I think before I was more prone to
fixing feelings and fixing needs in for

example a violent way or a negative way
something that would impede either my

progress as a person or someone else's
and the after would be figuring out how

to let someone know what's going on with
me so I can advance as a man become a

better person through knowing what those
feelings are well I mean that grew up in

an alcoholic abusive household so from
the time i can remember i was getting

hit and then when I was it a teenager I
started training mixed martial arts and

progressed as a young adult to semi
professional fights and so my whole life

has pretty much dominantly been enforced
by violence

it was a way to solve problems it was
way to express yourself and this has

helped me realize that those can be
fixed without violence violence doesn't

do anything but cause more problems and
so for me this is allowed me to not need

to pursue violence not need to have it
as a background in case I needed

I don't need violence nobody does this
world is about expressing who we are and

what we need to each other so we can
grow together