[crowd cheers]
Hello, alright... thank you, alright faggot how you doin'
Sorry, I called him a faggot. I miss that word, k'now, I grew up saying that word and, I mean, it never ment gay.
When I was a kid, I didn't even know what gay was, I hadn't been told that people do that, I had no fucking idea.
Faggot didn't mean gay. When I was a kid, you called someone a faggot because they were being a faggot, y'know.
Someone's just being a faggot. "Neee," Shut up faggot.
"You're not supposed to use those for that." Shut up faggot.
I would never call a gay guy a faggot, unless he was being a faggot. But not because he's gay, do you understand?
If I saw two guys blowing eachother, I don't know why I'm watching them do it, but if I just happened to.
I stumble upon a couple of fellas blowing one another on their respective "penisia"
That's plural for penis that I invented today... "penisia"
I would be respectful to them, y'know, "Hello gentlemen."
But if one of them took the dick out of his mouth and started acting all faggy and saying annoying faggy things.
"You know people from Phoenix are Phoenisians" or something like that.
I'd be like "hey shut up faggot, FAAAAGGGOOT"
Quit being a faggot and suck that dick, that's what I would say to them.
I don't know, I wouldn't call someone a mean name for sucking a dick, because if you suck a dick, that's awesome, I respect you.
Because I can't do it, I mean I haven't tried and failed, I just, I put myself there in my mind and I couldn't do it because I'm afraid, that's the only reason
That's why, if you can suck a dick I think that there's a strength in being able to do that, I believe that.
I don't believe that blowing somebody comes easily to anybody, even if it's something you generally do, every new dick must take somethin' outta you.
There must be something you gotta do to get yourself ready, y'know, "[clears throat] okay, here we go"
[exhales] "ahaha, you.. I'm gonna suck ya"
"muahaha oookay, HERE WE GO!"
So, faggot, I don't know.
A lot of words that are not bad words, but other people start using them a lot to hurt other people and then they become bad and become hard to use.
There's words that I love that I can't use because other people use them wrong to hurt other people.
Like the word cunt is a beautiful word, to me there's just beauty in that word, and I mean like asthetically it's chocolate-y and round on the ends.
I just... cunt, I just like the way it sounds. I don't use it as an insult, I'll be alone in the laundry like "cunt, cunt" I just like saying it
I would never call a woman a cunt, except for my mom because she likes it for some weird reason, but..
it's a very misused word, it's supposed to mean vagina, which I don't think works at all because vagina's are so sweet
they're little pretty things with flow pedal-y lips. I hear a piccalo in my head everytime I see a vagina.
Even for vaginas that's too harsh, they should be called like "fala-lala"
There should be a butterfly fluttering around every vagina just all the time, a little butterfly.
You go to the doctor and he's like "Well the butterfly looks good so we're in good shape"
How do you look at something that pretty and say "That's a CUNT" that doesn't fit at all.
Maybe if it was a giant vagina and it was attacking a town and throwing buses around and knocking over telephone poles
Then you can say "Hey, somebody shoot that cunt with a bazooka!"
It's gonna step on the candy store!
So, faggot, cunt. Everybody has different words that offend them. Different things that they hear and get offended by.
To me, the thing that offends me the most is when I hear someone say "the N-word"
not nigger by the way, I mean "the N-word," literally whenever a white lady on CNN says "the N-word" that's just white people getting away with saying nigger.
They found a way to say nigger, "N-word", it's bullshit because when you say "the N-word" you're putting nigger in the listener's head. That's what saying a word is.
You say "the N-word" and I go "Oh, she means nigger," you're making ME say it in my head. Why don't YOU fucking say it instead and take responsibility.
With the shitty words you wanna say, just say it, don't hide behind the first letter like a faggot. Just say nigger you stupid cunt.
I don't know, I don't care.
Somebody'll kick my ass, I mean all this shit goes on in my head, I don't really... I thought the word nigger the other day, it wasn't even racist.
Let me tell you what happened, I went to a coffee place. It was a cool indie place, I don't like starbucks anymore because they don't care anymore.
They just press a button and some old lady's diarrhea comes out and they just give it to you.
So I go to a young people's cool coffee place with all the band's playing notice on the walls, it's called like "The Howling Dew" or something.
The dude behind the counter has like a tight t-shirt and a pony tail and he's like "hey what's up man"
And I was like "Hey can I get a cappuccino?" and he's like "Yeah, right on, totally," like he's amazed that he can help me.
"Oh yeah, I got all the stuff right here, this is awesome!"
And so he starts making my coffee, he worked so hard. He grounded the beans just for that one cup and put them in the thing and tamped them with this old thing
[click clakity click] and he took the milk and he frothed it like for an hour and he banged it on the counter and I don't know why but it was awesome, he scooped it in and put a little cocoa on it.
and he's like "Here ya go man," and I was just blown away and for some reason as I left there, the thought in my head was "That nigger made the shit outta my coffee"
I don't know why, he wasn't black, that was just what was in my heart for some reason was "that nigger made the shit outta my coffee"
I don't know, I don't care
I'm all sweaty, I don't feel good. I ate too much and masturbated too recently, y'know that kinda..
y'know it's bad to like jerk off and run out the door 'cause you run into somebody like "uggh, she knows," you gotta like take some time along to process the shame.
I just can't stop eating, today I weighed myself, I don't know why, I'm not using the information, it's not guiding my behaviour why am I bothering to find out exactly how much of a piece of shit I am.
I weighed myself and I usually hover around 230... 240 today, I weight 240 pounds, which is not okay.
You know like when you go to the doctor they give you like a formula for how much you should weigh? I'm pretty sure it's not your age plus 200 pounds.
That doesn't seem like..