08:00.06,0:08:05.42,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,the police asked me to leave or worse,\Nno one shared in my message of self-love.
Dialogue: 0,0:08:06.44,0:08:08.13,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Psyching myself up right before
Dialogue: 0,0:08:08.13,0:08:10.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,stepping into the crowd\Nand taking off my dress,
Dialogue: 0,0:08:10.50,0:08:13.76,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I suddenly felt the need to set\Nparameters for success.
Dialogue: 0,0:08:14.66,0:08:16.35,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,My goal that day was,
Dialogue: 0,0:08:17.09,0:08:19.82,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,if five people stop \Nand draw a heart on me,
Dialogue: 0,0:08:20.68,0:08:24.55,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,if I get five people to dig deep\Nand think hard about their bodies,
Dialogue: 0,0:08:24.56,0:08:26.24,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and loving them and hating them
Dialogue: 0,0:08:26.24,0:08:27.92,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,then it's a success.
Dialogue: 0,0:08:28.19,0:08:29.34,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Just five.
Dialogue: 0,0:08:30.64,0:08:31.66,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Well,
Dialogue: 0,0:08:31.68,0:08:33.22,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,as you may know by now,
Dialogue: 0,0:08:33.48,0:08:36.09,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I touched a lot more\Nthan five people that day.
Dialogue: 0,0:08:36.51,0:08:37.75,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,In fact,
Dialogue: 0,0:08:37.89,0:08:42.58,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,our video has been viewed\Nover 130 million times.
Dialogue: 0,0:08:43.30,0:08:45.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,(Cheers) (Applause)
Dialogue: 0,0:08:51.65,0:08:54.38,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And the messages in my in-box\Nwere in the thousands,
Dialogue: 0,0:08:54.40,0:08:56.25,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and from all corners of the world,
Dialogue: 0,0:08:56.26,0:09:00.66,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,saying, "Thank you for standing\Nfor me, and with courage."
Dialogue: 0,0:09:02.14,0:09:03.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I wasn't wearing much that day,
Dialogue: 0,0:09:03.70,0:09:06.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,but what I was wearing,\Nis important to note.
Dialogue: 0,0:09:06.64,0:09:08.04,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I decided on a bikini,
Dialogue: 0,0:09:08.89,0:09:10.49,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,instead of a bra and panties,
Dialogue: 0,0:09:10.49,0:09:14.45,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,as I thought that might be more palatable\Nto a conservative city like Boise.
Dialogue: 0,0:09:15.01,0:09:16.48,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,By stripping off my clothes,
Dialogue: 0,0:09:16.51,0:09:19.32,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I was stripping away \Nnegative body image, and saying,
Dialogue: 0,0:09:19.34,0:09:22.58,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"I'm at peace with my body\Nand I have been for many years,
Dialogue: 0,0:09:22.89,0:09:24.89,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and I think you should be too."
Dialogue: 0,0:09:26.28,0:09:27.36,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Plus,
Dialogue: 0,0:09:27.37,0:09:31.37,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,logistically, it gave the participants\Nmore skin to write on.
Dialogue: 0,0:09:31.39,0:09:32.58,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,(Laughter)
Dialogue: 0,0:09:33.11,0:09:35.52,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I wore the blindfold for many reasons.
Dialogue: 0,0:09:35.52,0:09:37.49,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,To make myself more anonymous,
Dialogue: 0,0:09:37.53,0:09:41.16,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,so the viewer could look at me,\Nand see in my body their body,
Dialogue: 0,0:09:41.18,0:09:42.33,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and every body.
Dialogue: 0,0:09:43.28,0:09:45.82,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It made me vulnerable, obviously.
Dialogue: 0,0:09:46.18,0:09:50.04,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And it represented years of mistreatment\Nof the fat body and media,
Dialogue: 0,0:09:50.06,0:09:53.89,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,as people who were often depicted\Nwith a black bar across their faces,
Dialogue: 0,0:09:53.91,0:09:58.08,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,or their heads entirely cut off,\Nin news articles and magazine stories,
Dialogue: 0,0:09:58.08,0:10:01.34,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,as if they are nothing more\Nthan a body to be reviled.
Dialogue: 0,0:10:03.44,0:10:06.55,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,In addition to what I was wearing,\Nor not wearing,
Dialogue: 0,0:10:06.58,0:10:10.17,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,you can see other things in the photos\Nand the video from that day.
Dialogue: 0,0:10:10.27,0:10:13.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Like sweat, pouring down\Nmy rolls of back-fat,
Dialogue: 0,0:10:13.87,0:10:15.99,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,cellulite, stretchmarks,
Dialogue: 0,0:10:16.20,0:10:18.45,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,sagging breasts,\Nthat have nursed three babies,
Dialogue: 0,0:10:18.47,0:10:19.94,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and a wonky halter top.
Dialogue: 0,0:10:20.53,0:10:23.33,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But I know you can see more than that too.
Dialogue: 0,0:10:23.51,0:10:25.18,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You can see the humanity,
Dialogue: 0,0:10:25.40,0:10:26.54,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,the kindness,
Dialogue: 0,0:10:26.79,0:10:28.27,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,the acceptance.
Dialogue: 0,0:10:28.83,0:10:32.96,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Immediately upon stepping into that crowd,\Npeople began swarming around me,
Dialogue: 0,0:10:32.98,0:10:36.46,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and feeling that first marker slip \Nfrom my hands was such a relief,
Dialogue: 0,0:10:36.96,0:10:41.04,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,such a rush of emotion,\Nso intense, that I began crying.
Dialogue: 0,0:10:42.04,0:10:45.28,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But to my surprise,\Nso did that first woman,
Dialogue: 0,0:10:45.70,0:10:47.81,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,who not only drew a heart on my body,
Dialogue: 0,0:10:47.83,0:10:50.36,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,but I could also feel wrote a word,
Dialogue: 0,0:10:50.77,0:10:52.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and she spoke to me.
Dialogue: 0,0:10:53.16,0:10:57.23,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,She said, "This is so brave,\Nyou are so powerful, thank you."
Dialogue: 0,0:10:58.32,0:11:01.17,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And this continued, over and over,\Nby men and women
Dialogue: 0,0:11:01.17,0:11:05.57,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,this whispering of stories \Nof pain and joy, love and suffering.
Dialogue: 0,0:11:06.43,0:11:09.18,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And they told me what the crowd\Naround me was doing.
Dialogue: 0,0:11:10.02,0:11:12.62,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"You can't see any of this," they said,
Dialogue: 0,0:11:13.74,0:11:16.94,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"but you are touching people \Nin ways unimaginable.
Dialogue: 0,0:11:17.19,0:11:19.59,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Even if they are stopping to glare at you,
Dialogue: 0,0:11:19.61,0:11:24.33,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,they are reading your sign and \Ntaking to heart their own self-loathing."
Dialogue: 0,0:11:25.14,0:11:28.77,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,One father knelt down near me\Nwith his two young sons,
Dialogue: 0,0:11:28.77,0:11:30.08,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,read them my sign,
Dialogue: 0,0:11:30.91,0:11:34.21,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and said, "This is what\Na beautiful woman looks like."
Dialogue: 0,0:11:34.26,0:11:38.82,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And I know he was talking about more\Nthan my physical appearance alone.
Dialogue: 0,0:11:39.29,0:11:41.89,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,This overwhelming sense\Nthat I was, in fact,
Dialogue: 0,0:11:41.89,0:11:44.58,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,a voice of a revolution \Nthey'd all been waiting for,
Dialogue: 0,0:11:44.60,0:11:47.75,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,continued for the next hour \NI stood in that market.
Dialogue: 0,0:11:47.77,0:11:50.34,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I only finally decided \Nto take off my blindfold,
Dialogue: 0,0:11:50.42,0:11:54.02,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,when people began telling me there was\Nno more available skin to write on
Dialogue: 0,0:11:54.02,0:11:55.92,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and my markers had run out of ink.
Dialogue: 0,0:11:57.42,0:12:01.02,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Everyone there that day knew \Nsomething extraordinary was happening.
Dialogue: 0,0:12:01.05,0:12:04.99,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And once I saw Melanie's photographs,\NI knew that was a fact.
Dialogue: 0,0:12:05.14,0:12:09.77,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,People of all ages, sizes, genders,\Nnationalities, abilities, religions,
Dialogue: 0,0:12:09.77,0:12:12.15,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,had participated in my project that day,
Dialogue: 0,0:12:12.15,0:12:15.47,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and I couldn't wait to share the news\Nwith the rest of Boise.
Dialogue: 0,0:12:15.50,0:12:19.03,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Because I thought \Nthey would be pretty excited too.
Dialogue: 0,0:12:21.28,0:12:24.02,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Two days later, \NI wrote a heartfelt blog-post
Dialogue: 0,0:12:24.07,0:12:26.67,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,accompanied by some\Nof Melanie's amazing photographs.
Dialogue: 0,0:12:26.99,0:12:28.63,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,She and I got together one night,
Dialogue: 0,0:12:28.67,0:12:33.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and sat up until about 2 AM, \Nwith some wine and the IMovie app,
Dialogue: 0,0:12:33.42,0:12:34.57,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and made a video.
Dialogue: 0,0:12:35.55,0:12:38.52,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,The photos and video \Nfeature unretouched images,
Dialogue: 0,0:12:38.55,0:12:41.43,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,keeping true to the spirit\Nof the project and my body,
Dialogue: 0,0:12:41.48,0:12:43.22,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and all its imperfections.
Dialogue: 0,0:12:44.26,0:12:47.68,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,We dropped it all out \Ninto the Internet universe on a Thursday,
Dialogue: 0,0:12:47.72,0:12:50.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and immediately my message\Nspread like wildfire.
Dialogue: 0,0:12:50.61,0:12:53.88,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,All our Facebook friends \Nwere sharing my blog post,
Dialogue: 0,0:12:53.93,0:12:56.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,accompanied with \Nmore personal status updates
Dialogue: 0,0:12:56.30,0:12:59.81,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,about their own struggles\Nwith self-esteem, and body image.
Dialogue: 0,0:13:00.30,0:13:04.15,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Within 24 hours, the local media \Nhad picked up the story.
Dialogue: 0,0:13:04.17,0:13:08.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And within 48 hours,\NI got my first phone call from USA Today.
Dialogue: 0,0:13:08.27,0:13:11.48,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And from there it was a whirlwind\Nof international press.
Dialogue: 0,0:13:11.87,0:13:15.64,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,From NPR Radio to appearing live on CNN,
Dialogue: 0,0:13:16.03,0:13:18.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,from People Magazine to Cosmopolitan.
Dialogue: 0,0:13:19.09,0:13:23.47,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,From being featured on both \Nthe homepages of Yahoo and MSN,
Dialogue: 0,0:13:24.10,0:13:26.64,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,to Kevin Bacon and Alanis Morissette
Dialogue: 0,0:13:26.71,0:13:29.77,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,both tweeting to me \Nand about me on Twitter.
Dialogue: 0,0:13:31.63,0:13:34.85,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I set up a Google alert on myself\Nand it couldn't even keep up
Dialogue: 0,0:13:34.89,0:13:38.09,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,with the stories that were being written\Naboutmy stand for self-love,
Dialogue: 0,0:13:38.09,0:13:41.32,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,all over the world in languages\NI didn't even recognize.
Dialogue: 0,0:13:42.26,0:13:44.79,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Spiraling so quickly \Ninto international fame
Dialogue: 0,0:13:44.79,0:13:47.01,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,for something so beautiful and raw,
Dialogue: 0,0:13:47.01,0:13:49.96,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,was staggering,\Nin the best possible way.
Dialogue: 0,0:13:51.29,0:13:53.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I've been overwhelmed \Nwith the tears and support
Dialogue: 0,0:13:53.70,0:13:55.38,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that have been shared with me.
Dialogue: 0,0:13:55.40,0:13:58.06,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I don't think I have stopped crying\Nfor months now.
Dialogue: 0,0:13:58.65,0:14:01.16,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But that's the thing \Nabout vulnerability, right?
Dialogue: 0,0:14:01.80,0:14:03.11,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,When you open up,
Dialogue: 0,0:14:03.11,0:14:05.22,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and you start to live \Nwith your full heart,
Dialogue: 0,0:14:05.54,0:14:07.25,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,there is no going back.
Dialogue: 0,0:14:09.32,0:14:10.45,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,My stand for self-love\N
Dialogue: 0,0:14:10.45,0:14:13.52,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,hasn't come without its difficult\Nand dark moments, however.
Dialogue: 0,0:14:14.48,0:14:19.01,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,The internet is a place where people\Nfeel free to spew unkind untruths.
Dialogue: 0,0:14:20.15,0:14:23.16,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I have been accused of being lazy, ugly,
Dialogue: 0,0:14:23.71,0:14:28.84,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,stupid, uneducated,\Na bad mother, and a Californian.
Dialogue: 0,0:14:29.42,0:14:31.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,(Laughter)
Dialogue: 0,0:14:32.04,0:14:34.88,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Apparently an insult\Nsome people like to throw around.
Dialogue: 0,0:14:34.94,0:14:36.59,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,(Laughter)
Dialogue: 0,0:14:37.27,0:14:38.46,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I have thick skin,
Dialogue: 0,0:14:38.62,0:14:40.86,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and I know that ignorant \Nand mean comments
Dialogue: 0,0:14:40.86,0:14:44.35,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,almost always have more to do \Nwith the writer's personal problems,
Dialogue: 0,0:14:44.38,0:14:46.35,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,than the person they are directed at.
Dialogue: 0,0:14:46.82,0:14:48.45,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,There have been times though,
Dialogue: 0,0:14:48.50,0:14:51.42,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,when I've wanted to shove\Nmy heart back safely under wraps
Dialogue: 0,0:14:51.47,0:14:54.43,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,where it used to belong,\Nbecause it's scary out here,
Dialogue: 0,0:14:54.92,0:14:58.25,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,this "wholehearted living,"\Nas Brene Brown calls it.
Dialogue: 0,0:14:59.06,0:15:03.04,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But while I may trip up a bit,\NI don't fall much anymore.
Dialogue: 0,0:15:03.48,0:15:05.88,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And I leave my heart right out here.
Dialogue: 0,0:15:07.39,0:15:08.72,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It's age old wisdom,
Dialogue: 0,0:15:08.79,0:15:12.43,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,summoning the bravery to stand\Nback up after falling down,
Dialogue: 0,0:15:12.61,0:15:14.48,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,from that old cowboy saying,
Dialogue: 0,0:15:14.51,0:15:17.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"Always get back on the horse \Nthat threw you,"
Dialogue: 0,0:15:17.44,0:15:20.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,to the contemporary work of Brene Brown.
Dialogue: 0,0:15:20.84,0:15:22.88,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I took a stand in August for self-love,
Dialogue: 0,0:15:22.88,0:15:24.36,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and I can't think of anything
Dialogue: 0,0:15:24.36,0:15:27.35,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,more important \Nto stand up for than myself.
Dialogue: 0,0:15:27.84,0:15:31.44,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Boise proved that day it was ready \Nfor a body positive revolution,
Dialogue: 0,0:15:31.44,0:15:34.42,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and hundreds of thousands \Naround the world followed suit.
Dialogue: 0,0:15:35.01,0:15:36.52,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"We've been waiting for you,"
Dialogue: 0,0:15:37.10,0:15:40.04,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I heard, "but we need\Nsome help standing up".
Dialogue: 0,0:15:41.92,0:15:44.32,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Well, I'm honored to stand by your side.
Dialogue: 0,0:15:45.06,0:15:48.31,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Take my hand if you need\Nand I'll pull you up.
Dialogue: 0,0:15:49.78,0:15:52.84,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,In a society that profits \Nfrom your self doubt,
Dialogue: 0,0:15:52.85,0:15:55.39,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,liking yourself is a rebellious act.
Dialogue: 0,0:15:55.73,0:15:58.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,The artist and wordsmith \NCaroline Caldwell says,
Dialogue: 0,0:15:58.10,0:16:00.41,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and I couldn't agree more,
Dialogue: 0,0:16:00.100,0:16:04.96,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"We can't truly love one another\Nuntil we love ourselves."
Dialogue: 0,0:16:05.70,0:16:08.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,The personal revolution is the first step.
Dialogue: 0,0:16:09.47,0:16:12.91,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,When a handful of us\Nor a few hundred of us,
Dialogue: 0,0:16:13.48,0:16:15.53,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,or a few millions of us love ourselves,
Dialogue: 0,0:16:15.55,0:16:18.15,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that's when the real revolution begins.
Dialogue: 0,0:16:19.49,0:16:21.82,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,We are often our own biggest bully.
Dialogue: 0,0:16:22.46,0:16:24.85,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Our biggest obstacle is our self.
Dialogue: 0,0:16:25.95,0:16:28.68,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Life is much too short\Nto go on hating yourself
Dialogue: 0,0:16:28.68,0:16:30.32,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,or your body\None minute longer.
Dialogue: 0,0:16:30.86,0:16:32.59,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But you have to do the hard work.
Dialogue: 0,0:16:33.18,0:16:36.78,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You have to dig deep, and learn,\Nand flail, and educate yourself,
Dialogue: 0,0:16:36.78,0:16:38.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and fall down and get back up.
Dialogue: 0,0:16:39.80,0:16:42.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It's not easy, but it's so worth it.
Dialogue: 0,0:16:43.85,0:16:46.23,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,My story shows that people are good,
Dialogue: 0,0:16:46.26,0:16:50.39,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and kind, and ready,\Nand willing to engage in new ideas.
Dialogue: 0,0:16:51.08,0:16:52.35,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,What is your story?
Dialogue: 0,0:16:53.36,0:16:54.83,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,What do you stand for?
Dialogue: 0,0:16:56.27,0:16:57.47,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Write that letter.
Dialogue: 0,0:16:58.27,0:17:00.15,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Leave that toxic job.
Dialogue: 0,0:17:00.90,0:17:04.97,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Quit that unhealthy relationship,\Nstrip off that self-doubt.
Dialogue: 0,0:17:05.88,0:17:07.88,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Be rebellious and take a risk.
Dialogue: 0,0:17:08.06,0:17:09.21,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Stand up.
Dialogue: 0,0:17:10.94,0:17:12.18,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Thank you.
Dialogue: 0,0:17:12.22,0:17:14.92,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,(Cheers) (Applause)