fan-sub by www.whatisfatmagulsfault.com You don't understand it! I love you! So much... I love you so much. You've gone crazy. I'm saying that I love you. How can you say that? How dare you! Yes... I know I have no right to love you. But I can't help it. I... I didn't go away, because I realized I couldn't be without you. Because I was afraid to loose you... ... I didn't divorce. Fatmagül... I fell in love with you at first sight. What are you trying to do? Are you going to force me to love you now, as if nothing happened? - Are you going to torture me even more? - No. I don't expect anything from you. I just... - I just want to hope. - Do not hope! You wouldn't even dare to talk to me, if you knew what I really feel about you. These aren't just words. I truly love you! Shut up! Don't say this ever again! - I love you. - Shut up! - I love you. - Shut up! - I love you! - Shut up. Don't say that! You don't know how I feel. You know nothing! - Sleep, son. Sleep. - I can't. Okay, don't sleep then. I'm afraid of him shouting at us again. Close your eyes. How dare he shouts at you like that? How dare he! He shouted at my mom and did this. - Murat! - Don't shout at my son. How dare he raise his hand at you! How dare he scare Murat like that? Mukaddes, I'm talking to you. Look at you. How could he hit my wife? But it's your fault... Yeah, it's yours. - Don't start it, Rahmi. - That's what happens if you leave your home. I knew you'd rub it in. How could he scare Murat like that? Did my son deserve anything like that? How could he? Maybe I shouldn't come if you'll keep nagging me. Don't make the kid even more upset. This isn't the time or place to discuss it. Don't hurt each other even more, out of anger. Try to calm down first. Then whatever your problem is... you should sort it out yourselves. By yourselves. But please don't fight. Okay, son. Okay, my child. Fatmagül... I fell in love with you at first sight. One hell of a night, huh? The first time I'm hosting guests in my house... ... and see what happens. I don't know what to say, girl. I'm shocked. I can't believe it. Leman Hanım and Münir Dayı. Does that even make sense? It is very ugly indeed. I never trusted Münir Dayı anyway. It was as if he had a strange mask on his face. I know what kind of a person he was... ... when he let it slip that I went to that girl. But I never thought he'd be this low. I mean, how could he... ... look at those people in the eyes for all this time. How could he manage to hide it? I never liked him, anyway. Now I hate him. Don't blame him only. These kind of things are never one sided. Whatever, really. This shouldn't have happened in my house. In front of my dad. "What kind of a family we got ourselves into", he will think now. You're pondering the same, aren't you? Let's go back inside. Selim was ashamed enough. Don't let him be alone with your father. - Would you like to drink anything, Daddy? - No, my child. Thank you. We're so sorry that you witnessed this. You don't need to be sorry for it. It was very unfortunate. I'm very sorry. It's not for us to judge. But it wasn't nice at all. I will wash my face. Poor Selim. He looks very sorry. What a shameless man. You said he was interested in Gaye, too? Gaye didn't give him any hopes, anyway. He's shown us his true colors now. I don't want to see him close to Gaye ever again! Okay, honey. Don't get angry. Meltem is upset enough about it. We'd better leave now. Daddy, it's not that late yet. Don't insist tonight, girl. Selim is ashamed enough. Our presence here won't make him feel better. Hadi. Okay, let me tell him that you're leaving. Man, find him. Don't let him do something stupid. I'm looking for him, man. His phone is off. He's gonna do something silly. Please find him. Easier said than done. I looked at everywhere he might have gone. And I keep searching. - How's the weather at home? - It's below zero. What a disgrace in front of the girls family. Keep leaning your back against Münir. Not funny, man. I'm already scattered... - Selim, my mom and dad are leaving. - Okay, honey. I'm coming. Call me if you find anything. Okay, I will. - Was it Erdoğan? - Yes, he's looking for Vural. Okay, let us meet and talk about it tomorrow. Şemsi isn't here anyway. You're bored of me, didn't you? I risked my marriage for you. - I sacrificed my honor for you. - I never forced you to do anything. I didn't force you to do anything. Leave me alone. Get off of me! - Abla, what did my enişte say? - What do you expect him to say? - But we need to talk about it. - Don't go there. Your enişte doesn't want to talk to you. But he needs to let me explain! What are you going to explain? Just sit down here. I didn't want this to happen. It's not my fault! Leman was obsessed with me. She didn't give up, no matter how I tried. She insisted. And things between us inevitably developed. Then I tried to end it but she wouldn't let me go. Don't tell me this tale, Münir! Just because I didn't speak about it, it doesn't mean I wasn't aware. I was aware of everything. I know how you dangled after her. I know how relationship grew. And then how you tried to get rid off her. Okay, I accept my fault, but... There is no "buts" about it, Münir. Don't say another word. My fears came true. And at the worst moment possible. You fooled us. You made us all ashamed. We were about to leave everything behind... Just when everything else was sorted out... ... now we're back to where we started. I don't know how we can overcome this. God damn it! It's all because of Leman! How easy it is to blame the woman, isn't it? ... as if she's done it alone. But it's the fault of both of you ! Şemsi... Let me explain. Please. I don't want to hear anything. It's not what it seems. I swear. There isn't anything serious between us. Never was. There has been an affection between us. I was caught weak. I don't know how, but it got me drifted away. I couldn't help it. Please try to understand. It wasn't something serious. Enough. Don't reduce yourself even more. I wouldn't want you to learn it this way. I'm so ashamed. Me, too. I will file for divorce tomorrow. Since you have nothing else to say. I thought you wouldn't object to it. You had already told me that you wanted to divorce. I wish... you had told me the reason as well. So that... ... nobody would have to be hurt. You can stay here until you find a place for yourself. There's nothing else I will do for you. And nothing else to say. - We're home! We're home! - Easy, son. - Halacığım! - Sweety! Hoşgeldin. I missed you so much! I missed you so much, too. Hoşgeldin. - What happened? - It's that man who had done it. But don't mention it. You don't need to throw in more wood. The house is warm enough. Shall I tell you what happened? Would you care for some tea? - Would you? - No thanks. I can boil you fennel and peacebloom. It wouldn't even take five minutes. As you wish. Why is the television off, Hala? - Want me to turn it on? - No, Fatmagül. Don't turn it on. Enişte, I'm back! Hoşgeldin. Were you worried about us as well? I was. Of course I was. Come here. Why isn't anybody talking? We're not in a good mood, son. But you said everything was alright. Everything's alright, son. ... alright. I... I don't want to talk about it. As I've told Rahmi. No one will ask me any questions, nor expect any answers. He said that no one will ever talk about it. That's why I accepted to come back home. To end Rahmi's sadness. And not to derange Murat's life. I've come back for them. Nothing is what it seems. That's all you need to know. Come on, pee before bed time. - Come on, I'm already tired. - I want to sleep with my hala. - Hala, are you angry at my mom? - No. You, daddy? No, son. I'm not. Why did we go away then? Hey you, come over here. I've missed you. You'd miss me even more if we didn't come back, wouldn't you? Mom said we would find another house. And live there from then on. But I said no. I said, "I don't want another house, I want my dad." Good boy. It made my mom angry though. She was angry at that man, too. Bad man, he hit my mom. Your mom is right. It was a long day. You should go to bed. - But, with my hala. - Of course with your hala. Will you heat some milk for this handsome? - I will, after making his bed. - And I shall bring his pajamas. Go to the bathroom now. - Okay. - There he goes. We'd better go, as well. - Brush your teeth, too! - Okay. Leave it to me. I can do it. You prepare Murat's milk. We're glad they're back, right? Glad they're back. When we arrived at the hotel she had already packed up, waiting for us. Checked out of the hotel and all. She got in the car silently without any resistance. I put the milk on the cook top. - What happened? - Don't even need to ask. - It's obvious. - Did that man do it to her? Come on, Hala. Okay, sweety. You go wear your pajamas. - Good night. - Good night. Murat said the man shouted at his mother. It seems she's told off. - A bit roughly. - Made her face bleed. He's an animal. Shush. It hurts Rahmi so much. - I could barely calm him down. - I can imagine. Wish she didn't get to know who she trusted, this way. - Wish she didn't. - But she came back because he didn't want her. Otherwise, her decision was made without caring about neither my abi nor her family. That man was there, too. - Did he do something? - No, dear. He couldn't get out of his car when he saw us there. You mean, is there still something between them? Mukaddes learned her lesson. She didn't even look at his face. She just got in the car and we drove off. What happened? Did you two argue as well? How did you find this place? You're not checking your phone? I've been calling you for hours. Go away. Leave me alone. Look, I'm not here to talk. I didn't come here to give you an advice or consolation. I don't mean to pester you. I'm here because I'm concerned about you. Because I'm worried. There's nothing to be worried about. I want to be alone. Man, I think you shouldn't be alone. Come, let's go get some fresh air. Let go. Look, I could never imagine this would happen. We all know how low of a person Münir was... ... but I never thought he could have gone this far. How could he do that. Let's go to the boat. Come on, man. Let's go the boat or something. Erdoğan, leave me alone! - Where are you going? - Just leave me be. Go away! Vural, where are you going man? Leave me alone! Sod off! Vural ! Give me that! - Give me the key. - I can't let you drive in this state. It's okay. It's okay. - Erdoğan, give me that key. - I know how you feel, but I can't let you do this. - How can you know how I feel? - Okay, you're right. But please, let's go somewhere and talk. There's nothing to talk about. Everyone knows everything. - Do you know how my father feels now? - I can imagine. I will kill that mother****er. Give me that! They devastated my father! Devastated... I'll kill that mother****er! I will kill him! God damn all ! God damn! God damn! Poor thing, he must have been so scared. Did everything happen in front of him? His mom didn't let him talk. It seems she told him not to talk about it. She shut the boy up whenever he opened his mouth. She didn't have any rights to make him go through this. It seems, she didn't tell Murat anything about it. She didn't say, "this is your dad". She first wanted to make sure that the man would accept her. Thank God she could think of that. If the kid knew everything... She was pressing upon him on the phone, to take care of her. She went to him anyway although she knew she wasn't wanted. He is married as well. He has kids too. She was going to ruin that family as well. He didn't let her do it. But using violence against her... is unacceptable. Why violence, when there are other ways to solve a problem... It seems that he is low enough to beat a woman. But she refuses to talk about it. She forbids it. She's just ashamed to come back home with her tail between her legs. She doesn't want it to be rubbed in. - So please don't ask her about anything. - I don't want to know about it anyway. This will make her even grumpier. Let us go easy on her. - So that things won't get even worse. - Okay. You don't seem to be troubled by that only. Is there something else troubling you? No, what else could trouble me? Okay... I'm so tired today. I shall go to the bathroom. And then to bed. Good night. I still feel as if I'm going to cry. Still feels as if it hasn't passed. Something is still whizzing inside me. Like something bad will happen again. Just like how it made me feel when they took Murat from me. I feel as if it will happen again. I never thought anyone would take Murat away from me. Never before I thought I wouldn't see him anymore. But now I can't get those thoughts out of my mind. I'm scared to loose him again. It is a very bad feeling. It's like... ... so... I can't even describe it. I understand you very well, Abi. I know very well fear of loosing someone. Because... ... it takes away everything that makes you feel good about that person. And what is left is... ... just longing, and a huge anger. You feel that something is always missing in your life. Something irreplaceable. You feel as if you're a stranger of this world. It makes you feel uneasy. Always on pins and needles. On your toes. That's exactly how I feel. Just like you said. Murat is my all. I can't live without him. I would die. I'm a father. Okay... My head is confused. - I'm not like other fathers. But... - Don't say that, abi. You're a great father. I wish I could be like you. I wish I could be a good, caring f-... You are already a good man. I'm sure you'll make a great father. I mean.... when the time comes. Come, Fatmagül... What's Murat doing? Sleeping. Good, let him sleep. My dear son. Let him sleep in his own home. He was so scared by that man. He beat Mukaddes, too. - But I will make him pay for it. - Abi, don't. How dare he raise his hand at my wife? You tell me... Have I ever... ... hurt her, even with my words? Did I shout at her? But that man hit her. I will make him pay. Abi, let it end here. Don't prolong it, please. No... I will find him. I will give his punishment. Abi, he won't be bothering you anymore. He's married too. He has a family that he cares about. That's why, just let it go. Just forget about it. Wish that has never happened. Wish I never knew Mukaddes lied to me. I'm so broken. She wasn't going to marry me if she didn't lie to me. She got married to give Murat birth. Okay, I'm now angry at her... I'm hurt, but... ... thanks to her I have a family. - I have a kid. - That's true. And also... she said she took refuge in me. She trusted me. After whom she trusted the most betrayed her. But she choose me, to protect her. She wanted to be with me. These are important stuff, aren't they? Anyway, I shall go check Murat. Without waking him up... I'll kiss and smell my son. Fatmagül, give me a moment... I'm sorry. I don't want to upset you. Or make your life even more difficult. All I want is... ... to be close to you. If what I said to you will draw you further away from me... ... let's pretend that I didn't say it. Just forget about it. Fatmagül? Efendim? What happened? What happened to you? Are you crying? No... - Come on, tell me what happened. - Nothing happened. Fatmagül, come on sweety. Let's sit down and talk. Abla, there's really nothing to talk about. You're always keeping silent. You're not sharing it with anyone. How long can you endure it in silence? All the things you repress inside will turn into rocks. And keep getting heavier. I fear one day you will not be able to carry it. Abla, I'm fine. Don't worry. Don't do this, please. You need to speak it out. This venom can only be rid of by speaking. You need (professional) help. Please, don't say no. Let us find a good doctor. You will see, how good it will be for you. This is not something you can overcome by yourself. Abla please. Not you too If you can't speak about it, write it on a paper, then rip it apart. But do something about it. Oh Fatmagül... What happened? Nothing? I thought you were crying. No, I'm not crying. Murat is sleeping deeply and soundly. I'm going to bed as well. Good night to you. Good night. Me too, I am going to bed, too. What happened? Good night. You're not sleeping. I know you're not. Go on and open your eyes. Don't make me sad again, okay? Don't go away again. See what they did to you when you went away. We never fought even once. Never once I shouted at you. Because I love you. Would a man raise his hand to whom he loves? That's why... don't leave me again. I was so sad. I thought I was dying. I know... You never loved me as you loved that man. I know you didn't love me. But I loved you. Both you and my kid. And I will love you till I die. Till the day I die. Don't do this to me again. Please. Promise me. Say "I won't do it again." Promise me then. Okay, okay. Don't cry. Sleep now. You sleep now. Good night. - Go on inside. - Erdoğan? We're home, mom. Hoşgeldiniz. Hoşbulduk, I thought you'd be sleeping. No, I waited for you. Good, you can go to bed now. Okay. Good night, Vural. - Is he okay? - He is. Shall I make you coffee? We serve no alcoholic drinks at this hour. - I will sleep anyway. - Okay, good. - Alo. - Şemsi. Vural is here. - How? How is he? - He's alright. They've just come. Erdoğan and him. I've called to say don't worry. Thank you. Tell Erdoğan to keep an eye on him. Please. Tell him not to leave him alone, okay? He's with him. Don't worry. I've just called you to let you know. - Good night. - Thank you. You too. The towels are in the drawers. You know where the pajamas are. It's not a place you never stayed before. Vural... - Don't let yourself go. - What am I going to do? Know your friends and enemies better from now on. Does a man have anybody closer to him than his mother? Who does a man love the most? Who does he seek in the hardest times? Doesn't your mom forgive all your mistakes? Isn't she the person who loves you the most... She's the person that values you as most special. She's the only person who would never leave your hand. The only person that you can trust. Of course. If you can't trust even your mom then whom can you trust? Whom can I trust now? What am I here for? You have your friend here. I promise you, man. I will always be with you. I will make that lowlife Münir pay for all this. That bastard. Can't believe how he looked into your eyes for all this time... He even tried to use you with my uncle against me. But he has shown his true colors. You saw it. But he won't get away with this. I will make him regret. Just trust me. And you will see. Is my enişte departing tomorrow? - Yes, early in the morning. - I won't be able to see him then? It's better if you don't. Abla, don't say that please. - Anyway, I'll call him tomorrow morning then. - Don't call him, Münir. Don't talk to him until he is cooled off. Don't make things even worse. Okay, okay. It will be nice if you can stay away from everyone for a while. I will do so. This is not a situation from which we can recover easily, Münir. - God forbid, a lot worse may happen. - I know. That's why I'm going away. Let things settle down. And everyone be calmer. Don't come back until then. Okay ablacığım. Be careful.