[ hums and whistles]

Come here

[whistles]

the enthusiasm when she comes is amazing [laughs]

"so is there a routine for you?"

pretty much guaranteed that i'm going to go to the studio, at some point or several times in the day

[whistles]

this is going to be exciting, to have

this new big surface

[whistles]

[sound of electric sander against canvas]

Alright, lets see if I can get a sketch up on here

[shakes spray can]

[Whistles]

[Sound of spray can]

I learned a massive amount from graffitti

that i've taken into the studio

[whistles]

[sound of spray paint]

in terms of scale and how to make large marks

and how to take a small drawing and make it large

I mean, that's totally invaluable skillset

not bad

[sound of spray can]

It's sort of like a boxing ring in here- its a very physical process

[sound of spray paint]

maybe I'm a little addicted to that.

[sound of spray paint]

It's a real part of my life- It's a real way for me to work things out

outside of just the actual painting

[sound of spray can]

God damn it, come on.

I might be one of the most impatient people in the world.

Certainly, at times I can't control how the anxiety and impatience and aggressive energy comes out

It's best when it happens in here, so I like to try and harness that cause no one can judge me, or..

[sound of feet shuffling]

I do have to trick myself into getting through parts of a painting

[dog barking]

come on, Fanny, come on

If it gets to a point where I know a painting's going to be a painting, sometimes theres that real sense of chore

so then i'll have to like drink a bottle of wine [laughs]

or do something fun

like walking around Greenpoint

[sound of nails tapping rhythmically]

[whistles]

The best thing, and the most freeing feeling for me, is when im just moving the brush and making those strokes

and am not standing back across the room looking at it

it's when I'm completely lost in there.

[sound of brush against canvas]

There's that sense that I can express any kind of movement or action or noise or whatever i want in there

[sound of brush scraping against canvas]

[sighs]

[sound of foot tapping lightly]

I think that's it

I think if I start painting I'm going to start making mistakes.

"Yeah"

Which is fine, but i dont want to.

"Yeah"

But the composition is working and thats exciting. I love when i get a first composition- that's pretty rare

A first take composition that i want to go with

Now I said that and I see something I hate but..

"What do you hate?"

This shoulder shape here, it should come into like,

it should drop off to like there

[sound of pallet knife scraping against canvas]

When I can make a drawing in 25 minutes and be really moved by it, thats what I want to be painting

but I dont know how to do it yet, which is exciting

because if I already knew how to do it that'd be kind of depressing [laughs]

[sings " I live my life on..."]

[whistles lightly]