I think before I was more prone to fixing feelings and fixing needs in for
example a violent way or a negative way something that would impede either my
progress as a person or someone else's and the after would be figuring out how
to let someone know what's going on with me so I can advance as a man become a
better person through knowing what those feelings are well I mean that grew up in
an alcoholic abusive household so from the time i can remember i was getting
hit and then when I was it a teenager I started training mixed martial arts and
progressed as a young adult to semi professional fights and so my whole life
has pretty much dominantly been enforced by violence
it was a way to solve problems it was way to express yourself and this has
helped me realize that those can be fixed without violence violence doesn't
do anything but cause more problems and so for me this is allowed me to not need
to pursue violence not need to have it as a background in case I needed
I don't need violence nobody does this world is about expressing who we are and
what we need to each other so we can grow together