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Dialogue: 0,0:00:22.04,0:00:24.83,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I've been feeling\Na little nostalgic lately.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:24.83,0:00:28.11,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,These past few days, I've been reminiscing\Nabout my time as an intern,
Dialogue: 0,0:00:28.11,0:00:29.82,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,how different the pace was then.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:29.82,0:00:33.81,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I remember I would arrive at the office,\Npress the button on the computer,
Dialogue: 0,0:00:33.81,0:00:36.36,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and it would take a while to turn on.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:36.36,0:00:39.15,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And I still had to connect\Nto the internet.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:39.15,0:00:44.52,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I worked in the communications department\Nand dealt with large image files,
Dialogue: 0,0:00:44.52,0:00:48.21,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and every time I had to save an image,
Dialogue: 0,0:00:48.21,0:00:52.36,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I'd get up and get a cup of coffee\Nor chat to people,
Dialogue: 0,0:00:52.76,0:00:54.32,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,because it took so long.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:54.96,0:00:58.87,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Then, suddenly, everything changed.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:58.87,0:01:04.14,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,The world became fast-paced,\Nuncertain, complex, and ambiguous.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:04.14,0:01:05.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,The demands increased,
Dialogue: 0,0:01:05.60,0:01:10.57,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and with them, the need\Nto do things faster and faster.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:10.57,0:01:13.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And I tried to keep up with the pace.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:13.40,0:01:18.21,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,The only thing I didn't expect\Nwas I would be forced to take a pause,
Dialogue: 0,0:01:18.21,0:01:20.22,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,against my will.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:20.22,0:01:22.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I was in a rising career abroad
Dialogue: 0,0:01:22.90,0:01:26.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,when I was caught off-guard\Nby an unexpected psychiatric diagnosis.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:26.60,0:01:28.98,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,In March of 2005,
Dialogue: 0,0:01:28.98,0:01:34.14,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder\Nwith psychotic features.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:34.14,0:01:38.57,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,At first, the situation didn't look good;\Nthe outlook even less.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:38.57,0:01:40.15,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I even had a doctor
Dialogue: 0,0:01:40.15,0:01:42.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,who said that I should retire\Nand go on disability.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:43.05,0:01:48.04,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Imagine this: I was in my early 30s\Nwith so much life ahead of me
Dialogue: 0,0:01:48.70,0:01:52.22,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,when my life came to a sudden halt.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:52.22,0:01:53.99,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,In the case of bipolar disorder,
Dialogue: 0,0:01:53.99,0:01:56.71,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I have two distinctive behavior states:
Dialogue: 0,0:01:56.71,0:01:59.26,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,one is depression,\Nand the other is euphoria,
Dialogue: 0,0:01:59.26,0:02:01.82,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,which was previously called mania.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:02.40,0:02:05.82,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,The euphoric phase was an energy\Nunlike anything I'd ever experienced.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:05.82,0:02:08.05,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I remember going to the office
Dialogue: 0,0:02:08.05,0:02:11.55,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and working late into the night,\Nonly to come home and continue working
Dialogue: 0,0:02:11.55,0:02:14.49,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,as if it were the most\Nnormal thing in the world.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:14.49,0:02:18.10,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,That was until my boss\Nsaid to me, "Dyene, slow down,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:18.10,0:02:21.91,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,the other departments\Ncan't keep up with your demands."
Dialogue: 0,0:02:21.91,0:02:26.02,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Then I started to get worse,\Nand I couldn't see things properly.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:26.33,0:02:30.29,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It was like I had stuck my face\Nout the window of a fast-moving car,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:30.29,0:02:32.89,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and I couldn't distinguish\Nthe objects properly.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:32.89,0:02:37.08,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I once looked at the fridge\Nand saw moving shapes and colors.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:37.08,0:02:41.18,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I still occasionally look at the fridge\Nto make sure it's still in its place.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:41.57,0:02:43.79,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,At times, it affected my hearing too.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:43.79,0:02:46.68,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I'd hear things\Nthat no one else could hear,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:46.68,0:02:51.56,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,like a basketball\Nbouncing incessantly next to me.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:52.14,0:02:56.84,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,My biggest fear at that time\Nwas that I would gradually go crazy,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:56.84,0:02:59.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,until I was no longer myself at all.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:59.50,0:03:03.22,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And after all this euphoric energy,
Dialogue: 0,0:03:03.22,0:03:06.44,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I would fall into\Nan overwhelming depression.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:06.44,0:03:10.12,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,That phase was very difficult.\NI felt like an invalid.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:10.12,0:03:13.73,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I would cry all day\Nfor no apparent reason.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:14.24,0:03:17.96,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I remember once we threw\Na birthday party for my husband,
Dialogue: 0,0:03:17.96,0:03:20.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and I couldn't get out of bed.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:20.30,0:03:23.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I remember that I prayed,\Nbegged, and bargained,
Dialogue: 0,0:03:23.60,0:03:25.67,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,but my body wouldn't respond.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:25.67,0:03:27.33,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,That was very strange
Dialogue: 0,0:03:27.33,0:03:30.78,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,because I have always been\Nan extremely sociable person,
Dialogue: 0,0:03:30.78,0:03:36.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and acting that way was very unlike me.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:37.02,0:03:41.61,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,At times like this, I'd feel really guilty
Dialogue: 0,0:03:41.61,0:03:44.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,for not being able to do things so easily.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:45.17,0:03:46.87,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And along with the guilt,
Dialogue: 0,0:03:46.87,0:03:52.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,there was shame, sadness,\Nand tremendous agony.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:52.62,0:03:55.89,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And that agony continued to escalate
Dialogue: 0,0:03:56.45,0:04:00.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,until I wanted to sleep\Nand never wake up again.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:00.80,0:04:03.62,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I even started planning\Nmy "disappearance" -
Dialogue: 0,0:04:03.62,0:04:05.37,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,if you know what I mean.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:05.37,0:04:07.36,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,When I told this to my therapist,
Dialogue: 0,0:04:07.36,0:04:09.77,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,she said, "Dyene, this is very dangerous.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:09.77,0:04:11.95,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You're having suicidal thoughts."
Dialogue: 0,0:04:11.95,0:04:13.68,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And that word I know well
Dialogue: 0,0:04:13.68,0:04:17.57,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,because my grandmother\Ncommitted suicide at the age of 56.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:17.57,0:04:20.31,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,She had also suffered\Nfrom bipolar disorder.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:20.31,0:04:24.63,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So my therapist suggested\Nthat I go to a psychiatric hospital.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:24.63,0:04:28.44,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,The term "psychiatric hospital" \Nis enough to scare anyone.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:28.44,0:04:31.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But what scares me the most
Dialogue: 0,0:04:31.50,0:04:34.46,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,is the stigma, the prejudice,
Dialogue: 0,0:04:34.46,0:04:38.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,because that's what prevents people\Nfrom seeking appropriate treatment.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:39.31,0:04:40.68,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I went to the hospital
Dialogue: 0,0:04:40.68,0:04:44.28,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,where I had people\Nassessing me 24 hours a day:
Dialogue: 0,0:04:44.28,0:04:47.37,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,professionals, competent doctors.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:47.37,0:04:49.81,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,This really helped my recovery.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:49.81,0:04:53.65,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,When I left the hospital,\NI think what helped me the most
Dialogue: 0,0:04:53.65,0:04:57.83,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,was being able to count on the support\Nand unconditional love of my family.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:58.31,0:05:01.89,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I remember once, at the hospital,\NI told my husband,
Dialogue: 0,0:05:01.89,0:05:05.94,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"Darling, if you want\Nto divorce me, I'll understand.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:05.94,0:05:09.24,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I have nothing to offer you right now."
Dialogue: 0,0:05:09.24,0:05:12.73,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And he said to me, "You're crazy\Nif you think I'll divorce you!"
Dialogue: 0,0:05:12.73,0:05:13.100,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,To which I replied,
Dialogue: 0,0:05:13.100,0:05:17.07,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"Well, the fact that I'm crazy\Nhas been proven -
Dialogue: 0,0:05:17.07,0:05:19.74,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,we're in a psychiatric hospital!"
Dialogue: 0,0:05:19.74,0:05:24.11,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And as time passed,\Nmy desire to improve continued,
Dialogue: 0,0:05:24.11,0:05:27.49,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and I started to visualize my recovery,
Dialogue: 0,0:05:27.49,0:05:29.89,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,which was nothing more\Nthan an optimistic view
Dialogue: 0,0:05:29.89,0:05:31.44,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,of who I wanted to be.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:31.44,0:05:36.77,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I imagined myself studying, working,\Ndoing the things I've always enjoyed.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:36.77,0:05:40.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And I remember it was January of 2007
Dialogue: 0,0:05:40.50,0:05:42.69,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that I decided to make\Na New Year's resolution.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:42.69,0:05:46.66,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I wrote down on paper that I would make\Nthe impossible possible -
Dialogue: 0,0:05:46.66,0:05:52.86,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I would commit myself\Nto overcoming this disorder.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:53.40,0:05:57.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,At that time, I had started reading\Nall of the books on bipolar disorder.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:57.70,0:05:59.54,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I read all the biographies.
Dialogue: 0,0:05:59.54,0:06:03.63,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And what I learned during that time\Nis that the pauses aren't permanent.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:03.63,0:06:06.28,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,In fact, pauses are\Nan excellent opportunity
Dialogue: 0,0:06:06.28,0:06:11.74,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,to discover a reservoir of potential\Nthat we don't even know we have.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:12.24,0:06:13.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And in some ways,
Dialogue: 0,0:06:13.40,0:06:18.54,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I think we're all experiencing\Nan imposed pause because of COVID-19.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:18.54,0:06:20.89,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It's a very painful time.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:20.89,0:06:23.01,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But I think if we pay attention,
Dialogue: 0,0:06:23.01,0:06:26.29,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,we'll be able to draw\Nvery rich lessons from it
Dialogue: 0,0:06:26.29,0:06:28.04,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,in this very difficult moment.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:28.04,0:06:30.19,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Deep down, everything\Nstarts from within us.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:30.19,0:06:32.71,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It's not external factors\Nthat generate stress
Dialogue: 0,0:06:32.71,0:06:35.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,but how we deal\Nwith these external factors.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:35.40,0:06:37.37,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I pay a lot of attention to my stress
Dialogue: 0,0:06:37.37,0:06:40.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,because it can be a trigger\Nfor my bipolar symptoms.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:40.00,0:06:43.19,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And depression and bipolar disorder\Nare very serious illnesses.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:43.19,0:06:44.56,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,According to WHO,
Dialogue: 0,0:06:44.56,0:06:47.71,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,depression is the biggest cause\Nof disability in the world,
Dialogue: 0,0:06:47.71,0:06:50.01,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and Oxford researchers have found
Dialogue: 0,0:06:50.01,0:06:52.32,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that life expectancy\Nis 9 to 20 years shorter
Dialogue: 0,0:06:52.32,0:06:55.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,for those with bipolar disorder.
Dialogue: 0,0:06:55.90,0:06:59.92,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And I always ask myself,\N"How I can stay out of those statistics?"
Dialogue: 0,0:07:00.58,0:07:05.28,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,The first thing is knowing\Nthat I'm not cured but stabilized.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:05.28,0:07:09.79,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,This makes adherence\Nto my treatment even greater.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:09.79,0:07:13.07,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And I also think it has a lot to do\Nwith personal responsibility,
Dialogue: 0,0:07:13.07,0:07:16.73,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,which is my own commitment\Nto my mental health
Dialogue: 0,0:07:16.73,0:07:20.69,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,in adopting long-term healthy habits.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:20.69,0:07:23.49,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It may seem strange for someone\Nwho has a mental disorder
Dialogue: 0,0:07:23.49,0:07:26.98,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,to come here and talk to you\Nabout balance and healthy living,
Dialogue: 0,0:07:26.98,0:07:28.88,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,but it makes all the sense in the world.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:28.88,0:07:31.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Maintaining my mental health\Nis not an option for me -
Dialogue: 0,0:07:31.40,0:07:33.08,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,it's a matter of life and death.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:33.08,0:07:34.59,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,If I don't take care of myself,
Dialogue: 0,0:07:34.59,0:07:39.96,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,my probability of committing suicide\Nincreases exponentially.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:40.34,0:07:41.86,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,That's why I came here today
Dialogue: 0,0:07:41.86,0:07:45.34,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,to share the five steps I take\Nto complement my treatment.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:45.34,0:07:47.08,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I'll give you an example.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:47.08,0:07:51.55,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Remember I said that when I was euphoric\Nmy thoughts were extremely fast?
Dialogue: 0,0:07:52.53,0:07:54.35,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,This happened a lot.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:54.35,0:07:57.78,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I think that our habit\Nof staying constantly busy
Dialogue: 0,0:07:57.78,0:07:59.88,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,is an addictive adrenaline rush.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:59.88,0:08:02.26,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Then, at the end of the day,\Nwe think to ourselves,
Dialogue: 0,0:08:02.26,0:08:04.15,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"Wow, I've worked so hard,
Dialogue: 0,0:08:04.15,0:08:06.53,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,but I feel like\NI've accomplished nothing."
Dialogue: 0,0:08:06.98,0:08:11.79,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Stanford researchers\Nfound that, when we multitask,
Dialogue: 0,0:08:11.79,0:08:15.83,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,our efficiency and productivity drop.
Dialogue: 0,0:08:15.83,0:08:18.50,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Our brain is a lot like a computer.
Dialogue: 0,0:08:18.50,0:08:21.62,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You know when you leave\Nall the tabs open on a computer?
Dialogue: 0,0:08:21.62,0:08:23.42,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Our brains are the same.
Dialogue: 0,0:08:23.42,0:08:26.01,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And deep down, our conscious attention
Dialogue: 0,0:08:26.01,0:08:28.64,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,is one of the most\Nprecious resources we have.
Dialogue: 0,0:08:29.36,0:08:30.56,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Back in 2007,
Dialogue: 0,0:08:30.56,0:08:34.15,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,when I promised myself\NI would take care of my mental health,
Dialogue: 0,0:08:34.15,0:08:36.76,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,the first thing\NI looked into was meditation.
Dialogue: 0,0:08:36.76,0:08:38.13,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And then I tried it.
Dialogue: 0,0:08:38.13,0:08:39.58,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I was living in Houston then,
Dialogue: 0,0:08:39.58,0:08:42.26,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and I went to a Buddhist temple\Nto learn how to meditate.
Dialogue: 0,0:08:42.26,0:08:46.43,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I confess that I was a real disaster.
Dialogue: 0,0:08:46.43,0:08:49.17,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You know that concept\Nof clearing the mind,
Dialogue: 0,0:08:49.17,0:08:52.25,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,focusing on breathing,\Nand not thinking about anything?
Dialogue: 0,0:08:52.25,0:08:54.14,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,That wasn't for me.
Dialogue: 0,0:08:54.14,0:08:56.31,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Then I went to the monk and said,
Dialogue: 0,0:08:56.31,0:08:59.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"Look, I understand\Nthe importance of meditation,
Dialogue: 0,0:08:59.80,0:09:03.36,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,but I don't think I have\Nthe cognitive capacity for it."
Dialogue: 0,0:09:03.80,0:09:05.82,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And he said to me,\Nwith all the tranquility
Dialogue: 0,0:09:05.82,0:09:07.36,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that only a monk could possess,
Dialogue: 0,0:09:07.36,0:09:10.47,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"Dyene, meditation\Nisn't something we do -
Dialogue: 0,0:09:10.47,0:09:13.18,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,it's something we practice."
Dialogue: 0,0:09:13.66,0:09:16.76,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And he had a point.\NSo I decided to practice.
Dialogue: 0,0:09:17.02,0:09:19.72,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,To this day, I've noticed\Nthat when I don't meditate,
Dialogue: 0,0:09:19.72,0:09:21.43,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I don't sleep so well,
Dialogue: 0,0:09:21.43,0:09:24.79,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,my ability to focus\Nand concentrate decreases,
Dialogue: 0,0:09:24.79,0:09:26.58,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and my anxiety increases.
Dialogue: 0,0:09:27.39,0:09:31.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And this lack of focus\Nand clarity that I had
Dialogue: 0,0:09:31.20,0:09:35.11,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,improved with meditation,\Nbut they weren't my only symptoms.
Dialogue: 0,0:09:35.11,0:09:40.37,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Another very evident symptom I had\Nwas my need for isolation.
Dialogue: 0,0:09:40.95,0:09:42.92,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I think this is understandable.
Dialogue: 0,0:09:42.92,0:09:45.31,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,People who have depression\Nknow it's an anguish,
Dialogue: 0,0:09:45.31,0:09:48.58,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,a desperation to get away from others.
Dialogue: 0,0:09:48.58,0:09:51.55,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,You don't want anyone\Nto see you in that state.
Dialogue: 0,0:09:51.55,0:09:53.66,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So you distance yourself.
Dialogue: 0,0:09:53.66,0:09:58.76,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,However, the more difficult our lives get,\Nthe more we need each other.
Dialogue: 0,0:09:59.18,0:10:02.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I once heard that monsters\Nexist in the dark,
Dialogue: 0,0:10:02.60,0:10:06.79,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,but when you turn on the light,\Nyou can see they don't exist.
Dialogue: 0,0:10:06.79,0:10:11.43,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Sometimes you don't have the will\Nto get up and turn on the switch.
Dialogue: 0,0:10:11.43,0:10:14.09,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And that's when you need a helping hand.
Dialogue: 0,0:10:14.30,0:10:20.19,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,When I decided I was going to get better,\NI started investing in my relationships -
Dialogue: 0,0:10:20.31,0:10:22.38,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that was my second step.
Dialogue: 0,0:10:22.38,0:10:25.79,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So I set up a group of family and friends
Dialogue: 0,0:10:25.79,0:10:29.51,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and even attended several support groups,
Dialogue: 0,0:10:29.51,0:10:31.72,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,which was very important for me.
Dialogue: 0,0:10:32.85,0:10:35.96,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And today I see that isolation reigns.
Dialogue: 0,0:10:36.59,0:10:40.93,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,We have so much technology\Nto bring us together,
Dialogue: 0,0:10:40.93,0:10:46.51,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,but it's increasingly difficult for us\Nto form genuine, lasting relationships.
Dialogue: 0,0:10:47.56,0:10:51.15,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And perhaps it's even more difficult\Nfor us to coexist with people
Dialogue: 0,0:10:51.15,0:10:53.38,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,who think differently from us.
Dialogue: 0,0:10:53.38,0:10:56.15,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And what we should strive to do
Dialogue: 0,0:10:56.35,0:11:02.59,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,is build more and more inclusive,\Ndiverse relationships
Dialogue: 0,0:11:03.27,0:11:06.100,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,because the more inclusive\Nand diverse we are,
Dialogue: 0,0:11:06.100,0:11:10.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,the greater the possibility\Nfor us to find solutions
Dialogue: 0,0:11:10.20,0:11:13.58,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,to the most complex problems\Nthat humanity offers.
Dialogue: 0,0:11:13.58,0:11:16.99,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It'll be collaboration\Nmediated by technology
Dialogue: 0,0:11:16.99,0:11:21.27,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that will allow us to reach\Nthe highest innovation rates.
Dialogue: 0,0:11:22.18,0:11:24.74,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And this technology\Ncomes with some challenges -
Dialogue: 0,0:11:24.74,0:11:26.20,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,for me at least.
Dialogue: 0,0:11:26.20,0:11:29.04,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,One of them is digital overload,
Dialogue: 0,0:11:29.04,0:11:32.56,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,which is understandable considering\Nwe're in front of screens all day -
Dialogue: 0,0:11:32.56,0:11:36.72,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,computer screens,\Ntelevisions, and cell phones.
Dialogue: 0,0:11:36.96,0:11:39.80,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,University of Chicago intellectuals
Dialogue: 0,0:11:39.80,0:11:41.16,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,have even said
Dialogue: 0,0:11:41.16,0:11:44.79,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that social media is more addictive\Nthan alcohol and cigarettes.
Dialogue: 0,0:11:45.31,0:11:49.67,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So to help me balance out\Nthis digital overload,
Dialogue: 0,0:11:49.67,0:11:52.04,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I prioritized sleep in my life.
Dialogue: 0,0:11:52.04,0:11:55.52,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,If when I was depressed\NI'd sleep 18 hours a day.
Dialogue: 0,0:11:55.52,0:11:57.95,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and when I was euphoric\NI wouldn't sleep at all -
Dialogue: 0,0:11:57.95,0:12:01.41,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,today, I know that\Nseven to eight hours is my ideal.
Dialogue: 0,0:12:01.41,0:12:06.40,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Restorative sleep enhances\Nour ability to learn and memorize
Dialogue: 0,0:12:06.40,0:12:08.64,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and also decreases the risks
Dialogue: 0,0:12:08.64,0:12:13.16,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,of developing some types of cancer,\Ndiabetes, and cardiovascular diseases.
Dialogue: 0,0:12:13.70,0:12:15.39,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I remember when I was younger,
Dialogue: 0,0:12:15.39,0:12:18.11,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I used to think it was great\Nto pull all-nighters working.
Dialogue: 0,0:12:18.11,0:12:21.51,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Today, I know how harmful\Nthis was to my health.
Dialogue: 0,0:12:22.14,0:12:24.78,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Improving my sleeping habits\Nwas the third thing I did
Dialogue: 0,0:12:24.78,0:12:26.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,to improve my mental health.
Dialogue: 0,0:12:26.90,0:12:29.12,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,The fourth was exercise.
Dialogue: 0,0:12:29.12,0:12:32.68,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I always used lack of time as an excuse,
Dialogue: 0,0:12:32.68,0:12:36.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,until a friend of mine said,\N"Dyene, a day has 1440 minutes.
Dialogue: 0,0:12:36.70,0:12:41.100,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,If you can't find 30 to exercise,\Nthen you're doing something wrong."
Dialogue: 0,0:12:42.46,0:12:44.11,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And he was right.
Dialogue: 0,0:12:44.11,0:12:47.54,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So I started to see exercise\Nas a medical prescription,
Dialogue: 0,0:12:47.54,0:12:52.25,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,as something that would help me\Nfight my comorbidities.
Dialogue: 0,0:12:53.01,0:12:55.53,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And when I started\Nto see exercise that way,
Dialogue: 0,0:12:55.53,0:13:00.46,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,it became much easier to overcome\Nprocrastination and get off the couch.
Dialogue: 0,0:13:00.82,0:13:06.22,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I think procrastination is something\Nwe're all somewhat familiar with.
Dialogue: 0,0:13:06.47,0:13:10.14,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Sometimes it's so difficult\Nto get our dreams off the ground
Dialogue: 0,0:13:10.14,0:13:12.26,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,because we're so afraid\Nof making mistakes.
Dialogue: 0,0:13:12.26,0:13:13.89,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I once heard
Dialogue: 0,0:13:13.89,0:13:16.99,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that somewhere in the world\Nthere's the Museum of Procrastination.
Dialogue: 0,0:13:16.99,0:13:20.36,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,There, you can find that incredible book\Nthat was never written,
Dialogue: 0,0:13:20.36,0:13:23.34,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that brilliant canvas\Nthat was never painted,
Dialogue: 0,0:13:23.34,0:13:27.26,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and that brilliant innovation\Nthat was never patented.
Dialogue: 0,0:13:27.41,0:13:31.72,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,We have to remember something:\Nlife is very different from school.
Dialogue: 0,0:13:31.72,0:13:34.49,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,At school, first we have the lesson -
Dialogue: 0,0:13:38.29,0:13:41.11,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,first we have the lesson\Nand then we have the test.
Dialogue: 0,0:13:41.11,0:13:45.68,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,In life, first we have the test,\Nand then we have the lesson.
Dialogue: 0,0:13:45.68,0:13:50.82,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And to counteract this procrastination\Nimposed by my illness,
Dialogue: 0,0:13:50.82,0:13:52.90,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I needed a lot of discipline
Dialogue: 0,0:13:52.90,0:13:55.53,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,to do the four steps\NI told you about today:
Dialogue: 0,0:13:55.53,0:13:59.70,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,improve my sleep, exercise, meditate,
Dialogue: 0,0:13:59.70,0:14:02.94,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and seek healthy relationships.
Dialogue: 0,0:14:03.44,0:14:06.85,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And it was with this discipline\Nthat I kept moving forward.
Dialogue: 0,0:14:06.85,0:14:10.39,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I had to pause; I even took a step back.
Dialogue: 0,0:14:10.39,0:14:12.04,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But I continued.
Dialogue: 0,0:14:12.04,0:14:15.15,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Today, I can say that bipolar disorder\Nhas transformed me.
Dialogue: 0,0:14:15.92,0:14:17.52,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I don't complain about my job
Dialogue: 0,0:14:17.52,0:14:20.00,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,because I know what it's like\Nto be incapacitated.
Dialogue: 0,0:14:20.00,0:14:23.82,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I know that unforeseen events\Nhappen to anyone
Dialogue: 0,0:14:23.82,0:14:27.22,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and that the sense\Nof control I thought I had
Dialogue: 0,0:14:27.22,0:14:28.93,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,was a mere illusion.
Dialogue: 0,0:14:28.93,0:14:31.07,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I also recognize the privileges I had -
Dialogue: 0,0:14:31.07,0:14:33.79,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,one of which was access\Nto quality healthcare.
Dialogue: 0,0:14:33.79,0:14:35.51,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And my most sincere wish
Dialogue: 0,0:14:35.51,0:14:38.28,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,is that everyone who suffers\Nfrom a mental disorder
Dialogue: 0,0:14:38.28,0:14:41.38,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,can have accessibility\Nto the same opportunities I had.
Dialogue: 0,0:14:41.67,0:14:43.14,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Today, I do what I like doing.
Dialogue: 0,0:14:43.14,0:14:44.99,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I'm a marketing global director
Dialogue: 0,0:14:44.99,0:14:47.24,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,at an intelligence\Nand information company,
Dialogue: 0,0:14:47.24,0:14:51.97,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and I've told my story through a book\Ncalled "Vencendo a Mente."
Dialogue: 0,0:14:51.97,0:14:55.54,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I deliberately used a gerund in the title,\N"Conquering the Mind" in English,
Dialogue: 0,0:14:55.54,0:14:58.17,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,because the work never ends.
Dialogue: 0,0:14:58.60,0:15:03.29,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Telling my story so openly\Nwas a real challenge.
Dialogue: 0,0:15:03.76,0:15:07.30,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I was very afraid of being ridiculed,
Dialogue: 0,0:15:07.30,0:15:10.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,stigmatized, or even excluded.
Dialogue: 0,0:15:10.60,0:15:12.21,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,But that didn't happen.
Dialogue: 0,0:15:12.21,0:15:14.38,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,I was treated with\Na great deal of kindness.
Dialogue: 0,0:15:14.38,0:15:17.64,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,When the time came for the book release,\NI had to tell my boss,
Dialogue: 0,0:15:17.64,0:15:20.02,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and I thought I was going to get fired,
Dialogue: 0,0:15:20.02,0:15:22.60,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,or that my career\Nwould end at that moment.
Dialogue: 0,0:15:22.60,0:15:24.58,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,And he surprised me when he said,
Dialogue: 0,0:15:24.58,0:15:28.88,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,"Dyene, courage, authenticity,\Nand vulnerability
Dialogue: 0,0:15:28.88,0:15:31.45,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,are characteristics of true leaders."
Dialogue: 0,0:15:31.45,0:15:34.29,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Hearing that was very important\Nfor me to move forward.
Dialogue: 0,0:15:34.29,0:15:38.88,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,For a while, I had considered\Npublishing the book anonymously,
Dialogue: 0,0:15:38.88,0:15:41.35,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,but then I would miss\Nan excellent opportunity
Dialogue: 0,0:15:41.35,0:15:45.97,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,to show people that it's possible\Nto live with a mental disorder,
Dialogue: 0,0:15:45.97,0:15:47.78,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,to live a full life,
Dialogue: 0,0:15:47.78,0:15:52.43,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and also to reinforce the importance\Nof the treatment that makes this possible.
Dialogue: 0,0:15:52.43,0:15:58.44,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,In the end, it was through healthy habits,\Nself-awareness, and discipline
Dialogue: 0,0:15:58.44,0:16:01.79,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that I managed to turn the tables\Nand resume my momentum -
Dialogue: 0,0:16:01.79,0:16:05.53,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,not forgetting the importance of pausing,\Nwhether it be deliberate or not.
Dialogue: 0,0:16:05.81,0:16:07.13,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,It was through pausing
Dialogue: 0,0:16:07.13,0:16:09.88,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,that I was able to connect\Nwith who I really was
Dialogue: 0,0:16:09.88,0:16:12.84,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and tell own my story.
Dialogue: 0,0:16:13.47,0:16:17.28,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,A wise man once said,\N"Change, but start slowly
Dialogue: 0,0:16:17.28,0:16:21.68,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,because direction\Nis more important than speed."
Dialogue: 0,0:16:21.68,0:16:24.24,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,So start where you are,
Dialogue: 0,0:16:24.24,0:16:26.04,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,go at your own pace,
Dialogue: 0,0:16:26.04,0:16:30.11,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,and never give up until you find\Nyour point of equilibrium.
Dialogue: 0,0:16:30.11,0:16:31.67,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,Thank you.
Dialogue: 0,0:16:31.67,0:16:34.66,Default,,0000,0000,0000,,(Applause)