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I think before I was more prone to[br]fixing feelings and fixing needs in for

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example a violent way or a negative way[br]something that would impede either my

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progress as a person or someone else's[br]and the after would be figuring out how

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to let someone know what's going on with[br]me so I can advance as a man become a

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better person through knowing what those[br]feelings are well I mean that grew up in

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an alcoholic abusive household so from[br]the time i can remember i was getting

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hit and then when I was it a teenager I[br]started training mixed martial arts and

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progressed as a young adult to semi[br]professional fights and so my whole life

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has pretty much dominantly been enforced[br]by violence

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it was a way to solve problems it was[br]way to express yourself and this has

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helped me realize that those can be[br]fixed without violence violence doesn't

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do anything but cause more problems and[br]so for me this is allowed me to not need

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to pursue violence not need to have it[br]as a background in case I needed

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I don't need violence nobody does this[br]world is about expressing who we are and

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what we need to each other so we can[br]grow together