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Dialogue: 0,0:00:15.35,0:00:16.77,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Good afternoon.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:17.69,0:00:19.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,(Audience) Good afternoon.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:19.10,0:00:21.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Let's like take two, okay?
Dialogue: 0,0:00:21.10,0:00:22.11,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,(Laughter)
Dialogue: 0,0:00:22.11,0:00:23.21,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Good afternoon.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:23.21,0:00:24.52,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,(Audience) Good afternoon.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:24.52,0:00:25.99,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It's really good to see y'all.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:25.99,0:00:27.87,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I heard they're running a little under,
Dialogue: 0,0:00:27.87,0:00:30.46,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,so I'm just going to be greedy\Nand take the extra time.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:30.63,0:00:32.78,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And I apologize in advance\Nfor my appearance.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:32.78,0:00:35.84,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You're catching me\Non a disheveled travel day.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:35.84,0:00:37.07,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,By sheer coincidence,
Dialogue: 0,0:00:37.07,0:00:39.26,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I accepted this engagement months ago,
Dialogue: 0,0:00:39.26,0:00:43.94,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,before I knew that this week was actually\Nthe week of publication for my new book.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:43.94,0:00:48.25,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So I've been trotting all over the place,\Nessentially putting out fires,
Dialogue: 0,0:00:48.60,0:00:50.96,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,while talking, incidentally,\Nabout the book,
Dialogue: 0,0:00:50.96,0:00:54.48,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and this is just\Nwhat I look like when I travel.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:54.48,0:01:00.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So the theme today was supposed\Nto be "a sense of wonder,"
Dialogue: 0,0:01:00.70,0:01:03.71,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and I really don't have any idea\Nwhat I'm going to say.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:03.71,0:01:06.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I prepared some remarks,\Nand they were solid.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:06.20,0:01:09.27,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You know, I could probably\Nhave turned them in in graduate school
Dialogue: 0,0:01:09.27,0:01:13.42,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and gotten that A that I was always\Nso determined to get.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:13.42,0:01:15.41,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But I don't have\Nany interest in saying it.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:15.41,0:01:18.17,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,For whatever reason,\Nthe exercise was about writing it,
Dialogue: 0,0:01:18.17,0:01:21.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and I have a great woman in my life\Nnamed Tennie McCarty.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:21.10,0:01:23.99,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,She is my grandmother of choice.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:23.99,0:01:26.28,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I have a family of chance.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:26.28,0:01:28.07,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,God has a sense of humor.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:28.07,0:01:32.08,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And I also have, today,\Na family of choice.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:32.08,0:01:34.34,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And Tennie McCarty, whom I call Mennie -
Dialogue: 0,0:01:34.34,0:01:35.62,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,it's her grandmammy name -
Dialogue: 0,0:01:35.62,0:01:38.98,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,has taught me many, many things,\None of which is,
Dialogue: 0,0:01:38.98,0:01:42.57,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"What comes from the head\Ngoes straight over the head.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:42.57,0:01:46.82,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But what comes from the heart\Ngoes straight to the heart."
Dialogue: 0,0:01:47.23,0:01:50.05,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So screw the remarks -\Ncoming from the heart.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:50.98,0:01:53.42,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,A lot of people, when they think\Nof me, Ashley Judd,
Dialogue: 0,0:01:53.42,0:01:55.51,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,wonder, "What the hell happened to her?"
Dialogue: 0,0:01:55.51,0:01:57.12,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,(Laughter)
Dialogue: 0,0:01:57.12,0:01:59.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I semi-retired in 2004.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:59.90,0:02:01.65,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I did a little picture now and then,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:01.65,0:02:04.63,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,but then they'd see me in something\Nlike "Tooth Fairy" and say,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:04.63,0:02:08.28,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"I wonder what happened to her -\Nshe's gained a lot of weight."
Dialogue: 0,0:02:08.28,0:02:15.01,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Well, my financial planner wondered\Nabout the decision that I made too
Dialogue: 0,0:02:15.01,0:02:16.76,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,when I walked away from everything
Dialogue: 0,0:02:16.76,0:02:20.47,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,when, it turns out, I was actually\None of the highest paid women
Dialogue: 0,0:02:20.47,0:02:21.94,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,in the history of Hollywood -
Dialogue: 0,0:02:21.94,0:02:26.05,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,probably not adjusting for inflation,\Nbecause Mary Pickford was a big star.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:27.28,0:02:30.65,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,What happened was I was sick and tired\Nof being sick and tired.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:30.90,0:02:33.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I had no idea what was wrong with me,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:33.30,0:02:36.43,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,but I knew it all looked\Nreal good on the outside,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:36.43,0:02:39.36,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,but on the inside, I hurt.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:39.68,0:02:42.84,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And I had really no "reason" to hurt,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:42.84,0:02:46.78,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,but as it turns out,\Nas I've come to realize,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:47.10,0:02:50.43,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that I came from\Na dysfunctional family system
Dialogue: 0,0:02:50.43,0:02:52.66,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,which at times didn't work very well,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:52.66,0:02:54.92,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and the kinds of things that happened,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:54.92,0:02:57.32,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that happen in dysfunctional\Nfamily systems
Dialogue: 0,0:02:57.32,0:02:59.11,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,happen to all of us.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:59.40,0:03:02.29,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But my symptoms,\Nif you will, looked different.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:02.29,0:03:06.09,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,For example, I could be irritable\Nand unreasonable without even knowing it.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:06.51,0:03:09.38,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But fortunately,\Nsome folks identified in me
Dialogue: 0,0:03:09.38,0:03:13.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that I had been affected\Nby alcoholism and other isms,
Dialogue: 0,0:03:13.60,0:03:15.59,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and they extended me\Nthe same hope and help
Dialogue: 0,0:03:15.59,0:03:18.02,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that had been so freely given to them.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:18.33,0:03:21.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But what's so weird about all of this
Dialogue: 0,0:03:21.00,0:03:25.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,is that in 2004, when I semi-retired\Nand I started traveling the world
Dialogue: 0,0:03:25.70,0:03:27.78,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,doing feminist social justice work,
Dialogue: 0,0:03:27.78,0:03:30.22,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,public health and human rights work,
Dialogue: 0,0:03:30.22,0:03:33.55,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I wanted so earnestly\Nto be useful to my fellows.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:33.55,0:03:35.31,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I wanted to be of service,
Dialogue: 0,0:03:35.31,0:03:39.71,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and yet I was trying to give away\Nsomething that I didn't yet have.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:39.71,0:03:41.88,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So I kind of had it backwards.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:42.47,0:03:44.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,My first trip was to Cambodia.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:45.66,0:03:49.73,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I was very open-minded and very willing
Dialogue: 0,0:03:49.73,0:03:54.09,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,yet wholly unprepared\Nfor what I was about to witness.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:54.09,0:03:55.25,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,The great Mu Sochua,
Dialogue: 0,0:03:55.25,0:03:58.66,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,who has since that time\Nbeen nominated for a Nobel Peace Prize,
Dialogue: 0,0:03:58.66,0:04:01.02,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,had pulled her colleague aside and said,
Dialogue: 0,0:04:01.02,0:04:04.96,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"Let's take this bright light,\Nthis star from Hollywood,
Dialogue: 0,0:04:04.96,0:04:06.79,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,into the darkest corner of hell,"
Dialogue: 0,0:04:06.79,0:04:08.77,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and that's exactly what those women did.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:08.77,0:04:11.96,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,They took me to\Nthe child brothels of Svay Pak.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:11.96,0:04:14.26,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And I didn't know what to do
Dialogue: 0,0:04:14.26,0:04:15.79,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,except sit down
Dialogue: 0,0:04:16.13,0:04:17.31,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and open my mind
Dialogue: 0,0:04:17.31,0:04:20.53,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and open my heart and open my arms.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:20.76,0:04:24.22,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And when the first sex slave\Ncame over to me, and I said,
Dialogue: 0,0:04:24.22,0:04:26.88,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"What would you like\Nfor me to know about you?"
Dialogue: 0,0:04:27.11,0:04:32.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And he began to weep and cry\Nand tell me his story,
Dialogue: 0,0:04:32.55,0:04:33.57,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and then I said,
Dialogue: 0,0:04:33.57,0:04:35.88,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"How did you get\Nthat crazy scar on your face?"
Dialogue: 0,0:04:35.88,0:04:38.74,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And he said, "Well, the pimps,\Nwhen they were breaking me in,
Dialogue: 0,0:04:38.74,0:04:41.74,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,had a dog maul my face\Nwhile they were raping me."
Dialogue: 0,0:04:42.59,0:04:44.91,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And all of a sudden, however improbably,
Dialogue: 0,0:04:44.91,0:04:47.52,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I had been entrusted -
Dialogue: 0,0:04:47.52,0:04:49.23,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,entrusted -
Dialogue: 0,0:04:49.23,0:04:51.99,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,with this man's story
Dialogue: 0,0:04:52.09,0:04:54.98,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and of the other many things\Nthat Mennie has taught me
Dialogue: 0,0:04:54.98,0:04:58.94,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,is at the end of our lives,\Nall we have is our story.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:59.12,0:05:03.03,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And I've been given permission\Nby people all over the world -
Dialogue: 0,0:05:03.03,0:05:05.52,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,in slums and refugee camps,
Dialogue: 0,0:05:05.87,0:05:08.72,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,in hospices and makeshift schools,
Dialogue: 0,0:05:08.85,0:05:10.08,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,in clinics in buildings
Dialogue: 0,0:05:10.08,0:05:13.19,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,which in this country\Nwould be condemned structures -
Dialogue: 0,0:05:13.19,0:05:14.89,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,to share their stories with you.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:14.89,0:05:18.58,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,In fact, they have insisted\Nthat that's what I do.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:18.58,0:05:22.44,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And about that, I have a sense of wonder.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:22.64,0:05:26.32,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And they don't tell me their stories\Nbecause they know me from Hollywood.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:26.32,0:05:31.01,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,They associate Hollywood\Nwith archetypal words like "Mickey Mouse."
Dialogue: 0,0:05:31.29,0:05:33.62,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It's pretty irrelevant to them.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:34.42,0:05:39.98,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But I walk in the door\Nor through the little curtain
Dialogue: 0,0:05:39.98,0:05:44.35,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,where a lot of the sex slaves\Nin their initial phase of being broken in
Dialogue: 0,0:05:44.35,0:05:46.67,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,are brought in and kept and detained,
Dialogue: 0,0:05:46.67,0:05:47.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and something happens.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:47.90,0:05:50.11,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,They know that they're being witnessed.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:50.11,0:05:52.35,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,They know that they're being validated.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:52.35,0:05:54.08,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And even physics tell us
Dialogue: 0,0:05:54.08,0:05:58.54,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that something, when it perceives\Nit is being watched, it changes.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:58.54,0:06:03.94,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And all of a sudden, orphans\Nwho are hungry and lethargic
Dialogue: 0,0:06:03.94,0:06:07.33,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and maybe have diarrheal disease\Nfrom unsafe drinking water
Dialogue: 0,0:06:07.33,0:06:08.95,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and have parasites,
Dialogue: 0,0:06:09.23,0:06:11.33,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,they sit up a little straighter.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:11.56,0:06:14.01,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And however shyly, they begin to smile.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:14.01,0:06:16.64,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And they even reach out their hands,
Dialogue: 0,0:06:16.80,0:06:19.15,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and they begin to trust.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:19.15,0:06:23.01,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And about that, I have a sense of wonder.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:23.73,0:06:27.94,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,The first orphan I met\Nwas a precious girl named Ook Shraylock,
Dialogue: 0,0:06:27.94,0:06:32.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and she was unlike other orphans\Nin that she was really exuberant.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:32.00,0:06:34.75,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I think - the story at least\NI've made up in my head -
Dialogue: 0,0:06:34.75,0:06:38.77,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,is that she had her parents long enough\Nto have experienced some nurturing,
Dialogue: 0,0:06:39.12,0:06:40.61,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and so she had that template,
Dialogue: 0,0:06:40.61,0:06:44.53,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,she had that feeling in her body\Nof what it's like to be held
Dialogue: 0,0:06:44.53,0:06:48.69,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and to be mirthful and to have fun\Nand to really love somebody.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:48.69,0:06:52.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And she gave me the greatest gift\NI have ever been given
Dialogue: 0,0:06:52.50,0:06:55.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,because she let me love her.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:56.24,0:06:58.14,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And I held her in my arms,
Dialogue: 0,0:06:58.58,0:07:03.02,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and when it was about time for me to go\Nand she clung a little tighter,
Dialogue: 0,0:07:03.02,0:07:04.23,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and she'd let me know,
Dialogue: 0,0:07:04.23,0:07:07.32,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,she'd just give me\Nthese subtle signals in her body
Dialogue: 0,0:07:07.32,0:07:09.54,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,when she wanted me to rock her.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:09.54,0:07:14.11,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I realized that the night before,\Nthe very night before I had met her,
Dialogue: 0,0:07:14.11,0:07:18.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I had had a dream\Nabout my mamaw and my papaw,
Dialogue: 0,0:07:18.50,0:07:21.25,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,my beloved paternal grandparents.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:21.25,0:07:24.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And in that dream, my mamaw,\Nwho was always my safe person
Dialogue: 0,0:07:24.60,0:07:26.04,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and is the reason,
Dialogue: 0,0:07:26.04,0:07:27.16,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,God as my witness,
Dialogue: 0,0:07:27.16,0:07:29.03,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I am alive today,
Dialogue: 0,0:07:29.64,0:07:30.89,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,had come to me,
Dialogue: 0,0:07:30.89,0:07:33.47,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and she was so real in the dream,
Dialogue: 0,0:07:33.47,0:07:35.59,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,it was as she was in life.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:35.59,0:07:38.67,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Every little hair in her eyebrows,
Dialogue: 0,0:07:38.67,0:07:42.37,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,the sweet, little - just everything.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:42.37,0:07:45.36,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You know those dreams\Nwhere they're so real?
Dialogue: 0,0:07:45.36,0:07:48.02,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And she had held me, and she had said,
Dialogue: 0,0:07:48.60,0:07:51.07,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"The answer is in the book."
Dialogue: 0,0:07:52.04,0:07:56.07,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,What a beautifully enigmatic\Nand highly suggestive thing
Dialogue: 0,0:07:56.34,0:08:00.02,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,for this wonderful woman\Nto have told me in my dream.
Dialogue: 0,0:08:00.02,0:08:03.88,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And so holding this girl,\NI told her about my dream
Dialogue: 0,0:08:03.88,0:08:09.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and suggested that it's possible\Nfor us to renurture ourselves,
Dialogue: 0,0:08:09.83,0:08:12.24,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that when we have been loved,
Dialogue: 0,0:08:12.48,0:08:18.71,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,we can, through our imagination,\Nvicariously conjure those sensations
Dialogue: 0,0:08:19.26,0:08:22.99,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and remind ourselves\Nof our very preciousness,
Dialogue: 0,0:08:23.16,0:08:25.32,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,our intrinsic sense of worth
Dialogue: 0,0:08:25.52,0:08:30.86,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and remember that to somebody,\Nat some time, we mattered.
Dialogue: 0,0:08:31.77,0:08:34.78,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And then I told her\NI would never forget her.
Dialogue: 0,0:08:34.93,0:08:36.44,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I did not give her false hope.
Dialogue: 0,0:08:36.44,0:08:39.74,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I said, "I don't know\Nif I'll ever see you again,
Dialogue: 0,0:08:40.13,0:08:42.41,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,but I will tell your story."
Dialogue: 0,0:08:44.90,0:08:47.53,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And that I have this strange platform,
Dialogue: 0,0:08:48.04,0:08:54.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,given to me in a culture and in a media\Nthat I don't even pretend to understand,
Dialogue: 0,0:08:54.75,0:08:57.98,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,in which I could bring to you her story
Dialogue: 0,0:08:58.90,0:09:02.47,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,is something about which I wonder a lot.
Dialogue: 0,0:09:03.15,0:09:05.84,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And when I get too caught up in my head,
Dialogue: 0,0:09:06.42,0:09:08.58,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I remember what Mennie said:
Dialogue: 0,0:09:08.58,0:09:11.46,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"What comes from the head\Ngoes over the head."
Dialogue: 0,0:09:11.81,0:09:17.63,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And I make that recommitment to take\Nthe most difficult journey I ever take,
Dialogue: 0,0:09:17.82,0:09:24.18,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,the one that is more harrowing\Nas the roads in Congo,
Dialogue: 0,0:09:25.08,0:09:28.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,the one to here, my heart.
Dialogue: 0,0:09:28.68,0:09:33.62,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I do a lot of horizontal travel,\Nand it takes planning.
Dialogue: 0,0:09:34.70,0:09:37.69,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,There's the passports\Nand the visa and the bureaucracy,
Dialogue: 0,0:09:37.69,0:09:39.93,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,all the inoculations,
Dialogue: 0,0:09:39.93,0:09:43.85,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,making sure that everything\Nis set up on the ground, that it's safe.
Dialogue: 0,0:09:44.60,0:09:47.82,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But there's nothing more important\Nthan the vertical journey,
Dialogue: 0,0:09:47.82,0:09:49.73,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and it is this one here
Dialogue: 0,0:09:49.73,0:09:55.06,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that enables all the other traveling\Nto happen and to have meaning,
Dialogue: 0,0:09:55.41,0:09:58.27,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,for it is from this place, ultimately,
Dialogue: 0,0:09:58.27,0:10:02.52,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that meaning is constructed\Nand that change happens.
Dialogue: 0,0:10:04.33,0:10:05.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Where's the timer?
Dialogue: 0,0:10:06.76,0:10:08.02,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,How am I doing?
Dialogue: 0,0:10:08.02,0:10:09.09,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,(Man) Great.
Dialogue: 0,0:10:09.09,0:10:11.89,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Well, I know I'm doing great,\Nbut how much time do I have?
Dialogue: 0,0:10:11.89,0:10:13.26,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,(Laughter)
Dialogue: 0,0:10:14.93,0:10:16.52,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You walked right into that, pal.
Dialogue: 0,0:10:16.52,0:10:17.76,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I have seven more minutes?
Dialogue: 0,0:10:17.76,0:10:19.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Wooh! I'm just getting started.
Dialogue: 0,0:10:19.80,0:10:20.92,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,(Laughter)
Dialogue: 0,0:10:22.72,0:10:27.98,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So that first day, when I was in Svay Pak,
Dialogue: 0,0:10:29.07,0:10:30.11,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,for my next trip
Dialogue: 0,0:10:30.11,0:10:33.76,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I went to the Genocide Museum\Nin Phnom Penh,
Dialogue: 0,0:10:34.06,0:10:38.03,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and I saw, briefly
Dialogue: 0,0:10:38.03,0:10:42.96,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and only to the level which a person\Nof privilege like I can absorb it,
Dialogue: 0,0:10:42.96,0:10:47.99,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,what it would have been like\Nto live in a genocidal and murderous time
Dialogue: 0,0:10:48.27,0:10:51.43,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,under the lunatic Pol Pot.
Dialogue: 0,0:10:52.65,0:10:57.81,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And a man who had survived that era,\Nwho was a doctor, told me
Dialogue: 0,0:10:57.81,0:11:03.51,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that for the duration of the Khmer Rouge,\Nhe pretended to be an illiterate peasant
Dialogue: 0,0:11:03.51,0:11:08.74,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,because the educated classes\Nwere all massacred.
Dialogue: 0,0:11:09.09,0:11:12.68,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And he talked about what\Nan anguishing choice that was for him
Dialogue: 0,0:11:12.68,0:11:14.53,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,because he could be sitting or standing
Dialogue: 0,0:11:14.53,0:11:17.32,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,alongside one whose life\Nhe could have saved,
Dialogue: 0,0:11:17.32,0:11:20.74,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,but it would have potentially\Ncost him his own
Dialogue: 0,0:11:20.74,0:11:24.78,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,if he had betrayed his education.
Dialogue: 0,0:11:25.50,0:11:30.34,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And I said, "What ... did you ..."
Dialogue: 0,0:11:31.01,0:11:32.72,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I mean, what do you say to someone
Dialogue: 0,0:11:32.72,0:11:38.68,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,who's describing going through\Na regime like that?
Dialogue: 0,0:11:38.100,0:11:41.86,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And he said, "I used to take rocks
Dialogue: 0,0:11:41.86,0:11:45.22,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and on the ground spell out S-O-S
Dialogue: 0,0:11:45.22,0:11:50.39,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and hope that the Americans\Nflying overhead would see the SOS
Dialogue: 0,0:11:50.39,0:11:51.95,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and help us."
Dialogue: 0,0:11:52.72,0:11:55.38,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,We were busy bombing Laos [inaudible].
Dialogue: 0,0:11:55.88,0:11:58.88,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So when I went that night\Nto the American ambassador's residence
Dialogue: 0,0:11:58.88,0:12:03.61,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,to make the remarks and meet\Nthe high-ranking ministers of government,
Dialogue: 0,0:12:03.61,0:12:05.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I said to him, "Where were we?
Dialogue: 0,0:12:05.50,0:12:11.37,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Why did the United States allow,\Nat times even contribute to this?"
Dialogue: 0,0:12:11.37,0:12:15.94,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And he was a really lovely guy,
Dialogue: 0,0:12:15.94,0:12:19.36,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,rather honest fellow and diplomatic.
Dialogue: 0,0:12:19.36,0:12:22.59,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,He said, "We were in rectal defilade."
Dialogue: 0,0:12:22.59,0:12:24.28,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,(Laughter)
Dialogue: 0,0:12:24.28,0:12:29.99,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,When I got back to my hotel room,\NI was so astounded and shattered.
Dialogue: 0,0:12:29.99,0:12:33.57,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I didn't have anywhere in my brain\Nto put this information;
Dialogue: 0,0:12:33.57,0:12:35.02,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I was so flooded.
Dialogue: 0,0:12:35.02,0:12:37.28,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And my heart was just absolutely broken.
Dialogue: 0,0:12:37.28,0:12:41.14,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I mean, remember, I came into the work\Nwith kind of a broken heart to begin with.
Dialogue: 0,0:12:41.14,0:12:44.58,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,There was a reason\Nwhy I was attracted to trauma.
Dialogue: 0,0:12:44.58,0:12:47.98,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,There was a reason why I intuited
Dialogue: 0,0:12:47.98,0:12:52.12,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I had a very strange capacity\Nfor emotional extremes.
Dialogue: 0,0:12:52.12,0:12:55.94,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,How many of you want to go\Nto refugee camps for your next vacation?
Dialogue: 0,0:12:55.94,0:12:59.16,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It is my idea of fun in a perverse way.
Dialogue: 0,0:12:59.49,0:13:00.76,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So back at my hotel room,
Dialogue: 0,0:13:00.76,0:13:02.57,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I remember being like -
Dialogue: 0,0:13:02.93,0:13:07.71,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,spinning in these little circles,\Nnot even knowing where to turn,
Dialogue: 0,0:13:07.71,0:13:08.99,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,so I did what I do best
Dialogue: 0,0:13:08.99,0:13:11.02,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,because I'm compulsive about the internet,
Dialogue: 0,0:13:11.02,0:13:12.39,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and I checked my email.
Dialogue: 0,0:13:12.39,0:13:15.17,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And I had an email from a friend\Nhere in town, Cathy Lewis.
Dialogue: 0,0:13:15.17,0:13:18.45,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,She's a remarkable chef,\Nand she was asking me about the food.
Dialogue: 0,0:13:18.45,0:13:20.47,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Very innocent, travel-type questions,
Dialogue: 0,0:13:20.47,0:13:22.29,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and, you know, she had some concern
Dialogue: 0,0:13:22.29,0:13:26.29,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,about American franchising\Npushing out local, cultural institutions,
Dialogue: 0,0:13:26.29,0:13:29.42,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and she said, "Oh, gosh.\NIs there any Starbucks yet?"
Dialogue: 0,0:13:29.50,0:13:31.48,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And I was just aggressive.
Dialogue: 0,0:13:31.48,0:13:32.72,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,(Laughter)
Dialogue: 0,0:13:32.72,0:13:36.03,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And I said, "No,\Nthere's not any Starbucks yet.
Dialogue: 0,0:13:36.03,0:13:38.19,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,There's just intergenerational trauma,
Dialogue: 0,0:13:38.26,0:13:40.25,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,sexual exploitation,
Dialogue: 0,0:13:40.44,0:13:43.45,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,agonizing deaths of children\Nthrough starvation,
Dialogue: 0,0:13:43.45,0:13:45.56,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,some really screwed up\Nimmigration policies
Dialogue: 0,0:13:45.56,0:13:47.37,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,from the United States
Dialogue: 0,0:13:47.37,0:13:50.73,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,where we're sending survivors\Nof the Khmer Rouge's children -
Dialogue: 0,0:13:50.73,0:13:54.05,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,we're deporting them back\Nto a country that they don't know,
Dialogue: 0,0:13:54.05,0:13:59.38,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,because of little, stupid\Nimmigration things.
Dialogue: 0,0:14:00.85,0:14:04.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And the next thing I knew,\Nshe wrote me back, and she said,
Dialogue: 0,0:14:04.80,0:14:07.44,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"I am praying for you."
Dialogue: 0,0:14:09.19,0:14:13.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And she asked my permission to send\Nthat diary to other friends and family
Dialogue: 0,0:14:13.50,0:14:15.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,who would support me spiritually
Dialogue: 0,0:14:15.40,0:14:19.23,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,while I continued to take\Nthis improbable journey.
Dialogue: 0,0:14:20.15,0:14:23.14,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And the next day and the next week
Dialogue: 0,0:14:23.14,0:14:24.92,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and the next country -
Dialogue: 0,0:14:24.92,0:14:26.97,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And all of a sudden
Dialogue: 0,0:14:26.97,0:14:29.22,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I'd been to 13 countries around the world,
Dialogue: 0,0:14:29.22,0:14:31.55,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I'd been to Congo\Nand Rwanda multiple times,
Dialogue: 0,0:14:31.78,0:14:36.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and I had written 650 pages\Nof those diaries.
Dialogue: 0,0:14:36.81,0:14:40.08,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And that is the book\Nthat was published this week.
Dialogue: 0,0:14:40.55,0:14:43.46,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And in those diaries,\NI tell many stories -
Dialogue: 0,0:14:43.46,0:14:45.88,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,because that's really all that they are
Dialogue: 0,0:14:45.88,0:14:50.72,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,is a way for me to have received,
Dialogue: 0,0:14:50.72,0:14:52.31,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,like a sacrament,
Dialogue: 0,0:14:52.31,0:14:56.18,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,an exploited and disempowered\Nperson's story
Dialogue: 0,0:14:57.30,0:14:59.84,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and celebrate with you
Dialogue: 0,0:14:59.84,0:15:04.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,not only their narrative of trauma
Dialogue: 0,0:15:04.00,0:15:09.02,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,but to tell you how beautiful they are
Dialogue: 0,0:15:09.15,0:15:13.08,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and how resilient, how creative,
Dialogue: 0,0:15:13.49,0:15:19.51,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and the ingenuity of the poor\Nis mind-blowing.
Dialogue: 0,0:15:22.16,0:15:23.100,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Such a woman is Kika.
Dialogue: 0,0:15:23.100,0:15:27.21,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I met Kika recently\Nwhen I was in eastern Congo.
Dialogue: 0,0:15:27.67,0:15:31.91,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,She had crawled\Nto the Panzi Clinic in Bukavu.
Dialogue: 0,0:15:32.41,0:15:33.55,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,She sat very straight.
Dialogue: 0,0:15:33.55,0:15:35.81,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,She was a fierce kind of a tender woman.
Dialogue: 0,0:15:35.81,0:15:37.29,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,She would often dissociate,
Dialogue: 0,0:15:37.29,0:15:41.35,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,but when she was present, she was magical.
Dialogue: 0,0:15:42.12,0:15:46.95,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And I said, "How did you get here?"
Dialogue: 0,0:15:46.95,0:15:48.52,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And she said, "Well, I crawled."
Dialogue: 0,0:15:48.52,0:15:50.55,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I didn't think\NI was hearing her correctly,
Dialogue: 0,0:15:50.55,0:15:53.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,so I said, "What would you\Nlike for me to know about your story?"
Dialogue: 0,0:15:53.60,0:15:56.23,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And she said, "Well,\NI was fetching water one day,
Dialogue: 0,0:15:56.23,0:15:58.98,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and I was attacked by armed militia
Dialogue: 0,0:15:58.98,0:16:02.52,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,who rove the area exploiting\Nmy country's vast mineral wealth."
Dialogue: 0,0:16:02.52,0:16:03.73,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Minerals, by the way,
Dialogue: 0,0:16:03.73,0:16:08.28,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,in the very computer that I used\Nto type up my remarks for today.
Dialogue: 0,0:16:08.28,0:16:09.28,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,She said,
Dialogue: 0,0:16:09.28,0:16:10.100,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"When they attacked me, I screamed,
Dialogue: 0,0:16:10.100,0:16:14.34,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and I screamed loudly enough\Nthat my brother heard me and came running.
Dialogue: 0,0:16:14.34,0:16:16.63,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And when he got there,\Nthey heckled him and said,
Dialogue: 0,0:16:16.63,0:16:21.49,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"Oh, ha. Now that you're here,\Nrape your sister."
Dialogue: 0,0:16:21.49,0:16:22.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And he said, "I will not."
Dialogue: 0,0:16:22.90,0:16:25.28,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And they said, "Oh yes, you will.
Dialogue: 0,0:16:25.28,0:16:26.93,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Rape your sister."
Dialogue: 0,0:16:26.93,0:16:28.76,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And he said, "I cannot.
Dialogue: 0,0:16:28.76,0:16:30.27,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,She is like my mother."
Dialogue: 0,0:16:30.27,0:16:33.38,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So they stabbed him to death\Nwith their bayonets in front of Kika,
Dialogue: 0,0:16:33.38,0:16:35.01,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,gang-raped her multiple times.
Dialogue: 0,0:16:35.01,0:16:37.44,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And when the villagers came\Nafter it was over,
Dialogue: 0,0:16:37.44,0:16:40.32,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,they carried their bodies -\Nhis dead and hers broken -
Dialogue: 0,0:16:40.47,0:16:41.42,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,back to the hut.
Dialogue: 0,0:16:41.42,0:16:43.03,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But after two weeks,
Dialogue: 0,0:16:43.03,0:16:45.46,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Kika smelled so bad\Nfrom her internal injuries
Dialogue: 0,0:16:45.46,0:16:46.46,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that they said,
Dialogue: 0,0:16:46.46,0:16:49.24,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"We're sorry, Kika, but you've got to go."
Dialogue: 0,0:16:49.24,0:16:51.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And that was when she,\Nwith her 11-year-old son,
Dialogue: 0,0:16:51.50,0:16:53.95,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,began to crawl to the Panzi Clinic.
Dialogue: 0,0:16:53.95,0:16:55.12,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It took her a month.
Dialogue: 0,0:16:55.12,0:16:56.53,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And I said, "Crawl?"
Dialogue: 0,0:16:56.53,0:16:57.98,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And she said,
Dialogue: 0,0:17:00.24,0:17:03.61,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,pedaling the air,\Nshowing me how she crawled.
Dialogue: 0,0:17:05.54,0:17:08.38,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And I when I said, "Kika,\Nhow have you done this?
Dialogue: 0,0:17:08.80,0:17:10.31,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,How have you done this?"
Dialogue: 0,0:17:10.31,0:17:12.55,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,she would just bend\Nimperceptibly at the waist
Dialogue: 0,0:17:12.55,0:17:14.29,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,when she talked about her brother
Dialogue: 0,0:17:14.29,0:17:18.22,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and used her cloth from the kitchen\Nto silently mop her tears.
Dialogue: 0,0:17:18.22,0:17:19.33,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And she said,
Dialogue: 0,0:17:19.33,0:17:22.96,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"When I arrived at Panzi\Nand I was nearly dead,
Dialogue: 0,0:17:22.96,0:17:24.74,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,they did not abandon me.
Dialogue: 0,0:17:24.74,0:17:29.02,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And when I did not get well,\Nthey did not abandon me.
Dialogue: 0,0:17:29.02,0:17:30.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And when I could not go home
Dialogue: 0,0:17:30.50,0:17:33.85,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,because my area is instable\Nand my trauma too bad,
Dialogue: 0,0:17:33.85,0:17:35.38,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,they did not abandon me.
Dialogue: 0,0:17:35.38,0:17:39.84,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And when I did get a little better,\Nthey found me a job in the kitchen,
Dialogue: 0,0:17:39.84,0:17:42.94,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and they did not abandon me."
Dialogue: 0,0:17:43.06,0:17:44.46,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And I told her that day,
Dialogue: 0,0:17:44.46,0:17:47.24,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"Kika, in my own way, however small,
Dialogue: 0,0:17:47.24,0:17:48.38,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,with God as my witness,
Dialogue: 0,0:17:48.38,0:17:50.95,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I will not abandon you."
Dialogue: 0,0:17:55.60,0:18:00.43,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,There are simple, cost-effective,\Ngrassroots programs
Dialogue: 0,0:18:00.43,0:18:04.79,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,operated within local contexts\Nby survivors like Kika
Dialogue: 0,0:18:04.79,0:18:09.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that disrupt cycles\Nof poverty and violence.
Dialogue: 0,0:18:10.17,0:18:12.19,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,They make a difference,
Dialogue: 0,0:18:12.19,0:18:15.06,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and I have an enormous sense\Nof awe and wonder
Dialogue: 0,0:18:15.06,0:18:20.54,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,about the people who persevere\Nwhen the world seems so senseless.
Dialogue: 0,0:18:20.66,0:18:23.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It is hard work; it is grueling.
Dialogue: 0,0:18:23.10,0:18:28.06,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And there have been times\Nwhen I was debilitated with grief.
Dialogue: 0,0:18:28.06,0:18:31.24,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But when I remember\NKika and Ook Shreylock,
Dialogue: 0,0:18:31.24,0:18:33.89,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and I connect between my head and my heart
Dialogue: 0,0:18:33.89,0:18:37.38,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and take my own vertical journey
Dialogue: 0,0:18:41.06,0:18:44.97,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and show up at places like this\Non sunny spring days
Dialogue: 0,0:18:44.97,0:18:46.92,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,with people like you,
Dialogue: 0,0:18:46.92,0:18:48.71,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,who could be out enjoying
Dialogue: 0,0:18:48.71,0:18:52.64,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,everything that middle Tennessee\Nhas to offer on the ninth of May
Dialogue: 0,0:18:52.82,0:18:57.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,but instead share with me\Nin the sacred narratives of these people.
Dialogue: 0,0:18:58.52,0:19:01.47,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I feel a sense of wonder about that too.
Dialogue: 0,0:19:02.39,0:19:04.36,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And now you know,
Dialogue: 0,0:19:04.36,0:19:07.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and with knowing comes responsibility.
Dialogue: 0,0:19:07.98,0:19:11.42,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,When you walk out of here,\Nyou have a choice:
Dialogue: 0,0:19:12.35,0:19:14.68,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Will you abandon Kika?
Dialogue: 0,0:19:16.14,0:19:19.88,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Or will you allow yourself\Nto be vulnerable enough
Dialogue: 0,0:19:20.24,0:19:23.98,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,to have witnessed,\Nto have seen, to have validated?
Dialogue: 0,0:19:23.98,0:19:27.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It is the birthright of every child\Nto be listened to.
Dialogue: 0,0:19:29.57,0:19:35.14,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Will you allow yourself\Nto be recruited to her welfare?
Dialogue: 0,0:19:35.62,0:19:40.45,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Because that's the risk that comes\Nwith having a sense of wonder
Dialogue: 0,0:19:41.69,0:19:46.86,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and being willing\Nto witness and to validate.
Dialogue: 0,0:19:53.28,0:19:55.92,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Thanks for letting me share\Nwith you today.
Dialogue: 0,0:19:55.92,0:19:57.49,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I appreciate your time.
Dialogue: 0,0:19:57.49,0:19:59.32,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,(Applause)