0:00:01.000,0:00:04.000 Downloaded From www.AllSubs.org 0:01:07.359,0:01:09.403 I loved my mother so much 0:01:11.655,0:01:13.699 She was drug addict 0:01:15.284,0:01:16.994 She was an alcoholic 0:01:18.787,0:01:21.039 She was legally blind 0:01:21.748,0:01:23.709 She was a schizophrenic 0:01:24.126,0:01:26.545 But I never forgot that she loved me 0:01:27.504,0:01:29.047 even if she did 0:01:30.674,0:01:32.134 all the time 0:01:33.677,0:01:35.053 all the time 0:01:38.098,0:01:40.142 all the time 0:01:53.864,0:01:55.616 Give me the money! 0:01:56.033,0:01:57.951 it's mine! 0:01:58.452,0:02:00.120 it's mine, the state gave this to me! 0:02:00.787,0:02:03.081 If you do not like us do not eat! 0:02:04.833,0:02:06.502 Do not touch me, touch me not! 0:02:06.502,0:02:07.878 Where are they, eh? [br]Where are they? 0:02:07.878,0:02:09.378 Where is it ? 0:02:12.257,0:02:16.011 Please, give it to me 0:02:22.434,0:02:24.811 -I gave it to you, [br]-Let go MoM! 0:02:26.939,0:02:28.398 I gave a 100 to you 0:02:29.566,0:02:31.610 When the check came[br]I gave $ 100 to you to one of you. 0:02:32.361,0:02:34.696 to keep them from, [br]you understand? 0:02:35.989,0:02:37.407 Those for us to live on 0:02:39.284,0:02:41.745 every month it's the same damn thing 0:02:41.745,0:02:45.165 so you can put it to your arms [br]so we can starve 0:02:45.165,0:02:46.542 it's mine 0:02:47.835,0:02:49.461 I didn't have it. 0:02:49.461,0:02:51.129 You are a liar 0:02:58.178,0:03:00.639 Give it to me, [br]it's mine! 0:03:01.598,0:03:03.350 it's mine! 0:03:04.309,0:03:06.270 We are hungry! 0:03:06.270,0:03:08.856 I can't[br]We need food MoM 0:03:08.856,0:03:11.692 what do you ever do for me, hah ? [br]I gave you life 0:03:12.693,0:03:15.779 Do you want me to go on the streets [br]as prostituitmi [br]hah? 0:03:15.779,0:03:19.241 do you want me to do that ?[br]I know I do that sometimes, right? 0:03:37.134,0:03:38.844 I need it 0:03:42.222,0:03:43.849 I need it 0:03:47.269,0:03:48.854 I need it 0:03:51.940,0:03:53.442 what is Medina? 0:03:54.359,0:03:59.031 what is Medina, that gives you $ 15,200 [br]at the end of the round of double jeopardy. 0:04:14.588,0:04:16.839 I wanted that smile, 0:04:17.382,0:04:20.052 Oh God, I wantedthat smile so much 0:04:21.678,0:04:24.223 I was pathetic, wasn't I? 0:04:30.521,0:04:31.855 don't take the Acquedotto 0:04:32.147,0:04:33.732 Mom! 0:04:36.693,0:04:38.028 Dady ... 0:04:43.325,0:04:46.453 -she's taking the Acquedotto. [br]-What the hell difference does she make? 0:04:46.453,0:04:49.081 - she'll get mugged !![br]- Who cares! 0:04:52.125,0:04:54.378 Help her father, she can't see, [br]she'll get mugged 0:04:55.087,0:04:57.089 always a big production 0:05:04.721,0:05:06.557 see, They said they'll fix the light for change 0:05:06.557,0:05:08.392 The muggers will break them again 0:05:08.392,0:05:09.393 No,No 0:05:10.602,0:05:13.063 No, you see she's okay [br]the water runs down hill 0:05:14.690,0:05:15.983 There is no water 0:05:16.066,0:05:18.610 You are wrong, [br]dont you know what the aqueduct is? 0:05:18.902,0:05:23.699 The aqueduct carried water to New York City [br]Well, for over 100 years it did that 0:05:23.699,0:05:25.826 Then they closed it down but now 0:05:25.826,0:05:29.705 the ghost water,right? [br]it carries your mother along. 0:05:32.332,0:05:36.336 My father, you could sitdown on a couch [br]and talk to my father 0:05:36.336,0:05:38.547 He just couldn't talk to him for long 0:05:38.839,0:05:40.924 Hey Jane! 0:05:42.885,0:05:46.805 He knew so much, [br]he got all the answers righ on jeopardy. 0:05:46.805,0:05:49.850 He's a genius, he've the answer every time! 0:05:55.981,0:05:57.733 Watch where you going 0:06:03.155,0:06:04.656 That's the thing 0:06:05.824,0:06:07.451 Your parents all you gots 0:06:07.451,0:06:11.705 I looked at them as example of what [br]should I find every where in the world 0:06:13.874,0:06:15.709 and they paid so litle attention to my needs 0:06:17.419,0:06:19.963 but then it felt their needs [br]was so powerful 0:06:19.963,0:06:24.051 it didn't make me feel gurt or angry [br]but they didn't look into me 0:06:27.721,0:06:31.683 because I felt okay this,[br]This must be the human condition to be so 0:06:41.777,0:06:43.278 And then the world came in 0:06:50.118,0:06:53.038 you took my husband Elisabeth[br]I'll kill you! 0:06:53.038,0:06:54.039 No, Mom! 0:06:55.707,0:07:00.003 I'm not your mother[br]I did you a favor 0:07:00.003,0:07:02.881 Help me cleanup Liz, if they see [br]this they're gonna take us too! 0:07:05.092,0:07:07.761 No, noo! [br]get out of my house! 0:07:07.761,0:07:08.762 you're not taking me 0:07:08.762,0:07:12.808 I do not come with you, [br]you understand? Noo, noo! 0:07:13.100,0:07:14.101 what happen to the window? 0:07:14.101,0:07:16.270 she threw the cat out 0:07:19.815,0:07:22.359 leave me alone 0:07:24.403,0:07:26.405 Why don't you take the medication and be a good girl? 0:07:26.405,0:07:27.739 She takes it 0:07:27.739,0:07:29.867 she just take too many other things 0:07:35.956,0:07:37.291 - This place is a mess[br]- what happened here 0:07:37.291,0:07:38.876 He took a knife! 0:07:38.876,0:07:40.085 I fell down 0:07:40.085,0:07:41.295 - she got a knife[br]- put the knife down 0:07:53.015,0:07:54.683 Alright,Where's the phone? [br]we don't have one 0:07:54.683,0:07:56.310 - This woman is unfit [br]- you're kidding 0:07:56.310,0:08:00.439 look you girls have a choice [br]clean this place up [br]help your mother! 0:08:00.439,0:08:01.440 Tell our father! 0:08:01.440,0:08:03.734 Ignore her she's a feminist. 0:08:03.734,0:08:05.903 I can take you anytime I want 0:08:05.903,0:08:09.907 you keep skipping school[br]you keep living like fealthy animal 0:08:12.159,0:08:14.536 hey, hey, Where you going? comeback here ,come back! 0:08:14.536,0:08:17.039 you're gonna go to a home and you don't know what it like ? 0:08:17.039,0:08:20.292 They've girls in there they'll beat you down[br]take everything you got 0:08:21.376,0:08:22.878 you can't have anything 0:08:22.878,0:08:25.964 You'll have to clean bathrooms [br]you'll work there if you don't work here 0:08:28.967,0:08:30.135 0:08:33.639,0:08:35.390 back off! back off! it's not a show 0:08:37.683,0:08:39.477 got nothing better to do, hah? 0:08:41.730,0:08:42.815 Mom! 0:08:45.275,0:08:46.610 mom 0:08:50.531,0:08:51.532 mom 0:08:51.949,0:08:53.700 Couldn't they see? 0:08:53.700,0:08:56.495 anyone could see[br]she was in so much pain 0:08:56.495,0:09:00.624 The strugle was so much on the surface [br]so there if anyone cared to look 0:09:01.833,0:09:04.294 it wasn't like she was running of a good mother[br]to somebody else[br]or not that was a good mother 0:09:05.504,0:09:07.798 she just didn't have anymore to give 0:09:09.299,0:09:10.676 Let me go ! 0:09:40.455,0:09:43.208 0:09:43.208,0:09:44.877 Alright, hey hey hey! 0:09:45.252,0:09:47.421 oh! something stinks! 0:09:48.088,0:09:49.590 what is that? 0:09:52.134,0:09:54.511 I was always the smelly kid in class 0:09:54.511,0:10:01.310 Lisa stood on the bucket shower[br]but daddy left her doing[br]she had to marry a doctor she had so many expectations 0:10:01.310,0:10:04.771 I didn't have any expectations, so therefore I guess[br]I stunk 0:10:09.401,0:10:12.863 I scratched for lice, [br]and burn between my legs 0:10:14.072,0:10:16.408 My teachers was always telling me not to fidge it 0:10:16.617,0:10:18.577 but my underwear... 0:10:18.869,0:10:20.996 I didn't know what to do about underwear 0:10:21.205,0:10:23.498 I just worried that it fell apart 0:10:23.916,0:10:27.544 Alright, people thank you resess is over 0:10:31.965,0:10:34.009 My teeth ached 0:10:34.009,0:10:35.010 I was hungry ... 0:10:37.262,0:10:39.097 The teachers words never seem to reach me 0:10:39.097,0:10:44.937 Words just seems .. fall on the floor 0:10:44.937,0:10:47.689 Give me the test,Liz. there's no point of taking that [br]No, I'll take it. 0:10:47.689,0:10:49.858 But you been here what? three times this month? 0:10:50.025,0:10:52.569 I'll take it [br]it doesn't look that hard 0:10:53.737,0:10:54.738 fine 0:11:06.667,0:11:07.668 oh Liz, stay here 0:11:12.381,0:11:14.841 you do smell, you know?[br]doesn't your mother tell you... 0:11:14.841,0:11:18.887 No, no ... [br]it is my fault I just forget 0:11:18.887,0:11:23.725 ok Well,when you wanna have shower tonigh [br]will you wash back here? 0:11:25.561,0:11:27.604 I've been saving something for you 0:11:34.486,0:11:35.654 Here ... 0:11:38.699,0:11:41.285 And here, bhow did you do that? 0:11:41.451,0:11:44.037 you've never in school 0:11:45.998,0:11:47.291 I read a lot 0:11:47.291,0:11:49.167 yeah, what do you read? 0:11:49.167,0:11:50.794 The Encyclopedia 0:11:51.503,0:11:56.008 The lady of the upstairs, Eva, [br]she found one in the dumpster 0:11:56.008,0:11:59.511 the whole set, well[br]except from R to S 0:11:59.928,0:12:04.474 If you've asked me between R and S I would've done it wrong[br]I was just lucky 0:12:04.474,0:12:08.604 Oh Liz, you have to come to school [br]OK [br]No, I mean it, look 0:12:08.604,0:12:10.772 it's redeculus you're way too smart not to be here 0:12:10.772,0:12:13.775 I do not understand why toy don't come. [br]I will. 0:12:15.819,0:12:18.780 How can I tell her that school make me sad? 0:12:19.281,0:12:23.493 I had never talked to her, [br]I don't know how to talk to anyone. 0:12:23.493,0:12:26.665 My house was not a place that you can come out of it [br]and be normal.[br]- you'll have to come everyday 0:12:28.707,0:12:31.627 It's not a threat, it's promise 0:12:31.627,0:12:34.421 and is not a threat, [br]is a promise. 0:12:46.475,0:12:51.897 - Eva, look what I got, [br]- a 100[br]- thanks to your encyclopedia! 0:12:51.897,0:12:55.943 Good, you gotta get a good marks! [br]you don't wanna be an idiot 0:12:55.943,0:13:00.405 and you keep it up now, you hear me? [br]now your mother's back 0:13:01.990,0:13:03.575 My mother is back? 0:13:03.617,0:13:08.163 Well, we had nice quite couple a months,[br]did we? 0:13:09.706,0:13:14.378 The only good thing about taking my mother [br]to the nutt house was that when she came back[br]she was my Mom again 0:13:14.378,0:13:21.718 she cooked and she cleaned [br]shorthand for the company in a [br]for me, that was the good quite couple of months 0:13:22.010,0:13:25.347 Before the drugs came back in 0:13:33.146,0:13:34.690 Mom .. 0:13:48.537,0:13:50.205 momy 0:13:50.205,0:13:51.707 Lizzy 0:13:58.380,0:14:01.300 Are you OK? [br]I'm okay 0:14:03.635,0:14:06.513 pumpkin, [br]you look real good 0:14:07.556,0:14:09.099 I'm Glad you're home mom! 0:14:12.311,0:14:14.104 don't you glad you're home? 0:14:15.105,0:14:18.233 Well, that hospital 0:14:18.233,0:14:20.944 wasn't too bad 0:14:20.944,0:14:27.784 it's too green [br]the walls and there were bars on the windows 0:14:27.784,0:14:31.997 I'm sorry, you had to see that, you know 0:14:33.415,0:14:35.042 0:14:35.042,0:14:37.711 and I'm glad you're home 0:14:45.915,0:14:50.920 Look, Look I got a 100 0:14:53.310,0:14:57.606 Ma. no .. [br]100 is a good good, 100 is the perfect 0:14:58.475,0:15:00.560 didn't you ever get hundred? 0:15:01.508,0:15:03.676 No ! 0:15:04.071,0:15:07.157 hey, I go to school 0:15:07.157,0:15:13.288 I ran away too young. [br]Do not ever run away from home 0:15:13.705,0:15:15.040 I won't 0:15:20.546,0:15:24.800 I ... I will always be here for you 0:15:24.800,0:15:28.053 I know, Mom 0:15:28.053,0:15:31.640 I will always be there ... always 0:15:31.640,0:15:35.352 I know, Mom 0:15:38.772,0:15:40.482 I am sick ... 0:15:40.482,0:15:46.405 I'm sick ... I'm sick, I... 0:15:47.531,0:15:50.200 I have AIDS ... 0:15:50.784,0:15:53.662 No. .. no ... 0:15:53.662,0:15:56.790 No, no no ... baby, don't 0:15:56.790,0:16:05.465 They say don't be afraid [br]the say I migh.. I could live forever, okay? 0:16:05.799,0:16:07.676 but I can't live here 0:16:10.846,0:16:13.807 - I gonna go home [br]- This is home 0:16:13.807,0:16:17.186 No, home to my pops, [br]I will take you and Lisa 0:16:17.186,0:16:19.479 No, no, you have to stay here 0:16:19.479,0:16:25.277 I gotta stop the drugs, [br]and I can't do it when daddy around 0:16:26.361,0:16:28.405 But you'll be alone 0:16:29.615,0:16:35.245 Liz, Lisa is already gone over, [br]just packup your things and let's go 0:16:35.245,0:16:39.791 No no, cause you said pops will beat you [br]you said he raped your sister 0:16:39.791,0:16:40.792 this is the way it has to be now 0:16:41.668,0:16:44.046 No, stay here 0:16:44.046,0:16:46.507 I can't 0:16:46.507,0:16:48.967 stay mom! 0:16:48.967,0:16:51.053 Everything was falling apart 0:16:51.053,0:16:54.765 I thought If I stayed [br]I could have stop it 0:16:54.765,0:17:00.521 I thought If I stayed [br]everything some how could stay the same 0:17:18.497,0:17:20.290 just open the door, it's no use 0:17:20.290,0:17:24.837 I know you're in there 0:17:37.599,0:17:38.850 where is your mother and sister? 0:17:38.850,0:17:40.018 they're gone 0:17:40.018,0:17:41.353 where's your father? 0:17:41.353,0:17:44.189 he's gonna get some food help, [br]he'll be right back. 0:17:47.568,0:17:50.362 your teacher called, you still not going to school 0:17:50.362,0:17:55.200 you never in school [br]We gota do something about this 0:17:55.200,0:17:59.538 Miss Wanda warned you, I warned you, [br]everyone in case workers warned you 0:17:59.538,0:18:00.539 this is been goining on for years 0:18:02.207,0:18:06.003 we said clean up this place [br]and go to school, [br]clean up and go to school, 0:18:06.003,0:18:09.923 and you haven't done either one of them had you ... [br]Elizabeth, have you? 0:18:10.424,0:18:11.466 No 0:18:11.466,0:18:13.135 so, what are we gonna do? 0:18:13.260,0:18:15.053 I do not know 0:18:15.053,0:18:16.638 I do 0:18:16.638,0:18:20.309 you're going into the system [br]I'm taking her 0:18:20.309,0:18:25.188 No! But things are better now, [br]my dady buys me big potatoes everyday 0:18:25.188,0:18:27.816 you're not paying the rent, [br]you're not getting her to school 0:18:27.816,0:18:29.860 I tell him to go, [br]I told you to go to school 0:18:29.860,0:18:32.863 she's got a mind of her own, [br]she's a feminist 0:18:32.863,0:18:38.035 this is not a joking matter, [br]pack her a suitcase ... [br]now! 0:18:39.786,0:18:44.374 No, no! [br]I'll go to school, please! 0:18:44.374,0:18:47.753 This isn't working, we need an adult [br]who is responsible 0:18:47.753,0:18:50.631 My grandfather is responsible! [br]My grandfather will take me! [br]My sister is there 0:18:50.631,0:18:55.385 - your sister goes to school. [br]- I'll go to school! [br]I'll go to school, please! 0:18:55.677,0:18:57.304 Not make noise 0:18:58.347,0:19:03.101 I'll talk to him [br]and if he will take you [br]you will be out in 24 hours 0:19:03.101,0:19:05.103 I'm sorry 0:19:07.231,0:19:09.441 and if he won't? 0:19:12.319,0:19:16.115 You will have time to figure out how to live life 0:19:48.814,0:19:51.275 figure out my life ... 0:19:51.275,0:19:53.569 do people really do that? 0:19:54.590,0:19:59.212 If they do that , they're falling down[br]in a deep dark hole 0:20:13.671,0:20:15.907 buzzed in, locked in 0:20:15.907,0:20:18.038 it was like to visiting my mother 0:20:18.038,0:20:20.238 Only I was in the crazy house now 0:20:30.829,0:20:33.123 Get her! 0:20:38.947,0:20:41.491 0:20:56.941,0:21:03.768 I didn't get out in 24 hours, [br]I didn't get out in 24 days, [br]no one wanted me. 0:21:03.768,0:21:07.389 they just left me there 0:21:16.753,0:21:19.297 Why don't you go to school? 0:21:19.297,0:21:24.302 That's the big problem I got Here, [br]why dont you go? 0:21:34.352,0:21:39.566 From what I can see [br]you have got a discipline problem 0:22:59.212,0:23:01.464 -Liz! [br]-Hey pops! 0:23:01.464,0:23:06.594 You call your mother [br]Jean! Come out here, she's here 0:23:11.495,0:23:14.107 I'm late for school [br]but I wanted to see you first 0:23:14.407,0:23:15.157 Thanks Lisa 0:23:15.157,0:23:18.743 don't screw this up,[br]we are doing okay 0:23:18.743,0:23:24.082 and don't expect too much, she is dying 0:23:31.709,0:23:32.877 Lizzy! 0:23:32.987,0:23:34.363 Mom 0:23:34.498,0:23:38.210 oh God 0:23:45.425,0:23:49.680 When I think of my life, [br]this is the time I like to think of 0:23:52.447,0:23:55.325 when I got back and my mother's mind was clear 0:23:55.325,0:23:59.537 there was no cocain so her [br]schizophrenia medicine kept on working 0:23:59.537,0:24:02.582 and we go to the cafe, [br]and sit and talk 0:24:02.582,0:24:06.586 eat hamburghers, [br]we were together 0:24:06.586,0:24:09.631 even with her bad eyes [br]I think she could see me 0:24:09.631,0:24:12.259 well, she can see my outline 0:24:12.259,0:24:14.803 and for a while I had my mother again 0:24:14.803,0:24:19.595 -even the park, yeah I remember, [br]we used to slide down the hill 0:24:19.595,0:24:22.639 remeber we put down that cart board [br]and we pretend that we sled 0:24:22.681,0:24:24.850 - you remember that? [br]- Yes 0:24:24.850,0:24:29.688 - how about the tickle monster ?[br]- we screamed and laughed about that one 0:24:31.148,0:24:36.402 Yeah, I was a good mother, [br]wasn't I? 0:24:36.402,0:24:39.948 -yeah, you were fine 0:24:39.948,0:24:40.230 Yeah 0:24:43.734,0:24:49.173 Well, I'm really glad we are all together[br]you and me, and Lisa 0:24:49.173,0:24:53.241 what if dad went off drugs too [br]would that be great? 0:24:53.301,0:24:56.473 Maybe we can go back to University Avenue 0:25:03.099,0:25:07.477 well,your dad is in a shelter for homeless 0:25:07.477,0:25:09.735 I'm afraid he lost the apartment 0:25:09.735,0:25:13.072 he kind of ignore the rent, [br]so, you know ... 0:25:14.502,0:25:17.696 What about my stuff? 0:25:17.696,0:25:19.197 got thrown out 0:25:19.197,0:25:22.227 all of it? [br]Even my encyclopedias? 0:25:22.227,0:25:26.785 I'm really sorry , they board up the whole place 0:25:26.785,0:25:32.127 there was nothing we could do, [br]it just, crap happens [br]I mean ... 0:25:32.127,0:25:36.548 Look, I gotta go around the corner and see few friends 0:25:36.548,0:25:40.135 just for a minute okay? [br]You finish your burger 0:25:40.135,0:25:43.430 and I ... I'll be right back [br]just be a minute 0:25:43.430,0:25:45.358 just be a minute 0:26:46.872,0:26:49.595 so that was that, [br]no going back 0:26:49.595,0:26:53.779 I hadn't kept anything together, [br]I only made things worse 0:26:53.779,0:26:56.023 If I had only go to school ... 0:26:56.023,0:27:00.453 if I had only, [br]if I had only ... 0:27:00.453,0:27:02.408 so that part of my life was over 0:27:02.408,0:27:05.723 I guess the new part have begun 0:27:10.509,0:27:13.888 -Elizabeth Murray [br]and you're her mother? [br]-Yes 0:27:13.888,0:27:19.539 -Ah Look, take you to your class now[br]- Thanks 0:27:19.913,0:27:20.752 A moment 0:27:20.752,0:27:22.754 - Bye Mom [br]- Bye 0:27:22.754,0:27:26.849 - are you gona get home okay? [br]- Yes, I'm just gonna go see my buddies you know[br]they'll take care of me 0:27:26.849,0:27:31.652 - Maybe I should come with you [br]- No no, you gotta stay at school or they'll take you away again [br]go, go ... 0:27:31.652,0:27:33.654 Bye 0:27:40.702,0:27:50.803 -so we have nouns, verbs, adverbs and prepositions 0:27:51.253,0:27:53.693 who's that, duke? 0:27:55.115,0:27:56.366 Thank you 0:27:59.483,0:28:04.239 I wasn't the smelly kid anymore, [br]I had learned to shower every day at the group home 0:28:04.239,0:28:08.550 and my clothes, even if they came from the shop, all fit 0:28:08.550,0:28:11.143 but still didn't know how to be in school 0:28:11.143,0:28:14.664 I just don't know how to be normal 0:28:17.712,0:28:21.758 people, can we try to settle down?, [br]Chris would you like to try diagram number 12? 0:28:21.758,0:28:24.052 No 0:28:24.052,0:28:25.053 Bobby? 0:28:34.214,0:28:39.547 you find it a musy [br]Miss ... Elizabeth? 0:28:39.547,0:28:41.000 please don't call me that 0:28:41.000,0:28:43.382 That's your name according to these forms 0:28:43.382,0:28:47.493 Liz or Lizzy 0:28:47.553,0:28:50.615 Liz or Lizzy is a nickname 0:28:51.945,0:28:53.746 aren't nicknames 0:28:54.364,0:28:55.365 No, I'm afraid not 0:28:55.715,0:28:58.585 Jesus, call the girl she wants to be called! 0:28:58.585,0:29:03.956 Elizabeth is a fine name, is the name of [br]a queen, the Elizabethan was the age of [br]Shakespeare 0:29:03.956,0:29:05.708 What's you problem with it? 0:29:06.450,0:29:10.037 My mother calls me Elizabeth [br]when she's going insane ... 0:29:16.705,0:29:18.331 Liz then 0:29:18.385,0:29:20.220 Bobby, the sentence 0:29:23.262,0:29:25.222 so Where do you go to school before this? 0:29:25.222,0:29:26.223 I didn't 0:29:26.683,0:29:28.435 how did you fall in here? 0:29:28.435,0:29:30.729 I was in a group home 0:29:30.729,0:29:33.565 is that freaky? 0:29:33.565,0:29:35.438 yeah 0:29:35.438,0:29:39.955 - but you are not a freak [br]- No 0:29:42.414,0:29:44.730 it's too bad, I am 0:29:46.273,0:29:50.117 -my Birthday is coming up[br]-yeah? when? 0:29:50.117,0:29:54.231 Ah, you'll know [br]I'm gonna wear my dad's trunch coat 0:29:54.231,0:29:59.844 I'm gonna come to school with nothing on, [br]but my trunch coat, and a pair of boots 0:29:59.844,0:30:04.920 and I'll flash all the teachers[br]Happy birthday ... 0:30:09.853,0:30:11.939 You do not believe me? 0:30:12.622,0:30:14.832 yeah I do 0:30:14.832,0:30:17.251 No you don't 0:31:21.704,0:31:24.629 It's a great place, [br]I never had a sopha before 0:31:24.629,0:31:27.651 My grandfather is a little crankie [br]we'll have to be out by 6 by the way 0:31:27.651,0:31:30.219 Liz, where is your phone? [br]Make that TV game show [br]Lì 0:31:33.199,0:31:34.434 Never gonna win 0:31:34.434,0:31:38.261 know what? [br]shut up !! gotta call this number[br]before I forget it 0:31:38.261,0:31:41.405 - Do you understand the theorem? [br]- come on bob! give it a wrest[br]the test isn't till like a week 0:31:41.405,0:31:43.866 - Can I take that chicken in the fridge? [br]- Sure 0:31:44.608,0:31:48.771 is it 6 already [br]it's only 4:30 0:31:52.304,0:31:57.768 some drunk lady[br]oh, so disgusting[br]she puked on the door 0:31:57.768,0:31:59.728 I'll go open the window 0:32:05.831,0:32:09.293 I don't feel really good, [br]Liza, help me please 0:32:09.293,0:32:10.717 what, what happen [br]come on [br]This way 0:32:11.877,0:32:13.676 0:32:16.806,0:32:18.724 Alright, up 0:32:24.987,0:32:31.580 I am a good mom, [br]I just need a hug, okay? 0:32:34.140,0:32:35.391 Come on! 0:32:35.391,0:32:37.226 Oh God! 0:33:13.264,0:33:16.851 here we go, [br]All clean, you see 0:33:16.851,0:33:19.901 she couldn't take living straight, [br]why should I expect her to take dying 0:33:19.901,0:33:24.291 isn't dying the hardest thing anyone have ever done? 0:33:24.291,0:33:25.524 Everyone is gone 0:33:25.630,0:33:28.300 - except you ... [br]- yeah 0:33:31.243,0:33:33.537 So where does you grandfather sleep? 0:33:33.537,0:33:35.182 Here?[br]safe to his daughter? 0:33:37.981,0:33:39.983 But I don't think like that 0:33:39.983,0:33:41.522 Yeah, but don't know 0:33:43.082,0:33:47.628 he Did some things to her when I was younger, [br]she told me that 0:33:49.565,0:33:51.525 With her sister and not her? 0:33:54.395,0:33:56.523 I figure he did them both ... 0:33:56.523,0:33:57.525 so your sister is crazy too? 0:33:57.976,0:34:06.767 Yeah, and their mother too, [br]that's why I didn't wanna come here 0:34:07.715,0:34:11.552 you know, My...Mom is getting back to my dad 0:34:13.678,0:34:16.889 I wish My mom would 0:34:20.100,0:34:23.146 He does stuff to my sister 0:34:24.836,0:34:27.297 You do not have a sister 0:34:29.320,0:34:31.072 Lucky for her 0:34:31.072,0:34:34.625 -did you tell your mother? [br]-Yes, I told her 0:34:34.625,0:34:38.244 but she left him, [br]and cursed him 0:34:38.244,0:34:41.236 she said she's gonna call the cops, [br]and now she's getting back with him 0:34:41.236,0:34:45.071 you know, I asked her how she could do that, [br]and she said that she missed him 0:34:45.071,0:34:46.043 she missed him ... 0:34:52.430,0:34:54.766 I was 7 years whe he first stuck it in 0:34:55.013,0:34:56.900 Chris, Chris, don't! 0:34:56.902,0:35:00.735 move in with me 0:35:03.495,0:35:04.612 - What, stay here? [br]- Yeah! 0:35:06.062,0:35:08.845 What .. what will your grandfather say? 0:35:09.595,0:35:11.642 He won't know[br]We will work it out so will never see him 0:35:11.642,0:35:15.820 he won't get up until after this for work [br]he's like a robot anyway, [br]he's out by eight 0:35:15.820,0:35:17.005 I'm back at 6.[br]Out! 0:35:18.475,0:35:20.310 Pops! she had no place to stay! 0:35:20.310,0:35:21.770 This not my problem 0:35:23.130,0:35:24.131 Leave her alone! 0:35:28.758,0:35:32.846 Your mother is dying [br]your peace of trash father walked out[br]and stuck me with all of this 0:35:33.174,0:35:35.844 did I ask this in my old age? [br]tell me! 0:35:47.788,0:35:49.373 What are you doing? 0:35:49.692,0:35:55.259 fine, that suits me, [br]you'll end up trash anyway 0:35:56.319,0:35:59.321 just like your parents 0:36:11.922,0:36:14.133 So I left 0:36:16.383,0:36:22.722 you wanna go get your stuff ? [br]or you'll leave me here alone 0:36:27.808,0:36:30.352 do anyone of us bargain for our life 0:36:30.352,0:36:32.646 it seems to me that we're just gonna fall into them 0:36:32.646,0:36:36.047 and then we have to do the best we can[br]Let's go!! 0:36:36.516,0:36:40.246 My mother was dying, [br]my father was gone 0:36:40.246,0:36:46.599 but I had to believe that I the road[br]would rise up to meet me 0:36:47.352,0:36:50.272 I was 15 years, when I wen out of door 0:36:56.466,0:37:03.159 What is a home anyway, [br]a roof, bed 0:37:03.159,0:37:08.588 A place when where you go there[br]they have to take you 0:37:08.688,0:37:12.567 If so, I was 15 years [br]when I became homeless 0:37:14.357,0:37:16.609 -You get some change? [br]-Get a job 0:37:22.279,0:37:24.323 how are you doing tonight? 0:37:24.323,0:37:26.992 God bless you kid 0:37:33.385,0:37:35.262 spend some changes 0:37:47.260,0:37:51.013 Sometimes I felt I had[br]neverhad a home in my life 0:38:06.150,0:38:08.403 Bring it on 0:38:36.969,0:38:39.180 Let's go 0:38:57.754,0:39:01.257 what are you doing![br]come back here 0:39:06.277,0:39:12.284 At other times I knew [br]where ever my mother was [br]that's where my home was 0:39:49.848,0:39:52.184 oh god!! 0:39:52.184,0:39:56.730 but month by month she was fading away 0:40:02.550,0:40:04.135 Liz ... 0:40:04.135,0:40:06.054 yeah! 0:40:08.451,0:40:10.620 where did you go? 0:40:10.620,0:40:15.117 I've been staying with friends 0:40:17.627,0:40:20.038 I miss you 0:40:24.781,0:40:29.077 paps! he hit me and you know 0:40:31.117,0:40:33.494 I couldn't stay here 0:40:33.785,0:40:35.370 Alright 0:40:37.164,0:40:41.472 Look! your sister told me that you[br]stopped going to school 0:40:42.682,0:40:45.874 I'm gonna go back 0:40:45.874,0:40:47.688 when? 0:40:49.168,0:40:52.921 when you get better 0:40:56.957,0:40:59.335 They tease me 0:40:59.335,0:41:06.571 they tease me at the bar cause I shake 0:41:06.571,0:41:11.346 I can't stop shaking 0:41:11.346,0:41:17.408 I think it is becuase of the drinking 0:41:17.618,0:41:19.829 you should propably stop 0:41:19.829,0:41:23.249 Ok, ok .. 0:41:31.509,0:41:33.553 you're gonna get better 0:41:49.820,0:41:52.823 I love you, mom 0:41:53.995,0:41:55.372 mom 0:41:55.733,0:41:58.235 I love you 0:42:22.492,0:42:25.662 get over there 0:42:34.905,0:42:36.698 sorry! 0:42:51.238,0:42:54.241 - Look out!![br]- Stop 0:42:54.241,0:43:01.087 hey guys, wait up [br]I'll catch you later I'm just gonna ... 0:43:02.777,0:43:04.153 Bye 0:43:06.943,0:43:08.194 mom 0:43:13.242,0:43:16.122 We took up a collection 0:43:20.122,0:43:23.334 she isn't coming here anymore [br]becuase she always think you're laughing at 0:43:23.374,0:43:29.630 she's dead honey [br]she died yesterday morning 0:44:28.585,0:44:33.131 Sometimes I feel that there is [br]a skin on the world 0:44:33.131,0:44:39.045 and those of us who were born under it [br]can see through it 0:44:39.611,0:44:41.989 we just can't get through it 0:44:49.189,0:44:54.930 My mother was being buried in section 51, [br]the charity plot 0:44:54.930,0:45:02.269 My mother was in there, [br]strangers had put her in there 0:45:02.269,0:45:09.014 was she naked, was she frightent [br]no, she was gone 0:45:09.014,0:45:12.782 -come on, let's go [br]-No, wait a minute 0:45:12.782,0:45:17.152 there should be a service, [br]there should be a priest, [br]what supposed to happen? 0:45:17.152,0:45:19.642 When you go, we're gonna bury it, [br]that's all 0:45:19.642,0:45:21.043 it's a she 0:45:22.983,0:45:24.726 it is my mother 0:45:24.956,0:45:28.918 - There is no priest? [br]- Not in these cases, you did know that? 0:45:28.938,0:45:32.807 she is dead, [br]put her in the ground 0:45:32.807,0:45:43.792 Priest or no priest, taht didn't matter, [br]she was gone, she was already rutting 0:45:43.971,0:45:45.639 sorry 0:45:46.129,0:45:50.800 as I suppose to believe she had found [br]a turnal Peace 0:45:57.621,0:45:59.873 you Coming with us? 0:46:01.219,0:46:04.273 will you just go? 0:46:08.733,0:46:11.504 Hey, wait 0:47:19.176,0:47:21.387 Ok .. 0:47:27.561,0:47:29.354 let us get out of here, okay? 0:47:29.515,0:47:40.659 Liz, you know ... I just .. I can't[br]I can't do this anymore. [br]you know.. so, I'm going 0:47:41.725,0:47:43.351 Where? 0:47:44.406,0:47:45.991 group home 0:47:45.991,0:47:47.868 A crazy house 0:47:47.868,0:47:53.717 You know Liz, it's this, this ??? [br]this is crazy 0:47:56.157,0:47:58.910 you should Come with me 0:48:06.850,0:48:11.563 yeah, so see you around 0:48:23.530,0:48:27.242 People died, [br]things decayed 0:48:27.242,0:48:32.219 everything that seems so solid[br]is meaningless 0:48:32.219,0:48:38.467 all that we left [br]is the gestures we make 0:48:38.467,0:48:42.427 gestures in air, [br]that's what we remember 0:48:42.457,0:48:45.983 I remember riding with my mother [br]through the leaves 0:48:45.983,0:48:53.991 the year ending put her arms around me, [br]when I was little, [br]and she was well 0:48:53.991,0:48:55.300 that was long ago, 0:48:55.300,0:48:57.809 maybe it only happened once 0:48:59.049,0:49:04.357 maybe she betrayed me a thousand times [br]it didn't matter[br]Math will always be as a subject 0:49:04.357,0:49:06.114 we remember what we choose 0:49:06.114,0:49:08.575 get out of there! 0:49:22.410,0:49:24.788 Where you gonna put the stone? 0:49:24.788,0:49:27.958 there's no stones here ,[br]there's no room 0:49:32.488,0:49:35.824 In a week[br]there would be no trace over 0:49:35.824,0:49:43.666 but what did it matter, [br]this wasn't the real world, [br]and we really live in each others hearts 0:50:30.072,0:50:38.677 She lived in my heart, [br]but I live nowhere, [br]I was all alone in the world 0:50:39.480,0:50:45.666 You are 16 years old with an 8th grade education 0:50:45.806,0:50:52.438 and when you are down the world spiral [br]that will end in the worst place [br]than you ever dreamed 0:50:53.742,0:50:55.194 you've burned every bridge, [br]you're ran out of every welcome 0:50:55.284,0:51:00.528 an everyone who has ever believe in you [br]you have let down 0:51:00.528,0:51:02.228 Eva? 0:51:14.208,0:51:18.671 I don't want to be an idiot, [br]I want to go to school 0:51:59.517,0:52:03.199 - Yes [br]- Hi, I am ELisabeth Murray, [br]I have an appointment 0:52:03.199,0:52:07.209 at 9:30, [br]it's 10:30 0:52:07.229,0:52:11.585 -I'm Sorry, the subway got stucked [br]-I'm sorry too ,but it's really late 0:52:11.585,0:52:19.310 The school started 3 weeks ago [br]we are just about full [br]kids get on time here honey 0:52:19.310,0:52:29.597 I read the brochure intensive [br]Student participation for the Development [br]of injust community calendar 0:52:31.237,0:52:33.822 I just need one chance 0:52:36.142,0:52:41.731 You can wait and talk to David, [br]but he got this meeting right after 0:53:02.884,0:53:05.386 I knew at that moment I had to make a choice 0:53:05.576,0:53:10.039 I could submit to everything that was happening [br]and live a life of execuses 0:53:10.039,0:53:17.255 or I could push myself, [br]I can push myself[br]and make my life good 0:53:38.069,0:53:42.615 - We'll get to you back on Friday. [br]- Ok, thank you [br]it's a pleasure guys 0:53:43.625,0:53:45.085 - Elizabeth [br]- Liz 0:53:45.085,0:53:47.629 Liz I am sorry, we are making [br]our last decision and I'm already late 0:53:47.629,0:53:50.048 can I just talk to you for a minute ? 30 seconds? 0:53:50.048,0:53:54.567 well, there's the application, [br]and the whole big eassy question 0:53:54.767,0:53:57.946 I've already done the eassy [br]I really want this 0:54:03.816,0:54:11.645 I haven't had a lot of gown ups that[br]proved to be trust worthy [br]or in it for the long run .. so... 0:54:11.645,0:54:15.822 Maybe I don't know how to talk to you 0:54:15.822,0:54:24.910 My parents both use drugs, alot of them, [br]I won't go near them, but ... [br]I guess I've kind of lived that life style 0:54:24.910,0:54:29.451 I'm embareced now, not how late back I've been[br]I mean... 0:54:29.451,0:54:31.877 I've really never been in school[br]except for the 8th grade, but... 0:54:31.877,0:54:34.364 but your grades are very good[br]to enter school 0:54:34.364,0:54:39.107 I used to show up last week [br]and take the test, [br]and that's how I got promoted 0:54:39.107,0:54:44.360 I'm smart, I know I can succeed, [br]I just need a chance 0:54:44.574,0:54:49.844 I need the chance [br]I need the chance to climb out of the place[br]I've born in, I mean... 0:54:49.844,0:54:57.426 Everyone I know they just, angry, tired [br]they are trying to survive 0:54:58.496,0:55:03.862 But I know that there is a world out there that's .. [br]better!! that's... 0:55:04.282,0:55:08.917 better developed and... [br]I wanna live in it 0:55:08.917,0:55:11.776 Why now? 0:55:15.012,0:55:19.253 My mother died of AIDS, she died couple of months ago [br]and ... 0:55:19.253,0:55:24.483 it was a real ... [br]slap in the face 0:55:24.950,0:55:31.795 I guess I always thought that[br]she was gonna get better [br]and take care of me .. 0:55:33.022,0:55:35.476 it's prety stupid, huh? 0:55:35.476,0:55:40.175 She never took care of me, [br]I took care of her .. 0:55:42.585,0:55:44.370 she was my baby 0:55:44.900,0:55:47.143 but now she's gone .. [br]so .. 0:55:50.861,0:55:52.959 now it's time to take care of yourslef 0:55:57.049,0:56:00.094 can you get here on time Liz ?? 0:56:00.744,0:56:02.328 I'll sleep here, If I have to 0:56:02.328,0:56:04.579 Ok, you're in 0:56:04.849,0:56:07.673 But you told the others[br]you won't know before friday 0:56:07.673,0:56:09.256 -you're in [br]- David 0:56:09.323,0:56:12.715 Thank you! [br]You just changed my life! 0:56:13.015,0:56:14.426 that's word's man? 0:56:14.426,0:56:18.912 just take the file and start the paper work, [br]got your transcripts ? it's just the easy stuff 0:56:19.822,0:56:23.663 address, phone number [br]we have to have a meeting[br]with your parents or you guardian, 0:56:23.663,0:56:26.625 get that in, and you are good to go 0:56:57.616,0:56:58.993 Dad 0:57:03.113,0:57:05.573 hey, Lizzy! 0:57:05.653,0:57:08.980 I need your help, please .. 0:57:11.040,0:57:16.886 such a Production ... such a production[br]why don't you just stay in Bronx[br]Then you can go to Kennedy 0:57:17.266,0:57:19.055 I don't know how to go to a normal school 0:57:19.177,0:57:21.357 Why, this is not a normal school? 0:57:22.047,0:57:24.064 - Well, it is public, but it is like private [br]- yeah 0:57:25.014,0:57:26.055 Dad, Dad! 0:57:30.275,0:57:31.895 I think I can do this 0:57:32.285,0:57:36.821 yeah?, that's good [br]I don't think I can 0:57:37.171,0:57:38.812 hey, you can, you can 0:57:39.244,0:57:46.345 well just say you're a long time truck driver[br]that's why they will never see you 0:57:46.684,0:57:48.964 you're living with your girl friend now or also 0:57:49.271,0:57:51.071 Already, a truck driver who travels, [br]and then I have a companion buckle 0:57:51.136,0:57:52.896 will you give me a girlfriend? 0:57:53.031,0:57:57.504 - Eva[br]- Eva !! that's not good[br]Eva is old enough to be my mother 0:57:57.520,0:57:58.150 Dad! I just 0:58:00.090,0:58:01.880 I just need an address, you know? 0:58:01.900,0:58:03.465 A phone number they can call 0:58:04.255,0:58:07.467 Please, please, [br]they can't know I'm homeless 0:58:08.379,0:58:09.949 they'll call the city[br]and I will be locked again 0:58:12.756,0:58:15.073 - Ok .. [br]- Yeah ? [br]- Ok 0:58:20.155,0:58:24.971 Mr Murray [br]I am Peter, Peter Fidelty, [br]I never actually married Liza's mother 0:58:26.681,0:58:27.722 Sit down, please 0:58:33.662,0:58:38.483 I am grateful you take my daughter in this 0:58:38.483,0:58:39.860 This is a very nice place 0:58:39.860,0:58:42.043 well, we're still new, we have big ambitions 0:58:42.403,0:58:45.429 yea, so as Lizzy I guess, [br]she's a feminist 0:58:45.699,0:58:47.039 I knew you excpected that already 0:58:47.039,0:58:52.643 her mother was actually beautiful, [br]like a movie star but.. [br]aher mother was also kind of feminist 0:58:52.643,0:58:54.144 or something like that 0:58:54.144,0:58:59.014 Anyway I thought when I met her [br]she was just, you know ... spirited[br]bu actually she was completly insane 0:59:00.404,0:59:02.785 - We just need you to sign right here. [br]- yeah. 0:59:03.885,0:59:06.447 and give us contact information [br]address and phone number 0:59:09.027,0:59:11.453 Yes, 3458 University Avenue 0:59:13.560,0:59:17.280 - There are a number of apartment? [br]- Yep, 2b [br]3b, 3b! yea! That's right 0:59:17.370,0:59:20.635 That's right we moved upstairs 0:59:20.635,0:59:23.606 phone number? 0:59:26.536,0:59:36.437 718 5 85 57 67 [br]555 55 67 0:59:37.904,0:59:38.614 Excuse me, are somewhat out of phase 0:59:41.024,0:59:41.951 so that's it ?[br]wI got staff I got to do 0:59:42.621,0:59:43.997 yea, that's it 0:59:44.617,0:59:45.928 Thanks for coming 0:59:48.288,0:59:49.408 Can I start now? 0:59:50.958,0:59:53.266 It's *** to have someone actually[br]want to come to school, yea 0:59:53.266,0:59:56.762 I'll walk him out 1:00:08.376,1:00:13.172 Alright [br]oh, they give you token here? 1:00:13.612,1:00:14.998 No, I got a job 1:00:15.793,1:00:20.575 yea, I remember when you're a kid[br]you used to bag groceries down in Foren Road [br]put food in the fridge 1:00:20.575,1:00:22.463 - How old are you? [br]- 8 1:00:29.223,1:00:32.816 - I am not a people person, you understand that [br]- Yes 1:00:32.996,1:00:35.165 I'm just not a people person Liz 1:00:35.665,1:00:38.244 I got nothing to do with you, [br]you know it's not personal 1:00:38.674,1:00:41.834 - But you came today though ... [br]- yep! 1:00:45.664,1:00:46.798 I love you dad ! 1:00:47.808,1:00:51.506 oh don't do that, [br]don't love me, [br]it is a waste of energy 1:00:53.256,1:00:59.749 You know, when I was litle [br]you were the most interesting thing in my world 1:01:00.404,1:01:10.616 everyone was just talking about [br]drugs or sex or...[br]just trying to survive the day 1:01:13.138,1:01:15.932 but you always had ideas 1:01:17.738,1:01:22.411 it's becuase of you I know [br]there's another way of being 1:01:25.164,1:01:26.540 - yeah 1:01:28.912,1:01:30.413 are you okay? 1:01:31.876,1:01:36.143 yea yea, I'm fine[br]they take care of your dad fine in the shelter 1:01:36.583,1:01:40.155 Actually I'm gonna get my own apartment [br]I would like to do that, 1:01:40.875,1:01:43.163 you can come stay with me [br]visit me anytime 1:01:43.393,1:01:44.788 your own apartment... 1:01:45.048,1:01:50.394 Yes,they like to do that, [br]they keep the people like me out of the shelters 1:01:50.397,1:01:55.468 you know,like the patients, [br]you know, people with AIDS 1:01:58.918,1:02:03.487 Hey Listen, alot of changes than jean [br]I got all this medicens now, 1:02:03.487,1:02:06.218 and I'm clean, So I'm gonna live forever 1:02:10.378,1:02:15.738 Ok, I'll be fine, [br]I'm gonna live forever 1:02:20.959,1:02:27.115 stay in school, [br]I blew this, [br]but you can do this 1:02:47.637,1:02:51.791 Golf Tonkin[br]Remember the Maine [br]anybody? Franco-Prussian War? 1:02:51.791,1:02:56.059 You did you get Bismark? [br]you didn't get Bismark [br]I didn't get Bismark either 1:02:56.079,1:03:00.688 I thought this Bismark was kinda role [br]so is this Bismark a kizar ? 1:03:00.858,1:03:03.101 stop talking about food, [br]you're making me hungry 1:03:03.461,1:03:06.554 Dave are we gonna have book next year? [br]cause I keep losing this things 1:03:06.554,1:03:11.863 hmm.. textbooks[br]Why don't we use textbooks? [br]anyone? 1:03:12.073,1:03:15.916 Too heavy !! [br]Bzzt! they are, but no cigar!! 1:03:16.446,1:03:19.821 it's too expensive, [br]the school is so poor [br]Bzzzt! I'm keeping my cigar today 1:03:20.848,1:03:25.218 You, new girl [br]Her name is Liz! [br]chesus dave she's been here for a week, try to Remember 1:03:25.408,1:03:27.233 Liz, [br]sue me ... 1:03:28.012,1:03:33.622 Here, Textbook, [br]text ... [br]book ... 1:03:33.768,1:03:38.561 Up, open it, [br]what do you see? 1:03:39.074,1:03:40.012 Words 1:03:41.042,1:03:41.843 What kind of words? 1:03:43.803,1:03:44.971 the words of the author 1:03:45.982,1:03:47.166 No, no, [br]it is important 1:03:47.906,1:03:50.623 and what do we have here? 1:03:52.843,1:03:53.822 alot of other people's words 1:03:54.543,1:03:55.512 and I want you to have them? 1:04:00.532,1:04:04.916 because one point of view [br]gives you a one Dimentional-world 1:04:07.536,1:04:08.771 Cigars!! , Cigars!! 1:04:10.071,1:04:14.466 Bismarck, Marx, the guy who sold me [br]the buble gums Cigars 1:04:15.056,1:04:20.640 why on earth we could find ourselves [br]To his story ... history 1:04:20.740,1:04:24.817 but isn't that the deal dave?[br]I mean, is there an official history 1:04:24.817,1:04:26.849 New girl, [br]tell him what history is 1:04:29.702,1:04:34.883 History is all of us[br]all our stories count 1:04:40.558,1:04:47.189 that's it, grap your papers [br]I will be in the lounch [br]if you want to talk about it 1:04:54.599,1:04:57.561 hey Liz, this is yours 1:05:12.959,1:05:16.569 - hey, new girl [br]- you let me in and you don't remember my name 1:05:16.849,1:05:20.143 - oh, I remember your name, [br]- I just like to gang up on your side 1:05:22.383,1:05:25.184 You are pretty smart [br]hah, so as you 1:05:25.424,1:05:28.896 you gave me an A minus[br]Yes, sounds a very good paper 1:05:29.933,1:05:34.170 How do I make an A [br]Liz, an A minus is an excellent mark 1:05:34.843,1:05:37.272 This is your first working school in ..what .. forever? 1:05:38.102,1:05:42.951 If my words count[br]I want them to be right 1:05:46.831,1:05:49.946 Okay [br]well ... 1:06:11.173,1:06:15.294 Oh! [br]What are you still doing here? 1:06:16.174,1:06:19.345 - Algebra [br]- yea Well, it's after 11, I locking up 1:06:24.975,1:06:25.778 how many classes are you taking? 1:06:26.644,1:06:34.790 Um, the regular five, [br]then the saturday programming, [br]the night school French 1:06:35.000,1:06:41.139 and the after school sciences [br]10 ... 1:06:42.699,1:06:45.360 Now you see why I need the before school math 1:06:45.360,1:06:51.213 It's alot[br]I'm 17, [br]I do not want to be 21 before I finish high school 1:06:51.243,1:06:55.243 So you're trying to do what [br]4 years of high school in 3? 1:06:55.243,1:06:59.143 2[br]you need before math school too 1:07:00.113,1:07:01.589 Yeah, you're gonna kill yourself! 1:07:01.779,1:07:04.809 No. .. [br]I'm gonna live 1:07:47.690,1:07:51.944 I had a down, the B train [br]took 70 minutes to do that entire run 1:07:53.694,1:07:57.399 I've been back 4 times [br]and I would be at school just a little early 1:07:58.489,1:08:00.729 Then David would let me in 1:08:01.159,1:08:03.686 For the first time my life [br]had some order I can count on 1:08:26.525,1:08:28.110 Chris? 1:08:28.863,1:08:30.146 [br] 1:08:35.256,1:08:36.466 What are you doing here? 1:08:36.616,1:08:40.326 - hanging out [br]- what about the home [br]- I got hookie 1:08:42.496,1:08:45.614 - so how come you didn't look for me? [br]- I did 1:08:46.064,1:08:51.557 I have been looking for a long time [br]just that ... you haven't been in any other places 1:08:52.787,1:08:56.085 I'm here now[br]and I'm going to a new school, [br]you'd like it 1:08:58.485,1:09:03.782 Hey ... [br]hey, come on [br]it will be great, we are together 1:09:25.867,1:09:28.899 Last one out, first one in [br]No, that describes you david 1:09:28.910,1:09:30.328 how did you get so dedicated 1:09:30.328,1:09:35.586 Well, I'm such a privilage jurk, [br]I wanted to give something back 1:09:35.586,1:09:39.557 and this is ...? [br]My friend Chris, [br]my best friend 1:09:39.560,1:09:40.530 - Hi Chris[br]- Hey 1:09:41.290,1:09:46.220 I want her to come here too [br]it's not a party, you know .. it's a tough place 1:09:46.220,1:09:49.292 well, she's good for you, [br]she's good enogh for me, come on in 1:09:53.792,1:09:59.828 so, what you were putting on the bored?[br]oh we decided to send our top 10 students[br]on schoolarship to Boston 1:09:59.828,1:10:02.998 Cool! [br]you ever been? [br]I've never been out of New York 1:10:03.736,1:10:06.231 we went to Queens once[br]Well, you're going 1:10:07.171,1:10:10.517 -come on, Noway I'm in the top 10 students 1:10:10.657,1:10:15.614 well, you're not one of the top, you're the top [br]you're not among the best, [br]you're the best ... 1:10:15.619,1:10:17.294 You got the best grades in this whole place Liz 1:10:17.294,1:10:21.880 - yea, so what .. going to Boston? [br]- All expenses paid 1:10:23.010,1:10:24.539 - how long? [br]- 5 days 1:10:34.289,1:10:36.213 - you okay, Liz? [br]- Yes 1:10:38.303,1:10:40.291 I've just was always been trash, you know.. 1:10:41.801,1:10:42.563 You are not trash 1:10:44.653,1:10:47.540 This is to get you thinking about college 1:10:49.330,1:10:52.703 - what's college like [br]- it's all crap, shut up! 1:10:53.143,1:10:56.386 You can come too [br]Can't she? 1:10:56.386,1:10:58.238 sure, if she does the work 1:10:59.388,1:11:03.340 come on chris [br]dream a little, [br]what do you wanna be when you grow up? 1:11:03.340,1:11:06.120 boy, [br]I was grown since I was 7 1:11:06.120,1:11:09.058 - Chris ... [br]- I mean after high school, it's okay 1:11:09.058,1:11:13.683 No, it's not okay [br]I'll be a garbage man, I'll be a prostitute 1:11:18.673,1:11:21.680 who cares what the hell I'm gonna be? 1:11:29.409,1:11:30.967 Welcome to Harvard guys 1:11:58.147,1:12:00.243 So, does it looks like you though it would? 1:12:01.613,1:12:05.382 Better, definitely better 1:12:06.292,1:12:08.166 Liz, they're just people 1:12:10.376,1:12:12.503 Not people like me 1:12:14.383,1:12:17.667 Why not people like me? [br]What made them so different? 1:12:18.537,1:12:20.088 becuase of the way they were born? 1:12:24.348,1:12:28.950 I was working as hard as I could so [br]so I didn't end up as food stamps[br]or hustling 1:12:30.445,1:12:32.959 What if .. what if I worked even more? 1:12:35.824,1:12:38.618 I was so close to this skin [br]that I can touch it 1:12:49.208,1:12:52.941 It would be a reach, [br]it's not impossible 1:13:02.401,1:13:06.406 - dona, there any other scholarships?[br]- yea,it's quite a few 1:13:08.046,1:13:13.941 Write 1500 words about the importance[br]of the free market in the free world [br]and win $ 500 1:13:14.071,1:13:17.991 yea, I would need only 70 of those, every year 1:13:18.699,1:13:23.891 Ah, there was something brand new [br]from the newyork time, [br]maybe I didn't put them in yet 1:13:26.968,1:13:28.386 1:13:32.946,1:13:38.615 - $ 12,000 [br]every year for 4 years! [br]- What do you have to do? 1:13:39.554,1:13:44.105 Attach a brief eassy describing [br]what you believe to be the most [br]significant academic achievement 1:13:44.665,1:13:48.149 and how you have overcome any challenges[br]tor obstacles 1:13:49.819,1:13:51.459 can I have copy of this? 1:13:52.849,1:13:57.869 I want to stand beside the people [br]in the sidewalk not be so far [br]beneath them 1:13:58.989,1:14:04.245 I wanna go to Harvard, [br]and become very developed [br]read all the bets books 1:14:07.856,1:14:11.815 Then I find myself thinking: [br]if I just go crazy? 1:14:12.226,1:14:14.097 even lose every *** of my potential[br]to do that 1:14:17.437,1:14:20.911 I have to do it, [br]I have no choice 1:14:24.460,1:14:27.886 - Am I late? [br]- No, I'm early 1:14:29.086,1:14:34.833 - I made you some coffee [br]one sweet ***, right? [br]- Right! 1:14:40.593,1:14:41.186 Thank you 1:14:43.013,1:14:45.848 Can I have a stamp for this? 1:14:45.848,1:14:49.532 that's the New York Times schoolarship! [br]you haven't mailed it yet? 1:14:49.532,1:14:52.547 - When is the dead line? [br]- Tomorrow 1:14:52.927,1:14:55.977 I gave you that 4 months ago, Liz! [br]What were you waiting for? 1:14:56.687,1:14:58.997 for today, [br]for me to turn 18 1:15:00.707,1:15:01.708 it's your birthday? 1:15:03.918,1:15:05.648 Happy birthday! 1:15:06.648,1:15:08.952 but I don't think that an age required 1:15:09.202,1:15:11.913 No, Thank you 1:15:12.703,1:15:19.201 but now I can tell the truth, [br]that I was a homeless [br]and no one could come and take me away 1:15:36.895,1:15:38.340 Lisa 1:15:41.270,1:15:43.314 Liz! 1:15:43.684,1:15:44.685 Yes 1:15:45.075,1:15:45.763 What are you doing here? 1:15:48.103,1:15:54.433 I have this interview[br]I am a finalist for a big[br]New York times scholarship 1:15:57.013,1:15:57.812 But, I don't have anything to wear 1:15:59.405,1:16:00.182 you want my cloth? 1:16:01.212,1:16:05.924 Well, nothing fancy [br]it's just .. something I can put over this 1:16:17.960,1:16:19.645 Thank you 1:16:21.172,1:16:25.027 Mom sold my coat once [br]I couldn't go to school 1:16:26.787,1:16:27.468 I remember 1:16:29.092,1:16:32.466 I cried, [br]I love going to school so much 1:16:35.230,1:16:36.957 you never went to school 1:16:38.197,1:16:40.255 how did they gave you the scholarship? 1:16:44.235,1:16:47.308 because I'm homeless [br]and I'm doing really well in school now 1:16:47.308,1:16:50.557 You are not a homeless, Liz, [br]you could stay here 1:16:53.565,1:16:57.139 No I couldn't, [br]you know that ... 1:16:57.153,1:17:00.510 Grandpap hates you !! 1:17:05.990,1:17:08.076 I'm going blind 1:17:10.016,1:17:12.310 like Mom 1:17:22.190,1:17:22.863 I'm scared 1:17:52.239,1:17:53.448 Liz! 1:17:54.238,1:17:57.486 Liz, they kicked me out of the group home [br]with all my stuff 1:17:57.486,1:17:59.282 They can't kick you out [br]you are not 18 years 1:17:59.282,1:18:04.010 then group with me in Brooklin, [br]I don't wan to go to Brooklin! [br]You have to help me! 1:18:04.014,1:18:04.534 I have an interview 1:18:05.864,1:18:07.559 - No! Liz! [br]- I have to! 1:18:07.559,1:18:09.069 - You can not leave [br]- I have to 1:18:09.069,1:18:09.891 Chris! 1:18:12.061,1:18:15.649 just let me go through this one thing, [br]and then you can go back and go to school with me 1:18:15.649,1:18:18.605 I don't want to go to school! [br]I don't belong there, [br]and either do you 1:18:19.575,1:18:20.381 Yes, I do 1:18:21.281,1:18:24.078 you think they like people like us into harvard 1:19:04.148,1:19:11.384 The world moves, [br]you just a spec., [br]it can all happen without you 1:19:12.061,1:19:15.463 situations are not conducive [br]to what you want for yourself 1:19:16.353,1:19:22.193 someone else's needs [br]someone else's plat[br]is going to be stronger than yours is 1:19:23.024,1:19:27.134 I think people just get frustrated [br]with how harsh life can be 1:19:27.134,1:19:32.071 So they spend their time [br]** on that frustrations[br]and calling it anger 1:19:32.071,1:19:35.384 keeping their eyes shut [br]from the wholes situation 1:19:35.384,1:19:42.952 to all the little tiny things [br]that have come together to make it[br]what it is? 1:19:43.332,1:19:49.180 because I was turn so inward[br]by my Mom and Dad, I got a chance to see how 1:19:49.180,1:19:54.423 all the litle tiny things [br]come together to make the final product 1:19:55.433,1:20:01.181 so, I was never ** to wonder [br]why this or why that 1:20:01.426,1:20:02.052 I knew why 1:20:03.432,1:20:08.634 not that I was happy about it, [br]in fact I was really sad about it most of the time 1:20:09.474,1:20:11.134 but I was very accepting 1:20:12.284,1:20:13.684 I was very accepting 1:20:14.824,1:20:18.780 I just always knew that I needed to get out 1:20:21.216,1:20:24.253 Is there anything else you would like to tell us? 1:20:27.503,1:20:29.399 I loved my mother, 1:20:29.742,1:20:30.827 so much .. I mean 1:20:31.487,1:20:35.477 She was a drug addict, [br]was an alcholic 1:20:36.481,1:20:40.355 she was legally blind [br]she was schizophrenic 1:20:41.226,1:20:42.286 But .. 1:20:44.156,1:20:48.441 I never forget [br]that .. she did love me 1:20:52.181,1:20:54.311 even if she did, 1:20:55.101,1:20:56.102 All the time, 1:20:57.982,1:20:59.554 All the time, 1:21:01.634,1:21:03.085 All the time ... 1:21:11.355,1:21:15.296 I hope you all know[br]how much I really need this 1:21:15.846,1:21:21.102 how I can't go to college or anything without it 1:22:08.150,1:22:13.146 she earned a 95 average and finished[br]at the top of her class of 150 1:22:13.146,1:22:16.179 she did alot completly 4 years high school [br]in 2 1:22:16.179,1:22:18.445 she did it while homeless 1:22:18.445,1:22:21.233 her mother is dead [br]her father is a drug addict and living in shelters 1:22:21.233,1:22:24.863 and anyway I can describe[br]this can't do justice to her accomplishments 1:22:24.863,1:22:29.436 So, I'll just introduce to you [br]our sixths New York time schoolarship winner 1:22:29.436,1:22:30.243 Liz Murray 1:22:39.500,1:22:40.778 everything is changed, 1:22:42.748,1:22:45.571 my life will never be the same 1:22:45.571,1:22:51.304 and I don't know what else to say except for thank you [br]thank you very much 1:22:52.754,1:22:56.495 Liz! [br]Liz, how did you do this? 1:22:57.365,1:23:01.445 How could I not do it .. [br]my parents showed me [br]what the alternative was 1:23:01.672,1:23:03.664 Didn't you even feel sorry for yourself 1:23:04.064,1:23:04.678 Sorry? 1:23:05.388,1:23:07.346 Sleeping in the subway, [br]eating out of dumpsters 1:23:09.156,1:23:11.546 that had always been my life 1:23:13.676,1:23:18.494 I really .. I feel that I get lucky [br]because any sensive security 1:23:18.494,1:23:23.108 awas pulled out from under [br]so I was forced to look forward 1:23:23.108,1:23:25.950 I had to , [br]there was no going back 1:23:26.696,1:23:29.916 And I reached the point [br]I just thought: Alrigth, 1:23:30.621,1:23:35.482 I'm gonna work as hard as I possibly can [br]and see what happens 1:23:36.572,1:23:38.714 And .. now I'm going to college 1:23:39.224,1:23:42.496 and the New York Times [br]is going to pay 1:23:45.770,1:23:52.940 So you were lucky ... but [br]is there anything you change [br]if you were able? 1:23:54.423,1:23:55.066 Yes 1:23:58.805,1:23:59.736 I'd give it back 1:24:02.401,1:24:03.300 All of it 1:24:05.029,1:24:06.959 If I could have my family back 1:24:14.089,1:24:15.188 I got into harvard, 1:24:15.688,1:24:17.675 I got a job at the New York Times, 1:24:18.696,1:24:20.962 I got an apartment 1:24:21.372,1:24:23.496 I don't have to carry my whole life with me any more 1:24:25.342,1:24:27.245 I don't have to carry my whole life with me 1:24:28.705,1:24:29.270 but I do ... 1:24:31.699,1:24:35.016 Every one I have known, [br]Everything I have done 1:24:35.566,1:24:39.899 pieces chip off, [br]I forget the little things 1:24:43.707,1:24:45.235 I had still hard to carry 1:24:46.612,1:24:47.489 alone 1:24:50.419,1:24:52.939 so that's why I told you so, 1:24:53.359,1:24:54.919 That's why I've told you my story 1:24:55.389,1:25:00.808 Now I can lay that burden down, [br]put it dressed AND... 1:25:02.438,1:25:03.762 and I can go on 1:25:09.452,1:25:11.413 Hi, Mom 1:25:38.100,1:25:42.200 Liz's father suffering from AIDS[br]and lives in his apartment 1:25:44.400,1:25:49.100 Chris has a steady job and remained good friends with liz 1:25:50.400,1:25:55.100 Liz pays the rent of her apartment[br]with the money she earned from making confrences 1:25:58.400,1:26:09.100 Liz has left Harvard in the spring of 2003.[br]she continued her studies at college.[br]She is convinced that her path will come by itself. 1:26:10.100,1:26:20.100 Downloaded From www.AllSubs.org