WEBVTT 00:00:03.539 --> 00:00:06.615 我们每天早上醒来 00:00:06.615 --> 00:00:09.135 着装打扮,穿上鞋 00:00:09.135 --> 00:00:11.647 走向外面的世界 00:00:11.647 --> 00:00:15.898 盘算着回到家来,脱下衣服 00:00:15.898 --> 00:00:18.123 上床睡觉 00:00:18.123 --> 00:00:19.877 然后醒来,再重复这一切 00:00:19.877 --> 00:00:23.025 而这种对生活的期待,这种节奏 00:00:23.025 --> 00:00:25.295 给了我们一个框架 00:00:25.295 --> 00:00:28.883 来管理我们自己和自己的生活 00:00:28.883 --> 00:00:32.363 让我们能够精确预测 00:00:32.363 --> 00:00:34.751 有多少人像我一样生活在纽约 00:00:34.751 --> 00:00:41.990 大家忙忙碌碌 00:00:41.990 --> 00:00:45.340 在同一时间,相距不远 00:00:45.340 --> 00:00:48.579 就好像从生活的那副牌中 00:00:48.579 --> 00:00:50.105 多发给你一手牌 00:00:50.105 --> 00:00:54.773 并列事件不会发生 00:00:54.773 --> 00:00:59.776 你从不认为它们可能发生 00:00:59.776 --> 00:01:02.119 而你也从未想过你会成为那个 00:01:02.119 --> 00:01:03.749 走在街上 00:01:03.749 --> 00:01:07.171 只是因为选择了某一边走 00:01:07.171 --> 00:01:10.331 人生就全然改变 NOTE Paragraph 00:01:10.331 --> 00:01:16.059 一天晚上,我坐上了上城区的区间列车 00:01:16.059 --> 00:01:19.555 我试着提高了点警觉 00:01:19.555 --> 00:01:21.672 当我在地铁里的时候 00:01:21.672 --> 00:01:24.718 可不是那种沉浸在自己世界里的人,只顾听耳机 00:01:24.718 --> 00:01:26.101 或者看书 00:01:26.101 --> 00:01:28.907 我上了车,环顾四周 00:01:28.907 --> 00:01:31.491 注意到一对情侣 00:01:31.491 --> 00:01:34.979 两人都是大学生模样 00:01:34.979 --> 00:01:36.776 一个男生和一个女生,并排坐在一起 00:01:36.776 --> 00:01:39.425 女生把一条腿架在男生的膝盖上 00:01:39.425 --> 00:01:43.585 他们在摆弄一个小玩意 00:01:43.585 --> 00:01:45.343 不停地打结 00:01:45.343 --> 00:01:47.180 而且只用一只手 00:01:47.180 --> 00:01:51.144 迅速地换用左手和右手 00:01:51.144 --> 00:01:53.392 女生做完又拿给男生做 00:01:53.392 --> 00:01:54.593 这是我从没见过的景象 00:01:54.593 --> 00:01:57.977 他们就像在变魔术一样 NOTE Paragraph 00:01:57.977 --> 00:02:02.296 在之后的一站,一个男人上了车 00:02:02.296 --> 00:02:06.274 他打扮的像个访问教授 00:02:06.274 --> 00:02:08.394 拿着一个塞得鼓鼓的皮包 00:02:08.394 --> 00:02:11.704 一个长方形的文件夹,还有一个笔记本电脑包 00:02:11.704 --> 00:02:14.216 穿着肘部有两块皮补丁的那种粗花呢外套 00:02:14.216 --> 00:02:16.193 (笑声) 00:02:16.193 --> 00:02:19.016 看到他们 00:02:19.016 --> 00:02:22.032 一眨眼的功夫,他已经单膝跪立在他们面前, 00:02:22.032 --> 00:02:23.697 然后说道 00:02:23.697 --> 00:02:25.766 “你们知道吗,听我说,你们可以这么做。看着 00:02:25.766 --> 00:02:28.385 “请看,如果你这样做……” 他从他们手中拿过线 00:02:28.385 --> 00:02:31.696 马上开始打结 00:02:31.696 --> 00:02:36.357 做的明显比那两个学生更好, 00:02:36.357 --> 00:02:39.437 原来这对情侣是医学院的学生 00:02:39.437 --> 00:02:41.549 正赶去听一个关于最新缝合技术的演讲 00:02:41.549 --> 00:02:44.775 而那个男人正是那位讲者 00:02:44.775 --> 00:02:46.383 (笑声) NOTE Paragraph 00:02:46.383 --> 00:02:48.797 他告诉他们 00:02:48.797 --> 00:02:51.305 “不,这里非常重要。你们得知道 00:02:51.305 --> 00:02:53.585 在打结的时候 00:02:53.585 --> 00:02:55.177 你们要知道 00:02:55.177 --> 00:02:58.930 什么都有可能发生,很可能会-- 00:02:58.930 --> 00:03:02.567 你要面对五花八门的情况 00:03:02.567 --> 00:03:04.063 ”挡路“的病人器官 00:03:04.063 --> 00:03:06.098 病人体内很滑 00:03:06.098 --> 00:03:07.408 还有 00:03:07.408 --> 00:03:10.166 这一点至关重要:你们要能够不假思索地完成动作 00:03:10.166 --> 00:03:13.536 无论是左手还是右手 00:03:13.536 --> 00:03:16.364 即使眼见看不到手指也必须完成所有工序 00:03:16.364 --> 00:03:18.734 当我听到这席话的那一瞬间 00:03:18.734 --> 00:03:25.806 我的思绪飞出了车厢,回到了那个夜晚 00:03:25.806 --> 00:03:28.940 那晚我躺在救护车里 00:03:28.940 --> 00:03:33.431 刚刚在人行道上被捅了几刀 00:03:33.431 --> 00:03:37.750 被送到曼哈顿圣文森医院的清创室 00:03:37.750 --> 00:03:39.739 这其中的原委是 00:03:39.739 --> 00:03:42.948 从布鲁克林来了一伙帮派分子 00:03:42.948 --> 00:03:45.571 为了替三个新加入的成员举行入伙仪式 00:03:45.571 --> 00:03:47.275 他们按惯例要杀个人 00:03:47.275 --> 00:03:50.662 而我恰巧在那天晚上 00:03:50.662 --> 00:03:51.959 走在布利克街上 00:03:51.959 --> 00:03:56.396 他们不由分说就袭击了我 00:03:56.396 --> 00:03:58.721 幸运的是 00:03:58.721 --> 00:04:01.729 我曾在圣母大学参加过拳击队 00:04:01.729 --> 00:04:06.377 所以我本能地抬起手做出防守姿势 00:04:06.377 --> 00:04:09.929 我右手边的一个家伙拿着一柄25公分长的刀 00:04:09.929 --> 00:04:13.222 从我手肘下方攻过来 00:04:13.222 --> 00:04:17.689 刀刃向上插,割断了我的下腔静脉 00:04:17.689 --> 00:04:19.409 如果你们懂一点解剖 00:04:19.409 --> 00:04:21.117 就会知道这个伤很要命 00:04:21.117 --> 00:04:24.275 与此同时,当然,袭击还在进行 00:04:24.275 --> 00:04:26.165 这时我仍然举着拳头 00:04:26.165 --> 00:04:28.654 他拔出刀刃来刺我的脖子 00:04:28.654 --> 00:04:32.859 刀从我领子那里刺进身体 直没刀柄 00:04:32.859 --> 00:04:35.583 我使出一记右直拳 00:04:35.583 --> 00:04:37.354 把中间那个家伙打倒 00:04:37.354 --> 00:04:39.567 左边那家伙仍在攻击我 00:04:39.567 --> 00:04:41.432 想刺穿我另一边的肺 00:04:41.432 --> 00:04:47.412 我反击过去,争取到了分秒时间 00:04:47.412 --> 00:04:49.505 我沿街一直跑直到倒下 00:04:49.505 --> 00:04:52.552 救护人员在人行道上帮我插管 00:04:52.552 --> 00:04:55.025 然后通知清创室 00:04:55.025 --> 00:04:56.643 伤患即将到达 NOTE Paragraph 00:04:56.643 --> 00:04:59.642 大量失血 00:04:59.642 --> 00:05:03.583 的其中一个副作用是 00:05:03.583 --> 00:05:05.430 你的视野变得狭窄 00:05:05.430 --> 00:05:07.243 我记得自己被抬上担架 00:05:07.243 --> 00:05:11.248 只能看到五分镍币那么大的地方 00:05:11.248 --> 00:05:12.797 我试着转头 00:05:12.797 --> 00:05:14.153 我们到达了圣文森医院 00:05:14.153 --> 00:05:15.796 在走廊里狂奔 00:05:15.796 --> 00:05:18.064 看着顶灯一盏盏退后 00:05:18.064 --> 00:05:24.792 都是这类稀奇古怪的记忆 00:05:24.792 --> 00:05:28.971 不像一般的记忆 00:05:28.971 --> 00:05:34.175 这些记忆的影像部分以超高分辨率存储 00:05:34.175 --> 00:05:38.660 而(刺激的)音效部分仿佛出自乔治.卢卡斯之手(笑声) 00:05:38.660 --> 00:05:43.156 有时候,回忆当时 00:05:43.156 --> 00:05:46.880 浮现的那些记忆跟一般的记忆完全不同 NOTE Paragraph 00:05:46.880 --> 00:05:49.552 我被送到清创室 00:05:49.552 --> 00:05:52.574 医护人员在等我,手术灯亮着 00:05:52.574 --> 00:05:57.869 我好不容易可以正常呼吸了 00:05:57.869 --> 00:06:01.348 之前因为血流到肺里 00:06:01.348 --> 00:06:03.314 我很难呼吸 00:06:03.314 --> 00:06:06.356 而现在血流到担架床上,似乎轻松了些 00:06:06.356 --> 00:06:09.660 我张口问道“有什么我能效劳的吗?” 00:06:09.660 --> 00:06:11.432 然后……(笑声) 00:06:11.432 --> 00:06:14.746 护士笑的有些歇斯底里了,当时 00:06:14.746 --> 00:06:16.994 我转着脑袋试图看清在场的每一个人 00:06:16.994 --> 00:06:20.810 奇怪的是,那时候我居然回想起 00:06:20.810 --> 00:06:23.722 在大学搞募捐的时候 00:06:23.722 --> 00:06:27.779 为孟加拉洪水的灾民募捐时的情景 00:06:27.779 --> 00:06:30.236 看到麻醉师帮我把氧气面罩戴上 00:06:30.236 --> 00:06:31.769 我居然在想 00:06:31.769 --> 00:06:33.830 “他长得真像孟加拉人”(笑声) 00:06:33.830 --> 00:06:37.315 我得知这两件事,就觉得 00:06:37.315 --> 00:06:41.029 这能成(笑声) NOTE Paragraph 00:06:41.029 --> 00:06:43.307 然后我就昏过去了 00:06:43.307 --> 00:06:45.083 医生护士彻夜为我动手术 00:06:45.083 --> 00:06:50.096 为了救活我,用了40单位的血 00:06:50.096 --> 00:06:53.141 手术中 00:06:53.141 --> 00:06:57.365 医生取出了我三分之一的肠子 00:06:57.365 --> 00:07:00.784 我的盲肠,还有一些我不知道名字的器官 00:07:00.784 --> 00:07:03.155 医生时候告诉我他那晚在手术室做的最后一件事 00:07:03.155 --> 00:07:06.500 就是取掉了我的阑尾 00:07:06.500 --> 00:07:08.723 我觉得这很不错 00:07:08.723 --> 00:07:11.886 终于有点完整的东西了(笑声) 00:07:11.886 --> 00:07:16.204 第二天早上麻醉过去,我醒了过来 00:07:16.204 --> 00:07:18.020 医生告诉大家 00:07:18.020 --> 00:07:21.508 他要呆在病房里 00:07:21.508 --> 00:07:24.703 他给了我2%的生存机会 NOTE Paragraph 00:07:24.703 --> 00:07:26.615 我醒过来时他在身边 00:07:26.615 --> 00:07:28.776 那天醒来 00:07:28.776 --> 00:07:34.993 就像是从疼痛的冻湖中破冰而出 00:07:34.993 --> 00:07:37.096 疼痛笼罩着我 00:07:37.096 --> 00:07:41.268 全身上下 00:07:41.268 --> 00:07:42.741 唯一不那么疼的地方 00:07:42.741 --> 00:07:44.147 是我的脚背 00:07:44.147 --> 00:07:47.893 医生拿住我的脚弓 00:07:47.893 --> 00:07:51.761 正用大拇指按摩我的脚背 NOTE Paragraph 00:07:51.761 --> 00:07:54.697 我抬眼看他,他对我说 00:07:54.697 --> 00:07:55.818 “太好了,你醒了” 00:07:55.818 --> 00:07:59.754 我尝试回忆昨晚的事 00:07:59.754 --> 00:08:01.472 我尝试回忆 00:08:01.472 --> 00:08:05.529 但全身痛不可支 00:08:05.529 --> 00:08:08.905 他说“我们没有剪掉你的头发。 00:08:08.905 --> 00:08:13.277 我觉得你能像参孙大力士一样从头发中获得力量 00:08:13.277 --> 00:08:16.060 你需要你能得到的一切力量(来复原) 00:08:16.060 --> 00:08:19.769 那时我的头发长及腰间 00:08:19.769 --> 00:08:22.641 我飙摩托车,未婚 00:08:22.641 --> 00:08:27.950 开酒吧,那个时代不一样嘛(笑声) NOTE Paragraph 00:08:27.950 --> 00:08:30.210 但是 00:08:30.210 --> 00:08:33.182 我挂着一身生命支持仪器躺了三天 00:08:33.182 --> 00:08:36.963 所有人都以为 00:08:36.963 --> 00:08:41.456 受了这么重的伤 00:08:41.456 --> 00:08:43.284 我会挺不过去 00:08:43.284 --> 00:08:45.329 三天时间里 00:08:45.329 --> 00:08:48.156 所有人都在关心我 死或者拉屎 00:08:48.156 --> 00:08:49.752 (笑声) 00:08:49.752 --> 00:08:52.711 当我终于能大便了 00:08:52.711 --> 00:08:56.118 从外科手术的角度上讲,这就算是从鬼门关回来了 00:08:56.118 --> 00:08:57.158 (笑声) 00:08:57.158 --> 00:09:00.423 那一天,医生进门来 00:09:00.423 --> 00:09:03.615 抽走了我的床单 00:09:03.615 --> 00:09:05.276 他身边跟着三四个朋友 00:09:05.276 --> 00:09:07.678 他做了这个手势,其他人都看过来 00:09:07.678 --> 00:09:09.559 发现我身上没有感染 00:09:09.559 --> 00:09:12.429 他们弯下腰来,戳戳这里,按按那里 00:09:12.429 --> 00:09:14.526 说道“没有血肿…… 00:09:14.526 --> 00:09:17.396 看看这颜色”,他们径自谈论着 00:09:17.396 --> 00:09:20.319 我就像一台刚结束大修的车 00:09:20.319 --> 00:09:23.510 我的医生还说了句“是啊,这是我修的。”(笑声) 00:09:23.510 --> 00:09:26.534 这可真是…… 00:09:26.534 --> 00:09:29.670 这可太神奇了,他们和我的医生击掌 00:09:29.670 --> 00:09:31.730 庆祝我的康复(笑声) 00:09:31.730 --> 00:09:35.251 那时我肚子上还有医用拉链啊,皮肤缝合钉啊 00:09:35.251 --> 00:09:36.487 这些乱七八糟的东西 NOTE Paragraph 00:09:36.487 --> 00:09:38.702 后来 00:09:38.702 --> 00:09:41.313 我出院后 00:09:41.313 --> 00:09:46.925 经常有记忆闪回 00:09:46.925 --> 00:09:51.430 做噩梦,搞得我十分痛苦 00:09:51.430 --> 00:09:53.112 我又找到那位医生 00:09:53.112 --> 00:09:57.005 问他 00:09:57.005 --> 00:09:59.186 我接下来怎么办 00:09:59.186 --> 00:10:03.794 作为外科医生,他的大概意思是 00:10:03.794 --> 00:10:05.520 “小子,我救了你的命。 00:10:05.520 --> 00:10:08.170 你现在能尽情地做你想做的事。 00:10:08.170 --> 00:10:09.836 你要适应这一切。 00:10:09.836 --> 00:10:11.668 这就像我给了你一辆新车, 00:10:11.668 --> 00:10:13.960 你却在抱怨停车难。 00:10:13.960 --> 00:10:17.561 别想太多,努力生活吧。 00:10:17.561 --> 00:10:22.367 你活着,这是最重要的” NOTE Paragraph 00:10:22.367 --> 00:10:28.148 这时我听见“bing-bong”一声,车厢门关上了 00:10:28.148 --> 00:10:34.387 下一站我就要下车了 00:10:34.387 --> 00:10:36.256 我看着那对学生心想 00:10:36.256 --> 00:10:37.818 “我要把衬衫撩起来 00:10:37.818 --> 00:10:39.435 给他们看看” (笑声) 00:10:39.435 --> 00:10:41.664 我转而又想,“不行,这可是纽约地铁, 00:10:41.664 --> 00:10:45.295 这样做会让别人误会的。”(笑声) NOTE Paragraph 00:10:45.295 --> 00:10:49.337 所以我只是在脑子里想想罢了。他们去听讲座 00:10:49.337 --> 00:10:53.298 我下了车,站在站台上 00:10:53.298 --> 00:10:56.162 伸出食指 00:10:56.162 --> 00:10:58.341 抚上 00:10:58.341 --> 00:11:02.044 我的第一道伤疤 00:11:02.044 --> 00:11:05.158 从肚脐这儿 00:11:05.158 --> 00:11:08.396 绕过这儿 00:11:08.396 --> 00:11:10.892 来到最后一道伤疤 00:11:10.892 --> 00:11:13.269 是那位医生的杰作 00:11:13.269 --> 00:11:18.583 我感慨万千 00:11:18.583 --> 00:11:22.472 遇到那些带刀的街头小无赖的偶然 00:11:22.472 --> 00:11:24.905 让我遇到了 00:11:24.905 --> 00:11:28.030 我的外科团队 00:11:28.030 --> 00:11:32.105 他们的严格训练 00:11:32.105 --> 00:11:34.221 他们的卓绝医术 00:11:34.221 --> 00:11:37.641 当然了,必须再加上一点运气 00:11:37.641 --> 00:11:40.612 逆转了乾坤 NOTE Paragraph 00:11:40.612 --> 00:11:44.666 谢谢(掌声) 00:11:44.666 --> 00:11:53.610 (掌声) 00:11:53.610 --> 00:12:00.030 谢谢大家。我很幸运能站在这里。谢谢大家。(掌声)