0:00:00.491,0:00:03.489 [music] 0:00:13.579,0:00:21.296 Online Weekend Retreat with Moojibaba[br]24 - 26 April 2020 0:00:21.296,0:00:25.765 Your Awakening Is Your Gift to the World 0:00:25.765,0:00:28.785 26 April 2020 / Satsang Excerpt[br](with subtitles) 0:00:32.294,0:00:36.560 'Dear Moojibaba.'[br]This is a letter from Jennifer. 0:00:36.560,0:00:40.782 I don't know if Jennifer is here. 0:00:40.782,0:00:43.415 'My dear Moojibaba.' 0:00:43.415,0:00:46.530 Ah! Jennifer, very nice, very nice. 0:00:46.530,0:00:53.864 'I see that I am only a visitor[br]to this 'lifetime'.' 0:00:53.864,0:00:58.299 'I see that I am only a visitor[br]to this 'lifetime'. 0:00:58.299,0:01:02.561 This experience is passing.'[br]Yes. 0:01:02.561,0:01:08.023 'The previous lives of my loved ones[br]are also passing. 0:01:08.023,0:01:13.922 I notice that this moment of seeing[br]is also temporary, 0:01:13.922,0:01:19.067 and that a force within me pulls back, 0:01:19.067,0:01:21.885 hunkering down behind a wall of resistance, 0:01:21.885,0:01:26.533 to cry out, "I cannot accept this!"' 0:01:26.533,0:01:30.033 A voice is saying,[br]'No, no, I cannot accept this, 0:01:30.033,0:01:33.712 that everything is flowing by. 0:01:33.712,0:01:41.738 Everything that I see, every shape, every form,[br]is an aspect of time.' 0:01:41.738,0:01:45.954 Time says, 'All that you see,[br]all that you imagine, 0:01:45.954,0:01:50.049 all that you can ever aspire for, belongs to me. 0:01:50.049,0:01:53.767 I consume them. 0:01:53.767,0:01:57.957 There is only one thing that I cannot consume, 0:01:57.957,0:02:03.053 which is that out of which I am born,[br]which is pure awareness.' 0:02:03.053,0:02:05.433 Time cannot eat awareness. 0:02:05.433,0:02:10.724 Time itself dissolves in awareness. 0:02:10.724,0:02:19.688 So, 'Mooji, how can I purge[br]this stubborn fear of death? 0:02:19.688,0:02:24.258 How can I fully enjoy this opportunity to be free 0:02:24.258,0:02:27.153 while in this body? 0:02:27.153,0:02:33.944 Papaji told you,[br]"To be free, you need to vanish".' 0:02:33.944,0:02:36.044 It is true. 0:02:36.044,0:02:40.293 Can you imagine,[br]you go for spiritual instruction, 0:02:40.293,0:02:42.419 and your Master says to you, 0:02:42.419,0:02:46.268 'To be free, you must disappear!' 0:02:46.268,0:02:50.638 And then I said, [br]Whoa! Whoa! Take it easy now! 0:02:50.638,0:02:54.294 But if I disappear,[br]who is there to find the fulfilment? 0:02:54.294,0:02:57.436 Who is there to be enlightened, if I disappear? 0:02:57.436,0:03:00.275 I have to be here, to enjoy my enlightenment! 0:03:00.275,0:03:04.880 So the mind is there, saying,[br]'Whoa! Slow down here. No, no, no! 0:03:04.880,0:03:07.474 Remember me? I am part of this. 0:03:07.474,0:03:10.128 I want to be here to get the prize!' 0:03:10.128,0:03:14.230 But he said to me,[br]'To be free, you must vanish'. 0:03:14.230,0:03:16.231 'You must vanish.' 0:03:16.231,0:03:19.890 So how can someone tell you,[br]'You must vanish'? 0:03:19.890,0:03:22.892 How do you vanish?[br]Can you say, 'Abracadabra', 0:03:22.892,0:03:26.115 and hit yourself on the head, and vanish? 0:03:26.115,0:03:30.831 So my mind came up,[br]to sort of fight with Papaji's words. 0:03:30.831,0:03:33.434 But it was already too late. 0:03:33.434,0:03:38.096 The serum was in, his words had gone inside 0:03:38.096,0:03:40.843 and touched something very deep. 0:03:40.843,0:03:45.873 But on the way to going to this depth,[br]it got the ego going. 0:03:45.873,0:03:49.278 The ego said,[br]'Oh no! We are not having ... No. Whoa! 0:03:49.278,0:03:52.377 No, I am not having this. [br]You are not my Master. 0:03:52.377,0:03:56.149 You are not Ramana Maharshi.[br]I know I should not be here.' 0:03:56.149,0:04:00.271 All of this stuff.[br]It was flapping about like a headless chicken. 0:04:00.271,0:04:02.893 But the serum was in, 0:04:02.893,0:04:06.203 because the Master was not telling my ego, 0:04:06.203,0:04:08.205 'You must disappear'. 0:04:08.205,0:04:11.812 His words and his grace, somehow, 0:04:11.812,0:04:17.781 were injected into the ...[br]passed the solar plexus of my defences, 0:04:17.781,0:04:21.943 into the very core of my being.[br]And it detonated there. 0:04:21.943,0:04:26.241 And the mind went completely bananas,[br]it was going crazy. 0:04:26.241,0:04:30.697 And because I was still identified[br]with the mind at that time, 0:04:30.697,0:04:34.429 I was taking on this craziness like,[br]'Oh! This is not ... 0:04:34.429,0:04:38.997 Oh, I am so angry. He insulted me![br]And, blah blah blah.' 0:04:38.997,0:04:41.931 But deeper down, something was happening that 0:04:41.931,0:04:45.015 would somehow come to the surface very soon. 0:04:45.015,0:04:47.052 And I will tell you how soon. 0:04:47.052,0:04:51.207 Because after that satsang with Papaji, 0:04:51.207,0:04:55.799 I went home and decided,[br]I am leaving this place! 0:04:55.799,0:05:01.226 The place where Papaji lived was called Lucknow. 0:05:01.226,0:05:06.691 Luck-now, but for me, I said,[br]it was all bad luck now. 0:05:06.691,0:05:08.685 I was not having it! 0:05:08.685,0:05:12.161 My mind was very ...[br]'Oh no! I am getting out of here.' 0:05:12.161,0:05:14.178 I was very angry. 0:05:14.178,0:05:19.690 Inside, it was like [br]a thousand chips frying in hot oil. 0:05:19.690,0:05:23.882 And it was a very hot day and I felt, OK ... 0:05:23.882,0:05:26.610 I had to leave my packing for the moment, 0:05:26.610,0:05:29.238 to go out and get some fresh air. 0:05:29.238,0:05:34.153 And I went into the middle of the town,[br]and I sat under a tree. 0:05:34.153,0:05:39.783 And after a while, sitting there,[br]just somehow seething, 0:05:39.783,0:05:41.931 I decided to come home. 0:05:41.931,0:05:46.914 And I started to go home to pack my clothes,[br]to leave town. 0:05:46.914,0:05:52.513 And on the way, walking there,[br]something happened. 0:05:52.513,0:05:58.149 It is like ... [exhales sharply][br]Everything vanished. 0:05:58.149,0:06:03.324 I vanished. An 'I' inside here vanished! 0:06:03.324,0:06:08.568 It is a strange thing to say, I vanished. 0:06:08.568,0:06:14.249 I vanished,[br]because suddenly, I could not recognise, 0:06:14.249,0:06:20.941 or find a context for the person[br]I thought I had been all my life. 0:06:20.941,0:06:23.353 I was even looking at my hands, 0:06:23.353,0:06:27.673 and noticing having a feeling that[br]there is nobody in these hands. 0:06:27.673,0:06:29.679 Where am I? 0:06:29.679,0:06:33.049 I could not find 'I',[br]but yet, something was here. 0:06:33.049,0:06:38.896 A greater 'I' was here that[br]couldn't find my historical 'I'. 0:06:38.896,0:06:42.566 It couldn't find personal identity. 0:06:42.566,0:06:44.955 And it was so powerful. 0:06:44.955,0:06:47.406 It is like everything vanished 0:06:47.406,0:06:51.692 and in that moment, [br]my Master appeared, somehow, 0:06:51.692,0:06:55.899 as though he was everything for me. 0:06:55.899,0:07:03.471 And that took place in 1993. 0:07:03.471,0:07:08.797 Now you are reminding me of this, Jennifer. 0:07:08.797,0:07:13.961 'Mooji, how can I purge[br]this stubborn fear of death? 0:07:13.961,0:07:17.467 How can I fully enjoy this opportunity to be free, 0:07:17.467,0:07:20.224 while in this body? 0:07:20.224,0:07:25.109 Papaji told you, "To be free, you must vanish". 0:07:25.109,0:07:28.966 I stand on a cliff, and cannot jump. 0:07:28.966,0:07:34.482 I know that if I do not do this,[br]I will stay as a person, 0:07:34.482,0:07:38.081 and create suffering for myself and others. 0:07:38.081,0:07:41.813 Can you help me find peace with Truth? 0:07:41.813,0:07:45.874 Thank you for your abundant blessings, Moojibaba. 0:07:45.874,0:07:48.716 Love,[br]from Jennifer.' 0:07:48.716,0:07:54.155 I am just going to go over[br]this part of the paragraph now, 0:07:54.155,0:07:57.404 which contains everything I need to know, 0:07:57.404,0:08:00.862 and everything you need to say. 0:08:00.862,0:08:09.635 'Mooji, how can I purge[br]this stubborn fear of death?' 0:08:09.635,0:08:15.251 Death only comes for the body and the person. 0:08:15.251,0:08:20.490 Death comes for the body and the person,[br]you imagine yourself to be, 0:08:20.490,0:08:23.295 not what you are. 0:08:23.295,0:08:28.966 'How can I fully enjoy this opportunity to be free, 0:08:28.966,0:08:34.433 while in this body?' 0:08:34.433,0:08:37.640 With the fullness of my presence with you today, 0:08:37.640,0:08:40.311 I don't see anything standing in the way, 0:08:40.311,0:08:44.154 when I have finished talking with you. 0:08:44.154,0:08:49.088 'Papaji told you,[br]"To be free, you need to vanish".' 0:08:49.088,0:08:56.841 I did not vanish by some action I did. 0:08:56.841,0:09:03.190 He was not instructing[br]my mind and my ego to vanish as a sadhana. 0:09:03.190,0:09:07.707 It was a command. 0:09:07.707,0:09:13.802 'I stand on a cliff and cannot jump.' 0:09:13.802,0:09:19.627 Awareness does not need to jump anywhere. 0:09:19.627,0:09:22.434 You are already here, 0:09:22.434,0:09:27.658 with this idea that you are standing on a cliff, 0:09:27.658,0:09:34.669 a cliff of, 'I must jump from here,[br]and jump into my awakening'. 0:09:34.669,0:09:41.929 But this is the mind's imagining. OK?[br]Because people have done this, 0:09:41.929,0:09:45.284 they've gone on cliffs,[br]they've jumped out of planes, 0:09:45.284,0:09:49.159 they've done things,[br]imagining this is jumping into the Self. 0:09:49.159,0:09:51.285 That isn't jumping into the Self. 0:09:51.285,0:09:55.023 You are already the Self that[br]is aware of this feeling that 0:09:55.023,0:09:59.974 has grown to a level of intensity,[br]that, 'I am not here yet. 0:09:59.974,0:10:02.269 I need to do something, 0:10:02.269,0:10:07.417 to stop being this person who I am now, 0:10:07.417,0:10:10.407 because if I don't jump out of this person, 0:10:10.407,0:10:15.142 then I am always going to continue being here, 0:10:15.142,0:10:17.921 and create suffering for myself and others!' 0:10:17.921,0:10:22.591 These are ideas! 0:10:22.591,0:10:28.450 You are already the Self. 0:10:28.450,0:10:33.666 Someone once told me,[br]'Guruji, I am ready to be the Self'. 0:10:33.666,0:10:38.882 I said, You are already the Self. 0:10:38.882,0:10:42.639 Now the mind says,[br]'No, no, no. I wasn't expecting that. 0:10:42.639,0:10:48.045 I want to get to it.[br]I want to have the experience of finding it!' 0:10:48.045,0:10:51.638 And this is the cleverness and cunningness[br]of the mind. 0:10:51.638,0:10:53.946 You have always been the Self. 0:10:53.946,0:10:57.910 You have no choice about being the Self. 0:10:57.910,0:11:03.419 But you have, somehow, a choice[br]to keep dreaming you are not the Self. 0:11:03.419,0:11:10.467 You have no choice to become the Self.[br]You are the Self. 0:11:10.467,0:11:13.919 You may have a choice to wake up out of the dream 0:11:13.919,0:11:16.936 of believing you are not the Self. 0:11:16.936,0:11:19.869 And the mind is cunning. 0:11:19.869,0:11:25.814 He might say, 'Oh no, no![br]He is not really answering your question.' 0:11:25.814,0:11:29.123 I am answering you! 0:11:29.123,0:11:34.335 And the answer to your question is you. 0:11:34.335,0:11:36.590 Let me explain. 0:11:36.590,0:11:40.070 'I stand on a cliff, and cannot jump. 0:11:40.070,0:11:42.807 I know that if I do not do this', 0:11:42.807,0:11:45.995 which is to surrender, 0:11:45.995,0:11:50.266 you can call jumping a kind of surrender also. 0:11:50.266,0:11:53.704 And some people have said to the Master, 0:11:53.704,0:11:56.546 'I surrender everything. I surrender my job. 0:11:56.546,0:11:59.893 I surrender my education.[br]I surrender all my studies. 0:11:59.893,0:12:02.661 I surrender my past. I surrender my family. 0:12:02.661,0:12:04.659 I surrender my religion.' 0:12:04.659,0:12:09.720 And the Master may say,[br]'Very good. But one thing is left to do, 0:12:09.720,0:12:15.118 surrender the surrenderer also.' 0:12:15.118,0:12:17.556 You are there all the time. 0:12:17.556,0:12:25.585 You say, 'I stand on a cliff, and cannot jump'. 0:12:25.585,0:12:30.067 You are referring to you as some entity,[br]some person, 0:12:30.067,0:12:33.361 with this desire to do something. 0:12:33.361,0:12:35.829 But a deeper awareness in you 0:12:35.829,0:12:38.958 recognises that you are far more than a person. 0:12:38.958,0:12:42.065 The person is the dream you have of yourself, 0:12:42.065,0:12:46.871 imagining it needs to do something,[br]to be fully what it is. 0:12:46.871,0:12:50.772 What you need to do is to wake up,[br]to understand, 0:12:50.772,0:12:53.641 and to recognise the Truth of my words that 0:12:53.641,0:12:58.391 are pointing to That in you already. 0:12:58.391,0:13:01.870 The Self is not going to be something new, 0:13:01.870,0:13:04.422 it is not even something old, 0:13:04.422,0:13:10.409 it is simply timeless. 0:13:10.409,0:13:13.679 'I stand on a cliff and cannot jump. 0:13:13.679,0:13:19.088 I know that if I do not do this,[br]I will stay as a person.' 0:13:19.088,0:13:21.185 That is not true. 0:13:21.185,0:13:23.195 You are not a person. 0:13:23.195,0:13:27.505 Even now, you are just dreaming you are a person. 0:13:27.505,0:13:34.478 These words are true. 0:13:34.478,0:13:37.363 What I speak is true, 0:13:37.363,0:13:43.426 but what you hear, and what you believe,[br]may override what I say. 0:13:43.426,0:13:48.261 But I am confirming, and I stand with what I say, 0:13:48.261,0:13:52.850 You are already the Self you are searching for. 0:13:52.850,0:13:58.462 When I told you two things, one was Rumi's poem, 0:13:58.462,0:14:01.261 which I like, and I have shared many times. 0:14:01.261,0:14:07.426 He wrote in his poem,[br]'Standing at a door knocking'. 0:14:07.426,0:14:11.097 Knocking. Why?[br]To go in, 'Please let me in'. 0:14:11.097,0:14:14.337 'Suddenly, the door opens. 0:14:14.337,0:14:21.211 Aah! I have been knocking from inside', he says. 0:14:21.211,0:14:23.766 How amazing! 0:14:23.766,0:14:27.863 He was already inside,[br]but he imagined he is outside. 0:14:27.863,0:14:31.002 He is dreaming,[br]'I am outside. Please let me in! 0:14:31.002,0:14:33.702 Somebody open it. Let me in!' 0:14:33.702,0:14:37.658 Then the door opens.[br]Why? Grace. 0:14:37.658,0:14:41.536 Grace says, 'He is dreaming, 0:14:41.536,0:14:45.118 but in his dream, he is longing to be inside'. 0:14:45.118,0:14:47.124 So the door opens. 0:14:47.124,0:14:50.907 If the door did not open,[br]you would not know where you are. 0:14:50.907,0:14:54.101 But when the door opens, you realise, 'Aha! 0:14:54.101,0:14:57.321 I have been knocking from inside.' 0:14:57.321,0:15:00.127 You are knocking at your door from inside. 0:15:00.127,0:15:03.876 You are already the Self you are seeking! 0:15:03.876,0:15:08.640 Saint Francis of Assisi said,[br]'What you are searching for', 0:15:08.640,0:15:10.936 meaning the Truth, your Self, 0:15:10.936,0:15:15.205 'is already the place you are searching from'. 0:15:15.205,0:15:19.472 And I added to that,[br]what you are searching for, 0:15:19.472,0:15:24.452 which is your Self,[br]if you found something, whatever you find, 0:15:24.452,0:15:28.612 your Self is still behind,[br]watching you searching for something, 0:15:28.612,0:15:31.754 finding something, taking that to be your self, 0:15:31.754,0:15:34.213 while your Self has always been here. 0:15:34.213,0:15:36.234 You cannot create your Self. 0:15:36.234,0:15:43.033 Your Self has never been[br]even one millionth of a millimetre away from you. 0:15:43.033,0:15:46.133 It is all a dream. 0:15:46.133,0:15:49.311 But do you see this? 0:15:49.311,0:15:52.414 Can you accept this? 0:15:52.414,0:15:54.407 What stops you? 0:15:54.407,0:16:01.671 Conditioning, habit, belief in your mind[br]for a long time, that tells you, 0:16:01.671,0:16:05.873 'Yes, you are getting somewhere.[br]You are getting closer.' 0:16:05.873,0:16:09.078 If it takes another 100 years, 0:16:09.078,0:16:13.340 or another 50 lifetimes to discover the Truth, 0:16:13.340,0:16:15.860 in the moment that you discover it, 0:16:15.860,0:16:23.502 it will not be different from this moment now. 0:16:23.502,0:16:28.497 Maybe your mind is saying,[br]'Yes, if I was really That, 0:16:28.497,0:16:30.802 I wouldn't be feeling like I do. 0:16:30.802,0:16:36.010 I would not be having these doubts.' 0:16:36.010,0:16:39.084 The doubts are coming, because it is as though, 0:16:39.084,0:16:41.794 if you could give a character to the mind, 0:16:41.794,0:16:45.411 the mind would be saying,[br]'Aha! She still doesn't get it. 0:16:45.411,0:16:50.558 Show her another one. [br]Give her another illusion!' 0:16:50.558,0:16:56.589 Because we have been somehow cultured,[br]through conditioning, 0:16:56.589,0:16:59.425 conditioned to accept the mind, 0:16:59.425,0:17:04.664 and the mind-play[br]has been organically connected to you. 0:17:04.664,0:17:08.267 So you believe all these thoughts,[br]but they are not true. 0:17:08.267,0:17:10.301 And everyone who has woken up, 0:17:10.301,0:17:13.197 has come to see, 'But it is just my mind'. 0:17:13.197,0:17:16.857 Your mind is telling you,[br]'Look, look! Go up the hill!' 0:17:16.857,0:17:18.857 You are running up the hill. 0:17:18.857,0:17:21.661 'OK, down this way!'[br]You run down this way. 0:17:21.661,0:17:24.586 'OK, climb this tree.'[br]You climb up the tree. 0:17:24.586,0:17:27.259 'OK, relax. Take some breaths.'[br][panting] 0:17:27.259,0:17:31.133 'Now you are good. Go down the tree.'[br]You go down the tree. 0:17:31.133,0:17:35.128 'OK, jump in the river.' [imitates jumping][br]'Swim!' [panting] 0:17:35.128,0:17:39.087 We are doing that all our life, I am telling you.[br][laughs] 0:17:39.087,0:17:41.087 The mind is saying, 'Good!' 0:17:41.087,0:17:44.543 'Mind, I just want to go home.[br]I want to be my self.' 0:17:44.543,0:17:47.989 'You are very near. Keep swimming harder.'[br][panting] 0:17:47.989,0:17:50.341 'OK. But I should be there by now.' 0:17:50.341,0:17:55.071 'No. Just the next river. Come. Up, up, up![br]Next one.' [imitates diving] 0:17:55.071,0:17:58.869 We are doing this. We are all doing this. 0:17:58.869,0:18:03.296 But we don't get the joke. We don't see it. 0:18:03.296,0:18:05.601 I don't want to limit it to a joke. 0:18:05.601,0:18:08.303 It is a joke when you discover. 0:18:08.303,0:18:13.697 When you discover, you think, 'Oh my gosh!'[br][laughs] 0:18:13.697,0:18:16.872 It is a joke when you get it. 0:18:16.872,0:18:19.537 It is not a joke when you don't get it. 0:18:19.537,0:18:22.959 When you don't get it, you say,[br]'Life is so cruel! 0:18:22.959,0:18:24.986 Why is life so unkind? 0:18:24.986,0:18:30.413 Why is God doing this to me?' 0:18:30.413,0:18:34.178 I want to see your face again. 0:18:34.178,0:18:40.383 [Mooji] Talk to me. I am seeing you. 0:18:40.383,0:18:44.004 [Q.] It is exhausting,[br]exactly what you just described, 0:18:44.004,0:18:47.912 the running and the searching. 0:18:47.912,0:18:50.965 [Q.] The place ... Can you hear me? 0:18:50.965,0:18:53.893 [Mooji] Yes, I can, very clearly. 0:18:53.893,0:18:56.759 [Q.] The place where I get caught 0:18:56.759,0:19:03.333 is in seeing that my loved ones, [br]I will lose them. 0:19:03.333,0:19:07.859 My person will lose this.[br]And this is where I get caught. 0:19:07.859,0:19:13.729 I see clearly certain beliefs I have about myself, 0:19:13.729,0:19:16.918 I can see these things, 0:19:16.918,0:19:22.223 but when it comes to losing those I love,[br]then I get very small, 0:19:22.223,0:19:27.981 like I described in the letter,[br]I pull back into this kind of ... 0:19:27.981,0:19:32.056 like in the army,[br]when they are huddled on the ground. 0:19:32.056,0:19:37.846 And I see this. I see this. And this ... [br][laughs] I see this. 0:19:37.846,0:19:41.065 [M.] OK. See it now,[br]like you are watching a movie, 0:19:41.065,0:19:43.332 just like you are talking about it, 0:19:43.332,0:19:46.114 you are not exactly experiencing that live, 0:19:46.114,0:19:48.708 but you are looking at the movie of it. 0:19:48.708,0:19:52.928 In the same way, even while it is happening,[br]you are seeing it, 0:19:52.928,0:19:55.378 but you don't acknowledge your seeing, 0:19:55.378,0:19:58.218 you don't acknowledge your distance from it, 0:19:58.218,0:20:00.855 because of the strength of your identity. 0:20:00.855,0:20:05.469 And the fear of losing the family,[br]or losing your loved ones 0:20:05.469,0:20:09.628 tightens your hold,[br]and you are holding onto the wrong thing, 0:20:09.628,0:20:14.432 you are holding onto the thing that[br]is generating the fear. 0:20:14.432,0:20:17.021 [Mooji] Can you see this?[br][Q.] Yes. 0:20:17.021,0:20:19.618 [Mooji] From where are you seeing this? 0:20:19.618,0:20:24.044 In the place where you are seeing this,[br]where you are looking from, 0:20:24.044,0:20:28.998 right now, is there any fear there? 0:20:28.998,0:20:32.542 [Q.] No. [laughs] 0:20:32.542,0:20:36.086 [Mooji] You can tell me this now. 0:20:36.086,0:20:42.734 Has there ever been any fear there? 0:20:42.734,0:20:46.928 Don't look to your person.[br]Look to your looking. 0:20:46.928,0:20:50.173 Look to the environment[br]from where you are looking. 0:20:50.173,0:20:52.379 The ability to look at your person 0:20:52.379,0:20:57.800 and your person's life appears in front of That. 0:20:57.800,0:21:03.117 But That, is That involved in that,[br]this pure place of seeing? 0:21:03.117,0:21:05.737 [Q.] No. 0:21:05.737,0:21:08.484 [Mooji] Are you imagining it? 0:21:08.484,0:21:10.864 [Mooji] Or are you seeing? 0:21:10.864,0:21:16.847 [Q.] I'm seeing, like a movie.[br][Mooji] Yes. 0:21:16.847,0:21:19.689 [Q.] And it is like when I feel the fear ... 0:21:19.689,0:21:25.743 [Mooji] Did you create this place? 0:21:25.743,0:21:30.427 [Q.] I am just here.[br][Mooji] You are just here. 0:21:30.427,0:21:36.964 [Mooji] Can it go away? 0:21:36.964,0:21:40.744 [Q.] No.[br][Mooji] Why? 0:21:43.766,0:21:46.688 [Q.] As the movie has a beginning and an end, 0:21:46.688,0:21:50.026 I am perceiving this. 0:21:50.026,0:21:55.608 [Mooji] Yes. So, how does it feel right now? 0:21:55.608,0:21:59.582 How are you right now,[br]being where you are here, 0:21:59.582,0:22:04.511 conscious of where you are here? 0:22:08.273,0:22:14.402 [Mooji] Don't look at the movie right now![br]Just be here. 0:22:21.964,0:22:25.205 [Mooji] How is here? 0:22:25.205,0:22:28.279 [Q.] Space. 0:22:32.459,0:22:37.690 [Mooji] Is there any possession here? 0:22:37.690,0:22:39.690 [Q.] No. 0:22:39.690,0:22:43.120 [Mooji] Is there any fear here? 0:22:43.120,0:22:45.895 [Q.] No. 0:22:45.895,0:22:51.016 [Mooji] Are you dreaming? 0:22:51.016,0:22:54.444 [Q.] No.[br][Mooji] No. 0:22:54.444,0:22:58.529 [Mooji] Can this go away? 0:23:03.779,0:23:07.151 [Q.] I feel my mind coming[br]and saying, 'I don't know'. 0:23:07.151,0:23:09.291 [M.] Yes. But you are aware of it. 0:23:09.291,0:23:12.074 Your mind is like another cloud, you see it. 0:23:12.074,0:23:15.634 When it's loud, it's loud,[br]but it cannot keep being loud. 0:23:15.634,0:23:20.075 It goes away and comes back in another form.[br]It's going to come and go. 0:23:20.075,0:23:24.215 You must come to recognise that,[br]that may be a feature for a while, 0:23:24.215,0:23:27.262 but that is not This! 0:23:31.005,0:23:33.802 Mind will keep coming in different forms. 0:23:33.802,0:23:37.460 He will change his clothes,[br]and come in different forms, 0:23:37.460,0:23:44.359 but he can only intimidate your personal identity. 0:23:44.359,0:23:48.929 Right now, what is your identity? 0:23:48.929,0:23:51.948 Who are you? 0:23:56.410,0:23:59.239 [Q.] I just am.[br][Mooji] What? 0:23:59.239,0:24:03.637 [Q.] I am.[br][Mooji] Just 'I am'. Yes. 0:24:03.637,0:24:06.578 [Mooji] Are you a role that you are playing? 0:24:06.578,0:24:12.142 [Mooji] Are you playing a role?[br][Q.] No. 0:24:12.142,0:24:16.813 [Mooji] Are you running away from your family,[br]by being as you are now? 0:24:16.813,0:24:19.926 [Q.] No.[br][Mooji] No. 0:24:19.926,0:24:28.496 [Mooji] See, this smile,[br]this face is the face they need to see. 0:24:28.496,0:24:30.993 [Mooji] Do you understand? 0:24:30.993,0:24:33.333 I have not given you an experience. 0:24:33.333,0:24:35.527 I have only helped to show you 0:24:35.527,0:24:40.399 where you truly are, the reality of you. 0:24:40.399,0:24:42.721 It is not something that you create. 0:24:42.721,0:24:45.679 The person is created, out of conditioning, 0:24:45.679,0:24:48.593 and so many other factors create it. 0:24:48.593,0:24:53.317 And it is never stable.[br]It is always changeful. 0:24:53.317,0:24:58.940 But this is your uncreated Self. 0:24:58.940,0:25:01.672 And it is always stable. 0:25:01.672,0:25:04.573 It is always peaceful. 0:25:04.573,0:25:07.649 It is always true. 0:25:07.649,0:25:10.497 It is always loving. 0:25:10.497,0:25:13.594 It is always open. 0:25:13.594,0:25:17.584 And it is imperishable. 0:25:22.859,0:25:27.412 This I wanted to share with you, 0:25:27.412,0:25:35.594 the greatness and the perfectness[br]of your true Self. 0:25:35.594,0:25:39.496 Is it personal? 0:25:39.496,0:25:44.109 [Q.] No.[br][Mooji] Great. Great. 0:25:44.109,0:25:51.909 [Mooji] Most troubles come in life,[br]because we take life too personally. 0:25:51.909,0:25:54.711 Sometimes you think, if you are impersonal, 0:25:54.711,0:25:56.710 it means that you don't care. 0:25:56.710,0:25:58.990 That is not true! 0:25:58.990,0:26:02.573 When you watch from this place of detachment, 0:26:02.573,0:26:06.407 you are much more powerful, more wise, 0:26:06.407,0:26:10.559 more present, more alive! 0:26:10.559,0:26:15.444 And this is the greatest gift[br]your family can receive. 0:26:15.444,0:26:21.432 Without you giving, you are your gift to them. 0:26:21.432,0:26:25.479 And just honour your Self. 0:26:30.193,0:26:32.935 [Mooji] I am not paying you a compliment. 0:26:32.935,0:26:37.365 [Mooji] I am just showing you your Truth. 0:26:37.365,0:26:41.426 I cannot give you your Truth.[br]You are your Truth. 0:26:41.426,0:26:47.728 I can only point out the ignorance[br]and the misconceptions. 0:26:47.728,0:26:49.728 And they will keep coming. 0:26:49.728,0:26:53.312 They will keep coming,[br]but don't see them as enemies. 0:26:53.312,0:26:56.121 See them as, 'They come to test me, 0:26:56.121,0:27:00.471 to see where I am still indulging in personhood, 0:27:00.471,0:27:03.112 because that is where I feel pain'. 0:27:03.112,0:27:05.152 But watch from here. 0:27:05.152,0:27:09.050 Keep watching from here,[br]and be conscious of your watching, 0:27:09.050,0:27:13.041 and all of this will subside. 0:27:13.041,0:27:15.834 Did you take one step to be here? 0:27:15.834,0:27:19.990 Did you jump off a cliff? No. 0:27:19.990,0:27:23.680 Beautiful! 0:27:23.680,0:27:26.010 Beauty-full. 0:27:26.010,0:27:32.367 [Mooji] Ah! Yes. Yes. Yes![br][laughter] 0:27:32.367,0:27:35.877 [Q.] Thank you, thank you.[br][Mooji] Love you so much. 0:27:35.877,0:27:39.611 [Q.] I love you, Mooji.[br][Mooji] Who is sitting next to you? 0:27:39.611,0:27:44.405 [Q.] Habea.[br][Mooji] Hi darling, nice to see you. 0:27:44.405,0:27:47.978 [Friend] I am very, very happy[br]for this specific time. 0:27:47.978,0:27:49.981 [Mooji] Wonderful. 0:27:49.981,0:27:51.982 [F.] I can feel that, 0:27:51.982,0:27:55.952 the sangha gets stronger and stronger[br]through Zoom and ... 0:27:55.952,0:27:58.688 There is so much interaction with Sahaja, 0:27:58.688,0:28:04.804 with the UK Sangha, with the German sangha,[br]all together. 0:28:04.804,0:28:07.180 [F.] I am so, so happy for this. 0:28:07.180,0:28:09.982 [F.] It is a big chance for all of us. 0:28:09.982,0:28:14.528 [Mooji] Thank you. So wonderful to hear you[br]and just to see you. 0:28:14.528,0:28:20.370 And lovely, lovely letter, Jennifer. [br]Thank you. 0:28:20.370,0:28:23.806 [Q.] Thank you, Mooji.[br][Mooji] Wonderful. 0:28:28.472,0:28:30.475 [Mooji] That is good. 0:28:30.475,0:28:34.015 I think it is time for a little tea break.[br]Short, short. 0:28:34.015,0:28:36.098 Stay with me. Don't go away. 0:28:36.098,0:28:40.231 I don't know, maybe, some people[br]want to go and put the kettle on, 0:28:40.231,0:28:43.540 but my tea is already made. OK? 0:28:47.840,0:28:52.426 [Mooji] Yes, this is, I think,[br]some rooibos tea again. 0:28:55.826,0:29:00.058 [Mooji] Thank you. Just some little eye drops.[br]The eyes are a bit dry. 0:29:00.058,0:29:04.648 The room is bit warm today,[br]and the lights, somehow, 0:29:04.648,0:29:09.082 they create some dryness in the eyes. 0:29:13.368,0:29:15.364 It is not that I am crying. 0:29:15.364,0:29:17.905 I actually am crying with joy inside, 0:29:17.905,0:29:22.631 but maybe I am just masking it[br]with the eye drops, I don't know. 0:29:22.631,0:29:29.064 I am so happy in meeting you now, Jennifer, 0:29:29.064,0:29:32.365 in such a wonderful way. 0:29:32.365,0:29:35.127 And it is so uplifting, and so inspiring, 0:29:35.127,0:29:37.246 I am sure for so many people, 0:29:37.246,0:29:40.975 to see someone who is themself ... 0:29:40.975,0:29:44.189 Like a hidden beauty, within you. 0:29:44.189,0:29:46.324 And if there is a shame in life, 0:29:46.324,0:29:54.821 it is that we can live our life [br]without discovering this gem. 0:29:54.821,0:29:56.819 And what is this gem? 0:29:56.819,0:29:59.619 Your own Self! 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