[Script Info] Title: [Events] Format: Layer, Start, End, Style, Name, MarginL, MarginR, MarginV, Effect, Text Dialogue: 0,0:00:03.58,0:00:05.85,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,A few months ago I became famous, Dialogue: 0,0:00:05.85,0:00:08.34,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,for stripping down half nude, Dialogue: 0,0:00:08.34,0:00:12.52,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,as a fat 40-year-old mom\Nat a farmer's market downtown Boise. Dialogue: 0,0:00:13.92,0:00:16.67,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,(Cheers) (Applause) Dialogue: 0,0:00:20.61,0:00:23.28,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,A video of the event quickly went viral, Dialogue: 0,0:00:23.48,0:00:26.04,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,showing me in a black bikini,\N Dialogue: 0,0:00:26.04,0:00:27.36,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,blind-folded, Dialogue: 0,0:00:27.36,0:00:31.01,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,with a handful of washable markers\Nfrom my daughter's art kit, Dialogue: 0,0:00:31.04,0:00:33.84,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and a chalk board sign\Nat my feet that read: Dialogue: 0,0:00:33.89,0:00:37.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"If you've ever struggled\Nwith a self-esteem issue like me, Dialogue: 0,0:00:37.60,0:00:41.59,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and believe all bodies are valuable,\Ndraw a heart on my body." Dialogue: 0,0:00:42.36,0:00:44.65,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It was a feminist art performance piece, Dialogue: 0,0:00:44.65,0:00:47.96,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Just one in a series I've done\Nover the past seven years, Dialogue: 0,0:00:47.96,0:00:50.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,as a body-positive activist, Dialogue: 0,0:00:50.20,0:00:52.72,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,calling for radical self-acceptance. Dialogue: 0,0:00:53.51,0:00:56.100,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I wrote a blog post about it\Nafter that hour in the market, Dialogue: 0,0:00:56.100,0:00:59.87,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,titled: "A stand for self-love." Dialogue: 0,0:01:00.28,0:01:01.61,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And hence forth, Dialogue: 0,0:01:01.61,0:01:04.24,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,media, celebrities,\Nand writers around the world Dialogue: 0,0:01:04.24,0:01:06.83,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,glommed on to those words like I did, Dialogue: 0,0:01:07.07,0:01:11.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,referring to my acts that day\Nas "The stand for self-love," Dialogue: 0,0:01:12.26,0:01:13.41,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,or, Dialogue: 0,0:01:13.69,0:01:16.02,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,as I affectionately refer to it now, Dialogue: 0,0:01:16.06,0:01:17.74,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,the shortened version, Dialogue: 0,0:01:17.74,0:01:18.99,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"The Stand." Dialogue: 0,0:01:20.80,0:01:25.57,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,This of course wasn't the first time\NI stood up for myself or for something, Dialogue: 0,0:01:25.76,0:01:28.42,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I've stood up a lot of times in my life. Dialogue: 0,0:01:28.74,0:01:32.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,The theologian Mary Daly says,\N"Courage requires couraging," Dialogue: 0,0:01:32.77,0:01:36.69,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,much like learning to ski requires, \Nwell, skiing a lot, Dialogue: 0,0:01:36.92,0:01:39.38,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and piano playing requires practice. Dialogue: 0,0:01:39.66,0:01:43.55,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And just as many times,\Nlike I'm sure you can all relate to, Dialogue: 0,0:01:43.67,0:01:48.47,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I've gotten shoved back into my seat,\Nknocked down flat on the floor, Dialogue: 0,0:01:48.67,0:01:51.74,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,crawled, and slowly pulled myself\Nto standing again. Dialogue: 0,0:01:51.96,0:01:54.06,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Each time, a bit taller, Dialogue: 0,0:01:54.49,0:01:55.77,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,wiser, Dialogue: 0,0:01:55.77,0:01:56.98,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,louder, Dialogue: 0,0:01:56.99,0:01:58.22,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,braver. Dialogue: 0,0:01:58.86,0:02:01.86,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,We all have a story\Nthat can lead to a stand, Dialogue: 0,0:02:01.95,0:02:04.22,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and I'm going to share bits of mine. Dialogue: 0,0:02:04.24,0:02:07.87,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,How I've stood up several times\Nover the course of my life Dialogue: 0,0:02:07.90,0:02:10.57,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,paving the way to "The Stand" for me. Dialogue: 0,0:02:12.70,0:02:16.01,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Like that time as a young teenager,\Nwhen I wrote a letter to the editor Dialogue: 0,0:02:16.01,0:02:17.62,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,of my local newspaper, Dialogue: 0,0:02:17.92,0:02:19.39,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,because there was an outcry Dialogue: 0,0:02:19.39,0:02:22.19,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,to abolish the only chapter\Non sex education Dialogue: 0,0:02:22.22,0:02:24.35,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,from our health class curriculum, Dialogue: 0,0:02:24.95,0:02:26.58,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and I got called a slut. Dialogue: 0,0:02:27.76,0:02:30.23,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I curled up in my bedroom and cried. Dialogue: 0,0:02:30.27,0:02:32.07,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But crawled back to school, Dialogue: 0,0:02:32.26,0:02:33.42,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,wiser. Dialogue: 0,0:02:34.03,0:02:35.19,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And in my 20s, Dialogue: 0,0:02:35.22,0:02:38.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,when a boyfriend turned to me one day\Nand screamed in my face, Dialogue: 0,0:02:38.96,0:02:41.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"I'm so tired of hearing\Nabout your feminist garbage, Dialogue: 0,0:02:41.92,0:02:44.24,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,will you just shut up?!" Dialogue: 0,0:02:45.80,0:02:48.49,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And I broke up with him, that same day. Dialogue: 0,0:02:49.13,0:02:50.53,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Louder! Dialogue: 0,0:02:50.56,0:02:52.78,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,(Whistles) (Applause) Dialogue: 0,0:02:54.18,0:02:57.98,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And in my 30s, when I landed \Nthe dream job of my career, Dialogue: 0,0:02:58.05,0:03:02.79,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,only to fight for fair treatment,\Nequal pay, appropriate family leave, Dialogue: 0,0:03:02.84,0:03:04.87,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and time to breastfeed my baby, Dialogue: 0,0:03:04.87,0:03:07.78,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and I'm deemed "difficult to work with." Dialogue: 0,0:03:07.90,0:03:09.05,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Self-righteous. Dialogue: 0,0:03:10.25,0:03:11.54,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I lost that job, Dialogue: 0,0:03:11.54,0:03:13.91,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and it knocked me flat on my back. Dialogue: 0,0:03:14.37,0:03:16.94,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But I slowly pulled myself\Nto standing again. Dialogue: 0,0:03:17.21,0:03:18.43,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Braver. Dialogue: 0,0:03:18.93,0:03:21.56,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I forged my own \Nnew career path as a writer, Dialogue: 0,0:03:21.56,0:03:24.94,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and continued questioning\Narchaic ideals of the past, Dialogue: 0,0:03:24.98,0:03:26.98,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and began making my own rules. Dialogue: 0,0:03:29.02,0:03:30.21,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Seven years ago, Dialogue: 0,0:03:30.28,0:03:34.81,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I literally googled the words:\N"Why am I fat and happy?" Dialogue: 0,0:03:35.58,0:03:38.85,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Because, I personally knew no one else Dialogue: 0,0:03:38.85,0:03:42.72,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,who was not buying \Ninto our consumerist culture's crap, Dialogue: 0,0:03:42.88,0:03:45.77,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and thought one, "Am I crazy?" Dialogue: 0,0:03:46.42,0:03:47.57,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Or two, Dialogue: 0,0:03:47.72,0:03:50.23,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"If not, there's got to be\Nsomeone else out there Dialogue: 0,0:03:50.24,0:03:52.31,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that feels this way too, right?" Dialogue: 0,0:03:52.54,0:03:55.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And after scrolling \Nthrough pages and pages of ads Dialogue: 0,0:03:55.13,0:03:57.07,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,for the diet industry complex, Dialogue: 0,0:03:57.09,0:04:01.39,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and news articles telling me\NI was unhappy because I was fat, Dialogue: 0,0:04:01.71,0:04:04.31,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I finally found what I was looking for. Dialogue: 0,0:04:04.63,0:04:09.42,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Two blogs that forever changed my life \Nand catapulted me into ideas, Dialogue: 0,0:04:09.58,0:04:12.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,about health at every size,\Nand body positivity, Dialogue: 0,0:04:12.51,0:04:13.77,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and fat acceptance. Dialogue: 0,0:04:14.50,0:04:18.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I read every book, and news article,\Nand scientific study. Dialogue: 0,0:04:18.12,0:04:21.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I followed Fat Fierce Feminist\Non Facebook and Twitter. Dialogue: 0,0:04:21.66,0:04:25.97,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,For three years, I immersed myself\Nin the education, Dialogue: 0,0:04:26.05,0:04:29.13,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and it started showing up,\Nmore and more, Dialogue: 0,0:04:29.57,0:04:30.72,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,in my art, Dialogue: 0,0:04:31.36,0:04:32.51,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,in my writing, Dialogue: 0,0:04:33.25,0:04:34.58,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,on my Facebook wall, Dialogue: 0,0:04:35.17,0:04:36.97,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and coming out of my mouth. Dialogue: 0,0:04:38.45,0:04:41.52,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Four years ago, I did my first\Npublic performance piece Dialogue: 0,0:04:41.58,0:04:45.57,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,on how to be fat, fit,\Nand fabulous, here in Boise Dialogue: 0,0:04:45.57,0:04:48.31,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and earned my place as a radical feminist, Dialogue: 0,0:04:48.31,0:04:51.06,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,with ideas about all bodies\Nbeing good bodies, Dialogue: 0,0:04:51.09,0:04:54.83,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and that there is in fact\Nno wrong way to have a body. Dialogue: 0,0:04:55.41,0:04:56.56,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It went pretty well. Dialogue: 0,0:04:57.24,0:04:58.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But my second performance Dialogue: 0,0:04:59.80,0:05:00.95,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,did not. Dialogue: 0,0:05:01.77,0:05:04.77,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,At an event to an audience\Nsimilar to this, Dialogue: 0,0:05:04.96,0:05:08.16,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I proposed a public art\Nsocial activism project Dialogue: 0,0:05:08.19,0:05:10.19,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,for International No Diet Day. Dialogue: 0,0:05:10.80,0:05:12.95,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And for the first time in my life, Dialogue: 0,0:05:13.00,0:05:15.65,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,earned myself a vile internet troll. Dialogue: 0,0:05:16.58,0:05:19.92,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,A man who was anonymously\Nwriting hateful things Dialogue: 0,0:05:20.19,0:05:24.39,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,about me and my body on Twitter,\Nwhile I was on stage. Dialogue: 0,0:05:26.23,0:05:29.52,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,The social media bigotry continued\Nonto my Facebook wall, Dialogue: 0,0:05:29.56,0:05:33.59,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,this time by both men and women\NI actually knew in real life, Dialogue: 0,0:05:33.98,0:05:35.72,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and coupled with the fact, Dialogue: 0,0:05:35.94,0:05:37.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that unbeknownst to all of them, Dialogue: 0,0:05:38.16,0:05:41.36,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I was also suffering\Nfrom my first miscarriage. Dialogue: 0,0:05:41.42,0:05:42.57,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,At home, Dialogue: 0,0:05:42.70,0:05:43.86,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,alone, Dialogue: 0,0:05:44.29,0:05:45.44,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I shut down. Dialogue: 0,0:05:45.56,0:05:48.36,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Both physically and literally I shut down. Dialogue: 0,0:05:48.63,0:05:51.69,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Closing all my social media\Naccounts for the summer, Dialogue: 0,0:05:51.72,0:05:54.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,taking a much needed break\Nto heal my mind, Dialogue: 0,0:05:54.61,0:05:55.86,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,my heart, Dialogue: 0,0:05:55.94,0:05:57.82,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and my body at home. Dialogue: 0,0:05:58.68,0:06:01.97,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I had felt so strong, so brave\Nin my body positivity, Dialogue: 0,0:06:01.100,0:06:03.97,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and it had all failed me. Dialogue: 0,0:06:04.28,0:06:07.21,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Both the body\NI had worked so hard to love, Dialogue: 0,0:06:07.38,0:06:10.75,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and the activism\NI had felt so strongly about. Dialogue: 0,0:06:12.69,0:06:13.84,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I rose up though. Dialogue: 0,0:06:13.99,0:06:15.14,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Taller. Dialogue: 0,0:06:15.17,0:06:20.28,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And rejoined social media and started\N"The Boise Rad Fat Collective." Dialogue: 0,0:06:21.19,0:06:22.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,A private Facebook group, Dialogue: 0,0:06:22.53,0:06:25.47,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that began with a few like-minded\Nfriends and acquaintances Dialogue: 0,0:06:25.50,0:06:27.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,who wanted a safe space Dialogue: 0,0:06:27.22,0:06:29.74,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,to share body-positive links\Nand news articles, Dialogue: 0,0:06:29.76,0:06:32.37,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,in both a kind and scholarly way. Dialogue: 0,0:06:33.12,0:06:34.46,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It was in this group, Dialogue: 0,0:06:34.54,0:06:38.93,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,where I first posted the video of Jae West\Nand The Liberators International, Dialogue: 0,0:06:39.00,0:06:41.100,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,a group of Australians\Nwho stage public social experiments Dialogue: 0,0:06:42.00,0:06:45.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,geared around\Nparticipatory acts of kindness. Dialogue: 0,0:06:45.80,0:06:47.34,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,The video featured Jae, Dialogue: 0,0:06:47.48,0:06:51.28,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,in her bra and undies\Nin Piccadilly Circus in London, Dialogue: 0,0:06:51.72,0:06:54.05,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,with a sign, blindfold, and markers. Dialogue: 0,0:06:55.62,0:06:56.89,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It was heart-warming. Dialogue: 0,0:06:56.90,0:07:00.84,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And I thought about it hard\Nwith all my body positive feminist theory, Dialogue: 0,0:07:00.89,0:07:03.38,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and socially acceptable\Nstandards of beauty, Dialogue: 0,0:07:03.42,0:07:04.57,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and questioned, Dialogue: 0,0:07:05.46,0:07:08.79,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"How might this experiment\Nbe perceived differently Dialogue: 0,0:07:08.91,0:07:12.44,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,if the woman was say,\Ntwice Jae's size, Dialogue: 0,0:07:12.77,0:07:15.56,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,like around 226 pounds? Dialogue: 0,0:07:16.48,0:07:17.68,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And twice her age, Dialogue: 0,0:07:18.30,0:07:21.06,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,like say 40 and a mom, Dialogue: 0,0:07:21.40,0:07:24.52,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and in a much more\Nconservative place like Boise, Idaho? Dialogue: 0,0:07:24.56,0:07:26.33,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,(Laughter) Dialogue: 0,0:07:26.36,0:07:27.51,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Well, Dialogue: 0,0:07:28.20,0:07:29.67,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I decided to find out, Dialogue: 0,0:07:29.85,0:07:33.14,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and asked photographer Melanie Folwell\Nto document the stand Dialogue: 0,0:07:33.16,0:07:35.22,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and picked a date about two weeks out Dialogue: 0,0:07:35.26,0:07:37.65,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,at the busiest\Npedestrian spot in the city, Dialogue: 0,0:07:37.69,0:07:40.61,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,the capital city public market at noon. Dialogue: 0,0:07:43.14,0:07:45.75,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,To say I was terrified\Nwould be an understatement. Dialogue: 0,0:07:45.78,0:07:47.98,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I woke up that morning and puked. Dialogue: 0,0:07:48.26,0:07:50.08,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I kept the whole thing "hush hush," Dialogue: 0,0:07:50.08,0:07:54.08,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,as I didn't want to stuff the crowd\Nwith friends and body-positive people, Dialogue: 0,0:07:54.09,0:07:56.76,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,but wanted to let it organically evolve. Dialogue: 0,0:07:56.84,0:07:59.93,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Even if that meant people\Nyelled mean things at me, Dialogue: 0,0:08:00.06,0:08:05.42,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,the police asked me to leave or worse,\Nno one shared in my message of self-love. Dialogue: 0,0:08:06.44,0:08:08.13,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Psyching myself up right before Dialogue: 0,0:08:08.13,0:08:10.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,stepping into the crowd\Nand taking off my dress, Dialogue: 0,0:08:10.50,0:08:13.76,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I suddenly felt the need to set\Nparameters for success. Dialogue: 0,0:08:14.66,0:08:16.35,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,My goal that day was, Dialogue: 0,0:08:17.09,0:08:19.82,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,if five people stop \Nand draw a heart on me, Dialogue: 0,0:08:20.68,0:08:24.55,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,if I get five people to dig deep\Nand think hard about their bodies, Dialogue: 0,0:08:24.56,0:08:26.24,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and loving them and hating them Dialogue: 0,0:08:26.24,0:08:27.92,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,then it's a success. Dialogue: 0,0:08:28.19,0:08:29.34,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Just five. Dialogue: 0,0:08:30.64,0:08:31.66,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Well, Dialogue: 0,0:08:31.68,0:08:33.22,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,as you may know by now, Dialogue: 0,0:08:33.48,0:08:36.09,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I touched a lot more\Nthan five people that day. Dialogue: 0,0:08:36.51,0:08:37.75,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,In fact, Dialogue: 0,0:08:37.89,0:08:42.58,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,our video has been viewed\Nover 130 million times. Dialogue: 0,0:08:43.30,0:08:45.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,(Cheers) (Applause) Dialogue: 0,0:08:51.65,0:08:54.38,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And the messages in my in-box\Nwere in the thousands, Dialogue: 0,0:08:54.40,0:08:56.25,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and from all corners of the world, Dialogue: 0,0:08:56.26,0:09:00.66,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,saying, "Thank you for standing\Nfor me, and with courage." Dialogue: 0,0:09:02.14,0:09:03.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I wasn't wearing much that day, Dialogue: 0,0:09:03.70,0:09:06.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,but what I was wearing,\Nis important to note. Dialogue: 0,0:09:06.64,0:09:08.04,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I decided on a bikini, Dialogue: 0,0:09:08.89,0:09:10.49,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,instead of a bra and panties, Dialogue: 0,0:09:10.49,0:09:14.45,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,as I thought that might be more palatable\Nto a conservative city like Boise. Dialogue: 0,0:09:15.01,0:09:16.48,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,By stripping off my clothes, Dialogue: 0,0:09:16.51,0:09:19.32,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I was stripping away \Nnegative body image, and saying, Dialogue: 0,0:09:19.34,0:09:22.58,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"I'm at peace with my body\Nand I have been for many years, Dialogue: 0,0:09:22.89,0:09:24.89,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and I think you should be too." Dialogue: 0,0:09:26.28,0:09:27.36,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Plus, Dialogue: 0,0:09:27.37,0:09:31.37,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,logistically, it gave the participants\Nmore skin to write on. Dialogue: 0,0:09:31.39,0:09:32.58,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,(Laughter) Dialogue: 0,0:09:33.11,0:09:35.52,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I wore the blindfold for many reasons. Dialogue: 0,0:09:35.52,0:09:37.49,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,To make myself more anonymous, Dialogue: 0,0:09:37.53,0:09:41.16,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,so the viewer could look at me,\Nand see in my body their body, Dialogue: 0,0:09:41.18,0:09:42.33,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and every body. Dialogue: 0,0:09:43.28,0:09:45.82,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It made me vulnerable, obviously. Dialogue: 0,0:09:46.18,0:09:50.04,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And it represented years of mistreatment\Nof the fat body and media, Dialogue: 0,0:09:50.06,0:09:53.89,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,as people who were often depicted\Nwith a black bar across their faces, Dialogue: 0,0:09:53.91,0:09:58.08,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,or their heads entirely cut off,\Nin news articles and magazine stories, Dialogue: 0,0:09:58.08,0:10:01.34,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,as if they are nothing more\Nthan a body to be reviled. Dialogue: 0,0:10:03.44,0:10:06.55,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,In addition to what I was wearing,\Nor not wearing, Dialogue: 0,0:10:06.58,0:10:10.17,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,you can see other things in the photos\Nand the video from that day. Dialogue: 0,0:10:10.27,0:10:13.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Like sweat, pouring down\Nmy rolls of back-fat, Dialogue: 0,0:10:13.87,0:10:15.99,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,cellulite, stretchmarks, Dialogue: 0,0:10:16.20,0:10:18.45,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,sagging breasts,\Nthat have nursed three babies, Dialogue: 0,0:10:18.47,0:10:19.94,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and a wonky halter top. Dialogue: 0,0:10:20.53,0:10:23.33,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But I know you can see more than that too. Dialogue: 0,0:10:23.51,0:10:25.18,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You can see the humanity, Dialogue: 0,0:10:25.40,0:10:26.54,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,the kindness, Dialogue: 0,0:10:26.79,0:10:28.27,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,the acceptance. Dialogue: 0,0:10:28.83,0:10:32.96,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Immediately upon stepping into that crowd,\Npeople began swarming around me, Dialogue: 0,0:10:32.98,0:10:36.46,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and feeling that first marker slip \Nfrom my hands was such a relief, Dialogue: 0,0:10:36.96,0:10:41.04,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,such a rush of emotion,\Nso intense, that I began crying. Dialogue: 0,0:10:42.04,0:10:45.28,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But to my surprise,\Nso did that first woman, Dialogue: 0,0:10:45.70,0:10:47.81,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,who not only drew a heart on my body, Dialogue: 0,0:10:47.83,0:10:50.36,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,but I could also feel wrote a word, Dialogue: 0,0:10:50.77,0:10:52.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and she spoke to me. Dialogue: 0,0:10:53.16,0:10:57.23,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,She said, "This is so brave,\Nyou are so powerful, thank you." Dialogue: 0,0:10:58.32,0:11:01.17,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And this continued, over and over,\Nby men and women Dialogue: 0,0:11:01.17,0:11:05.57,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,this whispering of stories \Nof pain and joy, love and suffering. Dialogue: 0,0:11:06.43,0:11:09.18,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And they told me what the crowd\Naround me was doing. Dialogue: 0,0:11:10.02,0:11:12.62,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"You can't see any of this," they said, Dialogue: 0,0:11:13.74,0:11:16.94,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"but you are touching people \Nin ways unimaginable. Dialogue: 0,0:11:17.19,0:11:19.59,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Even if they are stopping to glare at you, Dialogue: 0,0:11:19.61,0:11:24.33,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,they are reading your sign and \Ntaking to heart their own self-loathing." Dialogue: 0,0:11:25.14,0:11:28.77,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,One father knelt down near me\Nwith his two young sons, Dialogue: 0,0:11:28.77,0:11:30.08,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,read them my sign, Dialogue: 0,0:11:30.91,0:11:34.21,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and said, "This is what\Na beautiful woman looks like." Dialogue: 0,0:11:34.26,0:11:38.82,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And I know he was talking about more\Nthan my physical appearance alone. Dialogue: 0,0:11:39.29,0:11:41.89,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,This overwhelming sense\Nthat I was, in fact, Dialogue: 0,0:11:41.89,0:11:44.58,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,a voice of a revolution \Nthey'd all been waiting for, Dialogue: 0,0:11:44.60,0:11:47.75,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,continued for the next hour \NI stood in that market. Dialogue: 0,0:11:47.77,0:11:50.34,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I only finally decided \Nto take off my blindfold, Dialogue: 0,0:11:50.42,0:11:54.02,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,when people began telling me there was\Nno more available skin to write on Dialogue: 0,0:11:54.02,0:11:55.92,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and my markers had run out of ink. Dialogue: 0,0:11:57.42,0:12:01.02,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Everyone there that day knew \Nsomething extraordinary was happening. Dialogue: 0,0:12:01.05,0:12:04.99,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And once I saw Melanie's photographs,\NI knew that was a fact. Dialogue: 0,0:12:05.14,0:12:09.77,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,People of all ages, sizes, genders,\Nnationalities, abilities, religions, Dialogue: 0,0:12:09.77,0:12:12.15,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,had participated in my project that day, Dialogue: 0,0:12:12.15,0:12:15.47,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and I couldn't wait to share the news\Nwith the rest of Boise. Dialogue: 0,0:12:15.50,0:12:19.03,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Because I thought \Nthey would be pretty excited too. Dialogue: 0,0:12:21.28,0:12:24.02,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Two days later, \NI wrote a heartfelt blog-post Dialogue: 0,0:12:24.07,0:12:26.67,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,accompanied by some\Nof Melanie's amazing photographs. Dialogue: 0,0:12:26.99,0:12:28.63,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,She and I got together one night, Dialogue: 0,0:12:28.67,0:12:33.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and sat up until about 2 AM, \Nwith some wine and the IMovie app, Dialogue: 0,0:12:33.42,0:12:34.57,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and made a video. Dialogue: 0,0:12:35.55,0:12:38.52,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,The photos and video \Nfeature unretouched images, Dialogue: 0,0:12:38.55,0:12:41.43,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,keeping true to the spirit\Nof the project and my body, Dialogue: 0,0:12:41.48,0:12:43.22,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and all its imperfections. Dialogue: 0,0:12:44.26,0:12:47.68,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,We dropped it all out \Ninto the Internet universe on a Thursday, Dialogue: 0,0:12:47.72,0:12:50.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and immediately my message\Nspread like wildfire. Dialogue: 0,0:12:50.61,0:12:53.88,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,All our Facebook friends \Nwere sharing my blog post, Dialogue: 0,0:12:53.93,0:12:56.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,accompanied with \Nmore personal status updates Dialogue: 0,0:12:56.30,0:12:59.81,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,about their own struggles\Nwith self-esteem, and body image. Dialogue: 0,0:13:00.30,0:13:04.15,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Within 24 hours, the local media \Nhad picked up the story. Dialogue: 0,0:13:04.17,0:13:08.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And within 48 hours,\NI got my first phone call from USA Today. Dialogue: 0,0:13:08.27,0:13:11.48,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And from there it was a whirlwind\Nof international press. Dialogue: 0,0:13:11.87,0:13:15.64,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,From NPR Radio to appearing live on CNN, Dialogue: 0,0:13:16.03,0:13:18.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,from People Magazine to Cosmopolitan. Dialogue: 0,0:13:19.09,0:13:23.47,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,From being featured on both \Nthe homepages of Yahoo and MSN, Dialogue: 0,0:13:24.10,0:13:26.64,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,to Kevin Bacon and Alanis Morissette Dialogue: 0,0:13:26.71,0:13:29.77,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,both tweeting to me \Nand about me on Twitter. Dialogue: 0,0:13:31.63,0:13:34.85,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I set up a Google alert on myself\Nand it couldn't even keep up Dialogue: 0,0:13:34.89,0:13:38.09,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,with the stories that were being written\Naboutmy stand for self-love, Dialogue: 0,0:13:38.09,0:13:41.32,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,all over the world in languages\NI didn't even recognize. Dialogue: 0,0:13:42.26,0:13:44.79,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Spiraling so quickly \Ninto international fame Dialogue: 0,0:13:44.79,0:13:47.01,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,for something so beautiful and raw, Dialogue: 0,0:13:47.01,0:13:49.96,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,was staggering,\Nin the best possible way. Dialogue: 0,0:13:51.29,0:13:53.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I've been overwhelmed \Nwith the tears and support Dialogue: 0,0:13:53.70,0:13:55.38,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that have been shared with me. Dialogue: 0,0:13:55.40,0:13:58.06,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I don't think I have stopped crying\Nfor months now. Dialogue: 0,0:13:58.65,0:14:01.16,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But that's the thing \Nabout vulnerability, right? Dialogue: 0,0:14:01.80,0:14:03.11,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,When you open up, Dialogue: 0,0:14:03.11,0:14:05.22,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and you start to live \Nwith your full heart, Dialogue: 0,0:14:05.54,0:14:07.25,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,there is no going back. Dialogue: 0,0:14:09.32,0:14:10.45,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,My stand for self-love\N Dialogue: 0,0:14:10.45,0:14:13.52,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,hasn't come without its difficult\Nand dark moments, however. Dialogue: 0,0:14:14.48,0:14:19.01,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,The internet is a place where people\Nfeel free to spew unkind untruths. Dialogue: 0,0:14:20.15,0:14:23.16,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I have been accused of being lazy, ugly, Dialogue: 0,0:14:23.71,0:14:28.84,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,stupid, uneducated,\Na bad mother, and a Californian. Dialogue: 0,0:14:29.42,0:14:31.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,(Laughter) Dialogue: 0,0:14:32.04,0:14:34.88,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Apparently an insult\Nsome people like to throw around. Dialogue: 0,0:14:34.94,0:14:36.59,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,(Laughter) Dialogue: 0,0:14:37.27,0:14:38.46,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I have thick skin, Dialogue: 0,0:14:38.62,0:14:40.86,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and I know that ignorant \Nand mean comments Dialogue: 0,0:14:40.86,0:14:44.35,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,almost always have more to do \Nwith the writer's personal problems, Dialogue: 0,0:14:44.38,0:14:46.35,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,than the person they are directed at. Dialogue: 0,0:14:46.82,0:14:48.45,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,There have been times though, Dialogue: 0,0:14:48.50,0:14:51.42,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,when I've wanted to shove\Nmy heart back safely under wraps Dialogue: 0,0:14:51.47,0:14:54.43,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,where it used to belong,\Nbecause it's scary out here, Dialogue: 0,0:14:54.92,0:14:58.25,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,this "wholehearted living,"\Nas Brene Brown calls it. Dialogue: 0,0:14:59.06,0:15:03.04,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But while I may trip up a bit,\NI don't fall much anymore. Dialogue: 0,0:15:03.48,0:15:05.88,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And I leave my heart right out here. Dialogue: 0,0:15:07.39,0:15:08.72,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It's age old wisdom, Dialogue: 0,0:15:08.79,0:15:12.43,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,summoning the bravery to stand\Nback up after falling down, Dialogue: 0,0:15:12.61,0:15:14.48,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,from that old cowboy saying, Dialogue: 0,0:15:14.51,0:15:17.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"Always get back on the horse \Nthat threw you," Dialogue: 0,0:15:17.44,0:15:20.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,to the contemporary work of Brene Brown. Dialogue: 0,0:15:20.84,0:15:22.88,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I took a stand in August for self-love, Dialogue: 0,0:15:22.88,0:15:24.36,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and I can't think of anything Dialogue: 0,0:15:24.36,0:15:27.35,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,more important \Nto stand up for than myself. Dialogue: 0,0:15:27.84,0:15:31.44,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Boise proved that day it was ready \Nfor a body positive revolution, Dialogue: 0,0:15:31.44,0:15:34.42,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and hundreds of thousands \Naround the world followed suit. Dialogue: 0,0:15:35.01,0:15:36.52,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"We've been waiting for you," Dialogue: 0,0:15:37.10,0:15:40.04,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I heard, "but we need\Nsome help standing up". Dialogue: 0,0:15:41.92,0:15:44.32,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Well, I'm honored to stand by your side. Dialogue: 0,0:15:45.06,0:15:48.31,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Take my hand if you need\Nand I'll pull you up. Dialogue: 0,0:15:49.78,0:15:52.84,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,In a society that profits \Nfrom your self doubt, Dialogue: 0,0:15:52.85,0:15:55.39,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,liking yourself is a rebellious act. Dialogue: 0,0:15:55.73,0:15:58.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,The artist and wordsmith \NCaroline Caldwell says, Dialogue: 0,0:15:58.10,0:16:00.41,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and I couldn't agree more, Dialogue: 0,0:16:00.100,0:16:04.96,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"We can't truly love one another\Nuntil we love ourselves." Dialogue: 0,0:16:05.70,0:16:08.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,The personal revolution is the first step. Dialogue: 0,0:16:09.47,0:16:12.91,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,When a handful of us\Nor a few hundred of us, Dialogue: 0,0:16:13.48,0:16:15.53,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,or a few millions of us love ourselves, Dialogue: 0,0:16:15.55,0:16:18.15,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that's when the real revolution begins. Dialogue: 0,0:16:19.49,0:16:21.82,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,We are often our own biggest bully. Dialogue: 0,0:16:22.46,0:16:24.85,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Our biggest obstacle is our self. Dialogue: 0,0:16:25.95,0:16:28.68,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Life is much too short\Nto go on hating yourself Dialogue: 0,0:16:28.68,0:16:30.32,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,or your body\None minute longer. Dialogue: 0,0:16:30.86,0:16:32.59,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But you have to do the hard work. Dialogue: 0,0:16:33.18,0:16:36.78,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You have to dig deep, and learn,\Nand flail, and educate yourself, Dialogue: 0,0:16:36.78,0:16:38.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and fall down and get back up. Dialogue: 0,0:16:39.80,0:16:42.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It's not easy, but it's so worth it. Dialogue: 0,0:16:43.85,0:16:46.23,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,My story shows that people are good, Dialogue: 0,0:16:46.26,0:16:50.39,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and kind, and ready,\Nand willing to engage in new ideas. Dialogue: 0,0:16:51.08,0:16:52.35,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,What is your story? Dialogue: 0,0:16:53.36,0:16:54.83,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,What do you stand for? Dialogue: 0,0:16:56.27,0:16:57.47,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Write that letter. Dialogue: 0,0:16:58.27,0:17:00.15,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Leave that toxic job. Dialogue: 0,0:17:00.90,0:17:04.97,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Quit that unhealthy relationship,\Nstrip off that self-doubt. Dialogue: 0,0:17:05.88,0:17:07.88,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Be rebellious and take a risk. Dialogue: 0,0:17:08.06,0:17:09.21,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Stand up. Dialogue: 0,0:17:10.94,0:17:12.18,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Thank you. Dialogue: 0,0:17:12.22,0:17:14.92,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,(Cheers) (Applause)